hi, even though i am now married, i am still haunted by my ex. we were together for 7 years and in that time i went from 160 to 200. he spent 7 years belittling me, making me feel like crap and there are still things that pop up in my day that give me a chill. i have never told anyone this. no one knows he still haunts me. it doesn't help that i have to drive by his work every single day. twice a day i might see him or he see me. i do see him on the steps about three times a week but i bought (on purpose ) a red chevy blazer with a tan bottom. how many of those are out there. i am so embarrassed by all the weight i gained (267 was my highest) from my low self esteem. there are other areas of my life that bother me, but i think this hidden one might be an important step. once i "lay to rest" our failed relationship i hope my new one will get better, it's a little rocky, after all this one married me, faults and weight and all.
Took a deep breath in the mirror He didn't like it when I wore high heels But I do Turned the lock and put my headphones on He always said he didn't get this song But I do, I do
Walked in expecting you'd be late But you got here early and you stand and wave I walk to you You pull my chair out and help me in And you don't know how nice that is But I do
And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause he never did I've been spending the last eight months Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end But on a Wednesday in a cafe, I watched it begin again
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