Thats right. Due to a saftey work issue. I was hurt on the job. TWICE in one week span no less....
I busted my L5 and L3 discs in my back, but thats not the worst. while having an MRI done one night to see how bad it was, they found out that I was born with an abnormally small spinal canal, so that a slight bulge in my back would feel 20x worse then someone with a normal spine. In other words, a slight bulge I felt, most people never knew they had.
I'm currently (as of last visit to the emergency room from work) 310lbs. or so thats what the scale maxed out at. and if you looked at me, you might not believe it. I'm mostly muscle in my legs since I am nothing but a work horse at work. that was the problem.
Was hurting my back my fault. I feel I have no responsiblity. I am required to work from a table at waist level which they provided but piled so much junk on it was falling over. numerous times I had asked them to move it and clean it up. I did, several times but everytime I was off on vacation it'd get HORRIBLE (at least 2-300lbs of random crap on it) so I never had time to clean it. they dont pay me to clean my desk off everyday.
not sure of my next move. I am going to physio which workers comp pays for, but not without a god damned fight.
honestly it was the best experiance I ever had. sure I spent my 20th birthday in the hospital waiting for an MRI, and was so close to next day surgery. But if I hadn't had the problem I wouldve never woke up and realized, this extra weight, has GOT TO GO.
I quit smoking november 1st 2011. and haven't had a craving since. I'm a lucky one. that was the first step. I guess you could call this all "prep new years resolutions"
second I decided i wanted 100lbs off me in a year. the end of that year would end in me going back ot school as a new me. the me i always was but was hidden by a fat chick.
don't get me wrong, I love me, and I feel sexy and everything as big as I am. but, my insides arent as sexy due to it. it's not attractive to have me live a lesser quality of life now is it?
and third. since growing up i was never deprived of fast food, chips or chocolates, I can't see me missing them. I'm honestly sick of it all and would KILL for a fruit salad and a glass of orange juice right now!
anyways thats my little tid bit, dont feel shy! come one and have a chat with me! lol
No one has ever won without losing first.
| current weight: 658.0