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4/19/14 4:21 P

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A very Happy Easter to you Tina and to all! What a blessed Time this is. Things may be out of sorts, but we (I included) can rejoice in Christ's great love for us; his death and resurrection!

My PTSD has been triggered today and I am having a rough go of it with high and intense anxiety. I feel like going to bed and curling up into a ball. On a good note, I found my fave CD in my car and was able to listen to some of the relaxing music. I forgot the CD in the car and can't think of artist, so I typed it onto Youtube and found a beautiful rendition by Amy Grant and video. Praise God He is filling me with His perfect peace. Music has always been a powerful tool He uses to soothe me.

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4/19/14 9:07 A

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"Be still..." That's something I need to remind myself almost on a daily basis. Rest in God's care and love. Be covered by His peace. Give thanks for His sacrifice.

I'll be praying for your Dr's appointment! I hope you find a good mix of meds to even things out for you.

Happy Resurrection Day!!

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Tina~ I can't Thank you enough for your prayers. Words can not express how I feel about your faithful prayers.

Also thank you for reminding me to focus on God's goodness. He certainly is a Great God indeed. I read your (hmm whatchamacallit) under your thread..you know where it has your name and verse. LOL Fibro Fog. Anyhow the verse speaks volumes to me. "Be still and Know that I am God." I think that sums it up entirely for where I am at. I need to be still and focus on God.

My Dr.'s nurse called yesterday morning and the Dr. had me lower one of my antidepressants down and also moved my next appointment up from May 6th to this coming Tuesday. I will keep you up to date on what he has to say.

May you have a Blessed Easter weekend.

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Cynthia - I'm lifting you up in prayer for your med changes to start working and for God's peace to fill your heart.

I too struggle with comparison. "Why can't I have it together like so-and-so?" Then I always try to remember that so-and-so has their own cross to bear and I might not know what that is, but they have their own struggles too. Everyone has something to deal with. Try to focus on God's goodness and His promises to never leave you nor forsake you. He is with you along the way. Rest in Him. I know, easier said than done. I'll be saying some prayers for you, sweet sister.

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Hi! emoticon

It's been forever since I checked in other than to rant in the vent thread. lol I am struggling with my bipolar medicine just being wrong and no matter what changes are made it just doesn't seem to be the right thing. In the middle of March I upped an antidepressant while lowering another. It sent me into a full hypomanic stage. My meds were changed, and then my mood plummeted and some of my compulsiveness from the OCD were triggered. Another med change happened. Mood went up but the compulsions got worse. I talked to my Dr. last Thursday and he made yet another change. Well here I am Tuesday and I am in a hypomanic almost mixed episode. My mood has been so erratic. Very irritable, ill tempered, negative thinking, mind racing faster than an Indy car, and then other times weepy and just really down.

I have noticed I have a really hard time because, I tend to compare myself to so many other people that have bipolar and or fibro like I do and can work, go to school and do the many things I can not. I know this is so self defeating. It makes me go into deep depression. It causes me to shake my fist in anger at God. It makes me not focus on any of the blessings that I have. It's telling God that his Best for me isn't good enough. It causes me envy and jealousy which in turn, turns into bitterness. I feel very bitter as I have been sick for a very long time. I question God and even His goodness at times. Can anyone relate? Does anyone else have a hard time with comparisons? If so, how do you overcome it? Do you have any suggestions? All ideas are welcomed. Thank you so much for listening.

I am waiting my for psych-Dr.'s nurse to call me back to see what the Dr. wants me to do next with my meds. Sigh... I'm trying to be patient.

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LUVINPURPLE - Depression never seems to come on our schedule. :P I'll be lifting up prayers for you.

Dear Lord - please meet our sister in Christ right where she is. Make the depression be mild and let her quickly overcome it. Keep her strong in You so she may face what is coming. Help her stay focused on her tasks and don't let the depression overtake her. Only through You can we find the strength to persevere through our hard times and troubles. I lift her up to you today and ask for your blessings to shower over her. It's in Your Son's precious name I pray. Amen.

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I feel the depression starting to set in. The last week or so I have been really moody. I have been doing so good and have not had a depressive episode or mania all year. It's been over six months since I've had a depressive episode in fact. I rarely get mania. I can become very irritable and fly off the handle in fits of rage, screaming, yelling, etc. But, that rarely happens now that I'm on my medication. I do not have time for this depression. I just got back from Spring Break and have another five weeks before this semester is over. I'm having to work full-time (on week 3 or 4) because of a co-worker on maternity leave. I have too many tests and papers to do this next month. The depression makes me want to stay in bed all the time. This is the first time I have straight A's and I don't want to mess it up. I think I need a break!! Or something!

