Hi and thanks for taking a moment to read about me. I'm Laura and I'm a single mom of 4 (2 still at home) and apparently gaining weight daily! I have struggled somewhat with my weight since my youngest was born 17 years ago (my other youngest is 2 years old and adopted). I quit smoking also over 2 years ago and then the weight really stayed on. I suffer with panic disorder and agoraphobia and some depression, so emotional eating is a biggie for me. Food is my best friend. I love to cook and I cook gourmet and actually cook with good, fresh, healthy ingredients, but tend to eat way too much of it.
I've recently been shopping at Lane Bryant just so I can find something that I can look semi-acceptable in to go out into public when I have to. I generally live in sweats because I can't feel the pinch at my waist like I do with jeans. But I feel like a big, fat slug going out in big t-shirts and sweat pants. I am so incredibly disgusted with myself every time I look in the mirror. You'd think that would be enough determination and motivation to get me moving, but it's not.
I have chronic back problems and have had 2 separate spine surgeries so my options for exercising are limited. I do work out 2 x a week at my physical therapist's office, but it doesn't feel like enough. I also do about 20 minutes of yoga on the days I don't work out. I know I need to do more, but I just can't get my slug self off my butt to do it.
I am half-way through the Spark book and I love the information there and am trying my HARDEST to have it kick-start me in the right directions. I am now working on my fast break goals and introducing myself and looking for some support is one of them. I am incredibly shy and even this is hard for me to do....but I did it.
Thanks again for reading. I look forward to hopefully one day being able to post that I met my goals.
| current weight: 235.0