Well I am just getting started with spark people, I am simply focusing on my calorie tracking right now and uping my water intake. Wow are my calories out of control but at least I am learning to be aware of them now. I suffer from gad and have had success taking paxil cr, however in april I suffered a servere panic episode while already on 25mg of the cr so I tried prozac and made it to 60mg for nine days before giving up and going back to the paxil. While on the prozac I got down to 252lbs and had a great sleep cycle. Unfortunately I felt really anxious and depressed still. I just couldn't continue so I went back to paxil 50mg and now I am back to 292lbs. I am getting out more and a lot less anxious. I went to the doctor yesterday and he recommended trying the prozac at 60mg again since I now have a cpap machine to treat my sleep apnea and I agreed but I am scared and unsure if this is the right decision. It is so hard to know what to do, if the prozac will work this time or if trying it again will set me back further. How do you decide between being thinner, having a higher sex drive, having less compulsive thinking, and a routine sleep cycle or being able to get out and actually face the world fatter and more numb? Well I figure I will always wonder unless I try it with all that I have, or maybe I am a glutten for punishment, we all shall see. By the way I have always been heavy and am okay with that, I would simply like to be more healthy. So after that long but relieving rant, I am Melissa and I appreciate this group welcoming me in just as I am. Many blessings and best of luck to everyone.
Edited by: MARVELMISSY at: 2/18/2011 (03:40)
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