KJT -- It does feel overwelming. I plan on using the nutrition tracker for a little while to get a snap shot of what my eating habits are like and where I can improve it. I may continue to use it to track my progress as I start eating healthier - IDK.
Someone on another page wrote: "Diets will make you look good in your clothes, but exercise will make you look good naked."
I'm a little more focused on the exercise part. Also someone else posted that body measurements are a better way of keeping track because 140 can look very different on the same person.
Finally, the thing I'm look forward to getting out of this website is support and friendship. It will help me be accountable, it can encourage me when I want to throw in the towel and its motivated me to get started today.
I have a similiar story. I started gaining weight when I was 13. I was a victim of incest and weight was a form of protection/security and a way to de-sexualize myself.
When I was 18 I moved to another state and dropped the weight without trying.
Understanding my need for extra weight has helped me tremendously.
Good luck to you!
"God is the Love that allows me to be fit and healthy."