SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Welcome! This is a space for anyone dealing with depression to support each other as we eat right, exercise, lose weight, and find ways to manage our depression. SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Hello My name is Julie. I've been following the Spark plan since Jan 5th. I am nine pounds lighter. I'm just going to keep going one day at a time. Mon, 26 Jan 2015 00:10:35 EST Hi, New Here Hi. I'm Sara. Just joined today. I live in WI and really need help staying motivated and getting fit and healthy. I have a plan but I always end up giving up. <BR> I am a wife and a mother of 2. I love to cook and bake, walk, and just be around people. Sun, 25 Jan 2015 18:42:40 EST Hello, My name is Micheal and I need help. My name is Micheal, I am 60 years old and an ugly\discussing 272 pounds while only 5' 10" tall. I was born and raised in a very small Kansas town (pop. 136). 39 years ago I married and Angel and the love of my life, we seldom leave the house alone, many people joke we a attached at the hip. Let me stress that my wife is in no way over weight, she is 5' 4" and weights less than 130 (although I don't know the exact number), so other than her excellent cooking she is in no way responsible for ... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 11:19:57 EST Losing a beloved pet Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my best friend and companion of almost 17 years, Kodiak. He is the 1st dog I've owned and trained from puppy to adult dog and he taught me so much about the human/canine connection. I cannot imagine my life without him. :( He was with me through the passing of both of my parents and so many other smaller parts of life.. I have no idea of how to cope with day to day life without him. I would give anything to have him back, yet I know he is now free of ... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 22:24:00 EST Hello Everyone I'm Lora and I'm here to lose weight, learn how to eat healthier (on a budget), find exercises that I will do and have fun with. I also want to help my kids and hubby with their weight. I've done it before and I know, with patience, hard work, lots of love and faith I can do it again. Thank you and I hope you all have a blessed day. Sat, 24 Jan 2015 21:19:11 EST check in thank you for your support everyone Sat, 24 Jan 2015 15:09:24 EST External Motivations So... My therapist says I need external motivations to help me with my fitness journey, so... What are some of yours *or* what are some suggestions you may have? Fri, 23 Jan 2015 17:19:05 EST External Motivations So... My therapist says I need external motivations to help me with my fitness journey, so... What are some of yours? Fri, 23 Jan 2015 17:16:16 EST Just saying hi I'm new here... just checking in. I don't tend to be much of a poster on forums, but I figured I'd branch out and say hi. <BR> Trying to take one day at a time and stay present. <BR> Hope you all have a good weekend <BR> <BR> K Fri, 23 Jan 2015 17:15:46 EST New Year New Attitude! Hello all, <BR> <BR> I decided to start the new year with a new attitude. I am committing to myself, my health and my future. I decided to find people that were going thru the same things I was regarding my health and fitness goals. I hope to find people I can encourage and support who will do the same for me. <BR> <BR> I look forward to getting to know many of you this year and to fulfilling my goals. <BR> <BR> Nancy Fri, 23 Jan 2015 01:25:41 EST One day at a time I signed up years ago and actually lost the weight I wanted to. But last year, I got sick and couldn't eat much for months. Then when I got better, I didn't stop eating. It didn't help that I left my husband at the same time. BUT, my name is Cyndie. When I started back on my journey on Dec 31st. I weighted 188lbs. My goal is 140 and I would love to be at 130lb. I am 5 foot tall so because of my small frame I can't eat much. I am living with an emotional abuser, ME. I don't know why I... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 12:36:35 EST Hello From Missouri Hello! I just rejoined SP last week. I started gaining weight back in 1977 when I was pregnant with my first child. It seems like I've been gaining ever since. I have decided to choose life over death not only for me but also for my family who have told me they would like to have me around for several more years. I had my first blood clot in a lung and 4th in a leg back in July 2014. I didn't realize my shortness of breath was due to the blood clot because of my size. My idea weight would b... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 22:28:40 EST I'm a newbie but not to SparkPeople I've worked with SparkPeople 2 years ago and lost 30 lbs. Unfortunately, I let my determination slide and I've gained the 30 lbs back. So, here I am. <BR> <BR> ~S~ Tue, 20 Jan 2015 17:52:07 EST Hi everyone! My name is Heather and I am a 34 year old mom of 1. My son is 7 and has aspergers syndrome, my husband is a truck driver and is out 2 weeks at a time, and my mom (who lives with us) was just recently diagnosed with cancer. Life around here is pretty stressful right now and I don't get alot of time to focus on working on me. When I'm not stressing out about everyone else I like to play video games, mostly sim type games or tycoon games.I am also going back to school to get my high school diplo... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 02:43:21 EST Apple shaped emotional eater needs a fresh start Hi all I am new and looking to eat more healthy and lose weight especially around my middle. I like the gym when I go but sometimes it's hard to motivate myself. I have found sites like this very helpful in the past. Have lost lots of confidence in myself and am tired of not being able to fit into my clothes and reluctant to get a bigger size. Looking for friends for mutual help and support on my journey xx Mon, 19 Jan 2015 17:38:51 EST This Emotional Rollercoaster Is Kicking My Butt Hi. I'm struggling with some pretty heavy emotions right now and could use some validation and kind words. I do have a great support team (husband, daughters, mom, sister, a couple of friends, and my therapists), but my greatest supporter, my mother-in-law, is in her last days and I'm a wreck over it. <BR> <BR> <BR> I could tell my mother-in-law anything and she would talk with me and help me figure things out. That's why, one day early last week, when I was sitting by her bed holding ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 07:56:39 EST Glitter & Rainbows & Unicorns & Rain & Eyeliner These are all things that make me happy. My technical name is Amber, but my friends call me Lumy. I am 24 years old and I have a LOT of weight to lose. It's almost overwhelming to think about. Honestly I need to lose over half of my weight. I weigh 436 pounds. *exhales* There, it's out there. No hiding behind vague comments about being obese. No I am MORBIDLY OBESE and I want anyone considering friending/ messaging me to know that up front. I'm not going to pretend to be anything other than ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 02:09:08 EST Hello people Just moved back to ohio from Maryland. Seriously depressed there. Started weight loss day after Thanksgiving. Lost 32lbs. Trying to continue. Sun, 18 Jan 2015 15:29:26 EST Happy to be back! Great to be back and make the chances necessary! Sat, 17 Jan 2015 16:12:44 EST Great Support Here There is such Great Support Here, maybe my first try at Sparkpeople would have been more successful if I had gotten involved with the message boards, teams and everything in the community. Thank You everyone for the excellent support! :) Fri, 16 Jan 2015 11:47:12 EST Newbie! Hi, <BR> <BR> New here, but really appreciating this section of SparkPeople. 11 months into a major depressive episode, which is sloooooowly getting better, and still committed to staying motivated and connected, getting outside, exercising, reaching out to people. <BR> <BR> A good day is not just a good day, but something to be thankful for; hope that doesn't stay true forever! <BR> <BR> Q Fri, 16 Jan 2015 11:02:24 EST Thank You Thank You everyone for the great ideas, waking this morning I felt a little better and a little more positive. I will try some of these ideas and see how they work for me. I do think that I have the seasonal affective so I do take vitamin D and try to open up my drapes for as much Winter sunshine as I can. Fri, 16 Jan 2015 07:03:39 EST Had a Rough Last Couple of Days Had a Rough last couple of days, just not feeling well and spending so much time sleeping & not getting any type of fitness in. I did still get my meals tracked but felt like I was getting off track and falling into the depression again. Thu, 15 Jan 2015 15:42:13 EST no more talking I began therapy a few months ago. At first, it was fine. How it works is I see a therapist once a week and the actual psychiatrist MD once a month. Today is supposed to be my first day on Lexapro. I'm hoping that will help, but I think medication should be just one part of my efforts. <BR> <BR> I thought I could learn new tools or exercises of healthier ways to deal with things. I don't handle stress well. I don't have a healthy relationship with food. I don't have much healthy joy in life,... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 11:49:24 EST saying hi I'm new to the site and thought I would interduce myself. My name is Misheila you can call me Mishy. I'm 36 and looking for weightloss buddies and people to chat with about my depression issues.People to share with Wed, 14 Jan 2015 08:33:07 EST Introducing myself Hi, I'm Kelli. I joined Spark People to get healthy and take control of my emotional eating habit. I've been on an emotional rollercoaster . I'm a wife, a mom, a part time student and work full time. I stress and I eat. The more stressed I get the more depressed and the more bad choices. before I knew it the weight piled on and my clothes didn't fit. I've decided to make some changes permanently to not just lose weight but to get healthy too. Tue, 13 Jan 2015 23:43:40 EST Bumpee Good morning, I am stepping out of my comfort zone in the hopes of gaining support in this journey and offering up any wisdom/experience I may have. I am a nurse and a grandmother, a wife, a sister, a mom and I want to work and learn how to be more available in a healthy way for my family. Tue, 13 Jan 2015 14:09:04 EST Hi Hi there... I'm Rasheda "The Rayven" Poe. I am a writer and poet (written and spoken word). I discovered poetry when I decided to get off of my meds. <BR> <BR> I found that on meds I was grumpy, and without them I'm moody. People accept moody me more (mostly because I'm not mean). So for the past few months I stopped taking them. Then I started writing poetry, and found out that I am a pretty good spoken word poet. Of course my doctor wants me to go back on the meds. So I'm now in fear of lo... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 11:43:39 EST back again never quit quitting! No time like the present to make a better me! Any encouragement is appreciated. Struggle with exercise but don't want to shop in plus size forever..looking to lose 40-45 lbs by August to start by making healthy habit changes and gaining some positive influence in my life. Tue, 13 Jan 2015 09:01:34 EST SlimGrandma5 I would like to hear from people with Diabetes. People with needing to lose weight for health reasons. Mon, 12 Jan 2015 21:29:38 EST Introducing myself Hello all, <BR> <BR> My name is Jeanne and I'm beginning a self care program on Sparkpeople. I have mild depression that is managed with medication. Ten days ago I learned my position had been eliminated so I am unemployed. I have not been unemployed since I was about 14. This is odd, to say the least! I've stopped crying and am searching for a new career. Positive thoughts are needed and appreciated. Mon, 12 Jan 2015 15:19:50 EST Bypass surgery I am on a adventure I have started on a 1600 calorie diet to prepare for my gastric bypass surgery in three months I have started on this on Jan 2nd and went to my doctor today I have lost five pounds so I am on a good start. The low calorie diet seems to be working for me I am so happy and I am finally defeating my depression for once in my life YAHOOOO!!! Thank you Spark People for all of the help and encouragement.. Mon, 12 Jan 2015 13:29:28 EST Tess2k9 hi everyone i am here to try to loose some weight Sun, 11 Jan 2015 22:48:55 EST Getting off the meds Has anyone gotten off the meds successfully? I have tried to go off them for years and always end up back on them due to my major depression. I hate that these meds make me feel so numb sometimes. I want to be able to feel, have a libido and get back to the person I was. I was hoping that I could lose some weight and start feeling a little better about myself but my efforts keep getting stalled...Is there light at the end of this tunnel? Sun, 11 Jan 2015 21:15:20 EST Don't know where to start I'm fairly new to the group, so far I've just been an observer. But something's got to change. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> My name is Sarah and I am a stay home mom with 3 beautiful little girls (7, 6, & 2.) I have dealt with depression for a very long time but after I had my 3rd daughter I think I had undiagnosed postpartum depression. Now 2.5 years later I am more depressed than I have ever been. I have my good days but most days it's all I can do to get my oldest 2 to school and picked up,... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 13:45:47 EST Please let me introduce myself, As a new member I'm seeking information and examples on ways to utilize the website to the highest level,to understand where and how to find the tools I need to succeed. I have had seasonal mood disorder since before the diagnosis was developed, but since my father passed away 3 years ago depression has been a constant companion. It's managed with medication but it's always lurking. So,here I am. Sun, 11 Jan 2015 12:39:57 EST Sometimes I feel like I'm beyond repair It's the middle of the night and I've been (re)setting up my SparkPeople account for a few hours. It's made me realise, as I think about where I am and where I wish I was, just how much I have been struggling. <BR> <BR> I spent a few years caring for my husband. I also work in a very focused and mentally intensive career that I have had to try to maintain (under contract work) in order to support us both. My husband is still recovering but doesn't need caring anymore which has eased the loa... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 22:59:33 EST Hi I'm new to Sparkpeople New to Sparkpeople and to this Spark Team. Depression has been a life long struggle as part of another illness. Looking for support as I try to change bad habits and make healthier life choices. <em>213</em> Sat, 10 Jan 2015 18:24:31 EST Let it go let it go! Hi am new to spark recently just signed up last night not too sure how this works looking to find friends to help me out with this page I would like to also help you out with anything and everything you need in categories let's strive to survive.feel free to send me an email Fri, 9 Jan 2015 14:02:11 EST Hi, I'm new <em>213</em> <BR> Hello, my name is Angela. I initially found this sight over 2 years ago but became frustrated with my inability to lose weight. I think alot of that has to do with my medication. I have severe depression and anxiety. I also tend to eat more than I should when I am stressed. I'm really hoping to be able to stay motivated and lose weight. I'm looking forward to giving and receiving support throughout this journey. Thu, 8 Jan 2015 20:57:24 EST Looking for a Support System I'm not really the type to seek out strangers for help, but I feel as thought I've hit a point of no return. <BR> <BR> My normal support "team" is normally my boyfriend and a few friends, but recently, my boyfriend has come into some tragedy, and I feel awful dumping my problems on top of his. You see, one of his close friends has been in the hospital, and my have cancer, and the love of my life is having a hard time dealing with the thought of his friend being very sick. <BR> <BR> As for... