SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Welcome! This is a space for anyone dealing with depression to support each other as we eat right, exercise, lose weight, and find ways to manage our depression. SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Lack of Motivation How do people get motivated? For me exercise has never been "fun", which makes it even harder for me to do. I don't see the results, and honestly if I can't see results, then what's the point? My weight was never a huge issue until the military starting pounding into me that I'm fat. I'm a 28 y/o 5 foot 4.5 inch white female who weighs 195 pounds. Last year I got down to 191 before plateauing. I want to go back to a place were I liked my body. <BR> <BR> Oh and I've had two ankle reconstruct... Mon, 19 Mar 2018 17:56:09 EST New Hello, I'm new to the team. I just joined Sparkpeople to see if this can help me get up the motivation to exercise. I stated in on my page, that I am a member of the military and need to lose 4% body fat to be in compliance with regulations. In order to do this, I am hoping that dropping 20 pounds will be good. I have weigh the "max allowable" weight of 154 before, and I do not feel that I looked healthy. So I am going for the 20 pounds and hoping for the best. <BR> <BR> I've been dealing wi... Mon, 19 Mar 2018 17:45:54 EST Trying again Hey everyone! <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> I've been trying to deal with my weight for the last 13/14 years. I've suffered from depression for gosh, almost 20 years now. I was always categorized with Bi-polar, but I don't show characteristics according to my psych. Over the last 9 months I have gotten a team together to help me treat my mental health. We've come to the conclusion that I suffer from Depression, anxiety, ptsd and mood disorder. I'm also seeing a counselor every week to learn t... Fri, 16 Mar 2018 17:45:20 EST Suicidal thoughts I am in my 40s but am still living with my parents. The same with my younger brother. He is in his 40s too. I am still living here bcoz I am on dialysis and can't afford to move out. <BR> <BR> Even though my brother is so old, he still thinks and behaves like a child. He is still stuck in a 'I'm better/smarter than you' cycle, even though I stopped all that childishness decades ago. He is always getting me into trouble with my parents while he gets away with everything, even when he was the ... Wed, 14 Mar 2018 05:38:06 EST Hello from Malaysia!!!! Hi! I'm Elaine from Malaysia. I have bipolar. which is sorta like depression except I go up and down, not just down. <BR> <BR> I also have SLE, which resulted in kidney failure. I have been on dialysis for 13+ years. The dietary and fluid restrictions suck but what can I do? I have no choice but to limit fluids, potassium, phosphate, sodium and protein! <BR> <BR> Right now, life is good but I need to start saving money, coz you never know what will happen in the future! Mon, 12 Mar 2018 03:05:46 EST Fun Quiz I posted this in 2012. We have so many new members, I thought I would post it again. <BR> <BR> This was posted on another team I am on. Don't cheat. Write your answers on a piece of paper and when done, scroll down to get your horoscope. <BR> <BR> <BR> Fun Quiz! <BR> <BR> <BR> This is a Chinese Feng Shui horoscope. <BR> If you are honest this tells the truth. <BR> Write your answers on paper. <BR> To find your Feng Shui horoscope scroll down. <BR> <BR> 1. Which is your favourite ... Tue, 27 Feb 2018 13:30:31 EST Starting Anew I've been aware of SP for several years now, but just never 'got it' before. This time is definitely different. Without going in to details, I recently lost a toe to diabetes. I have pledged never to lose another part of my anatomy to that dreadful disease. I have come back here to use the tools that SP offers, to lose the weight and get fit. It will take awhile, I have over 100 lbs to lose. We'll become good friends! <BR> <BR> I'm a California girl now living in Nottingham, England. I... Sun, 25 Feb 2018 10:19:22 EST New Member Angela G. Hatchett Hi, Just getting started today. I've already lost 29 lbs. over the past year, but I still have 33 more lbs to go. I have a lot of health issues, including Chronic Kidney Disease (CKD) Stage 3b) and Spark People was recommended to me by someone in my support group. I think this is just what I need to keep tract of my diet. Fri, 23 Feb 2018 11:15:15 EST Spinal Reconstructive Surgery, so overweight I am in need of some kind of emotional support. I am in month 6 ( really 8 since my first surgery). I gained 20 lbs my first surgery in June of 2017 and an additional 20 lbs after my second surgery in August. I have rods from T6-L3. I stay completely exhausted all of the time and am in peri-menopause. I ate great for 2 months to try and take some weight off but I only lost 5 lbs in two months. I?m so frustrated, I feel like I?m in a Catch 22 where, I have to spend all day in my back bra... Fri, 23 Feb 2018 10:48:55 EST New to the group My world as i have known it has ended, I put on so much weight when both of my mothers died with in a year of each other . Tuesday i found my daddy laying on the floor dead. My daughter thinks i should just snap out of this mood and go on . yeah right . i just want to dig a hole and hide from the world. Fri, 23 Feb 2018 08:10:58 EST Asking for help. I booked a doctors appointment today, to finally speak with him about my depression, and asking for a referral. But talking to him about it means actually saying out loud whats wrong with me, I've never done that before. <BR> <BR> Anyone have any tips on how to get the courage to ask for help? Tue, 20 Feb 2018 11:49:19 EST New to Spark Hi my name is Julie. <BR> I am 27 years old and I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. I have never spoken to anyone about it, not family or friends or doctors/ psychologists. <BR> <BR> It has gotten really bad lately, I find it hard to get through the day. I hardly take care of my self, my personal hygiene is poor, and my eating habits are terrible. <BR> <BR> Trying to build up the courage to go to the support center at my school. But every time I try I chicken out, or tell... Sun, 18 Feb 2018 22:01:23 EST New blog! I’d like to be an active and supportive team member so, I wrote my first positive blog message! If anyone is interested, I figured out how to attach a link! Woohoo! <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6463808 </link> Fri, 16 Feb 2018 19:26:45 EST New.... again! Hey everyone! I used to be on here about 10 years ago as yankykitten, but I don’t remember any of my passwords from then. However, I’m just as motivated as I was then. I lost 45 pounds in 9 weeks (way sooner than my goal) just walking, lifting weights and eating healthfully. I’m hoping to lose that much again by August 10th, which is the time frame spark people gave me. I’ve had some ups and downs since then but I’m hoping to focus on the positive. Fri, 16 Feb 2018 15:14:25 EST Need a accountability partner Hello, my name is Shelly and i need some extra help and need a friend that will encourage me through this journey. Im kinda a shy person at first when you try to get to know me but I will eventually open up. I deal with a lot of social anxiety and deal with depression on a daily basis. I am currently 160lbs and would like to get down to 125lb. Message me if interested. thanks Thu, 15 Feb 2018 15:28:01 EST new to SP.....again for the second time On and off depression but mostly due to menopause and hormones that have lasted the year. Migraines aren't as bad as they used to be but still show up with other health difficulties. Familly wonderful; hubby absolutely amazing. Lots of great things now- just some moments of hormonal difficulties and not as up as I have been in life previously. Hoping to be able to lose weight, be healthy and feel better. Same wish for everyone else here. Sun, 11 Feb 2018 15:58:10 EST Starting again Hello, I have been dealing with a sense of failure and depression for years. Today is a new day and a new beginning. Sat, 27 Jan 2018 12:12:11 EST Hello, new here Hello everyone, I am here to lose 125 pounds. When setting up the profile it said by April of next year, but in reality I just want to slowly lose it and keep it off. I hardly eat on most days, some days I forget to eat. I do snack if there is a snack around, and sometimes if I'm hungry my bipolar depression hits and I just go back to bed instead of eating. <BR> <BR> My mom just passed away on the 3rd and between the stress of that, and not feeling well, I lost 20 pounds but then put it bac... Wed, 24 Jan 2018 21:24:37 EST Hello My Name Is DJ, My Goal Is To Loose 60 Pounds My goal is to loose 60 pounds. Tue, 23 Jan 2018 10:22:15 EST Not ready to stop - and it's okay I began taking Zoloft when I was taking care of my terminally ill adult daughter. I could immediately feel the difference. After she passed, I was ready to stop, but my doctor suggested that I stay on for a few weeks and withdraw slowly. three weeks ago I started with half a pill a day, then every other day, and was due to reduce further. Two days ago I realized how anxious I was and that I still needed the meds - Two days ago, I started back on the original dosage. I can tell the differ... Tue, 23 Jan 2018 09:18:38 EST Tsunami Alert re Alaska Earthquake I hope that all affected by this huge earthquake stay safe. Please, don't take any chances and keep away from the water. It can't be outrun. <BR> <BR> Take care and big hugs, <BR> Kris Tue, 23 Jan 2018 05:41:31 EST Hi loves Char here... Hi loves, too many ailments & way too much "fluff" to not make 2018 the beginning of the best year yet.Looking forward to losing weight & illnesses both while working out with my hearts love & my daughter as well as any new friends we are blessed to meet along the journey. Blessings to all Tue, 16 Jan 2018 22:31:05 EST depression and weight loss I just started a gym routine. I am pre diabetic so worry about what to eat and not eat before and after a workout. I do get low blood sugar feelings which I can fix with a sugary fix followed by a protein shake. Any suggestions? Sun, 7 Jan 2018 22:16:52 EST need help! I have HBP ,on meds that worked for a while but now don't seem to be working ,Doc. said at last visit she said The Dash way of eating would help, just can't seem to get started can't get the to that place .Thanks Sun, 7 Jan 2018 19:42:37 EST Hello I always hate these introduction things, never sure what to say. I guess I've decided to join spark in the hopes that I can get some support with weightloss/fitness goals. I have struggled with depression most of my life, makes the fitness goals difficult to focus on. I'm hoping to find/create a support network so that I can accomplish my goals and help others reach theirs. Not sure what more to mention, I work in eduction, live in Vegas... single-ish... I have 2 dogs and a cat. Um, I also li... Tue, 2 Jan 2018 20:45:00 EST How do you lose weight put on from Psych meds? In december 2016 i was admitted for the first time for depression (had been suicidal etc) for 2 weeks and they put me on a lot of meds, one was zyprexa. I have gained back all my weight plus some but now lost 25 lbs in 5 weeks since i went off that and on rexulti instead. But how do i keep losing the weight? I had gained 100 plus poounds years ago from seroquel and never lost it and when i was back in teh psych hospital end of feburary early march. I did great for awhile but the depressions b... Tue, 2 Jan 2018 16:09:24 EST how many hours of exercise is needed before . . . you get some relief from depression. <BR> <BR> Many years ago when I had a major depressive episode the psychiatrist told me to get outside and walk 30 minutes every day. Not inside, but outside! Not in the gym but outside! Not at the mall, but outside. You get the picture. I know walking outside helped I just don't remember how long it took to help. <BR> <BR> So today despite the temperature of 2 degrees with a -2 windchill I bundled up and walked outside for 50 minutes.I was dresse... Mon, 1 Jan 2018 17:34:11 EST The Last Day of the Year Even though I know I won't happen, I wish that when the New Year begins tomorrow that this depression would be left behind. I just can't seem to handle it anymore <BR> <BR> I suppose part of it is that January 21 will mark the first anniversary of my SO passing away. So many things have happened this past year without him but I still find hard to accept my life without him. Mostly I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again. I have a wonderful DD, SIL and grandson who are always t... Sun, 31 Dec 2017 14:50:43 EST New Hi everyone I'm Brenda and I'm new. I'm not really good at this whole intro thing, but I thought I would say hi and let everyone know I'm here Sat, 30 Dec 2017 22:59:21 EST Hi I'm Sheila,I have to replace all my bad habits I'm 63 &amp; I feel like 95 all because of my lifestyle.I have to change this.Hoping by coming on here everyday will keep me Accountable! Most days I stay by myself &amp; don't go out of the house.I have run out of excuse's.I'm hoping to connect with other's going thru same thing &amp; be strong. Sat, 30 Dec 2017 06:24:19 EST I'm new to this :) Good morning! My name is Steph and I'm new to this SPARKPEOPLE. I'm not new to my depression or working out, but I've been redefining my life for almost 2 years now and need support to make the healthy choices stick for good. <BR> <BR> I am out of shape because I've been focusing on reworking myself. I go to group therapy once a week and my psychiatrist and therapist monthly. They all tell me to not be in a hurry to make a million changes, so I have been trying to be patient with myself. <B... Mon, 18 Dec 2017 09:00:53 EST Hi, my name is Angie. Hi everyone! My name is Angie. I live in Goldendale ,Washington. Goldendale is one of those places that is close enough to another state that it's within spitting distance. My goal is to lose weight. I have said that so often throughout my life! I am tired of not including me in my life because I am embarrassed about my weight, or tired, or unable to do what thinner people do. I want to be able to like myself and feel as though I have made a difference in the world. The only way that I can do... Mon, 18 Dec 2017 00:22:56 EST Are the holidays tough for you? Are the holidays tough for you? So many people struggle with the holidays. Yes, it is a fun happy time of year, but so many people struggle with the holidays. Just because it is the holidays, "stuff" doesn't stop occurring. I do enjoy the holidays for the most part, but they also can depress me if I let them. My Dad, my hero, my protector, passed away on December 28, 1993. We found out he had terminal lung cancer just before Thanksgiving. Thank God he didn't suffer long, but he suffere... Sun, 17 Dec 2017 09:51:13 EST stuck stuck stuck I am a 75 year old lady who has struggled with weight all my life. When I was 30, I lost 100 pounds, from 228 to 128. Over the next 30 years, pounds snuck back on, topping at 226 in 2014. I am now "down" to 175, and so stuck, fighting to not gain a pound. I lost two close family members in the last few years, and occasionally depression grabs me for a few days, but that is improving rapidly. <BR> I am as active as I can be, I have in my back and Sat, 16 Dec 2017 20:29:14 EST NEW I have been looking for a team that is active on here everyday and it looks like I found it! Hurray! Tue, 12 Dec 2017 12:59:27 EST Returning I am pretty sure I have been a member of this team in the past. I thought I had my depression under control. I was fit and healthy. Ran half and full marathons. Completed 5 sprint distance triathlons. But the darkness is back. I have been out of sync since May. Workouts have become pretty much a thing of the past. I think I am living on sugar and diet soda. I have gained 40 pounds since last December. November was (hopefully) rock