Welcome Tracy and GOOD FOR YOU GIRL! Realizing that people in your life, past and present are only influences, and are not your decision makers is huge. You can only let their words affect you so much. You have to remember YOU are strong, important and beautiful! This is a mantra I have adopted to bring self worth back into my life!
Girl I'm with you on Storms! Gooooo Team!
Pounds lost: 43.0
Fitness Minutes: (0) Posts: 1,620 2/4/13 7:59 A
Hello and welcome to the team, you can do this and will come out a much stronger person. I too am currently in school persuing a degree I am working on becoming a dietitian and am feeling scared but excited. We can do this together. You should sign up for The HLC and request the shamrocks team and we could work together for the next 8 weeks :)
The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called Success.
current weight: 295.1
Fitness Minutes: (21,466) Posts: 309 2/2/13 4:00 P
Hi everybody... after a few weeks of being afraid and unsure what to post.. here we go.
My name is Tracy. I am 38. I am the mother of four (18-6). I am currently in my last class for my Associates in Criminal Justice. I will be graduating in March. I will be immediately pursuing my Bachelors in Psychology, which makes me nervous and excited.
I joined Spark People because I saw a friend from high school on Facebook having success here. For the first year and change of my membership I made every excuse to allow me to fail, in weight loss and in life. The biggest one is that it’s my father’s fault. I had an eating disorder when I was a teenager. I was 135 pounds at 5’11” and my father would call me fat and I would starve myself. Then once I started having children I couldn't lose the weight and I resigned myself that my father was right that I would always be fat and nobody would love me. Then something even more devastating happened to me. My fiancé told me he was thinking about leaving me and taking our daughter with him. For two weeks I curled into a ball and felt sorry for myself and then one day I realized I can’t let my life slip away from me. It’s my life and how I live it is my choice. I can let every bad thing control me. I still have bad days but it is easier for me to tell myself that I am responsible for my life. My past and the people from my past may have done things that have influenced me down to be the person that I hated but I refuse to let them be in my life and in the decisions I make now.
Everything is fine with my fiancé, we worked out our problems. Now, I want to get healthy, I want to get physically and mentally stronger and I want to be a happier more confident person instead of feeling paralyzed.
Edited by: TRACY-M at: 1/31/2013 (17:49)
~*~ Every failure gives you a new chance to achieve. ~*~
SparkPeople, SparkCoach, SparkPages, SparkPoints, SparkDiet, SparkAmerica, SparkRecipes, DailySpark, and other marks are trademarks of SparkPeople, Inc. All Rights Reserved.
SPARKPEOPLE is a registered trademark of SparkPeople, Inc. in the United States, European Union, Canada, and Australia. All rights reserved.