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emoticon !! Thanks for stopping in and letting us know how you are doing. Singing praises to God for your success!

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Congrats Cat!! One day at a time we can do it!

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Now, 8 months sober and remembering last February when I joined this team for support.


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Cynthia, I hope the new meds work great for you and you get to an even keel.

Tina, I am keeping you in my prayers. I hope that your depression lifts soon and you are able to finish the things that you need to.

I am doing good actually. Still kinda low but I'm functioning pretty well.

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Hello Ladies!

Cynthia - I'm praying that the new med combo is a winner for you. I love your huddles today. :)

I'm still feel pretty down. NO motivation or energy. I am trying to keep myself busy with a couple of organizing projects and Bible studies, but it's hard to do even those some days. I'm hanging in there as best as I can right now.

The kids have tomorrow off of school, so I think I'm going to take them to the Rec Center to swim.

I hope that things are looking up for you as well, Samantha.

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emoticon emoticon Tina and Samantha. How are y'all doing? I hope your depression is lifting and that you are finding motivation.

I tend to have more depression than mania. I rarely get mania and if I do it's the yucky kind where u have a mixed episode and your so irritable and erratic that people run away. (lol)

I'm still struggling. I feel somewhat better to an extent, yet at times I feel really badly. On as positive note I saw my psychiatrist yesterday and he made a med change that will deal with my depression, OCD and PTSD symptoms. He dropped the Latuda and added Zoloft. Last night was my first night on it. too early to tell. I am hopeful this will help.

I So miss my mentor. I emailed her, but haven't heard back. I'm trying not to take it personally. I will see my therapist again Oct 22nd.

Happy Thursday! God Bless!
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Thank you, Samantha, for all your prayers.

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Tina, I will keep you in my prayers as well. It is so tough for me when I swing into a depression. I don't get them very often and I have a harder time handling them then I do my manias.

But your right. We can do this one day at a time!


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Samantha - I'm praying for you as well. I'm kind of in the same spot. I am coming down off of a nice, productive hypomanic period and am sinking into depression. I just feel blah. I have no motivation or drive to get much done. My eating habits are not very good right now and forget about exercise. So far, it hasn't sunk too low. I can still enjoy things and laugh and such. I'm praying that it will be a mild case this time around. Luckily my temper hasn't gone overboard like it usually does.

Let's just take things one day at a time, keep each other in prayer, and we'll get through this.
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I am in a weird place right now. I just went to the Dr. and she is not concerned..in fact she thinks I am doing better then I have been since I started seeing her. Heres the problem though. I think the weather is affecting my mood. I get really happy and then all of the sudden I just feel blah. I don't feel down or anything I just lose all energy and motivation to do anything. Like right now I should be working on some paperwork for my business but instead i am here on spark and have been for almost 1/2 an hour. I have a ton of housework that needs done as well and I haven't accomplished anything. Please pray that I will have the motivation and energy to complete the things I need to in order to keep my business going and keep my house in order.

Cynthia, I am praying that your dark cloud will be lifted and you will find the strength to seek God out. I hope this week has been better for you!

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Tina thank you for your ongoing prayers. It means so much to me.

Well I am slightly better this morning, although that dark cloud still looms. I am trying to be strong. I did my morning devotions. I have note cards with verses and my mentor who I talked to last night said I need to meditate on these verses, say them out loud and rebuke satin. Trade Lies out for Truth in scripture. I know she is right.

How is everyone doing? I hope you have a happy Monday and a great start to a new week.
God Bless,
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Cynthia - I'm lifting up prayers for you! Stay strong. emoticon

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I'm scared and don't want to be alone. My mood is dark. I don't have anywhere I can go. I just can't find the strength to seek God out. I am crying and wish for a hug, but God doesn't hug. I just to have faith that he really loves me. I wish my faith were stronger, but I am so weak at the moment.

It's late and I should go to bed, but I don't know that I can sleep. I just want to cry; its all I seem to do. I didn't have a particularly bad day. I had fun with my sister, but I smiled and covered up the pain I was feeling from what a friend said to me yesterday. She supposedly said the things in love, but they came out mean and hateful imho. The thing is is that my ex husband used to say the same things just to be mean and this has really had me spiraling down. If what they say is true than I am a horrible person that needs to grow up.

Please pray. I don't want to stay in this scary place.

