I have joined Sparkpeople before many times and life keeps happening and becoming my perfect excuse to stop doing what is working. I have never joined using my real name, just several aliases and my pseudonym the last time. Then I had a birthday and finally after 20 years of being morbidly obese decided I want to lose the weight, because I want to lose the weight.
I am tired of not being able to scratch or wash all of my own back. Tired of having to plan way in advance what I am going to wear somewhere important because it may or may not fit. Tired of walking across the room or picking up my cat making me short of breath. I am tired of the false smile on my motherís face when she lends me money to get ice cream or candy, because I am broke and I already went through what was suppose to be a monthís supply. I am tired of wondering if a chair is going to break when I sit down in it. I am tired of checking the weight limit on exercise equipment before I use it. But most of all I am tired of the thin, healthy me, having to wait to do almost everything it wants to do, for the fat, unhealthy me, to lose weight so we can do it!!
Tirade over!! I look forward to getting to know everyone and to making some non-cyber friends for a change!!
ďA manís moral self shall be filled with the fruit of his mouth; and with the consequence of his words he must be satisfied, whether good or evil.Ē - Pro 18:20
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