I first joined Spark in March of last year. I had gone from 195 pounds to 150 pounds over a two year period of strict diet and not so strict excersise. When I joined I had put on about 10 pounds and wanted to break the cycle. My goal was to not only return to the 150 but exceed that and hit 145.
I went from a busy waitressing job and a regular running routine to a sit down office job with no excersise in August of 2011. My eating continued to get worse and worse. I went from a strict Glueten free diet to eating everything under the sun. It was like I started hoarding the food I had deprived myself from for the past two years.
As of today I have hit 180 pounds and have and have added 12.5 inches to my body. I went from a loose size 10 14 months ago to a tight 14. I have been laid off since September and feel depressed and miserable. I find myself blaming my appearance for not being able to find work and the rejections are taking it's toal on me. I hate what I see in the mirror.
I know it has to stop now. I see myself heading in a very bad direction if I don't take action now. I have struggled with my weight my entire life. Since the age of 16 the least amount I have weighed was 140 (good for my 5'7" frame) and I have topped the scales at 220. and have been everywhere in between.
I have to get my self esteem back.
It starts today.
| current weight: 179.0