bottom and after a failed suicide attempt I have to get myself... Sun, 10 Dec 2017 12:42:13 EST please delete, created accidentally please delete. Tue, 5 Dec 2017 14:04:28 EST Breaking out of the rut Hello my name is Gaya. I'm 40 and a mother of three. My twins are 8 and my oldest is 12. Which means I should have done this atleast 7 years ago. But that river has flown. The main thing is I'm ready to do it now. <BR> <BR> I'm looking for accountability partners. People that can motivate, and support me on my weight loss journey. I know I should be doing so many things differently, but I keeping falling back into my unhealthy patterns. I want to break out of the rut and start getting healt... Tue, 5 Dec 2017 06:19:13 EST Hi, I'm new I'm a little nervous to reach out, but I want to be able to better control my depression. I know that improving my health will improve my condition, so I am thankful to be here. I look forward to hearing from all of you. Sun, 3 Dec 2017 18:57:35 EST Hey. I am new. Hello. My name is Misha. I'm new to Spark, and new to talking to people about this topic. I've been struggling with Depression for years. I don't really know what else to say about it. I just know that it helps when you have a support group that you can share stuff with. I'll work that. It's a pleasure to meet you guys. Sat, 2 Dec 2017 02:26:54 EST Hard to live with a mean husband Hi..I know I made a mistake in marrying the wrong man ..I just don't choose to get a divorce.. It would be catastrophic in my life if I did, and for certain religious beliefs. tell He's emotionally abusive at times, is angry a lot, and carries this "mean" type of face often.. We're in marital counseling but progress is very slow at this time . We even can't afford to see the therapist every week, so we see her every other week. And that's a hinderance because I need to see her weekly.. He... Sun, 26 Nov 2017 13:25:30 EST Of course we remember Tom one Les! <img src=""> Sat, 25 Nov 2017 19:39:34 EST Maritial Depression Does anyone else have a spouse who is equally as depressed as yourself? It's like our depression feeds off each other. While he has some legitimate health reasons to be depressed I've just always been this way. I'm overweight and have zero social skills but overall life is pretty good. I've never been emotionally strong and seeing him upset only upsets me. I never know what to say. What do you do when you can't help the person you love when they need you? Sat, 25 Nov 2017 16:10:13 EST New to the Team!! Hello everybody, <BR> <BR> My name is Angelica and this is the time of year when I suffer most from depression, I used to love this time of year but because right after Thanksgiving 2 years ago is when my Grandmother got really sick and she only lived until January 16th, then we buried her the day before my birthday. So I do struggle this time of year. <BR> <BR> I am hoping to cope better this year and I am having other medical problems related to me gaining weight, so before I go to the ... Wed, 22 Nov 2017 19:09:34 EST momrockz hello..i just sighned up and am ready to get moving Fri, 17 Nov 2017 18:03:55 EST Feeling Hopeless... I know that's not a very positive message title but since the tears are always flowing, the weight keeps coming on, and my body has started to give out, it's exactly how I feel right now. I'm 59 years old and I work at a desk job where I sit for 9 hours a day and I sit in a car for over 2 hours a day to get to and from this job. I'm too tired when I get home to do anything but eat, drink wine and go to bed. I try almost every day to start eating healthy but I fail every time. I have a foo... Thu, 16 Nov 2017 12:44:29 EST Can I Be Motivated Good evening! My name is Laurie and I'm a 52 year old widow. My husband passed away from a massive heart attack. I am also a mother of an angel. My son (20) at the time, passed away from an accidental drowning. Shortly following the death of my husband, I went back to school, and now I'm an Elementary Principal. I'm tired of feeling tired, old, and out of shape. I have two beautiful daughters, two wonderful and supportive son in laws, and four grandkids. I want to be healthy for them-but more... Mon, 13 Nov 2017 19:03:10 EST Hi! I'm Dawn I'm new. I'm open to suggestions & ideas. Have you been successful or somewhat successful with this plan? Mon, 13 Nov 2017 11:29:17 EST Hi! I'm Dawn I'm new. I'm open to suggestions & ideas. Have you been successful or somewhat successful with this plan? Mon, 13 Nov 2017 04:52:22 EST SAD As we move into shorter days and cooler weather, does anyone have trouble with SAD/seasonal depression? Any tips or things to try? Mon, 6 Nov 2017 19:54:55 EST Im sort of new. Hi my name is Michelle, and Im 28, mother of 1. I joined this forum because I have moments when I feel really down, and find it really hard to pick myself back. I also want to lose weight, but am struggling so much. Mon, 6 Nov 2017 18:40:16 EST Hello Hello! I am looking forward to getting and giving support. My goal is to improve and/or slow down my medical conditions. <BR> <BR> I am dealing with fibromyalgia, arthritis, neuropathy, migraines, type 2 diabetes, depression, fatigue, and sleep apnea. I am scheduled to see a neurologist because of brain lesions. My primary care physician believes I have multiple sclerosis as well. Mon, 30 Oct 2017 13:12:37 EST Hi I'm Jay Hello everyone! My name is Jay from New Orleans, LA. I have recently restarted my journey with being healthier and getting in shape. Recently i have felt like i have gone into a depression lately between things i cannot control, home life, married life, and just overall life. I find that the only people i can talk to about it in person is my wife which is great but sometimes i feel like she just doesn't understand. I don't feel comfortable talking to people about my issues in person or o... Mon, 23 Oct 2017 11:11:38 EST Colleen C I have been on many diets and now it is difficult to choose one that will work for me. It is hard for me to stay motivated. <BR> I just recently retired, I was in the Easter Seals program for Seniors and I reached the duration limit of 4 years with them. My last position with them was working with the Clothing Closet. All the clothes are free and the clients could come in twice a month and get up to 25 items. So I got to know a lot of people in the community and I miss that. The clients are... Tue, 17 Oct 2017 12:15:26 EST Weight struggle Hi I'm Debbie Heard I have been on Jenny Craig Weight Watchers only to gain almost all the weight back ready to lose the weight and keep it off for good. Any tips or advice or motivation would Sincerely be appreciated one day at a time. <BR> Mon, 16 Oct 2017 15:14:29 EST fresh start Need to find the motivation to stay in a healthy lifestyle I have such a sugar addiction smart enough to know what I have to do just need the push to follow through. Hoping to find that all here, Sat, 14 Oct 2017 11:07:19 EST Hi I'm Shana Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> I'm dealing with PCOS and am having difficulty losing weight. I have pretty low self esteem and low motivation I just sort of force myself to get through the days. Uh I'm interested in coping methods and I'm a good listener so if you need advice I'd like to help. Thu, 12 Oct 2017 21:24:13 EST Dawn here:) Hello everyone! I have dealt with depression for many years now but it seems to have gotten a bit worse recently. I have been sick the past few years and that really limits what I can do which has made my depression worse but I continue to fight it. I am back on sparkpeople for support as I overcome my illness and this depression and hopefully lose some weight too. Be blessed! Thu, 12 Oct 2017 18:27:41 EST HI my name is Frances I hear to lose 30 pounds I gained due too health issues. As per the MD I cleared to go and workout and eat different foods any feedback would be great. Sun, 8 Oct 2017 14:10:47 EST HI my name is Frances I hear to lose 30 pounds I gained due too health issues. As per the MD I cleared to go and workout and eat different foods any feedback would be great. Sun, 8 Oct 2017 14:10:46 EST Starting in kitchen. Want to see? <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is my kitchen this weekend. I am working on it should be done in a few more days if i can find motivation to do it. Please be kind I kni\ow its a mess but I just need to get decluttering and cleaning <BR> <BR> Lets see your kitchens give me so m\ideas TIA Tue, 3 Oct 2017 13:47:48 EST New to this Hi...I am new. I'd like to hear how others deal with their emotions during this journey. Sun, 1 Oct 2017 19:31:19 EST hello Hello my name is Maryjane I need help I am 57 years old I hurt in my body and i think if I can lose the weight it would be helpful but it don't seem i can get started and to stay on it. I am in this stupid wheelchair so i don't think there is anyway for me to get help Sat, 30 Sep 2017 12:18:34 EST First day Good morning! Sat, 30 Sep 2017 08:50:29 EST Insecurities anyone I've been focusing on reading books on renewing the mind. Problem is my depression and my insecurities are ruining my marriage. I'm so withdrawn but fine at work. My personal life is truly suffering. I'm emotional a lot. I'm on Viibryd. And have had such a hard time finding effective counseling in my area. What works for you guys. <BR> Thu, 28 Sep 2017 16:22:02 EST Hi! I'm new! Hi <em>213</em> My name is Lisa and it's my first day on Sparkpeople. I'm the heaviest I've ever been and really hoping this works and keeps me motivated! Thu, 28 Sep 2017 13:06:12 EST Hello! I am new here! Hi! My name is Nicole and I am new to the team. I am a married Stay at home mom to 6 wonderful kids. I have been dealing with depression pretty much my entire life. I am an emotional eater, using food to cope with my feelings. I started SparkPeople back in 2009, did pretty good for awhile, but then just stopped. I started up again a few times but never stuck to it. This time I am determined to stick to it, lose this weight and look at it not as a diet, but as a lifestyle change. My husband ha... Tue, 26 Sep 2017 14:18:10 EST "Wherever I go, there I am!" Hello Team, Thank you for allowing me to join. I look forward to our on-going journey. <BR> I have dealt with depression most of my life. The best antidote is exercise: however, <BR> for a long time, food was (and can be) my constant companion. <BR> If you want, you can look at my latest blog. It explains where I am now. <BR> <BR> I feel really motivated and happy to continue to use Sparkpeople. <BR> I feel very blessed to have people I can share my challenges and triumphs with. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 22 Sep 2017 16:27:17 EST Hi! I'm Kerry, and I've been using Sparkpeople for about a month now. I'm doing well, but also haven't run into a breakthrough depression episode yet - when my usual practice is to forego all exercise and dive into the ice cream. Hoping for better results now that I've started a healthier pattern and have a community to back me up :) Hope everyone has a great afternoon! Thu, 21 Sep 2017 13:00:36 EST Looking for like minded people Hello- Wanting to lose weight and reach out for support for the first time. I am a 50 year old gal fighting all kinds of challenges with my body not wanting to lose weight> hormones, menopause, etc. Suffering from depression and never knowing when that bad day will hit..hoping support can help. Thank you. <em>362</em> <BR> <BR> Tue, 19 Sep 2017 16:44:26 EST Hello My Name is Sarah Hi guys my name is Sarah and I am a working mom who has diabetes and joined the site in hope to lose some pounds so I can be healthy for him and myself. I deal with bouts of depressing feelings month to month and sometimes week to week. I don't want to see a therapist so I just cuddle up and watch movies and cry internally for a couple of days til my son gives me the light I need to keep going through this life I live. Fingers crossed that this round of the site is the motivation that I need ... Mon, 18 Sep 2017 17:15:10 EST Hello I have been depressed for longer than I like I have been on meds for my depression, but they do not seem to work well. I did think I might be on the way up today, but it is not so. I am 60 years old and have no medical problems. I find that depression makes it harder to lose weight but I keep trying! Sat, 16 Sep 2017 00:08:27 EST hello, my name is anne with an E Hi, I am picking myself off the ground and getting healthy after getting some scary news from my doctor. I used to be very active and outdoorsy and ate mostly healthy. Then I put myself on the backburner while seeing to the needs of several special needs kids. I learned to ask for help with all of that and wanted to work on myself. Now, I HAVE to work on me and get into the mindset that it is okay to set aside time to work on me and find balance. I will poke around the site but wanted to get ... Thu, 14 Sep 2017 12:46:45 EST Seeing All Fat I look in the mirror everyday and all i see if fat! I want to see something else other fat but i don't others tell me i am losing weight but where that is my question ? I just want to fell good about myself and that is super hard to do :( feeling fat makes my anxiety go up even more and then i have panic attacks because of it all :( I want to be accepted in this world and i don't feel like i am sadly. Wed, 13 Sep 2017 18:47:15 EST New and Frustrated I can't seem to stop binging about every other day. I truly feel like a slave to food. Fri, 8 Sep 2017 11:28:32 EST Hello, I'm a newbie! Just wanted to introduce myself as a new member of this team... My name is Ashlee, I am 22, and have been dealing with depression for a majority of my life, more recently anxiety was also added into the mix. Woohoo -_- I am on medication, but nothing really seems to be helping, so I am trying to work on my diet and learn to meditate to try and help! Looking forward to knowing everyone and supporting each other! <em>30</em> Mon, 4 Sep 2017 12:22:59 EST hulagrl, Aloha! I need to get on a program that will help me lose weight. But what's more important is I am a diabetic, have high blood pressure, kidney problems, and thyroid problems. Having a hard time getting started. I just want to feel better and get in control of my life. Mahalo Thu, 31 Aug 2017 23:11:48 EST Anxiety I feel sick to my stomach right now...belly filling with anxiety. Feeling that knot in my throat and tears welling up. There isn't A LOT going on in my life..but the things that are happening are BIG things. They are tough to deal with. I am so sick of letting rough times in my life put a halt to my goals :( I just really need any positive vibes you can send...send them my way. Wed, 30 Aug 2017 07:40:01 EST Stop giving up. I don't know how many times I have started a new diet but I never seem to get to my goal I always give up. I keep telling myself this time I won't give up. I want to lose 50 pounds. Tue, 29 Aug 2017 09:30:05 EST 13 Reasons Why I am watching this Netflix show which has been talked about a lot. <BR> I really like it! For me it is a big reason why suicide is not the answer. The effects on the living <BR> has a hard toll. <BR> I never thought I would ever try. I know I would mess it up and be worse place than the M.S. depression, diabetes and nephropathy have me now. Such a positive thought. Sorry. Sun, 27 Aug 2017 14:47:13 EST food and depression Hi, just checking in after a while. <BR> <BR> On the bright side, I went to a naturopath (never put much stock in those things, but I had multiple "things" going on that rarely seemed to get much help. <BR> <BR> Pre-diabetes note on my doctor charts plus ongoing higher blood pressure spurred that. Quite pleased with the improvements, but the biggest fix was working toward a no grain, dairy, sugar diet. Not all the way there, but my primary off-diet "sin" is a corn tortilla or some gluten ... Sun, 27 Aug 2017 08:32:47 EST New to group Hi, I'm 41 