I am a Christian. :) I will keep religious talk to those forums in the future but this is my introduction. :)
My name is Cyndi, Novelle is just my user name.
I will answer to either though, lol I live in N.E. Ohio and I am married and have one daughter who is 23 yrs old. I also have 7 dogs.
I just had my 45 th birthday in July.
I do love to cook and come up with healthy recipes, it is a challenge but I enjoy it.
My weight loss journey has been difficult but even more so now that I am disabled. I realize there are exercises one can do from a wheel chair that are
better than nothing but the reason I am in a wheelchair is psoriatic arthritis so it is often too painful to even attempt those. Though the psoriatic arthritis is not weight related (got this from exposure to toxic mold) and the Doctor's said they don't know if losing weight will help they do feel that it has to help relieve some of my pain.
It can sometime's be very hard to concentrate on eating, etc when I am in so much pain. I am trying really hard and sometimes it helps just to be able
to say to someone "hey I'm hurting really bad today or I'm in so much pain right now" it probably sounds weird but it seems to help to get it out so I can
try to move on to thinking about something else. When I try to internalize it and keep it to myself because I hate pity and hate sounding like a whining
baby it seems to be worse. So, I have learned to talk about it more and it seems to help me. I do not however like to dwell on the negative. I am positive that I will not live this way forever. I am positive that the Lord will give me my miracle.
I prayed recently for that miracle and made all kinds of promises to God that if he would just give me my miracle I would never again allow my weight to get so bad, I would not take his gift of my life for granted like that anymore. While I was praying
that prayer the words "PROVE IT" popped into my mind and I knew that was the Lord speaking to me. He wasn't handing out any miracles as freebies. I knew he was telling me that he helped me many times before and this time I needed to step up and prove to
him that I was going to do the work and make those important changes in my life before he gave me the miracle I prayed for. After this prayer my pain actually did get a little better. I still have great pain but there was a little bit of ease there, thank you Lord for showing me in that way that you were listening and will be there for me.
So, I do believe that I will someday live w/o all of this pain and I try to stay positive and focus
on that and his loving kindness which sustains me. :)