I guess I'll start with the basics. I'm Jessica; Jessi for short. I'm 21 year old with a 2 year old. He is my pride and joy, and honestly the main reason I'm here. I want to be alive for his graduation and marriage. I want to see my future grandchildren and honestly, on the road I'm on, I'm not gonna make it. It started when I was 18. Beginning of 2009, I had joined Gold's, and lost 15 lbs and was 160. Mid-March, I found out I was pregnant. I kept on light exercise and eating healthy, then the doctor labeled me as high-risk. I was still able to manage my weight by not over-eating and walking a little each day, and working. After I had Luke, I was 180. By the time Luke was 6 months, I was 220. When he was a year, I was 240. I stayed 240 till August 2011, then I started college full-time. Now, I weigh in at 260. 80 lbs in 2 years. I noticed each time I bought clothes that I had gone up a size. I went from a 14 to a 22 in pants. Medium to 2x in shirts. And I thought I was heavy at 18. My goal is 100lbs by Christmas Eve 2012. I decided that if the end of the world is coming, I might as well make it easier for God to take me home ;). Seriously though, I am sick of not feeling pretty or good enough. I have passes to SeaWorld ans Busch Gardens, and I hate the feeling of standing in line for a ride and thinking "Oh no, am I going to actually fit this time?" I used to love having my picture taken, and now I use any excuse to be behind the camera. I also am in a pretty serious relationship (possible marriage in the next year and a half) and I don't want to be uncomfortable picking out my wedding gown. I want to be able to look beautiful for him. I also need to stay fit for the career path I'm taking. Tackling dogs and wrestling cats isn't exactly the easiest thing in the world. Starting my A.S. to beaA Vet Tech has taught me that much :) I guess I just want to be different, both physically and the way I think about myself. I want my confidence and self-esteem. I want to be that happy, peppy girl I used to be. I'm not hyper. I don't make people smile anymore. I don't want the attention. After all, why should the fat girl be like that? Anyways, I decided that if I am to achieve my goal, I will need a support system. A community of people that want the same thing as me. That are going through the same thing as me.
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