Hi Rachel, Don't give up hope, the first thing is that you are still keeping in contact with Sparkpeople ..... that's 4 years, quite an achievement in itself. I know how hard this all is, I'm Leader of two teams & I often have problems sticking to it myself. Anyone who says this is easy is fooling themselves. But we all know that there is no quick fix & this is for life. Sometimes we will fall but we must pick ourselves up & get back on track.
Keep plodding on & you will succeed in the end.
Love Jude xx
UK MIDLANDS Team Leader
Always put more into relationships than you take out and you will always have an excess to fall back on when times are difficult.