I have been to many counselors throughout my life since I lost my mom when I was 10 but I never stuck with any of them long enough, which I've been told was more damaging than helpful. Most threw medication at me which I refused, and the one time I agreed it made me sleepy all the time.
So, years later--- in spring 2009, I decided to get serious and go to someone and stick to it because my anxiousness was getting worse each time it popped up. I usually have my 'moment' and go to the doctor, and then think I feel fine and that it was silly to go and stop going. This time I stuck with it, until my employment and insurance ended in June. It was a shame.
I am in the process of seeing if my temporary insurance will let me go back, since I wasn't diagnosed with anything and we were in the preliminary getting-to-know-you stages, but I'm concerned it will be seen as a pre-existing condition. It's crazy - you want to see someone about controlling anxiety and the process makes you more anxious! But as I said, I have my moment, and then get down to business of making things happen. I'm hoping I can work it out.
In the meantime and onward, I'm glad we call can rely on each other for support!
Spark it up!
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