I've been feeling that lately all i'm doing is sabotaging myself. I know that with PCOS i am more likely to crave foods that are unhealthy for me and I give in. I eat, i don't watch my portions or any of the other nutrition info that i've learned over the past 3 years.
I know what I need to succeed, and I even did for a summer! Only now, I can't seem to find the motivation to better myself.
I'm getting married in 8 weeks and would have loved to have reached the 300pd marker. Only, i'm positive i've gained weight. Which creates a vicious cycle of if i've gained weight i won't be able to lose enough by the wedding, will my dress still even fit?... and i go back to eating the foods I know are unhealthy for me.
I'm finding that doing it on my own, is not an option anymore. I need help to succeed when I used to think that I would be able to do everything on my own.
| current weight: 380.0