SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Welcome! This is a space for anyone dealing with depression to support each other as we eat right, exercise, lose weight, and find ways to manage our depression. SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Chapter 2 and My New Normal Hi <BR> I am 39 years old and have been dealing with depression for awhile now. My husband of 17 years took his life in March of 2013 (PTSD and the Military) and I feel as though I have lost my spark for life. I have gained 20 pounds ( I used to be a dance instructor) and I just feel fat. My goals are to lose 15 lbs, find my passion for llife and the things I used to love, find new things to love and get the heck out of this funk I have been in for the past 18 months. Glad to have the sup... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 11:48:10 EST Lone Star My name is Felicia. I am dealing with a serious health crisis with my boyfriend. He has cancer and it's returned and I have not been exercising nor eating the way I should have for the last 4 weeks. I need your help to get back on track and most of all to stay fit,focused, and to find me again. :(:( Tue, 16 Sep 2014 11:34:44 EST HELP!! I'm taking Medrol because Ive been breaking out in hives and we can't figure out why. They are making me extra extra hungry. Ive been trying to eat balanced meals but I ended up binging on pizza and my stomach is still growling. I dont want to mess up my diet but its making it hard to concentrate on anything else. What do I do? Mon, 15 Sep 2014 17:19:08 EST Hello! I'm trying to lose 57 pounds and just started on here. I'm a southern lady! Wife, mom and grandma. I'm trying to be more social as I'm alone a lot! Happy to be here!! :-) Mon, 15 Sep 2014 15:09:12 EST Self-Harm Do you do it? Have you ever? How were you able to stop? Have you had different levels of it? <BR> <BR> I think this is a subject to explore because I'm not sure many people understand the difference between self-harm & trying to commit suicide. <BR> <BR> I'm an EX cutter. I haven't cut since 1999. Most of my cutting was done when I was drinking. I got sober initially 10/13/1999. I cut one last time about a week into my sobriety. God it hurt! <BR> <BR> I relapsed alcoholically & got... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 10:45:41 EST Newby I am pretty new to sparkpeople. I enjoy swimming, volleyball, and horseback riding. My biggest struggle with weight loss is eating healthy. I'm young and dont buy most of my groceries so I'm having to learn to just use what we have available in the house. But I have made a lot of progress and am looking forward to having support from this group. Sun, 14 Sep 2014 09:23:10 EST Suicide Prevention Week . <link><BR>rFoundation/photos/pcb.101504354492999<BR>84/10150435449129984/?type=1&theater </link> Sat, 13 Sep 2014 10:15:17 EST My name is Valerie and I am new to this team Hi everyone , I started this week and am just starting to post on my new teams. I am married and have 4 sons. I have had depression for quite some time and take meds to help. I am happy to start something positive and know losing weight will help me feel better about myself. Wed, 10 Sep 2014 23:52:00 EST Good deed for the day I happened to be on the bus on my way home today when a gal sitting near me asked if I had a phone. I apologized to her and said that my phone had limited minutes. Another gal got on sitting next to me. Again this gal asked if she could use this young gal's phone. She made a phone call and I caught bits n pieces of it. The gist was she was kicked out of where she was staying last night and had no where to go. I overheard her say she would call whomever she was talking to again in 15 minu... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 19:18:56 EST Fear of happiness Has anyone else had a therapist tell them they might have a fear of happiness? I've been told this a few times, and I suppose that could be true. "Depressed" has been a big part of my identity since childhood. If you're in the same situation, what do you do to accept and overcome the fear? Wed, 10 Sep 2014 15:26:59 EST Hi, I'm Benji from NC I'm new to Sparkpeople, but not new to the tracking thing. I am active on MFP, too, but discovered Sparkpeople and when I saw all the features it has.. I figured I'd try it. So far, I am loving the features. But that's not why I'm in this team. So, onto that. <BR> <BR> I was diagnosed with depression when I was a teenager. I think I was 12 the first time I spoke to a therapist, and 13 when I received the diagnosis. I don't know what it was. As a minor, they could not tell me specifically, an... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 23:52:40 EST Hi - new to this/Dysthymic Disorder Hello all, <BR> <BR> I've been diagnosed for 20 or so years with clinical depression or major depression. Just noticed on an EOB statement from my insurance company he has it as dysthymic disorder. Kinda freaked me out a bit. Looking it up sound like a minor version of bi-polar. <BR> <BR> OK functioning OK on meds I guess...though I drink beer and had several marghartas. That wasted most of my day catching up on sleep Sun, 7 Sep 2014 22:53:01 EST Hi! I am Linda from Texas I am glad to be joining this team. I need a source of support. Sun, 7 Sep 2014 11:07:21 EST Calming I read a blog today that had a link to this article. I thought it was worth sharing. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>se-borchard-sanity-break/5-steps-to-fi<BR>nd-calm-an-interview-with-robert-j-wic<BR>ks/?pos=1&xid=nl_EverydayHealthWomensH<BR>ealth_20140904 </link> Sat, 6 Sep 2014 15:42:19 EST Hihi! I'm horrible at starting introduction posts, I always seem so awkward. <BR> Anywho.. <BR> I'm new(ish... used this site a few times in the past). 28, two kids, suffer from a multitude of different 'fun things'. I really need to kick my butt into gear, as I've reached the heaviest I've been in about 4 years, and close to being the heaviest ever. I don't want to reach that point. I have a multitude of things working against me, only one of which is my mental state, so I have to try to stay moti... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 13:50:05 EST weight loss hi my name is Rebecca I'm 34 years of age and I weigh 333lbs and my doctor wants med to get weight loss surgery but I want to do it myself.I need help to get motivated any suggestions please let me know what you think Fri, 5 Sep 2014 01:16:38 EST loosing weight isnt easy Hi my name is shanice branche I am new here and I would be very glad if I can find a few friends on here from Louisiana that could want to take walks and could help each other grow and loose the weight that we want to loose and to have someone you could talk to about your weight situation and not fill embarrassed while you loose weight together Thu, 4 Sep 2014 20:46:02 EST New -- I am NEW to Spark People, NEW to college, NEW to unemployment, and a NEW motorcycle driver. I am a little over 50, a little over weight, and a little over whelmed with this new phase in my life. Oh and I deal with depression and anxiety, which is under control with medicine. I am married (lost my job on our 24th wedding anniversary, why not?!), a mother to five adults, and grandmother to three wonderful kids! <BR> Thu, 4 Sep 2014 14:49:49 EST My Gift of Bipolar! I am thankful for being Bipolar. So many people consider 'mental illness' to be bad, but I do not. Bipolar is not good or bad. It just is. <BR> <BR> Because I am Bipolar I am more empathetic and sympathetic. I have so much forgiveness and love in my heart. <BR> <BR> The only regret I have about Bipolar is the way 'normal' people perceive it. The Media has done such a disservice to me and my gift of Bipolar. That's right! I consider Bipolar a gift. It is not an illness or a disorder. I a... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 06:08:00 EST Losing Weight on Meds - Success A couple of years ago I posted in this board about my battle with weight gain while on anti-Depressents (started on Cymbalta, was switched to Pristiq, had horrible side effects with both...including a 20 pound weight gain that happened suddenly). Nothing seemed to work, not rigorous tracking, not huge amounts of exercise (I went to a WW meeting where the scale had gone up yet again, and the assistant tut-tutted and suggsted I go for a wee 10 minute walk from time to time to help lose - I look... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 22:39:49 EST Did everyone read SparkGuy's email? I just did and I'm all for giving this a good try. Exercise is not something that comes easy for me. Perhaps this is the ticket for me. <BR> <BR> What are everyone else's thoughts about this? <BR> <BR> <BR> Lin :-) Wed, 3 Sep 2014 21:39:04 EST Weight Loss Journey Hello my name is Terri Spencer. I need to loose around 53 pounds. I weigh 173 and want to get down to 120. I've been this weight for the past few years. I've only been on this site the past couple of days and from what I've seen it looks like it will be really helpful and very supportive! Some of my interests are needle work such as counted cross stitch and quilting (by hand), art work such as painting and doing origami and reading Christian books as well as watching Christian movies. I... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 15:49:37 EST Really Nervous! Hi I am 25, my weight has been going up and down since I was teenager. I was diagnosed at 4 with polyaryicular juvenile rheumatoid arthritis and when I was 13 I was put on prednisone and that's when I started putting on weight. I had a baby 10 months ago and was at my highest 289, I am currently down to 265 and I am stuck. I can't bring myself to get up and go in the morning. And eating healthy has always been a challenge for me. I don't know where to begin with motivating myself, sorry for t... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 14:26:06 EST New here Hi, I'm new here. I'm the divorced mother of 2. I loved my job working for the hometown paper when it suddenly shut down July 30. I am now unemployed, up to my neck in bills I can't pay and extremely depressed. I'm bipolar anyway, so just the added stress of losing a job I loved has sent me into a tailspin of depression I can't seem to come out of.... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 14:00:07 EST Hi Everyone! Since I've started responding to other people's messages introducing themselves, I really should do my own. <BR> <BR> I'm Ann. I'm 52 and live in Fredericksburg, VA. Perimenopause got really bad in 2009, I lost my full-time job in 2010... and things have sort of gone from there. I moved back to the east coast (grew up in PA, moved to Seattle in 1994, lived mostly there with some time in other places) in 2012 to try to get back to work since I was out of options. My family (mostly my sisters... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 12:38:56 EST I'm New Hi- My name is Mesha. I'm new to sparkpeople. I'm currently in nursing school in an accelerated program. I work fulltime, and a single mother. My stress level has gone from 15-10000 fast. I find that since this has happen I"ve turned to food to help me cop with my stress, and feeling alone. <BR> Since I've done this I've seen my weight increase, and my self esteem decrease. Wed, 3 Sep 2014 11:28:15 EST Scientist say less sugar Just read the paper and it now says some fat is good but sugar is bad for your heart! They say Adkins had the right idea but we still need to watch saturated fats. Sugar and even low Carb diets are being frowned on. So a diet with A few fruits in small amounts in the morning and vegetables and meat for the rest of the day. 2 oz. of oatmeal also allowed. Tue, 2 Sep 2014 15:30:04 EST Just started Any positive motivation would be appreciated....started and failed too many times!!! I want to start and succeed !!! Thank you in advanced Sun, 31 Aug 2014 12:04:13 EST Major depressive episode-need a pick me up I lost my job a year ago and although have been constantly looking, I'm not finding anything at all. Nothing!! I'm frustrated, broke, depressed and wondering if I'm ever going to get out of this hole and then today my husband (who is normally supportive) starts a fight with me about how I'm not working, not helping around the house since I have all this extra time and he's feeling alone and taken advantage of. He doesn't understand depression really as he's always been able to shake things of... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 20:20:58 EST When work feeds your poor moods How do you all deal with a poor working environment, difficult coworkers, etc. when they are impacting your ability to feel less depressed and/or anxious? I've been submitting applications and resumes to other companies, but until I have another job offer, I can't afford to leave the job I have. I'm on the waiting list for therapy with an in-network provider. I eat regular meals, avoid caffeine, take a couple breaks during the day, but I'm not feeling much better. Is there more I could be doi... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 13:24:32 EST new to this team, but glad to here. Hello All. <BR> I am not sure where to begin. I've been fighting this probably since my pre-teens. I always remember being worried about things and very shy. I had a period of time a few years ago that I got so depressed that I had to get help because I just couldn't go on with life. Then I was able to address the stress and learn to deal with it better while I was in college. Then 2 years ago I got married (big stressor, right?) and then less than a year later we sold our mobile home and bou... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 16:07:02 EST new here hi. I am new to this team. I need some friends here. I never imagined that my life would take this turn but then I guess none of us do. I am struggling right now and hoping that if I get things moving again I can move beyond all this. Tue, 26 Aug 2014 21:14:26 EST HELLO, My name is Lottie I am a 47 year old Mim-ma of a 3 yr old beautiful granddaughter, and a mother of 25 yr old daughter, I really need support, so hopefully I will get it here on this site. I am moving back to Texas soon, sometime in October or soon after, I would love to lose quite a bit of weight, I want to be a "SEXY Mim-Ma" hehe..seriously, I DO. I want my fiance to be proud to be with me ( he is, but I want him to be OVERLY PROUD. ) <BR> Tue, 26 Aug 2014 20:40:32 EST Natural Medicine Hehehe.... Saw this on facebook. I love the Survival Watch page. This is how I feel about medication- <BR> <BR> "The person who takes medicine must recover twice- once from the disease, and once from the medicine." -William Osler, M.D. <BR> <link><BR>ching </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> That being said- what natural remedies or medicinal herbs do you/have you used to treat anxiety or depression? <BR> <BR> -I recently read that two handfuls of cashews is the... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 16:19:14 EST Just joined, glad I found this team! Hi all, my name's Rachel. I just rejoined SparkPeople today, thought it might be a good opportunity to meet some new like-minded people. Looks like I came to the right place! <BR> <BR> Fitness, to me, isn't about losing weight. It seldom ever has been as far as my goals go. (Better body image is a nice benefit though!) I was 12 or 13 years old when I discovered that if I was angry, depressed, or anxious, just a quick run in the woods would soothe my troubled mind. It's always put me in a be... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 12:59:18 EST "Secrets of Success" feature to be eliminated Did you even remember the feature? Neither did I, although I had entered several way back. <BR> <BR> The actual date of deletion hasn't been determined. <BR> <BR> ***This is your chance to copy any "secrets" you may have entered that you wish to keep.*** <BR> <BR> SP will scrap the feature as it had become heavily repetitious with useful and especially useless things and has been little visited for quite a while. <BR> <BR> You can access the full store of Secrets of Success under the Com... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 15:06:53 EST I'm Bipolar! 