SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Welcome! This is a space for anyone dealing with depression to support each other as we eat right, exercise, lose weight, and find ways to manage our depression. SparkPeople Dealing with Depression Team Messageboard Hi Everyone I'm not new to SparkPeople but just started using the Fitbit tracker & reset my account and goals. I am looking for new Spark Friends and other Fitbit users to buddy up with & work on my goals for a healthier lifestyle. Mon, 23 Nov 2015 17:04:49 EST Fill in a word <BR> How to play: <BR> Copy the whole list to your post and fill in ONE (anyone you want) answer starting with the letter given. <BR> <BR> When the list is full, we'll move on to the next letter. <BR> <BR> Let's see how long it takes us to go through the alphabet. <BR> <BR> WORKING ON "N"For November then O so on <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. A child's toy - <BR> <BR> 2. Something in your wardrobe - <BR> <BR> 3. Something in your fridge - <BR> <BR> 4. A mood - <BR> <BR> 5. A film title ... Sat, 21 Nov 2015 09:54:14 EST Groucho, Robinson and Reynolds got Uptown Funk I hope this is new to you. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ce-oldies-classic-vintage-nostalgia-v2/ </link> Fri, 20 Nov 2015 19:54:24 EST HI, I'M NEW Trying to break all these bad habits and to learn to live with diabetes. Sometimes, it can be over whelming, 1 step up and 10 steps back. Fri, 20 Nov 2015 19:45:45 EST "Amy Poehler's Smart Girls" A feature on Amy Poehler in a today's email from, a career-oriented website, introduced me to her site designed to feed young girls' intelligence and curiosity in light of all the dumb things on the internet. The recap of an interview with Poehler about her views on career is worth reading for her ideas on work. The link to her website in the article doesn't work, but the one below does. While browsing the site I noticed an item on negative body image and ways to change it; this o... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 17:23:47 EST Heny Tucker of Lanham Maryland Hi my name is Henry, I have been battling my weight forever I quite smoking , retired and the struggler just got worst. All I can do is keep on trying , hope someone can wish me luck Wed, 18 Nov 2015 08:45:25 EST I'm Baaaackkkkkk!! Yes, starting a fresh new outlook on health and determined to make it more fun, more challenging. Health is my biggest goal more than losing the weight even. I had a scare I was sitting in a big chair in front of the TV and kept coughing what felt like a heart cough and it hurt, and it was scary and it was then that I determined to get healthier. NO MORE SITTING IN FRONT OF THE IDIOT BOX. I want to do more, read more, learn more and live a long and healthy life. Friday I walked a 5K on ... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 13:04:48 EST Water I am having trouble drinking enough water each day. Tue, 17 Nov 2015 10:11:22 EST abutton35 I am a 39 year old female that is looking for other fitbit codes so I have friends that will do challenges with me.. None of my life friends have fitbits or are even interested... as i offered to buy a few of them some just so i could get the most out of my fitbit and have ppl to challenge me... anyone want to help me out?? Mon, 16 Nov 2015 00:18:16 EST Great quotes for a bad day. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Need a pick me up. Need some motivation. I saw this on another team and thought it would be great for this team. I hope you like it. <BR> <BR> <link> id =18203&amp;memberid=972843 </link> Sun, 15 Nov 2015 12:03:33 EST Hello to newbies. Make this day be the start of a new and healthier and happier life for you. Sat, 14 Nov 2015 22:10:18 EST Newbie Here Hi everyone! I signed up a few years ago, but this is the first time that I have been checking out the SparkPeople website to see what features there are. <BR> <BR> About me, my name is Teana and I'm 27 years old from Northern California. I currently suffer from depression (nearly my whole life but it's been officially diagnosed about a year ago). My mother suffers from Manic/Bipolar Depression and Borderline Personality Disorder so life at home was so miserable at a very young age and even... Fri, 13 Nov 2015 18:05:15 EST Thank you <em>304</em> everyone for being here! My life is mostly that of isolation, for many reasons beyond my control, so knowing you all are here to "talk" with everyday brings light and smiles to my life! <em>304</em> <em>247</em> Fri, 13 Nov 2015 17:03:55 EST Introduce myself Hi, my name is Nikki. I been diagnosis of depression since 2009 when I had a preterm pregnancy at 21 weeks. Yep never an easy topic with most people. Fri, 13 Nov 2015 01:37:56 EST new but not Hello my name is shellbie I am a single mother i have depression anxiety and am a compulsive eater oh and on top of that im a professional chef ugh and anyway im here to get healthy and feel better about myself so pop over to my page friend me say hi I could use the support and conversation! ! Wed, 11 Nov 2015 21:44:38 EST Hi I am new also I am a grandmother of 9 and they keep me busy. I have recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and on chemo. It did not help my depression but I am doing well. The biggest problem is that chemo causes fatigue and no one understands. They all say take a nap or my daughter the gymnastics coach says just get up and go and it doesn't work that way I need encouragement not smart comments Wed, 11 Nov 2015 14:54:11 EST Hi I am new also I am a grandmother of 9 and they keep me busy. I have recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and on chemo. It did not help my depression but I am doing well. The biggest problem is that chemo causes fatigue and no one understands. They all say take a nap or my daughter the gymnastics coach says just get up and go and it doesn't work that way I need encouragement not smart comments Wed, 11 Nov 2015 14:53:37 EST Thank you! A big hug to each of you for your warm welcome and providing more understanding and support than I have received in a very long time! <BR> <BR> Blessings to each of you on your journey! Tue, 10 Nov 2015 01:21:27 EST giving up I feel like I've kind of given up. Not officially, but I haven't been working out or counting calories. I just have no energy. I'm stressed, I'm having headaches and earaches all the time and we don't know why. I'm tired. I'm trying to just accept myself at my current weight. But I feel insecure and not pretty. I just dont feel well. Mon, 9 Nov 2015 16:48:06 EST Hi! Can't remember if I introduced my self or not, so here I go. I am a 74 year old grandmother of 5 with 2 artificial hips,1 artificial shoulder, and 2 artificial knees. Some call me the bionic woman. Not quite. I have been depressed for many years. Been in therapy off and on for years. Been on several meds. Earlier this year my mother - to whom I was really close - died and a month or so later my body fell further apart. The arthritis seems to be eating up my joints like PAC-man (if any... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 00:24:48 EST Depression, self esteem, fear; all linked Hi I am a 31 year old female who has struggled with depression and weight all my life. The heavier I get the more my self esteem drops and the more depressed I become. When I was a teen I rode and trained horses. I have always been heavy (genetic trait) but I wasn't unhealthy. My legs were pure muscle and I was proud of that fact. I knew I would never be skinny but it didn't stop me from wanting to be one of the popular, thin, cheerleaders. I have aspergers so I struggle not only with d... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 23:53:54 EST lazy and unmotivated Hello, <BR> <BR> I'm a 55 year old overweight female. I struggle with consistency and motivation. I have severe depression which is unmedicated due to intolerance to most drugs. I'm a mess and need to take action but honestly I need help. My husband is very supportive but I need more help. I feel like I disappoint him in my lack of consistency. I would love to have a friend or mentor to help me make some type of progress. I do pretty good with my diet but cant seem to find an exercise I en... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 12:07:34 EST Anxiety cartoon This was sent by the same friend who sent the poem, "Why You Should Go Outside at 4:40 am in November," which is in the Healthy Living forum as topic "A poem for November." <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Sat, 7 Nov 2015 23:01:12 EST Hi I am Mischief! Hi I am 30 years old and I weigh 300lbs! I want to lose at least 135lbs by next year and looking to make some friends, maybe even some accountability partners along my journey! Please talk to me! I would love to get to know and help you as well! Sat, 7 Nov 2015 16:02:37 EST Procrast natingly new... Hi! I'm Tanya. 34 fulltime mom and housewife and I'm bipolar depressive. That along with an injury from a 3 year ago car accident make it difficult to get and stay active. Joined Spark Nov '14 first log in today 1 year later. 3 years ago I was at 270 and active. By Feb '15 I was 457. Today Nov '15 I am at 389+/-. Just wanted to say hi! <em>524</em> Sat, 7 Nov 2015 05:03:31 EST A poem of November "Healthy Living" is the forum that makes sense to me. A friend (not the poet) sent it as a gift. I want to share it with you. <BR> <BR> Laurie <BR> <BR> <BR> "Why You Should Go Outside at 4:40 am in November" by Rosemary Royston <BR> <BR> Because it is more silent than you can imagine <BR> and above you the moon is a nickel <BR> glinting from the unseen sun, <BR> surrounded by broken crystals. <BR> <BR> With the limbs of the bare trees <BR> web-spread like arteries, <BR> under a sky wh... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 15:06:26 EST This never happened to me before - and I feel good For the first time in my life, I believe, I got a "second wind" (I guess that's what it was). For the first time I can remember, I did not want to quit exercising. <BR> <BR> My goal is 30 minutes a day. Most of my exercise is on the exercise bike. Early this morning I did 15 minutes at a fairly slow pace--slow is all I can do in the early morning. Later in the evening I was going to do the other 15 minutes. I started at a faster pace (12-15 mph rather than 10 mph) and kept going. I did 30 mi... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 21:20:50 EST A new start and new journey I moved to Hawaii one year ago with the purpose of getting healthy, sad to say I've gained 12 pounds and injured my knee and hip which had stopped me from exercising. Also developed high blood pressure which I am sure is stress related. So I now am going to stop the excuses and do what I set out to do in the first place. Get Healthy Sun, 1 Nov 2015 14:53:48 EST November words Fill in NOVEMBER with words associated with the month November. <BR> <BR> N-Nuts <BR> O <BR> V <BR> E <BR> M <BR> B <BR> E <BR> R Sun, 1 Nov 2015 10:44:01 EST Hi I'm new Hi my name is Lisa. I'm 30 years old and a mom of 3 kids. I am struggling with ptsd and depression which hinders my motivation to stay on top of my goal. My goal is to lose 200lbs. I want to become healthier. I gained 200 lbs from baby weight, pcos and stress. Trying to balance my insulin resistance is also tough. I'm really glad there is a supportive group who understand. Fri, 30 Oct 2015 20:17:48 EST New to the team Hi I am Jennie and I am new to the team. I have lots of weight to lose and I also struggle with depression a lot. I am looking forward to being a part of the team and getting to know everybody. <img src="">I love to read and also I write a lot of poetry. Fri, 30 Oct 2015 08:10:29 EST Don't know what to do next I have not felt that good for most of this year, we did have a holiday in June which was good apart from Michael's mood changing halfway though the week, we also had a few days way earlier this month but again his mood was not good before and it is not now. <BR> I spend so much time on my own, I do go to several craft groups but all are in the day time apart from one. I have friends but find talking to them hard, I have had several sets of counselling but used up all the time now. Thu, 29 Oct 2015 15:20:06 EST Abuse/ Does It Ever Get Better Do these feelings ever get better? Its been three years since my sexual abuse which I went through for two years ended. I've dealt with nightmares and flashbacks and everything else. But it feels like its just now sinking in that it actually happened to me. Its not something I just made up in my head, its not something I can change. It hurts that somebody took something that's supposed to be great and ruined it for me. I can't get that back and it just hurts. This is what I imagine having som... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 23:12:54 EST Toda is the first day of the rest of my life I've been on countless diets. I've managed to not gain ALL of the weight I've lost, but have put 50 of 89 back on. I have well over 100 to lose. I'm very excited to learn of the diabetic tracking and challenges and team offered here! I was going to join Weight Watchers (again) but I think everything I need and then some is HERE! I have been dealing with stage 4 cancer for almost 7 years (given 3 months to live in Dec. 2008!) and have managed to beat that beast and keep on breathing and l... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 20:56:56 EST Steps I took to fight depression Hi, my name is Danny and I've been struggling with depression since I was 12. Eventually I was diagnosed with a Borderline Personality Disorder and I tried to commit suicide at least 4 times... the last one 6 months ago. <BR> Today I'm happy, functional and enjoying my life. What changed in this last months for me to change to an opposite mindset? <BR> The answer: almost everything. But I had to give the first step to change things and for me this first step was changing my eating habits.... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 12:51:28 EST New member wants to know about depression meds... Hi everyone, I just joined Spark today. I am in recovery and when I got sober in 2009, I began gaining a lot of weight. I was taking Serequel for depression and sleep and it seems I was always hungry! I stopped taking it when the weight started piling on. However, I do take Effexor. Does anyone know if Effexor causes weight gain? Has anyone else had problems with depression meds and weight gain? Mon, 26 Oct 2015 02:44:56 EST Hello everyone Hello, <BR> My name is Sherri. I started out at 230 lbs and had the gastric bypass done 4 years ago. I got myself down to 125 lbs. I started neglecting my excersizing and also found foods that agree with me without me getting sick. I found myself gaining weight. I am currently at 155 lbs. I desperately need to find a healthy diet that will help me get back to 125 lbs. along with getting back into the gym. I hope to get to know all of you and to get some tips. <BR> Thank you, <BR> Sherri Sat, 24 Oct 2015 21:43:01 EST New Here Hi. I am 38 (almost 39) years old and live in Arizona. I am married, and we have two dogs and two cats. I joined SparkPeople to work on my health goals. I feel like the trackers are helpful, because everything going on with me is linked. I deal with depression, grief, chronic pain, insomnia, health issues related to PCOS and high blood pressure, and of course being obese. Really all these issues just make up one picture of low overall health. My depression often prevents me from doing th... Thu, 22 Oct 2015 16:29:27 EST Article: Why midlife people stay unhappily married A team member recently wrote about feeling devastated by her parents' announcement that they'd divorce after 40+ years. I don't recall which member and can't find the topic. <BR> <BR> This article from Huffington Post may be helpful to her or others in making some sense of the situation and finding her own peace of mind. <BR> <BR> . <link><BR>ary/why-midlifers-stay-unhappily-marri<BR>ed_b_8281928.html?ncid=txtlnkusaolp00000592 </link> Wed, 21 Oct 2015 09:05:34 EST Hi! I've never really used message boards before so this will be an experience. <BR> <BR> My name is Angela. I am an over 40 mom of 6 and glam ma of 2. I work from home and homeschool my youngest 3. I have lost weight in the past (50 pounds) but gave up when I got depressed. I am an emotional/boredom eater. So I've gained back 35 pounds. I know I can lose the weight. Just keeping it off when life strikes is my issue. <BR> <BR> I look forward to making new friends and encouraging others. Wed, 21 Oct 2015 07:24:25 EST Getting back on the horse So I made the mistake of stopping my Wellbutrin for about two months. Of course, I start losing motivation again, lose interest in things that used to matter to me (like getting healthy and losing weight), and I of course start FEELING like crap again to where I'm tired all the time and have to peel myself out of bed in the mornings and force myself to go to work. thank God for my kids or I don't know that I would get out of bed. Can't believe I did this to myself. I should know better as a n... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 10:41:34 EST you know it will pass I had a black dog day last week.Really bad. I would work for 3 days, get overtired and sleep for the next 2 days. I don't want to see anyone, answer the phone, get dressed, clean the house, not even brush my teeth, I only want to sleep and eat when I get like that. I realize that I also have some very good days where I can turely say that I feel happy. I also realize that if I make myself get outside, even if it is to just sit outside with my coat on and read for a while, it helps. Shut off t... Sun, 18 Oct 2015 21:34:59 EST Greetings fro Switzerland I have joined multiple teams so here is my intro for them all: <BR> <BR> My name is Carmen, I am 51 and live just outside of Zurich in Switzerland. I am married and have two sons ages 16 and 20. <BR> <BR> Over the past couple of years I have managed to gain more than 10 kilos / 22 pounds... I do not recognize myself. <BR> <BR> I have been diagnosed with osteoporosis (after I fell and broke my wrist 1.5 years ago) and struggle with anxiety and depression (life long). I have been vegetarian ... Fri, 16 Oct 2015 04:34:16 EST New to SP Hi all! My name is Melissa and I am new to SP. I'm looking to change my lifestyle, gain fitness, lose weight and feel better. Hoping that SP can help! I know that exercise and healthy eating can have a huge impact on mood, so I'm holding out hope. Thanks!! Thu, 15 Oct 2015 21:29:01 EST Trying again I'm Kelly. I'm trying again. Between the weight, migraines, depression and anxiety... something needs to change, then maybe it will all change!! I seem to never have the motivation and energy to exercise. The times when I finally do get up to do it, my blood pressure goes up, I get all red-faced, and a migraine starts. I'm very unhappy with the way I feel in my own skin. I'm not sure what to do to start out (and have the motivation to do so) and maybe build my way up to regular exercise, with... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 19:13:41 EST So much has changed!!! I was on here 4 years ago and lost and maintained my weight until I lost my leg. I came back because the food and support were amazing.!!!! but I re-joined tonight and realize that a few things have hanged. Is the menu and work out plans no longer available? I am the type person that NEEDS directions, lol. I like having my meals planned out for me. Is that option gone ? Thu, 15 Oct 2015 00:29:35 EST <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Select an image and, by maneuvering the angles and observing all the details, determine where you are. You can start in a country or city that's familiar or jump in with both feet -- examine an image that provides no man-made clues. <BR> <BR> Especially in the case of images of the natural world, don't make wild guesses. For example, if you see banana trees, it's unlikely that you're in Canada. In all cases, think of everything you know as a guide.... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 08:36:26 EST Parents seperation after 40+ years After more than 40 years of arguments and pain, my parents have decided that they can't be together anymore. My 2 brothers and I are devasted. We're all 3 in our thirties and we knew this day would come someday but never really put too much thought into it. We thought it was just their way. We run a family business which makes it harder as they're aren't speaking to each other. With my depression and maybe because i'm the oldest i'm having a really hard time dealing with this emotional nightm... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 17:33:45 EST Just a beginner I am going through some rough times. I had back surgery 2-1/2 yrs ago and it seems I am having trouble again. I have a stimulate implanted and so I can have a MRI, so NEXT Monday I am having a Cat Scan. I am depressed because I am in paid continually. Couldn't sleep most of last night - so I am up now waiting for my pain med to set in. Reading your posts has giving me a little spark. If I had friends to go do things with, it might help. I miss my family (in another state), and work is ... Mon, 12 Oct 2015 05:20:40 EST Really low I have been slipping back into my depression lately. I was on meds for maybe two years, got off of them in June, and now am having trouble again. I reached the point of suicidal thoughts today which it rarely gets to for me. I have been seeing a therapist but haven't been working out or on medicine. I don't know what I hope will come from this post I guess I just haven't felt supported by people here because nobody understands what its like, and I feel alone and scared in this. Sun, 11 Oct 2015 22:32:53 EST Giving this a try !! I'm overweight due to back issues I can not work out and I've gained so much weight and need help. Sun, 11 Oct 2015 09:41:32 EST HI I'm Jane... HI I am Jane. <BR> I have been dealing wiith depression and social anxiety for the past ten years. I can be very perfectionistic, which often leads to binge eating. Today I went over my calorie allowance which made me a bit stressed. I am trying to teach myself it is ok and to be be flexible, there is no right or wrong. <BR> <BR> Being highly anxious means I often isolate myself, even though I am really quite a social person (that doesn't make sense.....) I don't really have friends anymor... Sun, 11 Oct 2015 07:45:05 EST new to spark people.... New to spark people, not sure what to put here. I am obese and I have been since I was in my teens, 42 now. I have just gotten to the point where I am just sick and tired of being this heavy. I want to be at a healthy weight and I know that is going to take years, I weigh a little over 350 pounds with many medical conditions including bone on bone arthritis in both knees. My main problem is motivation, I have a hard time staying motivated. Not too familiar with spark people, I guess I will le... Sat, 10 Oct 2015 18:46:46 EST Hi my name is Bobbie I am a 64-year-old female in moderate health I try to walk at least 30 minutes every day. I have a Garmin Vivofit fitness band and have questions about how to use it. Can anyone help me with this? Fri, 9 Oct 2015 10:04:56 EST Hello Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> I'm Jenni, I'm 25 and I've been overweight my entire life. Although most would argue I'm not THAT big when I'm ONLY 60-65 kg, I'm very short and gaining just a bit of weight makes me obese. Luckily this weight of mine hasn't really led to any health problems (yet) and I have lost 15 kg in the past after moving out from my mum. I've been here on SparkPeople for three weeks (tomorrow) now and I've had my ups and downs. <BR> <BR> I've suffered from depression since ch... