SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Welcome! This is a space for anyone dealing with depression to support each other as we eat right, exercise, lose weight, and find ways to manage our depression. SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Introduction My name is Stacy, I am 42 years old, and have been a T1D for 41 years. I am new to this group and to this site. Very happy that I found this community. Also having been Diabetic for so long I am more than willing to give advice, and opinions on medications, meters, and pumps I've had experience with. Just ask and if I'm able to assist, I will certainly do so. Nice to "meet" you all! Sun, 12 Feb 2017 05:19:41 EST Self care going out the window I realized today that I used to get my exercise more regularly... eat better.... binge less.... and now I'm lucky to get up in enough time to dress properly and throw my hair in a ponytail.... its like I don't even care about how I look anymore or about taking care of myself......when did I stop caring???!!! This is a new low for me.....and it scares me :-( Thu, 9 Feb 2017 10:03:22 EST The Mental Health Side of Weight Loss Elizabeth Lowry (SPELIZABETH1) <BR> Assistant Editor <BR> Is needing some help. Please read the short post in the link, and if you can, help her. This would benefit many MANY people. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>oard.asp?imboard=7&amp;imparent=408653<BR>77&amp;strViewThisPage=1 </link> <BR> <BR> Thanks, <BR> Kris Wed, 8 Feb 2017 15:12:14 EST My husb and I Hi dear friends <BR> So here it is- <BR> <BR> My husband is always and I mean ALWAYS fixed to his mobile. <BR> It's been three years &amp; yes we do have our appreciation moments but then I'm not sure. <BR> <BR> 1) he travels a lot. He got back for for four days &amp; leaves Monday. But, then we have had no moments to ourselves. <BR> Our 'bedroom' life or sex life is almost nil. <BR> <BR> 2) I had a bad moment yesterday and I was crying he was sitting there listening but, then he had noth... Sat, 4 Feb 2017 11:33:51 EST Returning after losing and gaining again Hi, I lost weight about 3 yrs ago and I have gained it all back and more. I have thyroid issues and it has also been more difficult to lose weight and also feel better. I am hoping to get back into shape and find the motivation here again. I must feel better and also get healthy again. I am sure I will accomplish it if I keep it up! Sat, 4 Feb 2017 11:23:36 EST mama1234563 Hi! I'm Sharon from Kentucky. I joined spark people to add to my accountability and also to feel supported by and offer support to others on our journey to healthier living. I especially need the support of others, as I have a tendency to get discouraged and quit. I have, however, come a long way in my decision that I am worth the effort! Fri, 3 Feb 2017 16:38:20 EST Addictive self soother I over eat sweets, I don't exercise, consistently, I'm a recovering alcoholic and a cigarette smoker, Oh and I'm dyslexic, I welcome all support, thanks. Thu, 2 Feb 2017 10:18:01 EST Cello Ahoy hoy. <BR> <BR> Old new member of sparkpeople here. Been here before multiple times, but back with a new attitude, and better self confidence. <BR> <BR> I do experience depression, but have also had some hypomanic episodes which caused a whole ruckus, but was generally pretty entertaining at the time. <BR> <BR> Also tend to have this jerk called anxiety who likes to make life hell for me on occasion. I've seen people say, "my anxiety" this, and that, but I don't refer to it as my anxie... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 08:48:57 EST IS BEING SELF EMPLOYED THE ANSWER? hi i have a question, do you think it is better for people who suffer from depression and anxiety to be self employed rather than working for someone or something? can you give me your ideas? thanks! Sun, 29 Jan 2017 09:19:41 EST Newly Diagnosed Hello everyone. I've recently been diagnosed with depression after struggling for over a year with what I thought were symptoms of hypothyroidism. I'm feeling a little lost and confused with this information, but hoping that the treatment plan I was given (antidepressant and therapy) will help. <BR> <BR> I am a single mom to one almost 13 year old boy. I'm a licensed teacher working as an administrative assistant in a school after my position was eliminated and I was unable to find another. ... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 09:00:12 EST hello I am a 71 year old who has been told by my Dr. that I have to loose weight. Cut the carbs he says. So here goes. I know I will feel better and it will solve my heath issues by doing this. So here I am and the treadmill is set up as well so lets hope I can stick to it. Sat, 28 Jan 2017 14:11:30 EST Hi Everyone! I've been diagnosed with depression for over 25 years and 8 years ago I suffered a grievous injury that had me quite disabled for several years. Needless to say, the depression really escalated. I'm on the other side of all that now, but I'm hauling around an extra 40+ pounds due to the inactivity and stuffing my face when I'm feeling down. <BR> <BR> I'm a pro "starter" of weight loss programs. LOL When I start to slide though or have a bad day, I end up feeling bad and end up losing all th... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 08:35:23 EST Just getting started Hello, I'm a 45 years old. Four years ago I was diagnosed with manic depression, bi-polar disorder and anxiety induced OCD. <BR> <BR> I have worked very hard with therapy and meds to level myself out to a functioning state. As of last week my doctor let me know that my physical health has declined and its time to do something about it. So while I'm on the upswing in the bi-polar spectrum I'm trying to concentrate on the healthy eating and trying to exercise. I've been told that this w... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 12:23:39 EST BEING NEW HERE HI I JUST JOINED THIS FORUM TODAY, HOPING THIS WILL BE A GOOD THING FOR ME TO HELP ME HELP MYSELF WITH MY UPS AND DOWNS.... <em>249</em> Wed, 25 Jan 2017 15:24:05 EST Hello Hi I'm Laura. I have Bipolar Disorder 2 with mostly depressive episodes. I have a lot of weight to lose (100 lbs). I am a full time music teacher and mom and wife. I love walking outside, doing yoga, reading and hanging out with my family. Listening to music helps calm me and I am working on eating healthier and exercising more... I also have lots of physical ailments, but I am working through those too. Just wanted to introduce myself... <BR> <BR> Laura Sat, 21 Jan 2017 14:08:27 EST Hi! Happy to be here Heloo! I am looking to form healthy habits, including eating 'like a normal person'! I think i just need a bit of daily support and hopefully to support others. I dont count calories or do temporary diets as i just feel restricted then eat more. Im quite stressed atm but i think i need to still try to eat normally, because a bit of weight loss might help me feel better! Looking forward to meeting people on here. <BR> Fri, 20 Jan 2017 00:53:17 EST I want to enjoy every second Hi <BR> <BR> Im new to SparkPeople but have been on CalorieCount(shutting down in March) since 2011. Ive decided to really put my whole heart into it here and have been logging every day since I joined. I have also been making the effort to keep my heart happy which to me means paying attention to what I let into my life and my body, no animal products, nothing that has been tested on animals and less alcohol :) I want to be my healthiest me which includes mind, body and heart. <BR> <BR> T... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 09:51:45 EST Meet Mama P I am excited to be joining this site. So many great opportunities for support. Looking forward to the next 30+ years of life in a healthy, joy filled, productive way. Leaving 30 years of grief, loss, illness, fear and doubt in the dust!! Thanks to my friend Amy for introducing me and being my accountability partner in this journey. May this journey ignite a positive spark. Wed, 18 Jan 2017 16:50:54 EST Trying to Find My Happy Place. Hello! My names Kimberly. I have tried using this site several times and didn't succeed. Well, this time I have found more motivation and I am ready to start something new. I currently am struggling with my depression. It keeps me up most nights. I used to be able to control it with reading and writing but lately that doesn't seem to help. I am turning to diet and exercise. I heard somewhere that a daily exercise routine can help improve someones mood so here I am again reaching out. Wed, 18 Jan 2017 14:55:44 EST Fear of being JUDGED Coming from a broken home and as an addict in recovery and so much more I am a shame to mention. I have fear of being judged or be frowned upon because of me and my past. I dont know why I feel this way. I have overcame and dealt with that part of my life and given myself time to recover and move on. Now that I'm on track and want to do "normal" things Ive never given myself the chance to do, I freak out cuz all the emotions from my past creep up on me 1 by 1. I feel that all this and more ha... Tue, 17 Jan 2017 08:50:15 EST Having a rough time of it I had one of the most difficult counseling appointments yesterday. I try to leave everything in that office when I leave, but this time I just can't seem to do that. I did not sleep at all last night because I had too much on my mind and now I am feeling it today at work. It is going to be a very long and tiring day. I can't seem to pull myself together and out of the funk that I am in. Tue, 17 Jan 2017 07:56:13 EST Starting SparkPeople today Hi Everyone, <BR> My name is Cindy, 53 yrs old, married, and stay at home wife. I get pretty bored when my better half is out of town working 2-3 weeks at a time. We just moved from Florida to Alabama to be close to the grandkids 2, 8 and 15 all boys. <BR> don't know anyone yet. I am not much of a people person. I have knee and back problems, so I need a program at home. My doctor told me I needed to lose weight and solve my low energy. I am addicted to the computer or busy making a quilt. I ... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 17:20:58 EST *insert overused title here* Hi I'm Stacy, freelance artist and stay at home mom. Also an owner of an anxiety disorder along with depression. I had gastric bypass in 2011 and lost a lot of weight, then gained half of it back due to a drinking problem I developed I think mostly because after my bypass I couldn't take any antidepressants that worked anymore. <BR> But now I have a fitbit and have stopped drinking as of january 1st and have been tracking my food intake and just generally trying to take better care of myself... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 21:42:44 EST I really want to do this! Hi, I was in a car accident 18 yrs ago and gained 90 lbs.u I don't motve well. I tend to focus on what I can't do rather than what I can. . I can do light exercise and ride a bike. Would love to get myself back in the pool. Joined Spark People for help and support Sun, 15 Jan 2017 20:48:50 EST Just me Not sure what y'all would like to know. I'm a 50+ female that has suffered from an odd form of bipolar disorder for most of my life. I am here to improve myself in all ways possible and that means getting the depression side of things back under control. I have been through a LOT including the lovely drug therapies, so if you have any questions, feel free to ask. If I do not know something I will tell you and then go off on a quest to find the answer. Sat, 14 Jan 2017 14:05:48 EST Another newbie here! Hello all! <BR> I just joined today and am here to live a healthier life because of some health issues I have. I'm 26 years old, turning 27 this year. I hope to make some friends to join me in both my bad and good days during this journey! I've been depressed since childhood and also have problems with anxiety. It's not as bad with any of those these days though, but sometimes I have worse periods as well. I don't really know what else to write, so please feel free to ask questions! Sat, 14 Jan 2017 13:57:24 EST Weight Loss Ticker? Could someone please tell me how to find the weight loss ticker? This is my first day and I would like to add it to my Spark page to follow my weight loss and to hopefully motivate others who visit my page. :) Sat, 14 Jan 2017 11:35:02 EST Hello Hello I'm new to the group and the site and everything. Fighting a depression. My husband and I are getting over the flu and it's very very cold outside I haven't left the house much lately. With challenges weights and video I've gotten some exercises so that's a start. Sat, 14 Jan 2017 06:23:22 EST a little about myself hello, <BR> i am charlette i have 3 children 1 boy 2 girls <BR> i have 2 babies that died in the womb one being recent back in october. <BR> i had the surgery in november and i was told i needed to get healthy and it has pushed me to finally getting things together. my weight goes up and down and by joining here i am hoping to gain control over my wight gain, heal and refine myself in the process. Fri, 13 Jan 2017 01:09:00 EST Depression is affecting my earning ability Hi everyone. First, let me tell you that I have been diagnosed as "treatment resistant." I've taken every single anti-depressant there is, and within 6 months, I'm at maximum dose and then they stop working. So going to the doctor is not going to help. They have given up on me. <BR> <BR> I can usually pull myself out of my depression long enough to function halfway normally. I work from home, and I'm in control of how much and when I work, which is the only way I can work due to my depressio... Wed, 11 Jan 2017 18:28:52 EST Hi Everyone Hi all, <BR> <BR> I'm not new to SP but I'm new here. I used SP in my initial weight loss journey years ago and have returned to help myself with accountability now that it's all back after grad school and beginning my career. I never suffered with depression until last year when my boyfriend, tragically passed away. We both knew from the start this was "it" and we were on the fast track to our happily ever after. Nearly a year later (a year in less than a week, wow), I am ready to s... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 16:59:16 EST introduction HI!! I'm new to all this and I'm hoping that with the right support from people who go through the same things in life can give motivation to me as well as i to others. I'm 28 and a single mother of a 7 year old. And all I want is to overcome my depression and emotional eating so I can give myself and daughter a happier healthier life. I've started over the summer but had many ups and downs, but have lost 15lbs so far, but still need to lose about 80 more. I'm hoping support from spark will g... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 20:26:10 EST Carol I am a grandmother of 1, a retired Probate Paralegal of 38 years, and have been diagnosed with NASH a few years ago and just days ago I have been diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease and full blown type 2 diabetes. Medications affect my cirrhosis so I need to lose 50 pounds and get back to good and healthy living. I am raising my 6 year old grandson and have many stressful times with my daughter, his mother. I also need to learn how to handle the stresses in my life without letting them tota... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 18:52:01 EST I'm brand new to this! I'm Angie and I have just joined SparkPeople. I'm very nervous right now! I'm not good at dieting or exercising. I'm 57 yrs. old and would like to lose 95 lbs. When I was 21, I never imagined that I would gain so much weight! But 30 years later, bad relationships, being a sing mom, a divorce, and currently in a sad marriage, I've given up on me. I don't want to give up. Now that I've joined Sparks, I have to be accountable. In all honesty, I am scared to death! I'm afraid I'll fail. ... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 15:01:20 EST 2017 Im taking my life back! Im 37 yrs old and have fought my weight my whole life my kids are grown and out of the house so its my time to work on me!! Fri, 6 Jan 2017 11:19:21 EST New Diagnosis Its been an interesting year. Fell off the bandwagon too many times to count last year. Had a suck year financially. The one thing good that has come out of all of it was my coming to terms with my new diagnosis of Bipolar 2. It explained a lot of my behaviors while not minimizing my depression. I didn't realize that if you wake up out of a dead sleep at 2am and have a driving need to clean your kitchen that minute it would be considered a manic episode. Manic episodes aren't like they ... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 01:05:51 EST Getting up again I've had lots of setbacks in my life. Its just time to get up again! I'm about 50 lbs heavier than i want to be, so here i am. I'm planning on loosing 2 lbs per week and reaching my first goal by July 4th. I'm going to walk 5 miles a day to loose the first pound per week and im going to cut 500 calories per day to loose the 2nd pound per week. <BR> Some of my setbacks include Amputated right foot (Hit by 16 year old driver while i was jogging) <BR> right shoulder messed up in same acciden... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 06:44:30 EST Hi, new here Hey. My name...well, just call me Tiger, if that's all right. I've been overweight for a long time, probably because of depression meds I used to take screwing with my metabolism, but that's just a theory. I know a big part of it's because I'm lazy XD. Trying to change that. <BR> <BR> I do suffer from depression, but I try not to let that define me. It's an ongoing battle, of course. I just hope to be able to drop 50 pounds or so and put myself at a healthy weight. I used to be motivated, I ... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 23:09:15 EST My name is Kelly I have 2 babies, Sophie will be 5 in February and Sammuel will be 2 in September. I have been battling depression since Sophie was born. I was 18 at the time and thought my whole world was ending. It got worse when Sophie's dad left me after she was born. I am taking medication for it. It helps most days but everyone has their "downs". I don't really eat all that much but most of the things I eat are not really healthy (if at all). So here is the "New Year New Me" chant about getting my life ... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 16:03:19 EST Hoping to lose weight Hello all, I am joining today hoping to lose 25 lbs by my 60th birthday April 14th I know that following this program I have a better chance than doing it alone. Mon, 2 Jan 2017 18:55:07 EST Birdies! I love my birds, but I don't put out the feeder till later in the season. We get hummingbirds galore down here in NM. Last year I had the pleasure of watching a pair of orioles trying to drink out of the hummingbird feeder. It was hilarious! <BR> <BR> Right now I have curve billed thrashers, doves, quail, and further toward the river there are sandhill cranes squawking up a storm. I love our birds. <BR> <BR> In other news I am starting back up with walking. Day two of managing to get on th... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 18:44:21 EST New username: Sexybeans I have been wanting to embrace my physical body in a new way and am finally brave enough to do that. I have decided to go with a new username. One that entails my new decision: Sexybeans. I always thought of being sexy as sinful. But, the more I think about it, the more I want to think of myself that way. It's not awful or dirty or sinful as I was taught. I mean, part of me still thinks that, but, it is who I am. I want to embrace it and enjoy it. Mon, 2 Jan 2017 05:26:10 EST Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Hi I,m a new member and wanted to introduce myself and ask for help. I have been in a dark place for quite a while with a number of health issues which make it very difficult for me to exercise. The CFS means I sleep a lot and have little to no energy, whilst the depression means I cry a lot and have little motivation. My darling husband of 41 years of marriage is slowly dying of alzheimers (he was diagnosed in 2010) and I am finding it extremely difficult todeal with the whole situation. <BR... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 20:45:31 EST Treating depression with diet? My doctor wants me to go grain free because he says it causes inflammation and interferes with hormone balance. He thinks the change will help with my depression, migraines, arthritis, and effects of multiple sclerosis. Has anyone else been told this? Anyone tried dietary changes to treat any medical issues? I also need to lose about 90 pounds so I am going to try to do both at once. Sat, 31 Dec 2016 10:56:04 EST Thinking about quitting therapy Hi All <BR> <BR> I'm thinking about quitting therapy for good next year. My therapist means well and is usually nice. She has said many hurthful things but she says she does not mean to hurt me intentionally. I am extremely sensitive so I wonder is it me or her. Confused. I have many things that are going on with me. She specializes in one of the things I have and its very hard to find a therapist who can work with me. That is why I feel that if I leave I am not doing it again. So to the poi... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 10:17:43 EST Depression Isn't Just a State of Mind <link><BR>amage/ </link> <BR> <BR> I've always thought that my depression wasn't just me not doing something right, and this article backs up what I've always known! <BR> <BR> Fri, 30 Dec 2016 22:17:13 EST New to the group! Hello everyone! My name is Melonie. I am new to 'this' group but not to Spark. My dad passed away on Veteran's day in 2015 and it seems that since then I had more 'bad' days then good. I struggle every day to try to make myself have a good day for my family. I feel like, to my mom and her side of the family, I am not supposed to grieve for him since they divorced over 30 years ago and I guess the reason. But, I cant help it. Most days, just looking at a photo of his or even the thought ... Thu, 29 Dec 2016 15:35:39 EST VoiceOfAnEagle2 Hi there! Happy New Years everyone. I am here to make major changes in my life this year because if I don't I won't be here next year. I am fifty years old and I am fighting bad habits that I need to break. I am looking forward to joining this team of people and meeting my goals along with all of the rest of you. <BR> Sincerely, Brenda. Wed, 28 Dec 2016 19:45:00 EST Hi, my name is Winnie I have been in need of a diet for years, this is the day. I am hoping for support to get rid of about 50lbs Wed, 28 Dec 2016 11:38:42 EST WebMD: "10 Ways to Control Your Eating" In case any of these tips are new to someone. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ays-to-control-eating </link> Sat, 24 Dec 2016 09:35:03 EST WebMD: "How to be happier" A slide show of things most of us know, but too easily forget to put into practice. This is a good time of year for the reminders. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>e-happier </link> Fri, 23 Dec 2016 21:34:20 EST Puppies fix boredom...and sadness and more It's long been known that having a pet or simply being where animals are (I've always been happy watching squirrels be squirrely and seeing sparrows hopping along) is healthy. I don't know the reasons that psychologists offer for the health benefits. I just chalk it up to having a living creature to take care of while making no demands -- unless you count things like having to walk a dog. I'm certainly not discounting people, but they're a different story. <BR> <BR> This short video is a ... Fri, 23 Dec 2016 14:57:46 EST New to group: Isn't anger a form of depression? Hello Everyone <BR> <BR> I'm not new to SP, just new to this group. I've been dealing with a family member who has NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) and it's not only affected our long-term relationship, but they've also taken their kids away so that I have no contact with them - removed them from my Facebook friends list and blocked me so I cannot contact them. To say I'm angry is an understatement. And, unfortunately, my usual go-to response is to sabotage weight-loss ... Tue, 20 Dec 2016 14:06:58 EST Hello All! My name is Greta and I am endeavoring to lose 50 pounds over the next year. I'm planning to go slowly because it's going to require a lifestyle change because my current habits are awful and are what got me here in the first place. I am committed to getting started and am open to all helpful advice. Sun, 18 Dec 2016 14:50:33 EST new girl Hey y'all, <BR> <BR> I just joined this site today, so I'm still figuring out the navigation, but I was added to this team so I figured I'd introduce myself. <BR> <BR> My name's Mae, I'm thirty three, and I was just diagnosed with depression this year(after half a lifetime of dealing with it silently). I was always the type that turned to food when depressed or bored, or you know, any other time. The past year has brought a lot of changes to my life. Somewhere along the way something s... Sat, 17 Dec 2016 20:28:47 EST Newbie Hello! My name is Janel. Raspberry who is a member of this team told me about you all and I thought I would give it a try since I suffer from anxiety and depression. Everyday is a challenge but I always am able to think of a way to make my day nicer or try to distract myself when I am feeling bad. My motto is to think, believe and achieve. If I think I am having a great day and I am happy I will believe it and then I can overcome these feelings. Of course I do have my days where this is diffi... Wed, 14 Dec 2016 15:48:33 EST In a wheelchair from an accident a year and a half My name is Mary and I am trying to find out how to live this NEW NORMAL Tue, 13 Dec 2016 01:47:09 EST Avoidance I'm going to try to keep a long story short. I'm 35 and have been dealing with depression since I was 11. There is one particular manifestation that I have no idea if it is common or if it's just me. It has to do with competition. I'm sure people can relate to years of feeling worthless and like I'm not good enough, leading to an unhealthy level of perfectionism. So I avoid competition, not because I'm a sore loser, but because I don't like the dark thoughts and feelings it dredges up wh... Fri, 9 Dec 2016 11:07:37 EST Anxiety and depression I have been stable for many years. Suddenly I've got anxiety gnawing at my stomach. I find myself unwilling to go out. I've stopped doing much of anything. I've been on effexor for almost 20 years. Has any one else had this problem? Fri, 9 Dec 2016 11:01:43 EST Hi There! I am 55 years old and want to lose weight. I need support from new friends I hope to meet here. Fri, 9 Dec 2016 04:01:24 EST Introduce myself Hello. I have been struggling with depression for almost 40 years. I am so sick of it messing with my life. I have tried so many medications but none of them help very much. I will turn 60 in January and I am very happily married. I need to lose weight but due to health problems especially in my back it's hard to get any exercise. I want to feel better so I am going to try to lose weight but it will be slow. Thu, 8 Dec 2016 23:25:02 EST A Better Day Thanks to everyone for your concern. Feeling better today. Don't know what was going on with the BP but it was 92/65, and pulse was 63. Got out for a short time this morning despite the fact that it was 1 degree out. Fresh air made me feel better. Still not much energy for exercise but will get in some sitting ones done before the day is over. Have a great day everyone!! <em>304</em> Thu, 8 Dec 2016 16:07:53 EST Surviving the Holidays Ok everyone! What are your best ideas, tips, advice on maintaining your healthy eating and exercise habits during the holidays. I am really struggling this time of year with all of the parties, yummy cookies, and homemade candies. I know....everything in moderation....but sometimes that is super difficult! Any and all ideas welcomed!!!! Thanks in advance! Thu, 8 Dec 2016 08:19:21 EST Started my fitness challenge . Today is my Day 1 After gaining abou 22 kg i decided to lose weight for a better shape and gain back my life. I need your support. Tue, 6 Dec 2016 09:28:14 EST First Go Around I've never been part of a group that supports other people that suffer from Depression. I've fought it most of my life. I'm actually having to go back on medicine because we've added another member to our family recently and I'm not really sleeping at all. It's made it difficult to find the energy or the motivation to do much more than get the laundry done. I want to get into shape because it'll help me sleep better and help me fight to go back off medicine. My goal is to get off the medicine... Mon, 5 Dec 2016 18:23:03 EST Trauma and Grief Hi All: I am new to this forum and new to Spark People. My youngest son passed away a year ago at age 21. I have been walking around in a fog for the past year, lost interest in everything, I spent a lot of time hiding from the world. I really want "me" back. I know I will not be the same person, but the new me should not have that extra 40lbs on board. I am ready to get back to exercise and enjoying life. Joining a group like this will hopefully keep me accountable when I feel like hi... Sat, 3 Dec 2016 08:19:40 EST Healing from Depression Interesting article in my inbox this morning, &amp; I wanted to share it with you. The article itself is interesting, but at the end are links for various resources for depression. <BR> <BR> Healing from Depression: It Begins With Asking for Help <BR> By Doug Walsh <BR> <BR> Adult Man Crying <BR> <BR> “I speak of a clinical depression that is the background of your entire life, a background of anguish and anxiety, a sense that nothing goes well, that pleasure is unavailable and all your s... Thu, 1 Dec 2016 14:15:20 EST Newbie Hello, <BR> <BR> My name is Kewanna and I am from North Carolina. I have been dealing with depression for most of my life. Lately it has been really difficult for me. It always is around this time of year. I have two great kids and spouse. I'm very thankful that they are in my life and I often refer to them as my center because they are my purpose in life. My son will be 18 next year and my daughter is about to turn 16. I have a sweet cat named cookie who is the most spoiled pet I ever had.... Wed, 30 Nov 2016 13:57:01 EST Coping with Family needs We are again coping with family depression needs -- which is the main reason I joined this team initially - learning and better sense of where we are at. It comes up periodically. Hopefully it is a seasonal type of thing - still figuring it out. I need patience and ability to do well as I am more around the family member during the day than anyone else. Wed, 30 Nov 2016 10:34:29 EST Hello everyone. I am brand new to this. I'm hoping for a fresh start to go with the New Year. I want to look and feel better. Mon, 28 Nov 2016 03:54:32 EST Help Hi, again.. My name is Bonnie and i use to belong here a very long time ago, now i am back for another try. I really need to loose weight for health reasons. Be stern with me and honest, and maybe i can do it this time. Thank you. <BR> Sat, 26 Nov 2016 14:31:44 EST Hello from Baltimore Hi all. My main fitness goals are to be more disciplined in my workout schedule, and to get strong enough to do full form pushups. A longer term goal that I cherish is to be able to do a pull-up. I'm 5'6" and currently weight 148. I've weighed as much as 210 and a few years ago lost 85 lbs over about 1.5 yrs. I couldn't maintain my weight at 125 without seriously restricting calories, and I got a little obsessed with being thin, so I don't have a specific weight loss goal. I also no lon... Mon, 21 Nov 2016 07:25:28 EST Negative emotions key to well being <link><BR>rticle/negative-emotions-key-well-being/ </link> Sat, 19 Nov 2016 20:52:40 EST feeling lost, and like a failure hey ... I'm new but feeling realllllllll low, and lost <BR> ok back story, my daughter has a daughter who is 15 almost 16 months old. and is pregnant with her second.. due any day now. <BR> well I had my older granddaughter due to her having been at the dr and the doctor giving her a shot to start putting her into labor, but with having fe (granddaughter) my daughter asked me to keep fe until she had 2nd so that if she went into labor in the middle of the night she wouldn't have to wake h... Sat, 19 Nov 2016 18:54:24 EST Hi Everyone Hello, My name is Diann Hart from Detroit,Michigan. I lost weight before some years ago. So I'm confident that I can lose the weight I need to lose but I need a little push this time and that is why I'm here. I hope I can get the encouragement I really need at this time and I hope in return I can encourage someone else. Thank You All <BR> Tue, 15 Nov 2016 21:44:09 EST WebMD: "Foods that Help Fight Depression" Friends, I have no idea how accurate the info is and thought I'd pass it along so that you can judge for yourselves. Maybe some of our team knows more about this. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>w-foods-fight-depression </link> Tue, 15 Nov 2016 18:24:07 EST New Member Hello, all! <BR> <BR> My names Emma: I was diagnosed with depression a little less than two years ago, and have been on medication since. While I have learned to deal with my depression quite well, my medicine, I think, has caused weight gain. Last year, around October, I weighed 170 pounds; since then I have managed to lose 13-15 of those pounds (the exact number depends on the day), but I've hit a rut. I'm so tired of counting calories and worrying about what I eat! But I really want to h... Tue, 15 Nov 2016 14:45:17 EST Elsa Hello, I am Elsa. This is the first time I do something like this so I am not sure how it goes. I need to lose weight. I want to lose weight. However, I am succumbing to temptations. I am also dealing with a very slow metabolism because I am going through a medical induced menopause. I work out 3 to 4 times a week for about 45 minutes, mostly cardio. I do not think exercising is my problem, eating is my problem. Any words of encouragement are appreciated. <BR> <BR> Elsa Tue, 15 Nov 2016 14:17:33 EST Do you know what today is?????? Today is my BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! I made it another year!!!! Tue, 15 Nov 2016 10:14:19 EST Glee LaVroff Just found out I am Diabetic! I need a mjeal plan for every day, because I don't know where to start! Mon, 14 Nov 2016 15:55:08 EST HELP!!! I have to lose at least 40 lbs in order to have my knee replaced and I can barely walk so exercising is a challenge, plus I just can't seem to get on the weight loss wagon. I am so frustrated that I think I'm going to start and then blow it that day or even after one day. I just have no desire to do this. I have been fat my whole life and probably have lost over 500 lbs collectively so I know I can lose weight, but just keep regaining it and now I can't seem to get started again knowing th... Sun, 13 Nov 2016 16:55:37 EST Taking the plunge... Hello Everyone I am new here! My name is Ashley. My weight has always fluctuated and I am now at 235lbs (Previously 250 before moving to a new state). A lot of my weight is my own fault...I have dealt with major anxeity, depression, panic disorder for many years, and most recently agoraphobia. I am not proud of myself and it has been a dark long journey.. I have always had a skewed perspective of how I look. In the past when I was 150, I was in the best shape of my life. I worked out all the... Fri, 11 Nov 2016 01:34:02 EST Taking a brand new step I am starting to take control of my self esteem today. I am starting to work on my weight and feeling good about myself. I have had problems with depression for about 4 years. My current doctor has me on a good med that helps me sleep. I feel like a new person each day now. I started the Skinny Jeans Challenge today. The four butt busting exercises busted my butt! :) <BR> I can't wait to see a difference and I know it is one day at a time and to stay positive. Hopefully you all can help me in... Thu, 10 Nov 2016 18:31:01 EST New I just joined the team and wanted to say hello. Wed, 9 Nov 2016 18:07:22 EST Starting over again!! Hi, I came here several years ago when I was in TOPS. The advice I got really helped me. NOW, I need help again. I am 70 years old and have been retired for a year and a half. I have become very lax on what I eat and the amount of exercise I get. I have gained about 15 lbs. and gained too many inches. I know the right things to do, but I don't do them so am hoping with your help I can achieve my goals. I was a physical therapy tech for the last 10 years. I have been married to my best friend ... Tue, 8 Nov 2016 20:29:08 EST SRI vs.SSRI for mild chronic depression? <link>;a.htm </link> <BR> <BR> Or maybe another type of medication is better? Or no medication but something else? Do you have any opinions on the best medication for Dysthymic Disorder? <BR> <BR> Reading this article made me nervous because it said that someone with "low-grade" depression for years or even decades, will eventually have bouts of major depression and that they are more likely to be suicidal than people with acute depression. Now that I don't hav... Sat, 5 Nov 2016 16:52:03 EST Just joined! Over 55, living with depression and fibromyalgia.....weight loss will help.... Sat, 5 Nov 2016 15:15:12 EST New user Hi. I am new. I have 30 lbs to lose and a real affinity for laying around and hiding from people due to low grade depression. Grateful to be here :) Fri, 4 Nov 2016 23:34:24 EST Holidays Hello there. I am a single 30 year old female who has been struggling with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I have always forced myself to spend the holidays with my family. However, I have been in therapy for a while and only recently started bringing a lot of very painful memories from my childhood. I am really not looking forward to spending the holidays with my family this year. <BR> <BR> My family lives about 20 minutes away, but I get very anxious any time I know ... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 18:45:19 EST Born with Depression...? <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Hi everyone. I'm new - please bare with me... <BR> <BR> Kind of an emotional moment when you sign on to a forum titled 'Dealing with Depression'. <BR> <BR> I guess this is because I don't allow myself to think about how it continues to affect me... How it's always been there. I wondered if anyone else feels as though they were born with Depression? <BR> <BR> I can remember feeling / being depressed as a very young child and although it doesn't seem po... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 14:31:34 EST Journaling I am struggling to get into the habit of journaling my food/drink intake. I do well for a while then I miss a day or a meal and I just can't seem to get back on top of it. Did anyone else struggle with this and how did you get into the habit of doing this on a regular basis. Tue, 1 Nov 2016 09:44:52 EST Fall is in the air. Is this a new challenge? The days are getting shorter, the birds are flocking and heading south. Mother nature is doing her best to forewarn us of the cold winter ahead. If your in California you probably think I'm loopy. Here in Michigan this is our wake-up call.It's an animals instinct to hoard food for the long winter ahead. The only problem is we don't need to hoard our food. I feel challenged when it's cold out and you want a nice hot bowl of chili or "Hot chocolate" or some other form of comfort food. So when M... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 16:04:39 EST I'm exhausted hi sparkies. <BR> I hope you all are having a beautiful Monday. <BR> Well, I have few things which are totally exhausting me. <BR> <BR> This is going to get really long <BR> <BR> 1- My kids (twin boys) - Oh I love them, Yet, they do not do their chores waste time. They are 11 (twins) and I know this is natural. But, I wold like to transform them to more independence. ( doing h.w on tme, setting the bag, cleaning the floor after bath) <BR> <BR> Sadly, my husband DOES NOT stand up for me. He... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 07:08:49 EST New Here! HI I'm Becky! I just signed up to SparkPeople today. I have been on the weightloss journey for over 7 years now. I struggle with Depression, and It's been weighing heavy on me the past year. Making it difficult to stay focused on my goals. I'm looking forward to being part of a group who knows the struggle! Thanks! Sun, 30 Oct 2016 16:48:41 EST restarting yet again hi I'm Samantha.... I have 2 teens in my house *step kids* I also am awaiting the birth of my 2nd granddaughter. I have suffered depression for as long as I can remember and life with 2 teens makes it worse at times. I am hoping that maybe losing weight will help my head to find a new thing to grab on and not to shut down and dwell on what I cant change Sun, 30 Oct 2016 01:52:39 EST Arthritis and Ulcerative Colitis I am overweight dealing with depression, heart issues, UC and arthritis. I have to wear oxygen 24/7. Walking is hard and I spend a lot of time playing on the IPad, doing puzzles. I need to lose weight but it is hard with pulmonary hypertension. I was a Spark People member a long time ago. Glad to be back. Fri, 28 Oct 2016 16:20:40 EST New to SparkPeople Hi All, I'm a newbie. My goals are to add regular exercise to my daily routine and learn how to eat healthier. I'm a very busy working mom to three kids so my life is basically a juggling act. I find myself exhausted most of the time and I think that things could improve if I took better care of myself. I'm guilty of letting myself go, which is something I never thought I would do. I'm making myself a priority which will hopefully be a positive impact to all of my family. Fri, 28 Oct 2016 11:57:38 EST Hi everyone I am new to 2...but I started losing 3 months ago. I have been dealing with depression, stress and anxiety disorders with agoraphobia since 1998. I now take a few meds to help with the stress and anxiety but have been off any to treat my depression specifically for almost 10 yrs, I am sure that the ones I do take still help with it. I did however spent a lot of years in therapy to get that far. <BR> <BR> I have been overweight since childhood and now I need both knees repl... Thu, 27 Oct 2016 23:03:51 EST Missed This Group So Much Hi, everyone! I just wanted to let everyone who I usually talk to on this team that everything is going okay. I haven't posted in a while because I really needed to take the time to focus on being content with myself and the people around me on a daily basis. I will post more later when I am less tired, but you all have been in my thoughts and prayers! Wed, 26 Oct 2016 21:50:07 EST A New Journey, A New Season of Life! Hello my name is Loretta, and I was introduced to Spark by attending an Health Expo, a few years ago. I have started, and stopped the program a few times, however I'm glad to say this time I'm fully committed to better health. I do want to join a walking club with other beginners, who live near by, I feel if I have someone to motivate me I will be more accountable. So if there are people looking to team up with me, please let know. Thanks! Tue, 25 Oct 2016 14:13:48 EST A New Journey, A New Season of Life! Hello my name is Loretta, and I was introduced to Spark by attending an Health Expo, a few years ago. I have started, and stopped the program a few times, however I Tue, 25 Oct 2016 14:08:58 EST Family illness This may sound strange, but I struggle with depression when someone at home is ill with a virus or whatever. It puts me in more of a caretaker /nurse role, which is harder for me. The funny thing is that I wanted to be a nurse as a child! Actually, my husband is much better in this role than I am, but I am the housewife/available caretaker while he is at work. I can do it, but it is harder for me. So..... a family virus is taking its toll on me in overeating, planning my day, etc. NOT h... Tue, 25 Oct 2016 13:00:54 EST Low Carb Diet I just saw my PCP yesterday to discuss my fasting glucose level and my insulin resistance level. My fasting glucose level was high and my insulin resistance is high. I was told that I am on the verge of being diabetic. My PCP sent in a prescription for Metformin. She did tell me that the medication alone may help me with my weightloss efforts, but she also put me on a low carb diet of 150 grams a day. She is closely supervising this diet. I am excited about having the close watch and su... Tue, 25 Oct 2016 10:00:58 EST Hello everyone!! Hello to everyone. I am happy to join the team. I deal with depression and have since I was 13. I am now 40 and I have three beautiful teenagers and a wonderful husband who does his very best to try and help and support me in my ups and downs. I think a huge issue for me is my weight. In being honest, I hate myself and how I look. I know it probably sounds odd being I have so much to be happy about but I do find myself hating how I look. I weigh 266 lbs as of last night when I joined. ... Sun, 23 Oct 2016 16:26:59 EST Beginning of a long adventure! Hi, I'm Charie and I need to change my habits. I am going to lose 50 lbs no matter how long it takes. Right now my biggest challenges include being a full-time student, part-time employee, and a full-time volunteer. I feel as if I never have enough hours in the day. Hopefully I will be inspired by other members. Today the journey begins! Sat, 22 Oct 2016 20:24:01 EST Hi, new member here I'm not sure if it's depression or not but I surely have low self esteem since childhood. <BR> <BR> Lately I feel like my whole life is moving toward destruction. My career seem lead to no where, I couldn't find motivation to do my job at work (although I still doing my job after some struggles). My marriage is a ruin and I don't have any motivation to fix it. <BR> <BR> But still I have my son and have quite some laugh every day. <BR> <BR> I have this feeling that I can't see things would... Fri, 21 Oct 2016 00:33:47 EST Today I'm Greatful For..... My job, my family, a roof over my head, a husband that loves me the way that I am, and COFFEE!!! Thu, 20 Oct 2016 11:15:22 EST Colleen Hi I'm Colleen. Wed, 19 Oct 2016 12:27:07 EST "The Most Popular Book the Year You Were Born" A good book has no age. Here are lots of them, some I've read, others not and still others I've never heard of. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>style/g560/most-popular-book-year-you-<BR>were-born/ </link> Sun, 16 Oct 2016 11:55:25 EST What are your plans for today? Later today, I am going shopping and then, going out for Sunday dinner with my husband. Sun, 16 Oct 2016 10:46:06 EST If you can share, was your Mom depressed? I've been thinking a lot about my Mom and her depression. She's been gone for several years so I can't ask her. But I remember when she was put on medication (Prozac) about 30 years ago. She didn't stay on the pills because she didn't like how it made her feel and I don't recall her trying any other medication. She always had weight and body issues. (It didn't help having a cheating husband who constantly remarked about her weight.) She was always depressed growing up but that may have been s... Sun, 16 Oct 2016 04:53:06 EST I'm Back I'm a 50 yr old grandmother of 3 boys. I have General Anxiety Disorder. I was in this group in 2012. I wasn't very active but I'm back and trying to make an effort this time. I hope to make new friends here. Sat, 15 Oct 2016 23:32:22 EST Fitness Buddy Seeking a partner in crime - oops - I mean, a fitness buddy. I am 43 and recently passed into the 300 lb realm. This freaked me out, and I promptly gained another 15 pounds. I live with bipolar, and am on meds that contribute to my weight gain. I keep reminding myself that I'd rather be fat than dead, but I fear that I am eating myself toward an early death. <BR> <BR> I am seeking a friendly person to help motivate me to keep trying. I offer a quirky sense of humor, deep compassion, a... Sat, 15 Oct 2016 02:14:17 EST Hallo! Any other blood clot survivors? Hi, all, I'm giving this motivator a go. I need to pick up my exercise level. I loved dance for many years, but as I've gotten older I've done less of it. In February 2016 I was diagnosed with a "significant" blood clot in my right leg. Since then, I've been walking daily to and from the bus, but it's not enough. I hope to drop actually 60 pounds and get the stiffness out of the leg where the "interventional radiology" (read: micro-surgery thing) was done. I have an appointment with an ... Fri, 14 Oct 2016 17:09:53 EST Is staying in bed always a sign of depression? I'm curious what everyone's opinion is. <BR> <BR> I have to get out everyday or else I get stir crazy. But after my errands, I just like to go back to bed. My bed stays made during the day and I'm in my comfy clothes. I watch TV and do computer stuff. Then get up at various points to do certain things but mostly I really just like staying there. Even if I only go out for a couple hours a day. <BR> <BR> Since Oct 1st, I've been doing great with my food, so I'm actually happy and my mood is ... Wed, 12 Oct 2016 22:55:13 EST Rebirth at Retirement I want to like the way I feel and look which means creating a new Life Style and also learning how to communicate with others as I became secluded. Tue, 11 Oct 2016 21:53:08 EST Lack of Motivation I go through phases where I feel so motivated and ready to tackle this weight loss journey. I feel motivated to exercise and eat right to fuel my body with the right kinds of foods. Then I go through phases where I just lack motivation in general. That is where I am today. I just can not seem to get myself motivated to exercise whatsoever. I am also struggling with sticking to my healthy lifestyle at work, especially when drug reps bring in treats and snacks for the office. When I start ... Mon, 10 Oct 2016 12:30:40 EST Hello from France Hi everyone, I moved to France after moving around a lot and thought I would be able to get myself back on track by eating healthy beautiful food and exercising. But, after three years, I am just not succeeding alone. I used to be really active fit and always slim. I used to look at fat people and think, how did they get like that? Now I am that fat person, and I now think, how did I get like this!? <BR> <BR> I have had a few horrible things happen and I am struggling to cope. I have ... Mon, 10 Oct 2016 06:13:51 EST Affording depression Meds I have no prescription coverage, and my Depression Meds have really gone up over the last several months. I used to pay under $100 for 90 days worth and now I'm paying over $160. I'm on Bupropion 100 MG, 3 X a day so I do have to get 260 pills at a time, but its getting so hard to afford them. And I more than ever need to stay on my meds, as Ive been going through a rough time. Ive thought about talking to my prescribing dr about switching my meds, but this overall works well for me. Do... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 18:58:52 EST Stopped taking my meds-paying the price I stopped taking my Effexor about a week ago. It was stupid, I know. I was just feeling so good I didn't think I needed them. I thought I could do it on my own for awhile. Well, I'm really starting to crash. I finally realized and admitted to myself why I was feeling bad this morning, so started taking it again, but I know it takes a few days to kick in. In the meantime, my house is out of control, I have my parents coming from CA (I'm in IN) for a visit on the 12th, I NEED to clean, and I do... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 12:38:58 EST Make ahead breakfast and lunch ideas Hello, <BR> <BR> Can I get some ideas easy make ahead breakfast and lunch ideas? I am looking for suggestions on things that I can make on Saturday or Sunday and either put in the fridge or freezer to pull out as the week goes on. I am usually rushed in the mornings so I need ideas of things that are quick and easy. I struggle with motivation and getting the engine going, so I am hoping that having prepped options ready will help me to keep on a healthy diet. I have been doing overnight ... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 11:43:37 EST Bruce Springstein writes about his depression Just passing this link along. I didn't know Bruce had depression most of his life. He writes about it in his new memoir. I guess it just shows that it can happen to anyone, even a super successful singer. <BR> <BR><BR>9/bruce-springsteen-cover-story <BR> <BR> Here's a snippet: <BR> <BR> "Married since 1991 to bandmate Patti Scialfa, with whom he has three children (and who shares and empathizes with his depressive illness), Springsteen enjoys a stab... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 04:51:53 EST karen Looking for a walking buddy and weight buddy near Poway Ca Mon, 3 Oct 2016 12:35:09 EST Rough Day So I am having a rough day here. I have a counseling appointment this evening and I am really anxious about it. I have seen this counselor for years and I really trust him, so I am not sure why I am so anxious about this appointment. Every hour that passes, the more anxious I get, and the more I want to turn to food for comfort. This is not a good day at all. I wish I knew what was causing the anxiety in me about this appointment. I have control over what we talk about, so I know I am n... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 12:29:22 EST Hello I am new Hello there I am new to spark just wanting to get started on a healthy new life style. I have several health issues that I have been diagnosed with this year.depression being one of them as well as bi polar I have suffered for many years with this diesease and had to be hospitalized due to it.It has made it hard for me to keep a job and to live a healthy happy life .while I was in treatment I really injoyed the group treatments where I could talk about my feelings for that day and the journal... Sun, 2 Oct 2016 20:15:21 EST HI all I'm BarbCa so you see already I live in California. I'm Almost 82 and have had a problem with depression that I'm just now rising from. My next oldest daughter passed away a year ago in March. My favorite of 7 grandchildren moved away so no more grands around. <BR> My next youngest daughter lives a 8 miles away and I sere here once or twice a year. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I'm well on my road to recovery and have been able to give up the antidepressants. I am getting my apartment sorted out but it ... Sun, 2 Oct 2016 12:39:16 EST Weight loss buddy needed Hi, I'm looking for a weight loss buddy that I can talk to and encourage, as well as have them encourage me. My depression has gotten the best of me lately and I am finding that I need help. I am in my early 30's and have about 100-120 lbs to lose and would love to have someone in the same boat (or close to it) as me to connect with. It would be great if we could text each other and provide support and encouragement to tackle this overwhelming journey. Please let me know if you're interes... Sat, 1 Oct 2016 22:09:43 EST Does the ticker motivate you? When I first started, I used the "weight" ticker and then switched to the "pounds lost" ticker because I thought seeing my actual weight might have been discouraging me. But now I'm back to thinking I have to SEE IT in order to see reality (which is that I'm now at my highest weight ever.) So I just switched my ticker back to the "weight" one, but wondering if I might end up sabotaging myself. <BR> <BR> I'm noticing most people here use the "pounds lost" ticker. Do you have thoughts on which... Sat, 1 Oct 2016 19:04:45 EST New Oldie Hi, everyone! So I used to use Sparkpeople once upon a time, but I can't even remember when, exactly. To be honest, I'd forgotten about it, oops! But I'm here again because I'm trying my darnest to get serious about becoming healthier and getting in shape. I'm almost 32 and have two daughters, a 2.5yo and a 6mo. Being able to play with them, setting a good example for their own health, and staving off diabetes which runs in my family are my reasons for being here now. Oh, and I'd love to look... Thu, 29 Sep 2016 08:35:54 EST Newbie Hello! I am a Newbie here. I am hoping to pull some motivation and strength from this group as I am striving to lose weight. I am recently married (4 months October 4!) We are wanting to have a baby, so I am desperately trying to lose some weight first. My doctor took me off of all my anti-depressants in preparation of becoming pregnant. I am hoping that as I lose weight and gain some confidence in myself that my depression will slowly get a little better. I look forward to the encour... Wed, 28 Sep 2016 09:35:03 EST Ready Set Go!!! Hey Sparks People. I am 52 and joined to get healthier and in shape. I have 97 lbs to lose and I would like to get into a fitness routine. I joined here to find other people in the process of getting healthier with similar goals and for motivation both giving and receiving. I live in Lakewood Colorado. I would love to find a fitness pal with like goals. <BR> Tue, 27 Sep 2016 16:49:15 EST My Life is a Mess (long story) I have been dealing with so much in the last 10 or years or so.... but in the last couple years, I feel like everything has just spiraled out of control. I thought I'd share what's going on in case anyone has any advice... and to just... not be invisible for a short time. <BR> <BR> As I said, the things most affecting me now stem mostly from the last handful of years. Almost exactly 2 years ago I lost my best, and only, friend of 22 years (by lost, I mean simply that we are no longer friend... Sat, 24 Sep 2016 17:54:39 EST Hey There Hey everyone, I'm a longtime Sparker, returning from a lengthy hiatus. I've got a lot of things going on right now, which I'll detail in a separate post (in the problem solving forum) in a few minutes. For now, I just wanted to say hello. <em>213</em> Sat, 24 Sep 2016 17:10:55 EST 50 plus with a new healthy lifestyle Hi everyone glad to be here on a great site with so much help to be had which is great. Still navigating the site and learning as I go, with my husband and I in the house alone most of the time it has been easier to get into a more healthier life style and it's not as bad as I thought getting rid of all the negative, unhealthy stuff. It took awhile to put it on so I know it will take awhile to come off. 1 step at a time !! Greater Days Everyone ! Thu, 22 Sep 2016 16:50:24 EST Hi Everyone I'm at work taking a break so hopefully, I can write something without crying. <BR> <BR> My year started out getting fired from what I thought was a very good position, but they promised training and there was none, so I was let go after almost 6 months. I had left a job of 5 years for this one, so I was humiliated, shocked and scared to death what my husband would say. <BR> <BR> He was surprisingly very supportive, but our income took a huge hit. After 3 months of searching, I finally fo... Thu, 22 Sep 2016 16:22:22 EST Sparked before.... can I spark again? As we all mostly know, Spark People is awesome. I've been here before, it's helped it has motivated, and then whatever happens I fall away. Now I am at my all time heaviest weight and I've been off spark people for almost 2 years. :( I'm REALLY REALLY heavy. over 200 pounds to lose. <BR> <BR> I used to be an athelete when I was young. Track & Cheerleading for school, weights and aerobics class during school and swam alot or I played basketball with my friends ..... <BR> <BR> Now I'm at a jo... Wed, 21 Sep 2016 09:47:45 EST Coming Back Hi everyone !! Hi Pat !! <BR> <BR> Giving it another try,as I was with SP about a year or less but had to stop,so much was happening and I couldn't concentrate anymore. Since then,things are still crazy but I REALLY need to lose this weight for myself and hopefully can help others out in time. <BR> Lost my cat Frisky March 3rd,2016, got a new cat,all white male,a year old March 5th,2016. Then my step-mom just passed away while recovering from surgery Aug.23rd,2016. I just had a kidney stone... Sun, 18 Sep 2016 02:27:10 EST Not A Very Good Day I've been in near constant pain and fatigue for the past week and I'm so worn out and depressed. I don't want to be in this body anymore. I'm not suicidal. I just wish that I could trade it in for a better model. I'm so tired of fighting against my own body and mind. I've been doing this practically all my life. Sat, 17 Sep 2016 22:09:20 EST Hello I joined a few days ago and just wanted to introduce myself. I'm a single mom. I've experienced depression and anxiety for most of my life. I also suffer from PTSD from severe childhood trauma. I have severe Scoliosis, which causes me a lot of pain and increases my depression when the pain levels get high. I have good days and bad days. Sometimes there is more than one good day. I like it when there's a run of good days. Sat, 17 Sep 2016 22:04:54 EST *waves from the corner* I'm a little shy and don't really know what to say, so I'll just wave and hope that everyone's having a wonderful day. <em>334</em> Sat, 17 Sep 2016 15:29:12 EST How I Feel <em>102</em> Sat, 17 Sep 2016 14:13:13 EST Another Newbie Hi all. =) <BR> <BR> After a visit with my doctor yesterday, it's kind of been uncovered that everything I want is pretty much inhibited by my weight, and while meds help my depression, they can't make everything else happen. So I'm here. Hope that I can stick to this. <BR> <BR> Anyways, just wanted to say hi. =) Sat, 17 Sep 2016 09:42:28 EST Hello there My name is Mimi, I'm 23 and stay in SC. I hope to lose 95 pounds by my next birthday and I am looking for support buddies for the journey. I am starting small for now with light exercise and dietary changes so i can remain realistic and gain momentum along the way. <BR> <BR> BTW, if you don't like shakes that are pre-made, try Designer Whey. I buy them at Bilo. 100 cal, low fat and carb, high protein and fiber. They are a lifesaver for me right now. Fri, 16 Sep 2016 11:50:56 EST Newbie Hi all. New here. Just joined today. I have over 100 lbs to lose. I have also been dealing with depression and anxiety all my life due to severe childhood trauma. I'm currently taking several different medications and see three different therapists (LCSW, home therapy, psychiatrist and psychiatric nurse). I guess that's four, isn't it? I also try to go to group therapy once a week, but that's hard to do when my Fibro is flaring like it is now. Anyway, just wanted to introduce myself. Thu, 15 Sep 2016 16:14:17 EST Hello! New to the team. Hello! I'm new to the team, rejoined spark people a few days ago- trying to get back on track with diet and exercise and improve my motivation to stay on track. Hx depression/ anxiety, lots of peaks and valleys there. Tue, 13 Sep 2016 22:44:00 EST Dealing with grief and loss In the past year I have lost my 34 yr.old sister-in-law who passed away after having my beautiful niece. my favorite Aunt, and my only Sister who was only 57 yrs. old. All unexpected deaths, any suggestions on how to deal and cope. Emotions are all over the place! Tue, 13 Sep 2016 12:23:30 EST I'm new! Hi everyone, my name is Kaya and I've been looking for some support groups for depression so I'm happy to have found this. I'm looking forward to connecting with others through this. Sun, 11 Sep 2016 16:08:22 EST Hello! Joining sparkpeople to try and make myself more accountable to some of the healthy choices I am trying to maake- waxing/waning motivation is my biggest problem right now! Sun, 11 Sep 2016 09:17:05 EST Majorly Struggling I am really struggling with negative thoughts. My hubby and i are facing a few tough situations that have no good answers. My son is caught in the middle of one of them. I don't know how I can support and help him without his mother accusing me of interfering (he is my step-son). I saw the therapist a week ago, when all this started. And, I was so anxious and worked up, all I could do is pace in his office. He cut our session short because I was super worked up and clammed up, so he didn't fe... Fri, 9 Sep 2016 10:16:41 EST "New" Me I've decided it's time I kick this weight loss thing into gear. Let's see where to begin..... <BR> <BR> Around January of last year, my depression was at it's lowest. I was smoking, drinking somewhat excessively, not going to church, not spending time with family, showing up late to work (or not at all), overeating, and I was sleeping around. <em>42</em> <BR> <BR> Then I got pregnant. <em>40</em> And it was the best thing that happened to me. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I got my ac... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 19:48:14 EST I am Warren I have had weight problems all my life. Topped out at 287 about 10 years ago and swore to maintain the 213 I dieted down to over the next year. Now I have gained 20 lbs over the years and have failed to keep my promise to myself that I would go back on my diet and exercise program after a short hiatus and lose down to my then target of 145. Now I am finally going after my adjusted goal of 155. Mon, 5 Sep 2016 21:20:48 EST An overly long introduction! Trying to figure out what and how much to say. Brevity is not my forte! So, I apologize, if this is way TMI! <BR> <BR> I've had a lifelong struggle with psychological issues and poor eating, but not with weight. I mean my eating habits have always been awful, I just got away with it for a long time. Like my great grandmother, grandmother, and mother before me, I've had horrible issues with depression (Bipolar II in my case, but with the depression causing the worst issues) and with anxiety. ... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 13:00:27 EST D from Halifax, NS Canada Hello! everyone, I have been struggle over the last few years taken care of everyone but me. I am currently taken care of my mother who is at the early stages of Alzheimer and I have realized in order to take care of her. I also need to take care of me. I love my job working as a career counselor and I am ready to take care of me and my mother at the same time. I am excited for this challenge and look forward to my new journey in life Fri, 2 Sep 2016 09:25:00 EST Newbee on Board Im new to all this so please bear with me. Wed, 31 Aug 2016 10:59:49 EST Returning user but in a whole new chapter of life Hello everyone... <BR> <BR> I am a mother of an amazing little boy who is my world as I never thought having kids would ever be in my future. I have battled body image issues my entire life and after having my son I find its been worse. I am turning 30 in just over a month and I think its hitting me that I am no where at what Id like to see myself at. I am a military spouse which has its stressful times as is along with being a stay at home mom currently due to recently being posted to a new... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 19:30:33 EST How to feel accomplished right this second I receive daily emails from several sources because I'm too lazy to unsubscribe from them. is a women's "lifestyle" magazine in regional versions, apparently geared toward youngish women who are productive and enjoying life. Despite thinking every time I see it in my inbox that "I should unsubscribe," a subject line catches my attention and I take a peak. (How else would I have learned about some of the best local barbecue restaurants?) Today was one of those days. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 17:16:35 EST Cooking question for our cooks I bought a gorgeous-looking bunch of red mustard greens. There are loads of recipes that cover southern tastes as well as Indian and Asian. Because the leaves are fairly broad, it occurred to me that they may be stuffable. I've never made stuffed cabbage, but I was thinking something like that, either with ground turkey or ground beef. If you're familiar with mustard greens, any color, what do you think? I'm more comfortable using Indian spices than Asian, but can't think of what sort of... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 23:54:28 EST Hello Good Morning, my name is Jamila,and I'm new to the group. I just wanted to say hello to everyone and wish you all a wonderful day! <em>524</em> Fri, 26 Aug 2016 09:15:12 EST Hello! *waves* I am not very new to spark people.. I am very new to sticking with routines, getting out of bed, exercising, and caring about my body! I have been doing great an am trying my best to stay motivated and honestly something kinda clicked? Or at least feels different this time. I guess I am finally ready or something. OORRR its because my meds are finally working LMAO. Anyways I struggled/struggle with depression and have been for more than half my life. My first hospitalization I was only 14!~ I... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 08:56:20 EST feedup1964 im feed up with my weight. need HElp! Mon, 22 Aug 2016 02:20:42 EST I am new, well sort I have been here for awhile but never really used the site to its full potential. I have always had weight issues. Whether being to fat or skinny but not skinny enough. my experiences and my depression I have, had has caused my issues with food . I was diagnosed at age 16 with severe depression. I am now in my mid-forties. I have been in a relationship for the last 15 years and I live with him. Everything was fine until my depression hit hard again when I turned 40. I am 46 now. Since then, I... Wed, 17 Aug 2016 21:07:07 EST Help for my husband Hi there. My husband is in the hospital after some suicidal ideation. I am fine, but I want to know what are the best ways to support him during this time? Wed, 17 Aug 2016 12:15:16 EST Omg! No Kitchen, Floor had to be Replaced Still having work done on my kitchen. Still having to live with out stove and dishwasher and floor. I am so depressed right now. All I see is fat fat fat in the mirror and no way to cook anything and on my way home, I just felt rushed and tired. Stopped and did the dumbest thing ever, I got Dairy Queen for my husband and myself. Omg. What am I thinking? I would rather starve. The food is sitting on a tiny spot on my table in the living room where everything else is and it cost me money that ... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 18:58:56 EST How do you push through? I'm having a lot of trouble ignoring the voice in my head that's telling me to do nothing, especially during my time of the month. I have major depression and anxiety and I'm currently on meds. What do you do to push through the voice telling you to stay on the couch all day or lay in bed all day? I feel like if I can find some ways to tell that voice to shut up, I would be able to accomplish so many things. I'm just so tired of feeling like this and extremely ready to beat depression, if... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 23:17:13 EST Hi everyone I am starting again with 100 pounds to lose I so need to do this. Thu, 11 Aug 2016 16:34:31 EST TMS (Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation) My daughter had her first TMS treatment today. It's for her treatment-resistant depression. There was more pain/discomfort than we expected, but she did very well and everything was fine. She took some Tylenol before going and that may have helped. She'll have another treatment tomorrow and then 28 more after that for a total of 30. They said our medical insurance probably won't cover any of it, but if it helps it will be worth it. <BR> <BR> Just wondering how many others out there have had... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 16:12:50 EST oops Sorry--didn't realize this would post here. Tried to delete but couldn't. Appreciate the lovely thoughts! Wed, 10 Aug 2016 09:55:19 EST HI everyone I'm new Today is my first day, I have struggled with depression my whole life....alcoholic father, mother addicted to prescription drugs, brother in and out of jail. I'm sure many of you can relate. I have 90lbs to lose Tue, 9 Aug 2016 23:57:48 EST Just found SPARKPeople I think this website may work for me! I'm hoping so. <BR> I live in North Carolina; just moved here <em>41</em> <BR> Finding my way around the site. Really like it so far. Tue, 9 Aug 2016 13:29:03 EST Hi Everyone. Hi everyone. Thank you for having me. So I feel like a bad person since this is not my first time back on SparkPeople. I got down quite a bit in weight, and after a stressful breakup I gained all of it back. I am not going to let it get me down. Just need to get back to myself. What's the best thing to join in on in this group? Challenges? Tue, 9 Aug 2016 12:15:20 EST Lynn I am Lynn and need all the support I can get for this endeavor. Tue, 9 Aug 2016 07:16:23 EST brand new on spark people Hello everyone, I have been obese for most of my life, all of my adult life thus far and three quarters of my teenage life. I am 43 years old and I joined weight watchers program on June 7th and I have lost 21 pounds. My weight loss journey seems like a roller coaster I have some weeks where I lose weight and then I have weeks where I don't. Sometimes I feel like I miss out on the good food that is advertised on tv like pizzas and ice cream and I crave them. But I know they are not healthy fo... Sun, 7 Aug 2016 15:10:42 EST How to eat healthy with no support from family? Hello, <BR> <BR> I was away at school for 6 months, ate generally OK and lost about 30 lbs. As soon as I got home I gained it all back! I believe I suffer from a binge disorder that is mostly caused by my depression. My mother is abusive and unhealthy and I've lived in this environment my whole life. I told my mother my goals about losing weight and being healthy. I'm going to serve with AmeriCorps in October and I'd like to get a head start on being active. The problem is, my mother doesn't... Thu, 4 Aug 2016 13:02:04 EST Hello I've suffered from depression off and on most of my life but didn't recognize it as such. Finally got on Effexor (generic) and things started to smooth out. I could tell if I hadn't taken my dose for the day. Then everything changed. I had bariatric surgery and couldn't take the pills. I'd throw them back up. I quit taking them for a couple of years until my daughter pointed out that I was angry, quick to snap. So I decided to start again. Everything was doing good until Target change... Wed, 3 Aug 2016 18:30:26 EST I never knew something this cool existed I have always wanted to find something similar to this site. Especially with a FREE pricetag. I love that the food tracker actually contains food I DO eat, instead of giving me food I SHOULD ONLY eat like most diet programs. It's real this way. Like yeah, I at at Wendys or had Taco Bell, I choose their healthier options, but how could I have tracked that really? I like that even store brands are included and that poeple can add if something is missing. This is pretty awesome. I just need to f... Sun, 31 Jul 2016 11:38:18 EST Last of the red-hot "cute animal pics" <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This isn't so good, but the tigers are thrillingly beautiful. Sat, 30 Jul 2016 10:32:16 EST Hello Hi all. My name is Lisa and I'm a mom to two wonderful boys and owner of an in home daycare. I am just starting my journey to a healthy lifestyle. I have always dealt with depression, but I am starting the divorce process with my husband of 18 years so it's been a lot worse lately. He has a problem with my weight and I have a major problem with that. The person I married wasn't a shallow guy, but he has turned into one. I am finally ready to shed all the negativity in my life and do this for... Thu, 28 Jul 2016 12:38:31 EST How can I help my husband fight depression? Hi all. My husband was diagnosed with depression last year and suffers from anxiety attacks that are increasing frequency. He hasn't refilled his prescription due to lack of health insurance at this time and everything seems to be getting worst. I try not to add more stress to him, but life is still happening around us. There's bills to pay, a household to maintain and his son is with us for the summer and has special needs. <BR> <BR> I don't know how to ease his anxiety AND have our needs m... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 15:52:09 EST Not just another "cute animal photo" A friend sent several photos from [gasp] the internet with a note that the captions are better than most that we see [gasp] all over the internet. I think she's correct and I'll post another every couple of days. I hope you enjoy them. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 24 Jul 2016 14:56:09 EST Back when, then, and where are you now?! back when, then and now... <BR> its hard to think how i got to where i am today, as a child and teenager i suffered from having no positive self image. i destroyed myself, taking diet pills, not eating, over exercising... plus i got to be lucky and end up with ptsd, depression, panic disorder... that being said i was a wreak!!! i was always sick, passing out, always got made fun of... like brutally... many good thing in my life could have been but, i was so obsessed with diet, and exercise...... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 23:38:12 EST Exercise makes me feel happier :) Hi everyone! I am new to the group.. Pretty new to spark in general. Well anyway, I've been doing tons of reading about all kinds of health related topics.. Stress, depression, weight gain, fatigue, anger, skin issues- on and on. One common denominator that comes up every time is exercise. And I ignore it. I try to overcompensate with diet, supplements, water... I worry about losing the boobs I've grown with my new 20 lbs from sitting behind a desk for the past year... BUT I feel sad. I wake ... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 12:20:29 EST New from NC I am new to the group and the site...hoping for support on this journey...I have gained a massive amount of weight due to medication for anxiety, depression and fibromyalgia (my doctors have confirmed that my diet has not caused the gain). I gained almost 70 lbs in a little over 2 months on the evil seroquel.... then other meds caused slower gain...I am finally off those meds and hopefully on meds that will not only not cause continued gain but allow me to lose this weight... Being this size ... Tue, 19 Jul 2016 06:55:40 EST New gal on the block Blessings to you all, my name is Kelly . I am so overwhelmed. I was doing Weight Watchers and it works being on disability I cant afford it. I know its baby steps and such but I see the whole picture. I gotta lose 88lbs and to me that just seems impossible. I love sweets and eating late. I swim and walk but its my eating habits. My friend from childhood was on here a few years ago and she lost I want to say over 100lbs. She had mentioned this place. I dont know how to get started. I dont know... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 02:01:05 EST sad. please help. i had a nervous breakdown 9 years ago after having a training in nursing. sleep, eat stroll, surf the net--is my lifestyle. i have massive memory and inattention problem as well and anxiety leaving me not being able to work. basically i am disabled. i wish this is just a bad dream- a dream, not true, not reality. but it is. yesterday, i went to the doc and he said i cant go back to nursing or drive. due to my inattention and anxiety. its hard to swallow. i hate to be a walking bad vibes to my... Thu, 14 Jul 2016 07:52:23 EST Changing the headers on the Spark pages Just a heads up for everyone, they are changing the headers on the Spark pages tomorrow. Coach Jen says that there will be minor changes to a couple of the menus. Tue, 12 Jul 2016 20:32:53 EST Ketamine Treatment? I'm wondering if anyone on the team has tried getting Ketamine infusions for depression? My daughter is going through a very severe bout of depression and her depression is treatment-resistant. Her psychiatrist suggested Ketamine infusions. He says it works very quickly - you know within two treatments whether or not it's going to help. <BR> <BR> Tue, 12 Jul 2016 18:59:59 EST Hello from GA Hi everyone. I've been on the site for a little while now but just recently actually started making my way around. I'm glad to find this group. Fri, 8 Jul 2016 09:18:44 EST Trazodone Has anyone taken trazodone? I've just completed week 2 on 50mg at bedtime and I'm still suffering from insomnia. I've even started taking it at 7pm. I have noticed a small improvement in my mood though. I even managed to go for a walk this morning, despite not sleeping last night. I'm also on 10mg of topamax for migraine, so I'm wondering if that's keeping me from sleeping? I was just curious if anyone has had any luck with it or not. I've only taken amitriptyline before, and that was to star... Fri, 8 Jul 2016 09:16:26 EST I am sooo ready Hello. I am a recent retired school teacher. Because of several health issues I am unable to do a lot of exercises and activities that I would like to do. Due to my sedentary lifestyle and hypothyroidism, I have gained a lot of weight. I am so ready to make some changes in my lifestyle in order to become more healthy. how lucky for me that SparkPeople is available for free to help people like me and look forward to loosing some weight (45 pounds), to get where I should be. Thu, 7 Jul 2016 10:35:44 EST struggling with a tough workout help! i am really struggling with exercise. this past week, i exercised with a trainer in the gym 3x. it was a mixed of 10 minutes interval running and 50 minutes strength was tough and painful. I was huffing and puffing all the time. I am 95 kilos and i have to lose like 90 lbs for 1-2 years. before the exercise, i am always tryingt to " condition" my mind. I was reading a christian devotional to calm me. it says God is always with us through the tough times. And God says that no ... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 02:48:16 EST Sleepy in Illinois Hello - I am starting over with my weight loss program. I hit an all time low when I got up this morning and weighed myself for the first time in several months. I had added on another 10 lbs. I have over 100lbs to lose. <BR> <BR> I know one of the reasons is my desire to sleep and pretend I am somewhere else. I sleep fine at night. Get up and with in 2 - 3 hours I want to go back to sleep again. Get up for a few more hours and want to sleep. I can sleep for a couple of hours at a time. My ... Fri, 1 Jul 2016 08:08:50 EST Trying to stay positive I am finding it hard to take care of my kids as well as the responsibility of being the caretaker of my mom and stepdad. <BR> <BR> I had to take care of my home yesterday because it was messy. My kids helped me clean. We still have more to clean but we spent so much time cleaning that I didn't get to do any extra exercises besides the steps recommended by my doctor. <BR> <BR> What I'm trying to say is that I'm feeling a little down because I wanted to start an exercise routine and I didn't ... Thu, 30 Jun 2016 02:42:32 EST Hi...I'm new here I am new here and I am looking forward to this journey. I hope to meet some awesome people along the way. Wed, 29 Jun 2016 01:58:18 EST Hi. I'm just starting today I was diagnosed with bipolar depression since 2009. I had severe depression when I was 17. I've been pretty stable the last 3 years since I've been on my medicine. I had a hard time from 2009 to 2012 trying to find the right medicine for me. Mon, 27 Jun 2016 12:44:31 EST emotional outbursts - crying Since seeing a counselor, I have had 2 episodes of sudden outbursts of uncontrollable crying. First one was private, second one was with family. Luckily my family is a safe place, but it scared my mom. It comes on so unexpectedly and when I open my mouth to speak what is in my mind, the words come out much different (loud/wailing) than I anticipated. So far counselor has suggested small spurts of journaling, drawing, finding creative ways to outlet emotions. Has anyone else experienced t... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 11:46:29 EST Checking in Day 2 check-in. Still here. Still fat. Working on it, which is a positive thing. Mon, 27 Jun 2016 02:43:22 EST Oh jeez waddup Hello~ As you may guess, I'm new to this and are trying to do my first introduction thing (which I'm not very good at, A+) <BR> <BR> Some things cool about me: I speak English (oh wow no way), I can't do a somersault (I know, pathetic) and last but not least, Dogs are in fact my least favorite animal. (Don't kill me just yet please and thanks) <BR> <BR> How about you? What are some super cool jazzy things that aren't maybe already obvious but whatever. Hope your day is going as groovy as mi... Sun, 26 Jun 2016 17:15:02 EST Celiac I was diagnosed with non-celiac gluten sensitivity about 2 years ago. However with the recent stress of moving and just life in general I wasn't caring about what I ate and was eating things with gluten. I'm certainly paying for it. And this time its worse than 2 years ago. In talking to my primary doctor, she wants to test for Celiac, basically to just confirm her diagnosis. <BR> <BR> Its both a relief to know what is going wrong in/with my body but also upsetting. I want to lose wei... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 11:48:51 EST Paleo Hi my me is Angie, I have been eating Paleo for 4 and a half weeks, and have only lost 3 and a half pound. This is very frustrating! All the books that I have read boast about fast and easy weight loss. Thu, 23 Jun 2016 14:44:38 EST hello umm, hi. <BR> <BR> Been on other online weight loss groups but didn't stick with it. Hoping this time I will. It was nice to see a group on here for people dealing with depression. In looking at some of the discussions I a few dealing with other mental illnesses. I'm glad there are others who struggle like me. <BR> <BR> I have borderline personality disorder so my depression is like a side effect. I deal with it on a daily basis. I call my negative thoughts and urges to self harm my ... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 11:04:00 EST Motivational video I'm a skeptic about motivational videos, speakers, quotations and the like. However, someone at another website posted a link and I surprised myself by actually clicking and watching the full six minutes. I think it's excellent and certainly the sort of thing to watch as often as needed. The voiceover applies to all areas of life and it doesn't matter that the visual seems to be about athletics only. It really shows the drive. What I got from the video after one viewing is that we can do... Tue, 21 Jun 2016 18:21:10 EST PattieCarey Hi I'm Pattie.I have been struggling with my weight off and on all my life. I'm ready to get back on top of things. Mon, 20 Jun 2016 14:59:27 EST Hi it's me, Christy I am a 40+ single mother of 3 wonderful children. I need to lose more than a few pounds, and in general just need to be more active, as I have a sit down job... Overall, me and my children are looking to make healthier life style changes. I suffer from a few mild conditions, that are most likely fixed by making better choices and exercising more. If you have any suggestions you'd like to share, I'm willing to take the advice :) Mon, 20 Jun 2016 14:17:43 EST Seeking advice: Stuffed animal safety A friend's daughter gave birth a month ago. I'd like to get a stuffed animal and wonder if any particular brands are best or worst for babies. It's small buttons and such that a baby might chew off that I want to avoid. <BR> Mon, 20 Jun 2016 12:45:17 EST Hi Everyone!!! I am jobie1232 I need to lose 82 lbs. It is very difficult. My son has lost 170 in a year, and I am so proud of him, but I can't get motivated. Sat, 18 Jun 2016 13:07:11 EST Looking for support buddies Hi everyone! <BR> I am looking for other like minded people to create a support circle who I can interact with on a daily basis so we can support each other and share our progress stories or even rant about our daily stresses and difficulties we face! <BR> <BR> I would love to hear from you if you feel that this is smithing you can commit to and would like to be a part of! <BR> My goals are to lose weight and built emotional and mental strength in the process! <BR> <BR> Speak soon xx Sat, 18 Jun 2016 05:29:55 EST Saying hey Hello Spark Friends. I've been on spark people for years, but this team is new for me. I was diagnosed this week with depression. Have decided not to try meds yet, but counseling first. Have never done any counseling before. Lost 75 lbs 4 years ago, then gained 40 back through menopause. Became empty nester last year and can't seem to recover. Counseling will be dealing with the last 14 years of what my kids have put my husband &amp; I through. Grateful to have the hope of Christ. Thu, 16 Jun 2016 10:20:15 EST Won't quit trying! You might say,I've tried everything.This morning,I confess,I get off my plans for better,health,eating,attitude,so easily.I don't last a whole day,usually,but,last year,was in rehab for 42 days,I only ate what was prepared by the facility.I lost about 20lbs,without noticing.I was hungry,but,it was not fatal.Today,i accept responsibility for myself,the person who can help mysituaton,is me.I am 66 yrs. old,somewhat,disabled,because ,ofweight restricting me.Help me to channnnnge,teach me what wo... Thu, 16 Jun 2016 10:05:34 EST From eating disorder to healthy weight loss Hi all! <BR> <BR> This is my first post and I'm hoping this community might be able to help guide me on my journey. I have a history of anorexia for a few years from age 22-25, which ironically enough began during nursing school. I was never too low weight (119 at 5'7" was my lowest) but it certainly took a psychological toll leading me to anxiety and depression, and eventually the excessive exercise and strict calorie restriction of 800-1000 calories lead me to bingeing. I ended up shooting... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 21:30:38 EST Hello Hello I am new to SparkPeople. I basically quit on everything since I have no resources anyway and I end up getting hurt 99.9% of the time. I'm sorry. Wed, 15 Jun 2016 09:57:24 EST MIA crisis mode Hey fellow Sparkers! I've been MIA for several weeks now, but felt I really needed to talk to my understanding group of friends. I went to the Dr about a week ago with severe pain. They said I have a huge ovarian cyst on the right side and several small cysts on the left. I was doing so well for awhile, felt happy, no panic attacks, things seemed to be looking up! Now I'm in pain, relying on pain pills (which is not good for me because they make my depression worse) and off of work for the ne... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 01:39:00 EST Bobby Grow Hi I'm new to sparks people and learning my way around. I have a Face Book account in my name. Be free to check it out. I also use my Photoshop on my face book. All my friends can't wait to see what photo's I post next. I put some pictures on my sparks people home page as well. I speak with my photos. I added some comments to how I feel to some of the photo's. I've' been hiding behind my photo's for some years now. With photo shop I can take my body size down to 200lbs. Then a few months back... Tue, 14 Jun 2016 21:02:44 EST Help I don't know how to get started Thu, 9 Jun 2016 18:03:46 EST Meal Tracking Okay I blogged about one of my issues with this whole "track everything" kick, and it was suggested I post my question here. So here goes. <BR> <BR> I find tracking my food gets really boring, so I usually stop after 2 weeks or so. How do all of you keep at it? Thu, 9 Jun 2016 10:32:51 EST Life and living I am over 40 with three boys ages 15, 12, and 11. My husband and I work full-time and live on 6 acres. We have cattle, chickens, dogs, and one cat. I was always very active until around age 40. I went to work at a job that had me on my feet 8-10 hours a day and worked for a boss that was extremely high maintenance. Now, I am at a sit-down job trying to let my body and spirit heal. The trade off is weight gain, and slow recovery. My main challenges are finding time to cook healthy meal... Thu, 9 Jun 2016 10:08:47 EST New hopes I was here several years ago (not sure how many to be honest) but did not stay long because I let the other issues in life overwhelm me and lost myself in there somewhere. Since then I've had a stroke and made a complete recovery, gotten older and of course gotten heavier. I have several things I need to do to get my life back to where I want it to be. Yesterday I was thinking about those things and how to accomplish each one. I decided to start where I have the most control - what I eat. ... Tue, 7 Jun 2016 17:59:50 EST Help with Tracking Hi <BR> <BR> Can anyone let me know how they track food intake? What if I want to record on paper? Is that ok? <BR> <BR> It seems it takes me awhile to enter in the foods I'm eating. Perhaps once I enter in the most common foods I eat it will be easier. <BR> <BR> Thanks! <BR> Tue, 7 Jun 2016 11:28:51 EST New here and looking for support. Hello, <BR> <BR> I'm attempting to lose around 13 pounds that I cannot seem to release. I currently have a tight living situation. I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and bipolar type 2, and I'm on meds to take the edge off, but they are not entirely effective. I try to combat my disease with healthy eating and exercise but I can become extremely negative if I do not see results or I slip up. <BR> <BR> I hope to make some connections and gain both advice and criticism from this... Tue, 7 Jun 2016 08:25:27 EST Good Morning Hi, <BR> I am new to the team forum. I hear that it is easier to reach your goals when you have a team. So that is why I am here. Hopefully this will be a positive experience for me and in turn I can give back to other members of the team. One step,at a time. Sun, 5 Jun 2016 12:55:27 EST Hey, I guess I am new here! For my 30th birthday present to myself I want to get a bit healthier....I hope this is the route to go!! Why did I choose summer in TN to do this though? I can barely even walk to my car in this humidity, much less exercise! LOL! Sat, 4 Jun 2016 08:21:11 EST Struggling... Trying to keep all my balls in the air as I juggle daily tasks and goals , posting Spark nut and fitness data, etc can be pretty stressing for me. Our whole family is ADHD! This can lead to depression for me in mild ways pretty easily. Perfectionism tendencies don't help. Lately I am really struggling with posting nut data and have had a significant lapse and a weight gain - the two are usually very connected for me - which doesn't help potential depression. Trying to patient with my... Thu, 2 Jun 2016 18:55:59 EST Biggest Loser being investigated by LASD The television show Biggest Loser is being investigated for giving contestants illegal diet drugs. Do you like the show and watch it. Would you be a contestant? Why or Why not? <BR> <BR> I watched the first couple seasons and when I started to lose weight knew it was bull crap. Especially after talking to my Dr. and asking him why I wasn't dropping pounds like they were and he said that was dangerous and he wouldn't let me. No I would not be a contestant. There is a article on Yahoo about t... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 10:42:25 EST I'm bad at thinking of witty things, I'm sorry I suppose I'm just bad at talking about myself in general. I'm Amy, 26, dealing with bipolar, anxiety, ptsd, along with other medical problems. The odds are stacked against me, but I can take control of my eating, at least. I'm starting small- water instead of pop and breakfast every day, but even that's hard for me. I probably won't progress as well as some people, but I'm here to keep chugging along. Wed, 1 Jun 2016 08:49:43 EST Newness I am a bit random. Depression tends to be a really bad thing for me. I've been struggling with it for years now. Glad to have found this group. <BR> <BR> PHYSICALITY <BR> <BR> 1. What's your first name ONLY? Betsy <BR> 2. Birthday? 11/12 <BR> 3. Ideal weight? 220 <BR> <BR> <BR> FAVORITES <BR> <BR> 4. Beverage? Water or Root Beer <BR> 5. Fruit? grapes <BR> 6. Veggie? Green Peppers <BR> 7. Meat? chicken <BR> 8. Dessert? Ice Cream <BR> 9. Cocktail? No <BR> 10. Season? Spring <BR> 11... Tue, 31 May 2016 19:19:21 EST Needing a Spark The past year and a half has been very difficult for me. My husband of 33 years died from ALS. Two weeks later I lost my job of 35 years. And just recently I had an episode of stroke like symptoms. I have put on an enormous amount of weight. I need to lose 100 lbs. I really need support of people who are going through or have gone through what I am dealing with now. I cannot afford Weight Watchers and so I turned to this site for support. Mon, 30 May 2016 22:53:47 EST New here to the group and to message boards <em>249</em> Hi I'm Betsy and am new to this group and a SparkPeople on again off again. I'm hoping that trying message boards will help me stick to it this time. <BR> <BR> I don't really know how these things work so I've been bashful about using them. I guess the only way to learn is to do. <BR> <BR> I'm from Massachusetts and have been battling depression for all my life with the help of meds for the last 25 years. The early years were rough but I've since stabilized for the most pa... Fri, 27 May 2016 14:01:20 EST New to Board...Not to Weightloss Although I am new to SparkPeople, I am, unfortunately, a veteran to weightloss and health choices. <BR> <BR> I have twice before lost greater than 70 pounds, only to have them pile back on. There are a lot of reasons I can throw out as to why I was unable to keep off the weight, all legit, but they are unsatisfying, and I my goal is to keep the weight off permanently. <BR> <BR> I have lost 25 pounds since the beginning of 2016, and I have another 90 or so to go. <BR> <BR> I look forward t... Thu, 26 May 2016 12:41:50 EST Mental health hospital I haven't posted on here in a while, but I wanted to update. Things got bad for a while. I finally decided I needed more help than I was getting, so I was checked into a hospital. It was very frustrating because I really wanted help, but I didn't receive much in the week that I was there. I was a friend to one patient who was being bullied by other kids there, so it wasn't a complete loss. Also, one of the staff members turned out to be related to one of the people who abused me. He said some... Wed, 25 May 2016 23:06:21 EST Introducing the Fluffy Girl! Hey everyone! I'm not new to sparkpeople.....but i am to actually being in a community. My name is Shawna, I'm 29, and I suffer from bipolar manic depression, along with some anxiety thrown in to sprinkle the top. <BR> <BR> I don't normally put myself out there like this...but to do this....I need I'm not getting and haven't for a long time. <BR> <BR> I weigh 346.9 goal weight is 180. <BR> thats 166.9 pounds...thats basically a WHOLE person....I'm scared to ... Wed, 25 May 2016 01:09:34 EST Hey Everyone!! :) Hey! My name is Alivia, and I am starting fresh with Spark people. I used this website a few years back and lost 50lbs, but unfortunately gained all of it plus more after I started college. I am hoping to get back into a healthy lifestyle, lose weight, and work through my depression. I know this website is a great tool and I cannot weigh to see my results. Tue, 24 May 2016 22:00:39 EST Hello I am just coming down from a three week depression and am trying to find a way to deal with my many issues as a Christian. I just got done reading the book Honestly by Sheila Walsh. It helped a lot. I was online trying to find more books and saw this site. I am 42 years old and deal with chronic pain, brain injury, spinal injury, depression, anxiety and recently stomach problems. I take 22 pills a day on a good day. I see my husband and and 19 year old daughter going forward in life as I am g... Tue, 24 May 2016 14:11:43 EST New Here First time on Spark. Glad they have a group like this and looks active. I suffer greatly from going through periods of hating myself. Hope everyone is doing great. Mon, 23 May 2016 08:54:19 EST Hello There Everyone My name is Terri. Today is my first day on this program. I live in south Louisiana outside of New Orleans. I am 45 years old. I am married and I have 2 daughters and 1 grand daughter. I am looking to lose weight and I will need a support system to do so. My family will not help me. They only harm me by bringing in junk foods and heat and eat foods that are not good. I don't have a lot of close friends or people I can hang out with around me. I hope to make new friends that will last for a lon... Fri, 20 May 2016 17:33:48 EST Death/Emotional Eating Hi all. I was doing pretty good eating well until my grandfather passed away on Sunday. Since then, I've said *f it and ate whatever I wanted. I think it'll make me feel better but it makes me feel worse. Problem is, I don't want to do anything but sleep. Nothing makes me happy. I went to see my psych on Tuesday and she told me all this was normal but I feel like I'm falling apart. What can I do to curb the munchies? Thu, 19 May 2016 20:26:32 EST DaisyLou60 I'm new to this community and as I look at some of the recipes I see they use a lot of Splenda. I'm not a big fan of Splenda but would like to still make good recipes - are there other sugar substitutes you recommend? Thu, 19 May 2016 20:24:27 EST yesterday was bad, bad, bad I actually cried at my desk - first time in a long time. I tried taking deep breaths and doing a visualization where I was at my happy place but it didn't work. Crap I don't want to start doing this again. Thu, 19 May 2016 06:49:05 EST Suffering from depression and anxiety... Hello, I am a little leery posting this, but here goes. I am 48 and was diagnosed with depression about 12 years ago. I responded well to medication and have been taking the same stuff for the entire time. Some days, especially in the last couple of years, it seems I need extra help. And then last year I was diagnosed with anxiety. I was given pills to treat the anxiety. However, I believe these pills, while they do help, tend to make my anxiety worse once they wear off. I have tried weaning ... Wed, 18 May 2016 14:39:46 EST Hello team........... My name is Bob and I am a fan of the Oregon State Beavers..........thus the clever name. <BR> hehe....... <BR> I'm sputtering along trying to get into some new healthy habits but the old ones seem to hang on like bad cold. <BR> I did a bit better today and even got in a great walk in the Oregon rain. Thanks and God bless you all. Sun, 15 May 2016 23:27:48 EST Trying it all again Hello, Everyone <BR> <BR> My name is Kayne(pronounced Cain), and I'm hoping this post will make it. I've only tried it three times. First one doesn't count, since I stuck it in the wrong place. <BR> <BR> I hope I will succeed this time, and that I can make some friends. Sun, 15 May 2016 14:47:15 EST Starting today - again Hello, Everyone <BR> <BR> My name is Kayne (nickname pronounced Cain). I hope I can join some discussions and teams, and that I can find some friends. <BR> <BR> I have been fighting depression all my life, however, now it is just chronic, not severe. Meds are keeping it under control for me, without controlling me. <BR> <BR> <BR> Thanks for being here. Sun, 15 May 2016 14:13:50 EST Ooops, wrong place Sorry!!!! Sun, 15 May 2016 14:06:26 EST Starting (again) today Hello, Everyone. I joined this group today. My nickname (which I prefer) is Kayne (pronounced Cain). Although my depression is not severe, it is chronic. I've been taking meds for years, and they have held me level. I still have bad days, but very seldom. I hope I can get help from this group, and that I can get to know people. <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> Sun, 15 May 2016 14:05:15 EST Starting today Hello, Everyone. I joined this group today. My nickname (which I prefer) is Kayne (pronounced Cain). Although my depression is not severe, it is chronic. I've been taking meds for years, and they have held me level. I still have bad days, but very seldom. I hope I can get help from this group, and that I can get to know people. <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> Sun, 15 May 2016 13:47:41 EST HELLO ~ 2nd time Around! i'm Michelle and this is my 2nd time with Sparkpeople. i Originally joined back in 2006 and really loved it and had met Lots of nice friends. My First WeightLoss started in 2005, took about 5 years, and i lost 100 was the BEST and most AMAZING feeling i had experienced in SO many years! i think you get so comfortable in that life and Forget really HOW you got there, and how hard you worked, and you start your OLD habits..well Now i've worked some of my weight Back UP. i had gotten ... Sun, 15 May 2016 12:45:32 EST Happy and nervous to be here. Hi everyone. Just posting on Sparkpeople is taking me out of my comfort zone. But while I fight my introvert nature let me say I'm excited to be here and I'm excited to have a community to hang with while I change my life and lose 127 lbs. Much love to all. Fri, 13 May 2016 23:16:59 EST New Here Hi, my name is Maddy, I am returning to SparkPeople, the first time around I half heartily did it, it was more to maintain. I have since gained a lot more weight and I am serious about getting it off. I have depression and anxiety and am excited there is a team created for it. I know I could use the support. Food is my go to when I'm down!! Fri, 13 May 2016 12:01:51 EST New Here I am new to the site and am a little nervous about starting this. I have failed at dieting before but I am hoping that this time it will stick with some support. Wed, 11 May 2016 23:10:47 EST Hi there My name is Bea, I am a single mom on a teenage boy, and also 2 furry babies, cat named Larry, and mixed breed pooch, named Kashi. Because she keeps me healthy, like the popular brand of foods. <BR> I was born in Poland and have lived in the USA for 26 years. <BR> Sooo, like many people, my weight has been going up and down for ages and I am currently going through the phase, when I record my food and exercise and losing. Question is for how long. <BR> I have bipolar depression, ADD, PTSD and ... Wed, 11 May 2016 19:10:09 EST Just another newbie :) Howdy everyone! My name is Barbara and i am 54 years old. I am married, have 3 daughters and 5 absolutely wonderful grandchildren. I suffer from Bipolar disorder and depression is something I deal with on a daily basis. I am hoping to gain support from people that are on the same weight loss journey and do understand about depression. Tue, 10 May 2016 20:16:14 EST water world I can remember my mom singing the Elvis song, Moody Blue all the time. <BR> I was just a kid and didnt understand, maybe she was blue and moody lol. <BR> Now, I look out my door at what is probably day 7 of gloom, dark gray cloudy skies, rain, and damp earth. <BR> I am just moody blue myself, and I cant seem to rise out of the funk. <BR> I know exercise would help, and I know I need to get out of this chair and venture out. <BR> I probably havent been in my car twice in the last week. I wake... Tue, 10 May 2016 07:48:23 EST Morning Workouts I am currently unemployed, so I figured it would be a good idea to see how long it takes me to go through a morning routine with a workout. My findings: 2.5 hours. When I am working, I work an 8-5 job and I don't see how a morning workout is really feasible. I would have to get up at 4:30AM in order to have a morning workout session. Worse, that would mean being in bed by 8:30PM in order to get in 8 hours of sleep. I don't see how I can possibly go to bed that early. <BR> <BR> I'd like to... Mon, 9 May 2016 09:32:22 EST Third time's the charm So this is my third attempt to live a healthier lifestyle using SparkPeople. When I use it, it really helps, but then I tend to stop using it and fall back into old habits. <BR> <BR> I'm starting at 250 pounds and want to lose 50 pounds by the end of October. Other goals include reducing my triglyceride levels and glucose levels. I have type 2 diabetes and my A1C is currently at 8.6. Sat, 7 May 2016 15:47:05 EST Hi I'm new to the team I'm scarlett and I have done sparkpeople before and had lost 50pounds but unfortunately that was a few years back. Which gave me some time to let myself go so I gained a good 100 pounds just over the past few years and I realized I need to put a stop to it. I have struggled with bipolar and depression a lot which has set me back in the past but I am here to support everyone and would appreciate it to have a good team knowing I am supported in my weight loss journey but also the journey of lif... Wed, 4 May 2016 02:02:42 EST Hello Sparkpeople! I had gained over 100 lbs due to depression and agoraphobia. This is my second time joining. I had lost 60 lbs prior, but slacked off when I went back to school. I had maintained a 45 lb weight loss until last semester. I was so close to finishing my goal of becoming a lawyer until I hit a brick wall. I burned out with 22 credits left to go. Then I gained the weight I had lost back. I don't know how to feel about all of this. I am disappointed in myself, which doesn't help my self est... Wed, 4 May 2016 01:16:21 EST Stress management Hi everybody, <BR> <BR> We all suffer from stress and I found this article from the Mayo Clinic that I thought had some good advice. Let me share it with you. <BR> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>/stress-management/in-depth/stress-rel<BR>ievers/art-20047257/?utm_source=newsle<BR>tter&amp;utm_medium=email&amp;utm_camp<BR>aign=housecall </link> Mon, 2 May 2016 13:11:13 EST Hospital Well, I talked with my pastor and his wife yesterday. My pastor seemed to think that I have a good understanding of my struggles with bipolar. He concluded that if I didn't think I needed to go to the hospital, then I probably didn't. But, his wife didn't agree. She's a nurse, so she's got a slightly different background. She insisted I go to the hospital since I have been cutting and seeing demons since Tuesday. She actually followed me to the hospital to make sure I went. Then, she went in ... Mon, 2 May 2016 11:10:34 EST Hi-looking for weight loss buddy Hi- <BR> I am new to Spark. I suffer from Bipolar 2 (or so they say). In the last few months I did Weight Watchers and started an exercise routine and lost 15 lbs per doctor request. My liver enzymes were better and I was almost out of the "pre-diabetic" range. <BR> Then the Spring season decided to get confused here in Colorado. Now my depression is a huge struggle and I'm gaining weight back due to bailing on my weight loss plan. My Weight Watchers membership ended and can't afford t... Sun, 1 May 2016 22:18:59 EST had lost 100..gained 50 i am! :) Hello ~~ really happy there's a site out here like this..just Amazing! i had worked SO Hard to lose 100 pounds, and it took me about 5 years to do it, really Lowered my Cholesterol, felt so good and healthy..with LOTS of Personal family issues that have caused me to be Diagnosed with Severe Anxiety, Depression and PTSD..i've lost a lot of Motivation and gained back Half of my weight. i'm also Hypothyroid and struggle Severely with that. Anyways..SO HAPPY to be here and look forward to a NEW S... Sun, 1 May 2016 14:20:29 EST Interesting Article on How to Boost Your Mood An interesting article on Huffington Post on how to feel better when you're depressed. From my eperience that psychologist is right -- I don't feel any better if I treat myself. I think I'll try an experiment to see how this works. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>y-to-boost-mood_us_571bacefe4b0d4d3f72<BR>38dc4?utm_hp_ref=science?ncid=newsltus<BR>hpmg00000003 </link> Sun, 1 May 2016 13:06:45 EST Something to brighten the day This is really nice. Too bad it's only a minute's worth of nice. <BR> Suitable for grandchildren. In fact, perfect for grandchildren <BR> <BR> <link><BR>fXohxc?rel=0&amp;%3bshowinfo=0 </link> Sat, 30 Apr 2016 23:16:21 EST overwhelmed with depression as I sit here ...I am making myself...participate!...I know it will help as I know I can get better...but time seems to drag thru molasses...I try to sleep...last night ...up and down.. <BR> finally from 6 to 9am I slept....and I want to crawl back in bed now...calling my name.. <BR> I have to keep trying....because I am afraid.. Sat, 30 Apr 2016 09:41:29 EST Another Newbie Hey there. <BR> <BR> Well,I'm new to this team but old to SparkPeople. I've been doing Spark on and off since 2011, and when I follow it, things work well for me. Ironically what usually makes me fall off the boat is depression. So... it seemed like getting involved with a team that GETS that struggle was the thing to give a shot. Sat, 30 Apr 2016 00:10:20 EST ok..i am new now or here again complete heart failure in jan..causes me memory probs..I joined here so long ago...told my dr all about the site..she has recommended to patients..then I dropped if the probs didn't exist any more..i have been a recluse for ~6yrs and it is worse now...muscle loss...losing teeth..feeling just 'peachy' as long as I don't closest friend for years.we talked 1 -4 hours every night for years..on his birthday last oct30..he was told he had cancer..very aggressive .nothing to do ... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 19:48:28 EST Fighting to Stay afloat I'm so tired and sad lately I feel like I'm drowning, I fell off the wagon for 2/3 weeks and just forced myself back into gear not to long ago but it feels like I'm running in circles and that i'll need get the health under control, I feel very.. very sad hard to put it to words. However I'm keeping it to myself I feel like if i speak out I'll be a burden on my loved ones. Right now a lot of extra stuff fell into my lap to take care of and I can't drop the ball on any of it but it's all so ov... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 16:13:53 EST Hello! Hey everyone, I'm Kara. Going to be 32 in two months and I'm tired of being tired all the time. I suffer from major anxiety and depression and have for almost 10 years. I am frustrated with why I have these disorders. I read so many stories of people that fought in the military or grew up in less than ideal circumstances and I can see why they would develop anxiety or depression and I think it's wonderful how they are coping and getting along so well. I have none of these reasons. I didn't gr... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 04:56:15 EST Eating to Death Hello. I am Eliza. I am 30 years old and weigh two almost three times my best weight. I feel like crap and feel like I am drowning in my bad habits. I am pushing away the love of my life because I am gaining more instead of loosing. I have had depression and anxiety most of my life and things seem to get worse as time passes. I really need motivation and drive to get better. Thu, 28 Apr 2016 00:32:38 EST Majorly Struggling I am really struggling right now. My life has been a roller coaster of ups and downs since last August. I was almost hospitalized in November because I was cutting fairly frequently. But, I evened out. We are buying a house (we get a closing date today), and it has been a rough journey. But, we've made it through. But, I am holding on by a tendril. I cut myself yesterday during my planning period. I don't really know why. I just know that I am overwhelmed, exhausted, and at the end of my rope... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 09:58:07 EST Hello new friends! Hi! I'm new here and I wanted to introduce myself. My name is Cierra and I'm an 18 year old college student. I'm a journalism major. I play the ukulele. After a 5 month battle of refusing to get help, I was officially diagnosed with depression 4 months ago.Wow. 9 whole months with depression. That scares me considering I only just turned 18 in October. I used to think depression only affected older people. Anyways, it's been a roller coaster but, it's a battle I'm trying to fight with no help... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 23:06:54 EST hi there my name is chrissy. i am not really new to spark, i just never kept up with it. Tue, 26 Apr 2016 19:25:41 EST CCgal Hi everybody, <BR> Here I am with about 40 lbs too much. It is a real challenge to lose this weight, everything is stacked against it, age, shut-in, isolation, and so on. But this is a health issue. I am reaching out to the other people who are riding the same train. I am in need of encouragement and a cheering section as we all are. I promise to not whine. thanks CCgal Mon, 25 Apr 2016 10:07:04 EST SparkPeople noob! hi! <BR> <BR> i'm glad to join everyone! this looks like a fun way to stay motivated while working towards my goals of getting healthier and fit! I have two main reasons I'm doing this: I'm getting married June 2017, and also I want to work my way into joining my local roller derby team. i also have bipolar disorder, which makes community support super important to me. thanks for reading! <BR> <BR> -charm Fri, 22 Apr 2016 07:32:29 EST Anxiety ? Do you have anxiety? I am struggle with mine atm. I was wondering if you have any suggestion to help me get out more?? Wed, 13 Apr 2016 22:04:07 EST New Member Hi! My name is Sara and I just joined. I am trying to jump back onto my healthy lifestyle journey but finding it very difficult to stick with it. <BR> <BR> I joined Sparkpeople because I wanted to find others like myself for motivation and encouragement. As well as to hold myself accountable with eating and exercise. <BR> <BR> I am 32, (almost 33) I am married and have 2 elementary aged kiddos. I am a stay at home mom for now. I live in Stanley, WI and am looking at losing about 40 lbs. <B... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 14:17:18 EST hi everyone! Hi everyone! I'm brand new to spark people. I've struggled with weight issues and eating disorders all my life! I just want to be healthy and happy and maybe look great in a bikini this summer!! Tue, 12 Apr 2016 12:04:18 EST Survey questions on handling stress <BR> <BR> I would want to know answers to these following questions because I know that I am not alone. As someone who suffers from depression and anxiety, I am vulnerable to stress. Most of the time I don't cope well. I would like to learn from those people who are like myself on how do they deal with pressure and stress. Any answer will be much appreciated. Thank you. <BR> <BR> 1.) What stresses you? <BR> <BR> 2.) What are the signs that you are stressed? <BR> <BR> 3.) Do crack under ... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 01:53:45 EST New and Ready to Change I am a 42 year old mother of three. I have been on numerous diets all of my adult life. I am in pain and want to set a good example for my beautiful girls. I am a special education teacher in an elementary school. I look forward to meeting people with similar goals and life challenges. Mon, 11 Apr 2016 21:09:05 EST Migraine <em>24</em> Mon, 11 Apr 2016 09:55:36 EST Frustrated with Injury Hi guys. I just want to know what workouts I can do at the gym, to help me lose weight with a bulging disc. I injured my back at work 5 months ago, and have been going to physical therapy. Its not working. The only thing I am told to do are back extension. I have gained 10lbs. I have always been fit and this is frustrating me. My abs are no longer firm. I was told that I cant do crunches or planks. I was told I cant even do the squat machine at the gym because it will strain my back. I'm real... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 17:30:50 EST Hi all looking for motivation on the last leg of my weight lose ........... I have lost 61kg and have a further 17 to go the hardest fat to lose Thu, 7 Apr 2016 23:27:29 EST Hello Lovelies :) I'm mechel :) Mum to six, foster career, student, wife. I love glam planning, fitness, heath, nutrition, being a mum and Australia (which is where i live)! I currently live in Brisbane, Australia with my Partner(who i refer to as hubby but we aren't married yet,) our six kids, two cats, two dogs! I recently lost 20kg, but its slowly creeping back because i have had a rough last six months. I suffer from anxiety and panic disorder. <BR> <BR> I am here to get support with eating mostly. I se... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 20:34:34 EST Need to lose a little for my liver transplant Hi All, <BR> My doctor wants me to lose some weight before liver transplant, about 15-20# for now (more can come later). My cirrhotic liver, past use of steroids (which made me insulin dependent) for sarcoidosis, and a host of immune issues make weight loss very, very difficult. <BR> It's been a tough winter. I had to stop teaching and my boss gave me committee work (he's the man!) as I prepare for the transplant and deal with my crappy immune system, diabetes, chronic pain, upcoming (hop... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 21:18:54 EST FYI (for your information) Go to Articles &amp; Videos - Scroll down and click on Health &amp; Wellness - Go right and click on Health A-Z.. You will find information on any illness you may have. Sun, 3 Apr 2016 17:53:24 EST New to the Team Hi I am new to the team!! Sun, 3 Apr 2016 02:38:22 EST Hello everyone I've always exercised but now I want to eat better and track my progress so that I can be healthy. I look forward to this adventure and hope to have a lot of support along the way. :) Sat, 2 Apr 2016 01:18:17 EST April Fools' Day Quiz. <BR> 1. What date is April Fools' Day? <BR> <BR> 2. According to one belief, April Fools' Day is said to have started in which country? <BR> <BR> 3. In 1998, which restaurant published a fake advertisement for a hamburger for left-handed people? <BR> <BR> 4.Back in 2011,Which celebrity heartthrob singer pretended to let talk show host Jimmy Kimmel shave off his hair? <BR> <BR> 5. TRUE or APRIL FOOL: NASA posted on it's website that water had been found on Mars. Was water really found on... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 11:29:40 EST HI I'm Briana. Almost 32, living outside of Seattle. I've been suffering from severe depression and social anxiety pretty much my whole life. I'm currently in counseling and attending groups to learn the coping skills I never developed. I hope to get to know ya'll better. Thu, 31 Mar 2016 20:03:18 EST Intro Hi, just joined the site through a referral from a friend. I'm quietly struggling through depression since I lost my brother last year. I realise that it takes more than just meds to bring about whole healing, so nutrition and fitness is also at the top of my priories. Here goes <em>9</em> Thu, 31 Mar 2016 07:23:12 EST Almost New I've been a member on sparkpeople for awhile, but I've always been too shy to introduce myself on here. I'm at a point where I finally feel like I'm ready to commit to a healthier lifestyle and I decided that since I'm making changes to my health, I could also make a change and say 'hi' to everyone :). Thu, 31 Mar 2016 01:18:19 EST Need Encouragement Hi, <BR> <BR> I am new to SparkPeople, I am a young widow and very depressed. I want to exercise but find it difficult to motivate myself. I am new to the area I am living in so I am very lonely. I wish I could find a friend close by that also suffers from depression and wants to exercise. <BR> I need an exercise buddy. <BR> <BR> Hopefully there is someone out there who can help me. <BR> <BR> Thanks for reading my post. <BR> <BR> Cheryl Wed, 30 Mar 2016 13:52:45 EST New to Team, Back to Spark! Been there before and did so well. <BR> <BR> In the years since, I have lost myself, lost who I am. I gained all my weight back and more. I've become depressed. <BR> <BR> Im here because I am taking me back. I am holding myself accountable, and changing my lifestyle. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wed, 30 Mar 2016 11:36:19 EST New Hi, I'm new to Spark people, it's my second day and I'm already slightly discouraged. I'm having a hard time tracking what I eat. For whatever reason it's so overwhelming for me. I'm really hoping this program works better than my last one. I have Ehlers-Danlos Sydrome which prevents me from doing a lot of activities, but I'm going to keep trying. Feel free to add me! <BR> Tiffany Tue, 29 Mar 2016 22:12:08 EST Hello I have been dealing with depression and posttraumatic stress. I look forward to having encouragement on the journey. Tue, 29 Mar 2016 13:28:48 EST March 29th is a day I will never forget March 29th, 2010 is the day that I will never forget. It changed my life and the lives of my children. It is the day that I hear the words "ONE OF THE CANCERS" being used for a mass (actually 2 tumors) on my (then) 6 year old son's left kidney. The fear that day will never be forgotten and as I type this I get teary eyed thinking about it. We are 6 years out and he's cancer free and I am so grateful. We were lucky that we caught it at a stage 2. He was diagnosed with Wilms Tumor and had about... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 10:49:44 EST I need some friends Like I said in my profile, I am a very shy person and I don't really have a thriving social life. I work with my family and don't have a lot of time, or energy (or the confidence), to go out and meet new people. I recently got out of a 5 year relationship. All this put together equals me feeling very alone, despite having a very loving and wonderful family behind me. That is one of the bigger, if not the biggest, reason that I have joined this site. I would love to find a place where people c... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 21:47:50 EST HI, I'M Jess Hi there. I am new here (obviously) and I just wanted to say hello. I don't really know how all of this works yet but I'm looking forward to learning. <BR> I'm not sure what all I am supposed to put here so I'll leave it at this :) Mon, 28 Mar 2016 21:38:52 EST New beginning Hi. My name is Evelyn and I live in Dom. Rep. Heard about this program in internet. Liked it and hear I am!!!! I have a 3 and half year old baby boy. Stopped my professional life to raise him. That carried a weight gain of 20 lbs. During past years I have been fight weight gain. Seem to lose and gain even more than before. My plateau has raised by 10 lbs. Went back to the gym last october. But no weight loss, though I feel better and my body has changed a bit. <BR> <BR> Definete... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 14:49:45 EST