SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Welcome! This is a space for anyone dealing with depression to support each other as we eat right, exercise, lose weight, and find ways to manage our depression. SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard New to Board...Not to Weightloss Although I am new to SparkPeople, I am, unfortunately, a veteran to weightloss and health choices. <BR> <BR> I have twice before lost greater than 70 pounds, only to have them pile back on. There are a lot of reasons I can throw out as to why I was unable to keep off the weight, all legit, but they are unsatisfying, and I my goal is to keep the weight off permanently. <BR> <BR> I have lost 25 pounds since the beginning of 2016, and I have another 90 or so to go. <BR> <BR> I look forward t... Thu, 26 May 2016 12:41:50 EST Mental health hospital I haven't posted on here in a while, but I wanted to update. Things got bad for a while. I finally decided I needed more help than I was getting, so I was checked into a hospital. It was very frustrating because I really wanted help, but I didn't receive much in the week that I was there. I was a friend to one patient who was being bullied by other kids there, so it wasn't a complete loss. Also, one of the staff members turned out to be related to one of the people who abused me. He said some... Wed, 25 May 2016 23:06:21 EST Introducing the Fluffy Girl! Hey everyone! I'm not new to sparkpeople.....but i am to actually being in a community. My name is Shawna, I'm 29, and I suffer from bipolar manic depression, along with some anxiety thrown in to sprinkle the top. <BR> <BR> I don't normally put myself out there like this...but to do this....I need I'm not getting and haven't for a long time. <BR> <BR> I weigh 346.9 goal weight is 180. <BR> thats 166.9 pounds...thats basically a WHOLE person....I'm scared to ... Wed, 25 May 2016 01:09:34 EST Hey Everyone!! :) Hey! My name is Alivia, and I am starting fresh with Spark people. I used this website a few years back and lost 50lbs, but unfortunately gained all of it plus more after I started college. I am hoping to get back into a healthy lifestyle, lose weight, and work through my depression. I know this website is a great tool and I cannot weigh to see my results. Tue, 24 May 2016 22:00:39 EST Hello I am just coming down from a three week depression and am trying to find a way to deal with my many issues as a Christian. I just got done reading the book Honestly by Sheila Walsh. It helped a lot. I was online trying to find more books and saw this site. I am 42 years old and deal with chronic pain, brain injury, spinal injury, depression, anxiety and recently stomach problems. I take 22 pills a day on a good day. I see my husband and and 19 year old daughter going forward in life as I am g... Tue, 24 May 2016 14:11:43 EST New Here First time on Spark. Glad they have a group like this and looks active. I suffer greatly from going through periods of hating myself. Hope everyone is doing great. Mon, 23 May 2016 08:54:19 EST Hello There Everyone My name is Terri. Today is my first day on this program. I live in south Louisiana outside of New Orleans. I am 45 years old. I am married and I have 2 daughters and 1 grand daughter. I am looking to lose weight and I will need a support system to do so. My family will not help me. They only harm me by bringing in junk foods and heat and eat foods that are not good. I don't have a lot of close friends or people I can hang out with around me. I hope to make new friends that will last for a lon... Fri, 20 May 2016 17:33:48 EST Death/Emotional Eating Hi all. I was doing pretty good eating well until my grandfather passed away on Sunday. Since then, I've said *f it and ate whatever I wanted. I think it'll make me feel better but it makes me feel worse. Problem is, I don't want to do anything but sleep. Nothing makes me happy. I went to see my psych on Tuesday and she told me all this was normal but I feel like I'm falling apart. What can I do to curb the munchies? Thu, 19 May 2016 20:26:32 EST DaisyLou60 I'm new to this community and as I look at some of the recipes I see they use a lot of Splenda. I'm not a big fan of Splenda but would like to still make good recipes - are there other sugar substitutes you recommend? Thu, 19 May 2016 20:24:27 EST yesterday was bad, bad, bad I actually cried at my desk - first time in a long time. I tried taking deep breaths and doing a visualization where I was at my happy place but it didn't work. Crap I don't want to start doing this again. Thu, 19 May 2016 06:49:05 EST Suffering from depression and anxiety... Hello, I am a little leery posting this, but here goes. I am 48 and was diagnosed with depression about 12 years ago. I responded well to medication and have been taking the same stuff for the entire time. Some days, especially in the last couple of years, it seems I need extra help. And then last year I was diagnosed with anxiety. I was given pills to treat the anxiety. However, I believe these pills, while they do help, tend to make my anxiety worse once they wear off. I have tried weaning ... Wed, 18 May 2016 14:39:46 EST Hello team........... My name is Bob and I am a fan of the Oregon State Beavers..........thus the clever name. <BR> hehe....... <BR> I'm sputtering along trying to get into some new healthy habits but the old ones seem to hang on like bad cold. <BR> I did a bit better today and even got in a great walk in the Oregon rain. Thanks and God bless you all. Sun, 15 May 2016 23:27:48 EST Trying it all again Hello, Everyone <BR> <BR> My name is Kayne(pronounced Cain), and I'm hoping this post will make it. I've only tried it three times. First one doesn't count, since I stuck it in the wrong place. <BR> <BR> I hope I will succeed this time, and that I can make some friends. Sun, 15 May 2016 14:47:15 EST Starting today - again Hello, Everyone <BR> <BR> My name is Kayne (nickname pronounced Cain). I hope I can join some discussions and teams, and that I can find some friends. <BR> <BR> I have been fighting depression all my life, however, now it is just chronic, not severe. Meds are keeping it under control for me, without controlling me. <BR> <BR> <BR> Thanks for being here. Sun, 15 May 2016 14:13:50 EST Ooops, wrong place Sorry!!!! Sun, 15 May 2016 14:06:26 EST Starting (again) today Hello, Everyone. I joined this group today. My nickname (which I prefer) is Kayne (pronounced Cain). Although my depression is not severe, it is chronic. I've been taking meds for years, and they have held me level. I still have bad days, but very seldom. I hope I can get help from this group, and that I can get to know people. <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> Sun, 15 May 2016 14:05:15 EST Starting today Hello, Everyone. I joined this group today. My nickname (which I prefer) is Kayne (pronounced Cain). Although my depression is not severe, it is chronic. I've been taking meds for years, and they have held me level. I still have bad days, but very seldom. I hope I can get help from this group, and that I can get to know people. <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> Sun, 15 May 2016 13:47:41 EST HELLO ~ 2nd time Around! i'm Michelle and this is my 2nd time with Sparkpeople. i Originally joined back in 2006 and really loved it and had met Lots of nice friends. My First WeightLoss started in 2005, took about 5 years, and i lost 100 was the BEST and most AMAZING feeling i had experienced in SO many years! i think you get so comfortable in that life and Forget really HOW you got there, and how hard you worked, and you start your OLD habits..well Now i've worked some of my weight Back UP. i had gotten ... Sun, 15 May 2016 12:45:32 EST Happy and nervous to be here. Hi everyone. Just posting on Sparkpeople is taking me out of my comfort zone. But while I fight my introvert nature let me say I'm excited to be here and I'm excited to have a community to hang with while I change my life and lose 127 lbs. Much love to all. Fri, 13 May 2016 23:16:59 EST New Here Hi, my name is Maddy, I am returning to SparkPeople, the first time around I half heartily did it, it was more to maintain. I have since gained a lot more weight and I am serious about getting it off. I have depression and anxiety and am excited there is a team created for it. I know I could use the support. Food is my go to when I'm down!! Fri, 13 May 2016 12:01:51 EST New Here I am new to the site and am a little nervous about starting this. I have failed at dieting before but I am hoping that this time it will stick with some support. Wed, 11 May 2016 23:10:47 EST Hi there My name is Bea, I am a single mom on a teenage boy, and also 2 furry babies, cat named Larry, and mixed breed pooch, named Kashi. Because she keeps me healthy, like the popular brand of foods. <BR> I was born in Poland and have lived in the USA for 26 years. <BR> Sooo, like many people, my weight has been going up and down for ages and I am currently going through the phase, when I record my food and exercise and losing. Question is for how long. <BR> I have bipolar depression, ADD, PTSD and ... Wed, 11 May 2016 19:10:09 EST Just another newbie :) Howdy everyone! My name is Barbara and i am 54 years old. I am married, have 3 daughters and 5 absolutely wonderful grandchildren. I suffer from Bipolar disorder and depression is something I deal with on a daily basis. I am hoping to gain support from people that are on the same weight loss journey and do understand about depression. Tue, 10 May 2016 20:16:14 EST water world I can remember my mom singing the Elvis song, Moody Blue all the time. <BR> I was just a kid and didnt understand, maybe she was blue and moody lol. <BR> Now, I look out my door at what is probably day 7 of gloom, dark gray cloudy skies, rain, and damp earth. <BR> I am just moody blue myself, and I cant seem to rise out of the funk. <BR> I know exercise would help, and I know I need to get out of this chair and venture out. <BR> I probably havent been in my car twice in the last week. I wake... Tue, 10 May 2016 07:48:23 EST Morning Workouts I am currently unemployed, so I figured it would be a good idea to see how long it takes me to go through a morning routine with a workout. My findings: 2.5 hours. When I am working, I work an 8-5 job and I don't see how a morning workout is really feasible. I would have to get up at 4:30AM in order to have a morning workout session. Worse, that would mean being in bed by 8:30PM in order to get in 8 hours of sleep. I don't see how I can possibly go to bed that early. <BR> <BR> I'd like to... Mon, 9 May 2016 09:32:22 EST Third time's the charm So this is my third attempt to live a healthier lifestyle using SparkPeople. When I use it, it really helps, but then I tend to stop using it and fall back into old habits. <BR> <BR> I'm starting at 250 pounds and want to lose 50 pounds by the end of October. Other goals include reducing my triglyceride levels and glucose levels. I have type 2 diabetes and my A1C is currently at 8.6. Sat, 7 May 2016 15:47:05 EST Hi I'm new to the team I'm scarlett and I have done sparkpeople before and had lost 50pounds but unfortunately that was a few years back. Which gave me some time to let myself go so I gained a good 100 pounds just over the past few years and I realized I need to put a stop to it. I have struggled with bipolar and depression a lot which has set me back in the past but I am here to support everyone and would appreciate it to have a good team knowing I am supported in my weight loss journey but also the journey of lif... Wed, 4 May 2016 02:02:42 EST Hello Sparkpeople! I had gained over 100 lbs due to depression and agoraphobia. This is my second time joining. I had lost 60 lbs prior, but slacked off when I went back to school. I had maintained a 45 lb weight loss until last semester. I was so close to finishing my goal of becoming a lawyer until I hit a brick wall. I burned out with 22 credits left to go. Then I gained the weight I had lost back. I don't know how to feel about all of this. I am disappointed in myself, which doesn't help my self est... Wed, 4 May 2016 01:16:21 EST Stress management Hi everybody, <BR> <BR> We all suffer from stress and I found this article from the Mayo Clinic that I thought had some good advice. Let me share it with you. <BR> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>/stress-management/in-depth/stress-rel<BR>ievers/art-20047257/?utm_source=newsle<BR>tter&amp;utm_medium=email&amp;utm_camp<BR>aign=housecall </link> Mon, 2 May 2016 13:11:13 EST Hospital Well, I talked with my pastor and his wife yesterday. My pastor seemed to think that I have a good understanding of my struggles with bipolar. He concluded that if I didn't think I needed to go to the hospital, then I probably didn't. But, his wife didn't agree. She's a nurse, so she's got a slightly different background. She insisted I go to the hospital since I have been cutting and seeing demons since Tuesday. She actually followed me to the hospital to make sure I went. Then, she went in ... Mon, 2 May 2016 11:10:34 EST Hi-looking for weight loss buddy Hi- <BR> I am new to Spark. I suffer from Bipolar 2 (or so they say). In the last few months I did Weight Watchers and started an exercise routine and lost 15 lbs per doctor request. My liver enzymes were better and I was almost out of the "pre-diabetic" range. <BR> Then the Spring season decided to get confused here in Colorado. Now my depression is a huge struggle and I'm gaining weight back due to bailing on my weight loss plan. My Weight Watchers membership ended and can't afford t... Sun, 1 May 2016 22:18:59 EST had lost 100..gained 50 i am! :) Hello ~~ really happy there's a site out here like this..just Amazing! i had worked SO Hard to lose 100 pounds, and it took me about 5 years to do it, really Lowered my Cholesterol, felt so good and healthy..with LOTS of Personal family issues that have caused me to be Diagnosed with Severe Anxiety, Depression and PTSD..i've lost a lot of Motivation and gained back Half of my weight. i'm also Hypothyroid and struggle Severely with that. Anyways..SO HAPPY to be here and look forward to a NEW S... Sun, 1 May 2016 14:20:29 EST Interesting Article on How to Boost Your Mood An interesting article on Huffington Post on how to feel better when you're depressed. From my eperience that psychologist is right -- I don't feel any better if I treat myself. I think I'll try an experiment to see how this works. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>y-to-boost-mood_us_571bacefe4b0d4d3f72<BR>38dc4?utm_hp_ref=science?ncid=newsltus<BR>hpmg00000003 </link> Sun, 1 May 2016 13:06:45 EST Something to brighten the day This is really nice. Too bad it's only a minute's worth of nice. <BR> Suitable for grandchildren. In fact, perfect for grandchildren <BR> <BR> <link><BR>fXohxc?rel=0&amp;%3bshowinfo=0 </link> Sat, 30 Apr 2016 23:16:21 EST overwhelmed with depression as I sit here ...I am making myself...participate!...I know it will help as I know I can get better...but time seems to drag thru molasses...I try to sleep...last night ...up and down.. <BR> finally from 6 to 9am I slept....and I want to crawl back in bed now...calling my name.. <BR> I have to keep trying....because I am afraid.. Sat, 30 Apr 2016 09:41:29 EST Another Newbie Hey there. <BR> <BR> Well,I'm new to this team but old to SparkPeople. I've been doing Spark on and off since 2011, and when I follow it, things work well for me. Ironically what usually makes me fall off the boat is depression. So... it seemed like getting involved with a team that GETS that struggle was the thing to give a shot. Sat, 30 Apr 2016 00:10:20 EST ok..i am new now or here again complete heart failure in jan..causes me memory probs..I joined here so long ago...told my dr all about the site..she has recommended to patients..then I dropped if the probs didn't exist any more..i have been a recluse for ~6yrs and it is worse now...muscle loss...losing teeth..feeling just 'peachy' as long as I don't closest friend for years.we talked 1 -4 hours every night for years..on his birthday last oct30..he was told he had cancer..very aggressive .nothing to do ... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 19:48:28 EST Fighting to Stay afloat I'm so tired and sad lately I feel like I'm drowning, I fell off the wagon for 2/3 weeks and just forced myself back into gear not to long ago but it feels like I'm running in circles and that i'll need get the health under control, I feel very.. very sad hard to put it to words. However I'm keeping it to myself I feel like if i speak out I'll be a burden on my loved ones. Right now a lot of extra stuff fell into my lap to take care of and I can't drop the ball on any of it but it's all so ov... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 16:13:53 EST Hello! Hey everyone, I'm Kara. Going to be 32 in two months and I'm tired of being tired all the time. I suffer from major anxiety and depression and have for almost 10 years. I am frustrated with why I have these disorders. I read so many stories of people that fought in the military or grew up in less than ideal circumstances and I can see why they would develop anxiety or depression and I think it's wonderful how they are coping and getting along so well. I have none of these reasons. I didn't gr... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 04:56:15 EST Eating to Death Hello. I am Eliza. I am 30 years old and weigh two almost three times my best weight. I feel like crap and feel like I am drowning in my bad habits. I am pushing away the love of my life because I am gaining more instead of loosing. I have had depression and anxiety most of my life and things seem to get worse as time passes. I really need motivation and drive to get better. Thu, 28 Apr 2016 00:32:38 EST Majorly Struggling I am really struggling right now. My life has been a roller coaster of ups and downs since last August. I was almost hospitalized in November because I was cutting fairly frequently. But, I evened out. We are buying a house (we get a closing date today), and it has been a rough journey. But, we've made it through. But, I am holding on by a tendril. I cut myself yesterday during my planning period. I don't really know why. I just know that I am overwhelmed, exhausted, and at the end of my rope... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 09:58:07 EST Hello new friends! Hi! I'm new here and I wanted to introduce myself. My name is Cierra and I'm an 18 year old college student. I'm a journalism major. I play the ukulele. After a 5 month battle of refusing to get help, I was officially diagnosed with depression 4 months ago.Wow. 9 whole months with depression. That scares me considering I only just turned 18 in October. I used to think depression only affected older people. Anyways, it's been a roller coaster but, it's a battle I'm trying to fight with no help... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 23:06:54 EST hi there my name is chrissy. i am not really new to spark, i just never kept up with it. Tue, 26 Apr 2016 19:25:41 EST CCgal Hi everybody, <BR> Here I am with about 40 lbs too much. It is a real challenge to lose this weight, everything is stacked against it, age, shut-in, isolation, and so on. But this is a health issue. I am reaching out to the other people who are riding the same train. I am in need of encouragement and a cheering section as we all are. I promise to not whine. thanks CCgal Mon, 25 Apr 2016 10:07:04 EST SparkPeople noob! hi! <BR> <BR> i'm glad to join everyone! this looks like a fun way to stay motivated while working towards my goals of getting healthier and fit! I have two main reasons I'm doing this: I'm getting married June 2017, and also I want to work my way into joining my local roller derby team. i also have bipolar disorder, which makes community support super important to me. thanks for reading! <BR> <BR> -charm Fri, 22 Apr 2016 07:32:29 EST Anxiety ? Do you have anxiety? I am struggle with mine atm. I was wondering if you have any suggestion to help me get out more?? Wed, 13 Apr 2016 22:04:07 EST New Member Hi! My name is Sara and I just joined. I am trying to jump back onto my healthy lifestyle journey but finding it very difficult to stick with it. <BR> <BR> I joined Sparkpeople because I wanted to find others like myself for motivation and encouragement. As well as to hold myself accountable with eating and exercise. <BR> <BR> I am 32, (almost 33) I am married and have 2 elementary aged kiddos. I am a stay at home mom for now. I live in Stanley, WI and am looking at losing about 40 lbs. <B... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 14:17:18 EST hi everyone! Hi everyone! I'm brand new to spark people. I've struggled with weight issues and eating disorders all my life! I just want to be healthy and happy and maybe look great in a bikini this summer!! Tue, 12 Apr 2016 12:04:18 EST Survey questions on handling stress <BR> <BR> I would want to know answers to these following questions because I know that I am not alone. As someone who suffers from depression and anxiety, I am vulnerable to stress. Most of the time I don't cope well. I would like to learn from those people who are like myself on how do they deal with pressure and stress. Any answer will be much appreciated. Thank you. <BR> <BR> 1.) What stresses you? <BR> <BR> 2.) What are the signs that you are stressed? <BR> <BR> 3.) Do crack under ... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 01:53:45 EST New and Ready to Change I am a 42 year old mother of three. I have been on numerous diets all of my adult life. I am in pain and want to set a good example for my beautiful girls. I am a special education teacher in an elementary school. I look forward to meeting people with similar goals and life challenges. Mon, 11 Apr 2016 21:09:05 EST Migraine <em>24</em> Mon, 11 Apr 2016 09:55:36 EST Frustrated with Injury Hi guys. I just want to know what workouts I can do at the gym, to help me lose weight with a bulging disc. I injured my back at work 5 months ago, and have been going to physical therapy. Its not working. The only thing I am told to do are back extension. I have gained 10lbs. I have always been fit and this is frustrating me. My abs are no longer firm. I was told that I cant do crunches or planks. I was told I cant even do the squat machine at the gym because it will strain my back. I'm real... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 17:30:50 EST Hi all looking for motivation on the last leg of my weight lose ........... I have lost 61kg and have a further 17 to go the hardest fat to lose Thu, 7 Apr 2016 23:27:29 EST Hello Lovelies :) I'm mechel :) Mum to six, foster career, student, wife. I love glam planning, fitness, heath, nutrition, being a mum and Australia (which is where i live)! I currently live in Brisbane, Australia with my Partner(who i refer to as hubby but we aren't married yet,) our six kids, two cats, two dogs! I recently lost 20kg, but its slowly creeping back because i have had a rough last six months. I suffer from anxiety and panic disorder. <BR> <BR> I am here to get support with eating mostly. I se... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 20:34:34 EST Need to lose a little for my liver transplant Hi All, <BR> My doctor wants me to lose some weight before liver transplant, about 15-20# for now (more can come later). My cirrhotic liver, past use of steroids (which made me insulin dependent) for sarcoidosis, and a host of immune issues make weight loss very, very difficult. <BR> It's been a tough winter. I had to stop teaching and my boss gave me committee work (he's the man!) as I prepare for the transplant and deal with my crappy immune system, diabetes, chronic pain, upcoming (hop... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 21:18:54 EST FYI (for your information) Go to Articles &amp; Videos - Scroll down and click on Health &amp; Wellness - Go right and click on Health A-Z.. You will find information on any illness you may have. Sun, 3 Apr 2016 17:53:24 EST New to the Team Hi I am new to the team!! Sun, 3 Apr 2016 02:38:22 EST Hello everyone I've always exercised but now I want to eat better and track my progress so that I can be healthy. I look forward to this adventure and hope to have a lot of support along the way. :) Sat, 2 Apr 2016 01:18:17 EST April Fools' Day Quiz. <BR> 1. What date is April Fools' Day? <BR> <BR> 2. According to one belief, April Fools' Day is said to have started in which country? <BR> <BR> 3. In 1998, which restaurant published a fake advertisement for a hamburger for left-handed people? <BR> <BR> 4.Back in 2011,Which celebrity heartthrob singer pretended to let talk show host Jimmy Kimmel shave off his hair? <BR> <BR> 5. TRUE or APRIL FOOL: NASA posted on it's website that water had been found on Mars. Was water really found on... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 11:29:40 EST HI I'm Briana. Almost 32, living outside of Seattle. I've been suffering from severe depression and social anxiety pretty much my whole life. I'm currently in counseling and attending groups to learn the coping skills I never developed. I hope to get to know ya'll better. Thu, 31 Mar 2016 20:03:18 EST Intro Hi, just joined the site through a referral from a friend. I'm quietly struggling through depression since I lost my brother last year. I realise that it takes more than just meds to bring about whole healing, so nutrition and fitness is also at the top of my priories. Here goes <em>9</em> Thu, 31 Mar 2016 07:23:12 EST Almost New I've been a member on sparkpeople for awhile, but I've always been too shy to introduce myself on here. I'm at a point where I finally feel like I'm ready to commit to a healthier lifestyle and I decided that since I'm making changes to my health, I could also make a change and say 'hi' to everyone :). Thu, 31 Mar 2016 01:18:19 EST Need Encouragement Hi, <BR> <BR> I am new to SparkPeople, I am a young widow and very depressed. I want to exercise but find it difficult to motivate myself. I am new to the area I am living in so I am very lonely. I wish I could find a friend close by that also suffers from depression and wants to exercise. <BR> I need an exercise buddy. <BR> <BR> Hopefully there is someone out there who can help me. <BR> <BR> Thanks for reading my post. <BR> <BR> Cheryl Wed, 30 Mar 2016 13:52:45 EST New to Team, Back to Spark! Been there before and did so well. <BR> <BR> In the years since, I have lost myself, lost who I am. I gained all my weight back and more. I've become depressed. <BR> <BR> Im here because I am taking me back. I am holding myself accountable, and changing my lifestyle. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wed, 30 Mar 2016 11:36:19 EST New Hi, I'm new to Spark people, it's my second day and I'm already slightly discouraged. I'm having a hard time tracking what I eat. For whatever reason it's so overwhelming for me. I'm really hoping this program works better than my last one. I have Ehlers-Danlos Sydrome which prevents me from doing a lot of activities, but I'm going to keep trying. Feel free to add me! <BR> Tiffany Tue, 29 Mar 2016 22:12:08 EST Hello I have been dealing with depression and posttraumatic stress. I look forward to having encouragement on the journey. Tue, 29 Mar 2016 13:28:48 EST March 29th is a day I will never forget March 29th, 2010 is the day that I will never forget. It changed my life and the lives of my children. It is the day that I hear the words "ONE OF THE CANCERS" being used for a mass (actually 2 tumors) on my (then) 6 year old son's left kidney. The fear that day will never be forgotten and as I type this I get teary eyed thinking about it. We are 6 years out and he's cancer free and I am so grateful. We were lucky that we caught it at a stage 2. He was diagnosed with Wilms Tumor and had about... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 10:49:44 EST I need some friends Like I said in my profile, I am a very shy person and I don't really have a thriving social life. I work with my family and don't have a lot of time, or energy (or the confidence), to go out and meet new people. I recently got out of a 5 year relationship. All this put together equals me feeling very alone, despite having a very loving and wonderful family behind me. That is one of the bigger, if not the biggest, reason that I have joined this site. I would love to find a place where people c... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 21:47:50 EST HI, I'M Jess Hi there. I am new here (obviously) and I just wanted to say hello. I don't really know how all of this works yet but I'm looking forward to learning. <BR> I'm not sure what all I am supposed to put here so I'll leave it at this :) Mon, 28 Mar 2016 21:38:52 EST New beginning Hi. My name is Evelyn and I live in Dom. Rep. Heard about this program in internet. Liked it and hear I am!!!! I have a 3 and half year old baby boy. Stopped my professional life to raise him. That carried a weight gain of 20 lbs. During past years I have been fight weight gain. Seem to lose and gain even more than before. My plateau has raised by 10 lbs. Went back to the gym last october. But no weight loss, though I feel better and my body has changed a bit. <BR> <BR> Definete... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 14:49:45 EST New Path in Life to Health and Fitness. Hi everyone, this is Roberto in Toronto, Ontario, Canada and I would like to connect with those on a similar path as me to Health, Vitality and Happiness. <BR> <BR> I'm a single, 37 year old, non-smoking or drinking male who has been on quite a roller coaster ride of loss and gain. This time I want to keep it off and be in the best shape of my life for the rest of my life. I have some mild osteo-arthritis in my knee and hip which is weight related and losing the weight would take all the pre... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 13:29:31 EST EXTREMELY DEPRESSED TODAY! I have been feeling this way for a couple of days. Going to leave the house, because I need to change my mood. The cold and grey skies have been affecting me more this week. Will not turn on heat in house, because I can't afford the bill. Going to get checked for diabetes this Thursday. Went out to dinner this weekend and came home and checked my blood sugar on sons monitor and it was at 197 witch is high. Other emotions are affecting me. I guess I am typing this because I need and uplift ... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 11:37:39 EST How to overcome this desire Dear friends, I suffer from a huge problem. You may call it a disease or illness. I crave "Love". I feel this constant need to Love and be Loved. I call this an illness because this craving has got me into countless abusive and /or exploitative relationships. By relationship, I do not indicate conjugal relationship alone. I have been in sister-like, brother-like, father-like, mother-like "relations".......and so on. And all of them eventually turned out to be wither physically (intimately) ab... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 08:35:08 EST Hi :) Hey everyone, <BR> Been on this website before, but never quite found enough motivation to go through.. until now. Now it's not just about me anymore. It's about my family, and my desire to be a better person and a role model, for myself as much as for my husband and my son. <BR> So here goes nothing.. the first step is done, and it's true - it's the hardest of them all. <BR> Good luck to all of us! Sun, 27 Mar 2016 04:08:18 EST Loving Spark already Hi my name is Brooke and this site seems like it is exactly what I have been looking for. Thanks for the welcome email's and I hope to make the most out of the site.. Happy Easter and have a wonderful day! Sat, 26 Mar 2016 12:46:45 EST New/Old Spark Person Hi everyone, <BR> <BR> I used sparkpeople in 2007 to lose my baby weight.