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 14:28:38 EST Hi I'm new. My name is Diana I hope to get to chat with some of you. I have a goal of 40 pounds to lose <BR> Is anyone doing low carb? Wed, 7 Oct 2015 09:29:00 EST Day 1 IP Good morning. Today is my first day on ip. I have let myself go for various reasons. I'm at the highest weight currently at 155. My goal is to be 125 and have committed to the regiment of ideal protein to make that happen! I intend to post regularly what threads on the message boards are the most active ? Sat, 3 Oct 2015 09:11:52 EST hello I am new to spark people I am about 350 pounds and I have been severely obese for almost all my life except my childhood years. My weight has caused many medical problems for me. Hypertension/high blood pressure, high triglycerides, hypothyroidism, sleep apnea, acid reflux, depression and anxiety along with low self esteem. I also have bone on bone arthritis in both knees which makes it hard to exercise. <BR> <BR> I want and need to lose weight not only for medical purposes but for my sanity as well and for me. <B... Sat, 3 Oct 2015 02:36:56 EST Hi, I'm "new again" After gaining to my highest weight ever, I'm back to get the weight off. I have 44 pounds to lose to get to my goal weight. I'm being realistic this time because at age 55 I know it won't be easy and not as much weight will come off. My depression comes from chronic pain. I am facing hip replacement surgery in December and want to have 10 pounds off by then. <BR> <BR> Please feel free to be my SparkFriend! Fri, 2 Oct 2015 10:48:11 EST Sherri I have hopped on board. My suggested goal is to loose 50 pounds by March of 2016. Thu, 1 Oct 2015 23:34:47 EST Hi I am new Hi been dealing with depression and other mental health problems for about 18 years just looking for support Tue, 29 Sep 2015 00:30:29 EST Newbie Hello everyone. I am joining this team as dealing with depression and chronic kidney disease renal failure, I know how much support and encouragement is beneficial when you feel low.. I find that what is best for me is to take little steps at a time, this way I still finish the course without putting pressure on myself. Sat, 26 Sep 2015 05:03:40 EST farae hello <BR> i am new to the site. I am starting my weight loss program today. going to try the post daily and connect to keep me accountable to something. <BR> <BR> Fri, 25 Sep 2015 14:30:52 EST Hi I'm new Hi my name is Heather and I am new to this page and group. I have had depression for over 20 years. Pills help but nothing helps enough. Thu, 24 Sep 2015 12:33:57 EST HI New and trying to get it together. 45 married mom of 1. working full time. Wed, 23 Sep 2015 21:16:07 EST Hello :) Hi, my name is Jen. I started to lose weight over a year ago but without people supporting me I struggled for motivation. I am a PhD student in the UK and am looking for some lovely people to hold me accountable so that we can all benefit from the rewarding results. Wed, 23 Sep 2015 19:22:55 EST Where Oh Where Do I Go I'm a 67 year old woman with many varied interests. Recently the computer is my main interest and I need to get away from it and get up and get shaking. There are so many groups here I just don't know which one(s) to start with. I hope to be able to encourage and support you as much as I know you will me. Blessed Be Wed, 23 Sep 2015 14:16:33 EST Newbie! Hello! I gained a whole lot of weight after getting out of two abusive marriages and then losing everything in a fire. I have started and stopped with Spark many times but I am fi ally coming out of my self built dungeon and giving life a fresh start. Any and all support,advice, friendship is welcome. Wed, 23 Sep 2015 13:20:44 EST Hi Hello all, <BR> I must say that this is new for me. Most of my weight loss attempts have been alone or with family. <BR> So to start, I have been struggling with my wieght my entire life. My family is a string of Obess people, all of whom love food, myself included. I have my wedding coming up in June and it is time for a change. Of all the silly things, I want to feel beautiful and slim on my wedding day. <BR> I picked up my wedding dress a few weeks ago and they wanted me to try it on to ... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 16:18:23 EST Fall/Winter SAD I'm already feeling the affects of Seasonal Affective Disorder. For those of us who fear the fall and winter because we become fatigued, lethargic, and just plain sad, this blog on Psychology Today explains why that happens and what we can do to help ourselves. Just thought I'd share. <BR> <BR> Fear Not the Winter Blues <BR> <BR> SparkPeople won't let me hyperlink the blog so that we can go directly to it, so I've just deleted the link and have put the title of the blog above. As NEW-START... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 10:19:35 EST Reaching out to say HI! Hi everyone! I am a 46 year old Mother of triplet girls in their second year of college. I had a very busy 19 years and now I am taking time for myself to get more healthy. I like to read horror books and watch movies and all that CSI stuff. I joined a gym and went on and off for about a year. I start strong with everything and then stop so I need motivation to keep going. I never had to work out before and now all of a sudden I gained 20 pounds! Mostly interested in losing by stomach ... Sat, 19 Sep 2015 11:25:55 EST Bipolar 1 I moved a few weeks ago and had to change providers. I had my intake appointment for the psych yesterday. She has changed my dx from depression with psychosis and OCD to Bipolar 1. My meds have stayed the same though. I crashed big time last night. The intake therapist and I talked about a lot of different things. She thinks my parents were emotionally abusive. She thinks the semester I took 18 semester hours, worked 4 different part time jobs (10-15 hours each), was involved in homeschool ba... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 05:40:18 EST New to team just read an article on upcoming holidays and saw this team <BR> I do belong to anxiety team and it a big help <BR> I am 70 in therapy over 5 years and struggle daily. I been at the bottom the lowest possible moment where it seemed going on was not an option. Bonded with hubby on my fears,financial mess we were in and slowly felt better. Found a wonderful therapist and each month go over what has happened. Some days are great but today not one of those <em>521</em> Mon, 14 Sep 2015 13:00:03 EST sick I feel so sick. It just hit me from left field yesterday and now I'm coughing and sneezing and my chest feels like its going to cave in. I hate it. It adds to my mood and I feel like I can't do anything which in turns makes me push harder. I live in Ohio and our weather is up and down,up and down. I want to take advantage of the nice weather that is coming our way because before to long we won't be doing much outside. I feel like its worth it so my kids can get out and I can get some exercise... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 09:34:29 EST How I cured my depression and anxiety... So, I was incredibly mentally ill from ages 15-26, was diagnosed with all kinds of disorders ranging from Bipolar II, Major Depression, to Social Anxiety Disorder, to Borderline Personality Disorder. I had memory loss, weight gain/swelling, extreme shyness, headache, lowered immune system, chronic fatigue, and more. Took basically every variety of psychiatric drug on the market including mood-stabilizers, SSRIs, benzodiazepines, SNRIs, SSREs, MAOIs, stimulants, you name it. <BR> <BR> I foun... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 00:30:57 EST Ibuprofen and Naproxen I just came across what I consider to be an important article in my Diabetic Connect Newsletter. It is important for those who are not just diabetic, but for those who take NASID's on a regular basis for pain management. Ibruprofen (Advil for example) and Naproxen (Aleve), as well as some other non steroidal anti inflammatory drugs, are adding strengthened warning labels from the FDA due to new research regarding heart attack and stroke dangers to those who use them. I thought that it wa... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 00:42:38 EST the wonders of depression I have been on this team before but changed my user name and started over. You would think things would be great as I have made it to a promotion in management at work. In all my 20 years in health care I have made it finally. The problem with that is people think I am in cohoots with our nurse to fire people and bring in our own people. I thought I had proved myself already. <BR> I have a 19 year old who is having a lot of health issues and is in early stages of renal failure. I just had ... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 10:11:24 EST Emotional health and Diabetes One of our members, Armmom12, pointed out to me an interesting article by Dr. Sanjay Gupta from Every Day Health. I thought that the article might be of some interest to our diabetic contingent here on the Dealing with Depression Team. It might be a good article for someone to show a relative or significant other regarding how diabetes can affect their emotional state if they are having trouble getting people to relate to their emotional health. <BR> <BR> <link> Wed, 9 Sep 2015 14:21:31 EST New to spark people I am a 42 year old woman and I have been obese all of my adult life and almost all of my adolescent life span. I want to get healthy and look good and to increase my self esteem through my body image. My problem is motivation and my willingness to stick to my goals. And I don.t have any support here at home I live alone and my relatives are few and far apart. I don't have a car so I have to utilize transportation services. I can cook I have a crock pot and I cook mostly in big quantities but ... Tue, 8 Sep 2015 20:15:07 EST My name is Freddy Hello, My name is Freddy. I am new to Spark People but I have been dieting and working out for almost a month. I am hoping that loseing some weight and getting in shape will make me feel better. Wed, 2 Sep 2015 16:01:59 EST my name is cheryl <BR> I am new , also I am looking to met friends , I just wanted to drop a line <BR> and introduce my self to you all <BR> looking forward to having some chats <BR> thank you <BR> Wed, 2 Sep 2015 13:22:34 EST hi my name is desirea hi my name is desirea I am 22years old I have two kids one is two and the other is almost 2 months old. I have struggled with my weight my whole life. My junior year in high school i went from 185 to 160. I keep my weight down then i got pregnant with my son a year later and i gained over 20 pounds i now 201 pounds and i struggle with post postpartum depression after having my daughter in july and i have high anxiety. Tue, 1 Sep 2015 11:09:52 EST Just to let you know a little about me . . . I am new to, but not new to trying to lose weight. I ran across an article profiling weight loss success stories and found one that attributed her success to I know that a support system was vital to helping me recover from an abusive marriage, so I thought this site would be perfect for my weight loss/fitness improvement goals. <BR> <BR> I have over 100 pounds to lose, and I know I have to be patient in losing them. The upside of the slow speed is that ... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 23:20:53 EST Hi Hi, I am Sue. I'm 66 yo and a proud grandmother. I have 30 pounds to lose and I'd also like to improve my outlook by dealing with depression. I live in Seattle, and like most, I'm on an antidepressant (Sertraline). I can't say that it makes me happy, but it's a whole lot better than what I was feeling before. <BR> <BR> Nonetheless, I'd really like to give myself more options. I appreciate any ideas you can suggest. <BR> <BR> Thanks Mon, 31 Aug 2015 17:07:23 EST Fight with my Mom I had a small fight with my mom last night, and she accidently pushed one of my butttons, a very bad button from my past, how do we avoid that? Mon, 31 Aug 2015 13:55:48 EST I'm back! Hi. About 6 years ago I belonged to SparkPeople. I lost 90 pounds. It took me 4 years. It's a slow process for me. I'm back because I have gained enough weight that I do not fit into any of my clothes. Tracking calories is a proven method for me. I would like to loose 17 pounds. I cannot put a date for the goal because it is a slow process at this age. I've been counting calories in my head and now that is not working for me. I need to get real. Mon, 31 Aug 2015 13:45:44 EST Need motivation Hello, My name is Darcy, I just had my 25th wedding anniversary I have 3 great kids ages 13-22 My oldest has Down syndrome and is an awesome kid. When I got married, I was a size 3 even after my oldest was born. At the age of 37, I had my youngest daughter and was a size 5 after I had her. I started gaining weight when I turned 40. I need to lose at least 35lbs. I took pictures of my stomach and was grossed out. I try a new diet every week thinking Oh I can do that. Then the next day I decid... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 10:41:57 EST my life just went nuts I just found out that i am not in control of my body and what is does all the time it is scaring me to death. i have no one at home to talk to and no one in my family understands. i feel so alone and they think i should just give up. If this site doesnt help i might give up. Sun, 30 Aug 2015 00:06:52 EST Getting in the Swing of Things <em>524</em> I am a newbie to this group. I have to tell you that since I began my Spark People program 26 days ago and have stayed with the program consistently, I have begun to feel so much improved. I have lowered my medication by 10 mgs. and am enjoying each day much more. I wish all of you much success and many happy days!!!! Sat, 29 Aug 2015 09:04:03 EST hello kinda new to spark people <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Hello, I am 42 with many medical conditions including bone on bone arthritis in my knees. And every time I try to take a walk for exercise I am so much in pain. I weigh about 355 and my primary care doctor told me for every pound I weigh it is 4 pounds on your knees that is why it is so painful for me to walk. I want to eat right and exercise but it is so hard on my knees I am hoping I can get some insight and helpful information on spark people. I was on spark people ... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 13:14:43 EST Message from Coach Jen Hi everyone <BR> <BR> I wanted to make sure you all see this blog announcement, so that you can share it with your teams: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>st=check_out_sparkpeoples_new_challenges </link> <BR> <BR> Thanks, <BR> <BR> Coach Jen Wed, 26 Aug 2015 18:32:39 EST Hi I am old, fat, and depressed <BR> Wed, 26 Aug 2015 11:57:23 EST I'm excited to be here! Hi! I'm looking to reach out and collaborate with other people who are finding success on their weight loss or muscle building journeys. I'm just starting to exersize outside of weightlifting classes, on my own. I love to lift, even though I don't lift a lot at once. I've been attending Zumba and beginners Yoga, and am looking for other things that you've found success in. <BR> <BR> I'm 23, married for 5 years , and never really recovered from the pregnancy of our 2 year old son. I have hor... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 00:32:45 EST ABILIFY & DIABETES? I am pre-diabetic, but my A1C is very close to the full-blown diabetes range. <BR> <BR> I suffer from Major Depression and OCD. My new psychiatrist put me on a very low dosage of Abilify. He did NOT tell me that Abilify can increase blood sugar levels and cause a person to become diabetic, but it can. It's in the medication literature from the pharmacy and on the pharmaceutical company website. <BR> <BR> Does anyone here have any experience with Abilify and prediabetes or diabetes? <BR> <... Tue, 25 Aug 2015 23:35:00 EST sons death Dear spark family I have not been on for a while and now I have sad news. My son age 43 was in a motor bike accident. He was on life support but died. He was my baby boy and I am not doing so good. He had a 17 year old son and a wife of one year. Pray for all of us please ty for all the support over the years bless you all Tue, 25 Aug 2015 15:39:56 EST Hello Hello Everyone! I am new here. I am looking forward to getting to know you and gather support and encouragement on my journey and hopefully to give some as well! Tue, 25 Aug 2015 13:37:42 EST Having a glimmer of hope Hi everyone. I have bi-polar disorder, anxiety, and PTSD. I have dealt with these issues for the last 35 years. I am now 60 years old and am on disability and semi housebound. Since going on disability in 2010 I have gained 100 pounds. I do not have a good support team right now but see my psychiatrist once a month and am on medication. I have been in a bi-polar depression for a while now but am beginning to have a few hours a day of glimmers of hope and I am using this time to do something p... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 13:23:05 EST I feel depressed I always have a hard time on the weekends. I feel so lonely and sad and scared. I wrote a blog post about it today, and I could also use support of my team. What do YOU do when you are feeling the blues? What helps the most? <BR> Thanks team. Sun, 23 Aug 2015 10:29:27 EST Worth sharing - stress There was a great article this morning regarding stress that I accessed from the Exercise of the Day page. If you suffer from or have a problem with excess stress it is an excellent resource. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=1687&page=5 </link> Sat, 22 Aug 2015 10:43:45 EST Not doing well right now . . . The load has just gotten too heavy. Our church is going through some changes, and there are people who aren't happy about it. Sunday I learned that a former member circulated an email criticizing our church and encouraging the recipients to go to another church. (I didn't get the email.) The next day, I learned that a church in our area has withdrawn fellowship from our church because of the changes we are making. <BR> <BR> Earlier this week I had what I think is an adrenal crash--a feeling... Fri, 21 Aug 2015 08:11:00 EST Hi I'm a 28 yr old college student. I have 10.5 lbs left to lose, but I do have problems with binge eating when I'm depressed. Hope to get to know some of you. Thu, 20 Aug 2015 12:01:33 EST Prospect of an empty nest The end of summer is so hard, because it underscores the passage of time. I have two kids in college. One worked out of town the whole summer, so I will only get to see her a couple of days before she leaves again to go back to school. The other has been home most of the summer, but I feel as though I hardly had time with her, and she leaves tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I have two still in high school - one will be a freshman and the other a junior, and they both start back in a week. I hate that the... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 00:59:54 EST New member Hi everyone I am new, starting today. There is a lot of information to read on here. If you have any tips or advice feel free to let me know. Thank you Sat, 15 Aug 2015 17:26:24 EST New here Hi everyone, My name is Bobbie I am new to Spark people. I love to workout and eat healthy! I am moving my family towards clean eating and we are almost there. I love sharing recipes, ideas and motivation!!! We can do this! Fri, 14 Aug 2015 14:36:40 EST BACK AFTER 7 YEARS Hey there. Melissa here. Fat, tired and ready to make a change again...hopefully for good this time! Hoping to help support and be supported on this journey. Sedentary office job for 15 years........not conducive to a healthy me. Just realized my blood pressure meds make it even harder to get my heart rate up. That depressed me very much. Anyways, will be here tracking, tracking, tracking and chatting along the way. Fri, 14 Aug 2015 14:03:25 EST cholesterol My cholesterol is 328. My diet is good but i just found out excercise and weight play just as much an important role, Im pretty sure thats where i am failing. bmi is 28, weight is borderline obese Fri, 14 Aug 2015 09:19:52 EST cholesterol My cholesterol is 328. My diet is good but i just found out excercise and weight play just as much an important role, Im pretty sure thats where i am failing. bmi is 28, weight is borderline obese Fri, 14 Aug 2015 09:19:52 EST An introduction!! HEY SPARK PEOPLE! <BR> I have always been overweight and i'm now 34 years old and trying, once again, to lose the weight for good. I have never reached out online to accomplish this because i am a very private person, and my obesity is a source of shame for me. <BR> i have just joined spark people today, and i am in need of encouragement and advice and friendship from spark members who have accomplished their goals, big or small. Maybe just sharing the experience with others will be helpf... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 23:26:39 EST Need help My name is Debbie. I'm 65 I have been fighting weight and low self esteem all my life .I want to loose weight to be healthy .I have been on every diet l loose weight and gain it back .I have dieted my way. to 247 pounds. I really need this yt? Owork Thu, 13 Aug 2015 14:31:28 EST New to this group Hi I am ayla, I am just coming back to Spark after a year or more away. I gained a bunch of weight, working now on reversing it. Some weight gain due to medication (Thorazine) for bipolar. Most of due to just plain eating too much and not exercising enough. <BR> <BR> I make 5000 steps a day taking care of my invalid parents in our home. They are both disabled by brain disease (Mom has Normal pressure hydrocephalus and a shunt, and Papa has Parkinson's) Since I am a nurse, instead of the... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 01:06:21 EST My first day with Spark People. Hi there! I'm Maria. Call me Sunshine! Just started my 49th year of life,. Joining this forum is my gift to myself. Yesterday I celebrated. Today I want to plan steps of action so I can find myself in a better place next year. Mon, 10 Aug 2015 22:59:23 EST Hello from Malaysia! hi. i m Elaine from Malaysia. i m in my early 40s. Chinese. single. i've had depression before and am taking meds for bipolar now. <BR> <BR> i m also on dialysis and am feeling very down on myself right now because i m having major issues with fluid control. Mon, 10 Aug 2015 12:34:13 EST Welcome new members Wishing you luck on your journey.... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 07:28:17 EST Hello everyone! My name is Tristan Hello everyone I am new to the team and my first time posting on a blog so here it goes. My name is Tristan and I have clinical depression (Hi Tristan). I have had clinical diagnosed depression for 3 years and non-clinical diagnosed for many years before that due to my parents not thinking i had a problem. I grew up with my mother being in and out of the hospital with cancer and other serious medical complications since i was 4 years old, by kindergarten i was already severely overweight but ... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 23:37:50 EST Totally terrified and no idea what I am doing Hi, I'm so terrified about this. My name is Lindsay. Married, mum of 2. Need to lose quite a bit of weight. Needing lots of help. I'm a good listener if anyone needs someone. Sun, 9 Aug 2015 15:35:35 EST Weight Loss A New Frontier 4 Me!!! My name is John. When emailing me please use my Blog name: Frustratedat224, I will know it is from SparkPeople. Greetings, I like millions of people have been battling weight loss my whole life. I have been on so many diets, I've tried so many diet plans to NO avail. I'm weighing in at 224 lbs. When I go to the doctor's office I'm looking for the truck scales, instead of the regular weight scales [just kidding.. L.O.L.] Anyway, my first goal is to see 200 lbs. in November 2015; my next goal i... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 02:47:47 EST Hi I'm new to the group Hello, I have tried losing weight many times. I lose some I gain more. Living with depression is horrible and not knowing what I want or what I'm going to feel like tomorrow doesn't help. I am looking forward to trying again with a little help from this group. Sat, 8 Aug 2015 22:57:56 EST Shadaux's new I have just joined today, August 8 2015. I am almost 61 years old. My hobbies are making quilts for charities in my community. Like oldies in music and just about any other music except rap. I also like to color, work on family tree, jig saw puzzles, read and stare off into space. Not an active life, that's why I am here. Thought some motivation would help. Sat, 8 Aug 2015 15:29:34 EST Please Pray ...for my DH who is in end stage ALZ. I might have to make tough decisions soon. <BR> Thank you for all prayers, thoughts and comments. I'm so sad.... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 20:38:02 EST Feeling Blah Feeling really low tonite...can't sleep...legs and feet hurt, I am new here...hope everyone is having an OK nite. My second week with SPARKPEOPLE , doing with food planning and exercises, but stll feel down and out. Thu, 6 Aug 2015 23:44:24 EST ideas to beat the blue blahs Although it is early August, all this rain we have had has been making me think of the pending winter. <BR> Dread sets in. Last winter, well actually it was March, we had terrible snow and was stranded at home for nearly 2 weeks. <BR> So, here is my question. <BR> What ways are you going to beat the winter, no sunshine, low vitamin d blues?? <BR> SAD? <BR> I am going to make a plan, find 5 or 6 good books I have yet to read and have them at the ready. <BR> I plan to workout at least 30 minute... Thu, 6 Aug 2015 10:53:05 EST Hello From Florida Hello, <BR> <BR> I was hunting around for exercise advice for a specific issue and found this site. It looks very interesting so I thought I would give it a go. I am looking to lose around 100 pounds and I have already loss 50 over the last year. I have extrememly large calves and hope to work towards fixing that as a main goal for the rest of this year along with my weight. I enjoy being outside, though not as much as I used to. I am a major book worm and nerd from inside outside. I a... Tue, 4 Aug 2015 20:59:16 EST New to Spark People Hi, I am an obese woman 42 years old. And I have about almost 200 pounds of weight to lose. I have been obese for all of my adult years and most of my adolescent years. I suffer from depression and right now I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. I have some medical problems. such as hypothyroidism, migraines, high triglycerides, acid reflux, high blood pressure, overactive bladder, seasonal allergies, and so on. I also use a Cpap machine every night for my sleep apnea. Taking all the... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 19:46:10 EST Hello, New to this forum but not to depression. Hello, New to this forum but not to depression. Having a lot of pain in back and knees as a result of putting on an extra 20 pounds during a long depressive period recently. Hoping to find some support, motivation and a bit of accountability to continue to work towards an overall healthy outlook here in the Spark-forums through positive thinking and healthy exercise and eating. Thanks Sparkpeople for providing this site. <BR> <BR> Have a wonderful day all, Im heading out the door for a nice ... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 12:13:54 EST Just Getting Back To Me... Hello...My name is Missie...Residing within the sunshiny state of Florida...I am so glad to have been talked into joining SparkPeople...The last two weeks I have been hopping around getting to know the doing so, I have created a routine... <BR> <BR> I have created my spark page, set some long term goals and some short goals, been learning about foods, tracking my foods, learning about streaks and setting some up, and created favorite fitness exercises I know I can handle and track... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 09:48:08 EST good news and bad news/help with therapy I'm moving in to a new school in the morning. I'm super excited! That's the good news. The bad news is my mom hasn't been able to switch my insurance over to a new PCP in the town I'm moving to, which also means I haven't been able to be referred to a therapist there. I'm getting anxious. There are things that I need to work through, certain details of my abuse that I wasn't ready to open up about, that I'm ready to talk about now. But those things are really embarrassing which is why I didn'... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 01:22:46 EST Hello my name is Laura I just join the site today...after a long search for weight loss programs and support. Although my main goal is to loss 50 plus pounds, I would also like to find tips on how to get and stay motivated. There are many things I no longer do because of the weight gain in the past year..just would like to get back to my old active , happy self. Sat, 1 Aug 2015 19:08:02 EST struggling i'm really struggling with thoughts of cutting. my hubby will be leaving for work in about 15 minutes and my son is still asleep. it's so tempting to do. Thu, 30 Jul 2015 11:27:32 EST HOW WAS EVERYONE'S DAY? avoided caffeine better today, no cheating with that . <BR> <BR> blisteringly hot outside, very uncomfortable walking home from express bus stop. <BR> <BR> deheaded the rose bushes in my bathing suit - why ever not? Wed, 29 Jul 2015 20:47:37 EST New here c: Hello!~ <BR> <BR> c: My name is Kota. I'm a returning user to Spark, and today remade my account. <BR> <BR> It is nice to meet all of you. <BR> <BR> Since I was young I struggled with depression and social anxiety. While it is a battle everyday <BR> I do my best to keep pushing forward and push past it. It has caused me some hindrances but I try and pick myself right back up and usually am able to. <BR> <BR> I tend to struggle with my weight loss but I ain't letting that stop me! <BR> ... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 18:13:53 EST i keep on chaging my help. i cant seem to stick into a decision. i am at a very critical moment in my life and its driving me crazy <BR> <BR> I am a nurse, but i left this job many years ago because of anxiety and depression. But i met a doctor recently who told me that my only problem was confidence. I need to lose weight to feel "okay" and to start having enthusiasm in things again. I need to get myself back to perfom and carry on. But having all this said, losing weight is still a struggle and i am stuck. I ... Sun, 26 Jul 2015 13:46:52 EST Hello! Hello, I'm Danielle and I'm 19 years old. A couple of months ago, I weighed at around 240 and got down to 231. I stopped around there, because I just didn't feel it anymore. I have been TTC since last December and have had no luck. I went to see my doctor where I was diagnosed (well, a confirmed diagnosis) with PCOS. He told me that if I lost weight, my body would ovulate more than what it is doing. My goal is to get back under 200, so between 30-40lbs. I haven't been dieting for long, and cu... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 21:12:52 EST Yes, You Can Today's motivational video is "The Word 'Can't' Is Not in My Vocabulary" which is a story about a successful gymnast who has no legs. It's amazing <em>104</em> Sat, 25 Jul 2015 08:54:32 EST Exercising Anyway! I live with chronic depression. Today was one of those days when I did not have much energy. That's why I really didn't feel like exercising, but I did it anyway. Yay Me :-) Day 4 of my journey to better health! Fri, 24 Jul 2015 16:44:20 EST Scared of the future I just went on WebMD to check my symptoms: anxiety, loneliness, overeating, fear of the future, etc. It came up with: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, which basically means there is nothing wrong with me. I called a therapist to set up an appointment, he asked a few brief questions and when I said I will be leaving town soon he said he won't take me on as a client, because he needs a commitment. Does he even know how hard it was for me to make that phone call and ask for help? <BR> <BR> Hi ever... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 23:02:47 EST Med's and weight gain Does anyone take Geodon and can't lose weight? I also am on Latuda and it seems to also add to my appetite. Thu, 23 Jul 2015 15:19:14 EST Feeling disconnected I have been just having a rough time with my emotions. I have been working a lot of hours with one day off in between with a stomach bug and I have a genetic mouth disease that requires me to have surgery which won't be done til next month. I got a promotion at work and I love my job. I keep trying to tell myself I am losing weight, enjoying my job and there's nothing to be down about but can't seem to get out of this funk. When I am off work I only want to be by myself. I hardly talk when m... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 13:29:23 EST Hi!!! Hi!!! I'm new to this page and I just wanted to to say hi. Im 22 and I am a happy person but I also suffer from depression. I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning and most days I just want to sleep all day. I'm trying real hard to find a way to make my life better and more focused. Thu, 23 Jul 2015 12:46:29 EST Hi. I'm restarting SP Hi. I'm restarting SP ... had used it about 5 years ago. Hadn't joined any support groups on here at that time, and trying to diet while struggling with my bipolar depression became too much. I'm now much more stable after being put on different meds, but still have days when I don't want to get out of bed. <BR> I'm a senior citizen & on disability, so exercising can be a challenge too. Being at my highest weight ever doesn't help either. <BR> Despite the challenges I'm starting to mak... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 02:46:54 EST misunderstood and frustrated Sorry this is a little long. My family always comments on my weight. They really are trying to help, but they don't get it. My sister is more overweight than I am. But heres the thing. She doesn't always try to lose weight the right way. She always wants to try all these supplements and stuff that doesn't work. Or starve herself. She tells me to fight my hunger. But theres a difference between fighting hunger and cravings. Yes you are supposed to fight cravings. But if you're so hungry that y... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 21:36:00 EST Hi Today was a good day! Wed, 22 Jul 2015 21:32:19 EST Giving it a go . . . again I have an start it and quit it attitude about exercising and eating healthy. However, I have decided to start again. So I'm back!! Wed, 22 Jul 2015 13:46:07 EST Hi! I'm a new one from Spain <BR> Hello everybody. This is a new experience for me. I don't have the habit to speak about me or share my worries and I'm a little bit shy about that. <BR> If my english is not good, please tell me and I'm going to try to improve it. <BR> <BR> My name is Raquel, but my close friends call me Accel. I'm 34 years old and I'm not having a good time lately. <BR> <BR> Last year I was working in another country. When I returned to Spain My boyfriend broke the relationship, some of my oldest fri... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 19:51:29 EST Young at heart I turned 50 this year and kind of went into a "life is over" mode. I need a new attitude and I am here to find one! Tue, 21 Jul 2015 19:01:54 EST Diet, depression & anxiety cure?? My daughter saw a psychologist today that she's known for years. The psychologist told her that several of her patients (with lifelong depression and anxiety) changed their diets and were able to stop taking all their medications. My daughter is not trying to get off her medications. She's just trying to find something that will help the depression and OCD, as she cannot tolerate therapeutic doses of any medications. <BR> <BR> I believe the diet is something along the lines of a paleo diet.... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 17:53:26 EST hopeful i had a meeting today with a cognegative therapist to day ...she was really nice ,i think i am finally going to get the help i need and want so much <em>104</em> Tue, 21 Jul 2015 16:20:02 EST My name is Mary Posey Hello everyone I am determined to make some big changes in my life and I have already made quite a few changes but it is a struggle especially when trying to do it on my own and i am unable to afford any of the other programs i have heard of because i live well below the poverty line and can barely pay my everyday bills. I have had 4 surgeries in 6 months and i have another procedure this afternoon where they go down your throat (endoscopy) and my prayer is they dont find what they are lookin... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 08:57:32 EST Help for caregivers The difficulties of being a caregiver come up often. This article from AARP may help: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ow-a-caregiver-copes/?cmp=NLC-RSS-DSO-<BR>CTRL-072015-P7_E3-CAREGIVING-704082&en<BR>cparam=O2WFiq5iw58UFI4HjmAbQsybPgT5Nw8<BR>DJ+5/35EBx3UJM/0w0/vVRaJg3y3W8CeN </link> <BR> <BR> There are also various types of respite care which let the caregiver have a break just to relax or get other things done. Some are day programs and others are short-term... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 01:24:02 EST better Things have been going better lately. I'm still struggling a little, but overall my mood has been better. I lost a couple pounds this week which is great considering the fact that I haven't worked out much. I'm going off to school in two weeks and have most of my shopping done. Things are pretty good Mon, 20 Jul 2015 22:58:45 EST Hi I'm new.... Hi everyone. My name is Michelle. I'm a 39 y/o sahm of five kids. I joined Sparkpeople back in like 07, but that didn't last long. I came back last week. I turn 40 at the end of August, and I really want to be in better shape by then. <BR> <BR> As to my depression issues.... 