and from Oregon. I struggle with chronic depression. I've been on Vybriid for two years. I keep trying to get myself going and get through alone but it's terribly difficult. I have so much to be thankful for and I love my job. Getting motivated beyond that is very trying and I isolate very well. Tying to break that routine. Looking forward to reaching a positive mental health and wellness lifestyle with others. Tue, 22 Aug 2017 23:20:35 EST esperanza Does anybody get this magazine? I just got the Summer 2017 issue and read some of it. I usually read it cover to cover and love it! This time it is about anxiety and motivation. Saw two articles about that. The cover says Letting Go Of Worry How to get from uptight to alright. The article on it is HUGE too. I love the magazine. Anyone else get it. It was recommended to me by a leader of our depression group here in Binghamton, NY. It sometimes features celebrities like Lady Gaga in ... Wed, 16 Aug 2017 20:13:51 EST New to the team I'm not new to Spark, but I'm new to the team. You can call me Susan or Sparkle. I don't like to give much identifying information on websites like this. I worry about being tracked through internet searches. I value my privacy and I'm also a little paranoid, I guess. Several months ago, I went through and deleted all of my blogs here on Spark. I really regret making that impulsive decision now. <BR> <BR> I already have a pretty thorough introduction on my Spark page, so I'll just addr... Sat, 12 Aug 2017 19:53:00 EST Advice/Tips Needed Hello, I am really struggling with completing my food logs. I am not sure why this is so hard for me to become a habit especially when I know that when I do it, my diet is so much better. I am at a weight loss stall (sleeved 3/22/17) and it is driving me crazy. I am desperate to lose weight to be able to get pregnant and I know that logging my food and drink is such a helpful tool I just can't seem to remember to do it. Any ideas or tips on how to make this a habit? Tue, 8 Aug 2017 08:52:00 EST Hi from Minnesota! Hello, my name is Rachelle. I live in Minnesota as a single mom, with my three daughters (ages 17, 13, and 10) and our cat, Zappa. I have had a weight struggle ever since having my second daughter. I have been on SP before and liked it a lot, but always let life get in the way of my success. I have always struggled with balancing self-care with the needs of others. I am hoping to continue to work on prioritizing myself in my own life (preferably without guilt) and also get in better shape/hea... Sat, 5 Aug 2017 10:55:19 EST Talk About It Depression is one reason for my unsuccessful attempts at attaining a healthy lifestyle. Through my involvement with my therapist and group therapy, I am learning how to live with depression in a more productive way. I found an online group therapy website to be very helpful and affordable ($3.95-$9.95). You choose the amount that you want to pay. The website link is I hope this can be a resource for someone else. Fri, 4 Aug 2017 17:39:45 EST Start and Quit - Quit and Start I've been gone for awhile. Hopefully, I'll start and commit this time! Fri, 4 Aug 2017 17:27:54 EST Inching toward healthy goals I completed step one when I purchased a membership for the YMCA. My next step is to go to a water aerobics class. Fri, 4 Aug 2017 17:24:04 EST Colleen Hi everyone, my name is Colleen, I am new to this. I look forward to comment on my journey, as well as hearing from all you that are just starting the program, or have success stories. Good luck to all and have a wonderful day Wed, 2 Aug 2017 08:49:10 EST New and Tired Hello Everyone. I appreciate the invite. I am a worn out nurse of 20 + years and dealing with a husband who was diagnosed with cancer for the second time in 3 years.He is doing great thank goodness but I feel tired, depressed and just plain worn out. Hence, the reason I am overweight or at least part of the reason. I hope this site will be of help to me. Sat, 29 Jul 2017 18:04:18 EST Just joined! My friend called me this evening and inspired me with her weight loss and how easy this site can be so I've sat down joined and entered my food for today and I didn't do too bad! <BR> I suffer from Adrenal Fatigue so I'm going to take the exercise slow and easy so I don't set myself back. <BR> It said I could obtain my weight goal by March 2018! 67 pounds, that seems doable. <BR> My main thing is not not complicate this and make it burdensome. <BR> So I'm excited to join you all and hopef... Tue, 18 Jul 2017 22:03:50 EST trying again/ always trying Hi! ive got 75 ibs to lose, 43 yrs old, have 4 children, work outside the home, have 1 dog, 2 horses and 3 cats, havnt worn jeans or anything other than stretchy pants for the last 14 years. Im ready to stop feeling sorry for myself and could really use other's support and in turn to support others because this is hard! Tue, 18 Jul 2017 20:30:17 EST Hello! Newbie here. Hi everyone - <BR> <BR> My weight is at its highest ever, mostly because of an antidepressant I was on for a while. I've been overweight most of my life, but not to this extent. I've been depressed, had anxiety, and struggled with eating issues my whole life, and I've been getting help with all of it for quite some time. I'm in a pretty good place emotionally, and it's time to do something about this uncomfortable body size. <BR> <BR> I have a SparkPage, and I openly share about my depressi... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 09:29:05 EST I did laundry today I know to those that do not have depression, doing laundry seems like a mundane every day/week task, but to me, laundry is my kryptonite. I have to pick everything up that didn't hit the laundry basket, sort it, then wait for the washer, load the dryer and wait. The waiting seems to be the worst as I find 20 different things that I "should" be doing and get sidetracked... After the dryer is finally done, I have to fold everything and put it away. I know I would feel great having everything pu... Thu, 6 Jul 2017 23:32:47 EST Hello Im new here Good morning! Im back at Sparks after a 5 year break! Seems like I have gone full circle with lots of ways to get this weight off. Even went to a 3 month program for Eating Disorders. I'm really tired and feel like I just dont have it in me anymore. I so desperately want to be happy with myself. But I just feel hopeless. Something brought me back to Sparks Thu, 6 Jul 2017 12:59:55 EST Lynda Carr Hi, I am Lynda Carr and I have no idea what I am doing, or really how to get started. Plus I want to download to my phone so I can scan nutritional info at store, etc. Can somebody please help me. Fri, 30 Jun 2017 14:37:44 EST Hello. I'm new here. Hello. I've had a SP account for some time now, but never really used it. <BR> The past few weeks, I've been in a pretty bad funk. I just seem to go through the motions of doing only what NEEDS to be done Day to day. <BR> I'd like to boost my weight loss by getting back into running, but I am having a heck of a time finding the motivation to start. <BR> I'm hoping being forced to be around people in the next few days will help me dislodge myself from this horrible state of not giving a crap... Thu, 29 Jun 2017 21:53:29 EST jo Anne starting a challenge if I can only get a diet plan with meal suggestions <BR> Can anyone direct me?? Thu, 29 Jun 2017 17:15:26 EST Mild Cognitive Impairment Hello everyone. So i just started a business. it is online It didnt reach 2 weeks yet. So up to now customers. I am not complaining. However, i cant help but to think, what if im employed? I can still apply but i need to prepare for an exam. I can study. I can work hard. But theres a little problem, i am having problems with my memory, and anxiety level. Sometimes, when i talk with someone, if there explanation or what they're saying is long, i tend to get lost, and yes, it is hard to focus,... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 16:14:00 EST ! month weigh in and measurements ! Hey all I am a mom of 2 grown children and a grandma of 2 1/2 ( one more on the way). A loving husband who love me any way I look. Not me I want to look and feel healthy so I am on Ketogenic diet. I have weighed and measure myself after a month. I've lost 10 pounds and very proud, it has been a long time coming with yoyo dieting but this Ketgenic diet is the bomb. I've lot an inch off my waist and other part as well. Tue, 27 Jun 2017 12:23:26 EST Starting over with determination My name is Joanne and I have had depression since my teens (I am now 45). My efforts in 'dealing' with my condition have resulted in me being at least 40kg overweight as I have a vicious cycle of eating comfort food which then makes me feel bad about the weight gain which in turn makes me turn to food. <BR> <BR> I am now doing a start over and using a holistic approach which will hopefully result in a remission of my depression and also weight loss. Mon, 26 Jun 2017 17:28:17 EST More difficulty in coping overall Hi all, <BR> As I type the tears are starting. I am having more and more difficulty coping with my depression. The primary cause of the episodes are work related but 'normal' people would cope with this - I do not. <BR> <BR> How do people manage stress so that it does not cause repetitive depressive episodes? Sun, 25 Jun 2017 18:16:37 EST New to the team Hello my name is Angelia. I am grateful to be part of the team. I have recently been diagnosed with depression and started medicine. I am trying to research and understand depression and coping with it. Love to all Sat, 24 Jun 2017 13:44:37 EST denial of loneliness It's easier to just feed myself than to deal with others. I need to admit this and get over it. Mon, 19 Jun 2017 17:30:02 EST Jen Hey out there, I am a 40 year old engaged woman with a graduate, senior in high school and a freshman in high school. I work up to 13 hours a day at an assisted living facility in a memory care unit which I love. On December 15, 2015 I had a ROUX-EN-Y surgery. At that time I was at my heaviest which was 254. I am currently 186 and wanting to be 140. I love to do needlepoint, cross-stitching, going for walks and playing cards or board games. I am currently looking for exercise ideas because th... Tue, 13 Jun 2017 09:21:10 EST Returning to sparkpeople Hi, I'm Marj, 42, mother of twins, <BR> Just now dragging myself out of the latest major depressive episode, which lasted for months, and during which I gained 15 lbs and could barely get out of bed. Still tweaking my meds and restarted Nutrisystem after several years, because last time I did it I lost weight, and I still don't have the energy to deal with meal planning etc. on my own yet. Also, got a fitbit and a small exercise bike for my bedroom, so here's hoping I can make some healthy ch... Thu, 8 Jun 2017 10:37:54 EST New here Hello all My name is Sherry, I'm new to Spark and am looking to lose 128lbs. I deal with depression and anxiety both of which I am being treated for Thu, 1 Jun 2017 06:41:17 EST Hello everyone!!! I'm a full time working mom with very little me time and I have just literally become lazy to do anything. I'm tired all the time, any free time I do have all I want to do is rest. I have nooo motivation to get started on working out and getting healthy again. All I seem to do is dwell on how "i used to be"....feeling really crappy with myself. Tue, 30 May 2017 17:34:13 EST Starting out again I've been back on Spark for about a week. having put back on the 3st I lost before I broke my knee. <BR> <BR> I'm 57 and from London in the UK, my kids are grown up and I'm divorced. I used to be a teacher but I took early retirement 3 years ago. <BR> <BR> Happy Sunday all Sun, 28 May 2017 12:28:51 EST Much Better Today! Okay, so I had a Wendy's Mozzarella Chicken Salad for lunch, but only ate half (lettuce fills you up quick). I just had another 1/4 of it for snack. We had Panda Express for dinner, and I had the Broccoli Beef and about maybe a 1/2 cup of the fried rice. There was more broccoli than beef, which I guess wasn't a horrible thing :). <BR> <BR> Anyway, I'm now about 100-400 calories short of my calorie goal for the day! So yay! Compared to yesterday, I'm so proud of that. <BR> <BR> AND I al... Fri, 26 May 2017 23:50:13 EST Hello everyone! Hi I'm Rushell from TX. <BR> <BR> I came across Spark People while searching for some help for beginner exercises for VERY sedentary beginners (that's me). I'd been swimming but my endurance is horrible and I was very discouraged. Can't make it beyond 30-40 yards without feeling like I've gotten exercise induced asthma. So lots of trouble breathing. <BR> <BR> Other than that, it has felt fairly good to be able to move through the water, as I often have body aches and feel so heavy (not n... Fri, 26 May 2017 12:31:49 EST New To Teams So I just found out about teams. I have joined one other and then saw this one. Took a deep breath and thought, "in for a penny in for a (let's lose) pound." Right now my depression is being controlled with medication. But I know that I am one pill away from the depths of despond. I have known my depression most of my life. I am happy that things are better now. Fri, 26 May 2017 10:00:56 EST Sometimes I'm up late, sometimes I'm up early. Hi everybody I have been on this site for 3 days now and am loving the features. I am trying to get to a healthy weight and this site is wonderful for that. I suffer from major depression so getting motivated to move can be difficult, but the challenges are really helping with that. I also quit smoking 101 days ago and am feeling more comfortable in that. Really trying to take charge of my health. I look forward to a healthier future and making new friends. Tue, 23 May 2017 02:51:12 EST My Crazy Life Hi! I am not new to spark or to this journey of weight loss, however, I am new to trying to deal with depression and CPTSD. Long story short I was in a six year relationship with someone that was abusive. This was following a 26 year marriage that in its own way was also abusive. Since the break up in October and subsequent move in January I have gained close to 60 lbs. I had kept off 130 lbs for almost 8 years and then suddenly in less than six months I have gained half back. <BR> <BR... Mon, 22 May 2017 16:08:01 EST Sugarpie18 Hi, I've been checking in, counting calories for 10 days and have lost 11 pounds. Yeah! But I just do not find myself able to meet my daily goals. Recovering from one knee surgery and have another in the near future. Exercise is almost non existent except for physical therapy with limitations. Simple recipes are what I need. Foods that do not make me feel gassy or foods my body does not agree with. No wheat, dairy, or chicken. Most veggies are okay but had to live on. Well, hello and thanks ... Sun, 21 May 2017 22:07:04 EST Staring Fresh Hi Everyone, <BR> I am 50 years of age and it has been a very long time since I've been a healthy weight. I recently got back into exercising hoping that would get the pounds off but I'm still struggling with the food aspect and I also like my red wine. I think reading about everyone's success and troubles with help keep me motivated. Sun, 21 May 2017 10:10:52 EST Mental health throughout the ages <BR> This is an interesting read. Unless you live in NZ, the phone numbers at the bottom don't apply: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ticle.cfm?c_id=6&amp;objectid=11859918 </link> <BR> <BR> Kris Sat, 20 May 2017 05:43:29 EST My Story I joined SparkPeople when I was taking care of my Dad. He moved in with us on November 11, 2016. He passed away on March 6, 2017. I didn't know it would only be for a short time, but I am thankful for the time we had. He had COPD, Diabetes, Heart problems, Bowel and Hernias. He passed away from a heart attack brought on by Ischemic Bowel. It was sudden and quick. he had always said he wanted to die of a heart attack. I believe he was afraid of smothering to