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Thank you for your prayers Tina! Hope you are doing well.

Well my ex bf and I have decided to be friends. It's difficult, but it takes away some of the sting. Still bittersweet. I love him and I long for him to love the Lord. But if God feels he is not for me then I will have to accept that.

The past few days have been so hard as I have been in a lot of pain. My fibro had flared up and just wouldn't let up. Today is the 1st day in 12 days that I have had little to no pain. My Dr.'s upped my pain med and also the SSRI Savella which is approved for fibro. I am so thankful. I am a little disappointed though. Today I had planned to go on my church's women's retreat, but because of the pain earlier in the week I gave my spot to someone else. I don't regret doing that because it was a blessing to that person. I just wish I were able to go too.

My mood has been rather down with the pain and all. Some days I just cried for bits of time. I'm feeling better mood wise today. I hope things will smooth out from here.

How is everyone? Happy Fall! emoticon emoticon

Blessings to each of you this weekend!

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Cynthia - I know that you know we should not become unequally yoked. God does have a plan for you, rest in His care. I'll be praying for healing for your heart. emoticon

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I don't know how or why I managed to leave this out, but I broke up with my boyfriend on Sunday afternoon. I am okay...I feel like I was following God's lead. I'm okay, but really think I am just numbing out the feelings. I do that in auto defense pilot mode to keep from feeling pain. I miss him. I am sad that it had to come to this, but I can not be with a man that does not love the Lord nor has any desire to serve Him. I'd been making excuses for too long. Please pray I will be strong and stay my ground. Last Feb. I broke up for same reason and I got sucked back in. sigh...the codependency in me.

How is everyone doing?

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I could certainly feel God's mighty hand working this weekend. Thank you everyone for your prayers!! I am much more stabilized and am feeling pretty good overall.

Tina~ That Bible study sounds Awesome! So glad you have that to keep you in God's word and give you nourishment.

Samantha~ Glad you are doing better and that you had an enjoyable anniversary.

Abbey~ Thank you for your prayers. You are so sweet!

Well this past weekend was busy. Friday I visited my sister that God has been working on restoration of our relationship. It went well and we had a lot of fun. Saturday I got up early and met a couple of ladies from church that I don't know well and we went to see the Live simulcast of Beth Moore at the Christian college a lil ways from here. It was awesome. Her message was on Grace and how so many of us live as though we have to live under the law and defeat. I love her. I enjoyed getting to know the ladies. We had a great time.

I hope everyone has a Happy Monday and good week!
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Cynthia - keeping you in my prayers!

Samantha - I'm glad thing seem to be looking up for you and that you had some good times in there. I'm keeping you in my prayers as well.

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Cynthia, prayers for you to get stabilized. I'm glad you called the Dr. and are getting the help you need. If the SI continues don't be afraid to reach out for help...stay safe!

Tina, so glad things are going well for you! I wish I could find a bible study like that it sounds great!

I have been struggling with some anxiety and depression for a few weeks but the last few days seem to be better. It was our 5th anniversary yesterday and we were able to go to a nice dinner and watch a favorite show together so all in all it was a great day. Today my mom and I canned 14 pints of peaches, a double batch of freezer jam and 4 quarts of baking apples. I'm feeling pretty accomplished and I was able to spend all of this time with my mom without her becoming critical which is a rare occurrence for us. So all in all I guess I'm doing pretty well.

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Glad all is going so well for you, Tina! I've been praying for all of the women in this group every night so I'm glad it seems to be helping!

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Praying for you, Cynthia!

I went to my psych dr last week and everything has been pretty stable for a while now so no changes there. I go to see my counselor this afternoon. not too much to discuss, more like catching up with a friend.

with the kids in school, I've started the c25k program and so far am really enjoying it. I may become a runner yet! ;) I joined a Bible study Wed mornings at church called True Woman 101. so far it's pretty good. it digs deep into God's design for women and His plan for our lives. I have been spending more time in His word and journaling.

the other big project on my to-do list is to get the house organized. we will be getting a total kitchen remodel in Nov so I'm going to work room by room and get things cleared out and organize what's left. I haven't started yet, still trying to get used to the new schedule. Organizing my time is on there too.

lots of things going on....

I hope you all are having a great week, looking forward to the weekend!

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Hi Cynthia! I'll be praying for your depression and for the doctor to make the right decisions for you! Hugs~Abby

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Wow didn't realize it had been this long since I last posted.

