SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Welcome! This is a space for anyone dealing with depression to support each other as we eat right, exercise, lose weight, and find ways to manage our depression. SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Brand new in more ways than one.... Hello, my name is Sara. I'm new to this group, but I've been using Sparkpeople off and on for a few years now. I'm also new to having depression. It hit me really, really hard about six months ago. Since then, my doctor has had me out on disability. I've also been diagnosed with a few other health issues; Hashimoto's disease, panic disorder w/anxiety, agoraphobia, and I found out that I have an extra bundle of nerves on my heart that causes severe palpitations and a skyrocketing pulse at rand... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 13:01:45 EST Hi, Songwriter originally from UK now living in Washington State. Over the last 2 years , my emotional life has hit the lowest i could ever remember, I have lots to be greatly for in life but I feel i have nothing worthy and nothing left to offer anybody. I piled on the pounds because eating is my only source of happiness but its a short lived happiness as you look at you ever increasing disgusting body and say why bother with all anymore. But I am a fighter :-) and i will try just one more tim... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 11:55:42 EST I am new to spark people...A little about me hello, I am new here. I am a 42 year old female that weighs a little over 350 pounds and my self esteem and self image is down the drain. I also have health problems associated with my obesity such as hypothyroidism, hypertension, borderline diabetic, sleep apnea, arthritis in knees and feet,depression and anxiety. I want and need to lose weight, but the thought of it is just overwhelming. Any advice. My doctor told me just take it one day at a time but she is not in my shoes. Sat, 27 Jun 2015 01:55:08 EST dissociative identity disorder Hi, I have depression and anxiety related to dissociative identity disorder...does anybody else have that...I'd like to connect... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 14:16:52 EST need help explaining My new fiancé I don't feel fully understands my depression cause he automatically thinks I wanna move to my home town four states away which is not at all what I wanna do. He swears Im not losing him but thanks to the depression that is a constant worry for me. I don't know how to explain my fears or depression with him can someone please give me some advice? Thu, 25 Jun 2015 15:06:48 EST Fibromyalgia I have fought with depression and been over weight most of my life. I lost my weight and I was so proud of my self but since I have lost the weight I have been suffering with so severe pain and I can not do the things I enjoy in life any more. I can not get any help and I am at the point if dying would relieve me of this pain then I have wish at time I want to be dead so I wouldn't suffer any more.. The doctors in the past diagnose me with fibromyagia and said I will suffer with pain it would... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 16:48:33 EST Intro - Jenni Hello Folks, <BR> I have had depression off and on probably since childhood. Things are okay, and I'm happy to say I'm only moderately depressed. Wed, 24 Jun 2015 15:58:59 EST New - Hello!! Hi Everyone, <BR> <BR> I am starting my journey of self improvement. My husband is in my corner, but boy do I realize I need a support system to pull me over that goal line. This is exciting and nerve racking to take on, as I have failed in the past. But, here is being positive to new things in life! Wed, 24 Jun 2015 13:55:43 EST A flower is dying because of me... What can I do? I try to manage my stress, but yesterday I had a burst, again. I was in the office and I felt an intensity I have not experienced for a long while. I couldn't find my place. I went home, tried to sleep, but I could hardly fall asleep towards dawn. <BR> When I came back in the office late, in the morning, I found the flower almost dead, lying down on the pot. It is a high and beutiful plant, about 60 cm high, in a big pot, and it was in perfect shape, growing more and more in the last months. ... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 05:50:38 EST I'm back Hi, all. I am one of those yo-yo dieters. I am so tired of the lose gain party. I am sick... have had high BP for decades, diabetes type two for 15 years, and just diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and I am afraid. I started with tiny goals, 5 minutes to walk daily. Track, track, track! Mon, 22 Jun 2015 19:56:38 EST Starting Fresh Again...!!! Hi <BR> My name is Shy, once again I end up back here, starting Fresh Again..... I've been on several programs to get this weight off... I'm on this mission this time to stick with it... I don't understand, I can give things up for Ash Wednesday which is in Feb/Mar and runs until Easter.... I loose weight inches and everything. So one thing I can't do is keep it off and continue I stated a few months ago I was going to continue since the summer months are here and you can no longer hide behi... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 18:21:43 EST Starting Fresh Again...!!! Hi <BR> My name is Shy, once again I end up back here, starting Fresh Again..... I've been on several programs to get this weight off... I'm on this mission this time to stick with it... I don't understand, I can give things up for Ash Wednesday which is in Feb/Mar and runs until Easter.... I loose weight inches and everything. So one thing I can't do is keep it off and continue I stated a few months ago I was going to continue since the summer months are here and you can no longer hide behi... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 18:20:48 EST check in Hi. I was on a trip to Atlanta last week. We ate at local restaurants most of the time instead of fast food so I didn't count calories. But I drank water and tea 99% of the time. I only had one soda and one cup of coffee during the whole trip. Plus there was tons of walking. I'm leaving tomorrow for church camp and wont have my phone so I still wont be counting calories. But there will be lots of outdoor activities. I feel like I really needed these getaways and I actually haven't been eating... Sun, 21 Jun 2015 15:57:36 EST Hello Spark Members Thank you for the opportunity to introduce myself. The reason I am joining this active board is because I am feeling overwhelmed, sad, tired, and am not doing any exercise and/or eating well. Hoping to find some support here....Have a great day and a wonderful Father's Day!! Sun, 21 Jun 2015 12:43:37 EST Hi Friends My name is Robbie, and I live in SC. My goal is to lose 50lbs, and I can use all the help, support, and advice I can get !!! Thank you. Robbie Sun, 21 Jun 2015 08:59:51 EST Newbie here my ex husband died going on 4 months ago. that is brought on a clear realization of life and an appreciation but fear lingers that something could happen to my present husband. I know as a Christian that I should pray about these things that's part of what on my mind along with stuffing feelings with food Sun, 21 Jun 2015 01:48:26 EST I am new to spark people Hi everyone, Tammy here. I am 42 years old. I weigh just about 350. I am really sick of looking the way I do.. I need to lose weight, the correct way where it doesn't creep back up on you. I know I have a long haul to lose the weight. I know it is a lifestyle change but don't know where to start. Sat, 20 Jun 2015 18:37:21 EST consistency issues I seem to deal with this a lot and I don't feel like I have made much progress with this. I have so many things I want to accomplish and I get started on so many things its like I don't finish what I start. Last night a thought came to me that maybe deep down I am so afraid of failing. Funny how that works. I am consistent and know that I am good at my job but it seems managing my own life is a struggle for me. I have had lots of changes in life but I don't want them to be an excuse. Any sug... Sat, 20 Jun 2015 12:28:54 EST Not sure whatI am seeking.... Ok folks, I am reaching out and not sure what I will get or really want. Some background... I have lost 6 toes to osteomyelitis and am facing losing half a foot or possibly more. I am being strong for every one else, but have no one to really give me support. Everyone, including the doctors and specialists, can tell me why this is happening except that saying 40 years of not taking care of myself is catching up to me. See I used to weigh over 250 lbs and was on multiple medications for ev... Sat, 20 Jun 2015 07:19:28 EST Changes at 50 Hello, my name is Colleen and I hope to get to know many of you . Thu, 18 Jun 2015 20:18:51 EST hello I am new here. first of all I have suffered with depression since I was a little girl. I am now almost 61 years old. with Gods grace I have come a long way from the way I use to feel and the way I use to be. I enjoy going to my church because the church pastor does so well. I also have been in a 12 step Christ centered recovery group for 7 years. It is for anything that hinders your walk with God. Not just drugs and alcohol. Depression was my biggest struggle so that is where I started working on in the pro... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 13:42:48 EST Late Intro Good morning! I'm new-ish here. I've been lurking here for about a week but haven't posted an intro yet. My name is Shannon, I'm a 33 year old mother of three (ages 11, 4, & 3). I'm a public health nurse who loves what I do. I'm constantly taking care of everyone else and while doing that I forgot to take care of myself and gained 30 pounds. I recently joined a gym and I've been going 3 times a week for the last 3 weeks. I started my weight loss journey on Jenny Craig back in April at 175 pou... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 12:27:25 EST new here Busy mom, 45, going back to Glacier National Park this summer (10 years later and 20 lbs more). Really hoping to improve my fitness and lose a chunk of weight for the big hikes August 15. Never feel good, exhausted, headaches, bad right knee. This feels overwhelming, but I do want it. <BR> I have tried before, but about two weeks in, I cave due to work, time pressures, pain and exhaustion. I am at that point right now...what are some things you have done to get past that hurdle? Tue, 16 Jun 2015 09:15:33 EST only place to talk about this stuff I did write a blog this just a short time ago about this as well but I feel this group is the only place that I can really talk and have people to help and listen and understand me. I am so stressed I honestly feel like a worthless piece of s___ right now I feel like nothing is fixable even though I know it is and I know I can change everything but it seems so pointless sometimes why keep trying and I feel my weigh is never gonna change no matter how hard I try it feels like all forces are ag... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 15:05:41 EST Whoop whoop! Went walking today! I did about 20 minutes of walking this morning. It's a start! Mon, 15 Jun 2015 09:13:53 EST Hello Hello, I am currently going through, what I think is the mid life blues. I am 46 and had a big life change recently. I was let go from a company that I had worked at for 14 years. Trying to find a new job was hard because of my age. Not to mention that who I thought was my best friend turned out to only be a work friend. My kids are moved out and it is just me and the hubby. We have a good relationship so that is not a problem. I thought that by the time I was this age, I would have accomplis... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 19:17:01 EST Admitting I am depressed I don't know if it was okay just to add a thread asking for support or if there is a proper way to do this some teams are specific on this matter. I quietly acknowledged when I set up my spark account that I occasionally struggle with depression. Right now in my life I am more than acknowledging there is something wrong and it is worse than ever. I sent an email to a trusted advisor and the response was Em look at your personal pronouns in your message. Now I am finding myself uneasy about as... Sat, 13 Jun 2015 07:46:27 EST Hello I am new to this forum but have been dealing with depression for years. I am not doing well and thought writing could help. Fri, 12 Jun 2015 15:46:12 EST balancing fun and goals Now that schools out I've lost my motivation. I either want to sleep all day or I'm not at home to workout. I'm having a hard time balancing my goals with just wanting to enjoy my break. I'm getting off track bad. <BR> I also can't seem to find a workout plan that I like. Ive been following blogilates monthly calendar but that's starting to get boring and doesn't burn many calories. <BR> I'll also be traveling for a couple weeks. The first week is a school trip, but we will be walking alot a... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 17:42:20 EST Just starting out Hi, my name is Michele. I'm just starting on my lose weight/get fit journey and I'm still a bit resistant. I hate to exercise, but I'm 42 and need to lose 50 lbs-I haven't been feeling well and I'm worried about diabetes because it runs in my family and I had gestational diabetes (insulin-dependant) with my last pregnancy 14.5 years ago. So I have to make changes whether I want to or not. Staying motivated will be my biggest challenge. Wed, 10 Jun 2015 00:55:34 EST stuck any one have any insight to my state . i just feel stuck . i am depressed but not to the paralyzed state just very unhappy .i make lists of what will help me but havent got the oomph to move forward .i am using food tv and computer games to distract me from moving .i am alone alot but not lonely i just need to find a gap in my mood to move <BR> jacquie Mon, 8 Jun 2015 19:45:59 EST Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> I'm Ria and my goal is to grow emotionally, physically and spiritually strong for my family. I have recently gone to the Biggest Loser Camp to focus on myself and leave the issues I have at home behind. I hope to keep reaping from this investment by leaving my sedentary life behind and eating healthy. I am looking forward to motivating each other and hearing from all of you here! Mon, 8 Jun 2015 13:57:30 EST Being emotionally strong I'm committed to my family and have been trying for 15 years to cope with depression but my husband's unfaithfulness and lying compulsion is making it hard to concentrate on the goal of being physically and mentally fit. I am constantly struggling with my own negative thoughts about my worth and how impossible it is to be in a marriage where there is no trust or accountability on his part. I am constantly scared because I feel I've given all of myself---my education, a career and my heart to... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 13:06:53 EST what did you do to be productive today? Hi I'm new and looking for support. some days I can do lots of things other days just getting out of bed is an accomplishment. I am also hard on myself. I actually do quite a bit. I run around for my high school kid, tutoring, singing, swim etc. I help my in laws and volunteer in hospice. <BR> <BR> Today I made my bed. Sun, 7 Jun 2015 13:34:38 EST Introducing Myself Hi, I'm new, or I may have been here before three years ago, but I'm not sure. <em>29</em> Anyway, I find myself here because I was a caregiver to my grandmother, and have been a caregiver to others of and on. It's not a profession I chose, but it chose me. I also homeschool 3 kids, at one time 4, but the oldest is now fixing to get married and move to Australia. Not to mention that my not so old mother has lost her mind, really... <BR> And I've had to take care of her off and on. ... Sun, 7 Jun 2015 12:15:16 EST New Hi, I am new to all of this. I am bipolar and depression is part of that. It is a life long struggle however I do well when I stay on my meds, exercise, eat well, and manage stress. Sun, 7 Jun 2015 11:26:19 EST HELLO FROM A NEWBE Hi my name is Amanda and I just turned 30 I haven't been on sparks for over 2 years and now I am back and not leaving end of story! But I will say my depression has been a very big part of me leaving sparks and now that Im on meds I feel I have a better chance but I have on been on meds for 32 days and my dr just upped my meds and the side effects from the starting have not settled so hopefully I will balance out soon but I want to be happy and healthy and I feel these two things go together ... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 21:34:59 EST please help me I can't make this anxiety go away. Half the time I don't know why I feel like this. I feel nauseous, I'm getting dizzy at times, I'm hot. I tried to work out hoping it would make me feel better but I just felt worse. Ive got an appointment with my therapist Wednesday, but time seems to be passing by slow. I just want to feel better. Fri, 5 Jun 2015 18:17:44 EST One way to battle depression . . . I refer to it as "cinematic comedic therapy". <BR> <BR> Translation: I watched a funny movie today. Right now, I have "It's a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World" on. Plus, I did some venting in my journal. Last night I tried sleeping with my CPAP but with no water. The last time I had tried that, I could hear every breath I took coming out of the CPAP. This time, I put earplugs in my ears and that seemed to help. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for the Spark Goodies! Fri, 5 Jun 2015 16:35:42 EST Hello! Weight has always been an uphill struggle for me. Add in depression and that just makes it even more fun of a ride. I'll be turning 40 this year and have had some health issues lately. A serious scare back in September that landed me in the hospital for a couple days. Even after that I have been putting off losing weight. One of my doctors suggested Sparkpeople for motivation, support, and tracking. <BR> <BR> Hopefully this will be the start of a new beginning and keeping my chin up. Fri, 5 Jun 2015 10:49:34 EST I'm new too. Looking forward to getting to know others on this team and to be active here as well. Thu, 4 Jun 2015 17:42:56 EST Stinkin' Thinkin' - I need support, please I woke up having a rough day today. I don't even know WHY.... And what's worse is I don't know what is bugging me, I know it's depression or anxiety as I have both.... I don't want to do anything at all.... I didn't want to get up I don't want to take the kids to school, I don't want to be at my house I don't want to go anywhere.... The biggest issue is I'm stuck on what I don't want.... I can't even think of what I *DO* want... I feel stuck with my stinkin' thinkin' what do you do to help pu... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 06:24:58 EST Newbie Introduction Ugh...I never know what to say on these things. I'm 27 years old and have been overweight all of my life. Battling some pretty serious emotional and anxiety issues for the last couple of years has forced me to get serious about getting my life together and taking control of my health. Right now, I weigh about 300 lbs. and I'm tired of it. Not really very good at the whole community thing, but I'm trying to work on that too. Tue, 2 Jun 2015 23:40:49 EST Kayla's weight loss story the journey continues even though I have previously lost 60 pounds since about April 2015. I began my weight loss journey January 2014 and I have had success with weight watchers. I got SICK of those meals!! I LOVE food so I don't understand how I could get sick of them!! I'm doing the Healthy Choice meals, slim fast shake and atkins replacement meals. I thought the atkins meals were snacks but I didn't read it carefully before I bought it. I have since April have gained a few pounds but some... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 01:55:52 EST Hello! I'll tell you a bit about myself :) <BR> I have a very fragile mind: anything can shatter my self-esteem, I suffer from anxiety, and because of this, I'm a very depressed person. I'm quick to beat myself up, generalize, assume the worst, I have anger issues, and most of the time I feel like my emotions are out of my control. That being said, I'm often more pessimistic than optimistic. <BR> <BR> This is as much as I can think of. Look forward to helping around ^_^ Sun, 31 May 2015 22:55:24 EST Hi All! I joined back in January, but never bothered using any of the community features before now. I am 30-something years old and hoping to lose 30-something pounds to be at my goal weight. Sun, 31 May 2015 16:04:44 EST Hello Hi, I'm new to Sparkpeople and had a year+ battle with depression. I just found out I have PCOS and am afraid of falling back into depression. Just trying to stay positive over here. Sat, 30 May 2015 09:35:52 EST wanna quit I'm bloated, binged today, and the results aren't coming fast enough. I want to give up so bad. I can't seem to stick to a workout plan because I keep hoping to find one to give quicker results. My mom barely bought any healthy foods. I have a family reunion in a month and I've gained weight since I've seen most of my family. I'm tempted to just quit eating or make myself throw up Fri, 29 May 2015 20:30:09 EST Unsure I'm not sure if I want to lose weight. Some days I'm ok with my weight, some days I'm not. My BMI says I'm overweight. But I have a larger build than most girls. I have a broad chest and shoulders and stuff. In my opinion BMI isn't very accurate. When I was smaller I looked sick because of my larger frame. But my BMI said I was still overweight. I know I want to get healthier and happier with myself overall. But do I need to lose weight to do that? Wed, 27 May 2015 18:26:18 EST Jeff is losing weight I'm coming from using Nutrisystem on and off for +5 years. I'm in my 50's and have been over 300 pounds. at one point on NS I had lost nearly 60, but could not stick with the program and ended up quitting and gaining back. Tried 2 other times, this last one I have come down 25 so far but now with NS closing the community boards and shifting the trackers to NuMi, I am looking for something better. Wed, 27 May 2015 08:19:02 EST Down and out My depression has gotten the best of me. My weight loss seems like an uphill battle. I am exhausted and I feel ugly. My daughter has written me out of her life, and I don't know why. Sorry to be such a whiner, but I just needed to vent. Tue, 26 May 2015 19:46:24 EST Returning! I am returning to Spark People, and this group, after an absence. I'm dealing with plenty of stressful circumstances, which are: <BR> <BR> 1. Several health problems, including possible adrenal fatigue, back pain, sleep apnea, obesity (which is why I'm on this website!), and chronic bladder pain (a condition called interstitial cystitis, which I've lived with for nearly 25 years). <BR> 2. A teenager with high-functioning autism, and my associated worries about his adulthood. <BR> 3. Depress... Tue, 26 May 2015 15:55:08 EST Removing negative friends from my life Not sure if anyone has ever felt the same way as I have in the past year? I have a couple of friends that I've known for years now, that are not in my life anymore! <BR> <BR> One friend I've known over 15 years and shes been doing my nails 2x a month. But due to unforeseen circumstances her and her husband ended up getting custody of her husbands granddaughter. It really put a strain on their relationship and ours. Every time we were around each other all she did was complain about how a... Tue, 26 May 2015 15:37:50 EST New to Sparks People Hi, I am new to Sparkpeople having joined on the 20 of May. Really am enjoying learning the site. The logging in of food is very helpful in keeping me on track. My goal is to loose 50 lbs by the end of 2015. Am trying to exercise 5 times a week, and having difficulty in drinking that much water. Sun, 24 May 2015 22:52:47 EST Hi all! I'm new Hi all! <BR> I'm 20 and I've been struggling with anxiety, depression, and my weight for six years. I peaked in my anxiety/depression last year in April when I couldn't leave my room due to a crippling fear of death. I have been since seeing a therapist regularly and a psychiatrist as well. Working out has ALWAYS been a stress reliever for me but I would feel so amazing if I could drop these last 20 lbs and be back in my peak health so I can ween off the mediation and learn healthy coping sk... Sat, 23 May 2015 17:58:45 EST Donnie Sand I really need to lose weight, but have a hard time sticking to a diet for a long period of time. Fri, 22 May 2015 16:13:01 EST City Girl to Country Squirrel GOOD day to your eyes. My name is Heather. <BR> <BR> Blessed with artistic visions, scientific knowledge and the beautiful ease of being a chatterbox. <BR> <BR> So freaking excited to find this site and rub noses with the same individuals that must change the lifestyle they are in. <BR> <BR> Here are a few fun facts about me. <BR> <BR> Skinny in my mind and currently liking my chest size... <BR> I was a 6 foot tall 100 lbs. in high school... <BR> Used to model. <BR> Used to be vot... Fri, 22 May 2015 11:56:30 EST Support Wanted Greetings to everyone! After years of being fit, fine, and fabulous , I am now fat, fine, and not feeling too fabulous. Tired of being under happy and over sad. I am 5' 9" and weigh 248 lbs. My goal is to get to 175lbs. But I know I am going to need all the support I can get! Ready, set, I go!! Fri, 22 May 2015 11:30:12 EST Support Wanted Greetings to everyone! After years of being fit, fine, and fabulous , I am now fat, fine, and not feeling too fabulous. Tired of being under happy and over sad. I am 5' 9" and weigh 248 lbs. My goal is to get to 175lbs. But I know I am going to need all the support I can get! Fri, 22 May 2015 11:28:38 EST just starting Hi I need to loss 50 pounds to look better and feel better what have you found works for you on this site. Fri, 22 May 2015 10:06:48 EST new meds I was having trouble with my meds, so the dr is weaning me off of it. I was supposed to start the new ones tidy, but when I went to get my prescription they didn't have it. By that time the drs office was closed. All I want to do is sleep. Is that ok for a few days? Or do I sill have to push myself to workout and stuff? I feel exhausted Tue, 19 May 2015 19:29:23 EST Musicmoi I am a 60 year mail with 33 lbs to lose, any help you can give me to do this is gratefully welcome! Tue, 19 May 2015 12:58:46 EST Brintellix Hi All, <BR> I am starting this medication the Tuesday after Memorial Day (awaiting its arrival from my mail order Pharmacy). Does anyone have any expereince or thoughts on it? I know it is a fairly new meds so I am curious to hear actual user expereince and not the marketing material from the pharma company. <BR> <BR> Thanks in advance, <BR> Michelle Tue, 19 May 2015 11:57:26 EST Restarting after a year My name is Frankie and I'm re-starting this journey. Mon, 18 May 2015 14:56:37 EST New Member Hi everyone, <BR> <BR> My name is Michelle... am 44, live in Atlanta, am divorced, with two pugs. I was on Spark years ago and then dropped off... and a lot has happened in the last 2.5 years. <BR> <BR> Ive been divorced, lost my Mom, refinanced my house, got a new job and now my Dad is sick. It's been a tough couple of years. Ive put on a lot of weight due to the depression I have encountered. <BR> <BR> Now, I am taking back control. I recently started (re) seeing a counselor, am starting... Mon, 18 May 2015 12:48:40 EST Reintroducing myself . . . My name is Tina, and I came back to Spark People because I need to lose weight. <BR> <BR> I'm also one of those dealing with depression. <BR> <BR> There is so much going on, so much on my plate, and I don't know what to take off of it. I went back to counseling about a month or so ago. <BR> <BR> Here's what's going on: <BR> <BR> 1. Our church is making some major changes and not everyone is happy about them. <BR> 2. I have a child with autism. He's 16. He's a good kid, most of... Sun, 17 May 2015 22:16:50 EST Applications for Depression and More There are several free apps by Excel at Life: <BR> Depression, Happy Habits, Stop Panic and Anxiety, Self-Esteem, Stress Test, and Qi Gong Meditation. It depends on how I feel as to which one I will use. The Stop Panic and Anxiety has an audio that you can listen to if you're having a panic attack, or you can listen to it when you don't. <BR> Basically, there are articles, relaxation and mindfulness audios, and a diary to be able to track how you feel. <BR> I love the Happy Habits app 'caus... Sun, 17 May 2015 21:16:26 EST Bi-polars wanted! hi, <BR> <BR> i just wondered how many of the depression forum were actually of the specialty "Bi-polar" like me. Sun, 17 May 2015 02:38:37 EST coming back to spark people hello, <BR> <BR> my name is Kat. <BR> it's been a couple of years since i last used this. i will probably be more faithful now that i have internet at home. <BR> <BR> i lost a lot of weight last summer- 70lbs through diet and exercise but did it with little support. now the weight is slowly coming back and i feel i need to reach out. <BR> <BR> i have bipolar depression and am really going through quite a lot of junk with it. along with that junk comes JUNK FOOD. ewww... <BR> <BR> anyways,... Sun, 17 May 2015 02:36:02 EST Frustrated and Needing a Change! Hey everyone! <BR> <BR> I've been here before (never a poster of the community, but a lurker, and a SP track user). I've lost my account information so I started new again. I've always wanted to weigh less, from as far back as I can remember (likely due to bullying from everyone including some family). <BR> <BR> I've 'lifestyle change'd before, and did really well. I always manage to lose about 50 or so (the last time a few years ago, I lost 80 from cutting out carbs and hitting exercise... Sat, 16 May 2015 03:11:10 EST splurge I splurged a little today. Ive had a sweet tooth all week so finally I went and got a frappe and cake pop. I feel really bad about it now Fri, 15 May 2015 17:30:42 EST how do you guys deal with negative thinking? I have really battled some ugly thoughts today. I can usually, with some work, ignore those negative thoughts, but today, they kinda made sense - you know what I mean? <BR> <BR> Im afraid my best friend doesnt see me as her best friend, <BR> Im afraid Im not a good enough Christian, <BR> <BR> Those are the two thoughts that I just can't handle today. Does that ever happen to you guys? Thu, 14 May 2015 21:33:01 EST NUMB I always feel numb. Like I feel nothing. Even when bad things happen and I want to get upset I feel nothing, but in a way it still hurts. Does that make sense? Like I want to cry and stuff but I cant. Its frustrating. When good things happen I don't feel happy