death. <BR> <BR> My daughter... Sat, 13 May 2017 12:48:55 EST New to the site Hello everyone. I am new to Sparkpeople and I deal with depression on a daily basis. I have bipolar disorder and have good and bad days. Sat, 13 May 2017 11:44:19 EST Moved to another board I moved my rant to another board, sorry :( Wed, 10 May 2017 15:33:46 EST Good Afternoon! Hello. I hope all are well. I am excited to be apart of a group who are also dealing with depression, weight and over all health. I have recently discovered that the best way to deal with depression is how I eat and exercise. I cannot change the thing that made me depressed, I can only change how I respond to it. I have been battling depression since I was a child, and I have recently decided that I can choose to just accept and deal with it, or I can get up, make changes to my habits and cho... Wed, 3 May 2017 13:19:40 EST new member here Hi, I live in Northwestern Pa. I have been overweight about 80% of my life. weighing 300 lbs or more for the last 34 yrs. My goal is 150 lbs.I have three adult sons and five Grandchildren. My husband is a Diabetic with heart issues. I don't do well with goal setting, goals set me up for failure. <BR> I hate really hot and really cold weather so I spend 3/4 of the year hold up inside my house, however I am now faced with a need to find a job, so need to get my act in gear. I'm very worried tha... Tue, 2 May 2017 08:33:10 EST Hi, I'm back I've been missing in action on SparkPeople for over 5 years now. I was put on new meds, had heart problems, now sport a pacemaker, and 20 extra pounds. NOT happy! I am 5'2" and weigh in at 190 lbs...technically obese according to the BMI chart. <BR> <BR> My medication slows down my metabolism, so I've decided to lower my recommended daily caloric intake by 250 kcal...just to see what happens. <BR> <BR> I'm also upping my exercise. But that doesn't seem to make much difference. I've... Sun, 30 Apr 2017 23:44:20 EST Hi! :) Hi everyone. My name is Renee. I have a weight loss goal of 50 pounds. I'm a mom. I'm a new vegan. I'm an atheist. I'm a Berniecrat. :) <BR> <BR> That's me in a nutshell. Sun, 30 Apr 2017 17:53:37 EST Why on earth did I bake a cherry pie? I know when I eat a lot refined sugar my depression gets worse. When my depression gets worse I crave sweets. But I do get some relief from the depression for about an hour -- until I crash. <BR> <BR> For some reason I had a craving for cherry pie. So last night I made one. I used a canned filling but made my own crust. <BR> <BR> I had one piece before I went to bed last night. I am so down in the dumps this morning I don't even want to get out of bed and it is nearly 1:00 P.M. and st... Sun, 30 Apr 2017 13:54:07 EST Diet to fight Depression This was on my local news last week. I figured I had nothing to lose by trying it, and I thought I would share. <link><BR>ws/link-between-depression-and-your-di<BR>et/687917828 </link> <BR> <BR> ~V_A <BR> <BR> Wed, 26 Apr 2017 08:55:38 EST New to the Group Hi, hey, and hello! I was a member of SP a long while ago and life...well life did it's thing and got chaotic. I lost track of myself and my weight. I'm here again knowing this site was one of the reasons I did so well the last time. I was recently diagnosed with depression and I'm just finally starting to feel better with meds. Feeling better has led me to want to improve other areas, and my weight is one of them. I just want to be comfortable with myself. It's hard being so sick of being si... Mon, 24 Apr 2017 07:34:55 EST STRESS!!!!! I'm so frustrated! My 18 year old daughter and I use to be so close. Then she got involved with this boy, who is a real piece of work. Now all she does is lie. It's to the point that I don't want her living with me anymore because I can't believe anything she says. I feel like a horrible mother. The only thing I want to do right now is go to a movie and eat a large buttered popcorn and a coke. I bought the tickets for both of us earlier today because I though that things were turning a... Fri, 21 Apr 2017 18:05:49 EST New member <em>40</em> <BR> Hello! Just looking to find tips on how to start being more active and stay that way, despite getting discouraged easily. Any recipe ideas that are quick and easy would be appreciated! <BR> Thank you! Fri, 21 Apr 2017 11:08:36 EST Binge eating due to hurt feelings I've just realized that every time someone says something that hurts my feelings, I basically binge eat. I guess I don't feel like I can express myself, so eating is a way to cover up all those painful feelings. Overeating is not hurting the person who hurt me, though, it's only hurting me. I can't seem to stop because I know of no other way to deal with all this pain. I'm supposed to be seeing a new therapist soon and I hope she can help me with this. I've seen therapists before and they wer... Wed, 19 Apr 2017 20:23:07 EST underlying depression trying to not fight this depression that persists, but to 'go with it' as my therapist tells me, and learn something from the experience. Have not used sugar to improve my moods for 17 days now and I learned that old feelings can surface that need to be dealt with. I guess that is what's happening for me. It doesn't make it easy, but I know eventually that dropping this weight which has served as a layer of protection in a way will lead me to better health, happiness and increased energy t... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 15:31:49 EST I've no reason to be depressed and yet . . . I am so depressed. Everyone says it is grief over losing my SO in January of 2017. I am not so sure. I promise I won't do anything, but I just keep wishing I were dead all the time and I don't know why. I think it might be anxiety because I am scared to face the future alone. I go to a grief support group and they said that they felt the same way . . . except they don't wish they were dead all the time. <BR> <BR> Who would be depressed when you have this going for them: <BR> I am financ... Mon, 17 Apr 2017 21:42:29 EST Hello everyone! My name is Lisa and I am new to Spark. I recently lost about 20 lbs but hit a plateau and that's what brought me here. With about 100 more lbs to lose I'm super excited that there is a group like this that seems to be supportive, safe place for folk like me. Thanks for making this group! Mon, 17 Apr 2017 14:20:49 EST Louisiana Hello! I am new to the group. In 2013 when I got married I was at my all time highest weight 278 pounds...I thought I would NEVER get down from that. In 2015 I was able to drop over 60 pounds getting down to about 210 but at the time I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and what causes migraines for me. Over time not being on the proper medications I have gained weight again, as well as depression, anxiety and migraines and I am now at 254. :( I hate that me weight defines the way I f... Wed, 12 Apr 2017 09:32:27 EST Self Sabotage I was doing really well, but as of late I have started to self destruct. I have no reason to be depressed. I know how blessed I am. I have an amazing husband and daughter. I have 3 dogs that run me ragged, and a nephew I keep some who is my joy. About 2 months ago I started the depo shot, and almost immediately my who attitude changed. I don't have the joy, and I am the girl that is always smiling on the outside at least. I can't even mustard that as of late. My husband is 13 years younger th... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 08:02:52 EST Good Afternoon Everyone! First and foremost I wanted to thank you Pam for inviting me. <BR> <BR> I've been dealing with my depression for alot of years, and its truly hard sometimes. I'm tired of the drugs for stress/anxiety, depression, insomnia, my stomach so I can eat. I'm tired of the pain meds for my back, and dealing with COPD "those breathing meds", I feel like a walking pharmacy!! My recent Dr. visit was for my yearly checkup and I find I have high Cholestrol... My Dr. gave me the choi... Sun, 9 Apr 2017 18:10:12 EST new HI There, I have signed up for spark people but never really used it, I turned 50 last year and realized i have to get myself in shape to enjoy the years ahead of me.. I have alot to lose, but hoping to change the 2 in my weight to a 1....LOL,, I do struglge with depression.... <BR> <BR> i also live in the middle of Indiana Sat, 8 Apr 2017 13:09:50 EST Depression and Over Eating Hello All, <BR> <BR> My name is Christina and I suffer with Depression. I do take medication for it but many people in my career field often cause my medication to do live up to it's full potential of keeping me calm. Well this is where Food has stepped in and smoothed out my temporary feelings of unhappiness. But no sooner than the last mouth full is swallowed, I feel this deep guilt of eating and gaining weight. So I'm here trying to find other ways to focus my attitude/depression to... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 15:26:59 EST My partner of 25 years died and I am so depressed I just need to “talk” to someone, thus my post. <BR> <BR> My partner, passed away on January 21, 2017. He was 85 and I am 65. We were together over 25 years. We met after I was divorced for several years. They discovered he had stage four cancer in the first week in January. We both thought he might go first as he was 20 years old than I was. However, know that and being able to accept his death are two very different things. <BR> <BR> I have been so depressed and anxious I can hardly f... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 12:16:30 EST THE GORILLA IN THE HOUSE Acquiring a disability is a bit like getting home to find there's a gorilla in your house. You contact the approved and official channels to get rid of infestations of wild animals (in this case, Health Care) and they umm and aah and suck air in through their teeth before saying something roughly equivalent to "what you've got 'ere, mate, is a gorilla, and there ain't really a lot what we can do about them, see..." before sending you back home to the gorilla's waiting arms. <BR> The gorilla i... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 17:20:12 EST I think I start here... Hi, I'm Danielle (Blue also works) <BR> <BR> I'm trying to regain some control in my life. My weight and my health are a great place to start. I started to have anxiety and depression about 10 months ago when my mom was diagnosed with cancer. It's been almost 5 months since we lost her...and since then there are a lot of days that I have a hard time. I will admit, there are days that I turn to food for comfort. The way my clothes fit and the numbers on the scale tell me that the end of ... Sun, 2 Apr 2017 07:40:06 EST Hi, I'm new... Hi, I'm Robbie, and I'm new and trying to lose 50 lbs. I guess I should say, "I will lose 50 lbs." to keep it positive, but I've had a hard time with motivation over this last year. I've been in the hospital for my depression and PTSD last fall and am seeing a therapist and psychiatrist. I guess I feel like I'm taking care of one of my issues and the others can just wait. But, my spouse and I have just booked a cruise in April 2018 to the western Caribbean, and I figure if I lose a pound ... Thu, 30 Mar 2017 12:51:59 EST New Member! Hello Everyone! <BR> My name is Ashli and I am new to this site! So glad to find a weight loss site that also has support groups for Depression! <BR> <BR> My depression makes it so hard to stay focused on loosing weight. I am 26 years old, and have a 5 year old daughter, a 4 year old stepson, and a husband. Those three are the bright spots in my life. <BR> <BR> I am at the biggest I have ever been at 229 pounds. I eat cause I am depressed, and I am depressed because Ive let myself get so ... Wed, 29 Mar 2017 18:52:24 EST My first day Thank you for this opportunity for me to learn how to be motivated and devoted to keeping this tasks to get healthy and fit. Some days are so hard to stay awake and get over an awful headache. I really need to lose weight and get educated on how too. I bought a rowing machine from Sunny Health, and I do like giving it go as much as I am up too. Tue, 28 Mar 2017 16:40:48 EST Hello Hello everyone, <BR> <BR> I am new to SparkPeople and really happy to be here. Looking forward to using all the tips and tricks to getting my health back in order and getting my life back on track. <BR> <BR> I have struggled for about 12 years now with ups and downs in my life. Some days I have a handle on things and other days it all falls apart. This has done not so good things to my overall health as I have type 1 diabetes and celiac disease. I often get into moods where I just don't car... Mon, 27 Mar 2017 13:59:57 EST Hi, I'm Melanie. I like writing, museums, and cuddly stuff such as puppies. I rejoined because my family is on a diet and I know I'll have to go with them. I actually do need to lose about fifty pounds, but I think I can do it. Sat, 25 Mar 2017 22:17:32 EST Hi! I'm Alex! Hi everyone, I'm Alex (cometkazi). I've been up and down losing weight (lose 20 pounds, gain it back, again and again) and I'm really sick of it. I've been overweight since middle school- I blame it on not being coordinated enough for sports and high doses of Abilify and Prozac. But at this point, I'm tired and scared. My cholesterol is through the roof, and though my doctor is trying to wean me off of the Abilify, I'm not sure if it will work, and if it doesn't, what then? My point is, I'm h... Fri, 24 Mar 2017 21:08:15 EST When I was a young wart hog... I never was. A wart hog, that is. But I never know how to title these introduction threads and over the years you tend to start picking random things. <BR> <BR> Hi, I'm Mel, and I'm addicted to sparkles. Wait--wrong group--Hi, I'm Mel, and I have depression and Bi-polar II (the sexiest of the bi-polars, if you ask me. And I know you did.) <BR> <BR> I am not particularly new to Sparkpeople. I tried this website several years ago and like many things in my life, I used it for a while before... Fri, 24 Mar 2017 08:03:46 EST Yo, Folks. My name is Yu, though, you can also call me Yun (and both these names are usually written with a macron over the u, but it won't display). I'm a quarter century old and I occasionally deal with gender dysphoria, but also regular bouts of depression. <BR> <BR> Pleased to meet everyone. Thu, 23 Mar 2017 17:11:03 EST Have you taken an MAOI? Greetings! <BR> <BR> I am looking to get some in-the-trenches info from folks who have taken MAOIs: <BR> <BR> Were they helpful for you? <BR> What side effects did you experience? <BR> How would you compare them to SSRIs, if you've taken both? <BR> Were you required to make the dietary changes, and if so, how did that go for you? <BR> <BR> My story for context: I have been suffering from chronic depression (officially dysthymia) for about 24 years (!). I've been in and out of therapy and... Thu, 23 Mar 2017 09:39:25 EST Introductions Good morning, <BR> Thanks for the invite to the group. I have fought with depression since I was a teenager. I have tried many things to cope medications, faith, rejecting my faith, diet, exercise, therapy, and nothing. I have found the things that work the best are my faith in Christ, diet, exercise, and I am now going to try to have a consistent routine. My goal is stick with it, this time through support from my family and to create a support system here on spark. Wed, 22 Mar 2017 11:12:18 EST New member! Hi, my name is Di (short for Diane). I was just diagnosed with binge eating disorder by my psychiatrist and am wondering if there are any team members who also suffer from this disease. Looking forward to being on the team! Mon, 20 Mar 2017 08:34:41 EST Hello Hi. I'm Helen and I am new to SP. I have 50 lbs to lose and that seems very daunting. I suffer from depression and have been taking medication for a year. I'm also on medication for Hypothyroidism. <BR> I am a couch potato who has never liked