Well I have had a bout of hypomania a couple weeks ago. It was the not so fun kind. I was so irritable I was ready to take something out or someone...lol...I seriously wouldn't hurt anyone, but I might smash my china or kick my door. (I did kick my door btw...didn't hurt just left scuff marks on the door). Yikes and to boot I didn't even get anything done. I couldn't think clearly. I saw my Dr. and he upped a med. I was doing better, but the last three days or so I have felt very depressed and have struggled with SI thoughts...none of which I have acted on. God is o good to protect me. I called the Dr.'s office today to let them know what's going on.

I have been getting better at reading in God's word and that has been comforting. I wrote some verses on note cards and plan to carry them with me or even tape some to the wall.
Last night a good friend of mine helped me getting me out of the apartment and encouraged me to go to our class at church. I ended up going and had a great time. Thanking God for good friends and accountability partners.

Now I am just waiting for the call from Dr. I will go to boyfriend's for a little while..and pray they don't call. They usually don't call till after 2.

I hope y'all are doing well.

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Cynthia and Samantha~I'm praying that you guys stay in the pattern of getting well! Thank you so much for the prayers for me!

I'm a little sluggish today but other than that I'm fine. That could come from working until midnight though. My mom got up with the kids this morning and let me sleep in which was soooo kind of her! I hope everyone is well!

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Abby I too will be praying you don't have a crash.

Samantha~ You have really been through it. I am so glad you are doing better today. I will pray that each day gets better. Make a note to self; stay on meds. When I was first diagnosed bipolar I struggled staying on the meds. It is so easy at times to talk ourselves out of needing them. Hang in there.

Well I am okay. Last night had a bit of a crash and I am not sure what the deal was; other than I still am dealing with waiting for prednisone to get out of my system. I felt like I was in a pit and some old thought patterns that used to lead to unhealthy behaviors came buzzing through. Thankfully I was able to pray, take meds and just go to bed without making anything any worse. Feel better today, but still a lil off. I'm sure things will improve with time.

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Abby, prayers for you that you will continue to get things done and not have a "crash". I'm glad that you are doing well though and I pray it continues.

Hope everyone is well today!

I am having a much better day today and starting to feel back to my old self which is SO nice. I am still tired in the morning but not falling asleep everytime I sit down now.

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I'm still running on the "higher side" of the cycle lol. But getting a lot done. I'm praying for all of you!

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Hi Cynthia, I'm so glad to hear that you got to go enjoy the concert and that your boyfriend is enjoying the music. I've never heard of Laura Story...gonna look her up on YouTube.

Sorry I've been absent. My life has just been a roller coaster lately. I was doing much better but the meds were making me sleepy so I made the genius decision that I didn't need my meds anymore. Well then I crashed into this mixed episode that has just been terrible. Talked to my Dr. and she said I needed to get back on my meds ASAP but because I had been off them for over a week my body is having to adjust to them again. So instead of being a little tired like I was before I am now EXHAUSTED. I slept for 16 hours yesterday. Every time I sat down to do something I fell asleep. As for my mood it is starting to stabilize but I am still fairly irritable and last night I just wanted to cry for no apparent reason. I have family coming to visit this next weekend so I really need to get myself together so that I can get the house together and ready for them.
For right now though I am just going to focus on getting the necessities done such as paperwork for my job and taking care of me. I took a shower today! I am celebrating the small victories. I am awake and dressed and clean. Better then yesterday! Tomorrow I plan to resume my workout routine (Sunday's are always my day off). I know I can get better. I just have to keep taking my meds and making myself a priority!

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Sunshine~ Hope this week is a much better week for you! Were you able to get some rest? My hypomania calmed as the day wore on.

So how is everyone? Samantha...missing u.

Last night I had a great time. Our local radio station hosted a free Laura Story concert. I've always liked her music. She was awesome and is so very talented. She sang a lot of new songs that are going to be on her upcoming album, but also played familiar stuff. My boyfriend and I went together. He is a baby Christian and really sometimes I don't know that he fully understands what the Christian life is about. Anyhow this morning when I went to his place he was listening to Laura Story on youtube. I was shocked. He usually is a Pink Floyd, Rolling Stones, Tom petty kind of guy. (not saying these are all bad per say)....just feel as though the Lord spoke to him through her music and I am excited.

I am feeling pretty good this morning. I am so glad the prednisone is leaving my system. I feel sooo much better. I am feeling mildly anxious, but I think it will pass.

