I just want to say that I am absolutely proud of you!! You have accomplished so much and look how far you have come in a year!! Regarding your confidence, it is within you!! You need to take that doubt and self-conciousness and ride it. It has been said that bravery isn't act of not having fear, but what you do when you are afraid. We could say the same with confidence, right? Confidence shows in spite of the fear and doubt we feel inside. Take a good look at yourself and embrace the fact that you have achieved what so many of your peers here at sparkpeople are aspiring for.
current weight: 239.6
Fitness Minutes: (490) Posts: 17 10/10/12 4:13 P
I've spent my entire adult life at the same weight--not a good one--but I felt comfortable in my own skin. I started my weight loss journey in October 2011...sort of by accident. I started walking to combat the stress of raising four crazy kids while enrolled in college full time (better late than never, right!? And isn't it amazing what a fast-paced walk with an ipod can do for your mental state! Who knew?) Anyway, I started to not want that 4th or 5th slice of pizza (who has time to cook!?) because I'd lose my feel-good "high" from all the sweating I did that day. Fast forward 6 months....and I'm creating 100% vegetarian meals from scratch for my family daily. (Yup, I finished school. Yay for free time!) Fast forward 6 more months...I'm swapping clothes with my 8th grade daugher & friends and have happily given up my cozy reading area in my bedroom for a home gym. Today I am 60 pounds lighter. I wear skinny jeans & am even sporting a tattoo! (Ok, three tattoos.) Sounds like a success story, right? (And in some ways it is.) But I'm more unhappy with my body than I have ever been!!! I see the flaws so clearly now. To be honest, there are a lot of them. The realization that some of the damage I've done to my body has left its scars was a tough pill to swallow. I'm trying to remain positive during these last 14 pounds, but it's hard. I thought losing weight would make me happy & give me the body I've always wanted. Well, here I am...at a healthy weight for the first time in my adult life & I'm still just me. Where's the sexy, confident woman I thought I'd find under all those fat rolls!? Looking for someone to normalize my feelings! Please!?
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