I'm 23 and I've been over weight for a while now. Mostly do to my anxiety and depression. I'm a loner I guess you could say. I always thought I'd get over it, and when I did I'd make friends and have a life and lose weight because I wouldn't be cooped up in the house all the time.
I finally realized that the reason that I'm a loner has a lot to do with how I look at carry myself. Let's face it, you don't go picking friends that are overweight and don't care about how they look or dress. Over weight is one thing, you can still be pretty and confident. A slob, is totally different story.
I'm not going to be a slob anymore. I have no idea how to dress up or make myself pretty, but I do know that losing weight will at least get everything started. Beauty comes from within, but you should also carry yourself in a manner to show you appreciate and love yourself. Otherwise, people generally avoid you. Please don't misunderstand me and think that I'm saying "if you're fat you're lonely... " or anything like that.
I just mean that, whether you're skinny or overweight people won't generally be attracted or care about you if it's obvious you don't care about yourself.
So I've finally come to a conclusion that I'm tired of being alone, I'm tired of not having friends to hang out with or talk to. I'm ready to have a life - but my anxiety and social problems prevail. I hate how I look and I feel like others will too. I don't even put a picture of myself on Facebook because I feel repulsive. It starts with me though, and I've chosen to start with weight loss.
I feel like if I lose weight and look healthier, I'll be more confident and thus, more approachable. Once I conquer the weight loss, maybe the rest will come naturally.
I'm not sure how this will all work out, but if you're going to make a change - it has to start with YOU!
So I need all the motivation and support I can get from everyone!! We all have something in common here, and just knowing that will help me relate and open up. Since I've started my journey on March 22, 2012 I've lost an outstanding 22 pounds. Mostly water weight I'm sure. I also put myself on a strict diet. No soda, no fast food, and I stopped eating carbs for the first month and exercise 2 or 3 times a week.
I now eat healthy (and yes, I include carbs in my diet). But I've started to fall off track. It's time I pick myself back up and start over.
Who's with me?!
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