Have a great day!
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Cynthia, I'm still praying for you hun. I'm up at 4 am because I can't sleep. I've had a really rough week (flat tire, friend leaving for college, 1 kid leaving the daycare, and extra cleaning work) so I've been VERY emotional and I think I'm just manic...I wish I could sleep because tomorrow (or is it today...) is the start of a long weekend for me and I'd rather not spend it sleeping or being a zombie. Cynthia dear we can ride through this hypomanic state together!

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Well pain level went sky high yesterday (fibro) and I ended up having to get an antiflamatory (spell?) shot at the Dr. Also had to stop the prednisone as my moods were way out of whack. Very combative, agitated, weepy, kinda mixed episode like. Yesterday was just plain hello. I called my psychiatrist about how bad the moods were and his nurse had me stop the pred (which I had already done) and to take my antianxiety medicine (the PRN pill) as though it were scheduled. She said I would just have to ride it out and wait for the predjunk to wear off. So that is what I am doing.

Praising the Lord that today I feel better physically and emotionally. I still feel a little hypomanic/mixed but not nearly as agitated or angry.

I slept in til noon today, which I don't like it when I do that. I guess I just needed the sleep.

So how is everyone else doing? Hope all is well!
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Cynthia, I'm praying for your pain and for the fun to continue!!!

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Checking in for a minute!

The babysitting went very well; although very tiring. Boys and I had a blast; especially on Wednesday when we were able to walk to the park. Friday it rained, but we still had fun.

My boyfriend and I made it to church this morning; first time in a long time (about 6 weeks or so since last going). It felt good to be back.

Lower Arthritis pain has been acting up so I saw my orthopedist Thursday and scheduled an epidural for next Thursday. Right now I am taking prednisone to keep the pain in check. It's making me a lil grumpy, but mood still ok.

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Cynthia, I hope all goes well while you're babysitting! I hope that you also get some extra exercise in with them as well!

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Samantha I will be praying that you have a great week and will be able to handle the stress. I'm glad you had 3 days to relax.

Thank you Tina and Sunshine for prayers. Right now I have a special request. I just found out today that my neighbor right next door has bedbugs. EEEEEEEWWW! Anyhow I got a note on my door that pest control will be checking my apartment on the 15th to make sure they don't find their way here. Please pray they don't. I don't think I have the emotional strength to go through such a mess if I were to have them.

Doing ok, but I slept in til noon today. I'm not sure if it's fibro fatigue or if it's avoidance behavior or just being plain tired. Last night was a rather emotional night as I am feeling badly about my weight. I just keep gaining. I blogged instead of holding my feelings inside, so that's a plus.

Tomorrow and Friday I will be babysitting all day for 2 little boys. They are 5 and 8. Too cute for their own good and overall well behaved...HUGE plus!! LOL. I am hoping the weather holds out til this evening so I can walk to the Library and get some things to keep them busy. If not I will just have to drive, but I sure need the exercise.

I pray everyone has a great Tuesday!
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I'm so happy that things are looking up. I'm keeping you in my prayers too!

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Samantha and Cynthia, I'm so glad you guys are doing better! I'm still praying for both of you!

Samantha, I'm praying for your week!

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Cynthia I'm so glad you are doing better! Your date night sounds so fun!

I am doing much better but I have had three days off which helps because even though I love my job its still very draining and stressful. I have three evaluations to get done this week so I'm preparing myself to be stressed but it will be a good week!

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emoticon Sunshine for your prayers!

I'm doing pretty well today; other than a couple of moments of irritability....(not anything close to what I was experiencing before. PTL)

It's been a laid back day. My boyfriend and I went out for date night last night and had a really fun time, so today we didn't do a whole lot. We did go to the grocery store and to Walgreens to pick up my prescriptions. But that's pretty much it.

It did me good to get out last night. We went to a lil caf here in downtown area that had a live band. The band was somewhat bluesy and they were awesome. My boyfriend takes Guitar lessons and his teacher is the base player for the band. Dinner was good...overall just a really nice evening.

Hope this finds everyone doing well or at least okay.
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I'm glad that you two are feeling a bit better! I'm still praying for both of you!!!

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emoticon Samantha. I'm glad you went out and didn't isolate. That is a positive step/ Yes we can do this together!

This morning I am feeling pretty good; more like myself...of course no major stresses as of yet; that helps. he he.

Hope everyone has a great day!
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Cynthia...we can do this together! I am still not doing great but I pulled myself together and went to a family function and was able to keep it together.

