One question: what are you resisting? I know you're a smart lady who knows how this whole weight loss game works--reduce caloric intake and increase frequency/intensity of movement. So I would venture to say that you're probably resisting the whole regimented thing associated with losing weight.
Before I signed up for SP, I was at my heaviest weight ever. Mind you, I'm a fitness trainer/group exercise instructor who "knew better". I also had a lot of emotional baggage that, at some point, I had to deal with. So I rebelled against the whole regimented lifestyle of diet and exercise and just let myself be. I ate whatever I wanted in whatever amounts I wanted and just plain didn't care about counting calories, watching carbs and fats, or getting out to exercise. In fact, the thought of having to go through all of that made me absolutely nauseous. So I allowed myself the space to not care. As a result though, my weight climbed, my joints ached, and I hated looking at myself in the mirror. I avoided having pictures taken of me because I didn't want to see what I really looked like.
Thankfully, after a couple of years of working through my personal issues and making God and the gospel my standard of living, I was able to get back into it BUT with a different heart and mindset. The goal was no longer to lose weight and fit back into my cute clothing. It was to enhance my overall health and get back into exercise but this time without all of the pressure I placed on myself to be perfect. The weight loss was a side effect of my new lifestyle choices and healthier, lighter mindset. In fact, I didn't even know I lost weight until people started commenting on it. Even now, at 56 pounds lighter, I don't make it my primary focus. I'm grateful for good health, a strong movable body, and a deepening faith in my Lord.
I would encourage you to check in with your heart and spirit and make an honest admission about what could be blocking you and causing you to rebel. Once you feel that you've identified it, venture to work through it so that it no longer controls your life. In the meantime, love yourself where you are and know that this is just a temporary pitstop in your life's path. The 3 P's that help me through--Perseverence. Perspective. Patience.
Edited by: BETTYBOOPIN15 at: 9/1/2012 (12:37)
Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
| Pounds lost: 64.0