Well I am new to this team and have not been active on SP for some time... years, actually. I have come back a few times but never with any staying power or real motivation. More like a "because I should" attitude rather than "because I want to". Needless to say, those forays did not last long. I was scanning the Spark Teams when I came across this one, and I sincerely hope that here I can find what I'm looking for... whatever that is.
I never realized how many bad habits I had when it comes to food. I'm definitely an emotional eater - I eat when I'm bored, upset, stressed out, but also any time I decide I deserve a treat (and, strangely enough, I seem to deserve a treat every single afternoon when my youngest goes for her nap - go figure). I never heard the term "closet eater" before seeing this team, but that describes me perfectly. Any time I am alone I find myself looking for things to eat while no-one is watching. As if they won't count because no-one else will know. Logically I know it makes no sense, but I find myself doing it time after time and I don't get it. I'm not sure if maybe on some level I don't want to succeed? I mean, I definitely want the results - I had great success on SP years ago before getting pregnant with my last child, so I know it works - so why can't I get my ass in gear and get motivated?
And if I can't motivate myself, how is anyone else going to do it for me? I posted this here looking for I don't know what... more input than I get from my blog, I guess, and from people who will understand the issues I'm dealing with.
I'm not tracking food at this time, just hoping that some community support will help me get to start caring enough to get to that point. If you are still reading this then I hope to get to know you ;)
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