exercise. I am so disappointed with myself for letting my weight get out of control because it just adds to my depression issues. I hope I can stick with this. xx Thu, 16 Mar 2017 09:55:11 EST Therapy Visit I llost sight of my priorities taking care of a friend.. and had not seen my therapist in several weeks. When I don't talk about what I am feeling my feelings come out "sideways" in terms of overeating. <BR> <BR> I deal with depression on a daily basis but I have learned some coping techniques. Most important I have learned how to ask for help. <BR> <BR> Taking an action, like joining Spark People -- and facing the reality that I have gained more weight and my joints are screaming "HELP"... Tue, 14 Mar 2017 17:54:07 EST Struggling to feel better Someone stopped talking to me and instead of letting go, I found out why because it was maddening to try and figure out what I did wrong. This person and I didn't speak often, but she informed me that I was too "negative and draining". I "saddened" her and "stressed" her out often and would impair her "recovery." First of all, I will admit that there was a time when I was going through a lot of anxiety. She mentioned she also had anxiety, so if I did mention being stressed, it's probably beca... Mon, 13 Mar 2017 05:01:33 EST To New Members Who Haven't Spoken Out Welcome. Look and you'll see that we've all stared down the same monsters. We'd like to be your friends and fight these battles with you, shoulder to shoulder, bolstering each other up. I hope you'll stay around long enough to start feeling comfortable enough with us to introduce yourself, so we can start to get to know you. Sun, 12 Mar 2017 18:51:02 EST Special treat I came upon this earlier Oh, just go ahead and see for yourselves: <BR> <BR> <link> </link> Sun, 12 Mar 2017 11:41:46 EST I want to be happy. I want to be finally happy with myself again. I struggle with my weight so much that it is the one thing I think about from the time I get up until I go to sleep. I am not happy with myself, because I have so much more going for me. I want to be able to have a better self image. Any help would be appreciated. I follow a wholesome whole foods diet and I exercise when I have the energy. Currently going through menopause so that makes it even harder. Encouragement and advice would be greatly app... Fri, 10 Mar 2017 10:38:47 EST Frustration So my PCP just put me on an antidepressant. I am so upset. Don't get me wrong, I find nothing wrong with antidepressants, it's just that my husband and I are trying to get pregnant and we have struggled with fertility. I don't want to take anything that can be dangerous. I am also on a blood thinner, so I am very limited as to what I can take due to the possibility of bleeding in the stomach. None of the antidepressants that are safe for pregnancy are on the list of ones that I can take.... Thu, 9 Mar 2017 15:47:43 EST New to the team and Excited! Hello Everyone! <BR> I'm Jess and I have been battling depression for a while now, being recently officially diagnosed with that and anxiety. I've been offered medication and seen a therapist, but I didn't find anything to help yet. Not sure if I even tried. <BR> <BR> I was on SP before and lost 50lbs in which the depression seem like it 'was gone' but something obviously triggered it back and caused me to gained the weight and some! I was blogging on a website that is no longer available... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 04:03:30 EST Message from Coach Jen "New Community Goal Feed" <BR> <BR> Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> I wanted to give you a heads up about a new feature we'll be launching in the next day or two. We're very excited to introduce our Community Goal Feed, a place to post updates and photos, share your goal progress and tell others a little more about yourself! This feed will be found on your Start page (on the full site) or homescreen (through the app). <BR> <BR> <BR> We think this feed will make it even easier for people to share... Tue, 7 Mar 2017 20:31:31 EST I'm New Hi Everyone. I'm new here. I kind of stumbled on the website as a whole but since I teach online it seems like my entire life is online now. That's good and bad I guess. I'm fairly recently disabled and use a wheelchair. I live with chronic pain and though many have urged me to just go on disability I would rather keep working as long as I'm able to so I teach though I don't know from one quarter to the next if I'll be offered a class to teach or how many. <BR> <BR> I have two adult daughter... Sun, 5 Mar 2017 14:20:18 EST Sue Bee Hi, I am a 65 year old grandma. I lost 70 pounds several years ago and kept it off for many years. However, I broke my arm and injured my knee which stopped my ability to exercise like I once did. If I exercise regularly I seem to be able to eat better. I have regained 45 pounds and feel terrible. It has been like a snowball effect. I am hoping to lose the weight and regain a healthy lifestyle even with a knee that hurts at times. Fri, 3 Mar 2017 12:21:20 EST Hello Everyone My name is Teresa and I live in the pollen swarmed state of South Carolina. I have an amazing husband of 16 years and two very beautiful daughters. I have battled depression off and on for years. I was in the hospital last year for 2 months and was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety disorder. I am taking Prozac and Ativan to try to control the emotions and prevent panic attacks. My mother died on Thanksgiving day and that has been the worst thing in my life in a very long time.... Thu, 2 Mar 2017 10:05:16 EST AARP Renew: "10 Things to Do Before 10 a.m." Some good ideas for days that get off to a difficult start. They are on page 7 in the link. They seem non-threatening enough and, if some are more daunting, all of the 10 tips can be rearranged to make them feel more doable. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ent/dam/UCP/Individual/AARP_Renew_News<BR>letter_PDP.pdf </link> Wed, 1 Mar 2017 15:21:09 EST Hello I'm 31 years old. I've been married for almost 13 years and I'm the proud mother of 2 children (12 year old son, 4 year old daughter). <BR> I joined Sparkpeople because I'm here to learn how to love me. Part of that is to love myself enough to live a healthy lifestyle. The plan that they have set for me is to weigh 130 lbs which I'm fine with, but if I'm honest...I don't have a set goal in mind at this point. My main focus is for me to love me. <BR> I'm currently suffering from PTSD and depr... Wed, 1 Mar 2017 12:07:45 EST Nice to meet you Hi, <BR> <BR> My name is Jennifer. I'm a graphic designer from Madison, Indiana. I used to be really active on SparkPeople, but I just sort of... quit. I'm back after a 9 year hiatus. It's time to refocus on taking care of myself as much as I do everyone else. Tue, 28 Feb 2017 23:05:13 EST Hello this is my first time with this. I am new, I am starting my weight loss journey again!!! lol I am glad to meet you all. Mon, 27 Feb 2017 17:17:31 EST Misplaced a big chunk of money... Hi everyone, <BR> I hope you all are doing good. <BR> As embarrassed I feel to write this down, I think I should. <BR> <BR> Fifteen days back, I got some money (solely my savings) and I kept it in the 'usual' drawer and locked it. <BR> <BR> Back, in my mind have already planned how will I save and how will I use for summer clothes. <BR> <BR> Yesterday (24 hours ago) I open that envelope and 1/4 the amount is missing. <BR> <BR> I did take some money before, but it should not be this LESS... Wed, 22 Feb 2017 06:58:25 EST Hello everyone My depression recently returned after many years of keeping it at bay. I don't know I will be able to fight it back again or if it will be sticking around for a while. I am only a few pounds overweight, and I actually usually LOSE weight when I'm depressed, but my husband has been feeding me a lot and so I am staying overweight for now. But I would like not to be, because being overweight contributes to my chronic pain, which doesn't help my depression. Anyway, hi everyone and good luck on yo... Tue, 21 Feb 2017 16:46:03 EST Introduction My name is Stacy, I am 42 years old, and have been a T1D for 41 years. I am new to this group and to this site. Very happy that I found this community. Also having been Diabetic for so long I am more than willing to give advice, and opinions on medications, meters, and pumps I've had experience with. Just ask and if I'm able to assist, I will certainly do so. Nice to "meet" you all! Sun, 12 Feb 2017 05:19:41 EST Self care going out the window I realized today that I used to get my exercise more regularly... eat better.... binge less.... and now I'm lucky to get up in enough time to dress properly and throw my hair in a ponytail.... its like I don't even care about how I look anymore or about taking care of myself......when did I stop caring???!!! This is a new low for me.....and it scares me :-( Thu, 9 Feb 2017 10:03:22 EST The Mental Health Side of Weight Loss Elizabeth Lowry (SPELIZABETH1) <BR> Assistant Editor <BR> Is needing some help. Please read the short post in the link, and if you can, help her. This would benefit many MANY people. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>oard.asp?imboard=7&amp;imparent=408653<BR>77&amp;strViewThisPage=1 </link> <BR> <BR> Thanks, <BR> Kris Wed, 8 Feb 2017 15:12:14 EST My husb and I Hi dear friends <BR> So here it is- <BR> <BR> My husband is always and I mean ALWAYS fixed to his mobile. <BR> It's been three years &amp; yes we do have our appreciation moments but then I'm not sure. <BR> <BR> 1) he travels a lot. He got back for for four days &amp; leaves Monday. But, then we have had no moments to ourselves. <BR> Our 'bedroom' life or sex life is almost nil. <BR> <BR> 2) I had a bad moment yesterday and I was crying he was sitting there listening but, then he had noth... Sat, 4 Feb 2017 11:33:51 EST Returning after losing and gaining again Hi, I lost weight about 3 yrs ago and I have gained it all back and more. I have thyroid issues and it has also been more difficult to lose weight and also feel better. I am hoping to get back into shape and find the motivation here again. I must feel better and also get healthy again. I am sure I will accomplish it if I keep it up! Sat, 4 Feb 2017 11:23:36 EST mama1234563 Hi! I'm Sharon from Kentucky. I joined spark people to add to my accountability and also to feel supported by and offer support to others on our journey to healthier living. I especially need the support of others, as I have a tendency to get discouraged and quit. I have, however, come a long way in my decision that I am worth the effort! Fri, 3 Feb 2017 16:38:20 EST Addictive self soother I over eat sweets, I don't exercise, consistently, I'm a recovering alcoholic and a cigarette smoker, Oh and I'm dyslexic, I welcome all support, thanks. Thu, 2 Feb 2017 10:18:01 EST Cello Ahoy hoy. <BR> <BR> Old new member of sparkpeople here. Been here before multiple times, but back with a new attitude, and better self confidence. <BR> <BR> I do experience depression, but have also had some hypomanic episodes which caused a whole ruckus, but was generally pretty entertaining at the time. <BR> <BR> Also tend to have this jerk called anxiety who likes to make life hell for me on occasion. I've seen people say, "my anxiety" this, and that, but I don't refer to it as my anxie... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 08:48:57 EST IS BEING SELF EMPLOYED THE ANSWER? hi i have a question, do you think it is better for people who suffer from depression and anxiety to be self employed rather than working for someone or something? can you give me your ideas? thanks! Sun, 29 Jan 2017 09:19:41 EST Newly Diagnosed Hello everyone. I've recently been diagnosed with depression after struggling for over a year with what I thought were symptoms of hypothyroidism. I'm feeling a little lost and confused with this information, but hoping that the treatment plan I was given (antidepressant and therapy) will help. <BR> <BR> I am a single mom to one almost 13 year old boy. I'm a licensed teacher working as an administrative assistant in a school after my position was eliminated and I was unable to find another. ... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 09:00:12 EST hello I am a 71 year old who has been told by my Dr. that I have to loose weight. Cut the carbs he says. So here goes. I know I will feel better and it will solve my heath issues by doing this. So here I am and the treadmill is set up as well so lets hope I can stick to it. Sat, 28 Jan 2017 14:11:30 EST Hi Everyone! I've been diagnosed with depression for over 25 years and 8 years ago I suffered a grievous injury that had me quite disabled for several years. Needless to say, the depression really escalated. I'm on the other side of all that now, but I'm hauling around an extra 40+ pounds due to the inactivity and stuffing my face when I'm feeling down. <BR> <BR> I'm a pro "starter" of weight loss programs. LOL When I start to slide though or have a bad day, I end up feeling bad and end up losing all th... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 08:35:23 EST Just getting started Hello, I'm a 45 years old. Four years ago I was diagnosed with manic depression, bi-polar disorder and anxiety induced OCD. <BR> <BR> I have worked very hard with therapy and meds to level myself out to a functioning state. As of last week my doctor let me know that my physical health has declined and its time to do something about it. So while I'm on the upswing in the bi-polar spectrum I'm trying to concentrate on the healthy eating and trying to exercise. I've been told that this w... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 12:23:39 EST BEING NEW HERE HI I JUST JOINED THIS FORUM TODAY, HOPING THIS WILL BE A GOOD THING FOR ME TO HELP ME HELP MYSELF WITH MY UPS AND DOWNS.... <em>249</em> Wed, 25 Jan 2017 15:24:05 EST Hello Hi I'm Laura. I have Bipolar Disorder 2 with mostly depressive episodes. I have a lot of weight to lose (100 lbs). I am a full time music teacher and mom and wife. I love walking outside, doing yoga, reading and hanging out with my family. Listening to music helps calm me and I am working on eating healthier and exercising more... I also have lots of physical ailments, but I am working through those too. Just wanted to introduce myself... <BR> <BR> Laura Sat, 21 Jan 2017 14:08:27 EST Hi! Happy to be here Heloo! I am looking to form healthy habits, including eating 'like a normal person'! I think i just need a bit of daily support and hopefully to support others. I dont count calories or do temporary diets as i just feel restricted then eat more. Im quite stressed atm but i think i need to still try to eat normally, because a bit of weight loss might help me feel better! Looking forward to meeting people on here. <BR> Fri, 20 Jan 2017 00:53:17 EST I want to enjoy every second Hi <BR> <BR> Im new to SparkPeople but have been on CalorieCount(shutting down in March) since 2011. Ive decided to really put my whole heart into it here and have been logging every day since I joined. I have also been making the effort to keep my heart happy which to me means paying attention to what I let into my life and my body, no animal products, nothing that has been tested on animals and less alcohol :) I want to be my healthiest me which includes mind, body and heart. <BR> <BR> T... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 09:51:45 EST Meet Mama P I am excited to be joining this site. So many great opportunities for support. Looking forward to the next 30+ years of life in a healthy, joy filled, productive way. Leaving 30 years of grief, loss, illness, fear and doubt in the dust!! Thanks to my friend Amy for introducing me and being my accountability partner in this journey. May this journey ignite a positive spark. Wed, 18 Jan 2017 16:50:54 EST Trying to Find My Happy Place. Hello! My names Kimberly. I have tried using this site several times and didn't succeed. Well, this time I have found more motivation and I am ready to start something new. I currently am struggling with my depression. It keeps me up most nights. I used to be able to control it with reading and writing but lately that doesn't seem to help. I am turning to diet and exercise. I heard somewhere that a daily exercise routine can help improve someones mood so here I am again reaching out. Wed, 18 Jan 2017 14:55:44 EST Fear of being JUDGED Coming from a broken home and as an addict in recovery and so much more I am a shame to mention. I have fear of being judged or be frowned upon because of me and my past. I dont know why I feel this way. I have overcame and dealt with that part of my life and given myself time to recover and move on. Now that I'm on track and want to do "normal" things Ive never given myself the chance to do, I freak out cuz all the emotions from my past creep up on me 1 by 1. I feel that all this and more ha... Tue, 17 Jan 2017 08:50:15 EST Having a rough time of it I had one of the most difficult counseling appointments yesterday. I try to leave everything in that office when I leave, but this time I just can't seem to do that. I did not sleep at all last night because I had too much on my mind and now I am feeling it today at work. It is going to be a very long and tiring day. I can't seem to pull myself together and out of the funk that I am in. Tue, 17 Jan 2017 07:56:13 EST Starting SparkPeople today Hi Everyone, <BR> My name is Cindy, 53 yrs old, married, and stay at home wife. I get pretty bored when my better half is out of town working 2-3 weeks at a time. We just moved from Florida to Alabama to be close to the grandkids 2, 8 and 15 all boys. <BR> don't know anyone yet. I am not much of a people person. I have knee and back problems, so I need a program at home. My doctor told me I needed to lose weight and solve my low energy. I am addicted to the computer or busy making a quilt. I ... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 17:20:58 EST *insert overused title here* Hi I'm Stacy, freelance artist and stay at home mom. Also an owner of an anxiety disorder along with depression. I had gastric bypass in 2011 and lost a lot of weight, then gained half of it back due to a drinking problem I developed I think mostly because after my bypass I couldn't take any antidepressants that worked anymore. <BR> But now I have a fitbit and have stopped drinking as of january 1st and have been tracking my food intake and just generally trying to take better care of myself... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 21:42:44 EST I really want to do this! Hi, I was in a car accident 18 yrs ago and gained 90 lbs.u I don't motve well. I tend to focus on what I can't do rather than what I can. . I can do light exercise and ride a bike. Would love to get myself back in the pool. Joined Spark People for help and support Sun, 15 Jan 2017 20:48:50 EST Just me Not sure what y'all would like to know. I'm a 50+ female that has suffered from an odd form of bipolar disorder for most of my life. I am here to improve myself in all ways possible and that means getting the depression side of things back under control. I have been through a LOT including the lovely drug therapies, so if you have any questions, feel free to ask. If I do not know something I will tell you and then go off on a quest to find the answer. Sat, 14 Jan 2017 14:05:48 EST Another newbie here! Hello all! <BR> I just joined today and am here to live a healthier life because of some health issues I have. I'm 26 years old, turning 27 this year. I hope to make some friends to join me in both my bad and good days during this journey! I've been depressed since childhood and also have problems with anxiety. It's not as bad with any of those these days though, but sometimes I have worse periods as well. I don't really know what else to write, so please feel free to ask questions! Sat, 14 Jan 2017 13:57:24 EST Weight Loss Ticker? Could someone please tell me how to find the weight loss ticker? This is my first day and I would like to add it to my Spark page to follow my weight loss and to hopefully motivate others who visit my page. :) Sat, 14 Jan 2017 11:35:02 EST Hello Hello I'm new to the group and the site and everything. Fighting a depression. My husband and I are getting over the flu and it's very very cold outside I haven't left the house much lately. With challenges weights and video I've gotten some exercises so that's a start. Sat, 14 Jan 2017 06:23:22 EST a little about myself hello, <BR> i am charlette i have 3 children 1 boy 2 girls <BR> i have 2 babies that died in the womb one being recent back in october. <BR> i had the surgery in november and i was told i needed to get healthy and it has pushed me to finally getting things together. my weight goes up and down and by joining here i am hoping to gain control over my wight gain, heal and refine myself in the process. Fri, 13 Jan 2017 01:09:00 EST Depression is affecting my earning ability Hi everyone. First, let me tell you that I have been diagnosed as "treatment resistant." I've taken every single anti-depressant there is, and within 6 months, I'm at maximum dose and then they stop working. So going to the doctor is not going to help. They have given up on me. <BR> <BR> I can usually pull myself out of my depression long enough to function halfway normally. I work from home, and I'm in control of how much and when I work, which is the only way I can work due to my depressio... Wed, 11 Jan 2017 18:28:52 EST Hi Everyone Hi all, <BR> <BR> I'm not new to SP but I'm new here. I used SP in my initial weight loss journey years ago and have returned to help myself with accountability now that it's all back after grad school and beginning my career. I never suffered with depression until last year when my boyfriend, tragically passed away. We both knew from the start this was "it" and we were on the fast track to our happily ever after. Nearly a year later (a year in less than a week, wow), I am ready to s... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 16:59:16 EST introduction HI!! I'm new to all this and I'm hoping that with the right support from people who go through the same things in life can give motivation to me as well as i to others. I'm 28 and a single mother of a 7 year old. And all I want is to overcome my depression and emotional eating so I can give myself and daughter a happier healthier life. I've started over the summer but had many ups and downs, but have lost 15lbs so far, but still need to lose about 80 more. I'm hoping support from spark will g... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 20:26:10 EST Carol I am a grandmother of 1, a retired Probate Paralegal of 38 years, and have been diagnosed with NASH a few years ago and just days ago I have been diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease and full blown type 2 diabetes. Medications affect my cirrhosis so I need to lose 50 pounds and get back to good and healthy living. I am raising my 6 year old grandson and have many stressful times with my daughter, his mother. I also need to learn how to handle the stresses in my life without letting them tota... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 18:52:01 EST I'm brand new to this! I'm Angie and I have just joined SparkPeople. I'm very nervous right now! I'm not good at dieting or exercising. I'm 57 yrs. old and would like to lose 95 lbs. When I was 21, I never imagined that I would gain so much weight! But 30 years later, bad relationships, being a sing mom, a divorce, and currently in a sad marriage, I've given up on me. I don't want to give up. Now that I've joined Sparks, I have to be accountable. In all honesty, I am scared to death! I'm afraid I'll fail. ... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 15:01:20 EST 2017 Im taking my life back! Im 37 yrs old and have fought my weight my whole life my kids are grown and out of the house so its my time to work on me!! Fri, 6 Jan 2017 11:19:21 EST New Diagnosis Its been an interesting year. Fell off the bandwagon too many times to count last year. Had a suck year financially. The one thing good that has come out of all of it was my coming to terms with my new diagnosis of Bipolar 2. It explained a lot of my behaviors while not minimizing my depression. I didn't realize that if you wake up out of a dead sleep at 2am and have a driving need to clean your kitchen that minute it would be considered a manic episode. Manic episodes aren't like they ... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 01:05:51 EST Getting up again I've had lots of setbacks in my life. Its just time to get up again! I'm about 50 lbs heavier than i want to be, so here i am. I'm planning on loosing 2 lbs per week and reaching my first goal by July 4th. I'm going to walk 5 miles a day to loose the first pound per week and im going to cut 500 calories per day to loose the 2nd pound per week. <BR> Some of my setbacks include Amputated right foot (Hit by 16 year old driver while i was jogging) <BR> right shoulder messed up in same acciden... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 06:44:30 EST Hi, new here Hey. My name...well, just call me Tiger, if that's all right. I've been overweight for a long time, probably because of depression meds I used to take screwing with my metabolism, but that's just a theory. I know a big part of it's because I'm lazy XD. Trying to change that. <BR> <BR> I do suffer from depression, but I try not to let that define me. It's an ongoing battle, of course. I just hope to be able to drop 50 pounds or so and put myself at a healthy weight. I used to be motivated, I ... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 23:09:15 EST My name is Kelly I have 2 babies, Sophie will be 5 in February and Sammuel will be 2 in September. I have been battling depression since Sophie was born. I was 18 at the time and thought my whole world was ending. It got worse when Sophie's dad left me after she was born. I am taking medication for it. It helps most days but everyone has their "downs". I don't really eat all that much but most of the things I eat are not really healthy (if at all). So here is the "New Year New Me" chant about getting my life ... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 16:03:19 EST Hoping to lose weight Hello all, I am joining today hoping to lose 25 lbs by my 60th birthday April 14th I know that following this program I have a better chance than doing it alone. Mon, 2 Jan 2017 18:55:07 EST Birdies! I love my birds, but I don't put out the feeder till later in the season. We get hummingbirds galore down here in NM. Last year I had the pleasure of watching a pair of orioles trying to drink out of the hummingbird feeder. It was hilarious! <BR> <BR> Right now I have curve billed thrashers, doves, quail, and further toward the river there are sandhill cranes squawking up a storm. I love our birds. <BR> <BR> In other news I am starting back up with walking. Day two of managing to get on th... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 18:44:21 EST New username: Sexybeans I have been wanting to embrace my physical body in a new way and am finally brave enough to do that. I have decided to go with a new username. One that entails my new decision: Sexybeans. I always thought of being sexy as sinful. But, the more I think about it, the more I want to think of myself that way. It's not awful or dirty or sinful as I was taught. I mean, part of me still thinks that, but, it is who I am. I want to embrace it and enjoy it. Mon, 2 Jan 2017 05:26:10 EST Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Hi I,m a new member and wanted to introduce myself and ask for help. I have been in a dark place for quite a while with a number of health issues which make it very difficult for me to exercise. The CFS means I sleep a lot and have little to no energy, whilst the depression means I cry a lot and have little motivation. My darling husband of 41 years of marriage is slowly dying of alzheimers (he was diagnosed in 2010) and I am finding it extremely difficult todeal with the whole situation. <BR... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 20:45:31 EST Treating depression with diet? My doctor wants me to go grain free because he says it causes inflammation and interferes with hormone balance. He thinks the change will help with my depression, migraines, arthritis, and effects of multiple sclerosis. Has anyone else been told this? Anyone tried dietary changes to treat any medical issues? I also need to lose about 90 pounds so I am going to try to do both at once. Sat, 31 Dec 2016 10:56:04 EST Thinking about quitting therapy Hi All <BR> <BR> I'm thinking about quitting therapy for good next year. My therapist means well and is usually nice. She has said many hurthful things but she says she does not mean to hurt me intentionally. I am extremely sensitive so I wonder is it me or her. Confused. I have many things that are going on with me. She specializes in one of the things I have and its very hard to find a therapist who can work with me. That is why I feel that if I leave I am not doing it again. So to the poi... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 10:17:43 EST Depression Isn't Just a State of Mind <link><BR>amage/ </link> <BR> <BR> I've always thought that my depression wasn't just me not doing something right, and this article backs up what I've always known! <BR> <BR> Fri, 30 Dec 2016 22:17:13 EST New to the group! Hello everyone! My name is Melonie. I am new to 'this' group but not to Spark. My dad passed away on Veteran's day in 2015 and it seems that since then I had more 'bad' days then good. I struggle every day to try to make myself have a good day for my family. I feel like, to my mom and her side of the family, I am not supposed to grieve for him since they divorced over 30 years ago and I guess the reason. But, I cant help it. Most days, just looking at a photo of his or even the thought ... Thu, 29 Dec 2016 15:35:39 EST VoiceOfAnEagle2 Hi there! Happy New Years everyone. I am here to make major changes in my life this year because if I don't I won't be here next year. I am fifty years old and I am fighting bad habits that I need to break. I am looking forward to joining this team of people and meeting my goals along with all of the rest of you. <BR> Sincerely, Brenda. Wed, 28 Dec 2016 19:45:00 EST Hi, my name is Winnie I have been in need of a diet for years, this is the day. I am hoping for support to get rid of about 50lbs Wed, 28 Dec 2016 11:38:42 EST WebMD: "10 Ways to Control Your Eating" In case any of these tips are new to someone. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ays-to-control-eating </link> Sat, 24 Dec 2016 09:35:03 EST WebMD: "How to be happier" A slide show of things most of us know, but too easily forget to put into practice. This is a good time of year for the reminders. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>e-happier </link> Fri, 23 Dec 2016 21:34:20 EST Puppies fix boredom...and sadness and more It's long been known that having a pet or simply being where animals are (I've always been happy watching squirrels be squirrely and seeing sparrows hopping along) is healthy. I don't know the reasons that psychologists offer for the health benefits. I just chalk it up to having a living creature to take care of while making no demands -- unless you count things like having to walk a dog. I'm certainly not discounting people, but they're a different story. <BR> <BR> This short video is a ... Fri, 23 Dec 2016 14:57:46 EST New to group: Isn't anger a form of depression? Hello Everyone <BR> <BR> I'm not new to SP, just new to this group. I've been dealing with a family member who has NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) and it's not only affected our long-term relationship, but they've also taken their kids away so that I have no contact with them - removed them from my Facebook friends list and blocked me so I cannot contact them. To say I'm angry is an understatement. And, unfortunately, my usual go-to response is to sabotage weight-loss ... Tue, 20 Dec 2016 14:06:58 EST Hello All! My name is Greta and I am endeavoring to lose 50 pounds over the next year. I'm planning to go slowly because it's going to require a lifestyle change because my current habits are awful and are what got me here in the first place. I am committed to getting started and am open to all helpful advice. Sun, 18 Dec 2016 14:50:33 EST new girl Hey y'all, <BR> <BR> I just joined this site today, so I'm still figuring out the navigation, but I was added to this team so I figured I'd introduce myself. <BR> <BR> My name's Mae, I'm thirty three, and I was just diagnosed with depression this year(after half a lifetime of dealing with it silently). I was always the type that turned to food when depressed or bored, or you know, any other time. The past year has brought a lot of changes to my life. Somewhere along the way something s... Sat, 17 Dec 2016 20:28:47 EST Newbie Hello! My name is Janel. Raspberry who is a member of this team told me about you all and I thought I would give it a try since I suffer from anxiety and depression. Everyday is a challenge but I always am able to think of a way to make my day nicer or try to distract myself when I am feeling bad. My motto is to think, believe and achieve. If I think I am having a great day and I am happy I will believe it and then I can overcome these feelings. Of course I do have my days where this is diffi... Wed, 14 Dec 2016 15:48:33 EST In a wheelchair from an accident a year and a half My name is Mary and I am trying to find out how to live this NEW NORMAL Tue, 13 Dec 2016 01:47:09 EST Avoidance I'm going to try to keep a long story short. I'm 35 and have been dealing with depression since I was 11. There is one particular manifestation that I have no idea if it is common or if it's just me. It has to do with competition. I'm sure people can relate to years of feeling worthless and like I'm not good enough, leading to an unhealthy level of perfectionism. So I avoid competition, not because I'm a sore loser, but because I don't like the dark thoughts and feelings it dredges up wh... Fri, 9 Dec 2016 11:07:37 EST Anxiety and depression I have been stable for many years. Suddenly I've got anxiety gnawing at my stomach. I find myself unwilling to go out. I've stopped doing much of anything. I've been on effexor for almost 20 years. Has any one else had this problem? Fri, 9 Dec 2016 11:01:43 EST Hi There! I am 55 years old and want to lose weight. I need support from new friends I hope to meet here. Fri, 9 Dec 2016 04:01:24 EST Introduce myself Hello. I have been struggling with depression for almost 40 years. I am so sick of it messing with my life. I have tried so many medications but none of them help very much. I will turn 60 in January and I am very happily married. I need to lose weight but due to health problems especially in my back it's hard to get any exercise. I want to feel better so I am going to try to lose weight but it will be slow. Thu, 8 Dec 2016 23:25:02 EST A Better Day Thanks to everyone for your concern. Feeling better today. Don't know what was going on with the BP but it was 92/65, and pulse was 63. Got out for a short time this morning despite the fact that it was 1 degree out. Fresh air made me feel better. Still not much energy for exercise but will get in some sitting ones done before the day is over. Have a great day everyone!! <em>304</em> Thu, 8 Dec 2016 16:07:53 EST Surviving the Holidays Ok everyone! What are your best ideas, tips, advice on maintaining your healthy eating and exercise habits during the holidays. I am really struggling this time of year with all of the parties, yummy cookies, and homemade candies. I know....everything in moderation....but sometimes that is super difficult! Any and all ideas welcomed!!!! Thanks in advance! Thu, 8 Dec 2016 08:19:21 EST Started my fitness challenge . Today is my Day 1 After gaining abou 22 kg i decided to lose weight for a better shape and gain back my life. I need your support. Tue, 6 Dec 2016 09:28:14 EST First Go Around I've never been part of a group that supports other people that suffer from Depression. I've fought it most of my life. I'm actually having to go back on medicine because we've added another member to our family recently and I'm not really sleeping at all. It's made it difficult to find the energy or the motivation to do much more than get the laundry done. I want to get into shape because it'll help me sleep better and help me fight to go back off medicine. My goal is to get off the medicine... Mon, 5 Dec 2016 18:23:03 EST Trauma and Grief Hi All: I am new to this forum and new to Spark People. My youngest son passed away a year ago at age 21. I have been walking around in a fog for the past year, lost interest in everything, I spent a lot of time hiding from the world. I really want "me" back. I know I will not be the same person, but the new me should not have that extra 40lbs on board. I am ready to get back to exercise and enjoying life. Joining a group like this will hopefully keep me accountable when I feel like hi... Sat, 3 Dec 2016 08:19:40 EST Healing from Depression Interesting article in my inbox this morning, &amp; I wanted to share it with you. The article itself is interesting, but at the end are links for various resources for depression. <BR> <BR> Healing from Depression: It Begins With Asking for Help <BR> By Doug Walsh <BR> <BR> Adult Man Crying <BR> <BR> “I speak of a clinical depression that is the background of your entire life, a background of anguish and anxiety, a sense that nothing goes well, that pleasure is unavailable and all your s... Thu, 1 Dec 2016 14:15:20 EST Newbie Hello, <BR> <BR> My name is Kewanna and I am from North Carolina. I have been dealing with depression for most of my life. Lately it has been really difficult for me. It always is around this time of year. I have two great kids and spouse. I'm very thankful that they are in my life and I often refer to them as my center because they are my purpose in life. My son will be 18 next year and my daughter is about to turn 16. I have a sweet cat named cookie who is the most spoiled pet I ever had.... Wed, 30 Nov 2016 13:57:01 EST Coping with Family needs We are again coping with family depression needs -- which is the main reason I joined this team initially - learning and better sense of where we are at. It comes up periodically. Hopefully it is a seasonal type of thing - still figuring it out. I need patience and ability to do well as I am more around the family member during the day than anyone else. Wed, 30 Nov 2016 10:34:29 EST Hello everyone. I am brand new to this. I'm hoping for a fresh start to go with the New Year. I want to look and feel better. Mon, 28 Nov 2016 03:54:32 EST Help Hi, again.. My name is Bonnie and i use to belong here a very long time ago, now i am back for another try. I really need to loose weight for health reasons. Be stern with me and honest, and maybe i can do it this time. Thank you. <BR> Sat, 26 Nov 2016 14:31:44 EST Hello from Baltimore Hi all. My main fitness goals are to be more disciplined in my workout schedule, and to get strong enough to do full form pushups. A longer term goal that I cherish is to be able to do a pull-up. I'm 5'6" and currently weight 148. I've weighed as much as 210 and a few years ago lost 85 lbs over about 1.5 yrs. I couldn't maintain my weight at 125 without seriously restricting calories, and I got a little obsessed with being thin, so I don't have a specific weight loss goal. I also no lon... Mon, 21 Nov 2016 07:25:28 EST Negative emotions key to well being <link><BR>rticle/negative-emotions-key-well-being/ </link> Sat, 19 Nov 2016 20:52:40 EST feeling lost, and like a failure hey ... I'm new but feeling realllllllll low, and lost <BR> ok back story, my daughter has a daughter who is 15 almost 16 months old. and is pregnant with her second.. due any day now. <BR> well I had my older granddaughter due to her having been at the dr and the doctor giving her a shot to start putting her into labor, but with having fe (granddaughter) my daughter asked me to keep fe until she had 2nd so that if she went into labor in the middle of the night she wouldn't have to wake h... Sat, 19 Nov 2016 18:54:24 EST Hi Everyone Hello, My name is Diann Hart from Detroit,Michigan. I lost weight before some years ago. So I'm confident that I can lose the weight I need to lose but I need a little push this time and that is why I'm here. I hope I can get the encouragement I really need at this time and I hope in return I can encourage someone else. Thank You All <BR> Tue, 15 Nov 2016 21:44:09 EST WebMD: "Foods that Help Fight Depression" Friends, I have no idea how accurate the info is and thought I'd pass it along so that you can judge for yourselves. Maybe some of our team knows more about this. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>w-foods-fight-depression </link> Tue, 15 Nov 2016 18:24:07 EST New Member Hello, all! <BR> <BR> My names Emma: I was diagnosed with depression a little less than two years ago, and have been on medication since. While I have learned to deal with my depression quite well, my medicine, I think, has caused weight gain. Last year, around October, I weighed 170 pounds; since then I have managed to lose 13-15 of those pounds (the exact number depends on the day), but I've hit a rut. I'm so tired of counting calories and worrying about what I eat! But I really want to h... Tue, 15 Nov 2016 14:45:17 EST Elsa Hello, I am Elsa. This is the first time I do something like this so I am not sure how it goes. I need to lose weight. I want to lose weight. However, I am succumbing to temptations. I am also dealing with a very slow metabolism because I am going through a medical induced menopause. I work out 3 to 4 times a week for about 45 minutes, mostly cardio. I do not think exercising is my problem, eating is my problem. Any words of encouragement are appreciated. <BR> <BR> Elsa Tue, 15 Nov 2016 14:17:33 EST Do you know what today is?????? Today is my BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! I made it another year!!!! Tue, 15 Nov 2016 10:14:19 EST Glee LaVroff Just found out I am Diabetic! I need a mjeal plan for every day, because I don't know where to start! Mon, 14 Nov 2016 15:55:08 EST HELP!!! I have to lose at least 40 lbs in order to have my knee replaced and I can barely walk so exercising is a challenge, plus I just can't seem to get on the weight loss wagon. I am so frustrated that I think I'm going to start and then blow it that day or even after one day. I just have no desire to do this. I have been fat my whole life and probably have lost over 500 lbs collectively so I know I can lose weight, but just keep regaining it and now I can't seem to get started again knowing th... Sun, 13 Nov 2016 16:55:37 EST Taking the plunge... Hello Everyone I am new here! My name is Ashley. My weight has always fluctuated and I am now at 235lbs (Previously 250 before moving to a new state). A lot of my weight is my own fault...I have dealt with major anxeity, depression, panic disorder for many years, and most recently agoraphobia. I am not proud of myself and it has been a dark long journey.. I have always had a skewed perspective of how I look. In the past when I was 150, I was in the best shape of my life. I worked out all the... Fri, 11 Nov 2016 01:34:02 EST Taking a brand new step I am starting to take control of my self esteem today. I am starting to work on my weight and feeling good about myself. I have had problems with depression for about 4 years. My current doctor has me on a good med that helps me sleep. I feel like a new person each day now. I started the Skinny Jeans Challenge today. The four butt busting exercises busted my butt! :) <BR> I can't wait to see a difference and I know it is one day at a time and to stay positive. Hopefully you all can help me in... Thu, 10 Nov 2016 18:31:01 EST New I just joined the team and wanted to say hello. Wed, 9 Nov 2016 18:07:22 EST Starting over again!! Hi, I came here several years ago when I was in TOPS. The advice I got really helped me. NOW, I need help again. I am 70 years old and have been retired for a year and a half. I have become very lax on what I eat and the amount of exercise I get. I have gained about 15 lbs. and gained too many inches. I know the right things to do, but I don't do them so am hoping with your help I can achieve my goals. I was a physical therapy tech for the last 10 years. I have been married to my best friend ... Tue, 8 Nov 2016 20:29:08 EST SRI vs.SSRI for mild chronic depression? <link>;a.htm </link> <BR> <BR> Or maybe another type of medication is better? Or no medication but something else? Do you have any opinions on the best medication for Dysthymic Disorder? <BR> <BR> Reading this article made me nervous because it said that someone with "low-grade" depression for years or even decades, will eventually have bouts of major depression and that they are more likely to be suicidal than people with acute depression. Now that I don't hav... Sat, 5 Nov 2016 16:52:03 EST Just joined! Over 55, living with depression and fibromyalgia.....weight loss will help.... Sat, 5 Nov 2016 15:15:12 EST New user Hi. I am new. I have 30 lbs to lose and a real affinity for laying around and hiding from people due to low grade depression. Grateful to be here :) Fri, 4 Nov 2016 23:34:24 EST Holidays Hello there. I am a single 30 year old female who has been struggling with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I have always forced myself to spend the holidays with my family. However, I have been in therapy for a while and only recently started bringing a lot of very painful memories from my childhood. I am really not looking forward to spending the holidays with my family this year. <BR> <BR> My family lives about 20 minutes away, but I get very anxious any time I know ... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 18:45:19 EST Born with Depression...? <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Hi everyone. I'm new - please bare with me... <BR> <BR> Kind of an emotional moment when you sign on to a forum titled 'Dealing with Depression'. <BR> <BR> I guess this is because I don't allow myself to think about how it continues to affect me... How it's always been there. I wondered if anyone else feels as though they were born with Depression? <BR> <BR> I can remember feeling / being depressed as a very young child and although it doesn't seem po... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 14:31:34 EST Journaling I am struggling to get into the habit of journaling my food/drink intake. I do well for a while then I miss a day or a meal and I just can't seem to get back on top of it. Did anyone else struggle with this and how did you get into the habit of doing this on a regular basis. Tue, 1 Nov 2016 09:44:52 EST Fall is in the air. Is this a new challenge? The days are getting shorter, the birds are flocking and heading south. Mother nature is doing her best to forewarn us of the cold winter ahead. If your in California you probably think I'm loopy. Here in Michigan this is our wake-up call.It's an animals instinct to hoard food for the long winter ahead. The only problem is we don't need to hoard our food. I feel challenged when it's cold out and you want a nice hot bowl of chili or "Hot chocolate" or some other form of comfort food. So when M... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 16:04:39 EST I'm exhausted hi sparkies. <BR> I hope you all are having a beautiful Monday. <BR> Well, I have few things which are totally exhausting me. <BR> <BR> This is going to get really long <BR> <BR> 1- My kids (twin boys) - Oh I love them, Yet, they do not do their chores waste time. They are 11 (twins) and I know this is natural. But, I wold like to transform them to more independence. ( doing h.w on tme, setting the bag, cleaning the floor after bath) <BR> <BR> Sadly, my husband DOES NOT stand up for me. He... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 07:08:49 EST New Here! HI I'm Becky! I just signed up to SparkPeople today. I have been on the weightloss journey for over 7 years now. I struggle with Depression, and It's been weighing heavy on me the past year. Making it difficult to stay focused on my goals. I'm looking forward to being part of a group who knows the struggle! Thanks! Sun, 30 Oct 2016 16:48:41 EST restarting yet again hi I'm Samantha.... I have 2 teens in my house *step kids* I also am awaiting the birth of my 2nd granddaughter. I have suffered depression for as long as I can remember and life with 2 teens makes it worse at times. I am hoping that maybe losing weight will help my head to find a new thing to grab on and not to shut down and dwell on what I cant change Sun, 30 Oct 2016 01:52:39 EST Arthritis and Ulcerative Colitis I am overweight dealing with depression, heart issues, UC and arthritis. I have to wear oxygen 24/7. Walking is hard and I spend a lot of time playing on the IPad, doing puzzles. I need to lose weight but it is hard with pulmonary hypertension. I was a Spark People member a long time ago. Glad to be back. Fri, 28 Oct 2016 16:20:40 EST New to SparkPeople Hi All, I'm a newbie. My goals are to add regular exercise to my daily routine and learn how to eat healthier. I'm a very busy working mom to three kids so my life is basically a juggling act. I find myself exhausted most of the time and I think that things could improve if I took better care of myself. I'm guilty of letting myself go, which is something I never thought I would do. I'm making myself a priority which will hopefully be a positive impact to all of my family. Fri, 28 Oct 2016 11:57:38 EST Hi everyone I am new to 2...but I started losing 3 months ago. I have been dealing with depression, stress and anxiety disorders with agoraphobia since 1998. I now take a few meds to help with the stress and anxiety but have been off any to treat my depression specifically for almost 10 yrs, I am sure that the ones I do take still help with it. I did however spent a lot of years in therapy to get that far. <BR> <BR> I have been overweight since childhood and now I need both knees repl... Thu, 27 Oct 2016 23:03:51 EST Missed This Group So Much Hi, everyone! I just wanted to let everyone who I usually talk to on this team that everything is going okay. I haven't posted in a while because I really needed to take the time to focus on being content with myself and the people around me on a daily basis. I will post more later when I am less tired, but you all have been in my thoughts and prayers! Wed, 26 Oct 2016 21:50:07 EST A New Journey, A New Season of Life! Hello my name is Loretta, and I was introduced to Spark by attending an Health Expo, a few years ago. I have started, and stopped the program a few times, however I'm glad to say this time I'm fully committed to better health. I do want to join a walking club with other beginners, who live near by, I feel if I have someone to motivate me I will be more accountable. So if there are people looking to team up with me, please let know. Thanks! Tue, 25 Oct 2016 14:13:48 EST A New Journey, A New Season of Life! Hello my name is Loretta, and I was introduced to Spark by attending an Health Expo, a few years ago. I have started, and stopped the program a few times, however I Tue, 25 Oct 2016 14:08:58 EST Family illness This may sound strange, but I struggle with depression when someone at home is ill with a virus or whatever. It puts me in more of a caretaker /nurse role, which is harder for me. The funny thing is that I wanted to be a nurse as a child! Actually, my husband is much better in this role than I am, but I am the housewife/available caretaker while he is at work. I can do it, but it is harder for me. So..... a family virus is taking its toll on me in overeating, planning my day, etc. NOT h... Tue, 25 Oct 2016 13:00:54 EST Low Carb Diet I just saw my PCP yesterday to discuss my fasting glucose level and my insulin resistance level. My fasting glucose level was high and my insulin resistance is high. I was told that I am on the verge of being diabetic. My PCP sent in a prescription for Metformin. She did tell me that the medication alone may help me with my weightloss efforts, but she also put me on a low carb diet of 150 grams a day. She is closely supervising this diet. I am excited about having the close watch and su... Tue, 25 Oct 2016 10:00:58 EST Hello everyone!! Hello to everyone. I am happy to join the team. I deal with depression and have since I was 13. I am now 40 and I have three beautiful teenagers and a wonderful husband who does his very best to try and help and support me in my ups and downs. I think a huge issue for me is my weight. In being honest, I hate myself and how I look. I know it probably sounds odd being I have so much to be happy about but I do find myself hating how I look. I weigh 266 lbs as of last night when I joined. ... Sun, 23 Oct 2016 16:26:59 EST Beginning of a long adventure! Hi, I'm Charie and I need to change my habits. I am going to lose 50 lbs no matter how long it takes. Right now my biggest challenges include being a full-time student, part-time employee, and a full-time volunteer. I feel as if I never have enough hours in the day. Hopefully I will be inspired by other members. Today the journey begins! Sat, 22 Oct 2016 20:24:01 EST Hi, new member here I'm not sure if it's depression or not but I surely have low self esteem since childhood. <BR> <BR> Lately I feel like my whole life is moving toward destruction. My career seem lead to no where, I couldn't find motivation to do my job at work (although I still doing my job after some struggles). My marriage is a ruin and I don't have any motivation to fix it. <BR> <BR> But still I have my son and have quite some laugh every day. <BR> <BR> I have this feeling that I can't see things would... Fri, 21 Oct 2016 00:33:47 EST Today I'm Greatful For..... My job, my family, a roof over my head, a husband that loves me the way that I am, and COFFEE!!! Thu, 20 Oct 2016 11:15:22 EST Colleen Hi I'm Colleen. Wed, 19 Oct 2016 12:27:07 EST "The Most Popular Book the Year You Were Born" A good book has no age. Here are lots of them, some I've read, others not and still others I've never heard of. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>style/g560/most-popular-book-year-you-<BR>were-born/ </link> Sun, 16 Oct 2016 11:55:25 EST What are your plans for today? Later today, I am going shopping and then, going out for Sunday dinner with my husband. Sun, 16 Oct 2016 10:46:06 EST If you can share, was your Mom depressed? I've been thinking a lot about my Mom and her depression. She's been gone for several years so I can't ask her. But I remember when she was put on medication (Prozac) about 30 years ago. She didn't stay on the pills because she didn't like how it made her feel and I don't recall her trying any other medication. She always had weight and body issues. (It didn't help having a cheating husband who constantly remarked about her weight.) She was always depressed growing up but that may have been s... Sun, 16 Oct 2016 04:53:06 EST I'm Back I'm a 50 yr old grandmother of 3 boys. I have General Anxiety Disorder. I was in this group in 2012. I wasn't very active but I'm back and trying to make an effort this time. I hope to make new friends here. Sat, 15 Oct 2016 23:32:22 EST Fitness Buddy Seeking a partner in crime - oops - I mean, a fitness buddy. I am 43 and recently passed into the 300 lb realm. This freaked me out, and I promptly gained another 15 pounds. I live with bipolar, and am on meds that contribute to my weight gain. I keep reminding myself that I'd rather be fat than dead, but I fear that I am eating myself toward an early death. <BR> <BR> I am seeking a friendly person to help motivate me to keep trying. I offer a quirky sense of humor, deep compassion, a... Sat, 15 Oct 2016 02:14:17 EST Hallo! Any other blood clot survivors? Hi, all, I'm giving this motivator a go. I need to pick up my exercise level. I loved dance for many years, but as I've gotten older I've done less of it. In February 2016 I was diagnosed with a "significant" blood clot in my right leg. Since then, I've been walking daily to and from the bus, but it's not enough. I hope to drop actually 60 pounds and get the stiffness out of the leg where the "interventional radiology" (read: micro-surgery thing) was done. I have an appointment with an ... Fri, 14 Oct 2016 17:09:53 EST Is staying in bed always a sign of depression? I'm curious what everyone's opinion is. <BR> <BR> I have to get out everyday or else I get stir crazy. But after my errands, I just like to go back to bed. My bed stays made during the day and I'm in my comfy clothes. I watch TV and do computer stuff. Then get up at various points to do certain things but mostly I really just like staying there. Even if I only go out for a couple hours a day. <BR> <BR> Since Oct 1st, I've been doing great with my food, so I'm actually happy and my mood is ... Wed, 12 Oct 2016 22:55:13 EST Rebirth at Retirement I want to like the way I feel and look which means creating a new Life Style and also learning how to communicate with others as I became secluded. Tue, 11 Oct 2016 21:53:08 EST Lack of Motivation I go through phases where I feel so motivated and ready to tackle this weight loss journey. I feel motivated to exercise and eat right to fuel my body with the right kinds of foods. Then I go through phases where I just lack motivation in general. That is where I am today. I just can not seem to get myself motivated to exercise whatsoever. I am also struggling with sticking to my healthy lifestyle at work, especially when drug reps bring in treats and snacks for the office. When I start ... Mon, 10 Oct 2016 12:30:40 EST Hello from France Hi everyone, I moved to France after moving around a lot and thought I would be able to get myself back on track by eating healthy beautiful food and exercising. But, after three years, I am just not succeeding alone. I used to be really active fit and always slim. I used to look at fat people and think, how did they get like that? Now I am that fat person, and I now think, how did I get like this!? <BR> <BR> I have had a few horrible things happen and I am struggling to cope. I have ... Mon, 10 Oct 2016 06:13:51 EST Affording depression Meds I have no prescription coverage, and my Depression Meds have really gone up over the last several months. I used to pay under $100 for 90 days worth and now I'm paying over $160. I'm on Bupropion 100 MG, 3 X a day so I do have to get 260 pills at a time, but its getting so hard to afford them. And I more than ever need to stay on my meds, as Ive been going through a rough time. Ive thought about talking to my prescribing dr about switching my meds, but this overall works well for me. Do... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 18:58:52 EST Stopped taking my meds-paying the price I stopped taking my Effexor about a week ago. It was stupid, I know. I was just feeling so good I didn't think I needed them. I thought I could do it on my own for awhile. Well, I'm really starting to crash. I finally realized and admitted to myself why I was feeling bad this morning, so started taking it again, but I know it takes a few days to kick in. In the meantime, my house is out of control, I have my parents coming from CA (I'm in IN) for a visit on the 12th, I NEED to clean, and I do... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 12:38:58 EST Make ahead breakfast and lunch ideas Hello, <BR> <BR> Can I get some ideas easy make ahead breakfast and lunch ideas? I am looking for suggestions on things that I can make on Saturday or Sunday and either put in the fridge or freezer to pull out as the week goes on. I am usually rushed in the mornings so I need ideas of things that are quick and easy. I struggle with motivation and getting the engine going, so I am hoping that having prepped options ready will help me to keep on a healthy diet. I have been doing overnight ... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 11:43:37 EST Bruce Springstein writes about his depression Just passing this link along. I didn't know Bruce had depression most of his life. He writes about it in his new memoir. I guess it just shows that it can happen to anyone, even a super successful singer. <BR> <BR><BR>9/bruce-springsteen-cover-story <BR> <BR> Here's a snippet: <BR> <BR> "Married since 1991 to bandmate Patti Scialfa, with whom he has three children (and who shares and empathizes with his depressive illness), Springsteen enjoys a stab... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 04:51:53 EST karen Looking for a walking buddy and weight buddy near Poway Ca Mon, 3 Oct 2016 12:35:09 EST Rough Day So I am having a rough day here. I have a counseling appointment this evening and I am really anxious about it. I have seen this counselor for years and I really trust him, so I am not sure why I am so anxious about this appointment. Every hour that passes, the more anxious I get, and the more I want to turn to food for comfort. This is not a good day at all. I wish I knew what was causing the anxiety in me about this appointment. I have control over what we talk about, so I know I am n... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 12:29:22 EST Hello I am new Hello there I am new to spark just wanting to get started on a healthy new life style. I have several health issues that I have been diagnosed with this year.depression being one of them as well as bi polar I have suffered for many years with this diesease and had to be hospitalized due to it.It has made it hard for me to keep a job and to live a healthy happy life .while I was in treatment I really injoyed the group treatments where I could talk about my feelings for that day and the journal... Sun, 2 Oct 2016 20:15:21 EST HI all I'm BarbCa so you see already I live in California. I'm Almost 82 and have had a problem with depression that I'm just now rising from. My next oldest daughter passed away a year ago in March. My favorite of 7 grandchildren moved away so no more grands around. <BR> My next youngest daughter lives a 8 miles away and I sere here once or twice a year. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I'm well on my road to recovery and have been able to give up the antidepressants. I am getting my apartment sorted out but it ... Sun, 2 Oct 2016 12:39:16 EST Weight loss buddy needed Hi, I'm looking for a weight loss buddy that I can talk to and encourage, as well as have them encourage me. My depression has gotten the best of me lately and I am finding that I need help. I am in my early 30's and have about 100-120 lbs to lose and would love to have someone in the same boat (or close to it) as me to connect with. It would be great if we could text each other and provide support and encouragement to tackle this overwhelming journey. Please let me know if you're interes... Sat, 1 Oct 2016 22:09:43 EST Does the ticker motivate you? When I first started, I used the "weight" ticker and then switched to the "pounds lost" ticker because I thought seeing my actual weight might have been discouraging me. But now I'm back to thinking I have to SEE IT in order to see reality (which is that I'm now at my highest weight ever.) So I just switched my ticker back to the "weight" one, but wondering if I might end up sabotaging myself. <BR> <BR> I'm noticing most people here use the "pounds lost" ticker. Do you have thoughts on which... Sat, 1 Oct 2016 19:04:45 EST