Hello, I am new to the team. I have been dealing with anxiety for as long as I can remember. I had a traumatic childhood and I know it started there. I have brief moments of clarity and reason, but I think most of my days are anxiety filled no matter what I do to change it. I am finally committing to therapy (I've tried many times, but never stuck with it). I know my anxiety inhibits my healthy eating and weighloss efforts frequently (like today). The thing is, when I'm eating clean and not drinking coffee and other caffeinated drinks my anxiety is pretty rare. It's like my body is normal when it's well nourished and taken care of, but for some reason I always sabotage myself. I might go a week or even a few months eating clean and feeling great and then all the sudden something happens. Sometimes it's big but usually it's not, and I'm right back in the thick of it. I just want to do whatever I have to for this to go away. It's keeping me from being the best mother I know I can be and being happy with my life.
Anyway, I am looking forward to getting to know you all and learning from you.
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