1. I once set a woman's hair on fire! <BR> 2. I once pushed a man down the stairs while screaming at him! <BR> 3. I once kidnapped a kid to upset an entire town! <BR> 4. I once snatched a woman bald! <BR> 5. I once ran a man off the road in a fit of road rage! <BR> 6. I once streaked through my neighborhood! <BR> 7. I once chased a clown through the park kicking him on his behind! <BR> <BR> 1. I mean I once saw a lady wearing a unnatural shade of red hair. <BR> 2. I mean I once saw a man fal... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 12:49:27 EST Bipolar is not the same as Borderline Personality People often get these confused. While some symptoms can be similar & often people are dual diagnosed, they are not the same mental illness. <BR> <BR> <BR> Borderline Personality Disorder <link><BR>contentManagement/contentDisplay.cfm&c<BR>ontentID=23040 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Bipolar Disorder <link><BR>contentManagement/contentDisplay.cfm&c<BR>ontentID=130753 </link> Fri, 22 Aug 2014 08:56:04 EST Building a Better Me Well, here goes nothing. <BR> <BR> The name's Ro, well Rowena but everyone calls me Ro. I'm 19, turning 20 in October and to be honest I was in denial about my depression for quite a long time. Always passing it off as me just being stupid, but then with the help of my trusty therapist and a lot of talking I began to realize that this is a serious thing happening to me and that paired with my already high stress and anxiety levels, leaving it unchecked would be very bad. Add that onto low se... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 16:28:42 EST HAVING A BAD WEEK Guess I just need to vent, I'm sure I'm not the only one having a bad week. Mine seems to come out of nowhere. Does anyone else go through this? I felt pretty good the past 3 or 4 weeks. I didn't miss any work. My depression seemed in check. And then, BAM, it hits me out of nowhere. I called in sick Tues & Wed because of it. I don't feel any better today maybe even worse, but don't want to get in trouble, so I'm forcing myself to go to work. <BR> Thanks for listening. Thu, 21 Aug 2014 11:24:49 EST hello from MT, ready to be successful! I have been exploring salespeople for a week now, I love the different short workouts they offer daily!! Just getting started so even these are a great challenge! I of course want to lose weight, but my main goal is to just become a healthier person, be more active so that I can enjoy what life brings my way! Nice to find a place where people are dealing with the same issues and offer encouragement along the way!! Thu, 21 Aug 2014 10:20:15 EST Bipolar is not the same: Schizo Affective Disorder <link><BR>One-Sherry-Goes-Sane-What-is-Schizo-Af<BR>fective-Disorder.aspx </link> <BR> <BR> Here's a full definition: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>_Illness&Template=/ContentManagement/C<BR>ontentDisplay.cfm&ContentID=23043 </link> Thu, 21 Aug 2014 09:20:46 EST Autumn is Coming. :( <em>24</em> <BR> Anyone else start getting depressed, anxious, fatigued, etc around the fall season? As much as I love autumn, I've noticed it hits me pretty hard. I know it's only August, but it's felt like fall already. The weather isn't hot, and summery, migratory birds are moving in ways they do in late September, even some branches are turning yellow. I'm anxious already just noticing these changes, and knowing what's coming. I'm going to a wedding in October in Florida, and I don't k... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 11:04:22 EST Time to Change for the Last Time Hello, <BR> <BR> I am to young and smart to have my body hold me back like I allow it to. Maybe it is age or depression has set in, but usually in the past I have always found motivation to get fit, I was in the Marine Corp! Yet these days, I feel like I have let myself get so gross that I can not see the light. All my attempts this last year have failed miserably and I need support. The one thing that I know I had in the past and have lacked this last year. I want this pity and this 35 lbs ... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 15:29:08 EST Hi Y'all Hi Y'all i' am from Oklahoma City and have found out that my doctor wants to put me on Insulin shots but I prefer to get health and get off all my meds that are not necessary. Today I will be going to a new gym to try a different water fitness program and I' am excited. Well I hope all have a great and blessed day today. bye for now Tue, 19 Aug 2014 08:56:31 EST hello i am new Hi my name is Helen. I live in Australia, Queensland. I am a stay at home mum at the moment. I have 4 children and a husband who works away alot on the rigs. I have suffered depression for years. Currently on antidepressants. I quit smoking a year ago last month. And lost my Dad in September last year. So coming up to the first anniversary. He was everything to me. So i have lost my way and started to emotional eat. I put on 30 kgs. Never been this heavy even when i was pregnant. I seem to lo... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 07:16:52 EST How much did the STIGMA hurt Robin Williams???? This is a very interesting article. It makes me sad. <link><BR>-much-did-stigma-mental-illness-harm-r<BR>obin-williams </link> Mon, 18 Aug 2014 13:02:12 EST Intro to me Hi everyone, I am new to using Spark people as of July. Never really used the forums before, and had skimmed the pages a couple of years ago to get nutrition information. <BR> Anyway, 46, work full time and mom of 2, 1 still at home. I have a complex or something about fitting in exercise without feeling guilty. <BR> I am looking forward to being more active, because I know I <em>41</em> will feel better, and look better too. <BR> I will be checking in, but not every day. Hi everyone & t... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 16:36:52 EST Here goes nothing Hi I'm new to all this got a health scare and well here I am looking to loose 120lbs by next Oct. Here's hoping. I have a 11 year old daughter and she is my life. I'm doing this for the both of us. I need all the help i can get! Sun, 17 Aug 2014 13:38:30 EST Been off my diet For some weeks now I have not been following my diet and up till last week I have not lost or put on any weight(I weigh myself on a Monday in Boots), I must get back on my diet otherwise I will be putting on all that I have lost over the last few years. <BR> I do no what is causing my problem and it is a biggie STRESS which makes me pick at food in the evening, I know I don't need it but cannot stop myself and any advice would be welcome. <BR> I also find the evenings very and apart from Tu... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 13:13:29 EST Shamageddon is gettin to Shreddin'! Just signed up a couple of days ago. Not sure what I am doing yet, but I will get there. It's nice to be here. Sun, 17 Aug 2014 02:22:15 EST Rania2006 Hi My name is Rania and I just joined yesterday 16 August 2014 and im not sure where to start. Please advise how many times a day I should eat and what I can have for breakfast lunch dinner and snacks and how many hours apart I should space my food. Im really desperate to loose weight. Sun, 17 Aug 2014 01:46:13 EST I REALLY NEED TO DO THIS BUT AM SCARED Hello - I am a 'slightly older' lady who has let herself go due to ill health and need some support please!!!! I am also willing to give support to anyone else who needs it. This is my first visit to any site like this and really don't know what to do or say. Please help!!! <BR> <BR> Thank you Sat, 16 Aug 2014 17:18:20 EST HI! HI I am new name is Amber! Sat, 16 Aug 2014 02:55:11 EST After weight loss.Now i need toning. Hey,my name is Allison from the great state of Georgia. <BR> In the past 3 years i have lost 120 pounds of mostly unprovoked weight loss and now need toning badly. <BR> I started drinking water and pacing around the house due to depression and severe anxiety 3 years ago and dropped 30 lbs in the first year,70 lbs in the second and 20 lbs this year so far. <BR> The weight loss has mainly affected my upper inner arms and the inside of my thighs. <BR> <BR> I would really appreciate some tips an... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 08:42:15 EST My name is Chrystal and I am new here I just cant shake this depression. Ive had it since a preteen. Which has caused every relationship to fail in my life. I have tried many depression meds. never works. <BR> I have struggled with my weight for a long time. Maybe 13 years or so. I am sick of being depressed and I am sick of being over weight. Hopefully I will be able to get the help I need here! <BR> I have 2 children that I hide my depression from. Thu, 14 Aug 2014 18:23:36 EST Do you 'feel' different??? I have been having kind of a crisis of faith (so to speak) as to my Gift of Bipolar. <BR> <BR> I've been having major issues with my 'older kids' grandsons' parents. It's been an ongoing thing since the beginning of my relationship with my son's dad, but it REALLY blew up on Tuesday. <BR> <BR> Robin Williams death has been absolutely devastating for me. It's like I lost a family member. I cry almost every time I think of him. (I had an uncle commit suicide when I was a kid.) <BR> <... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 10:03:48 EST Robin Williams Suicide Robin Williams was Bipolar. He had resources for the best medical care in the country, but unfortunately decided for whatever reason that he couldn't fight anymore. Please don't make that decision!!! There is help. I PROMISE! <link> </link> Tue, 12 Aug 2014 08:57:17 EST Greetings Hello Team, <BR> I'm Ashlyn and I am drastically overweight and just trying to regain my life and my happiness. :D <BR> I have a 9 month old daughter and am a sophomore in college (psych major!). My life is starting and it's about time something changed and I accept the person I know is inside. Mon, 11 Aug 2014 22:40:26 EST I am really down <em>24</em> Mon, 11 Aug 2014 15:52:21 EST lajh1973 Hi I'm new to the spark people program. Say that 3 times in a row. I live in Licking County and hope to lose a big whooping 80 pounds. I know it will take time, patience, determination and help from all of you. I've been told that I worry and take care of everyone else. Now that I'll be turning the big 60 in March, I should take care of myself. So can I lose the weight this time? Yes! Yes! Yes! With some help from all of you. Sun, 10 Aug 2014 18:46:46 EST ready for change 54 year old mother of 3, found myself weighing the most I've ever weighed. Decided not to do another ''quick weight loss program", as I really need to learn how to make wise choices consistently. Love this web site and the positive manner it portrays. Looking forward to meeting others and walking this road with them Sat, 9 Aug 2014 23:28:42 EST Calling off of Work Thankfully this only happens 2-3 times a year now, but I was wondering how other people handle calling off work when they are too depressed to go. I hate lying to my boss, but I don't feel like I can call and say that I'm too depressed to come to work so I just make something up. Fri, 8 Aug 2014 11:30:09 EST jokes Farmer Joe decided his injuries from his recent accident were serious enough to take the trucking company responsible for the accident to court. In court, the trucking company's fancy lawyer was questioning farmer Joe. <BR> "Didn't you say, at the scene of the accident, that you were fine?" <BR> ''Well, I'll tell you what happened. I had just loaded my favorite mule Bessie into the--" <BR> ''I didn't ask for any details,'' the lawyer interrupted. ''Just answer the question. Did you not say... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 19:06:51 EST kymimi74 I am so excited to start this journey! Thu, 7 Aug 2014 14:14:01 EST TRYING TO BE HAPPY HI ALL, I AM NEW AND TRYING TO FIGURE THIS LIFE OUT. I AM VERY BLESSED BY GOD, AND HAVE A GREAT HUSBAND, THREE CHILDREN, WHO MAY LOVE ME , AM NOT SURE. AS I SAID MY BLESSINGS ARE AWSOME BUT I STILL HAVE THIS BLACK CLOUD OVER MY HEAD MOST OF THE TIME. I DO TAKE AN ANTIDEPRESSANT, AND QUIT TAKING THEM BECAUSE I THOUGHT THEY WERE NOT HELPING. NEEDLESS TO SAY, I FOUND OUT THAT WITHOUT THEM ALL I WANT TO DO IS CRY, SO I AM ON THE AGAIN. WISH I KNEW WHY I AM LIKE THIS. I DO HAVE A GREAT LOVE... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 08:04:05 EST Help and hello! Hi guys I'm Lauren and I'm 22 years old. I've been battling depression, anxiety and a slight mood disorder for almost 2 years. I forgot how to love myself and be happy. It caused me to withdraw from my university and move back home. I'm trying to get back in school but it's overwhelming. I've gained 50 lbs in 2 months due to medication and I've been struggling to get back on track. I'm sure we have all lost friends or loved ones due to this illness, I know I have. You learn to be your own bes... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 03:02:19 EST Determined I am tired of procrastination. I am determined to become more healthy, I have 36 pounds to lose and want to do it by December 31, 2014. I have tried over and over again but have not been successful. Last summer I was down 20 pounds using the atkins diet but quickly regained the weight. High protein diets work for me but I am don't really like eggs or meat. I would love to be a vegetarian, but it seems that the vegetarian way of life doesn't work for me. I am thinking that I might go on t... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 00:08:33 EST Married to an alcoholic plus depression any others Hi not only am i still new here I've decided to reach out a little..I have suffered from depression for quite the while, plus PTSD (not military related). I only add that bc I have had people question how I can have PTSD and not be military...not gonna go into the reasons right now. anyhow my husband is an active alcoholic and starting to suffer the consequence of his disease health wise. Yes i kno about al anon etc...I just wanted to see if there are any others in our group dealing with th... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 19:03:27 EST New to the program! Hope it works! My major weight gain came after my thyroid was totally removed, I moved and started a new job. All that resulted in a 25 pound weight gain in 4 months. Ugh. I've never had an issue with being overweight until now. I will be 60 this October and would love to loose those stubborn pounds before the 31st of October. Any helpful suggestions will be greatly appreciated! Thanks so much! Fri, 1 Aug 2014 21:18:47 EST Sleepy, unmotivated and just blah. So, here's my story: <BR> In December, I had a massive panic attack, and attempted suicide. I was so busy with work, school, taking care of the home and was just overly stressed out that I just lost it. I had to quit my job, and didn't work for six months. I was utterly depressed and lazy. I finally made a bit of a turnaround when I got into this hobby that made me happy, but considering I was not making any money on my own, leaving my fiance to pay all the bills, there was no way to support ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 14:41:38 EST try to make it to 90 my name is Terrence I'm 49 years old married with kids ,we all need to get in shape but im doing this for me ,and hopefully ill inspire my family to do better, but for now im going to do me. Thu, 31 Jul 2014 00:01:13 EST Speed up metabolism by doing one simple thing Does anybody else do this? would love to hear your tricks to get moving! <BR> <BR> I often get thru depression lethargy by taking the first step--for instance, many times I do not want to take my bath. (Depressives are famous for this!) So I just walk in the bathroom and turn on the water to fill the tub. Then I sit down til it is full. Then all I have to do is drop my clothes off and sit down in the water. Then it is easy to wash. Washing speeds up my metabolism and I can do the rest, get... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 21:04:31 EST In a Funk I started a program at the beginning of July and thought I would see results by now, as I was cleaning out my closet this morning I found a pair of pants which I was going to wear to work, They were a size 14, Thinking that they would be loose on me since I was wearing a size 12 a couple of months ago I couldn't even button them. I then put on my old faithful tent dress and came to work only to have a friend of mine say "Goodness woman! Your a business owner do something with yourself." Now ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 18:25:55 EST Stress Level High Today <BR> Car repairs, car rental, work things -- can feel the stress. Also since got to work late, did not do a river walk at lunch. After work -- off to the gym. That should relieve most of the stress. Wed, 30 Jul 2014 15:44:20 EST calorie counting How do you find out how many calories you burn doing general housework? Dusting, vacuming, sweeping etc.. Plus doing laundry & stuff like's gotta burn some doesn't it... <em>20</em> Tue, 29 Jul 2014 18:58:10 EST medication 4 I think I have referred to medication problems here before, but now it's official. I have an addiction to clonazepam. Apparently my shrink didn't think it was such a high dose, but now that she found out that it is, she won't raise it anymore and has simply referred me to an addiction clinic, where I have made an appointment for an intake. <BR> <BR> Are there others here who have or have had problems with benzo detox. If you don't want to talk about it on the forum, you can always send me a ... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 09:20:48 EST Getting things going in Central Florida I am a wife, mother of 4 almost grown children who has hit the mid 40s with about 15 extra pounds to lose. More importantly, I miss the feeling of being fit. Before moving to Florida, I worked out 6 days each week. Sometimes, it was only a 45 minute brisk walk, but most days I found my way to the YMCA. When I moved here, the YMCA was lacking and before I knew it, I was becoming a couch potato. I found a gym I like and here I go! Mon, 28 Jul 2014 15:39:54 EST Introduction Hi everyone, <BR> I am 34 years old, married and have 2 children. I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome). It's something that affects my everyday life. I am going to try to start eating healthier and try to get a little bit more fit. It's going to be a long slow process but hopefully, I will get there. Mon, 28 Jul 2014 15:18:39 EST Hey there! Hey everyone! I'm Jaycee. I have been on SparkPeople before right after my son was born. I had many issues losing weight due to a hormone imbalance and I just recently started on Adipex. I have already lost 6 lbs in 4 days so I am determined to continue with my weight loss and keep it off after I discontinue the medication. I have had depression issues since I was in eighth grade and had to get off of them while on the adipex. Not only do I want to lose weight to help my self confidence, but ... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 14:05:05 EST LOSING MY MIND SOMETIMES Hi my name is Telina, I am from Hawaii but I currently live in MACON GEORGIA ): ): ): <BR> because my boyfriend is Air Force and we live together. I am around 230 (I'm 5'6) right now I'm not totally positive becasue I dont weigh myself often. I've had anxiety/depression since I was 14 years old. Since I first delevloped depression my weight has just crawled up and up and up. around 17 I stayed at around 180-185 and I was happy that way because I like to be curvy but then I got a job at McDona... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 11:28:36 EST monday rant sort of <em>15</em> how i'm feeling this morning..I've been staying in my calorie range but not walked the last 3 days due to lots of other peoples schedules...ugh and my just not saying NO i need to do ----- or ------. But....gonna get off my duff and get moving today because I can...have a blessed day all ya'll.. Mon, 28 Jul 2014 07:48:30 EST Help!!!!!!!! I want to lose weight really fast... I was thinking about starving myself, but I know that's bad. Any advice? BTW PLZ DONT JUDGE I HAVE BEN GOING THROUGH A LOT OF DEPRESSION:( Mon, 28 Jul 2014 01:13:42 EST Hello There My name is Susan. I am starting to change some habits of mine. First, I am going to do some of the things that Mom does...measure food and count my calories and other vitamins. I have done it the past three days. Mom also gave me some other ideas on how she is loosing weight in her condition. She is taking cayenne pepper supplement and eat green beans daily. She can fit into some of her clothes she couldn't last year. Anyways, I am trying to stay to this diet of more healthy foods that I like... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 19:40:05 EST Hi Im Michelle. 2 years ago. I had lost 163 lbs while in a nursing home. I have gained 30 lbs back and now im trying to do it on my own. Ive discovered that I need people who are going through the same thing. My goal is to lose another 100 llbs. I also want to walk better and be healtnier. Sat, 26 Jul 2014 21:37:19 EST TICKER TICKER WHERE IS THE TICKER? Could someone please help me find that darned ticker? Finding it is the most difficult thing on the spark site! There are so many posts about this!! Hello, spark people! Please make the ticker easier to find and create! thanks! Fri, 25 Jul 2014 23:46:21 EST Am I too old to try again? Hi my name is Candy, I am almost 68 years old. I have tried many different diets over the years, everything from diet pills to Nutri- System to the cabbage soup diet to Gastric Lap Band surgery. The weight always comes back. As far as my diet goes, I do not eat junk food, fast food, breads or sweets. Except for an occasional piece of chocolate, my downfall! I am a bit OCD about keeping food in my refrigerator and pantry. They always have to be full, even though I usually throw a lot away. I ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 22:07:05 EST Hello from Florida! Hi all, <BR> <BR> Brand new to this site today. Am looking forward to meeting some great people & reaching my mini goals. <BR> <BR> I have a history of depression since my 20's & am 49 now. I see a therapist every three weeks & am on Prozac. Please send me a note, a shout, a high five, Go Buckeyes chant,,.... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 14:07:12 EST Introducing Myself Hello, my name is Sarah and I am new to Spark People. My cousin introduced me to this website this week. I hope I am posting this in the right spot. I do not normally post in forums so this is kind of a first for me. I have dealt with depression on and off through out my life but this year I have had it pretty bad. I lost my Grandpa at the end of April and then my baby brother was killed the first week of May. He was a month away from being 25. So, I have been having a rough time in dealing w... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 13:55:22 EST Almost 40, it's now or never Hello everyone, been on spark since July 19, 2014. Battling health issues, and need to get at least 50 pounds off. When I make it there, I will work on another 34... keeping up in here everyday is keeping me focused... thank you! Thu, 24 Jul 2014 23:24:02 EST Hi Hiya. I have some depression regarding personal situation and personal esteem. I've lost weight but lost the drive. I'm an emotional eater and now I'm afraid I'll gain weight back and with that fear eat more and be never ending battle. Wed, 23 Jul 2014 21:28:29 EST New Haircut -- Saturday wanted a change, my chin length bob bugging me, hair just hangs, so went for a new short cut, sort of a modified Miley Cyrus, easy to style, kind of perks me up, yet I still worry if it looks good on me. Quite a few people stated they like it, I just do not believe them. <BR> Wonder why, I cannot just accept it. Something to ponder. Wed, 23 Jul 2014 08:53:08 EST newbie I am 33 years old i have a wonderful and supportive husband and a 7year old daughter and 16year old step-son. I have a rare form of celiac disease where my body kicks out protein that comes from animal flesh with the exception of fish. This makes if difficult to eat food that tastes good. Just hoping that there is anyone out there who hares even half of my situation. Thats basically me. I love t fish, camp, hike and float the river. I love my family and hope to stick round long enough ti be w... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 12:00:42 EST Started yesterday Hi my name is Shelley. I was diagnosed with serve depression in 2006. Since then I have worked on training my thought process to think positive. It was very difficult at first but I have learned my "negative" triggers and learned new coping skills to work through a bad day. <BR> I look forward to being motivated and to motivate in this group. Tue, 22 Jul 2014 07:45:22 EST my goal are eating healthy deal withdepression Mon, 21 Jul 2014 23:54:19 EST Another newbie Hey everyone, <BR> <BR> My name is Melissa and I'm 22 years old. (I will be 23 on Sunday :D). Two months ago I packed up my car and moved from the suburbs of Atlanta, Georgia to Louisville, Kentucky for a job I was offered. At first the idea seemed really romanticized but I'm quickly finding it's quite the opposite. It seems like all I do anymore is work, I have very few friends that I rarely see, my best friend is 7 hours away back in Atlanta, and I just keep getting more and more depressed... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 13:28:01 EST New too Hi! <BR> After successfully Sparking 3 years ago I went through a series of unfortunate events and forgot how to eat and exercise like I should. I feel into a funk, a big one. I managed to gain back every pound I had lost. I am finally climbing out of that funk and need to get my health and self esteem back. Besides, I refuse to buy even bigger clothes :) So here I go.... <BR> <em>381</em> <em>386</em> <BR> Anne Mon, 21 Jul 2014 09:12:50 EST Losing weight while on Seroquel Hi, I've been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder, and having an EXTREMELY hard time losing weight while on seroqel! any tips/suggestions? Since I started using it, I've been working out at least an hour eery second day (weight training/cardio) and while I haven't gained any weight from when i started on it, i feel for the amount of exercise i'm doing, watching what i eat and my calorie intake, i should be losing as least some weight. Anybody have any suggestions on how to loose, and not mainta... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 22:50:04 EST Hello Hi I am new to this site but want to make things work. Sun, 20 Jul 2014 18:57:38 EST Hello Joined to find support and help controlling my cravings and over eating. Lifelong problem. Sat, 19 Jul 2014 18:01:41 EST New to SparkPeople Hello All! <BR> I am completely new to all this. I found SparkPeople just surfing the web. I am a nurse, mom to 2 boys (18 & 14) and wife to my wonderful husband who, unfortunately, has a neuromuscular disease. It is hard to find time but I know I need to get healthy for myself and my family. So, here I am and I am sure I"ll need a lot of help and support! Sat, 19 Jul 2014 14:27:54 EST new start This is my third day with sparkpeople. I have a lot to lose and a long road ahead. I have been walking 2-4 miles a day and am committed to doing this everyday. However I have a severe love for chocolate and carbs&#128545; Thu, 17 Jul 2014 20:46:49 EST Game: Food Take It or Leave It Avocado? Thu, 17 Jul 2014 12:19:06 EST SMALL CHANGE TO START PAGE Coach Jen has notified Team Leaders of a small change being made to our START PAGE. Please read her message posted below: <BR> <BR> Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> We'll be making a small change on the Start page tomorrow, and I just wanted to give you a heads up. Some of you asked about the wheel disappearing this week from the left side of the page. We are going to move the link to spin the wheel as well as the total SparkPoints for the day over to the right side of the page under Step 1. It w... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 23:33:48 EST Depressed, Stressed, and Lonely- Need Help Hello everyone, hope you are all feeling better than I am. <BR> I just feel like I am at the very end of my rope, I just don't have a clue what to do & really have no one to turn to. <BR> I live with my husband -Ed- and July 21st will be 14 years married, but it is not going good at all. I understand that he is stressed about our financial situation which is horrible we live paycheck to paycheck, and every dollar is accounted for in just basic needs, we don't have a dollar extra to go out an... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 04:21:48 EST Hello Hello there, my name is Anna. I have basically been struggling with my weight my whole life. In late 2009 I began yet another weight loss journey, and by the end of 2010 had lost about 80, and I kept 70 of that 80 off for two years. In summer 2012 I learned I had poly cystic ovarian disease, which I have had probably most if not all my life but was never checked for. Some other stuff such as my thyroid came back abnormal, and I'm finally getting into the endocrinologist next month after getti... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 00:39:34 EST Started a blog about my med-free journey. I've recently made the decision to stop taking medication after 10 years. I'm 24 so a huge portion of my life has been lived on medication to help me through depression and anxiety. I thought I'd try blogging about it to help me figure out my thoughts and thought I'd share it with you guys. What I've written is more of a jumble of thoughts that I've been experiencing. I have so much more to say but can't narrow it down tonight so I've just posted one quick submission. Anyway, here it is. <BR>... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 00:01:47 EST Team Wall Update Hello Everyone, <BR> <BR> It seems there has been confusion about the purpose of the Team Wall. For those of you who've been on SparkPeople for a while, you may remember the "HUDDLE WALL." The Team Wall replaced the Huddle Wall, but the Team Wall can also be used for announcements, updates, and/or other short comments. In addition, members can respond to messages posted on the Team Wall. <BR> <BR> Messages requiring discussion are to be posted on a thread in one of our Team Forums. The... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 23:31:09 EST New at this Hi my name is Debbie an was told about this site by my niece. I am 53 married an have 2 children an 2 grandchildren. Moved to the state of Maine 9 months ago. Tue, 15 Jul 2014 11:05:42 EST Dr freaked me out today--suggests EST Electroshook therapy!!!??? Do they still do that? Won't anything else help?? I'm on like med combo #7, will i ever feel happy again? He says I need to consider it. Anybody else done it?? <BR> Mon, 14 Jul 2014 21:54:15 EST Fooled Again My grandson did it again, lost his temper, got arrested, called me begging for me to be at court, then get to court, he is not there, transferred to hospital. Called his friend, but not me. Wasted time and energy on him. Love him but so tired of this. Oh well, hopefully he will learn, <BR> I am trying not to get bent out of shape about it, so taking deep breathes and a nice quiet walk along the river. Mon, 14 Jul 2014 10:46:31 EST Not so new Hi! I have been a member for a few years but have been back and forth on the weight lose journey. I have fibromyalgia and degenerative disc disease. Both of which cause me daily pain. I stopped taking meds due to an almost 50 lb weight gain which was a side effect of the meds. I am determined to lose the weight this time so I can enjoy my kids.and life pain free. Sun, 13 Jul 2014 22:08:10 EST Hello Hi everyone. My name is Mia and I joined spark people to try and get healthy to be able to be a good role model for my daughter, be able to play more with her, and to make sure I am around for her for a very long time. Sun, 13 Jul 2014 09:09:38 EST Dealing with depression Hello, my name is Margi and I live in Gresham, Oregon. My bouts of depression are far between but bad. I have melancholy days and I get afraid that I'll go into a depression. Since I started my new medicine I have just as many melancholy days as I had but they don't seem to lead to depression. Now if the melancholy days would go away. Maybe that's asking for too much. Pray for me. Thu, 10 Jul 2014 17:53:52 EST Good afternoon Sparkpeople! My name is Cammie and I'm from Indianapolis, Indiana. I am married to my best friend for 26 years and I have two adult children who make me smile everyday. <BR> I want to lose weight and feel better about myself. I think it will help with my chronic pain and depression. I have already lost 48 pounds and do feel better. My son is getting married in March of 2015 and I want to feeling better, looking better and ready to have a great time! Thu, 10 Jul 2014 15:10:00 EST New to the team I am new to the team and have been dealing with depression since the birth of my second child. I have recently made major changes in my life and my depression is not as bad. I am hoping that by losing weight, eating healthier and exercising will help. Wed, 9 Jul 2014 13:29:37 EST (almost)26 with 35 lbs to lose- anyone in my boat? Hi Sparkly People, <BR> <BR> I'm so happy to be a part of this community and wanted to introduce myself. I am a grad student and a former college athlete who managed to gain a lot of weight pretty quickly while writing my MS thesis. I'm serious about getting back in shape and feeling better about myself on a daily basis and I am so glad to have you guys here to share that goal with me. I am looking forward to getting motivated through this site and hope that soon I will be able to help motiv... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 13:27:56 EST Returning for the spark ... Somehow I've gained all the weight I lost 4 years ago, plus another 10 lbs. I've tried WW, myfitnesspal, going it alone, trying to "be good" at least 80% of the time .... and I'm tired of struggling. Bottom line is I need to track for the portion control and the monitoring of calories, fat & carbs I'm consuming. Also, I need to MOVE. I have a new treadmill in my living room, there is NO EXCUSE NOT TO BE USING IT. <BR> <BR> I created a new account, clean slate. If anyone remembers me, I used ... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 10:36:42 EST Almost 50 and want to lose 100! I am a single mom of three. My 12 year old is getting worried about my health due to losing my mom recently, so I am back on the health track. I have to go back to work and need to get healthier due to that too image is everything in this world. I also don't want to get lost I depression and overeating due to that. Losing my mom to cancer last month kind of shook us all up. So here I am. Wed, 9 Jul 2014 01:19:04 EST 46 with 30 pounds to loose Hi everyone I'm new and I'm ready to start this journey with the great people that you all are I'm 46 i have 3 beautiful girls and been married for 25yrs. My goal is to lose 30 pounds i am not to sure how many calories i should be eating everyday my weight wright now is 178 pounds im 5'6 is there anyone out there that has an idea of calorie intake so i can start this Journey in the morning any info i do appreciate i hope to make lot's of friend here goodluck everyone I"M READY TO GET_R_DONE!! Tue, 8 Jul 2014 20:50:50 EST Article about how other can help This links to a good article you could share with friends about how to help you. <BR> <link><BR>se-borchard-sanity-break/ways-to-help-<BR>a-friend-or-family-member-with-depress<BR>ion/?pos=2&xid=nl_EverydayHealthEmotio<BR>nalHealth_20140707 </link> Tue, 8 Jul 2014 14:33:45 EST Melanie My second day and exploring, using meal tracker but do not know everything Spark has to offer. <BR> <BR> Is there someone who can help me? <BR> <BR> Thanks Tue, 8 Jul 2014 13:43:37 EST Help Hi, <BR> My name is Shelly, I am looking for help..I am disabled at 52 years old from an accident and looking at having several surgeries, but must lose weight before. I have so many obstacles right now that have played a huge role in my weight gain and inability to lose the weight! One of the many things I have wrong is Thyroid disease, hypothyroidism and I have only gotten worse..I see no hope in sight as I am doing this all alone and unable to exercise...So I guess God has sent me to this ... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 13:17:38 EST How to help a depressed person <link><BR>se-borchard-sanity-break/ways-to-help-<BR>a-friend-or-family-member-with-depress<BR>ion/?pos=2&xid=nl_EverydayHealthEmotio<BR>nalHealth_20140707 </link> <BR> This links to a good article you could share with friends about how to help you. Mon, 7 Jul 2014 21:39:18 EST hi trying to see if this will work for me, seems interesting so far, and informative Mon, 7 Jul 2014 17:29:24 EST Looking for a sparkfri nd/buddy I am looking for a sparkfriend/buddy that I can check in with everyday. Not necessarly for my bipolar/depression but more to keep me on track with spark. I just need to be held accountable, because I have fallen off before and really do not want to do down that path again. Thanks for your help <em>304</em> <BR> K Mon, 7 Jul 2014 13:55:37 EST My first week with SparkPeople Hi, my first week with Spark has been great! I have surprised myself and lost 8 pounds! A friend from L.A. showed me an app he used for weight loss so I went online and found your free site! It's the first time weight loss has made sense to me. I am a visual learner so to see the charts and know where I am meeting goals as far as carbs, protein, etc. and the tips on where to improve and speaking in lay mans terms such as buying individual bags of chips so I can learn portion control. Eve... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 13:32:14 EST Brand new! Hi there everyone, as the header says.. I'm brand new to spark people. I was finally nudged to come on here and sign up by a family member who likes it. I'm just a little bit nervous though. <BR> <BR> I'm only 19, and in college studying illustration. I've been struggling with my weight for more than half of my life at this point. 11 years to be precise, and it's getting to the point where it's just hard to look at myself. So I'm hoping that this might be the big change. <BR> <BR> I've gone... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 12:18:03 EST Hi, I'm now to the team Hi everyone. <BR> I'm new to the team but I've been using sparkpeople for a few years. I usually don't introduce myself to teams because it makes me very anxious, but I'm trying to work through that. <BR> I'm currently feeling very down at the moment and struggling to keep up with healthy eating. There have been some major changes at home and I think that has caused a bit of a tail spin. <BR> Anyway, I'm trying to keep positive and boost myself with exercise. <BR> Thanks for reading. Sun, 6 Jul 2014 05:45:41 EST Conflicts, Depression and weight I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety three years ago and only about six months ago got to what I thought was the right combination and dose of meds. At that time I was struggling to keep any kind of daily routine. Now that I have been on the same medication for a few months and am still seeing mood swings I am seriously thinking this is not just depression but maybe Bipolar II. Is it normal to feel the mood swings while medicated for depression? <BR> <BR> I'm also mentally going aro... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 22:49:41 EST Came to a very hard Decision today.. My younger sister who always seemed to find & get into abusive relationships & seems to go from bad to worse to her current so- called husband who makes the others look wonderful. This one is a Drug Addict, drug dealer/ Alcoholic/ Thief/ habitual felony offender who is currently on the absconder list, His license is permanently revoked due to 6 -yes SIX Drunk Driving Violations. <BR> Well when my husband & I first moved here 1 1/2 years ago- we had heard he was in and out of jail, and rehab... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 23:35:39 EST More than 100 lbs to Lose Anxiety I've decided to create this topic because I have MADD anxiety behind knowing that I have 100+ lbs to lose. <BR> <BR> Now, don't get on here stating the OBViOUS ...i.e. "take it one day at a time", etc. I know all of this. I majored in psych..........but I'm human. So, remember that when you're commenting. <BR> <BR> It'll also help if you state your wlg (weight loss goal) & give any feedback or support that you can on 100 lbs to lose anxiety. <BR> <BR> Also, if you have any disabilities t... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 13:19:54 EST New to Sparkpeople! Hey guys! <BR> My name is Elizabeth and I joined SparkPeople as a way to document my weight loss journey. My weight has yo-yo'd for so long throughout my life but I am determined to shed the extra weight and keep it off this time. I'm 23 years young and am originally from the San Francisco bay area. I am moving to Southern California in a few months to attend UCSB and pursue my Bachelor's in Psychology. With everything going on right now, I just want to focus on things that make my happy and ... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 04:44:49 EST Hi i am new to the scene My name is Lynn and I am looking to lose weight due to doctors orders. I have health problems that cause me to gain weight so the doctor wants me on a low carb low fat diet. How am I to do that and feel full? Any ideas please let me know. Thu, 3 Jul 2014 22:18:32 EST Heart scare leading to me focusing on ME I am a 36 year old mom of 4 kiddos ( 14, 12, 9, and 7) and recently I wasn't feeling well. The doctor decided to do a bunch of tests including an EKG that came back abnormal. I FREAKED out! My mom had heart disease for years, finally passing away from it before she was even 60. I have never smoked so that was a plus. I don't have the all clear yet until I get a stress test on July 10th. But, the cardiologist doesn't think I have anything to worry about. Yet. But I DO need to lose 70-80... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 11:54:28 EST Happiness In keeping with one of the articles offered in the Best of Spark People today, I stumbled across these two articles which I found interesting regarding happiness. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ine/just-in/2014-07-01/happiness-isnt-<BR>just-warm-puppy-uc-berkeley-first-make-it </link> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>LIFESTYLE/140629893/10117/LIFESTYLE </link> Wed, 2 Jul 2014 11:12:33 EST loannac I was searching for a menu planner to learn how to manage my diabetes and was becoming increasingly frustrated. Finding Sparkpeople seems like a miracle. I was diagnosed a little over 3 years ago, and have waivered between denial, depression and avoidance until today. I think now I am ready to face facts and get on with living. I have a lot of changes and choices to make. After seeing what is offered here I feel less overwhelmed and more hopeful. Wed, 2 Jul 2014 02:02:46 EST Turning 30 Soon Hi - I'm turning 30 in five months and refuse to start my next decade heavy. I've gone up and down quite dramatically in weight since I was 18 and I just don't want to struggle anymore. Being this size makes me feel extremely self conscious and scared because I go back and forth with pre-diabetes and have knee and hip joint issues that in large part I think have been because I've carried extra weight for so long. i don't want to be 20 wincing as I go up stairs or not being able to go on a hi... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 07:36:16 EST Introduction Hello everyone! My name is Candi and I am returning to SP. I am a special education teacher and live in Mid Missouri. I will be turning 50 later this month and it made me think a lot about the future. I have a 9 year old son that I want to be around for. So, Im here to get it together! <BR> <BR> Mon, 30 Jun 2014 21:28:44 EST Introduction Hello everyone! My name is Candi and I am returning to SP! I will be turning 50 later this month and I have a 9 year old son. I need to be taking better care of myself for him and the rest of my family. I am a special education teacher and live in Mid Missouri. I am excited to get to know everyone here. Mon, 30 Jun 2014 21:02:45 EST "The Onion" on the failing mental health system <link><BR>dering-why-struggling-mental-health-sy<BR>st,36318/?utm_source=Facebook&utm_medi<BR>um=SocialMarketing&utm_campaign=LinkPr<BR>eview:2:Default </link> Sun, 29 Jun 2014 23:20:03 EST hello! Hello! I used Spark a few years ago and decided to give it a go again. This time, I'm doing this for me. Because I want this. I've dealt with depression and emotional/boredom eating my whole life. I've got to learn to do something other than eat... I want to really LIVE... not waste away on the couch bc I'm so big it hurts to move. I wish everyone the best and truly hope all who join get the support and motivation that they need. <em>381</em> Sun, 29 Jun 2014 22:14:20 EST Hi, Everyone! Hi, everyone. My name is Bridget and I am almost 40 yrs old. I am new, but hoping to find some help and support. If I do something wrong, just let me know. I am still figuring this all out. <BR> <BR> I, well, I hate to say suffer.... I am surviving life with depression, anxiety and PTSD. It is not from the military as most people think as soon as they hear PTSD. It is from an abusive relationship from 21 years ago while a Freshman in college. It took me 20 years to finally say, I am tire... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 12:23:05 EST Newbie! I am new to the group. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 12 or 13. It's been crippling at times, but manageable at others. I am currently taking a new medication that has been helping me A LOT. I look forward to meeting all of you and offering you all support (: Sat, 28 Jun 2014 23:49:40 EST Guy looking for tips, tricks, and whatever else! Hey. <BR> <BR> I'm a 32 year old man who would like to lose weight. I've been overweight most of my life and have struggled with it quite a bit. <BR> <BR> I think I've done the song and dance enough to understand the basics about exercise and nutrition. I've come to realize my main issue tends to be emotional eating. That and hating fruits and veggies. And maybe love of ice cream and pasta. <BR> <BR> I would love to hear from others who have tips on how to overcome hatred/disgust of veg... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 20:10:20 EST Hi, I'm back Well, it's been a while. I left here weighing 53 kg. Two years of depression later I'm back at 72 kg. I've really let myself go during that time. <BR> <BR> I might not be ready for weight loss, because I'm on medication against anxiety and that tends to make you eat more. Slowly trying to find my way forward (I was about to say back) to a better me. One day at the time for now. Sat, 28 Jun 2014 09:13:44 EST I suffer from such deep depression- have 0 energy I have had depression since I was a teenager but could always cope with it - But it has always gotten worse during the summer months. While living in Washington State for 6 years before moving here to East Tn over a year & a half ago, the summers were shorter and no where near as hot as it is here. But since living here and the never ending summer at least thats what I call it, when the temperatures are over 90 degrees each & every day for a minimum of 9 months really takes its toll on me. I ... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 21:06:22 EST Returning to the Yellow Brick Road... I used to be a member of SPARK... I was not very successful... but I have returned to this road... and hope to not only find a path that leads me to my goals... but a few friends along the way to share the journey with.... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 23:23:49 EST Hi from Buenos Aires!!!! Hi there! I'm Vero, live in Buenos Aires (but not originally from here) and I started with my Sparkpage on Sunday!! I'm excited to try something different and looking forward to finding "teammates" to go through this adventure together :) <BR> <BR> Greeting from Buenos Aires!!! Wed, 25 Jun 2014 16:54:00 EST Struggling and getting no where My name is Alexus and I am 20 years old and over 300 pounds. I have tried many many things to help me lose weight. Ive done weight watchers twice, ive done different diets and eating plans, I have even been on prescription medication to help me lose weight twice and I gain weight while on them even though I nearly stopped eating when taking them. I dont know what I am doing wrong it seems like I gain more and more weight even when I eat right and excerise. Its starts off good and im feeling g... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 12:49:56 EST Super Depressed Today- Stuck in job My PT coworker keeps me sane, and she gave notice this morning. We've both been looking, looks like she'll get out and I'll be stuck. Boss is a bully, stayed here too long and now I don't have updated skills in power point, etc. that everyone seems to want. I feel like life has passed me by. Even my therapist tells me I have to leave here for my sanity. But in these times, you just don't give up insurance, especially if you are taking meds. Which I do. <BR> <BR> Reaching out, trying ha... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 11:50:25 EST A long shot: Do you remember an old post? Quite a long time ago I wrote a post in DwD about being in the middle of preparing the batter for a banana loaf; while I was creaming the butter and sugar, I was hit with major emotion, feeling connected to all the generations of my family and all women who'd ever baked. I left the butter and cream and sat in the living room for a while to savor the feeling. <BR> <BR> I can't guess how long ago that was and hope that someone remembers it. Perhaps something was going on in a member's life t... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 09:51:13 EST My name is Kathy I want to lose some weight and stay healthy Mon, 23 Jun 2014 06:06:17 EST chronic gastroparesis and pancreatitis I had pancreatitis 5 times while I had gastroparesis. I developed gastroparesis after a gallbadder surgery, in which the surgeon refused to remove it for 4 days. I ended up with a feeding tube for about 4 years, had gastric pace maker implanted. Abbott Northern Hosp. , Dr. ERIC Johnson is the doctor. Most insurance will pay with prior authorization. It has help me alot, I no longer have a feeding tube and can eat close to normal. Sun, 22 Jun 2014 21:09:31 EST TNFLGAL's SparkPage I need to met my first goal of 30 lbs. in six months. I have been in WW and become a lifetime member but feel off the band wagon. I think Spark is what I need right now. I started it 6 days ago and have already since increase energy ! <BR> Woo Hoo !!! Sun, 22 Jun 2014 13:10:04 EST A summer puzzle <link> </link> Sat, 21 Jun 2014 14:02:31 EST Introduction Hi. I'm Jazzmine. Just joined today. I've been struggling with depression since I was in the 8th grade. Recently made an appointment with my old therapist because I just can't handle it on my own. Hopefully with this sight I can start a healthy lifestyle again. (: Sat, 21 Jun 2014 13:40:29 EST Hi! I am new and apprehensive. Hi! <BR> <BR> I am new to this site. I just started today. I have a lot of weight to lose. Ninety-seven (97) pounds to be exact. My goals are to lose weight, get healthy and fit, and become a runner. I have always wanted to be a runner. Runners seem so strong and free. My dream to complete a marathon one day. Hopefully sooner than later! lol. Unfortunately, I need some get up and go. Hoping to find information and encouragement here. Thank you. <BR> <BR> Donna Fri, 20 Jun 2014 20:05:18 EST was a member had to make new account but good news New I Am Down 50 Pounds Managed To loSE It In 6 Months On Back Cause I Gains 10 Pounds Not Very Active And Need Motivation To Lose My Last 30 Or 40 Pounds And On Determined To Do It In 4 Months Going To Work My But Off.... Literally lol Thu, 19 Jun 2014 22:38:05 EST Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson Talks Depression Interesting article from Yahoo about WWE and film star, "The Rock", Dwayne Johnson, who admits he has suffered from depression. How did he overcome it? By working out, building up his body and just plain willpower. <BR> <BR> It's humbling to learn even the rich and famous suffer from this disease... <BR> <BR> The article is below: <BR> <link><BR>dwayne-rock-johnson-talks-depression-b<BR>attle-cried-011000823-us-weekly.html </link> Thu, 19 Jun 2014 20:44:43 EST Day One I found this wonderful web page this afternoon! I am excited to have a place to see my goals and give a good solid attempt at getting rid of this weight problem that has gotten out of control over the last year. Away I go! Thu, 19 Jun 2014 00:20:20 EST Hello and Goodby........ ......patricia I don't mean to run out on everyone but I will be back on Monday. Wed, 18 Jun 2014 22:41:47 EST Determining your dream and chasing it. Hello, <BR> Here's another thing I'd like to discuss with you guys, and if it's annoying, I apologize. I just do better in writing than in therapy. <BR> When you like a lot of things but you don't like something more than something esle, how do you decide if it's what you really want? <BR> And, dealing with what we are, how'd you go about chasing that dream of yours, if it goes against what you know/want at the time/ Society/ your current situation. <BR> <BR> I'm quite Young, early 20s and... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 12:41:53 EST ECT - electroc nvulsive therapy I have been struggling with depression and every med imaginable for as long as I can remember and I am now in my 60's. I finally decided to try ECT as a last resort. I am now on the maintenance schedule and take the treatments every 2-3 weeks. My husband of 25 years noticed a difference way before I did. I still have up days and down days and mostly struggle with some short term memory loss and difficulty focusing. I do think things are gradually getting better and this is during the past few... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 19:59:12 EST I am new <em>30</em> Hi Everyone, Today is my first day. I am a huge procrastinator, so I hope to follow through with this. Seems to have gotten worse over the past few years. Tue, 17 Jun 2014 00:16:38 EST Ready to begin a new life Hi everyone! I'm a 31 year old female and I've been struggling with major depressive disorder for about 15 years now. I've been a member of SparkPeople for awhile, but I never really kept up with it. Recently I decided to create a new account and start over fresh because I'm finally ready to make positive changes in my life, both physically and mentally. I'm so tired of the never-ending cycle of being depressed about my weight, then emotional eating, then being depressed again, etc. So, inste... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 09:44:48 EST I'm New to this, again. Hello, <BR> I tried SparkPeople several years ago, but nothing works. Still nothing seems to work. I am back, I am excellent at quitting, but not so good at losing. I want to lose weight, desperately. I feel between the depression and the meds, it is really difficult to lose weight. I have to do this, but I am terribly afraid of failing again. I need help. I hope the fear of failure will ebb. Sat, 14 Jun 2014 11:58:35 EST I'm new Hello, I'm new to Spark People. My goal is to lose 150 pounds in one year so that I can go to my son's destination wedding in Key West and not look like a slob. Fri, 13 Jun 2014 22:35:14 EST New to Forum Hi--I'm 52, married and am owned by 2 German Shepherd goofballs. I sort of retired about 3 years ago and the weight creep has been awful. Here to get wise about nutrition and physical activity in order to lose the poundage. Would also like to find my self-esteem somewhere along the way! D'oh! <BR> Fri, 13 Jun 2014 21:27:22 EST I'm finally making the choice to lose weight! Hello. I am stickgrl8. I am new and have already dropped 3 lbs.I need to lose 113 or so so I can use ALL the support I can get. I am a vegan and struggle with my sugar intake. sodas are the worst. thanks to ALL who can support me. and I am totally willing to support any of you too. thanks. Thu, 12 Jun 2014 20:46:27 EST Hello Hi everyone, I'm Nikki. This is my second time on Sparkpeople and I am looking forward to sticking with it this time around. Wed, 11 Jun 2014 11:30:07 EST Hi everyone Hi y'all, I'm new around here, and I just wanted to try and introduce myself. I'm a very shy person because I have absolutely no self-confidence and my depression doesn't help with that either. I've been prescribed pills but I rarely take them. I don't know why I don't, I normally feel and act better with them, but for some reason I just ignore them. <BR> I'm hoping by losing weight and getting healthier, I will finally be able to attack my emotional problems and maybe gain some self-confide... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 14:55:17 EST I'm new.... Hello :) Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> Just wanted to say... Joined a little while ago but had crazy few weeks work wise and not really had time to follow anything up. <BR> <BR> I live in Ireland and since hitting 40 just over a year ago have found my weight has crept up and at just 5'1" find myself about 20 pounds over weight. Not a massive number I know but at my height feel uncomfortable, my joints ache and my clothes don't fit. <BR> <BR> I've been very busy blaming my age, hormones, work you name i... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 12:48:43 EST making progress I have been depressed for quite some time now and want to share something that I am learning about depression. depression has alot if not everything to do with anger and unforgiveness which I have alot of. unresolved anger turns into resentment which causes our minds and our bodies to become sick. The more we choose to hold onto anger the more we go over in our minds all the things we are unhappy about all the things we want to say to people who have hurt us. All the ways that people have off... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 12:02:52 EST LeslieShawn Just started today, I need motivation. Sun, 8 Jun 2014 12:13:20 EST Take it or leave it? Easy game. Just tell us something (could be anything). The next person will say take it or leave it, then name something new for the next person to decide on. How far can we take it? <BR> <BR> Picnics. <BR> Sat, 7 Jun 2014 17:46:36 EST new n nervous Hello sparkpeople. My name is kiara.I'm 23 years young with two beautiful children. I didn't start battling with my weight until after my first born. I didn't start caring until after the second. I've been battling with depression and insecurity for the last few years. With dealing with those problems it is very easy for me to give up on my goals. N allow myself to believe it's not possible n things won't get better. I look forward to changing my eating habits setting goals for myself n findi... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 03:45:17 EST New to this, and Ready to Go! Hey there, <BR> I just started with Spark People a couple of weeks ago. <BR> I needed motivation to get started, and needed something to hold me accountable, as I try to lose this extra weight I put on the past few years. <BR> I just reached my 1st Anniversary of quitting smoking (YAY!!), and throughout this year, I was too kind to myself in eating whatever I wanted, in exchange for not smoking. I told myself that if I could make it to one year smoke free, I would then get serious and star... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 16:18:02 EST tired of being down =( I have dealt with depression all my life but usually I deal with it for short periods of time and when the stressful situations calm down or go away so does my depression. But now I have been dealing with my depression for over a year now and it just wont go away !! It was triggered by a very stressful situation between my 34 year old boyfriend and a 14 year old girl..nuff said. Soon followed single motherhood which I have never experienced before ( I dont recommend it) extreme poverty and a ... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 02:46:17 EST How do you know if a med is right or good enough I've had depression, untreated since childhood. Got on prozac in my 30's and just recently had a major set back===crying, barely functioning, there were some stressors affecting me but it was a real tailspin. I was always afraid to try anything new but finally did. I'm 57 now. Now I've tried 4-5 different kinds and still wonder if it is "good enough" or should I expect more. I'm not crying all day, but I don't feel happy either. Yes, I get counseling, etc. and know we can't expect a "ma... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 19:30:29 EST Depression and Diet My depression seems to come and go. This time it seems to have anchored itself in pretty good. I have forced myself to do things I made myself go to the pool for an hour yesterday and just walk in the water. I came home and just wanted to go to bed, but forced myself to work on a decorating project. Nothing seems to help. I can't wait until evening so that I can pop myself into bed and when morning comes I cry because I know I will have to get through another day. My eating is ALL off.... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 12:42:11 EST Joking to make a better self name is chyna Rochelle, I really need to make a change in my life and need all the support I can get... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 18:45:05 EST Megs6237 HI. I'm new to Sparkpeople. I have tried everything to lose weight and have spent lots of money trying to do so!. I'm hoping joing this community will help. How do I start? Is it most helpful to get daily meal plans and stick to that? Tue, 3 Jun 2014 12:40:13 EST 6 Things to Say to Someone with Depression 1. You’re right, this sucks. <BR> The generalization is that men are problem solvers, and women are listeners. People who are depressed don’t want problem solvers — they’ve usually run through all the scenarios and solutions in their head already. They just can’t do it. <BR> <BR> What they’re looking for instead is simple acknowledgement and empathy. <BR> <BR> 2. You don’t walk this path alone. I’m here if you need me. <BR> When a person is depressed, one of the feelings many people experie... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 04:38:00 EST Tumbled into a deep hole Things were great for me till recently when someones comments totally knocked me off course. Its not the best feeling to be told horrible things, and I know one persons comments shouldnt make me feel so horrible for days but it does. After I was told this stuff, my days have been so boggled and I feel like i've just tumbled down into a dark hole and I cant get out of it. I feel like after those comments, the rest of my day started going bad. I have been so pessimistic these past 4 days, my we... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 12:01:15 EST Hello I am Belinda and trying lose weight and get healthy. A friend suggested I try the cardiac diet to loose weight. So I am starting today. Has anyone tried it before? Sun, 1 Jun 2014 20:27:03 EST New to SparkPeople I just joined SparkPeople the other day. I'm trying to get healthier and stronger. I have several medical issues to balance, but I am determined to be as well as possible with nutrition and exercise. I hope to lose weight, but I'm trying to stay focused on being healthy. I'm looking forward to learning about what this site has to offer and meeting others on similar journeys. Sun, 1 Jun 2014 20:22:11 EST Striding Forward Hi Everyone! I'm a return customer to Spark. Years ago, I lost over 50lbs on here. It was the thing that got me out of a rotten marriage; it gave me, me back. Now here I am again, but this time the baby ate me. I'm sooo underweight that I can see the ribs above my breasts. He's six months and still can't tolerate formula. I can't eat wheat or corn or soy or dairy or drugstore wine. My body aches from dissolving into milk for him. I already have a lot of chronic pain and pretty low en... Sat, 31 May 2014 15:58:26 EST Hello, I am new here my name is Ginny I am 45 this year and I am in the process of losing 83 pounds so I can get off medication for my type 2 diabetes. I am a business woman I own my own company its called Ginny Sutton Transportation, LLC. My husband works for me matter of fact he is an Owner Operator for Swift Transportation out of Phoenix. he is on the road most of the time. He does get to come home when ever he wants and its usually once a week or once every 2 weeks. i am starting out exercising with low impac... Sat, 31 May 2014 03:10:55 EST Hello I'm Lizzie. I'm not sure if manic depressant counts for depression but I'm here. Trying to overcome my emotional and physical issues. Fri, 30 May 2014 11:31:00 EST new here, sort of Hi everyone, I'm not new to the site but its been a while. I've been married to my husband almost a year and relocated to be with him a few months before the wedding. I work from home and don't have any friends here. I have a brother and his family here, and my husbands family, but we live across town from them so its hard to see them. I've suffered from depression since I was a teen, and its been worse lately. I've isolated myself and don't know how to get out of this rut. I've gained almost... Wed, 28 May 2014 20:58:28 EST Me Again I feel ready to do the work and focus on getting myself to a normal healthy weight. I hope as days turn to weeks, I will gain the confidence that I can make this change and reach my goals. <BR> I like all the info and support that Sparke People offers. <BR> mamsinator. <BR> Wed, 28 May 2014 20:29:33 EST Hello .. New to this site .. My name is Lori Ann (my friends call me Lori, or L .. or LA) I joined this site because I was hoping for some support to lose weight but then I noticed that there were other topics here as well .. like Depression support. <BR> <BR> This fits .. because I am always depressed it seems and I am thinking it partly stems from the fact that I am not happy with me .. with my weight .. where I am in life .. how far i have to go to accomplish even the smallest of goals .. <BR> <BR> I could write a... Wed, 28 May 2014 16:36:40 EST Hey there Hi everyone. I'm new here. The name's Maria and I'm 20 years young. I've been struggling with depression for several years now and suffer from PTSD. It's been a long, hard road to adulthood but I made it. With the support and encouragement of my boyfriend, I've decided to finally get help. The first appointment has been made, so I'll keep you guys posted on how that goes. I'm really nervous, actually. But I'm a good listener, so if anyone wants to talk, vent, or just say hello, I'm here. Have... Wed, 28 May 2014 12:01:35 EST Hello from PA Hello my name is Margaret and I am 56 years old. I am a mom of 2 girls and live with my oldest one. I joined Sparkpeople because I have to lose weight to be able to get a liver transplant if I need one because my liver is failing. My daughter is a member on here and told me it would be a good idea to join because we both could use help with getting motivated and staying motivated. Tue, 27 May 2014 23:20:59 EST new to the site hello. new member. not depressed now but battle it from time to time. i would like to eat better and stip giving into the quick fix of sugar and starches. need help staying focused. Tue, 27 May 2014 10:21:51 EST New and need some motivation tips Hi everyone! I am Shannon. I have been a member on Spark for a while but haven't consistently used or taken advantage of it. I am starting my weight loss/healthy life journey today. Right now I am excited and motivated because it is ''new'' but I have struggled a lot with motivation in the past. If anyone has some tips that help keep you motivated I am in need of some suggestions. Also, I am Vitamin D deficient and adding a Vitamin D supplement. I am also adding a B1 (Thiamine) supplement bec... Tue, 27 May 2014 06:50:59 EST Reality Sets In Yesterday, I went to the mall to buy new jeans, I don't make much money so paying $50 for 1 pair of jeans is expensive for me. I really didn't want to but I shopped online for jeans. I went on 6 different sites for plus size women and found that all sites were out of stock for my size. It sounds pathetic but I cried because I wish I didn't have such a hard time finding clothes for me to fit in. I can't believe I'm 21 years old and I'm close to killing myself with all these awful habits. I fee... Mon, 26 May 2014 21:25:35 EST Hi everybody! I'm new, feeling motivated today! :) Mon, 26 May 2014 21:18:48 EST Hi, I'm Nick in Phila. <em>304</em> Thanks for the welcome today, and I am 65, and have been depressed since 1990, and on disability for the depression since 1997. I am doing quite well today, as I was able to concentrate and log all my food that I ate today, and did better than I thought I might with fat calories still too high. Mon, 26 May 2014 20:34:17 EST Happy Memorial Day from Aubrey, TX! Hi everyone! My name is Melissa. I live in Providence Village, TX with my husband and two beautiful boys (ages 13 and 10). I've been a member of Spark People before, but have vowed to make this "the time." I have had problems with my weight on and off for my entire life, and at this point, would really like to set a great example for my kids at these critical points in their lives. This time, though, it's about far more than losing weight... it's about getting healthy, forming positive habit... Mon, 26 May 2014 18:12:28 EST Hello everyone Hi. I know calling my self crazy is self depreciating but it's a bit of a joke, actually. <BR> I'm happy to have found this group and look forward to making new friends. <BR> I've been fighting bi-polar disorder for years and I've been on many different meds, and tried all sorts of therapies. Feel free to ask me any questions. <BR> <BR> Breezy Mon, 26 May 2014 14:30:35 EST Time for something new. Hi, I'm 43, divorced, mom of two kids (7,9) and one new puppy. I'm vegan, depressed and very much in love with my bed. I want to be healthier so I've got to spend less time with my bed and more time walking my new puppy but motivation and energy are greatly lacking. Mon, 26 May 2014 13:07:29 EST Hey everyone! Hey there! My name is Ashley and im here to meet others going through similar issues. I'm 25 and have pcos. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for years, and this year is where um starting to go the natural route. We've done fertility treatments and all that jazz and im just wanting to try it naturally for a while any insight on the matter would be greatly appreciated! Sun, 25 May 2014 10:29:04 EST Hey all! New :) New here too! Actually joined Spark People to get a couple running plans. I used to be a runner before depression decided to tell me that I didn't like it anymore. Good job D :P Anyway, I've struggled with mental illness from a small child onward and have a father who also did all his life. I just started a new job contract in April at a university and I know it's going to be a great experience, and am planning to move in with my boyfriend of 1 year in September. I am also getting my financia... Sat, 24 May 2014 14:06:41 EST Not so Newbie Hi! I joined the group a while back, and today decided that I would be more active in the group. I suffer with bouts of depression because of PTSD due to the discovery of my husband's infidelities in our 19 years of marriage. <BR> <BR> Some days like today, I struggle to fight back the tears in front of my 6 remaining children at home. Although I try to get enough sleep, I don't sleep well. Today, I decided that I will look after me first, so that I can climb out of this hole that's swal... Fri, 23 May 2014 19:10:24 EST Don't want to be one of those women... Hello, <BR> I'm a 21 year old girl who's been through some traumatic stuff in her life. And the list just goes on as the years go by. <BR> I really don't want to write it all down. I was diagnosed with anxiety/depressive disorder 10 months ago and I've been on 120mg of douloxetine ever since, and sporadically see a psychiatrist with whom I don't really talk much because my head just feels empty when I have to talk about what's bothering me with someone. I've been depressed most of my life I ... Wed, 21 May 2014 14:12:42 EST Hello from PA Hello, my name is Heather and I am a 34 year old mom of 1 boy. I joined this site to get support and motivation when needed because I have struggled with my weight for my entire life. My main goal for losing weight is to have my own child (my son is my husbands unfortunately not biologically mine) and overall be healthier to take care of my family. If anyone has any questions for me or would just like to be friends, just send me a message. Blessed be everyone. Wed, 21 May 2014 00:34:03 EST Healthy Chick is in the house! Hey everybody! So excited to be here! Feeling super motivated ... Tue, 20 May 2014 23:55:16 EST Twotop20 Hi everyone. I am going to send a pic of myself soon. Well my goal is to have 10%-12% of body fat. I want to become a professional body builder. And I joined because my weight manager said it would help me to get the results I was looking for. I am about to have weight lost surgery soon. Tue, 20 May 2014 22:02:09 EST New I am a 31 year old mother of two who just graduated college. Between finishing student teaching for my Bachelor's degree and taking care of two children (one of whom is on the autism spectrum) I have really let myself go this year. I am so disappointed in how I look compared to even last August! I want to make some positive changes so that I can feel good about myself and be a better wife, mother, and teacher! Mon, 19 May 2014 20:51:57 EST looking for support Hi everyone. I would just like to introduce myself, my name is Rita and I suffer on and off from mood swings, sadness, anxiety, and anger. <BR> <BR> I have 4 beautiful children which have been my reason to continue when voices in my head told me to quit life. <BR> <BR> I have struggled with being fat since I was 8, and although I am sick of the merry-go-round of losing weight and putting it all on again, I seem to continue this cycle. <BR> , <BR> I have tried so many weight loss efforts. I ... Mon, 19 May 2014 17:26:29 EST Hello, everyone I am new to Spark People and new to this team. I have been dealing with depression nearly all my life, and I am just now beginning to crawl back out of my second biggest black hole. It seems as I get older, it gets more difficult. I actually would have thought it would get easier. Unfortunately, I have been dealing with some of those major life depressors- loss of a family member, health issues, mobility issues, unemployment (on and off over last 3 years, mostly off) - and I basically gav... Sun, 18 May 2014 06:07:17 EST Hello - I'm Merci from Portland, Oregon I was on Sparks quite a few years ago, now I'm back! I am determined to make it work this time: I'm 52, 100+ pounds to lose, not getting younger, and don't want to spend the rest of my life feeling sore, tired, sick, depressed, and generally just plain 'blah'. It's time for a change, and I'm feeling very motivated this time - I will do this! I know it will take time, I will slip up, it will go slow or even stop on occasion, but I will plug my way through every opportunity that comes my way! ... Sat, 17 May 2014 23:27:19 EST WOOHOO! LET'S CELEBRATE OUR ACCOMPLI SHMENTS! <em>244</em> Our Team Members Want to CELEBRATE Your Accomplishments With YOU! Please Share Your <em>244</em> Moments With Us! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>345</em> <em>242</em> <em>250</em> <em>243</em> <em>381</em> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> THANKS and HUGS <BR> Pam Sat, 17 May 2014 19:34:53 EST Hi I am Nan 59 <BR> Single <BR> Sharing home with mum 83 <BR> Struggle to keep my spirits up since losing dad, but need to try for mum. <BR> Any suggestions on stress management <BR> Including work and daily commute I have a 47 hours working week so with housework and keeping a large garden tidy there isn't much time for enough sleep or exercise or me-time Fri, 16 May 2014 17:22:43 EST Time to reboot. Hi, I'm Erin, I'm about to be 29 in two months, live in the Poconos and I'm trying to lose around 75 lbs. I use to be a competitive swimmer from the time I was 4 untill I was 18. Unfortunately, no one told me that when you stop swimming, you have to stop eating an insane amount of calories. I became a widow a year and a half ago, lost my soul mate to a heart attack the day before his 35th birthday. I too have a family history of heart disease, and dropping this extra weight can only help me b... Fri, 16 May 2014 03:26:50 EST New around here... Hi everyone! i just joined SP and am looking to build a support system to help me reach my goals. Feel free to check out my page and friend me so we can support each other! <BR> <BR> I'm 32 years old and looking to lose 30lbs! Thu, 15 May 2014 00:49:34 EST dealing with depression I am 37 years old with depression and rhuematoid arthritis and have gained alot of weight from over eating. I am new at this program but hoping it helps. Wed, 14 May 2014 18:14:27 EST I'm Hella New! Hey guys! My name is Alicia. I'm an 18 year old college student from Ohio. I've often tried to lose weight, since I've been overweight my whole life, but now, with the overabundance of girls with fit bodies at college, I've gotten a little jealous and want to get serious with getting my body right. My goal is a 50 pound loss, and my ultimate goal is a 75 pound loss.So hit me up and help me out! I love meeting new people. Wed, 14 May 2014 17:38:08 EST mutual encouragement I just joined today, and while I have already managed to lose 20 lbs before joining, I would love to meet some people for mutual support and encouragement. I am not the criticizing type of friend, but I do try to be supportive, and have days where I need the encouragement myself.'s nice to meet everyone...feel free to add me. Have an awesome day, and push yourself just a little harder than you did yesterday! It all adds up in the end. Wed, 14 May 2014 12:13:01 EST Just joined..can't stop crying today Another member suggested I join this group to get some support. I've been very depressed lately and today I just can't seem to stop crying... I couldn't sleep last night. I tried working out this morning but I just didn't feel like I could do it... I've never been like this. I'm usually a happy person so I don't know what to do or how to change this... Any advice will be appreciated. Thanks! Tue, 13 May 2014 10:41:40 EST HELLO, I JUST JOINED AND LOOK FORWARD TO THIS PRO I'VE BEEN OVER WEIGHT AND DIETING ALL MY LIFE. THIS TIME IS NOT A DIET, IT'S A LIFE STYLE CHANGE. AT MY AGE I JUST WANT TO BE HEALTHY! I'VE LOST OVER 40LBS. IN THE PAST 7 MONTHS, BUT NEED SOME EXTRA SUPPORT. I HAVE FIBRO. AND A BAD BACK BUT CANT LET IT STOP ME FROM GETTING AS HEALTHY AS I CAN. I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THE HELP AND SUPPORT OF THIS GROUP. HELLO TO EVERYONE :). APRILSUNSHINE22. Tue, 13 May 2014 08:58:52 EST how quickly does exercise improve your mood? I need to lose weight and to exercise for a myriad of reasons, one of them mental health. While I understand that the body only produces these feel good endorphins during during relatively intense cardio I seem to recall that the "internet" told me on multiple occasions that on a bad day just a walk might cheer you up. Well, it doesn't at least not for me. I have now on several occasions walked for 2 miles along a fairly nice route (river, spring greenery) and I have even worked up a bit of a... Tue, 13 May 2014 06:33:33 EST HELP! cym222 Hello,I just joined sparkpeople,I'm about 100 lbs overwieght and want to live a more active life style like I used to.I dont really know what I'm doing or how to use sparkpeople,so far all I do is track my meals and fitness which is working so far,I've lost 5 lbs since I started 3 days ago.I'm wondering if there is a coach I can correspond with on a daily basis that's free.Any advice please let me know, and it might be easier to email me directly until I know what I' ... Mon, 12 May 2014 07:47:45 EST HELP! cym222 Hello,I just joined sparkpeople,I'm about 100 lbs overwieght and want to live a more active life style like I used to.I dont really know what I'm doing or how to use sparkpeople,so far all I do is track my meals and fitness which is working so far,I've lost 5 lbs since I started 3 days ago.I'm wondering if there is a coach I can correspond with on a daily basis that's free.Any advice please let me know, and it might be easier to email me directly until I know what I' ... Mon, 12 May 2014 07:38:12 EST always alone Hey my name is Jamie. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression. I'm also a recently single mom to two young boys which can be very difficult. I'm always alone cause I can't bring myself to talk to or be around people. And getting in shape is a very difficult task because I have no motivation and zero energy 99.99 percent of the time. I actually worked out for 45 minutes today and have decided to adopt a vegetarian diet. Vegetarian not Vegan lol I can still have dairy and eggs. I think this... Sun, 11 May 2014 17:42:15 EST First big step Hi...I am hoping to come over with my overeating through this program and become fit and healthy. Sun, 11 May 2014 15:06:31 EST Back After two years I have Bipolar. Recently increased Abilify from 1 to 2, then to 4, then to 5 mg; it has helped TREMENDOUSLY. I want to continue losing weight since SP worked for me before. I have downloaded a gym trial pass but I keep putting off going! I also keep putting off doing the meal planning and grocery shopping for the week. And work...I'm always behind! And I have an almost nightly three-hour gig. BUT I know that I must make time for fitness because I DESERVE to have a body that I love! I wa... Sun, 11 May 2014 11:27:04 EST Hello :D :3 hello! I'm Kota ~ I was a member before but i had deleted my past account due to some in life issues! <BR> <BR> :D I've rejoined because i do enjoy this website. Also I hope to move foward with everyone in building a healthy lifestyle , weight loss and a better me, us! <BR> <BR> My goals right now are to lose weight and be more active with a better eatting habits. Currently I'm a bit of a lazy gamer. Aint gonna lie, i need that push once in awhile to get off my tush. <BR> <BR> Currentl... Sat, 10 May 2014 18:38:42 EST New to SP Hi, I'm Jen and new to SP. I'm looking forward to getting healthy and losing weight. Looks like there's a ton of information and support here. Fri, 9 May 2014 21:51:53 EST Finally introducing myself Hi all! I was diagnosed bipolar about 12 years ago but I definately lean towards the depression side. Even slight manic episodes are rare anymore. Was put on zyprexa and wellbutrin. I gained sooooo much weight on zyprexa I had to do something. I did Atkins about 10 years ago and lost 50lbs! And I kept it off. About 3 years ago I joined WW and lost an additional 25lbs but have gained 20 back....ugh. <BR> So, here I am on SP doing my version of Atkins....Trying to find the right groove for me ... Wed, 7 May 2014 19:17:45 EST Mrs Mooyman I like to consider myself an old soul. There is not much new about me. I love old homes, old furniture, and have old standard values. I don't tend to relate well to people my age. I get more along with the older people than the younger. I am a wife and a mother of three. My job is to care for the house and our children along with my two nephews. I am a very busy person, but fight daily with weight. I am in no way a lazy person yet can't seem to lose the weight. I believe this is due to some d... Tue, 6 May 2014 22:59:13 EST Hi, Everyone! Hi, all! Starting up on SparkPeople for what seems like the millionth husband and I just recently got health insurance, and at my first doctor's appointment in nearly ten years I found out I have high cholesterol. I am hoping that, now that I have a legitimate medical reason to start taking care of myself, I will actually be able to follow through and get myself healthy. I've always known that I was overweight, but to have this added incentive will hopefully end up being a blessing ... Tue, 6 May 2014 15:52:26 EST A makeover before 30's My name is Inas and I was struggling to lose extra pounds after giving birth to my second child. Now, I 'm about 75 kg and hope to see 60 kg some day. I just want to make a decision fat or slim and I want not to be in the middle position . Just want to be healthy one and learn my kids healthy life. If someone feeling that he has the same goals like me , join me and we can motivate each other. I love here so much and trying to be like other members. I love reading and food off course but now I... Tue, 6 May 2014 12:41:16 EST New to all this Hello everyone. I have just joined Spark and am in need to support to reach my goals. I had heart bypass surgery in December 2012 and due to complications from the surgery I have not been able to return to work. Needless to say my life has change drastically. I am hoping to find a buddy or buddies to talk to and get advice on how to get out of this funk of feeling worthless. I invite anyone to add me to your friends list as I would like to help others with their goals and feelings which in tu... Tue, 6 May 2014 10:10:59 EST Christina3023 My name is Christina and I am new to the page. I will be 40 at the end of next year and I want to reach my goal by then but I need help along the way. I am looking for motivation and support and I will do the same for anyone. I know losing weight is such a daily struggle but with support and encouragement it can be done. I have lost the weight before. I was feeling great. I quit smoking then 4 months later I was pregnant with my son. I have not been able to get back on track and focus... Mon, 5 May 2014 22:13:05 EST Time for a change Hi everyone. I need a change, or should I say a lot of changes in my life. Right now my weight is affecting my depression, which in turn causes me to not eat right and gain more weight. I'm currently at 307 pounds and just feel uncomfortable in my body. As far as my depression goes, I'm taking Wellbutrin and Lexapro for it. They help to keep my moods somewhat stable, but I know I can do better without more meds. The hardest part right now is just getting started. Mon, 5 May 2014 14:34:13 EST i have to do this!! hello sparkpeople, i'm jayn & i live in southern alberta, canada. I must loose 75 lbs.... why you ask? haha no you probably didn't ask why, your on here too so you know the misery of being overweight just as i do. i've been heavy my entire life but now that i'm in my 40's i really must do something about it.... i need to get happy. <BR> i have difficulties with motivation and really hope this site and the people will help to keep me on track. <BR> hopefully some of you will become friends t... Sun, 4 May 2014 11:20:52 EST Hello from Maine Hi Everyone, <BR> I am Carol and I have just been diagnosed with sever depression. My father passed away in January, a week later my mother went into the hospital and now is not totally independent. I have three sisters and only one is semi helping, my mother only trusts me to handle things, She has loads of doctors appointments. I have a 45 hour a week job that take me 4 hours a day to travel back and forth to so I am trying to find a job closer to where I live. I am having to take a lot of ... Sun, 4 May 2014 08:04:51 EST Hello everyone Hi I have just signed up today I am still trying to work out how to use this site. My goal weight is 60kg but I am currently 81kg which means I have 21kg to lose but right now I would be happy to lose a kg at the moment anything is better then nothing . I would like to hear some success stories on everyone else and I will keep you all updated with my progress <BR> Cheers... Sun, 4 May 2014 05:54:55 EST Check-In Day Well today is check-in day with my counselor and I have to say that for the first time since I started going I am feeling pretty proud of my week. I made a lot of positive choices this week and I also made some significant strides forward. <BR> <BR> I thought I would share; <BR> <BR> - I joined a weekly support group and actually went <BR> - I saw my doctor and got a prescription to help me sleep at night <BR> - I gave up all alcohol (what I used previously to help me sleep) <BR> - I sign... Fri, 2 May 2014 10:22:21 EST new Hi, My name is Angela. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression for most of my life. I am at home full time now and not working. not sure if it's a good or bad thing. I'm trying to be nicer to myself and take care of myself. I am open to any ideas and resources. baby steps first. Thu, 1 May 2014 09:32:11 EST New to the group Hello everyone! My name is Leigh and I am a 34 year old Canadian female who has suffered from depression all of her life. I struggle with it pretty bad sometimes, but I'm hoping that with the support of others who suffer from this that I will be able to finally lose this weight ~ looking forward to meeting new people and just enjoying the group :) Thu, 1 May 2014 00:43:26 EST Hi there! This is my first time on spark people. I am a mother of 2. I started gaining weight when I started having kids. Before that I was in great shape. Because I started young and did not have my life in order before that things have been difficult financially for many years of my husband and I's marriage. I think this contributed to the depression which also has contributed to my weight gain. I tend to eat my emotions. We are finally starting to get to a place now that we are older where things ar... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 00:38:51 EST Set Back I went to the doctor yesterday between my classes and I found out that I have walking pneumonia. I have been sick for 12 days today. I had tried taking cheap pills from dollar tree then I tried taking the pseudophed that you have to buy from the pharmacy and sign for and those didn't work, so I finally gave in and went to the doctor. I had been doing some exercises and even helped my brother move out of his apartment on Sunday all while I was doing so I was coughing up stuff like crazy and lo... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 13:27:46 EST Recently diagnosed with depression Hi I'm Marylin. I was recently diagnosed with moderate to severe depression. I am currently seeing a therapist. My biggest problem is how to get out of it. I use quick fixes like exercise and keeping busy, but what happens when I have to take a break? It's like a huge crash and it's hard to get back up. <em>39</em> Tue, 29 Apr 2014 08:12:45 EST Back again hi all! I haven't posted on here in a long while. I'm starting over..again. But at least I'm trying! Hope everyone has a great week! Mon, 28 Apr 2014 15:45:44 EST Selfless kindness This article speaks for itself. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s+Surrey+passengers/9772638/story </link> Sun, 27 Apr 2014 23:04:40 EST Everybody has someone else...but me It has always been super hard for me to make friends. I have been shy an overweight my whole life. The few friends that I have been able to make, I have lost, due to various reasons, but mostly because of my lack of self-esteem\self-confidence and depression getting in the way. Now that I look back, I think I have suffered from social anxiety as well...sometimes, still do. I am finding it very lonely, frustrating and embarrassing that I am 31 years old and don't have any friends. I mean,... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 21:32:47 EST Hello from Ontario! Hello everyone! My name is Tammy and I have struggled with weight my whole life. I get discouraged easily, and reach for the worst foods to make me happy when I am down. I have tried just about every crash diet there is, but only end up putting the weight back on (or more!) within a short period of time. I have tried doing this alone for so long, now I am reaching out for support. I am eager , and excited to begin my journey with you! Sun, 27 Apr 2014 10:51:07 EST Brand Spanking New-ish? Heeeeey! <BR> I am a rebooter? I guess? Not exactly a newbie since I have tried this once before! LOL! <BR> Well thought I would introduce myself! <BR> <BR> I'm Miss. <BR> I have 175lbs to lose. <BR> Currently I weigh 350. <BR> I am always looking for honest friends, so don't hesitate to add me. <BR> I live my life as so: <BR> Embracing the weird, strange and odd because that is what makes life interesting. <BR> Lover of all art forms. <BR> Good at a lot of things, great at nothing in partic... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 21:27:22 EST Hi from Rainbow......I'm working my way to the pot Hi, I'm Ali and a little under 12 months ago I started on a program to lose at least 5kg by the time I turned 50 in Feb 14'. <BR> Well I did manage to lose 6kg by that time and it took me about 4 months. However, I put it all back on in 3 months. Shattered would be the understatement. Now that I am menopausal it's soooo much harder to lose it. I'm also nearly finished my personal trainer course and certainly don't feel like a very good role model. <BR> Anyway, the only way is to get out ther... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 19:54:32 EST I'm new here I think I've had depression just below the surface for years. I had an abusive mother and never dealt with the damage done, but I've turned to food for comfort. I think this is one of many steps in healing. Sat, 26 Apr 2014 18:17:22 EST Hello I don't have a lot to say, except hello. I'm here because I need help tracking my progress and staying motivated to lose weight and manage a couple of things, like my blood pressure and depression. I have an extra motivation because if I don't get things in check I'm out of a job. <BR> <BR> I'm pretty quiet, more lurker than anything. <BR> <BR> Have a good day. Sat, 26 Apr 2014 16:58:48 EST New to this Well, I joined the team :) I've been battling depression for 20 years now, recently I almost lost the battle. My life and my body shut down, and I was done. Because of the grace of God, my husband wouldn't let that happen, he helped me see a little bit of value in myself. That little bit has led to a little more, so I've decided it's worth the fight. So here I am, starting a new journey. I'm glad to be a part of this team. Sat, 26 Apr 2014 09:49:57 EST I need a hug today... My week hasn't been very good emotionally. I had a doctors appointment on Wednesday and the good thing I found then was that I'd lost 14 pounds since the last time I was there (I can't remember the last date) but it shows me my scale at home is off. <BR> <BR> With the new way of doing health records at the clinic I now have to rate myself each time I'm there. I have to tell them or fill out papers with my moods, my thoughts, my emotions and rate these things on a scale of 1-10. Thinking o... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 12:04:45 EST New to Group I have suffered from various degrees of depression all of my life. Unfortunately my coping strategies were bad ones and have taken a serious toll on my health. Now I am ready to turn things around. I want to be happier and healthier. I hope that joining this team, and using Spark People resources I can stay on a more positive path. <em>213</em> Fri, 25 Apr 2014 00:56:47 EST Hola! Hi all, <BR> <BR> First time posting in a forum like this. I just joined SP to track my weight loss and. Was pleasantly surprised to find this group! <BR> <BR> I've been battling depression for over 20 years, most of my adult life.I'm at another low point and hoping getting back into shape will help. Problem is its hard to stay positive and think long term. I'm so sick of feeling like this but i hate therapy. I saw a dr when i was first diagnosed but not for long and not since. I'm just not... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 17:08:45 EST A little hello I'm posting to the forums for my very first time. I don't have a lot of experience doing this but am glad to finally be taking this step. I joined spark people for the same reason that many others join, to lose weight. However, another side to my joining is with the hopes that I can make friends and learn to change my eating habits. I have a strong desire to learn a healthy way to eat. I want to be able to choose the right foods and the right portion sizes to not only lose the weight, but whe... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 00:46:34 EST Not new but not a participant Always been a cheerleader for Sparks. When ever anyone told me of weight related problems always sent them the Sparks page. Today I've decide to be a Spark by example! <em>213</em> Wed, 23 Apr 2014 22:32:03 EST PLEASE READ: "Changes to Team Pages" Hello Everyone, <BR> <BR> The information below has just been posted by Coach Jen. Changes are being made to all Team Pages. PLEASE READ! <BR> <BR> Thank You, <BR> Pam <BR> <BR> MESSAGE FROM COACH JEN: <BR> <BR> <BR> We're very excited to announce that changes are coming to SparkTeam pages that will hopefully make the Team pages even better, give you a few new features you've been asking for, and engage your Team members in discussions even more! We wanted to give you plenty of notice ... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 22:23:38 EST Hey there! My name's Chianne, I am 20 years old (21 in about 2 months), from Kentucky, and one of my long-term goals is to lose around 50 or so pounds. <BR> I've been struggling with my weight for over half of my life and, as a result, i've never really been confident in myself. For as long as I can remember, i've weighed 200 or more pounds. I remember feeling down and sorry for myself a lot throughout the years, and then feeling more guilty when I would turn to food as a comfort for those feelings. Bu... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 15:09:20 EST This is my 3rd try at SparkPeople My name is Pam and I've tried SP before and then let it go by the way side. This time I need to make it work for/with me. I am 59 and have suffered from depression for about 30 years. I am on anti depressants to keep it under control but it sneaks out every now and then. So this is another start for me. I also need to lose more than 100 lbs. <BR> Good Morning Everyone! Tue, 22 Apr 2014 10:31:58 EST New to this Hello, I'm Angela. I've walked away from an abusive relationship. My situation made me depressed so I would eat then I get more depressed because of my weight. I need to break this cycle as I begin to heal. Mon, 21 Apr 2014 18:57:01 EST Why does it always come out of nowhere. ....???? I was plugging along the last 2 weeks or so doing really well, diet in good shape, managing my crazy boss at my job, marriage manageable and kids are why do I suddenly wake up one morning just wanting to get back under the covers and hide from the world? Why do I feel such an overwhelming sense of misery - out of nowhere...nothing brought in on, I wasn't doing or thinking of anything that should cause it, Easter was very nice in my home....Depression is such an evil monster to jus... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 13:24:53 EST Wanting to join the military.. I'm a single mother in San Antonio. I have two children, ages four and five. I'm in college for health care administration. I would like to lose weight to join the military. I have about 114 pounds to lose. If anyone has similar goals, please add me as a friend. I really need support. <BR> In regards to depression, I think that being a single mom has a lot to do with it. Even though I'm in school and have a full time job, and have my parents watch the kids while I'm at work...I feel like I'm ... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 12:26:20 EST ALMOST 60-LOOKING TO LOSE Hi, <BR> I will be turning 60 this year and this is the first time I look at myself and think I am looking old on my face, with my belly fat...disgusting! I have the potential to become diabetic, gestational diabetic with both pregnancies, so I am looking to bring my weight down a bit and hopefully I can. I am bad at follow through, especially when I feel down about anything. My go to feeling down remedy is sweets. I am hoping that I will be able to keep on my meal plans better as I am selec... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 12:12:11 EST Stuck, energy? for life is missing.... I try to stick to a fairly healthy fruit, veggie, carb & protein diet with exercise & wghts too. Anymore I find myself relying on the coffee to keep me going....luckily its sunny today! Sun, 20 Apr 2014 15:08:54 EST Hi I am MarciaLS51 from IL I am 62 years old, 5 feet tall. This is my second time to try Sparks the first I wasn't to into it. I have been on for 2 weeks , I started at 303.4 and I weighed at the Doctor yesterday I am 297.4. I am below 300. Next goal to be below 290. Small goals big ones seem out of reach and I get thinking why try. I have bad knees, back trouble and high blood pressure. So Doctor is on board. I live with my oldest daughter, Tina, who is doing Sparks also. She has lost 12 pounds and is walking... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 16:43:43 EST Hey there, I'm new here. My name is Ariel, but as you will be able to see I go by Ari. <BR> I'm 20, and turn 21 in December. I am slowly getting out of an abusive relationship, he moved almost 500 miles away so it's easier to "disappear" off the grid. I started getting depressed almost 6 years ago. And I have been working my way out of it, I used to self harm. All I want now is to get healthy and be happy. Fri, 18 Apr 2014 14:59:38 EST Cindy2chubby Hi! I'm the girl described as has a great personality. I worry that since I am heavier 5'5" 220 lbs that people judge me as gross lazy and pathetic. I also worry no decent man will ever truly love me. So I have come for support to get back to the fun beautiful lady I used to be. I'm having trouble getting motivated for exercise and laying off the comfort foods. Please help and be kind please. Fri, 18 Apr 2014 01:20:11 EST Hi everyone! I just signed up for spark people to help me drop 32lbs. I'm always looking for support and to support people on their healthy journey so feel free to add me as a friend so we can reach our goals together! Thu, 17 Apr 2014 19:31:59 EST Hi! My name is Redgirl54. I am a type 2 diabetic and was diagnosed 4 years ago. I struggle with depression due to the diabetes. I joined Spark People on the first day of April. I have really enjoyed the tracking features for food and activity. This makes me very accountable. I need to lose a total of 37 pounds and I believe I will be successful. This weight did not come on in a few days and I know it will take several months and a lifetime of changes to accomplish my goals. My good friend introduced me to Spark... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 17:47:56 EST New Hi, want and need to do this but really having to push. How do you get motivated when eating is how you "manage" your depression. Wed, 16 Apr 2014 19:47:29 EST Hi I'm New!! Hi! I'm Madison I am new to Sparkpeople. I am 20 years old and have always struggled with being happy with my weight! I went to the doctor recently and he told me that I need to try to loose between 10 and 20 pounds so hopefully this can be my way to that goal!! My biggest problem with trying to loose weight is that when I get sad or am feeling down I need to eat. So I guess you could call me an emotional eater. Wed, 16 Apr 2014 13:34:28 EST Hi this is my first time on here. Hello, <BR> I am a 49 year old women who needs to lose weight. I dont really know where to begin. This sucks. I am so at a loss for what to say. I get so depressed because everything I have tried ends with me putting the weight back on. What really works???? Mon, 14 Apr 2014 18:49:49 EST Hello! Hello all, I'm Anna. <BR> <BR> i've never considered that I might be depressed, I always thought that feeling stressed and sluggish and bummed out just came with working long hours, and dealing with difficult and stressful situations. I'm a pretty cheerful person for the most part, but over the past few years, I've started having days were getting out of bed is too hard, calling in sick to stay home in my jammies and eat comfort food, and skipping my workout because I worked an 9.5 hour day... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 12:48:14 EST I am new to the team I am coming back to Spark since I feel like I am in a place where I need to take care of myself and focus on my health and well being. I look forward to being a part of your team <BR> <BR> Linda Mon, 14 Apr 2014 12:04:52 EST Tangible.... The main reason I am doing this is to feel better and stop hurting, that doesnt mean I dont want to look good and have fun too tho. I thought maybe it would help my motivation to set a more tangible goal to work towards. I so badly want to go cosplay at a con, so Im thinking maybe after Ive lost quite a bit I will find a way to make that happen. Im not sure what I will cosplay, there are SO many choices from Doctor Who, Supernatural, The Avengers and so many others that I will have to think l... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 07:47:00 EST Back again Hi Ppl, <BR> <BR> I'm back after a while away. I'm seeing a councilor and getting some things sorted. I am not comfort eating at the moment so that's a big step for me. Now just need to move out of the crummy area I live in and change job. Working on the job bit but the moving could prove to be a little harder. Fed up of neighbours kids playing outside my house all the time, politely asked some to move, and stop screaming, at half seven tonight as my kids are in bed and one told me to make h... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 16:03:56 EST Getting your body to move when your mood says "NO" I was amazed at myself yesterday. I actually got out of bed and walked around the park. Although it was one lap instead of my usual two, my body yearned to "MOVE". <BR> <BR> My head said, stay in bed, cover your head, don't take your meds and sleep. Which is what I really wanted to do and intended to do. <BR> <BR> Instead, I ate right, walked and didn't dive into the sweets etc. (Because we don't have any.) <BR> <BR> I was still depressed. Going thru a med change. I still was in bed for m... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 08:17:38 EST Nice to meet you'all! Hi, my I'm Cindee. <BR> I have been trying to lose weight for a long time. The most I've weighed has been up to309 lbs! I get discouraged and stress eat, or just become content with my weight and convince myself that that's how I should feel and look. <BR> I have a classic rock band with my sisters and I am the vocalist, so losing weight has haunted me for years. the least I've weighed is 282 lbs and with the help of this site I have started this challenge ones more. <BR> Thank you for we... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 07:40:25 EST Hello Hey Yall(: <BR> Im new to sparkpeople, and a new mom. My first baby is now 2 months old and I decided its time to start losing some weight. I'm currently 209.4lbs and my goal is to be 150 or less. I just started working out today and did a mile and a half on the treadmill, also took a walk with my baby(: Trying to boost my mood and get out of the post partum blues. (: Fri, 11 Apr 2014 21:01:56 EST Hi! I have suffered through depression for 24 years and have just recently enlisted the help of a psychiatrist. The best decision I ever made! I am also in therapy because I've realized that there are issues I need to address and then maybe I won't be so depressed. <BR> <BR> weight issues don't help anything either. I feel like I am a disgustingly fat person who no one would like to see. Even though I'm told different, by my husband, kids, friends...I don't believe them. <BR> <BR> S... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 14:07:23 EST Good Morning!! I just wanted to say good morning and that I hope each and every one of you have a wonderful day! Wed, 9 Apr 2014 08:36:05 EST Desperate situation in long time infrequent group I am a long time group member (several months, not a super long time). I am depressed right now due to a bad living situation, couples with bipolar disorder and possibly depression for strong pain medication (fentanyl patch and hydrocodone with acetaminophen pills for a tumor condition). <BR> <BR> I also take care of my parents, but I am having a really hard time. I have a lot on my plate, and I really could use some encouragement more than anything else. M support network is failing me (... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 21:36:43 EST Hello! Well I finally did it, reached 201 on the scale and my husband nagging me. I tried a paid program with little to offer then remembered SparksPeople. I've lost 2 lbs in only a few days. Afraid of getting the saggy skin like an elephant but maybe that won't happen. Tue, 8 Apr 2014 21:34:40 EST Hello! Well I finally did it, reached 201 on the scale and my husband nagging me. I tried a paid program with little to offer then remembered SparksPeople. I've lost 2 lbs in only a few days. Afraid of getting the saggy skin like an elephant but maybe that won't happen. Tue, 8 Apr 2014 21:29:02 EST New to this Hi, my name is Lisa. I have recently discovered the world of depression. I went through some tough times as a kid but always got through it, I considered myself to be pretty strong but a year ago I got divorced and I am really struggling with it. I actually lost a lot of weight which is not how I wanted to do it but now I am a little too thin for comfort so I am trying to gain strength to get on a healthy track. <BR> <BR> I appreciate all the struggles that people go through and know we all ... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 21:21:42 EST New to sparkpeople Hello everyone. I am new to sparkpeople. I am trying to lose weight and I have depression and anxiety. I have four children ages 19, 16,16, 4. Hope to talk and become friends to some of you. Tue, 8 Apr 2014 11:00:45 EST New here Depression makes me isolative so, I'm happy to reach out to you. Tue, 8 Apr 2014 03:28:44 EST Just Wanted to Say Hi I'm new to Sparkpeople, my name is Catherine and I joined this community to help me try and lose weight and stay motivated along the way. I'm now at 183 and working my way down to 135 by October, I aim to get there so staying positive about all this. Mon, 7 Apr 2014 20:11:38 EST Trying to find the motivation I need Hi, my name is Roxanne and I'm hoping this site helps me achieve my goals. I been looking everywhere for the right tool to help me get some sort of self esteem considering the fact, that I've never really had any. When I was young, I was miserable and made myself invisible even though it didn't work much, but now that I am older and I now have a 6 month old son, I realized this is way past due, I just can't seem to find the right steps to start and get past the lack of motivation. Mon, 7 Apr 2014 15:29:14 EST Hello My name is Patricia and I am very new to the Spark family. I have seven dogs (all came here as strays but are strays no longer). I have a very understanding husband, who loves animals as much as I do. I need support (a little push) into a great weight loss program. ...I think I have found it. Thanks Mon, 7 Apr 2014 11:14:00 EST Good Books A friend of mine told me about this book it is very good and a quick read. I am on medications so I don't do the Herbs but is also talks about vitamins and how Anxiety and Depression comes on and things we can do to help ourselves. <BR> <BR> <BR> The chemistry of calm by Henry Emmons, MD Mon, 7 Apr 2014 09:36:37 EST New here... Oh my goodness... where to start... well my name is Kimberlee. My main goal is to be healthier for my guy and our future children. I would also like to eventually beat my depression that is caused by many years of abuse as a child and a brain tumor that I was never fully able to process emotionally. Mon, 7 Apr 2014 09:25:11 EST jennifer needing to lose the weight I'm 28 yrs of age, I was in very good shape up till 2007 I got hit by a forklift at work. I became depressed, because I could not work but I did not give up. After two years of therapy I went to work for the state through pain and spasms and all I hung in there till my body couldn't take any more so two years later, I had a spasm on two row stairs that caused me to break my right foot and damage my disc worse then before. But I haven't gave up GOD is going to guide me all the way. Sun, 6 Apr 2014 23:38:19 EST New to SP & looking for support! Hello everyone! I recently joined SparkPeople and am looking forward to accomplishing my goals with the help of this site! <BR> <BR> I'm Lori, a 31 year old female who's on her journey to lose 31lbs this year. I'd love to get to know some people with like minded goals! Sun, 6 Apr 2014 23:06:13 EST hello I had a pretty good day. I walked to Church (I live right next store) and paid attention to the mass. It is a struggle for me to get my mind off my problems. But I did it. I watched a movie and relaxed. When I say I walked to church that is an accomplishment because I am recovering from sciatica and have before now been unable to walk. I'm so relieved to be walking again Sun, 6 Apr 2014 16:58:16 EST