Though I've never gone completely "away" from Spark - I understand what you mean about being back and trying again. I've taken quite some time off from when I was at my healthy weight and feeling great and I want to get back there again.
I found the Teams to be instrumental in support for me. It's having your accountability circle but without them making you show up at times when it's inconvienent or a pain for you. You can hide your lack of progress, mistakes and anything you don't want to tell them, it but it almost makes it worse knowing you DON'T have to own up if you don't want to. It's just made me more honest with myself (even if I never outright admitted it though usually I did.)
Hang in there with the social situations. When I first started over 3 years ago the first day I tracked I went to a BBQ at a new friend's house. I felt uncomfortable, stressed and totally out of it. When I tracked what I ate, I ate over 2000 calories worth of chips!!! It was an eye opener. I've gotten better with it but I still plan for the anxious overeating with new friends since I haven't been able to squash it for good. Be patient and loving with youself - little steps. (For me it was put the chips into a smaller bowl - so it still wasn't screaming "healthy" but it was better than 2000 calories worth!)
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| Pounds lost: 6.0