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emoticon Samantha. I will be praying. I agree with what has been said about mood stabilizers. They worked that way for me as well, but also so did an antipsychotic along with it. Not because I was psychotic or anything. They just tend to really help lower depression. There is no stigma. Even though you say you don't care; I feel like you really do as you shared your feelings with us. I too have been in a similar space. Hold onto Jesus and realize that this is the depression making you feel and act differently; not you. You are definitely not inadequate. Easy for me to say I know, but I say it out of sisterly love.

Tina~ I can't believe your little man is old enough for Kindergarten. My how time flies.

My mood spiraled down after posting. This afternoon was not that great and tonight I feel really down and weepy. I can't even explain the why other than I just feel so very irritable and have screamed at my boyfriend earlier and I found out I can't see my therapist (new one) til August 23rd. I don't really like her, but she I don't know her really well, and for now she is all I have as far as a counselor. I had a great mentor and counselor for a year and a half. She helped me so very much as she was a Christian and helped me to understand God's love better. Anyhow things just are spiraling. I'm hanging in there.

Thanks for letting me vent and thank you for your prayers.

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I'm praying for all of you! Cowgirlcutie a mood stabilizer should make you so you can take anti-depressants and not be manic. That's what they did for me at least! Hope that helps you a little!

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I am a rapid cycler and last night I started feeling sad. This morning I could barely get out of bed and I am so blue. I have felt on the verge of tears and screaming all day. I don't give a darn about anything. I am mad at my husband for no apparent reason and I actually didn't say I love you when I left the house today because I honestly just didn't care. I JUST DONT CARE. I AM SO SAD. I JUST WANT TO CRAWL IN A HOLE AND NEVER COME OUT. I know this is not ok but I am not ok. I can't take anti depressants because they make me manic and I don't get depressed very often. I am under so much stress and I just feel so inadiquet.

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Hi Cynthia!

I'm so glad that you stopped in and let us know how you are doing. Thanks for catching us up. :)
I'll be praying that God opens your heart to Himself and the work He is doing in you. Keep reaching out, He is right there.

I took Carter to kindergarten screening today. He did great. He's all ready to start school.
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Hi everyone!

SUNSHINE192DAY!! Glad you have met a great guy. They sure are hard to find these days. Hope things continue to go well.

Well it's been months since I last posted. I guess I've just been caught up in life. Anyway wanted to update and become more active as I am able.

I started a new medicine in April and my insurance has given me heck about covering it. I've been denied 3 times. Thankful that God has blessed me with Samples from my p-doc. The med seems to be working really well, but (yes go figure there is a but) the thing is I am having to wean off another medicine because the new medicine is supposed to eventually replace the other. I just started a week ago and I have done ok other than my irritability seems off the charts. I feel like a monster some times.

In July I had sinus surgery and PTL that went well and I am healing nicely. I've struggled with headaches, but they seem to be coming less frequently now and that is a major blessing.

I've been dating a really nice man since November. He treats me very well and we go to church together. He cooks for me and does my laundry too. He lives in the same building as me. We meet every morning with another one of our close friends and enjoy breakfast and tea together. He wants to marry, but I just am not ready. Especially since we've not dated long enough in my opinion. That and I haven't been divorced but 2 years a few months and am still healing from that. God has been so good to me to help me recover from the past hurts.

The only thing really that I am really struggling with is staying in God's word. It seems I make every excuse in the book (no pun intended...ha ha). I feel so far from God and yet I know wholeheartedly he is near. Please pray that I would fall in love with Jesus all over again and have a craving to read His Word. I know when I am in fellowship with Him it really makes all the difference.

I hope everyone is doing well. Will check again as able.

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Thank you so much Tina!

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YAY for nice guys! I'm praying that God will be in this budding relationship and cover it with His blessings.

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Well we have now had 2 dates and they have been a little piece of Heaven!!! He holds doors open (even car doors,) pays for everything, and takes me to nice places. He is sooo nice to me and I really like him! Thank you guys for caring and I'll keep you posted!

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Abby, how did the date go?

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I hope your date went well. I have been married for 29 years now, and would panic if I had to start dating again.

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I've been very busy with work lately and hoping that everything is going well for everyone! I have a date tomorrow night with a guy that seems really nice! Hopefully it goes well!

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I have been busy with work and with all the animals we have been accumulating. I have been thoroughly enjoying the summer and sad to see the days getting shorter.

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It's been a while, ladies! How are you doing?

the kiddos have been pretty busy this summer so in the process keeping me busy. :) School starts Aug 20 so we are slowly getting things ready. when the kids are back in school (Carter will be in all-day Kindergarten) I'll have some free time. I'm already coming up with a plan for when they go back. I'll be able to go to the YMCA twice a week, take up running with the C25K plan, have an organizing project and a cleaning schedule.