( Iwas 176 lbs and got to 125 lbs, maintained at around 130 for I have been on a weight rollercoaster since that time. YoYo dieting, being up and down in my weight and my confidence. I am a sugar addict and an emotional eater. I suffer from depression, and anxiety which has become worse over the years. I have two beautiful daughters that I want to be a better example for health and self confidence. I am currently ... Sat, 26 Mar 2016 11:08:40 EST new member on spark people I am a 43 year old very obese female (347 pounds) wanting and needing to lose weight. I have many health conditions revolving around my weight including being pre - diabetic. <BR> I firmly believe in Jesus Christ and God and I hope that they will show me the path to a healthier lifestyle. <BR> I have lost a few pounds late last year, but I have gained it all back. I am really hoping this this time will be my time to lose the weight and keep it off for good. I want to adopt to a healthier lif... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 21:32:35 EST Working Out on a Bad Day I'm looking for ideas on how to motivate myself to work out even on a bad day. I KNOW i will feel better after i do it, but the lack of motivation is so strong on a depressed day. just wondering if you guys have some advice Wed, 23 Mar 2016 13:49:37 EST BI-POLAR I have been marred going on twenty-three years. Phew! It has not been easy especially since I live with two people that are bi-polar. It has been very depressing and stressful. I guess I am posting to learn more about bi-polar. I believe it runs down my husbands side of the family,to who knows where. I believe a grandparent and a parent of my husband is bi-polar. I just want to learn more and maybe talk about it. I have ADD so long post I don't pay attention to well to. Not to offend anyone b... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 21:45:46 EST So happy to be back! I have missed you all! I realized that is the only forum I have ever felt completely able to be me! Through tuff times and awesome successes I am excited to be back. <BR> I started sparking back in 2008 and have been off and on through the years and changes. I started out 100 pounds heavier and am now fine tuning my eating habits and pushing my athletic abilities. <BR> I have don't have any friends so please add me if you want to have a buddy! Tue, 22 Mar 2016 13:04:57 EST Just Joined Hi there, I've been dealing with depression for years. Tue, 22 Mar 2016 09:25:10 EST Joined the team today New to this team, but not new to Sparkpeeps. I've returned after an absence. <BR> <BR> Looking to gain friends, support and to be a part of the need for awareness of this very common illness. <em>41</em> Mon, 21 Mar 2016 20:05:15 EST Hi There! I am Maleah and I have been dealing with some serious anxiety and depression pretty much all my life. I am having a really hard time finding support around me, so I'm hoping to have a better go of it online. Currently I am not my best, but by no means at my worst either. Mon, 21 Mar 2016 01:45:53 EST Self Harm This is extremely long. Some of you may know that I've cut in the past. I've done a good job at resisting the urge whenever I got overwhelmed for the past several months. Today I relapsed. My cousin, who is the person who has been there for me the most, is leaving for medical school in January and he's dating someone now. I feel alone because I know pretty soon he's not gonna be there for me as much. When he isn't able to be there when I need him, I would always comfort myself by picturing my... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 23:09:48 EST Getting Back On Track My challenge for today is to drink 8 cups of water. I have to drink 6 more cups to success! Sun, 20 Mar 2016 11:17:18 EST Computer tech/safety question Is there a good reason to leave bad things in "quarantine?" I don't know enough to know why anyone would want to do so. <BR> <BR> Specifically, I ran Malwarebytes Anti-Malware and it found and quarantined 40 items from a bad, invasive program (Conduit) that's been in my computer for some time. Rather than leave them there, I clicked Delete so that they'd be removed from the computer. Should I have left everything in quarantine? Sun, 20 Mar 2016 10:11:37 EST I'm Back . . . Hello All, <BR> <BR> I'm glad to be back. Figuring out how to effectively deal with depression is kind of complicated. However, I have found a new tool that should help me to get moving along. I am looking forward to working in group therapy sessions so that I can grow out of this self-limiting funk. I'll keep you all posted on insights that I gain from this experience. <em>521</em> Sat, 19 Mar 2016 14:16:05 EST Back Again Hello, back again; not going to beat myself up for falling off the wagon. Today is a new Day! Thu, 17 Mar 2016 06:41:34 EST Struggling I can't seem to get on track. I do good for a couple days, then boom. I feel like it would be easier if I was doing it because I actually cared about myself and wanted to be healthy, but I'm not. I'm doing it because I hate myself, I hate the way I look. I just binge ate a bunch of pizza and lava cake.I was just struggling with some homework and stressed out, so I decided to order food. I can't forgive myself. When I have had a hard week, day, etc. I tell myself to treat myself. That's what ... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 22:40:52 EST New and would like to say hello Greetings everyone, I'm Chi and would like to say hello. Been dealing with depression for awhile and weight even longer, I've figured it's time to take control of my life. I hope to make a lot of friends here and help one another Wed, 16 Mar 2016 20:07:11 EST When was the last time you felt alive? when? <em>41</em> Mon, 14 Mar 2016 23:20:42 EST Words of Wisdom and Quotes "A friend is someone who understands my past, believes in my future, and accepts me just the way I am." Anonymous. Mon, 14 Mar 2016 22:33:22 EST LOSING HOPE venting "The secret of joy is the mastery of pain." - Anais Nin <BR> <BR> I wish i could make this pain go away but it lingers every now and then. I have a huge self doubt to conquer and its sad. I'm just tired of the drama. I can't make myself happy. I dont know if there's still a reason why I'm here. I only live because i want to be there for my parents. I dont want to dissapoint them by hurting myself. but i can say right now that there's no point in my life. Im tired of all the medicines, the ... Sat, 12 Mar 2016 03:05:40 EST I,m new here and just wanted to say hi. My name is Vonnie. I live it Tennessee. I have a wonderful husband who I have been married to for 35 years. We have 10 children and 11 grandchildren. I'm a Mennonite Christian and love the Lord. Depression has been a problem for me for many years. I had a hysterectomy in December 2015 that seems to have made it worse and now on top of it I can't seem to loose weight. I'm hoping to meet a lot of new friends! I will be praying for you all. Lots of love , Vonnie <em>213</em> Sat, 12 Mar 2016 00:37:44 EST New here, and not sure what to do with this forum? Hello there, <BR> <BR> My name is Whitney Clark and I am 26 years old. I suffer mainly with high anxiety, but with anxiety comes along with depression. I have my up days and my down days. Its like this roller coaster that never ends :( <BR> I am in school, working towards being a nurse. School is by far the one thing that is holding everything in my life together. So I have anxiety all the time about it. <BR> <BR> I love to work out, but sadly my anxiety with school keeps me pret... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 18:26:32 EST Hello! Hi, <BR> <BR> I'm back to Spark People after having great success about 10 years ago with the program. I've gained about 50 pounds in the last 3 years when I moved across country for a new job, got a divorce, fell in love and moved in with my current partner. <BR> <BR> I've been treated for depression and anxiety off and on since high school, with some especially bad times here and there. I've just realized (after reading a SP article) that I probably actually have chronic depression and ... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 12:46:59 EST Brain Fog So one of the worst symptoms of depression for me is the awful brain fog. I am in a constant haze and I end up having problems finding correct words..or sometimes I just feel like nothing is going on in the head. Also, I have a hard time concentrating or learning. <BR> <BR> Has anyone else dealt with the same symptoms? If so, how long have you had it and did you end up improving/resolving the problem? I've had it for a few years and my psychiatrist is treating my depression more um...aggress... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 10:59:48 EST My relationship Dear friends, it is very difficult for me to say all this. I was in a relationship for 8 years. How did I get into this relation ? I have been a victim of child abuse and some other kinds of exploitation. Of physical kind. I never had anyone to call my own. So when this person approached me, I fell for him and did everything possible for him. <BR> <BR> From the very beginning he had been manipulating me. Hurting me, emotionally blackmailing me. Abusing me. Because I had revealed everything ... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 08:53:08 EST Spelling Bee from New York Public Library How's your spelling prowess? The quiz will test your ease with some common words. Results are given for each word immediately or you can enter your email address at the end to have results sent. Here are two versions of the link in case the first doesn't work. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>2016 </link> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>2016?utm_source=eNewsletter&amp;utm_me<BR>dium=email&amp;utm_content=Engmt201603<BR>SpellingBeeQuiz2... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 14:50:45 EST Abilify and weight gain I started taking 5 mg of abilify on top of my 300 mg of wellbutrin. All I'm reading on the internet is the considerable (or massive) weight gain abilify causes. I'm hoping I'm reading this because I search for things like "weight gain and abilify" in google search...which people struggling with weight gain would also search. <BR> <BR> I was wondering if anyone on here has tried abilify and had weight gain. Thank you! Tue, 8 Mar 2016 20:15:57 EST HopeLess DopeFiend; finally taking care of me. Hello all! I was pleasently surprised when this site also came with a depression support group, and I'm very excited to be apart of. I am a addict in recovery and am diagnosed MDD and Bi-Polar 2, PTSD, ADHD - I could go on. I'm on a cocktail of medications, that seem to be working for the most part. Celexa 40mgs, suboxane 8mgs, Prazosin 2mgs, Depakote 250mgs 3x's daily, Synthroid 50mgs, Trazdone 25mgs 1-2pills a night, Vitamin D, Vitamin B12, and I was taking some weight loss pills but they w... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 18:15:17 EST I cannot start any workout Hi frnds ! I have been suffering from acute clinical depression since 20 years now. It is so severe that I can barely get out of bed. The day just wears on, and night is here. But I have not done any work out. I do take a decision to work out the next day. But somehow, I am so depressed that I can only sit in a corner and cry. I just keep crying. I suffer from severe bipolar disorder. Medication too has been failing. I had a boyfriend for a short while, but he has left me. My parents divorced... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 10:58:08 EST Greetings! Hello Everyone, <BR> <BR> I am a new member and am very excited to be here. I look forward to getting to know everyone in the virtual world and wish you all much success. I have been battling depression and my excess weight for a long time, but finally feel that I can master both through a healthy diet, exercise and support. Mon, 7 Mar 2016 09:40:45 EST Hello Hi I am Melissa from Tampa Florida. I look forward to losing weight and meeting new members. Sun, 6 Mar 2016 18:59:54 EST The Insane Power of Combining Exercise and Meditat <link><BR>ealth/the-insane-power-of-combining-ex<BR>ercise-and-meditation-20160301 </link> <BR> <BR> Very interesting article on how well the combination helped depression. I do meditate but unfortunately I can't exercise right now or I would try this! Just think how good it would be to get off the meds &amp; not go into a blue funk! Sat, 5 Mar 2016 22:39:55 EST Insensitive family I know I'm posting alot lately. But I'm home for the weekend. I am more anxious and on edge and even depressed around my family for various reasons. I feel like my symptoms just get worse when I'm home. I suffer from ptsd, not horribly and I've made progress, but I still startle easily especially when I'm already on edge. I've gotten to a point where I can normally handle scary movies and stuff like that again. But tonight with my family it didn't go well. They keep laughing everytime I got s... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 22:09:36 EST new to spark people Hi I have been a member of spark people 6 years ago. Since then my weight has been up and down mainly increasing I am at my all time high weight 350. It is embarrassing to me that I weigh this much. Finally, I told myself tonight I was happier when I was lighter and I told myself that I need to get off my butt and do something about it. Instead of soda, drink water, eat plenty of fruits and veggies. And get moving. It is supposed to get warmer this coming week. So i need to get out and get wa... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 21:53:42 EST Important Realization Sorry for the long post, but....I am home from school for the weekend. I sat down and had a very honest talk with my sister about my weight. I've gained a lot. Some of its from being sick, but definitely not all of it. I had to be honest with myself and say I can try harder. I've been making so many excuses - the foods not good, I don't have time, I need to treat myself, etc. I can't do that anymore. Treats are becoming an everyday thing, I find time for movie nights and other activities with... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 22:22:40 EST Dealing with my adult son I need help please. <BR> My oldest son is 26 years old. our relationship is strained to say the least. His father (my ex-husband) walked out on me and filed for a divorce before my son was a year old. I had physical custody and did everything for my son since we lived in separate cities 90 miles apart. My ex dragged me through court at least 2x a month until my son was 18. For nothing more than to make my life hell. And keep me broke. He had weekends with my son where they just had f... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 17:16:57 EST Fellow criers, I'm curious about your workouts! So I'm one of those people who's prone to bouts of crying over just about anything, and often out of nowhere. It's usually pretty annoying and inconvenient, but I'd say my workouts bring on a good cry 3-4 times a week. Does this happen to anyone else? It's kinda the only instance in which I feel my crying spells are beneficial. Wed, 2 Mar 2016 14:34:59 EST Looking for a Weight Watchers Alternative I am here because of Weight Watchers change that it has forced upon us and ruined our lives. I've gained weight since the change, the incompetence of their tracking tools has made it impossible and severely inconvenient to track and as a result, I am miserable. I hope Sparkpeople is the answer to my prayers. Wed, 2 Mar 2016 04:57:35 EST Professional Dieter all my life I have come from an overweight family and have struggled to keep a normal weight and started losing the battle when I turned 40. I have tried on and off to lose weight for years and finally gave up. A couple of years ago, I started to try to eat healthy and get my weight down to normal again without much success. I am really ready to get serious and see results. <BR> I love the outdoors. I like walking and biking, mostly. I am trying to become more active and really start living my li... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 21:41:32 EST Happy Tuesday! Good afternoon!! Today is my first day on SparkPeople and my first day on our company's new Wellness program, Naturally Slim...lots of firsts, so excited to be here! Tue, 1 Mar 2016 14:41:28 EST I'm Back!!!! So I haven't been on here in a while and my tracking has been extremely inconsistent. I would start tracking again, go over my calories, and quit. A lot has gone on in my life lately. As soon as I got over pneumonia, something in my family came up, and things have just been crazy. But I am back. I went over my calories a little today, but I am still tracking. I got in a 20 minute workout, which was only half of what I planned. But due to a recent medication change, I'm a little nauseous. Bec... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 19:52:15 EST Hi, I'm a returning sparker, but new to the team This is day one of returning to spark people. I'm not returning with enthusiasm or desperation. I'm just going through the motions, hoping to stumble on an epiphany of life. Spark people helped me tremendously in the past, but since then I have relapsed after making the decision to return to my homeland. I've been feeling stuck and depressed for a long time. I know this is a blessing in disguise, because I am forced to now confront unresolved emotions through counseling. However my weight was... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 08:04:05 EST Healthy Chelsey <BR> Hi! I'm a 28 year old mom and hairdresser. It's time to change my life starting now! I am ready to progress into the healthy, committed, motivated person that I'm meant to be! <BR> Sun, 28 Feb 2016 21:45:32 EST What Makes you Happy Hi friends ! This is Priya here. This question amy seem silly. But I really want to know - do you do anything particular to make yourself happy ? If yes, then what do you do ? Sun, 28 Feb 2016 10:06:38 EST Passion My weight has fluctuated since I reached my 40th birthday. I've used different diets over the years, I reach my target then a problem arises and I become a comfort eater my weight piles back on then my passion disappears. I have tried hypnotism which worked for a while. I don't eat badly and I know what to eat its just getting the balance of how much food I intake daily, I don't like gyms but I do like to go outdoors. I just want to get of this roller coaster Thu, 25 Feb 2016 04:06:15 EST Hello Everyone I am new here and looking forward to meeting new people. Thu, 25 Feb 2016 01:16:55 EST Birthdays A numbers of the teams on SparkPeople have Birthdays as a topic so I thought I'd start one here. <em>19</em> Wed, 24 Feb 2016 23:57:29 EST Hello from Nee. Hi Friends, <BR> <BR> I join you guys to get and share the heal+thy vibes. <BR> I hope SPARKPEOPLE will make a difference to my life. <BR> Wish everyone all the best. <BR> Thanks, <BR> Nee. J. Nit Wed, 24 Feb 2016 15:27:57 EST marie ava Hi i'm Marie Ava , Today is a step to my new journey on a new lifestyle. I am new and hope to meet alot of new friends and support and motivation. I am a 57 year old grandmother of 3 , i am here for them i am over weight and need to lose 70 pounds. I am limited to exercises as i have bone on bone on both knees from a fall on ice. Most of my weight is in my stomach. I want to be around to see my grandchildren ages 7,10,11 grow up and be able to be more active with them. Ifeel if i lose the wei... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 14:30:12 EST new to the team A week from now I will be 43, and I am very disappointed and frustrated in myself because of my weight increase. Late last year I have lost a good 20 pounds and I gained it all back. What's more important I have given up hope in losing weight. I was hoping at that time when I lost the 20 pounds I could lose another 20 by my birthday but that is all downhill. I signed up for spark people tonight, in hopes to change my attitude,feel better about myself and definitely lose weight. I know I have ... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 22:29:05 EST Hi. I'm new. Hi. My name is Chris. I got diagnosed with sever major depression. It's been such a roller coaster. I have felt like a lab rat sometimes do to meds not working well on me. Tried different anti depressants. After finding the right combo and actually did P90x for 8 weeks I had a manic phase. The doctor switched my meds. And all has been downhill. Got back on the same dosage as before. And I feel unmotivated. Sad. To self concious. Tried a gym. Got a panick attack. My friends stopped talking to ... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 23:05:30 EST I'm new to the team I am new to this team. I am trying to lose a lot of weight but also dealing with depression/bi-polar at the same time. It makes it difficult because a lot of the medication I am on sometimes makes weight loss hard. I will be needing encouragement along the way. Fri, 19 Feb 2016 14:44:38 EST I'm back...and starting all over again Hi there, I originally signed up to Sparkpeople a few years ago with the plan to lose weight and get healthy. I did lose about 40 lbs by eating healthy, working out regularly and feeling really good and on the right path. However in the last few years, I was a PhD student writing a dissertation which I had pressure to finish (and I did finish - yay) and then having to work - because much of my work has me sitting behind a computer, I have gained the 40 lbs plus back. I am trying to motiva... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 01:08:19 EST Ready for a change Hey everyone, <BR> <BR> I'm another newbie to spark people as you could probably guess. I was hoping to find some support here as I battle depression, lose weight, and finish my senior year of college. My depression is getting worse and I am tired of not liking myself. This year I hope to change all that. The problem just doing one of these is kind of hard. I try doing all three and I end up burnt and no real progress. <BR> <BR> My goal is to lose at least 25 pounds, preferably 35 pounds... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 12:44:27 EST Hi, joined today Lost 40 pounds in 2012/2013 using Spark resources and then had a couple kids, suffered from thyroid failure, developed and got treated for depression, and being screened for ADHD. I'm coming back to what works since it's only in the last 6 months that I've begun regaining the weight I lost. Tue, 16 Feb 2016 22:10:06 EST Team Goals Help I need some Help Please, at top of screen it says i have not joined any team goals, but i have clicked on join the goals for 500 fitness for the month but when i go back in it still says i havent chosen any goals, I'm confused any help would be appreciated <em>40</em> Tue, 16 Feb 2016 10:55:26 EST New but returning Hi All I am New but returning once again, I fell off the wagon, but I am here again to try again, my depression is all full speed ahead but I am trying to pull myself out. <BR> <BR> My name is Tracey or as my granddaughter calls me Oma, I have 4 stepkids and 1 step granddaughter whom I just want to be around for, well sorta of we arent married but we have been together long enough that i consider them my kids and vise versa (7 years) I want to get married in a smaller size dress than I did a... Tue, 16 Feb 2016 09:39:51 EST after 4years rejoined spark people My life mostly consists of being morbidly obese all through adulthood through my adolescent years maybe 12-13 years old I started packing on the weight. Most of my health conditions reflect on me being obese. I just want to be truthful about my life and my eating patterns. My eating patterns are really bad, i just don't eat 3 meals I probably eat close to 5 or 6 big meals a day. I know I need to stop, this is not healthy for me at all. I even eat when I am emotional which I suffer from depres... Sun, 14 Feb 2016 02:32:32 EST I had a bad week... This week has been a really hard week for me. Our veterinary clinic (where I work) was bought out in July and after 19 years working in the same place the same way it really has been a difficult adjustment for me. This past week a girl I have been working most of my time there decided to quit. I was crushed, angry and down right depressed. I did the one thing I shouldn't have. I went back to my old ways, eating bad, sitting around on the couch, not cleaning just letting everything just stop! ... Sat, 13 Feb 2016 09:34:44 EST I'm new Hello everyone :) My name is Angelina Wed, 10 Feb 2016 23:55:15 EST How do you comfort yourself without using food? Just curious - for those of us (like me) who have not only depression, but also anxiety, do you have specific ways to comfort yourself without using extra food for comfort? If so, maybe you'd share some here? <BR> <BR> I actually pulled out my old childhood teddy bear tonight. He smells very musty. I'm 61 and probably haven't held him since elementary school, but I read somewhere that holding a stuff animal sometimes helps. <BR> <BR> Other than having a warm drink, I can't think of anythin... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 19:21:03 EST Hello I'm new here, sometimes I am depressed, and so I have troubles with loosing too much weight. It was much easier to gain it, though ... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 10:12:03 EST GOING TO MSAKE IT THIS TIME Hello everyone - My goal and my Spark name is GOING TO MAKE IT THIS TIME and have been a member of Spark People for several years now. I am not an active member as I should be but I do plan on trying to change that way of life. Over the past couple of years I have been suffering with diverticulitis. Something I would not wish on anyone!!! If any spark people have experienced this or know of someone who has then you know what I have been going through. I have hbeen hospitalized twice wit... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 08:45:34 EST ..another newbie today just floating by.. hi, need motivation as i get depressed i weigh myself everyday and get depressed severly,but if i lose a pound or 2 i get extremely happy!!! swallow 8 to 10 glasses of water , eat right, but stay hungry, my tummy growls daily like a thunderstorm... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 08:02:13 EST new beginnings I am just trying to better myself these days. Looking forward to the warmer days where I can get back outside to think.In the meantime I'll take what I can get. These have been the longest days without any sleep! It's torture being up at night with nothing to do.Maybe I'll start out with some nice yoga if the powers that be let me. I don't know how much longer my situation will be like this. I do know that I have to do something before it's too late! Sun, 7 Feb 2016 06:52:18 EST hopeless Well, am Sadia from Pakistan , spent 2 decades in Pak & then went to Japan where I stayed for almost a decade.. Life's been a roller coaster ride & all the traumatic domestic tension was one of the major reasons that I lost my immaculate figure I was in love with. Now back to Pakistan, resumed media fraternity and am very uncomfortable doing my news bulletins due to my weight issues,its not about health alone but to look good is the demand of my profession.. tension is piling up, toughest rou... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 05:58:57 EST hopeless Well, am Sadia from Pakistan , spent 2 decades in Pak & then went to Japan where I stayed for almost a decade.. Life's been a roller coaster ride & all the traumatic domestic tension was one of the major reasons that I lost my immaculate figure I was in love with. Now back to Pakistan, resumed media fraternity and am very uncomfortable doing my news bulletins due to my weight issues,its not about health alone but to look good is the demand of my profession.. tension is piling up, toughest rou... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 02:06:44 EST help with emotions So, I have a question for everyone. Today, my mom posted a picture of my grandpa that was taken a few months before he died. I still struggle with his death. I was really close to him. He died 4 years ago. I was there the day he died. I still remember seeing him in his hospital bed in his bedroom (he died at home). All through the house you could hear him gasping for breath, even though he was on oxygen. Almost all the family were there in the 4 bedroom ranch house. <BR> I cannot think about ... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 20:56:42 EST Depression buddy? Hi, I'm Em. I'm 20. I have very bad depression and recently its gotten worse and more complicated. I'm trying to lose weight, I'm 190 and want to be 125 lbs. I would love someone who also has depression to be able to talk with, unjudgementally and openly and with optimism. By optimism I mean someone who doesnt want to just sit and wallow in this chemical imbalance, but someone who is trying, and is willing to do everything they can to find some sort of calm in depression. Optimistic. Someone ... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 03:03:51 EST Healthy Momma Hello there people on the internet just wanted to introduce myself. <BR> My name is Sarah Holt and I am a first time momma and a diabetic. I joined the site in hopes of losing some weight to control my sugars so i can live a healthy and long life with my loving fiance and beautiful little boy. Sat, 6 Feb 2016 02:47:51 EST Those who pray, please do so!! I really hate to sound selfish, but I could use some prayers right now. This has been an absolutely horrible week! Tuesday I had a really bad asthma attack at work and was sent to urgent care. After waiting about 30-40 minutes from the time we entered the urgent care, I was taken to a room. Then, about 15 minutes later the nurse practitioner came in. She listened to me and said I wasn't getting any air in my lungs. She ordered a breathing treatment. It took like another 20 minutes to get the ... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 21:22:00 EST Here I go again, but the fight to loose is harder <em>4</em> my first week small loss but thanks to your system I learned a lot. Fri, 5 Feb 2016 18:57:47 EST Looking for a Partner in Crime Hi! I'm Laurie. I am 59 years old and about 50 lbs overweight. I want to get my weight under control before it causes me serious health problems. My goal is to lose a couple of pounds a week by eating more healthy food and less comfort food and by becoming more active. I'd like to meet some like-minded people on this site that I can work together with by coaching and encouraging each other. Wed, 3 Feb 2016 22:21:26 EST I am leaving for awhile I will be having a right knee replacement on Monday, Feb. 8 and then will go into rehab for up to 3 weeks. I will not have availability to a computer so will not be on SP for the time that I am away. I was told there may be, not positive public computers at rehab, but you can't stay on them for long. I may be able to post a quick status or spin. I know I won't be able to respond to posts like I do now. I will certainly miss the support and genuine caring that I feel from this team. Know... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 09:04:05 EST carlene <BR> im very much over weight and miserable. i hate the fact that i have done this to myself with boredom and depression . all three of my girls want me to l9se and they want me to be happy again. my husband is not a good support person he is very much an enabler. so this is pretty tough but two days in and im doin good <BR> Mon, 1 Feb 2016 16:59:20 EST bluejeanslady Good Monday morning, decided to join spark because I think I will do better with help and support from others like myself. I am a carb freak, oatmeal for breakfast, lunch I usually good but if not then I am looking for candy etc, dinner I try to cook healthy unless I am exhausted then it's something quick. I am addicted to Coke 0 for the caffeine throughout the day and change to caffeine free at 6:00.. I also drink V8-Energy drinks 50 calories but I tell myself it's healthy because fruit an... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 08:45:24 EST Hey, new to the group. So I thought I'd join this group. I feel like I've been depressed most of my life. I seem to be a natural born failure. I'll manage to not be depressed when I have something to be hopeful about but nothing I do really seems to get me any appreciable results. I'm sure it's nothing new to humanity, it's just very frustrating to consistently fail in life, to always be the outsider, and to have people tell you that you just need to try harder. <BR> <BR> Part of me says I shouldn't even pos... