#1Jen-Welcome to the team!!! Part of the solution is admitting there is a problem which you have just realized and the next thing is the solution. I had lost about 35 # and then in April I realized i would gain the same 5 # back and forth why because i knew i had a problem. I had done everything to get myself where i needed to be and I kept sabbotoging myself because i didn't feel i deserve it or that i was worth taking care of myself. At one point i had enough and new that 1 this wasn't healthy for me to be binging then losing then overeating to the point of getting sick etc. so I found a therapist that specialized in it. I didn't care that she was out of plan and it was gonna cost me 20% plus my co pay i just wanted someone that understood eating disorders. I knew why i did it, i had a really crappy child hoood and food was use as a tool to get us to do things or kept from us. I've blogged about it, i had to relive all my pain in order to start healing and feeling good about myself. This can be done you can do this, again ahlf the battle is admitting there is a problem so you can find the help and solution. My motto now is write it before you bit it. Basically if i am emotional i better blog or write my feelings down, normally i keep a small jorunal in my bag and write it up if i still feel bad out for a walk i go and then i ask myself this what will food do to make the pain or problem go away. Most of the time food doesn't solve it it just makes you feel worse i choose not to feel guilt and bad so i choose walking and thinking things out.
I hope i'm not blabbing to much i just want you to know that you will get the support you need here, i have completed 76 days now and am almost reaching 11 weeks. It can be done if you would have told me this 6 mos. ago i would have laughed in your face i never thought i could go more then 6 weeks straight. Use the binge free streak boards there is one for october and then there is one.
Take care and know that you have many people here that will support and help you all the way!!
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