Right now I'm just going to enjoy my family and have fun with them.

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Saying prayers for you, Abby!

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I'm glad you guys are doing well! I am too! I had a med change recently that's taken some getting used to but it's working well and I'm not cycling like I used to. All-in-all it's been good. I've had some foot pain since last Monday and I'm not sure what I did. So I haven't been exercising this past week and I won't until the pain is less intense. If you could say a quick prayer for that I'd appreciate it! Thanks so much!

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I'm on new meds and they seem to be helping although I am still having panic attacks at least once a week. My moods are more stable though and I haven't really cycled since I started the new medication. Praise God!
My summer has been good so far although the last few days here have been cold and windy and that has dampened my mood becuase it is no fun to be out side in the cold and I love being out in the sunshine.


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It has been a while so I thought I'd check in here and see how everyone is doing. My moods have been pretty stable, feeling a little down here and there, but that's just stress. I tend to get anxious when the kids are home from school, trying to find ways to keep them occupied, fed, and whatnot. I love being a stay at home mom, but boy I sure struggle sometimes. One good thing, since my moods have been stable for over a year now I can see the nurse practitioner, unless something comes up and I need to see my psych dr. of course.

So far it's been a pretty good summer. We spent a few days at the Great Wolf Lodge indoor waterpark/hotel. Very fun for everyone. I've also got Catie and Carter signed up for a beginner gymnastics class on Thursday mornings. The library runs free programs every Wed for the kids too. Christian has a 3 day golf camp coming up in July. I've got a few dentist and doctor appointments lined up too.

So, how is your summer going? Enjoying the sunshine? Drop a quick note and let us know how you are!

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Thanks Abby...one day at a time!


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Congrats! I'm so proud of you! See? You CAN do this! Yay you!

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Thanks Tina!


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Since y'all have been with me since before I got sober, I thought I'd celebrate my 30 days sober with you! emoticon I couldn't have made it without God and without you to talk to, emoticon so much. I broke out my 30 day AA chip and rewarded myself! emoticon


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It is great to hear that you all are having good days! I'll be praying for more.

Cathleen - I'm so glad to hear about all the positives going on in your life right now. Praise God!

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So very glad all is good for you!

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So glad to hear that things are going well for you!

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emoticon My day has been wonderful, too. I know it's been awhile since I've posted on this thread. Things have been going well for me. My husband got out of jail with time served (49 days) in March. No more incidents or even close to it. My sobriety has helped a lot. Today is my 23rd day sober! emoticon I'm doing well not drinking emoticon and taking my Depakote emoticon as prescribed. My depression has lifted. emoticon and I'm more than thrilled! emoticon I'm still working at losing the 14 pounds I gained when my doctor increased my meds emoticon , but I haven't let the weight gain get me down. I'm much happier and healthier than I was when I was on half the dose. I started the 5K Your Way Walk/Jog program emoticon and am enjoying my workouts much more. I finally feel like I'm "working". It feels good to sweat. emoticon I didn't get to walk/jog last week due to rain here in deep, south Texas, so I tried a new cardio video that I really enjoyed. emoticon Even worked out on my rest days!. I'm still involved in the "Unglued" bible study. emoticon In fact, I finished up chapter 10 and its questions this morning. emoticon I find it helpful to be in a bible study group because I often have difficulty following through on things. emoticon My husband and I tried a new church emoticon yesterday that he heard about in jail. It was his idea to go. Praise God! He said he was gonna go with or without me! "Without me" never entered my mind! emoticon We both liked it and have made a commitment to go on Wednesday for a bible study where we apply what we're learning. It starts with prayer, followed by dinner, ending with the bible study. We're making an evening of it. We've decided to give it a fair chance and try it for 3 months. Church is something I need in my life and I'm happy my husband feels the same way.I

So, all in all, everything's great. I hope everyone is doing well. I've missed you. emoticon Praying for God's perfect will to be done in our lives gave me peace even amidst the storm. It's the best prayer I can think of. emoticon

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Hi! I am having a wonderful day! Hope yours is great too!

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good morning, Ladies!

just checking sice we haven't been very active on this thread. I hope everyone has a blessed day!!

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Oh and WILDXANGELS I added you as a friend yesterday but forgot to put emoticon on here too! Lol sometimes I get too excited and forget what I'm doing but at least I didn't forget the important part: adding you as a friend!

