I can relate to your relationship. You definitely need to move on to a healthier future and don't look back. You still are the same person you once were but need a little healing and confidence boost. You have the tools and resources here on SP to help you through the tough times. Set your small goals and keep moving forward...your reward will come sooner than you think, but be patient.
"Be not afraid of going slowly; but be afraid only of standing still." - Chinese proverb
Pounds lost: 20.0
Fitness Minutes: (5,994) Posts: 713 2/1/11 9:59 A
Thank you, after taking the initial step away from that relationship it sounds dumb, but I feel as if I can breathe better all ready, I dont know why I had to wait 4 1/2 year to do this..Today is the start of a new life!!
I completely understand how your relationship left your self-esteem damaged and I'm so proud of you for getting out of the unhealthy union while you are still young. You can't fix him, no matter how much you love him. You also want your child to see how a relationship SHOULD be, that's very important! You can turn your life around and get healthier and happier! You have come to the right place for support and encouragement! Welcome!!! Cindy
Pounds lost: 33.0
Fitness Minutes: (0) Posts: 3 1/31/11 10:06 P
I am 27, soon to be 28(feb12) and have decided I want the life I had before back!I am a single mom that has had to struggle a lot to keep things positive. The father of my kid has a drinking problem, I love him, but I am walking away from that too. He has cheated on me, belittle me and made me doubt my worth; he really hasn't been in the picture much since she was born. The rare times I did see him being nice to me and thought "He does love me", he only lied to me and used me. His family has been a god sent, they have always helped out and adore both my daughter and I. They are part of the reason I am turning my life around. His Mom was my best friend, she always told me to forget him and move on with my life. She died this past Thanksgiving. She wouldn't want me settle with the life I have. I've always struggle with a few 10+ extra pounds but now my goal is to lose at least 50.I want to feel good about myself again, I want the clothes in the closet to fit again!Hell forget the clothes in the closet...I'll buy new clothes!! :D This extra weight has made me into someone I don't recognize.... I used to be so sure of myself, comfortable, heck down right cocky, I was the perfect girlfriend, friend and the girl that walked into a bar and had someone buying me a drink before I made it to the stool, lol. I doubt myself too much now, I am nervous when I meet someone new, have trouble with large crowds and sometimes feel like they are all staring at me wondering why I don't just disappear. It's the skin I am in that makes me uncomfortable, keeping the real me inside; I don't recognize the person I see in the mirror. I don't like looking at mirrors or taking pictures. I can't talk to my friends because they say its all in my head and that I am still beautiful inside and out, but they don't really understand....I want to become the person I once was.
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