either. I want to feel happy but I just don't feel anything. Is it the antidepressants? Is there something I can do without my doctor to make it better? Thu, 14 May 2015 18:48:11 EST Cardio? Is scheduling cardio really necessary? I'm following a pilates calendar and it includes some cardio, but not alot. And I'm taking steps to become more active by walking my dog and stuff. Normally I can stay under my calorie goal without it. I hate following long cardio videos. Wed, 13 May 2015 17:56:56 EST Today's "Project" Well, I discovered the other day that my Samsung Galaxy Tablet has died. :-( It happened last year too, but I was able to revive it by buying a new battery. Well, that battery has bit the dust, I guess. Didn't even last a whole year! :-( Dang. Not gonna bother with getting another battery. It was a b*tch to get the cover off the last time, even with the proper tools for it. :-( <BR> <BR> So, today's project for me will be to get my tunes onto my cellphone. I had a good bunch on m... Wed, 13 May 2015 16:41:04 EST Essential oils I'm planning on purchasing some essential oils as soon as I get the money. Anyone else use them? If so what works best for you, specifically for depression, migraines, sinuses, PMS, and insomnia? Those are the things I end up taking medication for the most and would like to try some alternatives. Any other tips would be great too! Tue, 12 May 2015 20:59:40 EST Hello Hi Everyone, <BR> My name is Amanda and I have been struggling with depression for years now. I want to feel good about myself once and for all. I am married and have three beautiful children. My son is 13 and my twin girls are 8. Tue, 12 May 2015 14:31:59 EST Feeling down My moods have been and usually are pretty up and down but I seem to be having health issues in the form of some reoccuring skin infection. I'm waiting for the test results and I'm hoping for answers but I'm really frustrated and it's making me more depressed because I feel like somehow it's my fault this keeps happening or that I'm not doing enough or I'm doing something wrong. Not really sure how to handle it right now Tue, 12 May 2015 09:59:46 EST Hi yall! Im Joey! I wish Joey was short for Josephine, but it isn't. It isnt short for anything, and that was rough when I was little. Nowadays, I am 33 and have 3 daughters and I love my name, haha! I am looking forward to this journeey - I am always looking for motivational pictures and friends. Oh, and polka-dots are divine! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your day, friends! Mon, 11 May 2015 19:08:45 EST Too short, too fat :-) I live in eastern NC and love to eat!! That's my problem! Wanting to feel and look better. Got a new job a few months go in which I sit ALL DAY LONG 3 days per week! That's another problem. It's time to DO SOMETHING!!! Mon, 11 May 2015 14:11:20 EST Hi, my name is Danny Hi! My name is Danny and today I'm starting my weight loss journey... it's a long road, I mean to loose 77 lbs to be on a more healthy weight than today. I also want to quit smoking and start a more active life. Thanks :) Mon, 11 May 2015 13:19:02 EST moving soon... My husband and I are planning to put our house on the market at the beginning of June.I am finding that my mood is all over the map, thus my efforts to eat well and exercise are being compromised at best. I am back here after being away for a week or so. Does anyone have any advice on how to stick with it even when your life is a little out of control? Mon, 11 May 2015 09:39:04 EST dealing with evetything Hi, i never posted before but i need help. I have bipolar and i battle with depression at times. I got very bad yesterday. I was very low and my mind was going back and forth with decision that i have made in the past few months. I was feeling guilty about making the wrong Decisions and i couldn't find a way out of it. It was like someone else told me all the wrong things i have done. i had trouble finding my way out. what are some techniques that could work or work for you in the past. plea... Sun, 10 May 2015 19:09:22 EST Happy Mother's Day I just wanted to wish you all a Happy Mother's Day. We are all mother's if we have kids or pets, or kids who call us mom. So Happy Mother's Day to you all. <em>247</em> Sun, 10 May 2015 00:30:19 EST New to this group. Hi everyone. I started on SP about a month ago when I got the diagnosis of diabetes. I lost my dad and grandmother to diabetic complications, so it was a real wake-up call for me. For the first time in my 52 years of binge eating/overeating, I have been tracking calories and purposefully losing weight. I've lost 15 lbs. since March 26th. <BR> You would think I would be feeling proud and happy about this, but I feel like my depression has gone from bad to worse. I think I am missing that co... Sat, 9 May 2015 00:06:40 EST Who's having an AWESOME DAY? Don't know about y'all but I'm having a pretty dang decent day. Sun is shining. Temperatures in the upper 80's but feels like mid-90's. :-) Love it!! Heck of a lot better than what I was experiencing back in February! Record 'high' average temp was a mere 9 degrees!! :-( YUCK <BR> <BR> Give me Sunshine and warm temps any day and I'm a happy camper. ;-) <BR> <BR> Was out on errands today. Pick up medicines from one store on one side of town, grab a bus to the other side of town to ... Fri, 8 May 2015 18:28:35 EST I'm new and don't know how to use this site. I have tried and tried to lose weight, but just can't quit eating junk foods. My husband is a hospice patient and I am his caregiver. I turn to food for everything!!!!! I have diabetes and I am killing myself. I believe in new beginnings and there has to be one for me. H E L P please. Fri, 8 May 2015 16:00:35 EST Message from Coach Jen...New Spark Points Hello <BR> <BR> Today we added the ability to receive SparkPoints for liking friend feed items, team wall posts, and blogs. This is a new SparkPoints task listed under the community section of Daily SparkPoint Challenges. You can receive 1 point per like, up to 5 per day. <BR> <BR> We also added SparkPoints for commenting on someone’s team wall post. These points feed into the existing Post to SparkTeam and Message Boards challenge also under Community in Daily SparkPoint Challenges. <... Thu, 7 May 2015 20:36:25 EST dealing with depression dealing with depression is so hard. <BR> <BR> it is a constant challenge working on how to get through feelings of loneliness, sadness, disappointment and the frustrations with life. <BR> <BR> loneliness has to be the worse feeling in the world. <BR> <BR> I try to maintain resilience. <BR> <BR> my weight is always a reflection of how my mental health is.... <BR> <BR> how do people deal with their struggle? Thu, 7 May 2015 17:04:47 EST Seratonin and diet This is a long but informative and funny video dealing with the 15 leading causes of death in the US. Watch it all if possible. If not, skip to minute 36:03 and watch for two minutes. It is eye opening. Thu, 7 May 2015 14:11:13 EST Hi it is some time since I was here as I have no motivation for the last 4-5 months and I have been feeling very low, I had 4 session of counseling but it should have been 6, they believe that I have all the tools to cope with my situation(carer for my husband who has BPD and bipolar) but I think the best thing is to talk which is not so easy as we have no family and my mum who lives 30 way is 82 and does not know or understand my problems, my husband is not a coper of life so at the first sign ... Thu, 7 May 2015 13:42:48 EST hello hi everyone, <BR> <BR> My name is Melissa I joined a few weeks ago and thought I should introduce myself. I'm 37 years old. I have been recently diagnosed with BED (Binge Eating Disorder). I'm on a waiting list for a eating disorder program. I'm looking for support with this. Hopefully I will be able to beat this once and for all. <BR> <BR> Melissa Wed, 6 May 2015 18:26:06 EST Hello Hi all I'm Anna, and I am new here. I have battled depression mos of my young life. Feel free to message me and chat me up, looking to build spark friendships with others and hopefully encourage and be a blessing to one another. Tue, 5 May 2015 13:09:37 EST Off track I've been really busy lately, traveling a lot. I'm having a hard time staying on track. Today I went a thousand calories over and I'm sure if I would've logged on the other days it would've been worse. Also I'm a teen and live with my mom so I don't have much say in the groceries. She tries to buy healthy snacks but I have other siblings who are picky and money is tight. Help? Mon, 4 May 2015 20:05:20 EST THANK YOU!!!!! So I wanted to take a moment to thank all the people here on spark who have been responding and sending goodies like hugs and all . . . this was a REALLY DIFFICULT week. I wrote about it all week on my blog. And today I realized how very thankful I am that when I reached out, people responded and were and ARE so supportive! <BR> I had to call on all my strength, I had to call on my friends, I had to call on all of you to get me through this difficult time. In the past I would have sat dow... Mon, 4 May 2015 00:24:57 EST ziadawn2 I recently received custody of my two grandchildren. I have been taking care of family members and have decided that I now need to concentrate on making changes with me, including losing weight and becoming healthier, so that I will be able to be there for a long time for my grandchildren. I enjoy working out (I became lapsed because I hate going alone - I am trying to change that), and I enjoy cycling. Sun, 3 May 2015 08:39:55 EST New. Sort Of Hi. Ive been on sparkpeople before, and was a part of this team. I switched to myfitnesspal because that's what my sister uses. But I really missed this community. So I'm back. Sun, 3 May 2015 00:31:06 EST need support <em>198</em> Sat, 2 May 2015 10:13:08 EST Empty Nest I haven't felt this low in quite some time. My husband and I came to the conclusion that having a family just wasn't possible. After years fostering and trying to adopt, after years and home studies that come out shining, still no options, just respiting here, fostering there. The county offering to place long term kids with meth problems, sexual offenders, one who assaulted me. And they didn't even tell me he had issues like that. <BR> We don't have 25K to go with a private agency. <BR> ... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 03:30:23 EST Hello my name is Paula Hello. I am new to this and really need a friend to helpguide me. I have gotten to the point of fearing for my life after this past weekends events. We went to an all day concert outside in the full sun in Fort Myers Florida. I was with my two girls that have been to a concert before and 3 hours into it I pvassed out. I was taken by golfcart to a medic tent and then on to the hospital by ambulance. I had to leave my children behind to find for themselves. They are adults so they could no... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 22:31:09 EST Greetings from Mexico Hello everybody. My name is Jessica and I am 32 years old. <BR> I recently became a vegan because I don't like animals being killed for any reason. <BR> This new life style has been ok for me, the problem is that sometimes I don't cook that much and I end up eating vegan junk food :( This, along with me taking contraception pills and eating sweets and chips led me to gain 22 kilos, which I'm looking forward to losing and being thin and healthy again. <BR> Please wish me luck! :) Tue, 28 Apr 2015 09:31:07 EST Hello Hello everyone, I am new to this and hoping to stay motivated in reaching my weight loss goas. I hope I can help encourage others as well as be encouraged by all the wonderful people out there who are on the same path. Have a wonderful day and good luck during your journey. Mon, 27 Apr 2015 15:43:50 EST Motivate or not to motivate I've hit a huge depression spot. I had to have another surgery about a month and half ago, my incision opened up like normal and I can't lift more than 20lbs, but I haven't lifted more than 5lbs because I don't want to open my incision anymore. I had a double hernia repair and the incision is a little below my belly button down. It's constantly sore and I can't seem to do anything without making it hurt. I haven't taken my depression meds in two days because I missed them on Sat and don't tak... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 12:23:57 EST hey all hey all new to site and doing the fitbit anyone else out there have fitbit wanna be friends and challenge and motivate each other. Sun, 26 Apr 2015 22:01:53 EST Exercise and Depression Another video that proves the effectiveness of exercise for treating depression. <BR> <link><BR>-drugs-for-depression </link> Sun, 26 Apr 2015 10:10:58 EST Diet and depression A short video that can make a real difference for us. <BR> <link><BR>s-and-depression/?utm_source=rss&utm_m<BR>edium=rss&utm_campaign=antioxidants-an<BR>d-depression&utm_source=NutritionFacts<BR>.org&utm_campaign=267e512ea1-RSS_VIDEO<BR>_WEEKLY&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_40<BR>f9e497d1-267e512ea1-23770493 </link> Sun, 26 Apr 2015 10:08:44 EST New member Hi there. My name is Jennifer and I joined SparkPeople this past week and have been slowly poking around the site. I live in MN and my husband and I have a cat and dog. I am a knitter and crafty girl, a bookwork, and I love to take our old camper out to the state parks and hit the trails. My goal is to make healthier choices and to educate myself on what it takes to get to a healthy weight and to maintain that for life. Sun, 26 Apr 2015 08:36:09 EST Hi, my name is Sue Looking to feel better by getting consistent exercise and eating better. I turn 50 this year and I want to lose 30 pounds by then. Looking forward to seeing myself reach this goal. Sat, 25 Apr 2015 23:12:52 EST Lamictal for depression? (I'm Scared) I saw my psychiatrist this afternoon and she wants me to try Lamictal for depression & OCD. I think it's a seizure medication, but I've tried nearly everything else, so she suggested it. <BR> <BR> Well, actually, she said either Lithium or Lamictal, but I chose Lamictal because Lithium can cause weight gain (she said). <BR> <BR> Anyone tried this with had good results? I'm scared. Fri, 24 Apr 2015 16:08:48 EST A lot older and wiser since my last post Hello everyone <BR> <BR> It has been several years since I have posted here. I'm now 69 and 22 pounds lighter since my last post. I'd like to think I'm healthier now. I'm definitely more active but I'm nowhere near where I need to be. I'm now retired so time is no longer an excuse for not working out or eating right. Thu, 23 Apr 2015 14:32:29 EST Runner Mom Looking For Support Somehow after entering my 49th year, I have gained 7 pounds that won't go away. I run marathons and am finding the extra weight depressing and slowing. I need to get serious about my health and am hoping this community can help. I am also a great cheerleader for others and as an educator, I am always thrilled to see people reaching hard-earned goals. Thu, 23 Apr 2015 06:58:26 EST HI Newbie Welcome, welcome, welcome !! <em>213</em> Wed, 22 Apr 2015 09:15:45 EST Hello everyone. Hello everyone. My name is Mandy. I am 37 years old and the mom of 4 wonderful children ages 9, 14, 16, and 18. I am fully disabled (severe fibromyalgia, minimal disc bulge in my back and neck, debilitating migraines, aneurysms, and I just had skin cancer removed). In the last 13 years of being disabled I have gained around 70 - 75 pounds. I am tired of this excess weight and look forward to getting it off now that I am getting back on my feet. This is my 4th day on here and 3 of the 4 days h... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 14:07:56 EST Dealing with verbal abuse at the gym You know, it takes a lot of courage to walk through the door of the gym in the beginning. Whether we have too much weight on us, physical challenges, we're older than the average person in there, we don't feel attractive.. so many excuses we could use - but we do it... we walk through that door and begin to exercise. We're all there for the same reason, right? To become healthier, stronger, more physically fit? I've been going daily... DAILY and with my Multiple Sclerosis in remission (at... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 22:57:06 EST Hello From Florida I'm Roger, from Lakeland, Fl. I was in an auto accident 2.5 years ago the left me with a "mild traumatic brain injury,"(mTBI) and post concussive syndrome (PCS). This has led to depression, anxiety, insomnia, as well as some cognitive issues especally with executive function. My disability is invisible, like many of you here as even with my mTBI I am independent, I drive, cook, clean, pick up kids, mow my lawn, but I only have a 3-5 hour window each day where I can be active before fatigue ca... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 21:05:22 EST Help! I have no abs Hello Team, <BR> <BR> I need help with my chronic "hanging stomach" problem. I have had three surgeries in the past ten years which have cut across abdominal muscles in three different places! I have been trying to do some very small abdominal movements but they are not just hard, they feel impossible. <BR> <BR> For instance, if I sit at the edge of chair I can not lift both feet off the ground unless I lean back and engage another set of muscles. <BR> <BR> Has anyone else worked throug... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 10:46:28 EST Hope this works I am 60+ lbs over where I should be. I have lost weight over and over but just can't have the ability so far to keep it off. Sat, 18 Apr 2015 09:19:19 EST Newbie Hello, I'm new just trying to figure all this out. What pages are what, what I need to track. I apologize for not knowing exactly what to post. Kind of having a bad day. Learned that one more kid we tried to adopt was not in the cards for us. My husband and I have been trying to adopt for years. it's just not happening. <BR> So I am still going to try and lose this weight, I have diabetes and I am not going to end up on insulin as I have issues with needles. <BR> honestly, life in ge... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 23:23:12 EST Hi there! My name is Emily, I'm 19, almost 20 and live in Pennsylvania. I have been overweight as long as I can remember. Healthy eating was never really a thing in my parents house, because my dad enjoys his "Down home cooking" Lots of butter, bacon fat and salt. Cookies or something else sweet at the end of every meal. I was bullied a lot throughout middle school, and was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety in eighth grade. Since then it has been a constant struggle with remembering ... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 03:41:13 EST Seeing Some Light Happy Thursday, everyone! <BR> <BR> I really wanted to share this, but I don't really know how to start it. I'm Leanna (or Lady), I'm a mommy, a wife, and a college student. I used to be this bubbly, friendly, social butterfly, but when I moved to Ohio, that gradually disappeared. When I started my weight loss journey in January 2015, I weighed 250 (at 5'3"), had uncontrolled asthma, was pre-diabetic, and was extremely blue. I've always had waves of depression, but after becoming a mommy, it... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 20:16:36 EST Newbie Hey there! Thanks so much for allowing me to join this group. I was diagnosed last year with Depression and Panic disorder. I am currently not medicated for either as I thought about 6 months ago I could do this on my own. I have this feeling that part of both of my mental health issues is because I am overweight, but the issues I am struggling with now is STRUCTURE...Motivation. The little voice in the back of my head that tells me that ...this is a HUGE joke and that I could never b... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 12:05:31 EST Hello Hi everyone. I have suffered from depression for many years but have a good doctor and it is mostly under control. Over time some of the medications have caused me to gain weight and now I just have bad habits. I'm hoping Spark will help along with the support of this community. Tue, 14 Apr 2015 12:31:19 EST Getting Back on Track Hi, I am starting a new chapter in my life and I am hoping SparkPeople can help me keep it going in the right direction. I spent 12 years of my life dealing with a very toxic marriage, and the last two dealing with custody battles and divorce court to end it. During the course of this relationship I was blessed with 4 beautiful and amazing children. However, as most women know, pregnancy does not exactly do wonders for you body image, especially when you are with a man that is constantly crit... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 10:25:23 EST Hello Hello, I am praying this works for me. I am so tired of being over weight. This is not something new for me. I have always been over weight. In my younger days I was always active. Not so much anymore. I am ready to start anew. I don't want the surgery because I have been sick and had my fare share of them. So Please Help me to put my best foot forward. If anyone has help please let me know. Thank you ,,, I so want to make this work. I will tell you this. I have never in my life ever really b... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 03:56:16 EST Learning my way around! Hello, not sure what to say.... Always hate opening up to people have found there is very little support out there for me. Seems like I am the one supporting others but when the tables are turn friends & family run to the hills... Forget that they sprint to the mountains:-) I have had to deal with sooooo much sadness in the last 18months that I have lost my way in caring. So I am really hoping I can kick start loosing weight & just maybe I can feel happy again :-) Mon, 13 Apr 2015 23:16:14 EST Need a water-drinking "buddy?" It's been a long time since I've drunk eight glasses daily. It's been a long time since I've drunk more than the sips needed to get vitamins and a couple of prescriptions down. <BR> <BR> I signed up the other day for SP's new 30-day challenge to develop a new, healthy habit and made eight glasses of water my chief goal for now. Today's challenge installment is to find a buddy with the same goal to check in for mutual, weekly accountability? <BR> <BR> Got the same need and want a support sys... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 20:28:54 EST A Proper Introduction...... Good Afternoon! I have been on Spark People for almost one week and have failed to introduce myself! My husband calls me Peanut, so we will use that name for now! I am turning 35 this year and I'm ready to shed these dreadful pounds and live life to the fullest! Fri, 10 Apr 2015 17:47:01 EST New here Hi everyone, <BR> <BR> I am new to this forum but not to depression and the need to lose weight. Over time I have developed bad habits that coincide with medications that cause weight gain. Until now I have felt powerless to lose the weight. I really hope Spark people and this forum can help me. <BR> Thanks <em>213</em> Fri, 10 Apr 2015 16:14:25 EST Hello, kinda new here Hello everyone, <BR> <BR> I am returning to spark people because I don't know what else to do. I have recently been seeing a therapist, who diagnosed me with dysthymia (depression lasting for 2 or more years with only a few months of happiness) and anxiety. I struggle everyday with feelings of not being good enough, or feeling fat (odd for a guy), or feeling out of control with my eating, not feeling loved etc. Today I am really struggling. <BR> <BR> I want to lose this weight, but I a... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 09:08:50 EST Life Hello everyone. My name is Amy. I've been a member of spark for awhile but am starting my WL journey fresh today. Life has been.....well, a challenge but I'm trying <BR> <BR> I just saw someone last weekend who I have not seen in ten years! It was someone I used to date when I was a teen, we reconnected over the phone and have been talking for about a year and fell for each other again. He came all the way to see me. We've been hitting it off. I reconnected with him and now we are also going... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 13:46:53 EST Hi! My name is Chelsee and I'm 23 years old. I have about 120 lbs to lose along with being pre-diabetic, and having high cholesterol and blood pressure. Tue, 7 Apr 2015 12:27:44 EST What's better than orange juice and coffee? Start the day with music, any music, and you may feel ready for anything. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Singing works, too. <BR> Tue, 7 Apr 2015 07:00:16 EST Hi, my name is Wendy I am 38yrs old. I am married to my high school sweetheart. We have been together for 23yrs. We have a beautiful 21yr old daughter and 2 amazing grandsons. I am looking to lose weight so I know I can be healthy to continue to enjoy my family and to hopefully help build my self-esteem. I struggle hard with motivation. Mon, 6 Apr 2015 16:31:58 EST Depression and returning So I'm returning to the support that I get from Sparkpeople in my efforts to loose weight. I need to find support somewhere as I don't get it here. I am an emotional eater and that doesn't help weight loss. I am legally married, but we live as roommates who kind of raise the kids together. I am more the caregiver. My spouse has Bipolar Disorder and Parkinsons. He's either depressed or slightly manic (not in a good way). Usually it's just that he's depressed. He finally got approved and starte... Sun, 5 Apr 2015 18:55:43 EST hi my 3 day here this for having me <em>223</em> Sun, 5 Apr 2015 08:14:58 EST And away I go.... I very briefly signed up for Sparks in 2009 without trying at all, just seeing what it would be like. Well, I found myself back at the same website but something is different this time, I am older, of course, and just sick and tired of feeling like I am being held back by this weight. I have a wonderful, supportive husband and the kids are all out of the house, what better time than now. Appreciate any support from the over 55's out there! Sun, 5 Apr 2015 04:18:12 EST Meet and Greet Hello everyone. I just came back to SparkPeople 5 days ago. I am a 25 year old female correctional officer working at a male prison. I enjoy fishing, boating, camping, and reading. I have been married for 3 1/2 years and am blessed with a two year old little girl that looks just like her father. Over the last year I have become more and more angry with life and everyone in it... especially my husband. It got so bad recently that my anger was volatile and up to the point of almost being vi... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 01:22:34 EST accepting accountability buddy applications lol I honestly need help keeping myself motivated! sure i have friends that are stick figures and say they will help me lose weight and stay motivated, but are flakes and i get it. it's not their problem, but having someone going through the same thing as me would help drastically or i think lol. <BR> my name is jessica and i'm a 24 yr old stay at home mom with 2 boys and my oldest (5yr old) is autistic and my baby (8 month old) is a handful in himself lol <BR> so you can see where i need the m... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 01:05:00 EST accepting accountability buddy applications lol I honestly need help keeping myself motivated! sure i have friends that are stick figures and say they will help me lose weight and stay motivated, but are flakes and i get it. it's not their problem, but having someone going through the same thing as me would help drastically or i think lol. <BR> my name is jessica and i'm a 24 yr old stay at home mom with 2 boys and my oldest (5yr old) is autistic and my baby (8 month old) is a handful in himself lol <BR> so you can see where i need the m... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 23:55:35 EST hi not sure how to do this but hi, and all the things I wanted to say just fled my brain so I will stick with hi and say that I hope that every one is having a really really good good day. Wed, 1 Apr 2015 18:21:59 EST Gettin started! Hi everyone! I'm so glad I found this site. I used a similar site from Jillian Michaels last year and had great success. I think logging my food and exercise is the best way to keep on track. I was able to get rid of my baby weight both times within about 6 months- the first time was pretty easy. The second time I had to work a bit harder. But my problem is that everything else in my life has been flipped upside down and I gained the weight back, feel terrible, and haven't been able to get my... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 15:41:08 EST I'm trying again I deal with a lot of depression and the past 10 years has been the worst ever. I have Dysthymia but a situation involving my mother slammed me down to almost a walking dead state and I couldn't seem to pull myself out of it. Because I am unable to take anti depressants and such as they make me suicidal I refuse to medicate anymore. The mental health practitioner's mostly refuse to help you if you go that route and I got fed up with arguing with them. I'm at a stage now that it's do or die and... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 13:36:22 EST Hi, I'm New! Hi, I'm back for my umpteenth attempt at losing weight. I've made several changes over the past year; I quit smoking, I got married, I changed jobs...twice. And I've added a few pounds with each one of those. In June, I'm going home to see my family for the first time in 3 years, and I don't want to be the biggest they've ever seen me. <BR> I'm a college student, studying human services. I don't do well with routines, but I get bursts of energy that last a couple of weeks at most. I need to i... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 11:58:29 EST New here! Hi everybody I just started this journey 4 months ago when i was diagnosed with prediabetes. I was told I needed to lose weight, exercise, and eat right. Since then i have gone to the the gym at least 5 days a week and started doing cardio things-walking, recumbent bike, and weight training and I am doing water arobics and now increasing my walking speed and adding things to my exercises! I have lost 12 1/2 lbs.. Right now i am on a plateau I have only lost 1 1/2 lbs the last 8 weeks. But I k... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 19:58:35 EST awake at 230 am to depressed to sleep Another night with no sleep...I can't stop my brain from going through all the bad stuff I have going on <em>46</em> Sun, 29 Mar 2015 05:40:38 EST Just wanted to introduce myself. Hi everyone. I'm Casey, I'm 31 and cringe when I say that (lol) . Right now I reside about 15 miles East of Memphis, Tn. I've been on and off SP a few times but I have really stuck with it this time and I'm actually getting results, which I'm absolutely elated about. I joined this Team because depression is something I have struggled with for a very long time, especially after sustaining a career ending Figure Skating injury. I started really packing on the pounds when I continued to eat the ... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 18:59:23 EST Jon Stewart has at the junk/fake-food industry If you are delicate of ear, be forewarned that Jon Stewart is indelicate of mouth in service of making the point. <BR> <BR> <link> bi g-food/ </link> <BR> <BR> More than language, beware of Academy of Nutrition and Dietetics. The name is new to me, but it has compromised what seems to have been a respectable reputation. The question is whether it will clean itself up and take care of where it puts its approval symbols. <BR> <BR> <link> Tue, 24 Mar 2015 18:44:48 EST Here I go! Hi everyone! My name is Rhoda aka Angelfeather1. I have recently undergone treatments for breast cancer and have a history of high blood pressure and gout. I just turned 50 and want to join you in a new life of weight loss (control), and good health! I look forward to getting to know you and sharing our stories and successes! :) Tue, 24 Mar 2015 15:27:58 EST Ready to win Hey everyone! I am new to this site and everything it has to offer. I want to heal in my life severely right now! I know it takes one day at a time but it sometimes feels like forever. I was wondering if anyone has any ideas on how to stick with this everything on this site, how to get more involved, and how to succeed even though I might fail sometimes. Mon, 23 Mar 2015 17:39:08 EST Back on Spark People! Hi all, <BR> <BR> I am finally back on SparkPeople after about probably 6-7 years of consistent use. At that time, I managed to lose 40 lbs and was in the best shape of my life. Slowly but surely, I gained back every bit and some more. I have been back on here for two weeks now and feeling extremely motivated. I have a weight loss goal of 40-45 lbs. I am hoping to utilize message boards and community for support! Mon, 23 Mar 2015 08:55:58 EST HELP no one in my family understands me I am 24 and i have very severe depression, anxiety and painc attacks. My family tells me to chill and that my feelings are fake. I feel so lost and want to just not live anymore. I am not planning on killing myself but this is my lost hope. My name is karri Mon, 23 Mar 2015 02:17:01 EST My name is Sandra I'm 60-something. I am overweight - obese actually. I don' know what else to say just yet. Sat, 21 Mar 2015 19:11:58 EST skinnyrasven I am many things: retired social worker,cancer survivor. grandmother, and a life long Alaskan. this is my first time to take my weight and health seriously. I love the tracking charts and find that to be helpfull. I don't know about message boards. I do want one of the cute measuring TAPE at the bottom of your messages.t . I think visuals are important especially if you are a left brain kinda person. I am trying to catch up with technology especially when my granddaughter laughed when I ... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 16:22:58 EST Not Feeling Very Attractive I don't post on this website that often, but I'm having a lot of trouble lately. I'm 23 and I've struggled with weight problems and depression since I was in middle school. I used to be 260 lbs and I'm currently at 159 lbs. I'm hoping to get down to 125 lbs, but it's been tough to stay motivated. <BR> <BR> Anyway, the main reason I'm posting this thread is because I've had a lot of trouble lately with feeling attractive. I've been dating the same guy for a year and a half now and I feel like... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 18:30:46 EST How would you react? Hi, I'm working through a cognitive behavioral therapy workbook to help my depression and anxiety. The assignment today is to ask other people how they would react to a situation that I got upset about. I'm hoping some of you will help me by telling me how you would react to the following situation: <BR> <BR> <BR> You're cooking dinner and you're in a hurry. You're already feeling nervous and overwhelmed. Suddenly, a glass plate accidentally slips from your hands to the floor and shatters g... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 12:00:20 EST Hi My friends call me Shal, I don't talk much. I weigh 206 and want to get down to between 132 and 140. I'm very out of shape and don't have the motivation that I used to. Tue, 17 Mar 2015 15:33:29 EST grandma needs to loose weight I am excited to be a part of spark people.(first day) I need to loose about 100lbs to make me more healthier. would really love to have any information that can help me. Mon, 16 Mar 2015 23:59:56 EST hi I am new here. I am having trouble with depression and eating. I just dont know what to do. i am on meds for depression but i just want to be left alone and sit in the dark watching tv and feeding my face. i could use any advice you all could give me. <em>46</em> Mon, 16 Mar 2015 21:57:56 EST Depressed an full of anxiety When we lost my huband the car was in n his name as insurance an noone for ok out probate papers so altho I've made car payments/insurance we my son an I owe taxes under my husbands name so no one has been able to register vehicles an yesterday they took my sons truck for non payment , depression keeps getting worse an WORSE AN HAD TO CANCEL DR. Apt NO RIDE Mon, 16 Mar 2015 11:39:19 EST Hi Sarah here Hi I am Sarah and will be turning 40 this July. Hard to believe. I have 2 daughters who are almost 10 and almost 7. I have had depression issues most of my life but have been in remission for a while now. I see a psychiatrist and a therapist every other week. I am divorced and my ex-husband has custody of the children so I am a noncustodial mom. I see them fairly often but need supervised visits with my parents there and I live with my mom. <BR> <BR> I have been a Spark member since ... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 20:49:53 EST Hi I'm Shawna I am a 31 yr old married for 12 years, mother of 2 children(9 and 7 months) I am the one who did everything for everyone else. Now its MY turn. I could very easily losing half my weight and still need to lose were talking 175+ lbs needs to go. I do battle with depression(not clinical) but always just grin and bear it. Sun, 15 Mar 2015 09:49:32 EST Hi, I'm Shelby... ... and I'm so happy to see that this group exists on SparkPeople. I have been managing my depression for several years now, and I've made quite a bit of progress. Body image and self-esteem are things that I've always struggled with, and I've gained a lot of weight over the last couple of years, so that's something that I continue to fight with even on my "good days." I'm sure that many of you can relate to my struggle to break the cycle of feeling bad about myself, losing motivation, eat... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 08:51:15 EST Hi all!! Hi, i'm starting new again, not sure of what to put, but need help. Have a lot going on and need to get the weight off. <BR> Thanks for being here or for having a place to go. Sat, 14 Mar 2015 22:47:09 EST Hey to all you beautiful people! Going to be trying this again. Hope all of you can help keep me motivated. I have two daughters getting married in 2016, so I have to do this! Please help me. Sat, 14 Mar 2015 20:06:17 EST New Hi I am 47 and should have lost my weight years ago but i am addicted to food and have been unable to succeed. I am hoping this will help with the support i am not receiving elsewhere. Nice to meet you all. Thu, 12 Mar 2015 10:31:39 EST felling scared hi i just wanted to let you know i am new to this and am not sure what to write but i am afraid of failing and i cannot fail due to my health. Losing weight is what will keep me alive longer than 10 years so i have to do this. Thu, 12 Mar 2015 10:29:48 EST Hi everyone Hi everyone. I'm not really new here just never talked in the community. I'm starting a weight loss/muscle building thing. Mostly cause of how little movement i have now . I have one of those desk jobs and at home i sit a lot too so yeah haha. Anyway friendly HI Wed, 11 Mar 2015 23:08:14 EST IDEAS FOR MOTIVATION This topic is being moved here to the Introduce Yourself forum to make this a STICKY TOPIC for all to find and share. The team leaders and I encourage all members to share their own ideas for motivation. Doesn't matter if they worked for you or not. What doesn't work for you may in fact work for someone else. :-) <BR> <BR> As we all know dealing with depression is hard. Even harder when one has no motivation. I shared a few ideas already and I will re-post them here later. For now thi... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 16:07:19 EST Intro Hello, <BR> My name is Dawn and I am 43 yrs old. I am happily married and have 2 beautiful children (9 and 3). I guess my depression began about 2 yrs ago. My father who was living with me at the time got diagnosed with dementia and lewey body parkinsons. The same week he was in the hospital I got a letter stating I was laid off from a job that I loved and I had for 9 yrs. My 3 yr old has a brain disorder and is becoming increasingly needy. My poor 9 yr old is feeling the brunt of her brother... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 15:33:35 EST hello everyone I'm new here, look forward to learning new things and making new friends Tue, 10 Mar 2015 01:02:29 EST hello just wanted to introduce myself. i have been back and forth with sparkpeople for the last few years. i really would like to regain my health. i am tired of being tired all of the time. i have dealt with depression for most of my life. would love to learn coping skills to make it through. you all seem very nice. look forward to learning with you all. Mon, 9 Mar 2015 14:49:28 EST Monday.... <em>102</em> .....sleepy! Mon, 9 Mar 2015 11:18:28 EST just wanted to introduce myself Good morning y'all. <BR> I just thought i would kinda introduce myself a bit. My name is Mickey and i have a little boy who is about a year old. I have been struggling with awhole bunch of different issues in my life, depression being one of them. It has been years that i have struggled with not only this but with anxiety as well as anorexia. It has been a tough battle with everything for me. And i am trying to do it right this time. but i am not going lie it is still a very big struggle Mon, 9 Mar 2015 09:08:03 EST Hey y'all Hey! I'm Liz. <BR> I left an abusive relationship in January of 2014, and I still deal with depression related to it. I have nightmares. :/ I'm trying to find a therapist that I like and can talk to. <BR> Nice to meet everyone :) Sat, 7 Mar 2015 08:41:43 EST Determined to make changes As my title suggests I've found the determination to start my fitness and weight loss journey again. Just wanted to say hi and hope to become part of this community :-) Sat, 7 Mar 2015 06:56:34 EST how to get motivated for exercise when deppressed? I had been doing real good, been in up mood for about 6 months now then now I am going through depression again. Its not as bad as it has been in past, but still bad enough I had to go to dr about it. My question is how do I fight it and get motivated enough to do exercise when my energy levels are so extremely low? up until this week, I had been going to ymca 5 days a week and either walking the track or taking water aerobics class and I was really enjoying going. Now, it seems so overwh... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 14:47:48 EST Happy Friday I hope everyone has a great weekend. I am looking forward to warmer temps here 30+ today and into 40's next week. Need to get outside and enjoy the sun and more activity. Fri, 6 Mar 2015 12:11:14 EST Happy Friday! <em>334</em> Fri, 6 Mar 2015 11:48:00 EST Ideas for Motivation Hey, y'all. I hope everyone is doing well. I'm doing pretty good right now. Worked out 2 days in row now and doing other household chores to keep me moving. <BR> <BR> I was just doing some "cleaning up" of my Goal Board on the start page. Do y'all use it too? I just posted a suggestion to the message boards under Site/Technical Help. My suggestion was for some newer, fresher stock images for the Goal Board. To me they are starting to become "stale". <BR> <BR> I know y'all won't be ... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 22:29:57 EST I'm Kathy and I need help!! I've been struggling for so long and never gave it to serious of a thought. With the way my last 2 years have gone I have really let myself go. Mentally and physically. I suffer from depression and (recently) anxiety. I have also developed other health issues that concern me enough to seriously do something about it!! I want to exercise more and try to eat better.... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 19:12:41 EST A quote for those in the daily fight Because we are in a fight, my friends. This is a battle. But you can do it. Do not fear failure. Depression can be beaten. I promise. <BR> <BR> "It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly... who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself in... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 11:06:10 EST Hello! :-) Hello all! I have had an account with SP for a long time, but haven't really posted on many boards. I don't know exactly why, but just didn't. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I was reading through some of the posts, and you all sound very friendly and supportive. I am really looking for some support and motivation. I am trying very hard to stick with it and lose about 35 lbs that I've been carrying around for far too long. <BR> <BR> I know that I have several things I need to work on... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 00:11:45 EST Losing 60lbs to gain Hi everyone, is Valerie I am 28 /5'4/214lbs/mother of three 1,5, & 7. <BR> <BR> I am working on losing 60 pounds I just recently restarted the program, after taking a break for a year or so after having a new baby, I previously lost 65lbs,I started at around 245lbs in 2010 and lowest weight before I was pregnant in 2014 was 181-182lbs.. and now I am hoping to to reach my goal Of 160lbs. <BR> <BR> In the past I walked off the weight all at home! No gyms or gear,but now with a very clingy cr... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 17:21:22 EST Losing 60lbs to gain Hi everyone, is Valerie I am 28 /5'4/214lbs/mother of three 1,5, & 7. <BR> <BR> I am working on losing 60 pounds I just recently restarted the program, after taking a break for a year or so after having a new baby, I previously lost 65lbs,I started at around 245lbs in 2010 and lowest weight before I was pregnant in 2014 was 181-182lbs.. and now I am hoping to to reach my goal Of 160lbs. <BR> <BR> In the past I walked off the weight all at home! No gyms or gear,but now with a very clingy cr... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 16:44:55 EST Hiya Hi everyone,my name is Valerie I am 28 /5'4/214lbs/mother of three 1,5, & 7. <BR> <BR> I am working on losing 60 pounds I just recently restarted the program, after taking a break for a year or so after having a new baby, I previously lost 65lbs,I started at around 245lbs in 2010 and lowest weight before I was pregnant in 2014 was 181-182lbs.. and now I am hoping to to reach my goal Of 160lbs. <BR> <BR> In the past I walked off the weight all at home! No gyms or gear,but now with a very c... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 16:31:24 EST Quick Introduction Though I did a quick intro on the team wall, I was encouraged to post here as well. <BR> <BR> So, hello! My name is Sarah. I just joined Spark People a couple of days ago. I'm hoping to get plugged into the community with people who also struggle with some of the same issues I do. Accountability is a huge plus. Mon, 2 Mar 2015 15:20:34 EST Mary's time to start over-again! I am in the beginning of a complete "re-boot" of my life. My children are all above 21 years old and living on their own. After years of talking about finding jobs by our lake place and moving out there, we have finally taken the plunge and done it! I am leaving behind a career in music ministry, which I loved, but the hours were crazy and left no time for my hubby and I to be a couple. <BR> I have been in and out of healthy eating and exercise habits. My jobs in music ministry made it ha... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 09:39:20 EST Depression I know going through depression can be some trying times in your life. As myself I went through and I still have my times but not nearly as bad. My adult life has been rough and I got about as low I can get. I have been married four times and I blame no one but myself. I knew something was missing in my life and I was determent to find what I was looking not letting anything or any one get in my way. My third wife did pay me back for the evil things I did in the past when I caught her cheati... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 15:48:21 EST H Hi!, I'm Becky. I am 26 years old, 5'e, and 280 pounds. I'm sick of not feeling well all the time and being tired and self conscious. I'm getting to the point where it is getting hard to even find plus size clothes that fit comfortably. I've been through so much in my life, and have not had a very good start in life as far as being taught healthy eating etc...I am one of those that have lost weight, gained it and more back. The pattern seems to be that I'll loose about 40 pounds and then stop... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 22:51:34 EST ANGIEDAWN1213's SparkPage Hello my name is Angie Hanna. My doctor told me about the site because my insulin levels were extremely high. I also need to lose at least 40 pounds. I will need a lot of help and encouragement. I will need to change my eating habits and work exercise back into my daily routine after neglecting it for about a year. My interest are working in the garden and being outside when the weather is warm. I also enjoy reading. Sat, 28 Feb 2015 22:42:45 EST Hi there, new here Hello! I am here to lose 20-30 pounds, get toned, and live a healthier lifestyle. I have been an avid runner for the past several years, but have gotten out of if over the past several months because of work and the bitter cold. I've had trouble with my weight for as long as I can remember and would like to end that once and for all. I think my biggest problem is motivation to keep going (I've lost and gained the same 5-9 pounds more times than I can count!). Any help and support is greatly a... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 12:43:38 EST Stilll trying I can't fail again, it has worm me out.I don't want to feel dumpy anymore and I want to be able to dress better for work, instead of wearing what fits, which is getting less and less. I need to be accountable to someone. I have summer clothes I need to fit in, last summer I kept wearing the same couple of pairs of capris , black and navy. Need help! Sat, 28 Feb 2015 01:18:49 EST Hi I just wanted to introduce myself I want to thank you for welcoming me to the group. I work full time and also raise livestock. I have battled with my weight for several years since having a complete hysterectomy. I have also battled depression for several years. Right now I am a pretty good place with the depression which is surprising for me as my son in law was diagnosed with stage 4 stomach cancer last June.. Perhaps having to be strong for them and their family has been a great thing for me. He was not doing well but rig... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 09:58:35 EST starting in forum today Hi! Im new to posting/reading in the forum. I'm hoping that by checking in daily, I'll be able to keep myself motivated. Fri, 27 Feb 2015 07:59:50 EST Greetings from France ! Hi everyone ! <BR> <BR> My name is Marion, I'm 25 (turning 26 next week !) and I'm from south of France. Please apologize any english mistake I may make, we'll say it's because I'm not fluent, when really it's mostly because I'm not paying enough attention to what I'm typing :-) <BR> <BR> I came across SparkPeople through Pinterest, and I like the whole idea. We have something similar in French, but not as good, so hopefully I'll be more commited to this website than I was to the other one... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 14:41:41 EST Hello out there! Hey y'all! I am Erica. I'm a 33 year old Stay at Home Mom from Texas. I got about 85lbs to get off of this body! Hoping to find inspiration and motivation to do so. Look forward to meeting you all and reading your posts. Thu, 26 Feb 2015 00:01:56 EST Free NYC-area Clothing Exchange, 3/21/15 Some of you may recall that I've been organizing free, semi-annual clothing exchanges for the local bariatric surgery community for some time. The next, March 21 in midtown Manhattan, marks the fifth anniversary of these events. As this is my baby, I'm again happy to invite DwD teammates who live in the vicinity to take part, no surgery or plans for surgery required. <BR> <BR> If you'd like to attend, email me at my private box for the exchange -- <link> </link> . Plea... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 16:50:56 EST Wellbutrin XL + Lexapro Hello! I currently take 300 mg Wellbutrin XL and 10 mg Lexapro daily. Before adding in the lexapro, my cravings for food and appetite were in check and well under control. Since adding lexapro, I've noticed my appetite increase immensly as well as the return of my food cravings, worse than ever before. No weight gain though. Has anyone on this combination experienced these types of set backs? Tue, 24 Feb 2015 14:49:50 EST Introducing Myself Hi! I got an email saying I should introduce myself, so I'll do that. I joined SP a few years ago and then forgot about it. I guess the timing was not right. I just came back recently and joined this group to find support and friendship on the weight loss/get fit path. I used to be on my feet all day at work, now I have a desk job.... thus, some weight gain. I quit smoking 9 years ago... thus, began some weight gain that hasn't stopped yet. I went through menopause.... thus a LOT of wei... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 19:59:47 EST Bonjour Hi, my name is Emily. I joined Spark People to help me get control of an eating disorder. I can't wait to start this journey. I'm hoping it will turn into a testimony. Sun, 22 Feb 2015 22:35:52 EST Hey Team I'm Fran, and I am just just glad to be in this group. My body has suffered because my heart hurts. I'm hoping to make a difference in that. My youngest son has a very difficult health condition called NF. We didn't even know he had it until he was 16, but since that time he's had 27 surgeries. Last summer it was discovered he had cancer. He had two MAJOR surgeries over the course of three days. It took it's toll on him and on me. He's doing well considering. He's paralyzed, but manages very ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 20:24:51 EST Sad I am back... There's so much tragedy in my life right now. I wonder if I will even have time for SP right now. Six months ago I was here introducing myself. I was sad that my mother died in a horrible car crash, that my sister blamed me for moving away and committed suicide. Worst of all that my son was having heart issues again... It isn't all doom and gloom. I got married to a wonderful man who I love more than life! Tragedy had to go and strike again. My little boy was diagnosed with cance... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 09:51:13 EST Lowered my meds I am trying to have some normalcy to my life. I wanted to feel a bit again. Maybe get a bit of my libido Vick for the sack of my marriage but it seemed to backfire on me. I was taking 30 mg of Cymbalta and went down to 20mg. To be fair it didn't seem like the 30's were doing much anyway so I thought what would the difference be right? Well I feel like I am falling deeper down the rabbits whole. I have been ripping opened scabs on myself and shoveling food like there is no tomorrow. I feel so... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 22:08:09 EST Dealing w/depression and stress I recently stopped taking yet another antidepressant because it was causing one of my health conditions to get much worse - and I was only taking the tiniest dosage. Still, it was enough that I can tell the depression is worsening again. The OCD is always bad, but when the depression worsens then I feel like giving up on everything. Not on life - just on trying to make changes or do anything extra. I start feeling like, "what's the point of anything?" <BR> <BR> I guess it's not *just* the m... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 19:55:07 EST Anxious... I've started to make better decisions with my diet but I'm anxious to start back up at the gym. <BR> <BR> I haven't been to the gym since 2013. <BR> <BR> My gym is nice - it's clean, quiet and small without lacking equipment. Plus I pass by it on my way home from work. <BR> <BR> I loathe cardio but I don't mind weight training. I have rheumatoid arthritis which doesn't make it any easier. <BR> <BR> I just need to suck it up and go already! Fri, 20 Feb 2015 15:55:20 EST Newbie Seeking Bucku Support I am a 62yo great-grandmother living in an apartment that is not fit for human habitation ( roaches, bedbugs and black mold ). My husband of 20 years is working 14 to 16 hours a day 7 days a week as a cab driver to get us out of here. But, the bed bugs keep him from sleeping so he's sleeping at a friend's house. On a good day I hour to be with him, on a bad day I get none. My doctor says that my pain is coming from suatica ( I probably misspelled that ). The pain keeps me from even walking ac... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 13:15:21 EST HI, Hello Friends, got a way to go, hope to lose around 60 pounds, taking small but sure steps at first. <BR> Take care, and thanks for reading. Fri, 20 Feb 2015 11:30:53 EST Hi all hey everyone, i have no idea what to do in this message board thing I have been with spark for 10 days now. I love the recipes awesome ideas and well I'm trying to my blood pressure down and my weight lost 7 lbs already hoping to lose more have a blessed day spark people. Thu, 19 Feb 2015 19:06:00 EST I can do this! Hi everyone. My name is Pam. I'm 48 years old & recently moved in with my elderly father to take care of him. In that process I stopped taking care of me. I have many health issues. I have a disease called Lymphedema that makes my whole body retain an ungodly amount of water. Which makes me look 60 pounds or better more than I really am. I also have chronic back pain. My doctor is doing his part in helping me all he can. But, it's getting pretty serious for me as my Diabetes is now out of con... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 18:40:14 EST Last Post Someone here reported me to staff as a suicide risk. I am very angry about that. No one bothered to talk to me before doing this. I will not be part of a group that doesn't care enough to even come to your first before doing something that can cause you untold problems. <BR> <BR> I have been treating my own illnesses for over 30 years. I don't take pills, and I don't go to doctors. I think about it sometimes, but then I decide I can handle it myself, and I'm still here, so it's working fine... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 00:20:52 EST Future looks promising hello I am Lorena. I am currently way over weight and I finally decided I was going to change this. For my first goal I started small with 20 pounds in 2 months. I want to prove to myself that I could do it. I want to change how I look and feel. Since I started this goal for my life, I am already feeling different. I can't believe it. Makes me want to keep going and not look back until I reach my goal of losing 250 pounds. Wed, 18 Feb 2015 22:51:34 EST good day Hi every one I wish the best for all you and God Bless. We are snowed in over 20 inches and they say we may get 8 to 10 more YUK!!!! Wed, 18 Feb 2015 16:08:14 EST I have a job Thank you everyone for your encouragement I was just hired for a permanent job. Wed, 18 Feb 2015 14:33:56 EST The FUNK Caught Me! I call my depression the funk. I know we all go through it with different severity for each of us and different ways. Mine feels like it is getting worse with age but I keep fighting on. I can tell when the funk gets my hubby too, i'll point it out a bit but just enough to get him back on track with those small daily tasks that can help us prevent it and snap back out of it; i never say it directly as his isn't too severe and I would never want to belittle him in that way... just like I would... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 08:53:26 EST I need a friend to help through this journey I am 60 yrs old... never had a weight problem till, I start the change of life. Now I am 40 pounds over weight, it is effecting my back and knees. I need to do this to feel and look better for me. I'm always looking after everyone else, I want and need to do for myself. I'm reaching out...I need a friend to so we can help each other. Mon, 16 Feb 2015 05:47:52 EST Hi. I am Nan, I have been suffering with depression for over 25 years. A support group is something new for me and I don't know what to expect from this. Sun, 15 Feb 2015 13:08:13 EST Optimistic I have a very long history of losing weight, keeping it off, and gaining it again. I want the merry go round to stop and finally get healthy. Sun, 15 Feb 2015 07:44:12 EST feeling overwhelmed Hi everyone - I'm new to the group. This is my third time being on spark people. Food habits are not changing and life is hitting hard. Help Sat, 14 Feb 2015 12:27:08 EST New Girl On The Block Hey everyone. I've struggled with depression most of my life. It comes and goes but I try to stay positive as much as possible. My moods hit me instantly and then I don't feel like doing anything except eat or sleep. I'm on this journey to be a better version of myself than I have been. There's going to be days where I don't want to get out of bed but I hope I can get that extra push to get me going. Hope everyone is accomplishing what they set out to do. <em>381</em> <em>224</em> Sat, 14 Feb 2015 01:19:18 EST surviving Hi my name is Cat. I hope all is well with everyone. I suffer from manic depression/Bipolar and have been an insomniac since a child. That was very traumatic especially when there is school in the morning. My story is long and depressing so I'll skip all that. I have taken every sleeping pill natural, medical, listening to music cd's and the only thing that works is my Ambien. I love this pill. I call it my miracle pill. after years of no healthy sleep. Now I can sleep, yes I get up ... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 16:04:39 EST Just Started! I have hope that I won't fail myself this time. Thu, 12 Feb 2015 13:13:13 EST I'm new but depression is very old (for me) I've had problems with depression since I was 13 years old. I've been able to feel good most of the time with medication but have occasional setbacks. <BR> <BR> Mine started due to a serious family problem, growing up with a mentally ill brother who should have been hospitalized but lived at home. <BR> <BR> I'm now married and employed in the same job for 15 years. I want to get rid of this weight and emotional eating and become one of the winners here. <BR> <BR> Thu, 12 Feb 2015 12:31:18 EST Seems I Have Yet To Chime In <em>524</em> my name is Tony. I live in Halifax NS. Up to two nights ago I was married. We've decided that after 21 years it is time to go our separate ways. <em>39</em> However, she will have to endure my being around a little while longer as my health issues at present need addressing (lose about 100+LBS off this near, if not already, 700 lbs frame). <BR> <BR> The 3rd anniversary of my landing in ICU with Sepsis is coming up. I mention this because since, I feel depressed more so now... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 10:37:56 EST Work :( it is very hard to deal with a 4 day 10 hour work week; but I was am trying. I had this job for almost 13 years and work experience no longer counts. all they are worried about is making numbers, I can no longer compete with the younger kids that work there; but jobs are very hard to find and I need this job. It is getting to the point where I do not want to get up, I just want to overeat because it is comfort food, and I don't want to exercise. I really sat there at the end of the day wonde... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 04:31:31 EST How do you prioritize? I feel like there are so many big self-improvement/lifestyle/maintenance projects waiting for me right now. <BR> I need to work on my budgeting, and I need to go back to the gym, and I probably should start seeing a counselor again, and my dog is acting up because I haven't been working with her enough... <BR> There feels like so much to do and not enough of me to go around. <BR> <BR> When other people say things like this to me, I tell them it doesn't matter where you start, as long as you ... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 03:03:33 EST Liz Hi Sparks family. <BR> My name is liz. I need to lose some weight to get healthy. I hope this group can help me stay on track. Tue, 10 Feb 2015 12:10:40 EST Is anyone else like this? Hi - I've been dealing with depression since my late teens. About 10 years ago I was able to get off my medication and stop counseling. While pregnant with my daughter in 2011, it came back - so much so that I didn't want to get out of bed and was missing work. I went back on meds for about a month until my daughter was born and I've been good till about a month ago. <BR> <BR> Along with my depression, I also get anxiety almost to the point where it turns into OCD. Not so much doing t... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 08:58:56 EST One of those days... I've been doing really well lately. Feeling positive and even hopeful, but today was one of those days when I just felt like the rug was pulled out from under me. I feel overwhelmed by my anxiety and depression. And I so wish that I could just be "normal." I wish that the issues and problems that most people can take in stride didn't level me. It's so disheartening and it makes me feel like I'm always taking steps backwards despite any progress that I've made. Tue, 10 Feb 2015 01:15:20 EST Back again Hi All, <BR> <BR> I'm certainly not new to Sparkpeople and actually not even to the team but I'm coming back here after a very very long time away. Just reading others posts and knowing I'm not alone in dealing with depression (whatever level it's at) helps a lot. Especially coupling this with the battle of trying to lose weight - it's nice to know others are other there facing the same hurdles in life. <BR> <BR> I'm working on logging my food and working out 5 days a week. I do believe ... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 22:15:29 EST Forcing myself to take my supplements I need to find a way to make sure I take my supplements every day. I've tried everything, but I just hate swallowing those capsules. Because of my lupus, I have about 15-20 I have to take every day, some 2-3 times a day. On days I just can't suffer through it, I at least take my multi, B-complex and C. <BR> <BR> I don't have a blender or food processor, so can't do my smoothies right now. I used to just toss them all into a smoothie and drink them. Now it's such a tedious task to get them a... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 20:17:39 EST Another new member Just wanted to throw my hat into the group. I know I will need help from time to time. My husband moved out last June after he had a girlfriend and now is deciding whether or not he wants to continue our marriage of 32 years. It is a very strange set of circumstances that led us to here. It is not all his fault, but leaving and not working it out is. He rarely calls, or comes over or talks at all. I don't know his new address. It all leads me to believe something is going on, but he te... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 19:35:03 EST Day 1 for me I feel very alone in my weight struggles. On the outside I present to the world a happy, friendly person yet inside I feel so inadequate and uncomfortable because of my weight. Food has been my comfort since early childhood and I struggle. <BR> Last November I turned 70 and had promised myself I would not be fat for this birthday, but I was. I have raised 3 daughters as a single parent and between them, I have 6 very handsome grandsons ages 25 to 7. <BR> My passion is sewing and all types... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 19:08:15 EST Hopeful new Beginnings Hello everyone, <BR> <BR> I love words and tend to write a lot of them but I will try to keep this as short as I can. <BR> <BR> When I was in the hospital last November I weighted 552 and I'm sure my weight has gone up since then. (Hence why I put my start weight at 580) I'm going to talk to my doctor about a way to weight myself monthly and see if there is a way I can do that, so hopefully I will be able to update at least that often. <BR> <BR> I also have Lymphedema which grows constant... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 01:08:44 EST slipping into a slump hey ya'll my name is Angela. I have lost both my parents and I'm approaching the 5 yr. anniversary of my fathers passing and its killing me inside. I'm an emotional eater so yeah I'm having a really hard time staying on track but most of all cant find the motivation to get up and do anything. Just wondering who has been here and what do you that helps get you through. <em>39</em> Sun, 8 Feb 2015 22:43:55 EST I'm back. Hello everyone. <BR> <BR> My name is Starr, and I was on this team a year or two ago. I have been a bit active on a couple other teams since then, but not in a great way. My precious DH passed away last year, after I took full-time physical care of him for the last 13 years. The last 4 years he was completely physically reliant on me to do everything for him. He had ALS (Lou Gherigs Disease). Trust me when I tell you that it is a disease even worse then cancer and AIDS. <em>39</em> ... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 18:42:07 EST Hello Everyone! I am new to this team. My DSM IV diagnosis is disthymia. I have had it for most of my life and I haven't ever found an anti-depressant that seemed to make any difference, so I have decided not to use them. Exercise and getting out of the house really lifts my depression, but i also deal with chronic pain that can defeat that. Hope this group will help keep me accountable towards my goals. Sun, 8 Feb 2015 00:53:51 EST hi I hope to slim down Hi my name is mindie I am a mother of four two are adults now and two are younger they are in elementary school I need to lose weight and get healthy for me and them Sun, 8 Feb 2015 00:25:52 EST Rayne is the name Hey ladies, I am 20 almost 21 and i am looking to lose around 25 30 pounds and get healthy. Im horrible with self motivation so i need to find a get healthy buddy with my sameish goals.. to help keep me motivated. im friendly and upbeat can also txt and email to make more healthy friends.. Sat, 7 Feb 2015 20:01:11 EST newbie Hi, I'm new to the group. My weight gain was really getting me down and while I was depressed I had no motivation to lose weight. Fortunately I'm starting to feel better and am hoping this time I'll be able to keep the momentum going. I've lost five pounds in my first week, which is better than I had hoped for. <BR> Sat, 7 Feb 2015 16:53:03 EST Motivation I seem to lack the motivation to lose weight. Maybe I'm doing it for the wrong reasons? Maybe I don't love myself enough? Idk. Any ideas on how to motivate myself? Fri, 6 Feb 2015 20:51:17 EST Another newbie I'm over 60, live in Florida. I don't feel much like talking right now, so I'll do a better intro later. Wed, 4 Feb 2015 22:56:44 EST Hi I'm patty Just had gastric sleeve bypass any support groups for this? 1 week today! Wed, 4 Feb 2015 20:24:05 EST hello hello!!! My name is Lisa. I am 52 yrs old, I am new to SparkPeople and would love to have some friends. Wed, 4 Feb 2015 16:39:39 EST Feeling Low I can't put my finger on why but i have been feeling low for a few days. It hasn't affected my food choices until today, but now i am struggling. I have already had 2 chocolate bars and feel like i have let myself down. My first weigh in is tomorrow and i don't think i have lost anything. I just wish i knew what was causing my low mood, i am now soda free for 3 days but i was only drinking non caffinated, no sugar soda before so i don't think that can be the problem. Wed, 4 Feb 2015 12:44:10 EST Slump Feeling really down. Had a migraine on Sunday and the headache didn't go away till Tues. I still feel groggy and not wanting to do anything but sit here and play computer games or watch tv. <BR> Too cold to go outside and dont' know what to do with myself. <BR> Just needed to tell someone. <BR> Barbara Wed, 4 Feb 2015 11:16:28 EST Miss the old Spark configuration?? I guess I'm venting here and please forgive me for that. I absolutely love Spark, no doubt about it. But sometimes I miss the old configuration. I liked it the old way when the only choices were to either post on an existing Topic/thread or to Create a New Topic. Once newbies got the hang of that, they were able to get so much more in-depth support. I imagine a lot of them think this is like Facebook where you can type as much as you want, but the Team Wall is very limited - I wonder if some ... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 09:49:53 EST Hi there Hi there. Just popping in to say hello, new to the group. <BR> <BR> - Nicole <BR> Wed, 4 Feb 2015 00:20:53 EST bdonley22 I'm going to be 70 next month and i got to lose this weight. I have tried everything to get it off. I do need help Tue, 3 Feb 2015 18:03:43 EST "Emotional eating" tracker category An SP friend edited her food tracker to include a "meal" she calls "emotional eating." It's a genius idea and, as I'm a proponent, which is not always the same as a faithful practitioner, of honesty in tracking as a learning tool and mindfulness reminder, thought I'd mention it here. Called "emotional eating" or what you will, it can be an aid to the effort. I was in the habit of listing such things under "snacks," but a distinct category will be more useful to me when I resume sanity. Tue, 3 Feb 2015 15:55:26 EST I will succeed! This is day 1 and I already feel invincible! I have about 50 lbs to loose and am super excited I found this program! Thanks for your support! Tue, 3 Feb 2015 11:10:31 EST New today H everyone, <BR> <BR> I am new today. Looking forward to being a part of this group. I live in snowy Massachusetts where we are experiencing our second major snow storm in a week. It definitely gets us down here. <BR> <BR> I really need help with getting motivated to exercise. I really hate it. The only thing at do is walk my dog. Any suggestions to get started slowly? <BR> <BR> Cathy Mon, 2 Feb 2015 11:10:56 EST Not feeling it today I feel so blah today. I don't want to do anything. Not even sure what to post because I don't even know what I am really feeling. Mon, 2 Feb 2015 09:33:06 EST Listen Some times we do not listen to our bodies! <em>252</em> <em>524</em> <em>91</em> <em>87</em> <em>214</em> <em>460</em> <em>386</em> Sun, 1 Feb 2015 19:11:02 EST Hello Everyone Hello, my name is Kieran i am 32 years old and live in Essex UK. Sun, 1 Feb 2015 08:20:26 EST I always hate this part Trying to fit a story into an introduction that is....31 years old, mother of 1, ex military, military wife of 13 years. After 18 years of an eating disorder I sought help and have come to a medically acceptable weight...and am in the worst shape of my life. I'm not here to lose weight, I'm here to learn to be fit and eat in a not scary to the rest of the world way. I've always kind of hid from the word depressed but as I learn to get well I'm learning that's exactly what I am. Not sure how... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 12:35:43 EST Unbelievable! Can't believe I found this site! I was just looking for some motivation - I work at home and need to get a new routine! I lost 27 pounds last year, started paleo diet, and was walking every day - then came the holidays and cold weather! SO, time to reboot! Looking forward to these challenges and have been reading blogs - LOVE IT!! Fri, 30 Jan 2015 07:51:35 EST hi i am new here hi, i am new here and hoping to shift some weight and develop a healthier lifestyle. I am a 49 year old woman, with 3 kids, one aged 31 and my others are 12 and 13. <BR> I suffer from depression and anxiety and find this causes weight gain. I have ballooned to a size i have never been, i am not active and i am concerned about my health. As yet i have no health issues except my knees are starting to show the strain. But i want to lose some weight, i want to be around for my children. They ... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 01:36:45 EST Trying to lose some of this weight Trying to lose some of this weight that for some reason I am "clinging" to. Thu, 29 Jan 2015 21:10:44 EST New to the program Hi, I'm Terah I am 27, married with a 6 year old daughter and I am very dissatisfied with my figure. In the last I would say 2 weeks I have noticed some pretty big signs that it is time for change. Clothing not fitting the way they should, shortness of breath and the feeling of being tired all the time. I'm 5'8 and about 180lbs I would like to be at least at 160, that is the goal I have set for myself. My biggest problem is motivation I need some where I can get the advice and aid I need to k... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 00:16:28 EST First time Hi. I'm Sandi and I suspect i'm more bipolar than simply ( is it ever simple?) depressed. I Lost my Dad in 2012 , watched him Leave us and haven't cried yet even though he was a big part of my world. I have trouble letting my emotions out if they are intense. Looking for friends who can just be there for me and not try to psychoanalyse. I stay pretty upbeat most of the time and it helps me to help others. Wed, 28 Jan 2015 22:14:23 EST Being good to our bodies Some times we do not listen hard enough to the body we live in. Wed, 28 Jan 2015 20:55:32 EST Technically not new... I've been a member of SparkPeople since 2009, with varying degrees of participation levels. I am now more determined than ever to use this page (and app on my phone) every day. Depression runs in my family. Both of my parents deal with it. I had refused for years to believe I did, but I was finally convinced that I've truly been suffering from it for most of my life. And of course at the time, I refused to try medications. It was a point in my life when many of my friends were also anti medic... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 20:14:54 EST How are you today? How is everyone today?? <BR> <BR> I have to say I am feeling pretty good. Got the kiddos off to school, went grocery shopping and am now home to do housework and bake some bread and head off on my walk for the day! <BR> <BR> My meeting went very well last night and we came up with some really good tools and ideas to help with my emotions! So I am excited!!! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> Wed, 28 Jan 2015 11:38:29 EST Very New to Social Media Hi, <BR> I'm trying something new! Feedback and tips are welcome--I'm diving in without looking at the "rules." As I come to better understand my feelings I'm looking for support and also a place to share what I'm learning along the way. Thanks for providing a forum. Wed, 28 Jan 2015 08:44:16 EST IDEAS please... what do you do? Hi, I know I'm not the only one on this team who struggles with turning to food for comfort and relief from depression and/or anxiety, I've been "brainstorming" for ideas of how to make myself feel better without turning to overeating. I realize 'two heads are better than one' and I'm hoping lots of you will share what works for you. <BR> <BR> What do you use (instead of extra food) to make yourself feel safe and/or happy? <BR> <BR> Thanks in advance. <BR> <em>213</em> Tue, 27 Jan 2015 20:01:00 EST alternatives Although I am on meds, I also benefited greatly from DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) by Marsha Linehan. I was in a year long class in coordination with my therapist. It taught me so many skills to deal with depression and which to use when. I still watch you tube videos of Marsha Linehan to keep up with it. It taught me how to be mindful, stay in the present, use opposite action, stay in wise mind, communicating with others about my depression and feelings... it was great! <BR> <BR>... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 19:08:00 EST Losing myself I know I just joined a couple of days ago but I don't really know who else to talk to about these feelings I have. <BR> <BR> Lately I have been feeling very numb with bouts of anger and irritability. I am starting to work with a life coach about my feelings and relationships and moving on from my childhood abuse.I think that this has something to do with the way I have been feeling but I don't want to be numb to it. I want to feel it, deal with it and move on from it. <BR> <BR> I have been... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 09:20:40 EST Hello, I am new here I am new here obese in weigh and Very unhealthy with lots of other problems. I am very overwhelm being on here and taking the 1st step to being a newer and improved me. Mon, 26 Jan 2015 13:23:05 EST Hi, This is Mountainviewme And I am soooo lost right now! <BR> Thanks for having me! Mon, 26 Jan 2015 11:32:36 EST Struggling Emotionally Hi all, I'm new here. This winter has been really tough for me. My husband and I both suffer from depression and anxiety, and it's really bad for both of us right now. I manage to eat fairly well, and I work out with kettlebells 3x a week without fail. I hit my goal weight at the end of August and am up 12 lbs but all my clothes still fit and some of them are loose. The scale still bugs me despite knowing it's mostly muscle I've put on. <BR> <BR> I am currently using a HappyLight in the mor... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 05:52:56 EST Hello My name is Julie. I've been following the Spark plan since Jan 5th. I am nine pounds lighter. I'm just going to keep going one day at a time. Mon, 26 Jan 2015 00:10:35 EST Hi, New Here Hi. I'm Sara. Just joined today. I live in WI and really need help staying motivated and getting fit and healthy. I have a plan but I always end up giving up. <BR> I am a wife and a mother of 2. I love to cook and bake, walk, and just be around people. Sun, 25 Jan 2015 18:42:40 EST Hello, My name is Micheal and I need help. My name is Micheal, I am 60 years old and an ugly\discussing 272 pounds while only 5' 10" tall. I was born and raised in a very small Kansas town (pop. 136). 39 years ago I married and Angel and the love of my life, we seldom leave the house alone, many people joke we a attached at the hip. Let me stress that my wife is in no way over weight, she is 5' 4" and weights less than 130 (although I don't know the exact number), so other than her excellent cooking she is in no way responsible for ... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 11:19:57 EST Losing a beloved pet Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my best friend and companion of almost 17 years, Kodiak. He is the 1st dog I've owned and trained from puppy to adult dog and he taught me so much about the human/canine connection. I cannot imagine my life without him. :( He was with me through the passing of both of my parents and so many other smaller parts of life.. I have no idea of how to cope with day to day life without him. I would give anything to have him back, yet I know he is now free of ... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 22:24:00 EST Hello Everyone I'm Lora and I'm here to lose weight, learn how to eat healthier (on a budget), find exercises that I will do and have fun with. I also want to help my kids and hubby with their weight. I've done it before and I know, with patience, hard work, lots of love and faith I can do it again. Thank you and I hope you all have a blessed day. Sat, 24 Jan 2015 21:19:11 EST check in thank you for your support everyone Sat, 24 Jan 2015 15:09:24 EST External Motivations So... My therapist says I need external motivations to help me with my fitness journey, so... What are some of yours *or* what are some suggestions you may have? Fri, 23 Jan 2015 17:19:05 EST External Motivations So... My therapist says I need external motivations to help me with my fitness journey, so... What are some of yours? Fri, 23 Jan 2015 17:16:16 EST Just saying hi I'm new here... just checking in. I don't tend to be much of a poster on forums, but I figured I'd branch out and say hi. <BR> Trying to take one day at a time and stay present. <BR> Hope you all have a good weekend <BR> <BR> K Fri, 23 Jan 2015 17:15:46 EST New Year New Attitude! Hello all, <BR> <BR> I decided to start the new year with a new attitude. I am committing to myself, my health and my future. I decided to find people that were going thru the same things I was regarding my health and fitness goals. I hope to find people I can encourage and support who will do the same for me. <BR> <BR> I look forward to getting to know many of you this year and to fulfilling my goals. <BR> <BR> Nancy Fri, 23 Jan 2015 01:25:41 EST One day at a time I signed up years ago and actually lost the weight I wanted to. But last year, I got sick and couldn't eat much for months. Then when I got better, I didn't stop eating. It didn't help that I left my husband at the same time. BUT, my name is Cyndie. When I started back on my journey on Dec 31st. I weighted 188lbs. My goal is 140 and I would love to be at 130lb. I am 5 foot tall so because of my small frame I can't eat much. I am living with an emotional abuser, ME. I don't know why I... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 12:36:35 EST Hello From Missouri Hello! I just rejoined SP last week. I started gaining weight back in 1977 when I was pregnant with my first child. It seems like I've been gaining ever since. I have decided to choose life over death not only for me but also for my family who have told me they would like to have me around for several more years. I had my first blood clot in a lung and 4th in a leg back in July 2014. I didn't realize my shortness of breath was due to the blood clot because of my size. My idea weight would b... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 22:28:40 EST I'm a newbie but not to SparkPeople I've worked with SparkPeople 2 years ago and lost 30 lbs. Unfortunately, I let my determination slide and I've gained the 30 lbs back. So, here I am. <BR> <BR> ~S~ Tue, 20 Jan 2015 17:52:07 EST Hi everyone! My name is Heather and I am a 34 year old mom of 1. My son is 7 and has aspergers syndrome, my husband is a truck driver and is out 2 weeks at a time, and my mom (who lives with us) was just recently diagnosed with cancer. Life around here is pretty stressful right now and I don't get alot of time to focus on working on me. When I'm not stressing out about everyone else I like to play video games, mostly sim type games or tycoon games.I am also going back to school to get my high school diplo... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 02:43:21 EST Apple shaped emotional eater needs a fresh start Hi all I am new and looking to eat more healthy and lose weight especially around my middle. I like the gym when I go but sometimes it's hard to motivate myself. I have found sites like this very helpful in the past. Have lost lots of confidence in myself and am tired of not being able to fit into my clothes and reluctant to get a bigger size. Looking for friends for mutual help and support on my journey xx Mon, 19 Jan 2015 17:38:51 EST This Emotional Rollercoaster Is Kicking My Butt Hi. I'm struggling with some pretty heavy emotions right now and could use some validation and kind words. I do have a great support team (husband, daughters, mom, sister, a couple of friends, and my therapists), but my greatest supporter, my mother-in-law, is in her last days and I'm a wreck over it. <BR> <BR> <BR> I could tell my mother-in-law anything and she would talk with me and help me figure things out. That's why, one day early last week, when I was sitting by her bed holding ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 07:56:39 EST Glitter & Rainbows & Unicorns & Rain & Eyeliner These are all things that make me happy. My technical name is Amber, but my friends call me Lumy. I am 24 years old and I have a LOT of weight to lose. It's almost overwhelming to think about. Honestly I need to lose over half of my weight. I weigh 436 pounds. *exhales* There, it's out there. No hiding behind vague comments about being obese. No I am MORBIDLY OBESE and I want anyone considering friending/ messaging me to know that up front. I'm not going to pretend to be anything other than ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 02:09:08 EST Hello people Just moved back to ohio from Maryland. Seriously depressed there. Started weight loss day after Thanksgiving. Lost 32lbs. Trying to continue. Sun, 18 Jan 2015 15:29:26 EST Happy to be back! Great to be back and make the chances necessary! Sat, 17 Jan 2015 16:12:44 EST Great Support Here There is such Great Support Here, maybe my first try at Sparkpeople would have been more successful if I had gotten involved with the message boards, teams and everything in the community. Thank You everyone for the excellent support! :) Fri, 16 Jan 2015 11:47:12 EST Newbie! Hi, <BR> <BR> New here, but really appreciating this section of SparkPeople. 11 months into a major depressive episode, which is sloooooowly getting better, and still committed to staying motivated and connected, getting outside, exercising, reaching out to people. <BR> <BR> A good day is not just a good day, but something to be thankful for; hope that doesn't stay true forever! <BR> <BR> Q Fri, 16 Jan 2015 11:02:24 EST Thank You Thank You everyone for the great ideas, waking this morning I felt a little better and a little more positive. I will try some of these ideas and see how they work for me. I do think that I have the seasonal affective so I do take vitamin D and try to open up my drapes for as much Winter sunshine as I can. Fri, 16 Jan 2015 07:03:39 EST Had a Rough Last Couple of Days Had a Rough last couple of days, just not feeling well and spending so much time sleeping & not getting any type of fitness in. I did still get my meals tracked but felt like I was getting off track and falling into the depression again. Thu, 15 Jan 2015 15:42:13 EST no more talking I began therapy a few months ago. At first, it was fine. How it works is I see a therapist once a week and the actual psychiatrist MD once a month. Today is supposed to be my first day on Lexapro. I'm hoping that will help, but I think medication should be just one part of my efforts. <BR> <BR> I thought I could learn new tools or exercises of healthier ways to deal with things. I don't handle stress well. I don't have a healthy relationship with food. I don't have much healthy joy in life,... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 11:49:24 EST saying hi I'm new to the site and thought I would interduce myself. My name is Misheila you can call me Mishy. I'm 36 and looking for weightloss buddies and people to chat with about my depression issues.People to share with Wed, 14 Jan 2015 08:33:07 EST Introducing myself Hi, I'm Kelli. I joined Spark People to get healthy and take control of my emotional eating habit. I've been on an emotional rollercoaster . I'm a wife, a mom, a part time student and work full time. I stress and I eat. The more stressed I get the more depressed and the more bad choices. before I knew it the weight piled on and my clothes didn't fit. I've decided to make some changes permanently to not just lose weight but to get healthy too. Tue, 13 Jan 2015 23:43:40 EST Bumpee Good morning, I am stepping out of my comfort zone in the hopes of gaining support in this journey and offering up any wisdom/experience I may have. I am a nurse and a grandmother, a wife, a sister, a mom and I want to work and learn how to be more available in a healthy way for my family. Tue, 13 Jan 2015 14:09:04 EST Hi Hi there... I'm Rasheda "The Rayven" Poe. I am a writer and poet (written and spoken word). I discovered poetry when I decided to get off of my meds. <BR> <BR> I found that on meds I was grumpy, and without them I'm moody. People accept moody me more (mostly because I'm not mean). So for the past few months I stopped taking them. Then I started writing poetry, and found out that I am a pretty good spoken word poet. Of course my doctor wants me to go back on the meds. So I'm now in fear of lo... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 11:43:39 EST back again never quit quitting! No time like the present to make a better me! Any encouragement is appreciated. Struggle with exercise but don't want to shop in plus size forever..looking to lose 40-45 lbs by August to start by making healthy habit changes and gaining some positive influence in my life. Tue, 13 Jan 2015 09:01:34 EST