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emoticon WILDXANGELS! I'm sure you'll find lots of friends here. We love to support and encourage each other. Be sure to let us know how we can pray for you.

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im bipolar if anyones looking for a new friend

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I think of you and pray for you often hun! Work the steps and ask when you need support! Love and hugs your way!

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Tina - Thanks for your written prayer! I like to write out my prayers when my Sparkfriends ask me to pray for them. When I was more active in church and had friends and would witness in the streets, I was a bit of a prayer warrior. I guess I still am; It's just written now, but I take the opportunity every chance I get to pray with others.

Abby - Thanks for sticking by me and praying for me with Tina. I so appreciate your support!
Y'all mean the world to me.

I didn't stop with the one beer. What a lie my disease and the devil told me. The worst part was I believed it. Alcoholics have a bit of insanity: we "do the same things over and over again, expecting different result." Step 2 of AA first deals with the insanity. I realize now that I skipped it. I went directly from step 1 to step 3. I'm on the first step again and sober. Thank you for your prayers and thank You Jesus!


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The Bible says that when 2 or more come together in His name there He'll be. So I not only support you, but I'm praying Tina's prayer with her for you! We love and support each other like the sisters that we are here and, even though we may make some mistakes along the way, we're all in this together!

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I'm lifting you up in prayer right now. And of course we still support you!

Dearest Lord in heaven - please hold Your dear daughter in Your healing arms. Fill her with Your grace. Help her to make wise choices and to put this behind her, to move forward confident in Your love. Make the desire for sobriety outshine all others. Instill in her a peace that calms her mind and heart. Love on her like the Father that You are. In Your Son's precious name I pray. Amen.

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Don't know if y'all will still support me: I picked up a beer. I didn't get drunk, so I rationalized that i was still sober. Stinking thinking. I more so want to keep out of trouble than I want to be sober. The truth is, I like to drink or so I think. The devil and the disease like to lie to me. But way down deep, I prefer sobriety. I don't feel like a success when I drink; I feel like a failure. You can't imagine how hard this post is to write, but write I must.

Don't know what else to say. I need prayer.


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Ok Cat it is then! And you can call me Abby if you like!

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emoticon Sunshine! You can call me Cathleen if you like, or Cat. emoticon

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I'm so proud of you and grateful to call you my friend VETTERMOMMY2U2!

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Thanks Samantha emoticon I'm glad I am inspiring you. Not "many days sober" is better than no days sober. The only way I've been able to be sober 21 days is by not drinking for today. I remember my 1st day sober...it was minute by minute, hour by hour It was Sunday, March 10 and I "came to" at 4 am with 2 empty 1/2 gallons of vodka next to me, a burnt hand, and a twisted ankle. I knew I couldn't go on, but I was hurting. I wanted some beer to ease the hangover, but the stores don't sell here until 12 noon. I HAD to wait 8 hours for beer and another 18 hours for more vodka. All I could do was lay there and SUFFER. And suffer I did...

It got worse at noon. I had to make a decision. Was I going to continue to live this way, in endless suffering with a less than bleak future, or was I going to stop. All I could do was prolong going to the store for just one more minute. I listened to the clock: Tick-tock, tick-tock. I did this for 12 hours until ,midnight when the stores closed. You know how many minutes are in 12 hours? 720. For 720 minutes, for 43,200 ticks, I listened to the clock and I put off going to the store It was the single most worst day in my life. I was not blessed with sleep that day or night. I had the DT's with psychotic hallucinations and dreams when I'd doze off for a minute at a time and the beginnings of convulsions. I prayed that I might live. I really needed hospitalization. I was utterly alone. This continued for 3 more days, but each day was better than the day before. It took me 4 days of hard detox to come off the bottle. I think the only thing that kept me going was the thought I'd never have to go through this again, that this could be my last sobering up. That and my puppies who needed me.

And I was only drinking for 4 days, that's the scariest part. It took me no time at all to get into such bad shape. Jails, institutions, and death were right around the corner for me. I quit because I so desperately didn't want to be where alcohol had taken me or end up where alcohol was inevitably taking me.

I've put 21 days together with the help of God first and foremost. I attend AA meetings online at AAOnline.net. I pray, worship, read my Bible, take my medication, and read my Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymoous and meditate on my 24 Hours a Day daily devotional. I share my experience strength and hope with this team and the SP Recovering Alcoholics team. Most of all, i don't take that 1st drink.

With God's help, I commit to sobriety this day, day 22.

Thanks for letting me share.
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