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 16:06:23 EST HI I m great fan of spark people hi <BR> <BR> I am from india . fighting with weight issue for last 7 years. want to get rid off excess weight during 2016-17. want your support.. thanks Sun, 31 Jan 2016 11:44:44 EST new to spark people and team Just some quick information on me. I will be 43 next month and i live alone. So cooking for one is hard for me especially since I learned to cook in large quantities. I drink diet pepsi, I want to get off the caffeine habit since soda has caffeine and other flavorings, not sure what. I want to drink more water. I guess that is my first 2 baby steps stop drinking soda and drink more water no excuses. <BR> <BR> I have many medical issues that accompany my obesity such as high blood pressure, ... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 04:24:34 EST how do you build a broken self esteem? i dont know what happened, when i was in college i was pretty ok. But things got pretty rocky when i had series of failures in my career. Did you have instances where there's something that blowed your self esteem? How were you able to get up? Thu, 28 Jan 2016 13:55:26 EST A timely reminder.In need of a shoulder to lean on "Sometimes people come into our lives for a reason or a season. These encounters change our life or change their life so let's try to leave a positive impact on everyone we meet." ~ CaringJoy, <BR> <BR> I wanted to share this on the team wall but could not..Hope you all like it too =) <BR> <BR> I think lately I have been struggling a lot with people - friends to close relationships - fluttering in and out and my life. As a social yet shy person when someone leaves my life it impac... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 02:16:46 EST Debbie Hi all I am using spark to help me count protein in my diet goal is 60 - 65 I had a gastric bypass 2 months ago, so not really a diet I am on but only soft foods that are dense in protein Can only take portions of half a cup or so every 2 to 3 hours. Suppose stay away from sweet but I did a few chocolates over Christmas. So far I am down 47 lbs got 60 to go. just starting to exercise now as I had to wait and make sure everything was healed. Mon, 25 Jan 2016 23:52:49 EST Hello! Hi! I am not brand new to Sparkpeople, but I am just getting started with exploring the community this site has to offer. I am excited for this journey, and can't wait to hear new ideas, share progress, and motivate one another. I'll have to explore things a little more, but I just wanted to say hi and start making connections! Mon, 25 Jan 2016 09:54:36 EST new to spark people, glad to be here I have many medical conditions, I can't really blame my weight on my conditions but what I can do is change my lifestyle around to get healthier and happier. I want to exercise more and eat healthy. And drink plenty of water. I have watched many you tube videos on weight loss yesterday and today and I searched the net and found this site, hoping to change my life around one healthy habit at a time. I am a little depressed because this weekend we got at lest 15 inches of snow here in Delaw... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 00:40:58 EST Hello Here to hopefully keep myself motivated and moving in the right direction. :) Sat, 23 Jan 2016 16:27:40 EST My daily fight. Hey everyone. My name is Sarah. I've been struggling with depression since I was about eight years old. That's the first time I tried to kill myself. I grew up in a bad family situation and turned to food as my Savior. All my life I've been overweight, and I feel like that's a big part of my depression. Letting myself get lost in all that food. That's why I'm here though I am bipolar and schizophrenic with borderline personality disorder but most importantly I'm a fighter. I'm looking for fri... Fri, 22 Jan 2016 16:05:54 EST I'm yet another newbie I have depression and anxiety. This is probably because I grew up in a dysfunctional family with a verbally abusive father, churches ostracized me for having problems, and school groups didn't think verbal abuse was "real". I withdrew from people, started cutting myself, and eventually hit the last straw and tried to kill a family member. My parents finally agreed something was wrong at that point, and took me to get counseling and psychiatry. within 2 years of that, they divorced. Now I am a... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 16:01:48 EST Go Cards My brother lost 100 lbs on this program a few years ago. It gave him a new lease on life. Last week I underwent knee surgery, prior to surgery I lost 14.2 lbs on my way to 30. Feel like I am in a bit of a rut, but getting more active every day... NO crutches now, but could use some love from the SP team. GO Thu, 21 Jan 2016 11:22:04 EST Announcment from Coach Jen Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> Two new things launched today that I wanted to let you know about: <BR> <BR> 1. On the Nutrition Tracker, you can now make a “Quick Entry.” This basically lets you add a calorie/carb/fat/protein value to a meal, without searching for a food, nor adding a manual food. <BR> <BR> 2. We used to let people share 1 piece of content for 3 points a day. We now let you share up to 3 pieces, and at 3 points per piece, you can get 9 points a day. <BR> <BR> Thanks! <BR> <BR> C... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 16:48:12 EST Hello everyone! My name is Ali and I just joined. My weight loss goal is to weigh less than 150lbs. I currently weight 220 pounds and I'm extremely embarrassed about it. I'm afraid to go out in public because I always think that people will make fun of me for being so fat. I suffer from major depression and ptsd (part of my trauma history is connected to body-image issues, which is a major barrier in my weight loss journey). <BR> I'm looking for support around weight-loss with the added challenge of mental ... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 15:17:09 EST Hello! Hello - I don't do social media but I am jumping in!!! I just joined this forum, thank you so much for the invite. I'm still getting used to the web site and all it has to offer and mostly how to navigate. I joined the Resolution Challenge to begin again. I joined years ago and quit so starting anew! I'm very excited and motivated to make this happen! I lost 50 lbs with weight watchers but then plateaued and gave up (lacked motivation to continue, was angry about having to continue, etc.)... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 10:02:18 EST Hi, I'm Not So New... Hey everyone!! It would be a former participant of this Team &amp; SP. My Username was BAYBOY6385 but b/c I was having issues logging in and or posting I became frustrated and closed the account. <BR> <BR> Not a bright move me thinks. Now I must start anew. Please if we were buddies add me again if you wish. I welcome new adds as well. <BR> <BR> Much thanks &amp; it is great to be back. <BR> <BR> Tony <BR> Tue, 19 Jan 2016 10:31:06 EST Hi I am new Good Morning to all.... As I set here and tell you about me I am at my desk at work where I spend most of my time. I work 40 hours and have to drive 45 minutes to get to work. I am the primary bread winner in my home and this is a struggle for me. I am a mother of 4 beautiful girls and have 3 grand babies. I have never seen my grand babies and the other 2 children I have not seen in a long time. This is part of the depression that I deal with. I hope that this group will help me come to terms... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 07:59:56 EST Good morning from a newbie Morning all. <BR> I'm Mina. I just signed up here today to try to take off some of this extra weight I've been carrying. <BR> <BR> I'm 35, recently married (2 months), with 2 dogs. <BR> <BR> I've had some health problems recently which has prevented me from exercising, and has kept me in a bit of a depressive funk, so I've been an emotional eater for a while. <BR> <BR> i'm trying to train myself to have a healthier relationship with food, and exercise. <BR> <BR> Nice to meet you all... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 09:16:56 EST Another Newbie... Hi Folks, <BR> <BR> Really not a complete newbie. I was here a few years back, but gave up. Not sure if starting again at this time is the best of ideas, as we're smack dab in the middle of winter, which is always one of the worst times for me, but if I wait for a time when I'm not depressed, it will never happen. I want this to work. <BR> <BR> A little about me: I'm a 42 year old divorced mother of 2 nearly adult kids (17 and 21 still at home). I live on Cape Ann, Massachusetts (that... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 17:15:43 EST in need of a change Hello Everyone, <BR> Have set my mind to making some changes in my life. Looking for positive people to give encouragement Sat, 16 Jan 2016 21:37:11 EST Need some advice or insight.... Hopefully someone will help me with this... I have a friend (yes for real friend) who is very depressed. She is passive/aggressively (in my opinion) trying to commit suicide. She is doing some out of character behaviors for her that are potentially harmful. I have tried to talk with her about some of this but she doesn't think she is doing anything wrong but she continues to make statements about how life sucks and there is no hopeful end in sight... now I am NOT for suicide, I am not a go... Sat, 16 Jan 2016 18:25:46 EST New to Forum but... Hi everyone. My name is Michelle, and this has been my 2nd (or 3rd) go around with SP. I joined this forum because I have been dealing with depression for a number of years, although I haven't been clinically diagnosed. I believe that I have depression because for a number of years now I have lost the passion to do a lot of things that I love. I continue to work toward doing those things that give me joy again, but it is a slow process and sometimes not easy "psychologically speaking". <BR> O... Sat, 16 Jan 2016 15:31:55 EST Hopeful Hi everyone. My name is Sandra. I am 42 years old and I weigh more than I ever have in my life. I quit smoking on December 20, 2015 and now trying to get healthy. I suffer from PTSD plus manic depressive disorder which developed in 2013. I fight with it every day even though I am on 5 different medicines. Dealing with weight issues does not help with the depression. I turn to food whenever I am bored, stressed, moody or any other time. I thought smoking would be the hardest thing I ever did b... Sat, 16 Jan 2016 14:32:43 EST It's a new day! 52 year old looking for a buddy... Hey y'all...I'm 52 year-old guy and I'm looking for a buddy with whom we can virtually walk side-by-side to meet our wellness goals. I'm an Evangelical Christian which to me is an important part of how I view all of life, not just food, so finding someone who shares those values is probably a good idea but it's for sure not a deal-breaker or anything. Any takers? Thu, 14 Jan 2016 13:14:46 EST New here, but not new to depression Hi. Depression has pretty much been a lifetime companion---worse in winter. Starting this to see if I can maintain some consistency in my day-to-day battle to see and celebrate the positive. Wed, 13 Jan 2016 13:01:03 EST Tips on finding a therapist Hello! I've just rejoined SP, and as part of my Get Healthier goals, I'd like to find a therapist. Any tips on the best way to do this? <BR> <BR> I've done plenty of therapy in the past, but it usually involved going to an office, crying for half an hour, and going home not feeling a whole lot better. This time around I'd like to find someone I can talk to about specific issues (including depression, career/work, creativity, and anxiety) and actually make some action plans. <BR> <BR> I kno... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 16:36:10 EST Hello, My name is Mallory. Hi everyone, My name is Mallory and I am 22 years old. <BR> I am here in hopes of losing some weight. I am currently 186 pounds and am hoping to lose 30 pounds. My depression has lead me to view food as a form of comfort. The last year, particularly, has been tough. I had been accepted into my program of choice at college but later dropped out due to my anxiety and depression. I have also began a new job recently (which I love) but some of the new challenges it has brought me (so far) has cau... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 00:26:28 EST Staying Motivated Hello! <BR> <BR> I joined sparkpeople about 1,000 years ago and keep getting busy, distracted, or unmotivated and abandon it. I love the ideaaa of sparkpeople, when I'm on I'm ON. I love the ability to track my food, exercise and progress. It's such a fantastic tool but how do I remind myself to keep coming back? <BR> <BR> I guess I want to ask how you all how you stay motivated and remind yourself to use the tools at hand. I have never utilized the forum section or the community. I want to... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 14:55:03 EST Just getting started Hi I just started with Sparkpeople yesterday and still learning my way around. I'm not even sure I'm joining teams properly. I join a goal and it takes me to another area of the site. Bare with me and if you see I'm doing something wrong please let me know. Fri, 8 Jan 2016 08:22:09 EST Hi I'm Diana I am a 61 year old Mother of 3, Grandmother of 13, and wife of 42 years. I have battled weight all my life. At one point I weighed 380 lbs and was given 5 years to live if I didn't have gastric bypass surgery. That was 13 years ago. The surgery went well but was done the old fashioned way. They took out parts of my stomach and intestines. So my ability to eat a lot at one setting is not a problem. But I did find I could eat a little all day long! At my one year mark I was down to 160 lbs. But... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 17:14:41 EST Adele, the Everywoman For those like me who usually miss the viral, Adele's selfie. It helps. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>jpg:large </link> Thu, 7 Jan 2016 16:03:53 EST Hi, I'm new to this site! I'm new to this site! I've struggled with depression for 25 years. Some of my meds make it difficult to lose weight. Hopefully with support and all the other great spark team tools I will be able to make it this time. Glad to be here! Thu, 7 Jan 2016 12:02:06 EST HELP I NEED MOTIVATION Hello I am a 20 year old college student who is overweight and has pre-diabetes. I am wanting to lose 95 pounds this year. I need constant support and motivation from someone who is willing to help me. Thu, 7 Jan 2016 02:06:03 EST Hey all nice to meet you!!! I'm Katie I'm looking for some friends on here I can help motivate and who can motivate me as well! I hope to hear from you! I love making new friends :-) Wed, 6 Jan 2016 22:36:25 EST New Girl in the Neighborhood Hi :) I'm new to SparkPeople. I'm working toward Duodenal Switch surgery in July or August. I'm 47, divorce and mom to a 15 year old boy. I have Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. <BR> <BR> I work from home taking customer service calls annnnnd I sing. I can't think of anything else to add at this point lol. Nice to meet y'all Wed, 6 Jan 2016 18:40:41 EST Hi From a New Person Hi! I'm a freelance artist working from home. I like knitting, books, walking, and Zachary Levi. I have PCOS which makes losing weight really hard, but the weight makes PCOS worse, so I'd like to lose 80 pounds. That would put me at 160 pounds which is the last weight I remember looking at myself and thinking "Yeah, I look good right now." <BR> <BR> I've been fighting depression for a few years now. PCOS doesn't help with moods, but for the last two months, I had more bad days than good ones... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 18:33:10 EST Having a day of remembering. Last night my better half called his baby sister and was talking about the baby she just lost. I myself lost a baby 30 years ago. Immediately I felt that pang of loss that still to this day cuts deep. All day I have thought about my Danny and what kind of a man he would have grown up to be had life not thrown me a curve ball. I have 2 grown girls now who have each given me a granddaughter. All of them are the joy of my life, however, sometimes I still have the deep sadness of missing one... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 16:23:08 EST Help with gym memberships Just wanted those of you out there on social security or those who's income is low, some gyms offer sponsorships to help you out. I am on social security and believe me it's not much. Someone told me about the Y's sponsorship program and I thought might try it, what have I got to lose. Well it worked out for me, I only have to pay 13 dollars a month for membership and that includes all of their classes. So it has been wonderful to learn of these programs and I just wanted to pass it on. I... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 15:33:09 EST needing to get it done i am married with two girls 24 and 17 ive currently lost 50 lbs on my own but now im stuck and i need to lose more for my better health so im looking for some healthy help, no pills or drinks or having to spend money on special food. so i am hoping for this community to help me get this done. i am so eager to check in daily and keep this going. Tue, 5 Jan 2016 22:19:17 EST Migraines Just wondering if anyone on here also struggles with migraines? I know there are other groups, but from what I've seen, this is the most active. I also know stress and depression go hand in hand with migraines and tension headaches. Its hard to eat healthy when you have a migraine. I've had one for two days and I just couldn't force myself to eat a salad or anything like that. I'm at school so all I had was the cafeteria's options and some apples in my dorm. Any advice would help. Thanks! Tue, 5 Jan 2016 22:09:22 EST Thanking someone several years later I've written a couple of times in the past about having been inpatient for depression. That was eight years ago. My going to the ER was not by choice, but, after speaking with the psychiatry resident who was on duty in the ER that day, he saw that I wasn't a danger to myself or anyone. He'd have sent me home, had I wanted, but he suggested that I admit myself in view of what we discussed and my previous 15 months. I took the suggestion, signed in and was there for 12 days, I think. Altho... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 18:47:57 EST Big JG I'm a 6'4" 320lb male who should be a 6'4" 230lb male. I suffer from Rheumatoid arthritis and my activity level has pretty much hit zero because of pain and inability to move easily. I really want to get back in better shape. I know I'll never be an Olympian but would really like to feel better about myself. Wish me luck Mon, 4 Jan 2016 19:01:49 EST Just joined Hi just joined SparkPeople. I know I need to do something. In August of 2014 my daughter, Sherri, died of cancer, and 5 days later my husband died of cancer. It has been a rough journey. It seems in the last 6 months I have started packing on weight. I was already to heavy and now I weight 10-12 pounds more. I am hoping to get my self back on track. With the grief and spending so much time alone gaining has been easy. I turn to food, when I am stresses. Thie last year and a half have been ver... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 16:38:18 EST Antidepressants and weight gain Hi all, <BR> <BR> I've slowly gained 20 pounds over the past 3 years. I started a new relationship back then, and am comfortable and happy - so...happiness they say. However, it has become worse with the addition of antidepressants. I've gained another 10 pounds since August (total of 30 pounds in the 3 years) when I started taking Cipralex 10 mg daily, and Remeron (7.5mg - 1/2 tab of the lowest dose) occasionally for sleep. Even that small dose makes me hungry. I am exercising at least 30 m... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 12:01:22 EST Hi, folks! I just started SP again on Jan. 1. I'd lost 65 pounds using this website a couple of years ago, but when things got rough in my life, I started abusing food again, so I've regained about half of that weight. <BR> <BR> I was tempted not to join this group, because despite the fact that I say depression is nothing to be ashamed of, apparently in my heart of hearts I don't believe that. I don't want anyone to know. <BR> <BR> However, the wiser part of me really does understand that there... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 21:37:46 EST New here Hi, I signed up a while back but finally here to come out of my shell. I was diagnosed with severe depression quite recently but I have had it all my life. I also have been thinking like a victim for a very long time but all that did was damage me in so many ways, such as putting on an obscene amount of weight. I hate how I look but fortunately it's still some time before it is summer and I need to start eating well and moving more, perhaps that will help me feel better. I am not worried abou... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 20:34:05 EST Communicating Mental Pain Hello All! <BR> I am in the beginning of stages of planning out a non-profit based on peer to peer connection for mental health. One of the goals around the organization is communicating mental pain effectively. I am curious if the published literature matches reality and to genuinely get a straw poll of how others tackle this consistent problem. <BR> <BR> How to do communicate mental pain or discomfort to family? friends? significant others? Sun, 3 Jan 2016 19:48:02 EST Determined to make a change! Hello all! <BR> I joined about a week ago- this is my second time on SparkPeople. I have yo-yo'd with my weight for years and am now committing to make a healthy lifestyle change so that the yo-yoing stops. I have two young boys, 2 and 4, and I want to have more energy for them. I also want to have more energy for me, but my biggest push is being a good role model for them, which includes having a healthy relationship with food (which is unfortunately very hard for me). <BR> <BR> I have 90 ... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 14:57:43 EST Hello! Hello! I am Jen and I am 35, single, and battling major depressive disorder. One of my ultimate life goals is to be able to manage my depression without the use of psychotropic medications and I feel that SparkPeople provides many useful tools that will enable me to eventually live a healthier and medication-free life. <img src=""> Sun, 3 Jan 2016 12:01:18 EST Checking In... I met my old boyfriend after many years. Although he's not currently available, meeting him has motivated me to start being willing to take better care of myself and to lose weight. Sun, 3 Jan 2016 09:48:23 EST Anyone familiar with FLR? Need advice desperately. Sun, 3 Jan 2016 05:56:52 EST New Day I'm 67 and a caregiver to my mother (87) who has dementia. I was going to Weight Watchers and decided to stop paying the $45 a month. I need a support system and Sparks seems to offer much more then WW. Your support system is totally amazing. I'm not sure if the Fitbit will work with Sparks but it stills tells me how many steps I take. As it is extremely late for me now (1 am) I will start my new adventure one step at a time. Sun, 3 Jan 2016 04:07:07 EST Hello looking to lose weight this year and need all of the support that I can get :) Sat, 2 Jan 2016 15:56:02 EST Hello Hi all, <BR> <BR> I'm not new to Spark People. I've been using it on and off for several years. I kind of hate tracking, but find it's necessary in order to manage my food intake. <BR> <BR> I've been taking anti depressants for six months now and have gained some weight. I'm not at my highest weight ever, but getting pretty close at 180 pounds now. It's very uncomfortable and now I have to make the effort to try and lose. <BR> <BR> Cheers, <BR> Chloe Sat, 2 Jan 2016 14:48:43 EST Yeap i'm here!! But i'm smiling and i'm excited about conquering depression and weight this year!!! Fri, 1 Jan 2016 19:57:44 EST Hello Hello all! I am a 29 yr old working mother of 3 and wife of an active duty airman. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for about 8 yrs now off and on. I was able to lose the weight with my first 2 children but not with the baby which in turn is affecting my depression! I am ready to get my life back together and learn to love myself again and get my weight back under control! Fri, 1 Jan 2016 13:54:54 EST Happy New Year from New Zealand We are now 10 minutes into 2016. We have finished with FIFTEEN YEARS in the new Millennium .... MAN time goes fast! <BR> <BR> Have a safe and Happy New Year everyone. <BR> <BR> Kris <BR> Thu, 31 Dec 2015 06:11:20 EST A double-edged cliche came true the happy way I don't mind when a cliche bears truth and when its truth bears out. What I mind is the dumbness of the cliche. That aside, one proved itself this morning and made a happy difference in my mood. If the following seems a bit "written" for a forum, it is. It's in progress for another location, but I thought of DWD as I was writing. <BR> ----------------------------------- <BR> <BR> "Today is December 30, 2015. Knowing that I would be buying more than I could carry home with my two tiny ha... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 15:21:54 EST Finally ready for change Hello everyone, I'm finally ready to get my life back instead of fighting it. My short term goals are simple. Exercise at least three times per week and eat healthier. Some of my long term goals are to lose 47 pounds to reach 225 and live a healthy lifestyle overall. I look forward to learning and supporting the groups I am part of. Wed, 30 Dec 2015 13:06:05 EST Having trouble sleeping? ....... ........ Then try this: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ticle.cfm?c_id=6&amp;objectid=11444015 </link> <BR> <BR> It is an interesting read, and a technique I have used at times, thinking it was all my own 'invention' - LOL! <BR> <BR> Kris Tue, 29 Dec 2015 17:19:31 EST New here! Hello there! My name is Melodie, I just want to introduce myself! I'm 25 and plan on doing things better in 2016! Tue, 29 Dec 2015 11:19:13 EST Hi to all Sparks People Hi, I joined Sparkpeople today because I need help losing weight. I have been over weight most of my adult life and have tried every diet program under the sun, they work short term but I alway regain the lost weight. My hope is to start by losing weight in 30 pounds increments. I love to quilt and be with my three cats and visit with my grand kids. I hope to meet some great members on this site. Thank you for any suggestions that you may have. Mon, 28 Dec 2015 22:42:42 EST In a pit Hello I'm dealing with depression, weight gain and health issues since the death of my mom in February.I want 2016 to be the year I take back control of my life Mon, 28 Dec 2015 15:33:08 EST Hi I am Jae...I suffer with Chronic Depression..which means it has been with me most of my life. I also suffer with SED...I want to lose weight..Makes it difficult when I want to turn to food for comfort. Glad to be a part of the team. Mon, 28 Dec 2015 11:15:56 EST Hi I am Shelia I am 55 years old and am 53lbs away from weighing 300lbs! I am 6ft tall, but this is much to heavy for even that. I was always skinny growing up. I gained a lot of weight in my early 30's, but did the Fat-Free Diet and lost 60lbs. I was able to keep it off for over 12 years and then thought that I could go back to eating everything that I wanted. I also quit exercising. Prior to this time, I did aerobics and walked. I just got off the road this past year. I was traveling for 8 years with my j... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 07:12:31 EST Over weight and over it! Hello I'm Dianah a 57 year old married woman over weight by 60 pounds. Does anyone live in Indiana and if so where. I live in Carlisle In. Mon, 28 Dec 2015 00:08:57 EST It's been a long time I feel like I have been putting my life on hold for quite a long while now. I used to be active and loved going places. I was starting to feel more upbeat and energetic. Everything feels so hopeless right now. I was so proud of myself as I have been weaning off Cymbalta and I was finally losing some much needed weight. All went to Hell. The 25lbs I lost found me again and I am back in a deep depression. I am in such a rut. I can't stand looking at myself. All I see is an over weight unhappy p... Sun, 27 Dec 2015 20:57:39 EST Don't try to fix me . . . I'm not broke, yet My name is Liz and I have always been skinny and not have to work for it. About 5 years ago I started taking a medication that has very low side affects except it makes you eat. I've gained 40 pounds and I am very depressed about it which isn't helpful. I have always been a very outgoing person but lately it seems I just push myself to do the things I have to do and seclude myself. However, I have decided that I am determined to lose the weight, quit smoking, stop drinking soda and get my lif... Fri, 25 Dec 2015 21:15:46 EST Journey of a thousand miles starts with one step! Hello dear team members! <BR> <BR> Hope you all had a lovely Christmas and are planning great resolutions for the new year! <BR> I thought I'd stop by to share some of the festive cheer and also the joyous state that I'm currently in :D <BR> <BR> I was a regular user of SP 5 months back and made a commitment to lose weight. However I fell off the wagon over time... work commitments got the better of me and also I felt guilty that I wasn't progressing as well, lots of talk but no real resul... Fri, 25 Dec 2015 18:09:22 EST NEWBIE Hi, My name is Heather. I am trying something new to lose weight Wed, 23 Dec 2015 11:20:48 EST Depression during certain time I was wondering if anyone else feels this way. I can go to work and feel fine. i am a fully functioning person. I am able to make decisions and put on a happy face. The moment I leave the office I depressed, I have anxiety, I can't sleep and just want to isolate and be by myself. I have a family which I love very much. I cancel engagements with other people because I just can't face seeing people. I don't know why I am able to turn it on and off? Does anyone have any insight. I woul... Tue, 22 Dec 2015 11:19:47 EST Hi There! Hi My name is Stefanie, and I am new to this is towards the end of my first week. I need to loose 60 lbs and my Body fat is around 37, and needs to be 18, so working hard. Sat, 19 Dec 2015 11:50:15 EST Hi, New Member I was looking for a forum to discus Nutrition and this looks like a great one! Thu, 17 Dec 2015 05:25:26 EST So proud! The concept of mental health recovery has been in my head for the last few months and I just have to share how proud of myself I am. I have been in various situations recently that were very much outside my comfort zone. Typically, I withdraw and allow either the anger, depression, anxiety, or all of the above to take charge. I had loved ones yelling at me for things that I know I didn't do and rather than retreat or attack, I said my peace and choose to walk away from those situations. It is... Wed, 16 Dec 2015 01:23:35 EST Most Days Are Sunny Hi, I am Sandra. While most days are sunny and I am okay some have a seeming never-ending black cloud. I am a nursing student and about three semesters away from graduation. It has been hard being away from family, and my bad habits took reign in my life. After some very dark weeks, I started to see some light. I have decided that what I need most is some radical self-care, each and every day. I have been doing fairly well and now I am ready to start taking more baby steps. I would like to lo... Mon, 14 Dec 2015 13:28:49 EST I need some hope <img src=""> Mon, 14 Dec 2015 12:30:02 EST Newbie Hi! This is my first day here. I have downloaded this app a million times, but finally decided to actually see if I can get what I need/want out of it, and give it a fair try. I can honestly say that my weight has always been a viscous cycle for me. I have struggled with it my whole life, and it has gotten worse after the birth of my youngest a little over 2 years ago. I dealt with horrible post-partem, and after a divorce and subsequent struggles, have had a hard time. I just started Lexapro... Sun, 13 Dec 2015 14:18:21 EST My Recovery, at Last? I've been feeling much better since Thanksgiving.I'm not experiencing anxiety attacks or depression for the most part. Maybe it's the holidays. I've given myself permission to take time off from working and have the excuse of the time of year. Retailers are busy, but not consultants - or at least not as much. I'm losing my anxiety around work issues and have actually started to think about planning for 2016. <BR> <BR> I experienced a mental health crisis this spring and summer. I ended up in... Fri, 11 Dec 2015 13:34:12 EST Hello! New to SP I joined 4 days ago. Been learning the tools and getting used to the site. I have been fighting my weight for a few years, and since August of last year, it has been much harder since my heart attack caused by a reaction to steroids for treatment of ezcema. I am a mom of two girls, 19 and 13 years old. I want to get healthy so I can be there for them and have fun with them. I understand to get physically healthy I need to be emotionally healthy, and vise versa. It seems overwhelming rig... Thu, 10 Dec 2015 06:11:43 EST Hello Hello! I just joined the team today. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression for years, it has been A rough year. I'm glad to be here to relate to others who are going through the same thing. I have been on SparkPeople for years. I once lost over 70 pounds, but I gave all that back plus more weight. I have gone back to using food as my comfort and that's never a good thing to do. Right now I'm in the habit of I eat either too much or not enough and need to get that under control. Loo... Tue, 8 Dec 2015 09:14:05 EST STARTING NEW JANUARY 1, 2016 HI, EVERYONE IM CHEROKEE AND I'M 340POUNDS AND IM HERE, BECAUSE DUE TO MY SICKNESS AND MY OWN FAULT ALSO, IM OVERWEIGHT BUT WITH GOD AND YOUR HELP, I KNOW I CAN DO IT, THANKS!!! Mon, 7 Dec 2015 16:06:09 EST HELLO! Hi, I'm Brianna! I am 23 years old and have two beautiful babies, a 5 year old girl and 7 month old boy. I have been dealing with some major anxiety and depression for the last few months. I just always feel like crying and I don't know what to do. I want to lose weight and be healthy. I was taking some medication for my depression but I decided to try and stop because I'm not much into taking pills. I am also engaged! Well, that's pretty much it! Have an awesome day! Mon, 7 Dec 2015 13:33:54 EST Just cause... I found the following list, on MindBodyGreen, of reminders to help when you get discouraged and wanted to share: <BR> <BR> 1. You are so much more than your setbacks. <BR> <BR> 2. You belong in this world just as you are. Celebrate your weird, quirky, beautiful self. <BR> <BR> 3. Your dreams matter and they want to be realized, so give yourself permission to dream more. <BR> <BR> 4. How your life feels is more important than how it looks. Trust yourself more. <BR> <BR> 5. When you sto... Fri, 4 Dec 2015 00:47:32 EST Emotional undertaking I wasn't sure what to title this topic because it's really just a slew of things I see that I do that bring me down. <BR> First I should start at when I noticed my problem. <BR> I started losing weight and got down to under 200lbs, but things went to hell in Sept of 2014. <BR> I lost my job and I was feeling a bit happy at first but the new job I have was more hard work and a longer day involved. <BR> Then I started to feel hurt and depressed when I started feeling like everyone in the hous... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 11:23:43 EST The scale is a villian I have given up on scales. I won't even let my Dr. tell me if I have lost or gained weight. I know I am losing because of my clothes, but I just don't care how much. I am okay with who I am. I am eating right mostly, and if I pass through the drive through I forgive myself and the next meal will be a good one. Wed, 2 Dec 2015 22:19:49 EST Hello I'm Larry and i wanted to join during the holiday season so i don't go out of control Tue, 1 Dec 2015 11:25:38 EST Hi I'm new Hello team of random strangers across the world, <BR> <BR> What a strange world we live in. So many different lives, so many of the same struggles. I am feeling heavy and depressed, going through culture shock after having moved abroad to be with my husband. In my thirties now; have gone down this road of seeking a healthy mind and body over and over again; and find myself back, seemingly, at the beginning, again. <BR> <BR> I feel like I have so many of the tools needed to live a healthy li... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 16:39:41 EST Hello, I'm a newbie to the team Hello, My name is Mary. I am 39. I live NV and work in the Tradeshow Industry. I stepped on the scale sometime back and saw the largest number I have ever seen. I was mad and sad at myself for allowing the weight to pile on. I went from a very busy, active, position at my job to a very sedentary, office, not-so-busy position. I love the outdoors but just no longer have the motivation or courage to go be in it. I am hoping that the support and people I meet will help. <BR> Thank you, <BR> Ma... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 16:33:58 EST Thank You for Existing! Hi, I'm RRLK1960, <BR> I appreciate this website and all of you on here so very much. I have repeating clinical depression and fibromyalgia. The depression keeps me from moving and has made me very overweight and weak. It is a struggle to move one minute. I am hopeful that there is someone out there who has been where I am or is there now that I can pair up with to have friendship, advice and in general help to get myself out of this lifestyle which is so unhealthly. I am a retired teacher wi... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 16:30:52 EST It is so hard to get out of bed some days Hi, I am new to this team. I am a 48 year old woman, Mom and wife. Overweight, and depressed with no reason to be. Exercise is the only thing that helps. I bike, walk, swim when my mood allows (getting into a bathing suit is sometimes too much to bear). I take 2 antidepressants and have Hyperthyroidism (go figure) and take meds for that. I love my animals and find humans hard to handle. I really have a hard time getting on my bike in the morning, but I know that if I do I will have a b... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 12:50:45 EST Video on binge eating from WebMD <link><BR>isorders/binge-eating-disorder/video/v<BR>ideo-binge-eating </link> Mon, 30 Nov 2015 09:32:15 EST Suggestions... How do you all deal with isolation and change? I am introverted and prefer to be alone or with a few loved ones, but when I start feeling resentment, anger, or frustration toward others because they do not understand and I can't explain or defend the way I feel and the solitude turns to loneliness, I know the depression is in charge. I am better about catching it early now, exercise really helps,as do reading, eating healthy, and checking in with loved ones. I have a counselor I talk to and h... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 01:45:16 EST Who's got a fitness wearable? I've been researching about getting one these wearables to help me "move". I've narrowed it down to my top 4: Garmin Vivosmart, Fitbit Charge, Fitbit Charge HR, and the Samsung Gear Neo. I'm still not 100% sold yet on any ONE of these. But in looking around on Spark, it looks like only the Garmin and the Fitbits can pair with Sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> Here's what I want in one of these 'wearables': Clock, Alarms (either set via phone or tracker, doesn't matter), MUST vibrate and MUST aler... Sun, 29 Nov 2015 12:06:27 EST Post Thanksgiving Diet Starter It's a silly time to start any kind of diet, right? But there will always be a reason not to start, every month has some holiday or event that interferes starting anything, December - Christmas, January - New Years, Avoiding News Resolutioners, February - Ground Hog's Day, Valentines Day, March - St Patricks Day, Easter, April - Tax Day, May - Memorial Day, June - MinervaCat's Birthday, July - Independence Day, August - Women's Equality Day, September - Labor Day, October - Halloween, Novem... Sat, 28 Nov 2015 11:35:05 EST How did you do over Thanksgiving? I am away from family, so I do not get to have a "Proper Thanksgiving" dinner very often--only when I fly back home. But every year that I have been away, I have had friends to spend the day with. This year I found myself sitting at table aware of all the differences and things that were "wrong" with the meal and the day, but then I realized that I had friends who had invited me and shared their family with me. So although it was not a meal I would have planned, not prepared the way I would h... Sat, 28 Nov 2015 03:07:11 EST Hello again! I was on Spark people quite a few years ago. I lost 60 lbs in 2009, but have gained and lost twice since then due to life getting in the way. Last year I had managed to stay around 140, but gained a bunch of weight back because I had a rib/spine injury and was very depressed due to being off work, going through a divorce and not being able to workout. I'm pretty determined to once and for all get things back under control and I realized the emotional eating has to stop. This time I want to lo... Thu, 26 Nov 2015 21:10:03 EST Hi Everyone I'm not new to SparkPeople but just started using the Fitbit tracker & reset my account and goals. I am looking for new Spark Friends and other Fitbit users to buddy up with & work on my goals for a healthier lifestyle. Mon, 23 Nov 2015 17:04:49 EST Fill in a word <BR> How to play: <BR> Copy the whole list to your post and fill in ONE (anyone you want) answer starting with the letter given. <BR> <BR> When the list is full, we'll move on to the next letter. <BR> <BR> Let's see how long it takes us to go through the alphabet. <BR> <BR> WORKING ON "N"For November then O so on <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. A child's toy - <BR> <BR> 2. Something in your wardrobe - <BR> <BR> 3. Something in your fridge - <BR> <BR> 4. A mood - <BR> <BR> 5. A film title ... Sat, 21 Nov 2015 09:54:14 EST Groucho, Robinson and Reynolds got Uptown Funk I hope this is new to you. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ce-oldies-classic-vintage-nostalgia-v2/ </link> Fri, 20 Nov 2015 19:54:24 EST HI, I'M NEW Trying to break all these bad habits and to learn to live with diabetes. Sometimes, it can be over whelming, 1 step up and 10 steps back. Fri, 20 Nov 2015 19:45:45 EST "Amy Poehler's Smart Girls" A feature on Amy Poehler in a today's email from, a career-oriented website, introduced me to her site designed to feed young girls' intelligence and curiosity in light of all the dumb things on the internet. The recap of an interview with Poehler about her views on career is worth reading for her ideas on work. The link to her website in the article doesn't work, but the one below does. While browsing the site I noticed an item on negative body image and ways to change it; this o... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 17:23:47 EST Heny Tucker of Lanham Maryland Hi my name is Henry, I have been battling my weight forever I quite smoking , retired and the struggler just got worst. All I can do is keep on trying , hope someone can wish me luck Wed, 18 Nov 2015 08:45:25 EST I'm Baaaackkkkkk!! Yes, starting a fresh new outlook on health and determined to make it more fun, more challenging. Health is my biggest goal more than losing the weight even. I had a scare I was sitting in a big chair in front of the TV and kept coughing what felt like a heart cough and it hurt, and it was scary and it was then that I determined to get healthier. NO MORE SITTING IN FRONT OF THE IDIOT BOX. I want to do more, read more, learn more and live a long and healthy life. Friday I walked a 5K on ... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 13:04:48 EST Water I am having trouble drinking enough water each day. Tue, 17 Nov 2015 10:11:22 EST abutton35 I am a 39 year old female that is looking for other fitbit codes so I have friends that will do challenges with me.. None of my life friends have fitbits or are even interested... as i offered to buy a few of them some just so i could get the most out of my fitbit and have ppl to challenge me... anyone want to help me out?? Mon, 16 Nov 2015 00:18:16 EST Great quotes for a bad day. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Need a pick me up. Need some motivation. I saw this on another team and thought it would be great for this team. I hope you like it. <BR> <BR> <link> id =18203&amp;memberid=972843 </link> Sun, 15 Nov 2015 12:03:33 EST Hello to newbies. Make this day be the start of a new and healthier and happier life for you. Sat, 14 Nov 2015 22:10:18 EST Newbie Here Hi everyone! I signed up a few years ago, but this is the first time that I have been checking out the SparkPeople website to see what features there are. <BR> <BR> About me, my name is Teana and I'm 27 years old from Northern California. I currently suffer from depression (nearly my whole life but it's been officially diagnosed about a year ago). My mother suffers from Manic/Bipolar Depression and Borderline Personality Disorder so life at home was so miserable at a very young age and even... Fri, 13 Nov 2015 18:05:15 EST Thank you <em>304</em> everyone for being here! My life is mostly that of isolation, for many reasons beyond my control, so knowing you all are here to "talk" with everyday brings light and smiles to my life! <em>304</em> <em>247</em> Fri, 13 Nov 2015 17:03:55 EST Introduce myself Hi, my name is Nikki. I been diagnosis of depression since 2009 when I had a preterm pregnancy at 21 weeks. Yep never an easy topic with most people. Fri, 13 Nov 2015 01:37:56 EST new but not Hello my name is shellbie I am a single mother i have depression anxiety and am a compulsive eater oh and on top of that im a professional chef ugh and anyway im here to get healthy and feel better about myself so pop over to my page friend me say hi I could use the support and conversation! ! Wed, 11 Nov 2015 21:44:38 EST Hi I am new also I am a grandmother of 9 and they keep me busy. I have recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and on chemo. It did not help my depression but I am doing well. The biggest problem is that chemo causes fatigue and no one understands. They all say take a nap or my daughter the gymnastics coach says just get up and go and it doesn't work that way I need encouragement not smart comments Wed, 11 Nov 2015 14:54:11 EST Hi I am new also I am a grandmother of 9 and they keep me busy. I have recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and on chemo. It did not help my depression but I am doing well. The biggest problem is that chemo causes fatigue and no one understands. They all say take a nap or my daughter the gymnastics coach says just get up and go and it doesn't work that way I need encouragement not smart comments Wed, 11 Nov 2015 14:53:37 EST Thank you! A big hug to each of you for your warm welcome and providing more understanding and support than I have received in a very long time! <BR> <BR> Blessings to each of you on your journey! Tue, 10 Nov 2015 01:21:27 EST giving up I feel like I've kind of given up. Not officially, but I haven't been working out or counting calories. I just have no energy. I'm stressed, I'm having headaches and earaches all the time and we don't know why. I'm tired. I'm trying to just accept myself at my current weight. But I feel insecure and not pretty. I just dont feel well. Mon, 9 Nov 2015 16:48:06 EST Hi! Can't remember if I introduced my self or not, so here I go. I am a 74 year old grandmother of 5 with 2 artificial hips,1 artificial shoulder, and 2 artificial knees. Some call me the bionic woman. Not quite. I have been depressed for many years. Been in therapy off and on for years. Been on several meds. Earlier this year my mother - to whom I was really close - died and a month or so later my body fell further apart. The arthritis seems to be eating up my joints like PAC-man (if any... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 00:24:48 EST Depression, self esteem, fear; all linked Hi I am a 31 year old female who has struggled with depression and weight all my life. The heavier I get the more my self esteem drops and the more depressed I become. When I was a teen I rode and trained horses. I have always been heavy (genetic trait) but I wasn't unhealthy. My legs were pure muscle and I was proud of that fact. I knew I would never be skinny but it didn't stop me from wanting to be one of the popular, thin, cheerleaders. I have aspergers so I struggle not only with d... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 23:53:54 EST lazy and unmotivated Hello, <BR> <BR> I'm a 55 year old overweight female. I struggle with consistency and motivation. I have severe depression which is unmedicated due to intolerance to most drugs. I'm a mess and need to take action but honestly I need help. My husband is very supportive but I need more help. I feel like I disappoint him in my lack of consistency. I would love to have a friend or mentor to help me make some type of progress. I do pretty good with my diet but cant seem to find an exercise I en... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 12:07:34 EST Anxiety cartoon This was sent by the same friend who sent the poem, "Why You Should Go Outside at 4:40 am in November," which is in the Healthy Living forum as topic "A poem for November." <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Sat, 7 Nov 2015 23:01:12 EST Hi I am Mischief! Hi I am 30 years old and I weigh 300lbs! I want to lose at least 135lbs by next year and looking to make some friends, maybe even some accountability partners along my journey! Please talk to me! I would love to get to know and help you as well! Sat, 7 Nov 2015 16:02:37 EST Procrast natingly new... Hi! I'm Tanya. 34 fulltime mom and housewife and I'm bipolar depressive. That along with an injury from a 3 year ago car accident make it difficult to get and stay active. Joined Spark Nov '14 first log in today 1 year later. 3 years ago I was at 270 and active. By Feb '15 I was 457. Today Nov '15 I am at 389+/-. Just wanted to say hi! <em>524</em> Sat, 7 Nov 2015 05:03:31 EST A poem of November "Healthy Living" is the forum that makes sense to me. A friend (not the poet) sent it as a gift. I want to share it with you. <BR> <BR> Laurie <BR> <BR> <BR> "Why You Should Go Outside at 4:40 am in November" by Rosemary Royston <BR> <BR> Because it is more silent than you can imagine <BR> and above you the moon is a nickel <BR> glinting from the unseen sun, <BR> surrounded by broken crystals. <BR> <BR> With the limbs of the bare trees <BR> web-spread like arteries, <BR> under a sky wh... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 15:06:26 EST This never happened to me before - and I feel good For the first time in my life, I believe, I got a "second wind" (I guess that's what it was). For the first time I can remember, I did not want to quit exercising. <BR> <BR> My goal is 30 minutes a day. Most of my exercise is on the exercise bike. Early this morning I did 15 minutes at a fairly slow pace--slow is all I can do in the early morning. Later in the evening I was going to do the other 15 minutes. I started at a faster pace (12-15 mph rather than 10 mph) and kept going. I did 30 mi... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 21:20:50 EST A new start and new journey I moved to Hawaii one year ago with the purpose of getting healthy, sad to say I've gained 12 pounds and injured my knee and hip which had stopped me from exercising. Also developed high blood pressure which I am sure is stress related. So I now am going to stop the excuses and do what I set out to do in the first place. Get Healthy Sun, 1 Nov 2015 14:53:48 EST November words Fill in NOVEMBER with words associated with the month November. <BR> <BR> N-Nuts <BR> O <BR> V <BR> E <BR> M <BR> B <BR> E <BR> R Sun, 1 Nov 2015 10:44:01 EST Hi I'm new Hi my name is Lisa. I'm 30 years old and a mom of 3 kids. I am struggling with ptsd and depression which hinders my motivation to stay on top of my goal. My goal is to lose 200lbs. I want to become healthier. I gained 200 lbs from baby weight, pcos and stress. Trying to balance my insulin resistance is also tough. I'm really glad there is a supportive group who understand. Fri, 30 Oct 2015 20:17:48 EST New to the team Hi I am Jennie and I am new to the team. I have lots of weight to lose and I also struggle with depression a lot. I am looking forward to being a part of the team and getting to know everybody. <img src="">I love to read and also I write a lot of poetry. Fri, 30 Oct 2015 08:10:29 EST Don't know what to do next I have not felt that good for most of this year, we did have a holiday in June which was good apart from Michael's mood changing halfway though the week, we also had a few days way earlier this month but again his mood was not good before and it is not now. <BR> I spend so much time on my own, I do go to several craft groups but all are in the day time apart from one. I have friends but find talking to them hard, I have had several sets of counselling but used up all the time now. Thu, 29 Oct 2015 15:20:06 EST Abuse/ Does It Ever Get Better Do these feelings ever get better? Its been three years since my sexual abuse which I went through for two years ended. I've dealt with nightmares and flashbacks and everything else. But it feels like its just now sinking in that it actually happened to me. Its not something I just made up in my head, its not something I can change. It hurts that somebody took something that's supposed to be great and ruined it for me. I can't get that back and it just hurts. This is what I imagine having som... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 23:12:54 EST Toda is the first day of the rest of my life I've been on countless diets. I've managed to not gain ALL of the weight I've lost, but have put 50 of 89 back on. I have well over 100 to lose. I'm very excited to learn of the diabetic tracking and challenges and team offered here! I was going to join Weight Watchers (again) but I think everything I need and then some is HERE! I have been dealing with stage 4 cancer for almost 7 years (given 3 months to live in Dec. 2008!) and have managed to beat that beast and keep on breathing and l... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 20:56:56 EST Steps I took to fight depression Hi, my name is Danny and I've been struggling with depression since I was 12. Eventually I was diagnosed with a Borderline Personality Disorder and I tried to commit suicide at least 4 times... the last one 6 months ago. <BR> Today I'm happy, functional and enjoying my life. What changed in this last months for me to change to an opposite mindset? <BR> The answer: almost everything. But I had to give the first step to change things and for me this first step was changing my eating habits.... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 12:51:28 EST New member wants to know about depression meds... Hi everyone, I just joined Spark today. I am in recovery and when I got sober in 2009, I began gaining a lot of weight. I was taking Serequel for depression and sleep and it seems I was always hungry! I stopped taking it when the weight started piling on. However, I do take Effexor. Does anyone know if Effexor causes weight gain? Has anyone else had problems with depression meds and weight gain? Mon, 26 Oct 2015 02:44:56 EST Hello everyone Hello, <BR> My name is Sherri. I started out at 230 lbs and had the gastric bypass done 4 years ago. I got myself down to 125 lbs. I started neglecting my excersizing and also found foods that agree with me without me getting sick. I found myself gaining weight. I am currently at 155 lbs. I desperately need to find a healthy diet that will help me get back to 125 lbs. along with getting back into the gym. I hope to get to know all of you and to get some tips. <BR> Thank you, <BR> Sherri Sat, 24 Oct 2015 21:43:01 EST New Here Hi. I am 38 (almost 39) years old and live in Arizona. I am married, and we have two dogs and two cats. I joined SparkPeople to work on my health goals. I feel like the trackers are helpful, because everything going on with me is linked. I deal with depression, grief, chronic pain, insomnia, health issues related to PCOS and high blood pressure, and of course being obese. Really all these issues just make up one picture of low overall health. My depression often prevents me from doing th... Thu, 22 Oct 2015 16:29:27 EST Article: Why midlife people stay unhappily married A team member recently wrote about feeling devastated by her parents' announcement that they'd divorce after 40+ years. I don't recall which member and can't find the topic. <BR> <BR> This article from Huffington Post may be helpful to her or others in making some sense of the situation and finding her own peace of mind. <BR> <BR> . <link><BR>ary/why-midlifers-stay-unhappily-marri<BR>ed_b_8281928.html?ncid=txtlnkusaolp00000592 </link> Wed, 21 Oct 2015 09:05:34 EST Hi! I've never really used message boards before so this will be an experience. <BR> <BR> My name is Angela. I am an over 40 mom of 6 and glam ma of 2. I work from home and homeschool my youngest 3. I have lost weight in the past (50 pounds) but gave up when I got depressed. I am an emotional/boredom eater. So I've gained back 35 pounds. I know I can lose the weight. Just keeping it off when life strikes is my issue. <BR> <BR> I look forward to making new friends and encouraging others. Wed, 21 Oct 2015 07:24:25 EST Getting back on the horse So I made the mistake of stopping my Wellbutrin for about two months. Of course, I start losing motivation again, lose interest in things that used to matter to me (like getting healthy and losing weight), and I of course start FEELING like crap again to where I'm tired all the time and have to peel myself out of bed in the mornings and force myself to go to work. thank God for my kids or I don't know that I would get out of bed. Can't believe I did this to myself. I should know better as a n... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 10:41:34 EST you know it will pass I had a black dog day last week.Really bad. I would work for 3 days, get overtired and sleep for the next 2 days. I don't want to see anyone, answer the phone, get dressed, clean the house, not even brush my teeth, I only want to sleep and eat when I get like that. I realize that I also have some very good days where I can turely say that I feel happy. I also realize that if I make myself get outside, even if it is to just sit outside with my coat on and read for a while, it helps. Shut off t... Sun, 18 Oct 2015 21:34:59 EST Greetings fro Switzerland I have joined multiple teams so here is my intro for them all: <BR> <BR> My name is Carmen, I am 51 and live just outside of Zurich in Switzerland. I am married and have two sons ages 16 and 20. <BR> <BR> Over the past couple of years I have managed to gain more than 10 kilos / 22 pounds... I do not recognize myself. <BR> <BR> I have been diagnosed with osteoporosis (after I fell and broke my wrist 1.5 years ago) and struggle with anxiety and depression (life long). I have been vegetarian ... Fri, 16 Oct 2015 04:34:16 EST New to SP Hi all! My name is Melissa and I am new to SP. I'm looking to change my lifestyle, gain fitness, lose weight and feel better. Hoping that SP can help! I know that exercise and healthy eating can have a huge impact on mood, so I'm holding out hope. Thanks!! Thu, 15 Oct 2015 21:29:01 EST Trying again I'm Kelly. I'm trying again. Between the weight, migraines, depression and anxiety... something needs to change, then maybe it will all change!! I seem to never have the motivation and energy to exercise. The times when I finally do get up to do it, my blood pressure goes up, I get all red-faced, and a migraine starts. I'm very unhappy with the way I feel in my own skin. I'm not sure what to do to start out (and have the motivation to do so) and maybe build my way up to regular exercise, with... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 19:13:41 EST So much has changed!!! I was on here 4 years ago and lost and maintained my weight until I lost my leg. I came back because the food and support were amazing.!!!! but I re-joined tonight and realize that a few things have hanged. Is the menu and work out plans no longer available? I am the type person that NEEDS directions, lol. I like having my meals planned out for me. Is that option gone ? Thu, 15 Oct 2015 00:29:35 EST <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Select an image and, by maneuvering the angles and observing all the details, determine where you are. You can start in a country or city that's familiar or jump in with both feet -- examine an image that provides no man-made clues. <BR> <BR> Especially in the case of images of the natural world, don't make wild guesses. For example, if you see banana trees, it's unlikely that you're in Canada. In all cases, think of everything you know as a guide.... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 08:36:26 EST Parents seperation after 40+ years After more than 40 years of arguments and pain, my parents have decided that they can't be together anymore. My 2 brothers and I are devasted. We're all 3 in our thirties and we knew this day would come someday but never really put too much thought into it. We thought it was just their way. We run a family business which makes it harder as they're aren't speaking to each other. With my depression and maybe because i'm the oldest i'm having a really hard time dealing with this emotional nightm... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 17:33:45 EST Just a beginner I am going through some rough times. I had back surgery 2-1/2 yrs ago and it seems I am having trouble again. I have a stimulate implanted and so I can have a MRI, so NEXT Monday I am having a Cat Scan. I am depressed because I am in paid continually. Couldn't sleep most of last night - so I am up now waiting for my pain med to set in. Reading your posts has giving me a little spark. If I had friends to go do things with, it might help. I miss my family (in another state), and work is ... Mon, 12 Oct 2015 05:20:40 EST Really low I have been slipping back into my depression lately. I was on meds for maybe two years, got off of them in June, and now am having trouble again. I reached the point of suicidal thoughts today which it rarely gets to for me. I have been seeing a therapist but haven't been working out or on medicine. I don't know what I hope will come from this post I guess I just haven't felt supported by people here because nobody understands what its like, and I feel alone and scared in this. Sun, 11 Oct 2015 22:32:53 EST Giving this a try !! I'm overweight due to back issues I can not work out and I've gained so much weight and need help. Sun, 11 Oct 2015 09:41:32 EST HI I'm Jane... HI I am Jane. <BR> I have been dealing wiith depression and social anxiety for the past ten years. I can be very perfectionistic, which often leads to binge eating. Today I went over my calorie allowance which made me a bit stressed. I am trying to teach myself it is ok and to be be flexible, there is no right or wrong. <BR> <BR> Being highly anxious means I often isolate myself, even though I am really quite a social person (that doesn't make sense.....) I don't really have friends anymor... Sun, 11 Oct 2015 07:45:05 EST new to spark people.... New to spark people, not sure what to put here. I am obese and I have been since I was in my teens, 42 now. I have just gotten to the point where I am just sick and tired of being this heavy. I want to be at a healthy weight and I know that is going to take years, I weigh a little over 350 pounds with many medical conditions including bone on bone arthritis in both knees. My main problem is motivation, I have a hard time staying motivated. Not too familiar with spark people, I guess I will le... Sat, 10 Oct 2015 18:46:46 EST Hi my name is Bobbie I am a 64-year-old female in moderate health I try to walk at least 30 minutes every day. I have a Garmin Vivofit fitness band and have questions about how to use it. Can anyone help me with this? Fri, 9 Oct 2015 10:04:56 EST