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 09:53:26 EST Dealing with a loss (not related to death) The last time I logged into SparkPeople before the new year, my sister had just had a baby. He was a healthy, beautiful baby boy.She was living at home with my parents and I (I'm home while I'm going to school, and she was still young). Things had always been stressful with her, but we had gotten used to it. <BR> <BR> A lot has changed since then. She moved out with her boyfriend and her son, and they seem to be doing very well. But she hasn't let any of us visit her and her family since bef... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 09:46:08 EST Penny from Vermont Hi, <BR> I am a 55 yr old woman from Vermont. I was told by my heart doctor that I had to quit smoking and lose 20 lbs by June. Eventually, I will have to have my heart valve fixed and he wants me in the best health so recovery will be easy. I quit smoking on January 1st (cold turkey) and joined Sparkpeople to log in my meals to keep an eye on what I eat. I just started walking on my treadmill. I feel a little overwhelmed:} Any words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. This ... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 16:29:32 EST hello My name is Christina I am new to spark people so I'm very excited to see how this goes. I have been struggling with my weight since I had my first child seven years ago. Last year I did the low carb diet and it worked until I started eating carbs again and gained the weight back and then some. I work full time mother of two that has a loving husband of eight years. I would live you to add me so we can keep each other motivated. Mon, 5 Jan 2015 19:43:58 EST Struggling Hey everyone. <BR> <BR> I'm really struggling right now. I'm super messed up on my meds due to being off work for the holidays and sleeping in. I missed like 6 morning doses in a row. The meds I take in the morning are for ADHD and OCD. Then, at night I take the same amount of the OCD med and Latuda. I have not missed my evening meds. But, I'm really struggling right now. This year was the 3rd Christmas without my grandpa. I spent the months prior to Christmas working in a wood shop at work... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 17:06:46 EST Spoons... I'm sure many of you are familiar with the 'spoon theory.' My depression is pretty bad, I'm seeing my psychiatrist next week, but until then (and my med changes kick in), I just don't have enough spoons to do basic, menial tasks. Yesterday I bathed twice and didn't have the spoons to wash my hair either time. I have been meal planning and eating a little bit healthier, but I feel ridiculously lazy for not exercising. Do any of you guys have any tips on how to acquire more spoons?! Lol. Mon, 5 Jan 2015 16:58:28 EST SparkTeam: Idea Exchange Hey guys. I don't know if this is allowed, so, if not, please feel free to remove it & I'm sorry for any inconveniences. <BR> <BR> I just wanted to let you all know I created a new SparkTeam called Idea Exchange. My goal for it is to get a community together where we can exchange recipes or inquire about any suggestions one might have for helping someone meet a nutritional goal. <BR> <BR> For example, if you are trying to find a nice, simple snack to increase your daily fiber intake, you ca... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 14:48:38 EST New to the team :) Hello to everyone from Minnesota! My name is Lisa. I am from a small town in Minnesota. I am almost 38 and married with 3 children from a previous marriage and 1 step child. I have recently quit smoking after having surgery to remove my tonsils and adenoids and to put tubes in both my ears 2 1/2 months ago. Wasn't hard to quit after that surgery! I have quit drinking soda and carbonated drinks 8 months ago. Now that I am healed from surgery and the holidays are over it's time to make a change... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 00:11:34 EST I'm planning on going hiking tomorrow! Hi Everyone, Happy New Year! I went ice skating the other day with my boyfriend and literally had to sit down every 15 minutes. I'm so out of shape! One of my resolutions this year was to lose weight and I'm looking for like-minded people to help motivate each other. If anyone lives close to me or is just looking for a motivational partner, let me know or friend me on here. I'm in Arizona, so I plan to do alot of hiking and swimming throughout the year. Good luck to everyone and let's r... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 00:06:32 EST Time for a change towards health and wellness Hi, my name is Tonya. I joined SP a few years ago but never did much with it; I have recently rediscovered the site and helpful articles and hope to get more involved with the supportive community. I am a busy, working mom and have let myself get to my highest weight ever over the last couple years by doing a lot of stress eating and not exercising. It is really time for change to a healthy lifestyle. My goal is to lose 35 pounds and get my fitness back. I want to get back to using exercise f... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 23:05:34 EST I can do this...right? Hello there! My name is Donna. I am a nurse practitioner student and am really struggling with my weight. I need to lose the weight for myself and my family, but I also need to do it so I can be the most effective clinician that I can possibly be. My goal is to lose the weight and therefore be able to counsel (and perhaps even inspire!) my patients on weight loss. I was a SparkPeople member many years ago (I don't even remember my old name) and lost 20+ pounds, but I have much more than that... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 21:02:37 EST Ready to start again… again Hi all! I am a musician, mental health worker, step-mom and wife. I also have lived experience with depression, anxiety and a few other diagnoses, including type 2 diabetes. <BR> <BR> After keeping good control on my blood sugars for over 7 years, this last year after returning to work they started to rise. I just started back on some medication and having some side effects, which are making me feel a bit more "bummed out" than usual. Thankfully, I have a WRAP plan that helps me when I... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 18:32:52 EST Hello from Minnesota Hi, my name is Rachelle and I am rejoining Sparkpeople after a couple of years away. I am a single mother of three beautiful girls and run a pretty busy schedule. This last year was the most difficult year of my life. I have been feeling much better since I was put on meds for anxiety/depression and started seeing a therapist weekly. Some days are better than others, but what is important as that we keep fighting the fight. If anyone would like a support buddy, please feel free to add me as a... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 15:39:11 EST vitamin d and depression Fellow sparkers, I wanted to ask if anyone has had their vitamin d level tested and found out they are deficient? <BR> I did 2 years ago and have learned how much this issue plays a role in so many of my other health problems, including depression and weight issues. <BR> I am considering starting a new sparkteam related to this issue and wondered if anyone would be interested in the subject? <BR> I could also use a co-founder or someone to show me the ropes to start a team. <BR> If anyone is ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 14:18:14 EST hello... Hello, I am new...well I've had my account for over a year but just now pushing myself to stay on it. I am 29, mother of 5 and really want to get healthier. I suffered a knee injury on Christmas and it made me realize how bad of a shape I am. Now, I am still semi-down with my knee still hurting most of the time. I'm frustrated and want to eat or sleep all the time. This isn't good for my kids or my health. Sun, 4 Jan 2015 11:57:52 EST The struggle I've just restarted here after never doing anything here except for joining. I really need to do this for myself, both mentally and physically. Sadly, I don't believe I can and I really need support to get this in motion. Sun, 4 Jan 2015 02:59:44 EST Hello - I would like to meet people for support Good Morning and Happy New Year. <BR> <BR> I am recovering from a car accident and feel I have been using if somewhat as a crutch for not loosing the weight I gained after the accident and for my retreat from exercising. I would appreciate getting to meet other people - go slow to go fast - to encourage or challenge me to do my walking DVD each day and to cut out the eating late at night. <BR> <BR> Due to some brain damage I am now starting 3 businesses from home, taking care of my son's b... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 10:45:20 EST Hi! Back at it again! Well I had an old sparkpeople account from 2009, and I was doing really well but fell off the wagon for a couple of much so that I forgot my sparkpeople password! oops! <BR> I had a baby 6 months ago, and now I'm finally ready to get back to my old self! Fri, 2 Jan 2015 23:13:18 EST Greetings Everyone! Have just discovered this wonderful place. Hope to have many interesting discussions with you. I teach English second language in Québec. My main focus at the moment is to get back to enjoying a healthy lifestyle so that I can feel energized! <BR> Bye, <BR> Jackie Fri, 2 Jan 2015 18:06:28 EST I need support I want to restart my fitness journey. I've lost 60 pounds before, but managed to gain it all back. I'm looking for a partner in this journey to keep each other on track via email/text. when I first lost weight I had someone who did it with me, but I no longer have that support. Fri, 2 Jan 2015 00:21:19 EST Introduction Hi my name is Loretta and have spent most of the day crying about my weight and now its time to take action. <BR> Good luck to everyone. Thu, 1 Jan 2015 23:27:15 EST Hi. My name is Debra. Hi. My name is Debra and I just joined today. I am a single mother of a 17 year old son with Duchenne muscular dystrophy. We have been on our own for 6 years but this last year has been really hard not just physically but emotionally. Jacob is completely dependent on me for everything. It has just been painful to watch him deteriorate so fast. Really, really fast. I eat...and eat...and eat when I get depressed or stressed. So now I weigh more than I ever have in my life. I have talked to a th... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 18:24:38 EST New Life in 2015 Hello everyone! My name is Lisa, I have hope and faith that this year will bring great things! Alot has happened to my life in the last 2 years. I am determined to conquer the weight first and get in shape for my first grandchild in May. So very excited to communicate with fellow spark people! <BR> <BR> Thu, 1 Jan 2015 10:15:27 EST Being alone I just retired year and I am kind of isolated from things to do and family. They all live in different states and it's hard to always travel over to them and they are always busy. Live in the country and it is a distance to even find a gym, I have a small place so no room for exercise equipment. Any suggestions...... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 10:02:12 EST Needing help to lose weight Hi, my name is Starsassy. I've been on here before but it's been a long time. I'm 45 years old. I have 3 kids & 7grandkids. I'm a proud mom & Nana. Wed, 31 Dec 2014 03:29:11 EST New2Spark Hello, to all. I am new to this page, but am anxious to get started. You guys seem to be the most needed group for me. I have been dealing with the loss of my dad ( March 2013) and my husband (May 2013) and haven't been doing too good. I haven't been eating right and until recently, didn't have a lot o f motivation. I have decided that I need to get it together because the way I am now would make my husband very sad. Hopefully I can find some support and encouragement here. Thank you ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 21:42:35 EST New Team: The 2015 Resolution Revolution Challenge I created a new SparkTeam for 2015 weight loss resolutions. It's called The 2015 Resolution Revolution Challenge, and I hope that you will join! <BR> <BR> The challenge starts on Sunday January 11, 2015. Are you ready? <BR> <BR> Join Here <link><BR>roups_individual.asp?gurl=TeamREVOLUTI<BR>ON2015 </link> Tue, 30 Dec 2014 14:40:50 EST Sciatica I posted a while back about straining my back. Its been a couple months and I am still hurting. My doctor things it may be sciatica and will be referring me to a specialist. I forgot to ask him if I could workout. I know I can do yoga and some Pilates. Does anyone know if there are any forms of cardio I can do besides walk? Can I jog or are there any low impact workouts I can do at home? Tue, 30 Dec 2014 00:12:22 EST Depressio n/Anxiety Medication?? So I've been seeing a counselor for most of the year. I just recently decided that I'd like to speak to a psychiatrist about medication. I've never wanted to use medication for my depression/anxiety, but I have felt out of control for a while. I have good days, days that I'm able to cope, and days that seem to go from one emotion to another. But that's why I'm frustrated. I don't know what's coming from day to day and I'm not sure how to control it. My counselor and I have discussed positive ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 23:34:30 EST i need a support system My name is betty I am 57 years young I need to lose 100 PDS I had my thyroid removed this year I was 305 lost to 288 went back up to 299 I am married to a wonderful man for 28 years but he is not a support system he loves junk food when I get depressed I eat all junk food I was praying someone can help me to lose this weight thank. You Mon, 29 Dec 2014 20:00:38 EST Hello! Hey guys! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is about my dozenth time starting a "lifestyle change" and I'm really hoping this one sticks... <BR> <BR> My name is Dan, and I'm a 25 year old father (of two) and husband (of only one) who lives in Somerset, PA, though I've lived just about everywhere in the Harrisburg area during my life... I work for the Commonwealth, which is a great job but leaves me sitting on my butt most of the day. I'm hoping to get up and get moving, and eventually do a couch ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 14:13:21 EST New to SP Hello everyone, I hope everyone is starting off this Monday with a smile ! I'm new to SP, just joined yesterday ! I have weight loss goals to achieve , but what I think I really need is other people to talk with. I have a wonderful husband that is very supportive of anything that I may need , he is my best friend , but I need other people to talk to. I've been shut up in our home for two and a half years because of a back injury at work. I go to the doctor , some light grocery shopping, and s... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 11:28:36 EST Hello Hello! I suffer from Major depressive disorder. I have had a lot of things happen in my life, but food has never let me down. I am an emotional eater and am finding it difficult to stop using it as a crutch. I am looking forward to support and encouragement. Excited to get to know some people. Mon, 29 Dec 2014 11:17:14 EST New to the group Hi, I am new to this group but I've been on spark people a few times over the past few years of my life and I am a long time sufferer of depression. For awhile it has resulted in eating disorders and subsequent increased weight gain. I am hoping to start eating healthy and getting myself to a good weigh the right way! I am also hoping that getting healthy will decrease some of my depressive symptoms, though it know it won't cure me. <BR> <BR> I am a nursing student and that keeps me busy. M... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 06:39:26 EST Nice to be apart of the group <em>41</em> I am happy to rejoin sparks people. Sun, 28 Dec 2014 23:23:29 EST very depressed and sad. I just had back surgery Oct. 28th and then have been taken off work till after the new year, I have to go go back in for another MRI with contrast this time because the disc below the one they have already worked on is falling apart now. My husband has not been a very good support system he drinks, and I am trying to deal with losing weight. So I am hoping between ww and sp.I can get twice as much as support hope that doesn't sound selfish. <BR> I am just very much a people person and indepen... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 18:00:17 EST Hello From Halifax, NS Just stopping by to say hello. Hope all is well with everyone. I have returned to SP in the hope that much needed change will come this time around. I am at my heaviest (Last Weigh-In was October) 637.5 lbs. With this weight comes much discomfort & a host of health issues. I hope you will all support me in my journey as I will of yours. <BR> Sun, 28 Dec 2014 13:37:24 EST WANT TO SEE LESS OF MYSELF! Hello there! I was always walking 3 miles per day 3 years ago, and then became sedentary due to taking care of mother. The 50 #'s crept up on me again. I've done it before, and I KNOW I can do it again, because I am psyched for the new year ahead. If you don't have a supportive husband, and he doubts your efforts, get started like I did with a new girlfriend to walk in the park with. What a motivation and a blessing for 2015!! Hey, he is going to miss seeing more of me, but he is g... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 13:22:35 EST scared Hi, I'm almost 50 years old, and I'm about 50lb over weight ,I have tried so many different diets and I have failed, my daughter getting married in 2016 and I want to look good , not this fat over weight person, I need all the help I can get, not sure what I'm doing on this but guess I'm looking for support and help on sticking with it and not giving up on myself Sun, 28 Dec 2014 07:20:16 EST Hello, trying again to come out of the DARK My name is Holly I am a single Mom of 5. This last year has been one for the books. On November 25th 2013, I gave birth to baby number 5 a seemingly healthy boy. At two days old he got sick very quickly and almost died. We would learn the evening of November 29th that he had 4 Congenital Heart Defects. December 6th 2013 at 9 days old he has his first of a series of open heart surgeries. Fast forward 6 months, he goes in May 6th for his 2nd OHS, which led to a 3rd emergency one on the 9th of M... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 23:56:06 EST Hello! Hello all! <BR> <BR> I am a 20 year old woman, looking to lose around 80 lbs. My largest inhibitor is my bipolar disorder, however. I have Bipolar Type 2 Disorder, meaning I do not have manic episodes, only hypomanic (Not as bad as manic), along with ADHD and it causes me to lose my reason to get healthy when I am depressed. My depressive aspect of bipolar disorder is my worst enemy and I joined this group to help combat that as I work toward my goal. I hope you all are having a great day an... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 13:25:36 EST Leftovers I have a fridge full of leftovers, mostly sweets. I am having a very hard time controlling myself. I think I'm just eating because its there, not because I really want it. And I just want it to be gone. Do I eat it so it'll be gone? Do I just wait and let others eat it? Fri, 26 Dec 2014 12:46:58 EST New to Sparks and looking for support. Hello, I am new to Sparks and could use as much support as I can get. Recently just got out of a 3.5 year relationship which has been horrible on my emotions. I am trying to view this as a positive to regroup and focus on me. Get back to a healthy state both physically and mentally. Thu, 25 Dec 2014 19:27:04 EST medication Has anyone taken effexor? Wellbutrin? I stated the effexor a week ago and i was feeling pretty good. Past few days I've been experiencing flu like symptoms. Then today i could feel depression creeping back in. Anyone experience this? Mon, 22 Dec 2014 23:26:50 EST Hi my name is Dawn Gordon My goals are to be able to get myself to eat 3 square healthy meals a day with snacking in between. However I am a diabetic and a smoker who just found out a few years ago that I have COPD/ Emphysema . I was also diagnosed with major depression and anxiety. My goals is to lose weight but cannot to strenuous activities due to joint pain and arthritis. I need to get a little more active without sending myself into a breathing issue but also not to hurt my joints any further then they are right... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 21:29:37 EST Hi I'm Melody I have with sparkpeople but thanks to some computer problems I have had a slow start. Now that my computer is up and running again I am back on track. I am a single mother of two who has struggled with depression most of my life. Thanks to a wonderful behavioral health team at my local mental health clinic I am doing much better everyday. I am here to get and give any support to those who need it. <em>220</em> Sun, 21 Dec 2014 18:00:24 EST Introducing..Natasha! Hi, my name is Natasha and I am happy to introduce myself and become a part of this community. I so desperately need the camaraderie and support to succeed in my health band weight loss goals. Thank you for welcoming me. Fri, 19 Dec 2014 15:54:04 EST my name is toni I'm a mother of two beautiful little girls been married for a little over two years and I've been trying to get back in shape for years I was diagnosed with severe bi polar/ depression at a young age and was put on medication that made me gain weight and I have not been able to lose it no matter what I try.. My husband recently went to jail and its made it so much harder on me having to take care of the girls trying to find a job and going back to school to further my education Ifeel so hhelp... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 07:59:06 EST Fresh to SparkPeople Hey guys, I've only been a member for maybe... 2 hours? But I definitely love the way it's set up and the community on here. Especially the mental health consideration. Just thought I would stop by and say hello, I have a feeling I might be a regular poster to the team forum... But let's hope it's all positive. <BR> <BR> So so glad to see this type of group/team, the fact it exists already makes me feel like I can stick to my goals better than I could before. Fri, 19 Dec 2014 04:45:50 EST Injury I sprained my back a few months ago. I went to the doctor he put me on muscle relaxers and told me not to workout for a couple of weeks. It seemed to have gotten better, but ever since then I've had back and side pains off and on. I can't go back to the doctor until after the first of the year. I know I can focus on upper body strength and a few ab moves that dont put too much stress on my back. But what else can I do? I had an emotional breakdown last night because I am so frustrated with m... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 08:23:52 EST Troubled i'm having it Real bad today. feel like traumas will never heal and that i'm destined to be an "un-person", as in can't feel good about the things that other people can. because of what has happened to me i just will never be whole/ un-screood up/ carefree/ good enough/ alright/ mentally healthy/ in Peace with myself/ content with what is there, yada yada yada; can't really define the thought but it's a pretty crappy feeling. <BR> oh, and that i'm always falling short too. <BR> i'd really lik... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 03:56:30 EST Back on track Ive been binge eating a lot lately and I know alot of its from stress. Holidays aren't helping at all. I can't seem to get back on track. My family is unsupportive. Any tips? Tue, 16 Dec 2014 20:13:33 EST Laughing your Gas Off No, this is not a joke or a pun. Well it is a play on words but it is happy news (a pun). <BR> <BR> Last night I read that a team of anesthesiologists and psychiatrists at Washington University in St Lewis had just (last week) published a paper on the use of nitrous oxide (laughing gas) in the treatment of depression. <BR> <BR> This is the very first report and it was done with a small group (20) of people but the results were astounding. Three of the people have claimed they are no longer ... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 16:16:57 EST Christmas In some ways I wish Christmas was over and (also Jan 6th my dads birthday) it is not because I don't like it but there is only me and my husband(he moans about it a lot), it just seems to me as if people have lost the real meaning of the holiday, also I am my husbands carer(bipolar) and if he is down I can be on my own all day, some years I have looked after a friends dog for the day which cheers me up but otherwise it can be a lonely boring day. <BR> <em>40</em> <em>252</em> Mon, 15 Dec 2014 12:56:09 EST binge eating Ive been binge eating. I think alot of it has to do with having semester exams coming up. And also I don't spend money on junk food but when other people in my family do, I tend to eat it just cuz its there. Any ideas on how to do better? Sat, 13 Dec 2014 15:03:16 EST New beginning Hi everyone, my name is Roxanne and I am a wife and the guardian of my 5 year old nephew (for the past 2 months). My husband and I moved to FL 2 months ago to care for him and to help my mother out. Over the past 16 years, I have put on a pound or two a year until I am at my heaviest of 160 lbs. I don't like how I look, feel, I don't sleep but am always exhausted, have allergies and just feel "poorly". It is time for a lifestyle change and that is why I am here. I hope to lose almost 50... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 21:26:27 EST Music that makes you smile A Fast Track Goal is to listen to a Get up and Go Song. <BR> I have several Pandora stations I listen to, but I put in a Big Band CD and it was amazing how much better I felt to: Chattanooga Choo Cho, Anvil Chorus and the like. <BR> <BR> What songs make you smile? Wed, 10 Dec 2014 11:35:44 EST Procrastination Meets Determination & Goals Hi! So Military injury & surgeries packing on some weight, changing my look & outlook (on lots of things) has finally reached the need for change. I have become involved with my husband's recovery option of bicycling. 500-600 mile awareness/fundraisers for the military & non-profits who support us. My first one is a few months away and I will reach my goals along the way! I'm excited. I just hope I hold off my old friends 'procrastination & self-criticism'!! Tue, 9 Dec 2014 08:55:54 EST "A Mother Doesn't Understand Why..." A friend who knows depression sent this link, only 3 1/2 minutes, from a poet who knows, but whose mother doesn't. The poet's images are evocative, strong and true, rather than florid and trite, as most are, it seems to me. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>erstand-why-her-daughters-depressed-he<BR>r-daughter-clears-that-up-for-her?g=2&c=ufb1 </link> <BR> <BR> I chose the Problem-Solving forum only to keep this from getting lost in the larger well of the General f... Sat, 6 Dec 2014 11:57:35 EST starting over!! Hello my name is Debra I have decided not to give up on my goal to change my life for the better .I lost a great amount of weight and then I was just stuck because I couldn't loose any more. Its been almost two years since I tried to get back on track. So I am feeling defeated so I decided to come back to Sparkle and get support and possible find a group or walking group in Charlotte to help me get restarted and to give me some tips on how to get back on track, and me remain accountable. I j... Sat, 6 Dec 2014 08:33:12 EST Anyone Interested in Different Teams? I joined a team called "Succeed in Life". It's a pretty new team I think. I like the team description/focus: <BR> <BR> "Succeed In Life is about finding yourself and helping yourself grow so that you can accomplish your goals, be it weight loss, family, career, or any other aspirations you have in life." <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I think the team could use some additional members/activity.Check it out if you are interested. Sorry - I couldn't figure out a way to link to the team page. Thu, 4 Dec 2014 23:51:51 EST Looking to find some strength my name is Liz. I am 28 years old and have been trying to loose weight for a long time. I now feel like I am on the right path. I just need to find some strength to keep pushing forward. Thu, 4 Dec 2014 12:14:47 EST Wens. I am 46 and trying to lose weight and quit smoking at the same time. I have fibro and other medical conditions that make it difficult at times to stay active. We have a new dog that I try to walk everyday. When it is raining like today that is not so easy to do because he does not like the rain. Wed, 3 Dec 2014 08:42:37 EST New to Spark and Quick Intro Hello Everyone, <BR> <BR> My name is Doris and I am new to Spark. I joined this group because I recently moved from San Diego, California to Chicago, Illinois and I discovered I am having a difficult time transitioning to my new life. I moved to Chicago to be with my Navy Fiance, and things are not as easy as I thought. Since moving here, I have gained 15 lbs and I am more depressed because I do not have family or friends around me. In addition, my fiance works longs hours, I work from ho... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 22:30:15 EST Samsung "bug" Friday night when I talked to my ex boyfriend about my computer probs (he's an RIT Computer Nerd), he told me he got a Galaxy S5 for free!! Since then I can't stop thinking about it. Had 3 straight sleepless nights playing around with the carrier websites and Best Buy to figure out what my monthly bill would be for first the S5 and then I started looking at last year's S4. <BR> <BR> Today I went to Best Buy to talk numbers with someone there. Came home to look over my budget for Decembe... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 21:41:53 EST Depression after cancer surgery anyone else? Hi, I have been on anti-depressives for a year after cancer surgery. I am trying to ease off and would like to find some suggestions for other ways to stay happy. Low energy is a problem. Has anyone tried st.johnswort? <BR> <BR> Susan <em>249</em> Tue, 2 Dec 2014 12:32:31 EST December fitness minutes This use to be done on another team I am on. I guess they aren't doing it this month. I have to see it in black and white to give me that push, so I started a thread here. If you want to join me, please do, but no pressure. Commit to a certain number of fitness minutes for the month, post them in this platelet and see if you can reach your goal. The last few months I haven't reached mine. I hope to this month. <BR> <BR> Fitness minutes goal 500 <BR> <BR> December 1-3 <BR> December 2-... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 10:05:39 EST Stay motivated to exercise despite depression For those who may have missed today's article emailed by SP, here it is: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>_articles.asp?id=1808 </link> <BR> <BR> This slide-show/article on handling stress accompanied it: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ow.asp?show=16 </link> Sun, 30 Nov 2014 11:31:41 EST New to site After major crash 10 years ago and 12 weeks in hospital. It is now a day to day or week to week struggle. <BR> Do not know how this site works but encouragement to lose the weight I have gained in the last ten years and healthy mindset would be a great help. <BR> I am 67 , mother, grandmother , wife, retired. Sun, 30 Nov 2014 09:42:08 EST Focus on the Happy Because the holiday season amplifies my emotions and pain from the past, I must remember to focus on the good and happy things. <BR> My 3 boys are so joyful and good. Of course they are challenging at times. <BR> I look forward to putting up the tree...looking at lights in the neighborhood...getting presents for others. <BR> <BR> Nothing can bring me down, no family drama, no worries about my weight, no issues with my marriage... <BR> Happy Holidays! <BR> thankful Sat, 29 Nov 2014 13:24:55 EST Staying with a Program It's very hard for me to stay with a program because I am under a lot of stress. I either eat to much or too little. I am over 50, and losing weight is much harder. I need to lose 30 lbs. I have difficulty keeping track of what I eat because I have so little time to do anything for me. I am also dealing with depression because of the stress. It goes around in a circle. I try to work out, but have back problems and sometimes it becomes too difficult. I was on Spark People several years ... Fri, 28 Nov 2014 17:37:39 EST Hi from France Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> I've been on Sparkpeople before but I'm trying to start my life anew, so I created a new account, new goals, etc. <BR> <BR> I don't have clinical depression (at least, I don't think I do), so if I shouldn't be in the group, don't hesitate to let me know. <BR> <BR> I have a lot of trouble lately stemming from a complete lack of motivation in life, as if every time I need to do something, a massive wall forms in my head and seemingly physically in front of me. I ... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 13:57:49 EST I need buddies!! HELP! <BR> <BR> I'm new and I came here because I'm looking for a support group to help me with my goals. I'm looking to lose 40lbs and gain my life back. I'll journal almost daily and track my progress and it'd be great to have some people to share this journey with :) Wed, 26 Nov 2014 00:58:14 EST Help! Hi all-new to the team here. <BR> I am a 44 year old married mother of 2 teenagers (God help me;) who needs to lose about a 100 lbs. I was down to 135 in 2008 but lost my job in 2010, got married in 2011 and was put on antidepressants at some point between the two events. I started gaining in 2010 and haven't stopped since. I feel horrible about it-which is obviously not helping me. I'm trying to let go of the fact that I regained all that I lost, just like I had to let go of not understandin... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 18:33:34 EST Interloper Hey All, <BR> <BR> I know I'm not around very often, which may be part of why I feel like an interloper when I do pop by, but I'm not certain anymore if I'm depressed or simply suffering from depressive episodes. Hell, I'm not even sure if there is a difference between the two! <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, I've gone off my meds, which I know I shouldn't but I've actually had thoughts that I'm stressing out over my meds because it's such a hassle taking them and trying to keep track of the side ... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 18:05:19 EST Hello everyone. My name is Corliss, I am a Christian and child of the Most High God. I am a divorced mom of 11 children, all 11 are from my ex husband. Seven of them are grown and on their own. I am also a grand mother of 4 with a 5th on the way. I am engaged to a wonderful man who loves me and my children. We home school the four children that are still at home. I am from Killeen Texas but currently the six of us live in La Marque, Texas where my fiance' was born and grew up. I started with Spark Peopl... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 20:52:49 EST victorious_diva Hi fellow Sparkers....I could really use some support. I am trying to lose weight and fight againt medication that causes weight gain. I want to be healthy and I hope Spark can keep me going to see results. Mon, 24 Nov 2014 10:55:26 EST New Gal from New York Hello everyone, <BR> <BR> I'm a 22 year old person from New York. I've suffered through weight issues most of my life and depression since I was 15. <BR> <BR> I'm trying really hard to make a significant change this time. Sun, 23 Nov 2014 18:28:49 EST Dreading the Holidays This will be the first time in 24 years that my daughter will not be home for Christmas (she's 24 years old!). <BR> <BR> I can't even think about decorating without tearing up. My husband doesn't seem to care about decorations. My daughter has always been the one to help me bring the decorations down from the attic, set up the tree, put up the house lights, pretty much everything. I just can't face doing anything without her. <BR> <BR> She moved half way across the country in August (I'm... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 16:34:04 EST Therapy Tomorrow, Thursday, November 20th will be my last meet with my therapist for the next 4-8 weeks. :-/ She's having a hernia repair and will be out that long. I am being temporarily assigned to another case worker. hmmm ..... Don't know how that's gonna go not only therapy wise but schedule wise. I just hope I won't be dealing with a Monday schedule. Don't want a Monday schedule with the new "system" in the office of 48 hour notices. Hard to notify the office 48 hours ahead if your sick... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 18:05:23 EST New to the site My name is Chad. I'm giving SparkPeople a shot to try to get motivation to stick with my diet and exercise plans. I've tried time and time again to diet and exercise, but I lack the motivation and the discipline. I'm really hoping to find people that can positively support and motivate me to stick with it and give it my best shot. <BR> <BR> I'm 24, 5'11", 208 lbs. I had a weight problem in high school - I was about 180 lbs when I was 14-years-old, and stayed that throughout high school. A ye... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 18:26:46 EST hi i've just joined this group hi everyone, <BR> I have been feeling down when i am alone. I have a full life, good job, husband, 2 great kids, but, when i'm alone i feel so hopeless and overwhelmed, i overeat to feel better and have been continuously gaining weight for years. I say to myself that i will go to the gym and when i have time, i feel soo lonely to go there, i just don't go....., <BR> <BR> I have decided to come back to spark and be active on the boards and log my food. <BR> <BR> Thanks, Mon, 17 Nov 2014 17:28:41 EST I hate how I fee I have Major depression, PTSD, Anxiety, Borderline Personality disorder. I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything. I constantly tired and don't want to go places but just stay home. I hate the Borderline gosh pushing people away especially the ones I love. If anyone have this how do you cope? I took Dialectal Behavioral therapy in 1999-2000. I know how to do the skills. Just hate being "the bad person." I want to be my old self again. Anyone has the same problem? <BR> <BR> <BR>... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 01:03:32 EST Hello everyone :-) I'm new and a little nervous about trying to lose 75 pounds! Fri, 14 Nov 2014 12:15:22 EST Mental Illness from a mom's view<BR>ning-zen/dear-claire-dunphy <BR> <BR> I'm sorry I can't set the link! Tue, 11 Nov 2014 10:02:23 EST Just over surgery I haven't been on the site for quite some time. I have been battling chronic diverticulitis for well over a year and have not been able function well. My depression had gone way into the toilet. I was in constant pain and feeling really sorry for myself. Not being able to workout didn't help matters either. I eat sugar and lots of it for comfort. All it has done was pack on over 20lbs in 3 months. I just had surgery where they took out a foot of my colon to remove the diseased part. I... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 21:54:32 EST New from Southern Utah I have always wondered why someone 20-25 lbs. overweight couldn't easily loose the weight, JUST DO IT. How hard would a little self control be? Well, NOW I know. I keep saying I can do it, but now I understand it is not that easy. I keep trying...a day maybe;( I have to admit NOW I KNOW what it is like to want/need to loose weight and I'm not strong enough to just do it. I really do need help from others...HELP! Sun, 9 Nov 2014 11:28:19 EST Douglas Tull - Goal Ready to change my life. Really working hard, it has been difficult. I really struggle with emotional eating and I have had a ton of issues come up lately. Any advice on how to cope? Sat, 8 Nov 2014 11:59:22 EST Hello! I am new but here to stay! Hello, I joined a few weeks ago, but have been holding myself back from interacting with anyone else on the site because I wanted to make sure that I was really ready to commit to this journey this time. Well, today is day 5 on track with my eating and day 3 of early morning workouts. I think I am finally ready to commit to a healthy lifestyle and stick to it!! I ultimately need to loose about 100 pounds. I also want to take up running and complete an Appalachian Trail thru-hike before I turn... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 07:25:33 EST Hello, can I just not have depression, thanks I have never approached my weight loss journey while caring for my depression, but clearly I should, since I am struggling with both at the same time and when one goes bad so does the other. <BR> Anyway, just saying hi, and thanking you guys before-hand for the assistance and love. Thu, 6 Nov 2014 22:42:53 EST New, Just coming in and posting Hello, I'm new and just coming in, and I just got out of the hospital. I am very nervous about posting, I can feel the anxiety as I am typing this. I am a caregiver for both of my parents and my mom is having brain surgery 11-19. I am bipolar and in recovery from alcohol for 8 years, and also agoraphobic. <BR> <BR> I have dedicated myself to going out of the house to go to groups for support, as I am under a great deal of stress. This will be very hard for me as I have not really left t... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 07:23:51 EST Just a little about me! I am 45 years old and have been suffering from depression for the last 20 years. I have a 20 year old daughter with a 15 month old daughter who currently lives with us. I also have a 26 year old son with a 4 year old that is engaged to be married September 26, 2015. During the day I am an Instructor at a Technical College, training students in the healthcare field. When my day at school is done, the real fun begins taking care of everyone and everything else that life has to throw my way. ... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 20:50:44 EST Anyone taken antidepressants while pregnant? I am almost in my third trimester and my depression is worsening. Has anyone taken them? Tue, 4 Nov 2014 11:34:33 EST I think it's gonna be a long, long ..... week!! ;-) <BR> <BR> Did pet food shopping at Wal-mart today. Have a folding shopping cart I use to lug it all home. I live at the top of a hill, which means coming home is an uphill battle with a cart that weighs .... 105#!!! Yes, I know cuz I weighed them on my scale when I got home! Both knees held up fairly well, but I'm beat. :-) <BR> <BR> More tmw .... food for ME! ;-) <BR> <BR> Wed .... Doctor's appt and then few things at Dollar Tree. <BR> <BR> Thursday ..... Therapy. <BR> <BR> F... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 16:40:10 EST New to the team!! Just a short intro... I've lived with depression most of my life. I am fairly stable for the most part, but the holidays send me spinning. I know it and I try to come up with ways to get through, but always fail. Fortunately I found this group just as the big holidays are now approaching (Again!!).. I hope I can add something to the group and not just suck the life out of it by being so needy. Thanks for being there!! Mon, 3 Nov 2014 05:30:11 EST Hi there! I'm just trying to start good habits and motivate myself to do so. It's rather more difficult than I had at first thought. Hopefully interacting with people with similar goals will help me. :D Fri, 31 Oct 2014 00:54:40 EST Changing and Developing Habits <link><BR>-build-better-money-habits/ </link> <BR> <BR> The website LearnVest is primarily for women and about finances and career. This video, however, has no gender in mind and the tips clearly can be applied to all areas of our lives. The speaker relies on the work of Charles Duhigg, a journalist who's written about habit in life and business. Wed, 29 Oct 2014 11:31:35 EST Just saying hello Hello everyone I'm new to the site. Feel free to friend me if you like. Tue, 28 Oct 2014 18:13:09 EST Chefwannabee here! Hi folks. The tools I found on this site are really making Sparks fly in my efforts to regain my health and activity level. Nice to see you all! Tue, 28 Oct 2014 10:23:17 EST Help with my page - it seems like no one can find I set up my page - and then changed my user name (from my full name) to SmallStepsNow. <BR> <BR> Apparently it does not show up to anyone -- though I can see my teams and people I've "friended" -- <BR> <BR> Can anyone help me sort this out! Much appreciated. Mon, 27 Oct 2014 21:53:09 EST I want to live!!!!! HI ! <BR> I am trying to lose weight once again. 7 years ago I weighed over 400lbs. Then just 5 short years ago I had gotten down to 225lbs. I got married to my wonderful husband. Tired to have a baby, only to find out I cant because of a doctor mess up. in the past 5 years I have had 4 miscarriages. My body is in no way on a balance of any kind. i have now gotten back over the 300lbs mark. I am so mad at my self. I tried to get my husband to lose weigh with me as well but he does not want to... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 21:09:12 EST Treating Myself Better Starting Today! Hi Everyone, <BR> <BR> I'm starting fresh today for a healthier me in the future. I have contemplated weight loss surgery or the stomach band but I want to try AGAIN to do this on my own and I think Spark People can help me. I want to be much healthier when my son and daughter-in-law come home to visit from Japan in June of 2016. Mon, 27 Oct 2014 10:24:17 EST Newstartjanane I'm going to try this. I hate how I look And feel. I started this morning. Hope I can do it. Sat, 25 Oct 2014 13:45:17 EST My Mood Is a Sponge I'm new to group and have only been active with SP for about 1 1/2 weeks. Doing well so far, meeting food and exercise goals. I have been treated for depression for about 12 years now and i do my best managing my mood. On meds which definitely help. Have done therapy in past, but not currently. My biggest struggle, which occurred again last night, is that I "absorb" the mood of those around me. My husband (who has undiagnosed/treated OCD) can be very challenging to live with due to his inces... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 11:23:26 EST another newbie here Hi, I am new here. Needing to lose around 90#'s. I have multiple muscle disorders and diseases which make exercising a chore and a half, I also am living on disability so money is very very tight, also have to cook for 6 kids and a husband, two of which have several food allergies not limited to legumes of all types, seafood, shellfish and rice. Cooking is not an easy thing to figure out as food is not cheap and the good for you cheap foods most of which we cant cook or have in the house such... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 18:33:18 EST Hello Hello, how are you? I am Georgia and have just started Spark People. So far I have only done tracking but am going to try and start doing things with the teams and possible look up eating rite stuff and exercising things. I have a husband Stephen and a three year old son Apollo. *Georgia Bell Hull Fri, 24 Oct 2014 15:29:24 EST Hi Everyone! Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> My name is Lo, I just joined SP and i'm on my journey to lose 25lbs! Please visit my page and add me as a friend so we can motivate each other! Thanks! Fri, 24 Oct 2014 14:18:49 EST Hello there. Hi there. I'm new.... so any tips/tricks on how to use this site most effectively would be helpful. It seems kind of overwhelming to me. <BR> <BR> I've been going through something... it kind of came on all of a sudden and I'm not sure what to do about it. Very recently, I just felt sick to my stomach...I couldn't eat or sleep. If I tried to eat, you can be sure it wouldn't stay there. I was having chronic pain literally feels as if all of my muscles are sore for no reason... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 10:00:25 EST I'm new and trying to work on my SparkPage. I left a weight-loss website and just joined SparkPeople yesterday. I want my information to be private and not so public, yet I want to make a SparkPage. Do you have any suggestions on what to add? Is it ok to add photos of other things besides my face? I don't want to add photos of myself on there. <BR> <BR> Let me know what you think and if you have any ideas. <BR> <BR> Thanks! Fri, 24 Oct 2014 08:47:50 EST hey :) hey everybody :) <BR> my name's Krystyna. i'm a 25y/o SAHM, and i live in Shreveport, La. i have one child, and he's 15 months old. i recently found out i have arthritis in my knees, which is one of the reasons i quit working. my main goal is to lose some weight so that i can walk up a flight of stairs without getting winded. i would LOVE to get at least down to the weight i was after i delivered (177). i at least want to get rid of my baby fat and shrink my thighs. my ultimate goal would be ... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 04:06:40 EST Breaking Bad Habits I am working on breaking bad habits, but so far it's not going so well. All I have managed to do so for is invent a hundred and one reason not to do it Thu, 23 Oct 2014 23:42:46 EST Motivated to fight depression and lose weight I am 35, recovering from depression after battling infertility issues and losing my husband 3 days after a miscarriage. I have always been passionate about wellness and health in general. I love to exercise and eat healthy. I gained 10 lbs in the past year with all the hormones that I took for my fertility treatments. I'd like to get back to a healthier weight. Thu, 23 Oct 2014 23:16:19 EST New Job Help Ok so here's the deal. I have always worked second shift. The earliest I have ever had to be at a job was 8AM and that was once but other than that 9 AM. I now have a first shift job that is from 6am (gasp!!) to 2pm. I am NOT a morning person by any means. Bright side of getting up early and getting home early is I can start walking in the day time again instead of at about midnight!! <BR> <BR> Does anyone have any quick on the go breakfast ideas other than granola bars or pop tarts? T... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 11:26:29 EST Hi everyone! Hi my name is Kali. I'm 52 and I've gained a lot of weight in the recent months. It's funny how fast it goes on and how slow it goes off. I totally believe it should be the other way around. I'm currently living in Utah by way of Georgia. It is so beautiful here. I hope to hear back from some of you guys I know I will need the support as this is my first day. Take care everyone! Tue, 21 Oct 2014 23:35:24 EST Questions I have a heart murmur that makes my heart rate sky rocket whenever I do more than sitting. Even sitting my heart rate is between 85 and 95 beats per minute. I tried the insanity workout and I had to stop after about 10 minutes because I started seeing spots and then checked my pulse. Even doing the low impact and doing it slower than the actual video my heart rate was about 250 give or take a couple beats per minute. <BR> <BR> Does anyone have any good ideas on workouts that help lose we... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 17:47:09 EST New to this page Hello everyone. Just wanted to say hi and see how everyone is doing. I'm having a moody day today. And semi anxious. Start yet another new job next week. <BR> <BR> - Stephanie. Tue, 21 Oct 2014 00:11:41 EST Complicated life... THIS is for ME!!! New to Spark, 49, newlywed (3 years), mom lives with us, dementia, his mom is in ICU post car accident, & I'm pulling my hair out! Mon, 20 Oct 2014 23:01:03 EST My story Hello. My name is Sheena. I have three wonderful children and a great, supportive boyfriend. I have never really had a weight problem until recently. I guess at 35 I should have been expecting my metabolism and such to slow down. But I wasn't and it caught me off guard. Although I am not terribly obese, I have gained a good bit of weight and none of my usual techniques for shedding it have worked. This has caused me some depression, as I have lost a lot of my ambition to go and do since the w... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 09:48:18 EST My Introduction! Hello to Team name is Jean -- <BR> <BR> I joined the site about a year ago – but only used some of the exercises and really set up nothing. I am an economist by trade & training working in international trade and international development. I retired three years ago and seriously damaged my back right as I was retiring – a rotated sacrum – and for two years Iived with chronic pain. In the last year through physical therapy and slowly building my core muscles again I am moving... Sun, 19 Oct 2014 22:45:36 EST Newbie - I am married and have 2 wonderful sons 20 and 14 yrs old. They love me and tell me I am fine the way I am and do not need to lose weight. I am unhappy with my body and lack of energy. I have a hard time keeping focused on my weight and exercise goals without a positive kick in the butt! I am hoping to find that encouragement (kick) here with your help. Sun, 19 Oct 2014 19:30:49 EST Introducing myself I hate the fact that I have to deal with this depression. Yes I am 50 years old and this came to me or at least showed it's true self to me at the age of 49 on my birthday. I do know what caused it to show itself and it is my own damn fault. I hate dealing with it and choose to keep it to myself, this way I hurt no one but me. <em>39</em> I hope that someday I can beat this battle, and I I hope someday I can get off this medication, that I had to be lab rat to get, so that I can start ... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 14:47:41 EST Hello Hello, how are you? I am Georgia Bell Hull and just started this week. I have a husband name Stephen Anthony Hull he has a full time job and full time school will be graduated next year finally. I have a three year old son Apollo Nova Hull and we losted our daughter at 8months pregant with five miscarriages before my son. I have suffered with anxiety and depression my whole life it has gone down and up but after losing our daughter I feel like I hit rock bottom. Thank you for letting me join ... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 12:36:45 EST Mother of 2 boys 15 and 3 - 42 years old I am 4'10" tall and I am 165 lbs. I am tired all the time and don't eat healthy and I want to change that with exercise and diet. I can't keep up with my 3 year old, my house is dirty, I am not motivated to do very much and I know it is time. I am an accountant by trade, so I sit at a desk all day. I am an artist by passion so when I have time I paint, draw or whatever hits my fancy at the time. I have also written a children's book that has SAT words in it to help them learn. I want my... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 20:14:18 EST Ready to change and have fun Hi everyone ! My name is Dana and this is a big step to let my walls downn and make a change. I would love to travel and do exciting activities but my weight keeps me from it. Well I do I am a strees eater and feel safe hiding behind my weight. There has been a lot but I pull through. I want to have the life I always dreamed of. I have always cared for othees never for myself. Hope I set my goals and reach tm I always start to workout someone compliments me a I self-DESTROY all I've done. Fri, 17 Oct 2014 19:37:18 EST My Problem is Motivation! I know this is most likely a result of my depression but I cannot motivate myself to do anything! Not even shower sometimes. I know that exercise and good food will make me feel better but even that seems to be too hard. I fight myself in the morning to get up and never seem to be able to unless it is the last minute possible to get ready for work. Has anyone had this problem and was able to overcome it? I have done the whole "yell" at myself or try really hard to just do it but it never seem... Thu, 16 Oct 2014 22:36:08 EST Gained almost all my weight back... I lost about 32 pounds and now have gained most back. I was on a roll but then just took a nose dive. I lost all motivation to try. I didn't feel like doing anything so I just mainly stayed in bed. It was partly because of a "man problem" (found out he was basically cheating on me) and also just not working so having too much time alone. And the hot weather almost killed me! I could not get myself back to Spark at all. I was eating whatever I want and spending way too much money on food. And ... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 18:17:26 EST Weight Gain Due To Medication To get to where I am now I started exercising 2-3 times a day. I do an extreme strength training program, a strength barre routine, aerobics, yoga, exercise bike, interval training, and core training. I can't fit anymore exercise into my day. <BR> <BR> I do this because my medication causes weight gain. I want to stay on the meds because they work. I am currently cutting out all artificial and natural sugars from my diet. The only sugar in my diet is what is naturally in fruits and ve... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 22:26:33 EST anxiety feeling anxious Mon, 13 Oct 2014 15:37:18 EST I Really Blew It Today An Atkins bar, a huge bratwurst w/ sour kraut, pizza, 3 beers, 3 cranberry vodkas, 2 caramel turtle muffins, and a burrito with salsa. Disgusting. Disgusted. <BR> <BR> I think its only stopping now because it's almost 10 o'clock. Time to go to bed and no time left for myself. I think that is the biggest reason why I lost my resolve - I've spent the entire weekend doing things I 'HAVE' to do and no time relaxing. Now I have to go to work tomorrow and school tomorrow night. <BR> <BR> I feel ... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 23:01:35 EST Carlinda I am a long time diabetic and need help. Sun, 12 Oct 2014 18:48:34 EST Lets give this a second go!! Hello! Im Theresa! Im a returning member! I lost 69lbs my first time around...that was 2yrs ago. Although Ive only gained 4lbs back....Ive decided to give it a second go! Id like to loose another 72lbs!! Sat, 11 Oct 2014 16:31:20 EST Goodie Thank you for my goodie it helps to know that this group is here and it certainly helps. Sat, 11 Oct 2014 15:00:56 EST Spitting. Punishable by death? Here's the scenario: <BR> <BR> An 8 y/o child spits on a 13 y/o for teasing him. The mother of the 8 year old tells him it is 'gross' & that he owes the 13 y/o an apology. The 8 y/o apologizes & the 13 y/o accepts the apology. <BR> <BR> The 8 y/o was going to spend the night. The 13 y/o asks that he not be allowed to. The mother of the 13 year old explains to the 8 y/o that spitting is not just gross it's offensive. Very offensive. It is considered a HUGE insult. <BR> <BR> The 8 ... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 08:40:54 EST Hi - I'm new Hi - My name is Sara. I've been suffering from depression for as long as I can remember. I saw my first therapist when I was 6 or 7 years old after my parents split up. I'm now 51. Last month I ended up in the hospital (psych ward) after an overdose of sleeping medication. I'm now on different medication and seeing a therapist. <BR> <BR> I've been a member of Spark for almost 3 years and have actually gained 30 pounds. I really need support from others who understand how difficult i... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 06:26:57 EST The Power of Vulnerability - video by Brene Brown Hello Team Members, <BR> <BR> I saw a video today that I really enjoyed and gave me pause to think about who I am and who I can be. It also made me think about how I'm okay right now, just the way I am. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>nerability?language=en </link> <BR> <BR> Hope you enjoy the video. Thu, 9 Oct 2014 22:58:25 EST howdy! I'm new to Sparkpeople and have suffered from depression since the 1980's. I'm currently on medication, thank goodness, and hope it does not impede my loss. Would love to hear from others in the same position. Always great to find support! Thu, 9 Oct 2014 18:26:10 EST Spark Activity Tracker I have questions about the spark activity tracker. Do you have to be a member of spark people to wear one? What if you don't own a computer? My Mom is 88 years old and has been told to walk more. She thinks she walks a lot just walking in her apartment which is smaller than mine. I average 2000 steps a day if I don't go out. Would this be a good purchase for her. She doesn't own a computer. I would like to prove to her she doesn't walk as much as she thinks. I have a fitbit one and ... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 14:51:53 EST Abilify and weight gain Good morning to you all! I was just wondering if anyone here has ever taken Abilify, I just started it last night. I have worked sooo very hard to lose weight. Before coming to this site I had already lost 10 pounds, and 8 pounds with the support from you all :) im just so very scared to gain from this med. But my mind really does need it. I have googled a lot on it and it seem more people gain then anything. Any feed back would be awesome :) Thank you Thu, 9 Oct 2014 09:44:31 EST Still Struggling My husband is now out of his 12 week depression but I cannot help feeling that it will happen again soon and this makes me turn to food. <BR> Saw my GP on Monday who want me to give my new dose of tablets another month but don't feel that I can last that long. I am exercising twice a week but the weather is not so good so not doing as much walking. I cannot have more counseling until about February so that is not an option. <BR> I am dreading the coming months. <BR> Sorry if this sounds co... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 14:37:17 EST Hi I'm back ,,, I need to lose weight for a total hip replacement surgery but can't get any video or exercise to help. I'm walking with a cane .. So my spirit is really low.... I need something to do during the winter months to stay positive. I need exercise and food advice of what would help me. Just thought maybe someone out there went through something like this and has advice for me ... Thank you :)) <BR> Selena Wed, 8 Oct 2014 11:57:18 EST Trying something new. Hello. I'm trying something new to see if making healthier choices will finally stick. Here's to looking better by the summer. :) Tue, 7 Oct 2014 17:12:16 EST Depression or Circumstance Hello, <BR> <BR> I have been treated for depression twice and both times was put on meds which I only took for about a week and stopped because I did not like the tired feeling. Also, I am not even sure that it is depression. I have had a lot of challenges in my life and a lot of loss and family problems. So due to my circumstances I feel it is normal to be depressed. I do have hope for the future, I have never contemplated suicide and trying to not let family or other peoples troubles bo... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 14:02:51 EST New to this group! Hi, I'm Jennifer. I was an active member of sparkpeople years ago, and now I'm back not only for my physical health, but also my mental health. My depression has been eating away at my healthy habits, and I'm hoping to get some of those habits back! <BR> <BR> Nice to meet you! <em>213</em> Mon, 6 Oct 2014 23:44:18 EST New member Good morning! I just joined Spark today, have been contemplating for quite a while. I need to lose 50 pounds. Like many, I have tried WW, Biggest Loser, etc. I have been somewhat successful in the past, losing 15-20 pounds , then gaining that and then some back. I am at my all-time highest weight of 200 pounds, and I am in constant pain - either my knees hurt or my back hurts, or I have a headache. I am never not thinking about my being overweight, it haunts me constantly. I feel like a horri... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 22:49:03 EST sassypants1969 Hello, I joined sparks today. I am excited&#128548; Sun, 5 Oct 2014 17:28:37 EST Wanting my health back Hi there I am a 37 year old mom of two super kids. I live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world, namely Cape Town, South Africa. I have always been a slim person but after I had my kids my weight ballooned and I have recently been diagnosed as hypertensive. I want to get my health and energy levels back as well learning to feel better about myself. I look forward to meeting all the fellow spark people out there Sat, 4 Oct 2014 07:27:07 EST Medication and weight gain Is there anyone whose weight gain is caused by their medication. How do you deal with it? I exercise three times a day and my weight loss has stalled. I really need some help. I don't want to stop taking the meds because they are working. I guess you could say that I want to eat my cake and keep it too.Right now I am cutting out all the added sugar in my diet. Is there anything else that I can do? Fri, 3 Oct 2014 23:41:03 EST Just saying hi :-) My name is Tiffanie. I am horribly out of shape and horribly overweight ... I have been for a couple years now. I am wanting to lose quite a bit of weight and increase my fitness so I can start doing some of the things I enjoy again ... like riding my bike and running. Fri, 3 Oct 2014 20:27:41 EST Nice to meet you! New to this site. Giving it a try. I usually feel beyond help most days-sometimes there's a breakthrough but it doesn't seem to last. I exercise with Teresa Tapp (T-Tap) at home and I hate to go to the gym Thu, 2 Oct 2014 16:56:10 EST Nice to meet you! New to this site. Giving it a try. I usually feel beyond help most days-sometimes there's a breakthrough but it doesn't seem to last. I exercise with Teresa Tapp (T-Tap) at home and I hate to go to the gym Thu, 2 Oct 2014 16:56:10 EST Light Box for Depression I know light boxes are used for SAD, has anyone tried using one as an adjunct treatment for depression? If so do you feel it was effective? <em>87</em> Thu, 2 Oct 2014 12:11:02 EST Thanks for the support! Hi everyone I'm glad to have found sp I had a pretty good first day! <BR> Thu, 2 Oct 2014 00:39:39 EST Just wanted to say Hi!! I'm back on spark and the depression forum! I have my ups & downs and some days it seems like more downs then ups! One thing I have learned is I need to laugh in between my crying spells and that makes me feel much better! I have battled depression for years, 15 to be exact. I'm looking to make friends on here and also learn different skills that everyone uses to make life a little easier. I look forward to this journey Wed, 1 Oct 2014 14:22:31 EST Hello Hi my name is Tammy and I am new to the site. I am in need of loosing weight to get healthier and get weight off my joints. I have many health issues that involve Joints, nerves, and muscles. I have had many fusions and am in need of more and I want to avoid them if possible. I need all the help and support I can get. I have no will power so all the positive I can get will hopefully get me into the right direction. If you have any ideas on how to loose the weight or any recipes to help me ou... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 17:06:33 EST Hello Hi, I am new here. I was diagnosed with depression a while back and lately have been having lots of issues with medication management. I am hoping that as I lose weight and get healthier I will see a positive change in my moods so I am giving SparkPeople a shot. I do not have much support from family and friends so I need all the support that I can get. I am having trouble staying motivated so if anyone has any tips or advice I would greatly appreciate it. I am a counseling and developme... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 15:18:09 EST What kind of family is this??? A child molester molests about dozen of his nieces & nephews. He goes to prison for 15 months total. <BR> <BR> The grandmother (Mother of molester, grandmother to ALL the children) says, 'Well, the girls used to go to him.' <BR> <BR> Almost 30 years later the dad (brother of molester) tells one of his daughters that grandma said it. <BR> <BR> What do you think??? <BR> <BR> Tue, 30 Sep 2014 08:44:08 EST new to this I new to SparkPeople and very glad to see this team. Tue, 30 Sep 2014 08:29:00 EST new to depression forum - not new to depression I need some support. Had a bad week last week. I need some friends. I've had depression issues four about 45 years. It's getting hard again. I think I need a medication change and new friends. Mon, 29 Sep 2014 07:48:08 EST Do you think there is a thing as just LAZY???? I HATE that word, but sometimes I don't think I have any other excuse. Just lazy. Part of depression? A medical condition in & of itself? A state of being A person's TRUE self??? <BR> <BR> Mon, 29 Sep 2014 07:37:27 EST Hi I'm a newbie Hi I'm parkoursio, new to this site even though I joined over a year ago but I forgot about this site (terrible I know but I made a blog on my page which explains why I forgot but the short story is I suffered a head injury which has resulted in some slight brain damage, and my memory has been affected terribly, forget all sorts but I want to get better in everything I do and enjoy doing. <BR> If anyone wants to know more about me then just ask I will answer best I can. Sun, 28 Sep 2014 10:03:17 EST What are you reading? I picked up a book today: "Celebrate Your Self -- Enhancing Your Self-Esteem" by Dorothy Corkille Briggs. Looks like it might be a good pick...has anyone else read it yet? <BR> <BR> She also wrote "Embracing Life". Anyone have an opinion on that one? Sun, 28 Sep 2014 02:50:29 EST very blessed Hello my name is jovan im 28 trying to.lose 50 pounds in three weeks I will only be eating.fruit in drinking water in fasting no meat im gone a fruit in juice dite hope its safe Sun, 28 Sep 2014 02:33:42 EST Giving up After yet another time of trying to lose weight and having no luck, I've decided to delete my account here at SP and finally stop trying to lose weight. All that my attempts to lose weight have done is to make me feel like a failure, and I can't deal with that anymore. I just need to accept the fact that, whether it's karma or what, my lot in life is to be morbidly obese and homebound. <BR> <BR> I've tried making changes several times. The only change that's ever stuck was stopping smoking. ... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 17:16:41 EST Feeling discouraged. Today I feel sleepy, lazy, and I feel blah. I'm in some pain right now but it's not too bad. My day has consisted of eating and being plain o lazy. My energy level has been low this week it's just been one of those weeks. <em>24</em> <em>42</em> Fri, 26 Sep 2014 17:39:11 EST Welcome new members Here's a hearty welcome to all new members. Tomorrow, you won't be new anymore, but will be a valued member of this special group on their journey to a healthier, happier, person. You'll be sharing your thoughts and reaching out to other new members. You are among friends, here, and we will do whatever is necessary and possible to help you along through this adventure. Be prepared to learn, laugh, embrace new things and reinforce yourself for your own life experience and for how far you've co... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 19:39:07 EST New and dealing with depression Hi everyone. <BR> I'm new to spark and they put me in this group when I ticked off depression. I have been on antidepressants since November. It looks like I will be staying on them for a long time. There has been no indication of taking me off. I believe I suffer from chronic depression. Yay (sarcasm). <BR> Since going on them or around the same time as I went on them. I gained about 20 pounds. I can't seem to drop the weight. I have been doing interval inclines on my treadmill for about tw... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 15:15:50 EST New Team Member Hi! I'm Norma Jean. Stop taking depression medication 1 1/2 years ago after taking for over 15 years. I found exercise helped me to relieve much of my depression. I don't experience it on a daily basis, but need to work harder to relieve completely. <BR> <BR> I go by half the glass full or even 1/4 glass full if necessary!! Wed, 24 Sep 2014 14:58:39 EST Starting over yet again Hi all, Looking to start my weight loss journey yet again. I do much better when I use this site and focus on my eating habits. Hopefully if I start slowly and work my way into the lifestyle; I can stick with the program this time. <BR> Gosh darn life gets in the way sometimes! Wed, 24 Sep 2014 10:45:07 EST First Day Here Hi everyone! I am new here and I wanted to introduce myself.My name is Amanda and my doctor just diagnosed me with borderline depression.He isn't sure if I need meds for it or not.I really hope not but I will do whatever it takes to feel better again.I am looking for friends to support me to my goals and that I can encourage as well.I look forward to getting to know you all better. Wed, 24 Sep 2014 09:25:12 EST The Lady Mary <link><BR>WEETOO </link> <BR> <BR> Has anyone heard from Mary? Please leave her a message or goodie to let her know she is missed. Wed, 24 Sep 2014 09:10:45 EST New to spark people. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Hi, I am a chronic obese woman, I have been obese all of my adult years and chronically overweight during my teenage years. Dealing with my weight issues is very depressing. I suffer medically and mentally with my weight issues. My medical issues include: hypothyroidism, sleep apnea, hypertension, high triglyceride's, back and knee pains, And of course I have depression. I have gotten to the point where I am just tired of it. I need to lose this weight if not just for ... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 01:51:50 EST Not completely depressed. Hello my name is Chantel, I am sometimes quite sad, but I guess I am not depressed. I hope that's o.k. I am feeling better now, but sometimes lifes problems get me down. When I feel real bad I say lots of prayers and that helps. <BR> <BR> I know that we can all do this and that we can help each other. Just don't give up people it can and will happen as long as we stick with it and do are part to get healthy. <BR> <BR> O.k. this is an introduction, so here is a little about me I am a wife ... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 18:29:57 EST What were your first few weeks like... ...on SP, on diet/lifestyle change? <BR> <BR> I'm one week in, daily workouts, limited calories, no beer all at once. Just feel blah - going through the motions to get the job done despite lack of motivation. Doesn't it take three weeks to pick up new habits? Mon, 22 Sep 2014 23:15:48 EST Hello Hi, so excited to start this journey! I am a 48 year old, mother of 2. Mon, 22 Sep 2014 10:48:57 EST Hello Hi, so excited to start this journey! I am a 48 year old, mother of 2. Mon, 22 Sep 2014 10:48:53 EST Hello I joined Sparkpeople to lose weight and to help fight health problems.My depression comes from fighting these physical problems and when depressed I head to the's an endless cycle I hope to break! Mon, 22 Sep 2014 08:01:15 EST Hello, everyone Hi, everyone. I'm here because I found myself doing great things in my life - but all for the sake of other people. I have been overweight for about 12 years now, and I finally decided that this is something I can change for the sake and benefit of me - no one else. This is my first day, but I am hoping I can commit and stay with it even though the idea of putting myself first in some way is scary. In a way, I have tried to control the life of my friends and family by doing things for their b... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 21:36:10 EST Thanks everybody for a warm welcome Thank you so much for words of encouragement and for just being who you all are. <BR> <BR> I've been dealing with navigating this site, even tho I'm not new to it. Getting support from Spark support when I decided to change my username this week and lost all the data from my history under the old username. Didn't realize that changing the username created a new acct. I want my history, points and tracking back! Waa-waa-waa! <BR> <BR> I wish for all my Team Members, joy and contentment in ... Sat, 20 Sep 2014 16:43:50 EST Beth Mae I am older in body and weight and serious about feeling better by losing weight and becoming more active. My. Daughter introduced me to Sparks a couple years ago. I liked it but did not commit myself to this program. Day 1-made my daily menu, going shopping for the right foods and will then find some exercise I can do. Sat, 20 Sep 2014 12:32:15 EST Trying to heal from the inside out I have been on sparkpeople for 4 years.. and have not managed to lose the weight. I know that I have bigger issues at hand here. that need to be dealt with. I am looking for support in my journey to self acceptance. I tried losing weight alone.. now I feel like I need to find people who may be able to help me deal with my emotions.. because I have no support at home. Fri, 19 Sep 2014 15:53:38 EST New to Spark People I am new to spark people. I am an obese woman who is 41, with some health problems. Among my health problems are sleep apnea, high blood pressure, depression, Gerd, hypothyroidism, high cholesterol which all are being treated with medications. I have been on these medications for years and I have been told that if I lose weight I could get off most of these medications. I am tired. I am sick and tired of feeling and being like this. I want to lose this weight my problem is I get started t... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 23:08:27 EST Fighting against Bypass Surgery Last Option HI, Spark World! My heart is very heavy and full right now. I'm 44 5"6 296 pounds. My husband is overweight as well. I have had issues with chest pains and last check my cholesterol numbers didnt look good. My husband has diabetes and high blood pressure. He has been going to Gastric Bypass Meetings and is at the end of the rope trying anything else. <BR> <BR> I know this is a struggle for him. I love him so much and know how scary our situation is. He has been hiding this from me ... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 02:10:32 EST Hi, I'm new. Not sure I'm doing this right but this is my intro. lol. It's not so much that the scale hasn't moved in two months of working out and clean's that the scale hasn't moved in two months of working out and clean eating. But I know that a big-fat-warm-chocolate-chunk cookie from WAWA is not the answer. We just keep on keeping on because we know who we are inside, and we're worth it to eachother.....we are women, hear us roar!! Wed, 17 Sep 2014 14:53:10 EST Here we go! Scared to move more... Morning everyone! So, I think I am finally ready to throw myself into this journey. It's not only a physical challenge, but mental (emotional eating, etc.) I know the key to my success will be to move more and there is a rec center with awesome classes (ZUMBA, Yoga, Water Aerobics) down the street from me. I'm nervous to start. Were you nervous to start? Wed, 17 Sep 2014 07:52:59 EST Child ABUSE! I am sure if you watch the news you have seen the stories of the NFL's star accused of child abuse. If the pictures I saw are truly of his son, IT IS ABUSE!!! <BR> <BR> It doesn't matter how you were raised. It doesn't matter your intent. It doesn't matter if you meant to....If you make your child bleed by hitting him with a stick it IS child abuse. Hell, if you hit your kid with a stick. <BR> <BR> I am tired of our country's response of "He didn't know better"! I call BS! You know it... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 06:05:59 EST Chapter 2 and My New Normal Hi <BR> I am 39 years old and have been dealing with depression for awhile now. My husband of 17 years took his life in March of 2013 (PTSD and the Military) and I feel as though I have lost my spark for life. I have gained 20 pounds ( I used to be a dance instructor) and I just feel fat. My goals are to lose 15 lbs, find my passion for llife and the things I used to love, find new things to love and get the heck out of this funk I have been in for the past 18 months. Glad to have the sup... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 11:48:10 EST Lone Star My name is Felicia. I am dealing with a serious health crisis with my boyfriend. He has cancer and it's returned and I have not been exercising nor eating the way I should have for the last 4 weeks. I need your help to get back on track and most of all to stay fit,focused, and to find me again. :(:( Tue, 16 Sep 2014 11:34:44 EST HELP!! I'm taking Medrol because Ive been breaking out in hives and we can't figure out why. They are making me extra extra hungry. Ive been trying to eat balanced meals but I ended up binging on pizza and my stomach is still growling. I dont want to mess up my diet but its making it hard to concentrate on anything else. What do I do? Mon, 15 Sep 2014 17:19:08 EST Hello! I'm trying to lose 57 pounds and just started on here. I'm a southern lady! Wife, mom and grandma. I'm trying to be more social as I'm alone a lot! Happy to be here!! :-) Mon, 15 Sep 2014 15:09:12 EST Self-Harm Do you do it? Have you ever? How were you able to stop? Have you had different levels of it? <BR> <BR> I think this is a subject to explore because I'm not sure many people understand the difference between self-harm & trying to commit suicide. <BR> <BR> I'm an EX cutter. I haven't cut since 1999. Most of my cutting was done when I was drinking. I got sober initially 10/13/1999. I cut one last time about a week into my sobriety. God it hurt! <BR> <BR> I relapsed alcoholically & got... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 10:45:41 EST Newby I am pretty new to sparkpeople. I enjoy swimming, volleyball, and horseback riding. My biggest struggle with weight loss is eating healthy. I'm young and dont buy most of my groceries so I'm having to learn to just use what we have available in the house. But I have made a lot of progress and am looking forward to having support from this group. Sun, 14 Sep 2014 09:23:10 EST Suicide Prevention Week . <link><BR>rFoundation/photos/pcb.101504354492999<BR>84/10150435449129984/?type=1&theater </link> Sat, 13 Sep 2014 10:15:17 EST My name is Valerie and I am new to this team Hi everyone , I started this week and am just starting to post on my new teams. I am married and have 4 sons. I have had depression for quite some time and take meds to help. I am happy to start something positive and know losing weight will help me feel better about myself. Wed, 10 Sep 2014 23:52:00 EST Good deed for the day I happened to be on the bus on my way home today when a gal sitting near me asked if I had a phone. I apologized to her and said that my phone had limited minutes. Another gal got on sitting next to me. Again this gal asked if she could use this young gal's phone. She made a phone call and I caught bits n pieces of it. The gist was she was kicked out of where she was staying last night and had no where to go. I overheard her say she would call whomever she was talking to again in 15 minu... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 19:18:56 EST Fear of happiness Has anyone else had a therapist tell them they might have a fear of happiness? I've been told this a few times, and I suppose that could be true. "Depressed" has been a big part of my identity since childhood. If you're in the same situation, what do you do to accept and overcome the fear? Wed, 10 Sep 2014 15:26:59 EST Hi, I'm Benji from NC I'm new to Sparkpeople, but not new to the tracking thing. I am active on MFP, too, but discovered Sparkpeople and when I saw all the features it has.. I figured I'd try it. So far, I am loving the features. But that's not why I'm in this team. So, onto that. <BR> <BR> I was diagnosed with depression when I was a teenager. I think I was 12 the first time I spoke to a therapist, and 13 when I received the diagnosis. I don't know what it was. As a minor, they could not tell me specifically, an... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 23:52:40 EST Hi - new to this/Dysthymic Disorder Hello all, <BR> <BR> I've been diagnosed for 20 or so years with clinical depression or major depression. Just noticed on an EOB statement from my insurance company he has it as dysthymic disorder. Kinda freaked me out a bit. Looking it up sound like a minor version of bi-polar. <BR> <BR> OK functioning OK on meds I guess...though I drink beer and had several marghartas. That wasted most of my day catching up on sleep Sun, 7 Sep 2014 22:53:01 EST Hi! I am Linda from Texas I am glad to be joining this team. I need a source of support. Sun, 7 Sep 2014 11:07:21 EST Calming I read a blog today that had a link to this article. I thought it was worth sharing. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>se-borchard-sanity-break/5-steps-to-fi<BR>nd-calm-an-interview-with-robert-j-wic<BR>ks/?pos=1&xid=nl_EverydayHealthWomensH<BR>ealth_20140904 </link> Sat, 6 Sep 2014 15:42:19 EST Hihi! I'm horrible at starting introduction posts, I always seem so awkward. <BR> Anywho.. <BR> I'm new(ish... used this site a few times in the past). 28, two kids, suffer from a multitude of different 'fun things'. I really need to kick my butt into gear, as I've reached the heaviest I've been in about 4 years, and close to being the heaviest ever. I don't want to reach that point. I have a multitude of things working against me, only one of which is my mental state, so I have to try to stay moti... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 13:50:05 EST weight loss hi my name is Rebecca I'm 34 years of age and I weigh 333lbs and my doctor wants med to get weight loss surgery but I want to do it myself.I need help to get motivated any suggestions please let me know what you think Fri, 5 Sep 2014 01:16:38 EST loosing weight isnt easy Hi my name is shanice branche I am new here and I would be very glad if I can find a few friends on here from Louisiana that could want to take walks and could help each other grow and loose the weight that we want to loose and to have someone you could talk to about your weight situation and not fill embarrassed while you loose weight together Thu, 4 Sep 2014 20:46:02 EST New -- I am NEW to Spark People, NEW to college, NEW to unemployment, and a NEW motorcycle driver. I am a little over 50, a little over weight, and a little over whelmed with this new phase in my life. Oh and I deal with depression and anxiety, which is under control with medicine. I am married (lost my job on our 24th wedding anniversary, why not?!), a mother to five adults, and grandmother to three wonderful kids! <BR> Thu, 4 Sep 2014 14:49:49 EST My Gift of Bipolar! I am thankful for being Bipolar. So many people consider 'mental illness' to be bad, but I do not. Bipolar is not good or bad. It just is. <BR> <BR> Because I am Bipolar I am more empathetic and sympathetic. I have so much forgiveness and love in my heart. <BR> <BR> The only regret I have about Bipolar is the way 'normal' people perceive it. The Media has done such a disservice to me and my gift of Bipolar. That's right! I consider Bipolar a gift. It is not an illness or a disorder. I a... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 06:08:00 EST Losing Weight on Meds - Success A couple of years ago I posted in this board about my battle with weight gain while on anti-Depressents (started on Cymbalta, was switched to Pristiq, had horrible side effects with both...including a 20 pound weight gain that happened suddenly). Nothing seemed to work, not rigorous tracking, not huge amounts of exercise (I went to a WW meeting where the scale had gone up yet again, and the assistant tut-tutted and suggsted I go for a wee 10 minute walk from time to time to help lose - I look... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 22:39:49 EST Did everyone read SparkGuy's email? I just did and I'm all for giving this a good try. Exercise is not something that comes easy for me. Perhaps this is the ticket for me. <BR> <BR> What are everyone else's thoughts about this? <BR> <BR> <BR> Lin :-) Wed, 3 Sep 2014 21:39:04 EST Weight Loss Journey Hello my name is Terri Spencer. I need to loose around 53 pounds. I weigh 173 and want to get down to 120. I've been this weight for the past few years. I've only been on this site the past couple of days and from what I've seen it looks like it will be really helpful and very supportive! Some of my interests are needle work such as counted cross stitch and quilting (by hand), art work such as painting and doing origami and reading Christian books as well as watching Christian movies. I... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 15:49:37 EST Really Nervous! Hi I am 25, my weight has been going up and down since I was teenager. I was diagnosed at 4 with polyaryicular juvenile rheumatoid arthritis and when I was 13 I was put on prednisone and that's when I started putting on weight. I had a baby 10 months ago and was at my highest 289, I am currently down to 265 and I am stuck. I can't bring myself to get up and go in the morning. And eating healthy has always been a challenge for me. I don't know where to begin with motivating myself, sorry for t... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 14:26:06 EST New here Hi, I'm new here. I'm the divorced mother of 2. I loved my job working for the hometown paper when it suddenly shut down July 30. I am now unemployed, up to my neck in bills I can't pay and extremely depressed. I'm bipolar anyway, so just the added stress of losing a job I loved has sent me into a tailspin of depression I can't seem to come out of.... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 14:00:07 EST Hi Everyone! Since I've started responding to other people's messages introducing themselves, I really should do my own. <BR> <BR> I'm Ann. I'm 52 and live in Fredericksburg, VA. Perimenopause got really bad in 2009, I lost my full-time job in 2010... and things have sort of gone from there. I moved back to the east coast (grew up in PA, moved to Seattle in 1994, lived mostly there with some time in other places) in 2012 to try to get back to work since I was out of options. My family (mostly my sisters... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 12:38:56 EST I'm New Hi- My name is Mesha. I'm new to sparkpeople. I'm currently in nursing school in an accelerated program. I work fulltime, and a single mother. My stress level has gone from 15-10000 fast. I find that since this has happen I"ve turned to food to help me cop with my stress, and feeling alone. <BR> Since I've done this I've seen my weight increase, and my self esteem decrease. Wed, 3 Sep 2014 11:28:15 EST Scientist say less sugar Just read the paper and it now says some fat is good but sugar is bad for your heart! They say Adkins had the right idea but we still need to watch saturated fats. Sugar and even low Carb diets are being frowned on. So a diet with A few fruits in small amounts in the morning and vegetables and meat for the rest of the day. 2 oz. of oatmeal also allowed. Tue, 2 Sep 2014 15:30:04 EST Just started Any positive motivation would be appreciated....started and failed too many times!!! I want to start and succeed !!! Thank you in advanced Sun, 31 Aug 2014 12:04:13 EST Major depressive episode-need a pick me up I lost my job a year ago and although have been constantly looking, I'm not finding anything at all. Nothing!! I'm frustrated, broke, depressed and wondering if I'm ever going to get out of this hole and then today my husband (who is normally supportive) starts a fight with me about how I'm not working, not helping around the house since I have all this extra time and he's feeling alone and taken advantage of. He doesn't understand depression really as he's always been able to shake things of... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 20:20:58 EST When work feeds your poor moods How do you all deal with a poor working environment, difficult coworkers, etc. when they are impacting your ability to feel less depressed and/or anxious? I've been submitting applications and resumes to other companies, but until I have another job offer, I can't afford to leave the job I have. I'm on the waiting list for therapy with an in-network provider. I eat regular meals, avoid caffeine, take a couple breaks during the day, but I'm not feeling much better. Is there more I could be doi... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 13:24:32 EST new to this team, but glad to here. Hello All. <BR> I am not sure where to begin. I've been fighting this probably since my pre-teens. I always remember being worried about things and very shy. I had a period of time a few years ago that I got so depressed that I had to get help because I just couldn't go on with life. Then I was able to address the stress and learn to deal with it better while I was in college. Then 2 years ago I got married (big stressor, right?) and then less than a year later we sold our mobile home and bou... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 16:07:02 EST new here hi. I am new to this team. I need some friends here. I never imagined that my life would take this turn but then I guess none of us do. I am struggling right now and hoping that if I get things moving again I can move beyond all this. Tue, 26 Aug 2014 21:14:26 EST HELLO, My name is Lottie I am a 47 year old Mim-ma of a 3 yr old beautiful granddaughter, and a mother of 25 yr old daughter, I really need support, so hopefully I will get it here on this site. I am moving back to Texas soon, sometime in October or soon after, I would love to lose quite a bit of weight, I want to be a "SEXY Mim-Ma" hehe..seriously, I DO. I want my fiance to be proud to be with me ( he is, but I want him to be OVERLY PROUD. ) <BR> Tue, 26 Aug 2014 20:40:32 EST Natural Medicine Hehehe.... Saw this on facebook. I love the Survival Watch page. This is how I feel about medication- <BR> <BR> "The person who takes medicine must recover twice- once from the disease, and once from the medicine." -William Osler, M.D. <BR> <link><BR>ching </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> That being said- what natural remedies or medicinal herbs do you/have you used to treat anxiety or depression? <BR> <BR> -I recently read that two handfuls of cashews is the... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 16:19:14 EST Just joined, glad I found this team! Hi all, my name's Rachel. I just rejoined SparkPeople today, thought it might be a good opportunity to meet some new like-minded people. Looks like I came to the right place! <BR> <BR> Fitness, to me, isn't about losing weight. It seldom ever has been as far as my goals go. (Better body image is a nice benefit though!) I was 12 or 13 years old when I discovered that if I was angry, depressed, or anxious, just a quick run in the woods would soothe my troubled mind. It's always put me in a be... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 12:59:18 EST "Secrets of Success" feature to be eliminated Did you even remember the feature? Neither did I, although I had entered several way back. <BR> <BR> The actual date of deletion hasn't been determined. <BR> <BR> ***This is your chance to copy any "secrets" you may have entered that you wish to keep.*** <BR> <BR> SP will scrap the feature as it had become heavily repetitious with useful and especially useless things and has been little visited for quite a while. <BR> <BR> You can access the full store of Secrets of Success under the Com... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 15:06:53 EST I'm Bipolar! 1. I once set a woman's hair on fire! <BR> 2. I once pushed a man down the stairs while screaming at him! <BR> 3. I once kidnapped a kid to upset an entire town! <BR> 4. I once snatched a woman bald! <BR> 5. I once ran a man off the road in a fit of road rage! <BR> 6. I once streaked through my neighborhood! <BR> 7. I once chased a clown through the park kicking him on his behind! <BR> <BR> 1. I mean I once saw a lady wearing a unnatural shade of red hair. <BR> 2. I mean I once saw a man fal... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 12:49:27 EST Bipolar is not the same as Borderline Personality People often get these confused. While some symptoms can be similar & often people are dual diagnosed, they are not the same mental illness. <BR> <BR> <BR> Borderline Personality Disorder <link><BR>contentManagement/contentDisplay.cfm&c<BR>ontentID=23040 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Bipolar Disorder <link><BR>contentManagement/contentDisplay.cfm&c<BR>ontentID=130753 </link> Fri, 22 Aug 2014 08:56:04 EST Building a Better Me Well, here goes nothing. <BR> <BR> The name's Ro, well Rowena but everyone calls me Ro. I'm 19, turning 20 in October and to be honest I was in denial about my depression for quite a long time. Always passing it off as me just being stupid, but then with the help of my trusty therapist and a lot of talking I began to realize that this is a serious thing happening to me and that paired with my already high stress and anxiety levels, leaving it unchecked would be very bad. Add that onto low se... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 16:28:42 EST HAVING A BAD WEEK Guess I just need to vent, I'm sure I'm not the only one having a bad week. Mine seems to come out of nowhere. Does anyone else go through this? I felt pretty good the past 3 or 4 weeks. I didn't miss any work. My depression seemed in check. And then, BAM, it hits me out of nowhere. I called in sick Tues & Wed because of it. I don't feel any better today maybe even worse, but don't want to get in trouble, so I'm forcing myself to go to work. <BR> Thanks for listening. Thu, 21 Aug 2014 11:24:49 EST hello from MT, ready to be successful! I have been exploring salespeople for a week now, I love the different short workouts they offer daily!! Just getting started so even these are a great challenge! I of course want to lose weight, but my main goal is to just become a healthier person, be more active so that I can enjoy what life brings my way! Nice to find a place where people are dealing with the same issues and offer encouragement along the way!! Thu, 21 Aug 2014 10:20:15 EST Bipolar is not the same: Schizo Affective Disorder <link><BR>One-Sherry-Goes-Sane-What-is-Schizo-Af<BR>fective-Disorder.aspx </link> <BR> <BR> Here's a full definition: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>_Illness&Template=/ContentManagement/C<BR>ontentDisplay.cfm&ContentID=23043 </link> Thu, 21 Aug 2014 09:20:46 EST Autumn is Coming. :( <em>24</em> <BR> Anyone else start getting depressed, anxious, fatigued, etc around the fall season? As much as I love autumn, I've noticed it hits me pretty hard. I know it's only August, but it's felt like fall already. The weather isn't hot, and summery, migratory birds are moving in ways they do in late September, even some branches are turning yellow. I'm anxious already just noticing these changes, and knowing what's coming. I'm going to a wedding in October in Florida, and I don't k... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 11:04:22 EST Time to Change for the Last Time Hello, <BR> <BR> I am to young and smart to have my body hold me back like I allow it to. Maybe it is age or depression has set in, but usually in the past I have always found motivation to get fit, I was in the Marine Corp! Yet these days, I feel like I have let myself get so gross that I can not see the light. All my attempts this last year have failed miserably and I need support. The one thing that I know I had in the past and have lacked this last year. I want this pity and this 35 lbs ... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 15:29:08 EST Hi Y'all Hi Y'all i' am from Oklahoma City and have found out that my doctor wants to put me on Insulin shots but I prefer to get health and get off all my meds that are not necessary. Today I will be going to a new gym to try a different water fitness program and I' am excited. Well I hope all have a great and blessed day today. bye for now Tue, 19 Aug 2014 08:56:31 EST hello i am new Hi my name is Helen. I live in Australia, Queensland. I am a stay at home mum at the moment. I have 4 children and a husband who works away alot on the rigs. I have suffered depression for years. Currently on antidepressants. I quit smoking a year ago last month. And lost my Dad in September last year. So coming up to the first anniversary. He was everything to me. So i have lost my way and started to emotional eat. I put on 30 kgs. Never been this heavy even when i was pregnant. I seem to lo... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 07:16:52 EST How much did the STIGMA hurt Robin Williams???? This is a very interesting article. It makes me sad. <link><BR>-much-did-stigma-mental-illness-harm-r<BR>obin-williams </link> Mon, 18 Aug 2014 13:02:12 EST Intro to me Hi everyone, I am new to using Spark people as of July. Never really used the forums before, and had skimmed the pages a couple of years ago to get nutrition information. <BR> Anyway, 46, work full time and mom of 2, 1 still at home. I have a complex or something about fitting in exercise without feeling guilty. <BR> I am looking forward to being more active, because I know I <em>41</em> will feel better, and look better too. <BR> I will be checking in, but not every day. Hi everyone & t... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 16:36:52 EST Here goes nothing Hi I'm new to all this got a health scare and well here I am looking to loose 120lbs by next Oct. Here's hoping. I have a 11 year old daughter and she is my life. I'm doing this for the both of us. I need all the help i can get! Sun, 17 Aug 2014 13:38:30 EST Been off my diet For some weeks now I have not been following my diet and up till last week I have not lost or put on any weight(I weigh myself on a Monday in Boots), I must get back on my diet otherwise I will be putting on all that I have lost over the last few years. <BR> I do no what is causing my problem and it is a biggie STRESS which makes me pick at food in the evening, I know I don't need it but cannot stop myself and any advice would be welcome. <BR> I also find the evenings very and apart from Tu... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 13:13:29 EST Shamageddon is gettin to Shreddin'! Just signed up a couple of days ago. Not sure what I am doing yet, but I will get there. It's nice to be here. Sun, 17 Aug 2014 02:22:15 EST Rania2006 Hi My name is Rania and I just joined yesterday 16 August 2014 and im not sure where to start. Please advise how many times a day I should eat and what I can have for breakfast lunch dinner and snacks and how many hours apart I should space my food. Im really desperate to loose weight. Sun, 17 Aug 2014 01:46:13 EST I REALLY NEED TO DO THIS BUT AM SCARED Hello - I am a 'slightly older' lady who has let herself go due to ill health and need some support please!!!! I am also willing to give support to anyone else who needs it. This is my first visit to any site like this and really don't know what to do or say. Please help!!! <BR> <BR> Thank you Sat, 16 Aug 2014 17:18:20 EST HI! HI I am new name is Amber! Sat, 16 Aug 2014 02:55:11 EST After weight loss.Now i need toning. Hey,my name is Allison from the great state of Georgia. <BR> In the past 3 years i have lost 120 pounds of mostly unprovoked weight loss and now need toning badly. <BR> I started drinking water and pacing around the house due to depression and severe anxiety 3 years ago and dropped 30 lbs in the first year,70 lbs in the second and 20 lbs this year so far. <BR> The weight loss has mainly affected my upper inner arms and the inside of my thighs. <BR> <BR> I would really appreciate some tips an... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 08:42:15 EST My name is Chrystal and I am new here I just cant shake this depression. Ive had it since a preteen. Which has caused every relationship to fail in my life. I have tried many depression meds. never works. <BR> I have struggled with my weight for a long time. Maybe 13 years or so. I am sick of being depressed and I am sick of being over weight. Hopefully I will be able to get the help I need here! <BR> I have 2 children that I hide my depression from. Thu, 14 Aug 2014 18:23:36 EST Do you 'feel' different??? I have been having kind of a crisis of faith (so to speak) as to my Gift of Bipolar. <BR> <BR> I've been having major issues with my 'older kids' grandsons' parents. It's been an ongoing thing since the beginning of my relationship with my son's dad, but it REALLY blew up on Tuesday. <BR> <BR> Robin Williams death has been absolutely devastating for me. It's like I lost a family member. I cry almost every time I think of him. (I had an uncle commit suicide when I was a kid.) <BR> <... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 10:03:48 EST Robin Williams Suicide Robin Williams was Bipolar. He had resources for the best medical care in the country, but unfortunately decided for whatever reason that he couldn't fight anymore. Please don't make that decision!!! There is help. I PROMISE! <link> </link> Tue, 12 Aug 2014 08:57:17 EST Greetings Hello Team, <BR> I'm Ashlyn and I am drastically overweight and just trying to regain my life and my happiness. :D <BR> I have a 9 month old daughter and am a sophomore in college (psych major!). My life is starting and it's about time something changed and I accept the person I know is inside. Mon, 11 Aug 2014 22:40:26 EST I am really down <em>24</em> Mon, 11 Aug 2014 15:52:21 EST lajh1973 Hi I'm new to the spark people program. Say that 3 times in a row. I live in Licking County and hope to lose a big whooping 80 pounds. I know it will take time, patience, determination and help from all of you. I've been told that I worry and take care of everyone else. Now that I'll be turning the big 60 in March, I should take care of myself. So can I lose the weight this time? Yes! Yes! Yes! With some help from all of you. Sun, 10 Aug 2014 18:46:46 EST ready for change 54 year old mother of 3, found myself weighing the most I've ever weighed. Decided not to do another ''quick weight loss program", as I really need to learn how to make wise choices consistently. Love this web site and the positive manner it portrays. Looking forward to meeting others and walking this road with them Sat, 9 Aug 2014 23:28:42 EST Calling off of Work Thankfully this only happens 2-3 times a year now, but I was wondering how other people handle calling off work when they are too depressed to go. I hate lying to my boss, but I don't feel like I can call and say that I'm too depressed to come to work so I just make something up. Fri, 8 Aug 2014 11:30:09 EST jokes Farmer Joe decided his injuries from his recent accident were serious enough to take the trucking company responsible for the accident to court. In court, the trucking company's fancy lawyer was questioning farmer Joe. <BR> "Didn't you say, at the scene of the accident, that you were fine?" <BR> ''Well, I'll tell you what happened. I had just loaded my favorite mule Bessie into the--" <BR> ''I didn't ask for any details,'' the lawyer interrupted. ''Just answer the question. Did you not say... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 19:06:51 EST kymimi74 I am so excited to start this journey! Thu, 7 Aug 2014 14:14:01 EST TRYING TO BE HAPPY HI ALL, I AM NEW AND TRYING TO FIGURE THIS LIFE OUT. I AM VERY BLESSED BY GOD, AND HAVE A GREAT HUSBAND, THREE CHILDREN, WHO MAY LOVE ME , AM NOT SURE. AS I SAID MY BLESSINGS ARE AWSOME BUT I STILL HAVE THIS BLACK CLOUD OVER MY HEAD MOST OF THE TIME. I DO TAKE AN ANTIDEPRESSANT, AND QUIT TAKING THEM BECAUSE I THOUGHT THEY WERE NOT HELPING. NEEDLESS TO SAY, I FOUND OUT THAT WITHOUT THEM ALL I WANT TO DO IS CRY, SO I AM ON THE AGAIN. WISH I KNEW WHY I AM LIKE THIS. I DO HAVE A GREAT LOVE... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 08:04:05 EST Help and hello! Hi guys I'm Lauren and I'm 22 years old. I've been battling depression, anxiety and a slight mood disorder for almost 2 years. I forgot how to love myself and be happy. It caused me to withdraw from my university and move back home. I'm trying to get back in school but it's overwhelming. I've gained 50 lbs in 2 months due to medication and I've been struggling to get back on track. I'm sure we have all lost friends or loved ones due to this illness, I know I have. You learn to be your own bes... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 03:02:19 EST Determined I am tired of procrastination. I am determined to become more healthy, I have 36 pounds to lose and want to do it by December 31, 2014. I have tried over and over again but have not been successful. Last summer I was down 20 pounds using the atkins diet but quickly regained the weight. High protein diets work for me but I am don't really like eggs or meat. I would love to be a vegetarian, but it seems that the vegetarian way of life doesn't work for me. I am thinking that I might go on t... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 00:08:33 EST Married to an alcoholic plus depression any others Hi not only am i still new here I've decided to reach out a little..I have suffered from depression for quite the while, plus PTSD (not military related). I only add that bc I have had people question how I can have PTSD and not be military...not gonna go into the reasons right now. anyhow my husband is an active alcoholic and starting to suffer the consequence of his disease health wise. Yes i kno about al anon etc...I just wanted to see if there are any others in our group dealing with th... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 19:03:27 EST New to the program! Hope it works! My major weight gain came after my thyroid was totally removed, I moved and started a new job. All that resulted in a 25 pound weight gain in 4 months. Ugh. I've never had an issue with being overweight until now. I will be 60 this October and would love to loose those stubborn pounds before the 31st of October. Any helpful suggestions will be greatly appreciated! Thanks so much! Fri, 1 Aug 2014 21:18:47 EST Sleepy, unmotivated and just blah. So, here's my story: <BR> In December, I had a massive panic attack, and attempted suicide. I was so busy with work, school, taking care of the home and was just overly stressed out that I just lost it. I had to quit my job, and didn't work for six months. I was utterly depressed and lazy. I finally made a bit of a turnaround when I got into this hobby that made me happy, but considering I was not making any money on my own, leaving my fiance to pay all the bills, there was no way to support ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 14:41:38 EST try to make it to 90 my name is Terrence I'm 49 years old married with kids ,we all need to get in shape but im doing this for me ,and hopefully ill inspire my family to do better, but for now im going to do me. Thu, 31 Jul 2014 00:01:13 EST Speed up metabolism by doing one simple thing Does anybody else do this? would love to hear your tricks to get moving! <BR> <BR> I often get thru depression lethargy by taking the first step--for instance, many times I do not want to take my bath. (Depressives are famous for this!) So I just walk in the bathroom and turn on the water to fill the tub. Then I sit down til it is full. Then all I have to do is drop my clothes off and sit down in the water. Then it is easy to wash. Washing speeds up my metabolism and I can do the rest, get... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 21:04:31 EST In a Funk I started a program at the beginning of July and thought I would see results by now, as I was cleaning out my closet this morning I found a pair of pants which I was going to wear to work, They were a size 14, Thinking that they would be loose on me since I was wearing a size 12 a couple of months ago I couldn't even button them. I then put on my old faithful tent dress and came to work only to have a friend of mine say "Goodness woman! Your a business owner do something with yourself." Now ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 18:25:55 EST