2 years ago, I was drinking heavily, trying to numb my feelings. I ended up putting myself into a mental hospital for a week. Turns out I have chronic depression and severe anxiety issues. I was on meds for abou... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 18:31:08 EST Binge-eating disorder info (WebMD) <link><BR>isorders/binge-eating-disorder/ss/slid<BR>eshow-binge-eating-disorder?ecd=wnl_wl<BR>w_071915&ctr=wnl-wlw-071915_nsl-promo_<BR>2&mb=k6wfp6MHbPe%40Vy0y5%2fjEH%40HnVev<BR>1imbCF9kot%2fHZfko%3d </link> Sun, 19 Jul 2015 14:00:04 EST care givers depression. I have been dealing with this for about 10- years now. Husband has a very bad back and unexplainable muscle spasms that takes him to the ground. I also have a mother with Parkinson's disease. and I also help my 92 year old father-in-law. plus I work a full time factory job. Sometimes I just feel the worlds on my shoulders and no one will get off. Nut I pray and remind myself that there are others in worst spots then me. <BR> Sat, 18 Jul 2015 14:45:04 EST New to Spark People Hi my name is Tammy and I just joined spark people this evening. I weigh over 350 pounds and being obese is very depressing. I am 42 and I have been obese most of my life. teenage years and adulthood. Right now my knees are swollen I can't hardly move. I have medical conditions associated with my obesity such as hypothyroidism, hypertension, sleep apnea I use a cpap machine occasionally, acid reflux, depression, and migraines. I hope if I can lose some weight I could reduce some medications, ... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 20:07:20 EST Back after about a Year with Weight Watchers I was doing great with W.W. ( Weight Watchers) But we have a run a bad luck. My parked car was totaled by an a@# with no insurance, and we can't get any money out of him to replace it. So we got an old SUV from my sister; and after having it a about a month the transmission is now going out on it! So we have to cut back on some of the things we are paying for. And well no W.W means an extra $60.00 a month. The only reason I was going was for the meetings. they got me out of the house and arou... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 10:19:42 EST tempted to cut i always thought that self harming and especially cutting was more popular in young people ....for several months i pull my eyebrows out when ever since my dad passed i'm more drawn to cutting the temptation got the better of me last week , i promised my self i would not do it again ,but the temptation is getting strong again ....does anyone else my age do this ,i cant mention it to any one as my mum is always with me as i dont go out. <em>234</em> Wed, 15 Jul 2015 13:34:58 EST I'm new! Hello all. I've been depressed most of my life but have never really sought help. My strategy (the last 5 years) has been to keep busy as much as possible so I don't have time to think about it. Lately this has only become more difficult as my youngest (3) was recently diagnosed with ASD and to add to my already stressful life, there are many many many appointments, evaluations, assessments, therapies, md appointments (and the list goes on). I feel run down and many days wish I wasn't around ... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 11:48:40 EST Chessie Canter Hello All! <BR> <BR> I am a 35 yr old mother and wife. I currently work as a Hemodialysis Technician at IU Health. I am also in school working on my Bachelors degree in Human Services. All of my life I have been able to eat whatever whenever, until now. suddenly I am overweight, depressed, and out of energy. This combination has totally rearranged my life. I'm over it and ready to work. Unfortunatly, that means I will have to change everything. I am determined and defeated at the same time r... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 09:38:34 EST Defeating My Depression Hi everyone, I am new to Spark People. I am a mother of 4 toddlers and found that if I am not doing good for myself then I am not good to anyone. I have been dealing with depression what seems like my entire life. I didn't actually seek help for it till I was in high school and then once again in my early 20's after a bad relationship. I am now almost 30 and have found that with all the stress, anxiety, and emotional roller-coaster called life my depression has become worse again. I tried the... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 16:49:25 EST The Road to Happiness and Good Health ARMOMMI2 began this topic in the General Discussion forum as a way for us to post links to helpful articles. I'm merely her assistant, transferring the links and some of the messages here under Healthy Living. This is how she started: <BR> <BR> "Team DWD. I wanted to open a new topic that I hope we can use to share information with each other about some useful tips and suggestions for issues that we deal with when coping with depression. I'm including a link to an article about Being Happy ... Sat, 11 Jul 2015 09:22:59 EST Hi, I'm new Hello all, <BR> <BR> I recently rejoined SP because I need to lose a few pounds again. Food has been sort of a struggle for me for a while due to depression and anxiety. I tend to self-medicate with food and am working on overcoming that. <BR> <BR> I've struggled with depression since I was very young. My family was (and is) non-emotional and passive aggressive, and my mother in particular doesn't acknowledge depression as a real illness. She makes fun of my sister-in-law for "making u... Fri, 10 Jul 2015 15:11:51 EST New Day Today is my first real day. I am a 40 year old and have been hiding behind my weight for years. I know that my weight is now a problem of it's own, but the depression that caused it is still something I am fighting. Fri, 10 Jul 2015 09:34:42 EST desperate I have a really hard time relating to people my age. I was sexually abused alot and forced to grow up faster than everyone around me. (I'm still a teen). I thought I had friends but now that schools out we don't talk. The only person I'm close to is my older cousin but he's 11 years older than me and lives 13 hours away. He helps alot but he's working and stuff so he can't always reply to my texts and stuff. I dont know what to do. I just want to be able to relate to people my age but there's... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 22:47:48 EST Need advice... I'm having a bit of a problem. I suffered from depression from the time I was in grade school up until about two years ago. It was relieved a great deal by giving up gluten (I have a sensitivity), alcohol, and added sugar. I still get a bit here and there if I get gluten in something or if I cheat (which I'm trying hard not to do) but I'm 110% better than I used to be. Anyhow about 8 months ago I hurt my back at work and had to take off due to rehab and fear of going back to CNA work since my... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 17:03:41 EST The Road to Happiness and Good Health <em>213</em> Team DWD. I wanted to open a new topic that I hope we can use to share information with each other about some useful tips and suggestions for issues that we deal with when coping with depression. I'm including a link to an article about Being Happy Alone that might give us a different way of looking at it. Great stuff on the Mayo Clinic website. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> (I tried the link, but it didn't work) I'll keep trying. Tue, 7 Jul 2015 03:44:29 EST Frustrated, overwhelmed, and ready to give up I have been hospitalized twice in the last month for asthma. The first time was because a student smacked chalk erasers in my face and triggered my asthma. It actually started in March when I got really sick with either bronchitis, croup, or whooping cough. I haven't been able to work out since then. I want to work out but I'm so quick to start coughing and then wheezing. I don't know what to do. I last 30 lbs a few months ago but I've gained it all back. What do I do? I follow up with the dr... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 20:29:01 EST Have to change I am a dedicated teacher which means lots of sitting and eating when I'm nervous I want a lot of changes in my life hope I do something about it and contribute to other people's same goals as well. Mon, 6 Jul 2015 16:19:56 EST Affirmations "You are an empowered, competent individual who can cope with difficulties, make plans and solve problems."— Amit Sood, M.D. <BR> <BR> My favorite affirmation from the Mayo Clinic "Handbook for Happiness." A 4-step plan for resilient living by Amit Sood, M.D. Mon, 6 Jul 2015 09:32:02 EST Hello Hi, <BR> <BR> I just wanted to say a BIG "THANK YOU" to everyone for all the kind words & expressions of sympathy, over the loss of my friend Sue. <BR> <BR> They are GREATLY APPRECIATED! <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Barbara Sun, 5 Jul 2015 10:45:14 EST A little about me... I was a single Mom for years. Was doing great. Had a nice job, was starting a business and then I got in touch with an old flame. We fell back in love moved in together, blended our families. I moved to be with him got a desk job and quit going to the gym. I have now gained two pant sizes. I have finally decided to do something about it . Sun, 5 Jul 2015 07:59:25 EST NewLindaRae Hi, I am 68 years old .have had WLS , 14 years ago. Need to monitor my weight and water. And BP .so i. Found this site to help me I hope. <BR> I was 550 pounds down to 199 , but have put on 15. That is a panic attack. My goal is 150 <BR> On there recommended call.a day .i can't even get close to that . For me to just maintain I can only do half that. So when reading how much I have left .i cut it in half. <BR> I am from Alaska but live in Florida now. <BR> My diet is High Protein , Low Ca... Sat, 4 Jul 2015 21:10:23 EST NewLindaRae Hi, I am 68 years old .have had WLS , 14 years ago. Need to monitor my weight and water. And BP .so i. Found this site to help me I hope. <BR> I was 550 pounds down to 199 , but have put on 15. That is a panic attack. My goal is 150 <BR> On there recommended call.a day .i can't even get close to that . For me to just maintain I can only do half that. So when reading how much I have left .i cut it in half. <BR> I am from Alaska but live in Florida now. <BR> My diet is High Protein , Low Ca... Sat, 4 Jul 2015 18:18:43 EST Scary to reach out Hi all. I'm new to SP and just figuring out all the tools here! <BR> I'm 63, single, never married, no children or grandchildren. I've been dealing with depression since my 30's. I worked as a professional for 25 years, changed careers at 52 to try to become an elementary teacher, but that didn't really work out. So I sort of had to "retire" a lot sooner than I planned. <BR> I sold my home last fall (after living there almost 20 years); moved to a much smaller apartment in a different pa... Sat, 4 Jul 2015 12:41:00 EST hi all Hello everyone, <BR> I am new here and just wanted to send out a quick hello. I am looking for friends if anyone is interested in chatting,motivating and challenging one another. <BR> Hope you all have a wonderful weekend and look forward to chatting soon Fri, 3 Jul 2015 14:47:34 EST When Friends and Family Don't Get It....... Hello Everybody: I came across this article and will post the link address at the end of this paragraph. This article addresses the issue of dealing with Friends and Family when they Don't Get What You're Going Through With Depression. <BR> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>se-borchard-sanity-break/ways-deal-wit<BR>h-family-friends-who-dont-get-it/?xid=<BR>salesnl_9319_20150618 </link> Thu, 2 Jul 2015 21:35:19 EST Giving up. <em>359</em> Hi, its me again. I come and go like a boomerang to this site. I think I am at my lowest emotionally right now. I am truly thinking about giving up. I am going to be 76 at the end of this month. I weigh 301 pounds, have diabetes 2 , heart failure and practically every other health problem there is. Two years ago, I had a severe heart attack. Actually stopped breathing. They performed CPR and for the next month I laid in the hospital on my back and managed to lose 30 pounds. All... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 10:27:28 EST hi I have never really done anything quite like this so some guidance would be great! My depression makes me eat and not want to exercise add to that some meds that make you crave sweets and i am up 20lbs that i just worked to lose last year! Almost back to my starting point!!! <BR> Leigh Ann Wed, 1 Jul 2015 17:05:09 EST Brand new in more ways than one.... Hello, my name is Sara. I'm new to this group, but I've been using Sparkpeople off and on for a few years now. I'm also new to having depression. It hit me really, really hard about six months ago. Since then, my doctor has had me out on disability. I've also been diagnosed with a few other health issues; Hashimoto's disease, panic disorder w/anxiety, agoraphobia, and I found out that I have an extra bundle of nerves on my heart that causes severe palpitations and a skyrocketing pulse at rand... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 13:01:45 EST Hi, Songwriter originally from UK now living in Washington State. Over the last 2 years , my emotional life has hit the lowest i could ever remember, I have lots to be greatly for in life but I feel i have nothing worthy and nothing left to offer anybody. I piled on the pounds because eating is my only source of happiness but its a short lived happiness as you look at you ever increasing disgusting body and say why bother with all anymore. But I am a fighter :-) and i will try just one more tim... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 11:55:42 EST I am new to spark people...A little about me hello, I am new here. I am a 42 year old female that weighs a little over 350 pounds and my self esteem and self image is down the drain. I also have health problems associated with my obesity such as hypothyroidism, hypertension, borderline diabetic, sleep apnea, arthritis in knees and feet,depression and anxiety. I want and need to lose weight, but the thought of it is just overwhelming. Any advice. My doctor told me just take it one day at a time but she is not in my shoes. Sat, 27 Jun 2015 01:55:08 EST dissociative identity disorder Hi, I have depression and anxiety related to dissociative identity disorder...does anybody else have that...I'd like to connect... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 14:16:52 EST need help explaining My new fiancé I don't feel fully understands my depression cause he automatically thinks I wanna move to my home town four states away which is not at all what I wanna do. He swears Im not losing him but thanks to the depression that is a constant worry for me. I don't know how to explain my fears or depression with him can someone please give me some advice? Thu, 25 Jun 2015 15:06:48 EST Fibromyalgia I have fought with depression and been over weight most of my life. I lost my weight and I was so proud of my self but since I have lost the weight I have been suffering with so severe pain and I can not do the things I enjoy in life any more. I can not get any help and I am at the point if dying would relieve me of this pain then I have wish at time I want to be dead so I wouldn't suffer any more.. The doctors in the past diagnose me with fibromyagia and said I will suffer with pain it would... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 16:48:33 EST Intro - Jenni Hello Folks, <BR> I have had depression off and on probably since childhood. Things are okay, and I'm happy to say I'm only moderately depressed. Wed, 24 Jun 2015 15:58:59 EST New - Hello!! Hi Everyone, <BR> <BR> I am starting my journey of self improvement. My husband is in my corner, but boy do I realize I need a support system to pull me over that goal line. This is exciting and nerve racking to take on, as I have failed in the past. But, here is being positive to new things in life! Wed, 24 Jun 2015 13:55:43 EST A flower is dying because of me... What can I do? I try to manage my stress, but yesterday I had a burst, again. I was in the office and I felt an intensity I have not experienced for a long while. I couldn't find my place. I went home, tried to sleep, but I could hardly fall asleep towards dawn. <BR> When I came back in the office late, in the morning, I found the flower almost dead, lying down on the pot. It is a high and beutiful plant, about 60 cm high, in a big pot, and it was in perfect shape, growing more and more in the last months. ... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 05:50:38 EST I'm back Hi, all. I am one of those yo-yo dieters. I am so tired of the lose gain party. I am sick... have had high BP for decades, diabetes type two for 15 years, and just diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and I am afraid. I started with tiny goals, 5 minutes to walk daily. Track, track, track! Mon, 22 Jun 2015 19:56:38 EST Starting Fresh Again...!!! Hi <BR> My name is Shy, once again I end up back here, starting Fresh Again..... I've been on several programs to get this weight off... I'm on this mission this time to stick with it... I don't understand, I can give things up for Ash Wednesday which is in Feb/Mar and runs until Easter.... I loose weight inches and everything. So one thing I can't do is keep it off and continue I stated a few months ago I was going to continue since the summer months are here and you can no longer hide behi... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 18:21:43 EST Starting Fresh Again...!!! Hi <BR> My name is Shy, once again I end up back here, starting Fresh Again..... I've been on several programs to get this weight off... I'm on this mission this time to stick with it... I don't understand, I can give things up for Ash Wednesday which is in Feb/Mar and runs until Easter.... I loose weight inches and everything. So one thing I can't do is keep it off and continue I stated a few months ago I was going to continue since the summer months are here and you can no longer hide behi... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 18:20:48 EST check in Hi. I was on a trip to Atlanta last week. We ate at local restaurants most of the time instead of fast food so I didn't count calories. But I drank water and tea 99% of the time. I only had one soda and one cup of coffee during the whole trip. Plus there was tons of walking. I'm leaving tomorrow for church camp and wont have my phone so I still wont be counting calories. But there will be lots of outdoor activities. I feel like I really needed these getaways and I actually haven't been eating... Sun, 21 Jun 2015 15:57:36 EST Hello Spark Members Thank you for the opportunity to introduce myself. The reason I am joining this active board is because I am feeling overwhelmed, sad, tired, and am not doing any exercise and/or eating well. Hoping to find some support here....Have a great day and a wonderful Father's Day!! Sun, 21 Jun 2015 12:43:37 EST Hi Friends My name is Robbie, and I live in SC. My goal is to lose 50lbs, and I can use all the help, support, and advice I can get !!! Thank you. Robbie Sun, 21 Jun 2015 08:59:51 EST Newbie here my ex husband died going on 4 months ago. that is brought on a clear realization of life and an appreciation but fear lingers that something could happen to my present husband. I know as a Christian that I should pray about these things that's part of what on my mind along with stuffing feelings with food Sun, 21 Jun 2015 01:48:26 EST I am new to spark people Hi everyone, Tammy here. I am 42 years old. I weigh just about 350. I am really sick of looking the way I do.. I need to lose weight, the correct way where it doesn't creep back up on you. I know I have a long haul to lose the weight. I know it is a lifestyle change but don't know where to start. Sat, 20 Jun 2015 18:37:21 EST consistency issues I seem to deal with this a lot and I don't feel like I have made much progress with this. I have so many things I want to accomplish and I get started on so many things its like I don't finish what I start. Last night a thought came to me that maybe deep down I am so afraid of failing. Funny how that works. I am consistent and know that I am good at my job but it seems managing my own life is a struggle for me. I have had lots of changes in life but I don't want them to be an excuse. Any sug... Sat, 20 Jun 2015 12:28:54 EST Not sure whatI am seeking.... Ok folks, I am reaching out and not sure what I will get or really want. Some background... I have lost 6 toes to osteomyelitis and am facing losing half a foot or possibly more. I am being strong for every one else, but have no one to really give me support. Everyone, including the doctors and specialists, can tell me why this is happening except that saying 40 years of not taking care of myself is catching up to me. See I used to weigh over 250 lbs and was on multiple medications for ev... Sat, 20 Jun 2015 07:19:28 EST Changes at 50 Hello, my name is Colleen and I hope to get to know many of you . Thu, 18 Jun 2015 20:18:51 EST hello I am new here. first of all I have suffered with depression since I was a little girl. I am now almost 61 years old. with Gods grace I have come a long way from the way I use to feel and the way I use to be. I enjoy going to my church because the church pastor does so well. I also have been in a 12 step Christ centered recovery group for 7 years. It is for anything that hinders your walk with God. Not just drugs and alcohol. Depression was my biggest struggle so that is where I started working on in the pro... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 13:42:48 EST Late Intro Good morning! I'm new-ish here. I've been lurking here for about a week but haven't posted an intro yet. My name is Shannon, I'm a 33 year old mother of three (ages 11, 4, & 3). I'm a public health nurse who loves what I do. I'm constantly taking care of everyone else and while doing that I forgot to take care of myself and gained 30 pounds. I recently joined a gym and I've been going 3 times a week for the last 3 weeks. I started my weight loss journey on Jenny Craig back in April at 175 pou... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 12:27:25 EST new here Busy mom, 45, going back to Glacier National Park this summer (10 years later and 20 lbs more). Really hoping to improve my fitness and lose a chunk of weight for the big hikes August 15. Never feel good, exhausted, headaches, bad right knee. This feels overwhelming, but I do want it. <BR> I have tried before, but about two weeks in, I cave due to work, time pressures, pain and exhaustion. I am at that point right now...what are some things you have done to get past that hurdle? Tue, 16 Jun 2015 09:15:33 EST only place to talk about this stuff I did write a blog this just a short time ago about this as well but I feel this group is the only place that I can really talk and have people to help and listen and understand me. I am so stressed I honestly feel like a worthless piece of s___ right now I feel like nothing is fixable even though I know it is and I know I can change everything but it seems so pointless sometimes why keep trying and I feel my weigh is never gonna change no matter how hard I try it feels like all forces are ag... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 15:05:41 EST Whoop whoop! Went walking today! I did about 20 minutes of walking this morning. It's a start! Mon, 15 Jun 2015 09:13:53 EST Hello Hello, I am currently going through, what I think is the mid life blues. I am 46 and had a big life change recently. I was let go from a company that I had worked at for 14 years. Trying to find a new job was hard because of my age. Not to mention that who I thought was my best friend turned out to only be a work friend. My kids are moved out and it is just me and the hubby. We have a good relationship so that is not a problem. I thought that by the time I was this age, I would have accomplis... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 19:17:01 EST Admitting I am depressed I don't know if it was okay just to add a thread asking for support or if there is a proper way to do this some teams are specific on this matter. I quietly acknowledged when I set up my spark account that I occasionally struggle with depression. Right now in my life I am more than acknowledging there is something wrong and it is worse than ever. I sent an email to a trusted advisor and the response was Em look at your personal pronouns in your message. Now I am finding myself uneasy about as... Sat, 13 Jun 2015 07:46:27 EST Hello I am new to this forum but have been dealing with depression for years. I am not doing well and thought writing could help. Fri, 12 Jun 2015 15:46:12 EST balancing fun and goals Now that schools out I've lost my motivation. I either want to sleep all day or I'm not at home to workout. I'm having a hard time balancing my goals with just wanting to enjoy my break. I'm getting off track bad. <BR> I also can't seem to find a workout plan that I like. Ive been following blogilates monthly calendar but that's starting to get boring and doesn't burn many calories. <BR> I'll also be traveling for a couple weeks. The first week is a school trip, but we will be walking alot a... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 17:42:20 EST Just starting out Hi, my name is Michele. I'm just starting on my lose weight/get fit journey and I'm still a bit resistant. I hate to exercise, but I'm 42 and need to lose 50 lbs-I haven't been feeling well and I'm worried about diabetes because it runs in my family and I had gestational diabetes (insulin-dependant) with my last pregnancy 14.5 years ago. So I have to make changes whether I want to or not. Staying motivated will be my biggest challenge. Wed, 10 Jun 2015 00:55:34 EST stuck any one have any insight to my state . i just feel stuck . i am depressed but not to the paralyzed state just very unhappy .i make lists of what will help me but havent got the oomph to move forward .i am using food tv and computer games to distract me from moving .i am alone alot but not lonely i just need to find a gap in my mood to move <BR> jacquie Mon, 8 Jun 2015 19:45:59 EST Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> I'm Ria and my goal is to grow emotionally, physically and spiritually strong for my family. I have recently gone to the Biggest Loser Camp to focus on myself and leave the issues I have at home behind. I hope to keep reaping from this investment by leaving my sedentary life behind and eating healthy. I am looking forward to motivating each other and hearing from all of you here! Mon, 8 Jun 2015 13:57:30 EST Being emotionally strong I'm committed to my family and have been trying for 15 years to cope with depression but my husband's unfaithfulness and lying compulsion is making it hard to concentrate on the goal of being physically and mentally fit. I am constantly struggling with my own negative thoughts about my worth and how impossible it is to be in a marriage where there is no trust or accountability on his part. I am constantly scared because I feel I've given all of myself---my education, a career and my heart to... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 13:06:53 EST what did you do to be productive today? Hi I'm new and looking for support. some days I can do lots of things other days just getting out of bed is an accomplishment. I am also hard on myself. I actually do quite a bit. I run around for my high school kid, tutoring, singing, swim etc. I help my in laws and volunteer in hospice. <BR> <BR> Today I made my bed. Sun, 7 Jun 2015 13:34:38 EST Introducing Myself Hi, I'm new, or I may have been here before three years ago, but I'm not sure. <em>29</em> Anyway, I find myself here because I was a caregiver to my grandmother, and have been a caregiver to others of and on. It's not a profession I chose, but it chose me. I also homeschool 3 kids, at one time 4, but the oldest is now fixing to get married and move to Australia. Not to mention that my not so old mother has lost her mind, really... <BR> And I've had to take care of her off and on. ... Sun, 7 Jun 2015 12:15:16 EST New Hi, I am new to all of this. I am bipolar and depression is part of that. It is a life long struggle however I do well when I stay on my meds, exercise, eat well, and manage stress. Sun, 7 Jun 2015 11:26:19 EST HELLO FROM A NEWBE Hi my name is Amanda and I just turned 30 I haven't been on sparks for over 2 years and now I am back and not leaving end of story! But I will say my depression has been a very big part of me leaving sparks and now that Im on meds I feel I have a better chance but I have on been on meds for 32 days and my dr just upped my meds and the side effects from the starting have not settled so hopefully I will balance out soon but I want to be happy and healthy and I feel these two things go together ... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 21:34:59 EST please help me I can't make this anxiety go away. Half the time I don't know why I feel like this. I feel nauseous, I'm getting dizzy at times, I'm hot. I tried to work out hoping it would make me feel better but I just felt worse. Ive got an appointment with my therapist Wednesday, but time seems to be passing by slow. I just want to feel better. Fri, 5 Jun 2015 18:17:44 EST One way to battle depression . . . I refer to it as "cinematic comedic therapy". <BR> <BR> Translation: I watched a funny movie today. Right now, I have "It's a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World" on. Plus, I did some venting in my journal. Last night I tried sleeping with my CPAP but with no water. The last time I had tried that, I could hear every breath I took coming out of the CPAP. This time, I put earplugs in my ears and that seemed to help. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for the Spark Goodies! Fri, 5 Jun 2015 16:35:42 EST Hello! Weight has always been an uphill struggle for me. Add in depression and that just makes it even more fun of a ride. I'll be turning 40 this year and have had some health issues lately. A serious scare back in September that landed me in the hospital for a couple days. Even after that I have been putting off losing weight. One of my doctors suggested Sparkpeople for motivation, support, and tracking. <BR> <BR> Hopefully this will be the start of a new beginning and keeping my chin up. Fri, 5 Jun 2015 10:49:34 EST I'm new too. Looking forward to getting to know others on this team and to be active here as well. Thu, 4 Jun 2015 17:42:56 EST Stinkin' Thinkin' - I need support, please I woke up having a rough day today. I don't even know WHY.... And what's worse is I don't know what is bugging me, I know it's depression or anxiety as I have both.... I don't want to do anything at all.... I didn't want to get up I don't want to take the kids to school, I don't want to be at my house I don't want to go anywhere.... The biggest issue is I'm stuck on what I don't want.... I can't even think of what I *DO* want... I feel stuck with my stinkin' thinkin' what do you do to help pu... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 06:24:58 EST Newbie Introduction Ugh...I never know what to say on these things. I'm 27 years old and have been overweight all of my life. Battling some pretty serious emotional and anxiety issues for the last couple of years has forced me to get serious about getting my life together and taking control of my health. Right now, I weigh about 300 lbs. and I'm tired of it. Not really very good at the whole community thing, but I'm trying to work on that too. Tue, 2 Jun 2015 23:40:49 EST Kayla's weight loss story the journey continues even though I have previously lost 60 pounds since about April 2015. I began my weight loss journey January 2014 and I have had success with weight watchers. I got SICK of those meals!! I LOVE food so I don't understand how I could get sick of them!! I'm doing the Healthy Choice meals, slim fast shake and atkins replacement meals. I thought the atkins meals were snacks but I didn't read it carefully before I bought it. I have since April have gained a few pounds but some... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 01:55:52 EST Hello! I'll tell you a bit about myself :) <BR> I have a very fragile mind: anything can shatter my self-esteem, I suffer from anxiety, and because of this, I'm a very depressed person. I'm quick to beat myself up, generalize, assume the worst, I have anger issues, and most of the time I feel like my emotions are out of my control. That being said, I'm often more pessimistic than optimistic. <BR> <BR> This is as much as I can think of. Look forward to helping around ^_^ Sun, 31 May 2015 22:55:24 EST Hi All! I joined back in January, but never bothered using any of the community features before now. I am 30-something years old and hoping to lose 30-something pounds to be at my goal weight. Sun, 31 May 2015 16:04:44 EST Hello Hi, I'm new to Sparkpeople and had a year+ battle with depression. I just found out I have PCOS and am afraid of falling back into depression. Just trying to stay positive over here. Sat, 30 May 2015 09:35:52 EST wanna quit I'm bloated, binged today, and the results aren't coming fast enough. I want to give up so bad. I can't seem to stick to a workout plan because I keep hoping to find one to give quicker results. My mom barely bought any healthy foods. I have a family reunion in a month and I've gained weight since I've seen most of my family. I'm tempted to just quit eating or make myself throw up Fri, 29 May 2015 20:30:09 EST Unsure I'm not sure if I want to lose weight. Some days I'm ok with my weight, some days I'm not. My BMI says I'm overweight. But I have a larger build than most girls. I have a broad chest and shoulders and stuff. In my opinion BMI isn't very accurate. When I was smaller I looked sick because of my larger frame. But my BMI said I was still overweight. I know I want to get healthier and happier with myself overall. But do I need to lose weight to do that? Wed, 27 May 2015 18:26:18 EST Jeff is losing weight I'm coming from using Nutrisystem on and off for +5 years. I'm in my 50's and have been over 300 pounds. at one point on NS I had lost nearly 60, but could not stick with the program and ended up quitting and gaining back. Tried 2 other times, this last one I have come down 25 so far but now with NS closing the community boards and shifting the trackers to NuMi, I am looking for something better. Wed, 27 May 2015 08:19:02 EST Down and out My depression has gotten the best of me. My weight loss seems like an uphill battle. I am exhausted and I feel ugly. My daughter has written me out of her life, and I don't know why. Sorry to be such a whiner, but I just needed to vent. Tue, 26 May 2015 19:46:24 EST Returning! I am returning to Spark People, and this group, after an absence. I'm dealing with plenty of stressful circumstances, which are: <BR> <BR> 1. Several health problems, including possible adrenal fatigue, back pain, sleep apnea, obesity (which is why I'm on this website!), and chronic bladder pain (a condition called interstitial cystitis, which I've lived with for nearly 25 years). <BR> 2. A teenager with high-functioning autism, and my associated worries about his adulthood. <BR> 3. Depress... Tue, 26 May 2015 15:55:08 EST Removing negative friends from my life Not sure if anyone has ever felt the same way as I have in the past year? I have a couple of friends that I've known for years now, that are not in my life anymore! <BR> <BR> One friend I've known over 15 years and shes been doing my nails 2x a month. But due to unforeseen circumstances her and her husband ended up getting custody of her husbands granddaughter. It really put a strain on their relationship and ours. Every time we were around each other all she did was complain about how a... Tue, 26 May 2015 15:37:50 EST New to Sparks People Hi, I am new to Sparkpeople having joined on the 20 of May. Really am enjoying learning the site. The logging in of food is very helpful in keeping me on track. My goal is to loose 50 lbs by the end of 2015. Am trying to exercise 5 times a week, and having difficulty in drinking that much water. Sun, 24 May 2015 22:52:47 EST Hi all! I'm new Hi all! <BR> I'm 20 and I've been struggling with anxiety, depression, and my weight for six years. I peaked in my anxiety/depression last year in April when I couldn't leave my room due to a crippling fear of death. I have been since seeing a therapist regularly and a psychiatrist as well. Working out has ALWAYS been a stress reliever for me but I would feel so amazing if I could drop these last 20 lbs and be back in my peak health so I can ween off the mediation and learn healthy coping sk... Sat, 23 May 2015 17:58:45 EST Donnie Sand I really need to lose weight, but have a hard time sticking to a diet for a long period of time. Fri, 22 May 2015 16:13:01 EST City Girl to Country Squirrel GOOD day to your eyes. My name is Heather. <BR> <BR> Blessed with artistic visions, scientific knowledge and the beautiful ease of being a chatterbox. <BR> <BR> So freaking excited to find this site and rub noses with the same individuals that must change the lifestyle they are in. <BR> <BR> Here are a few fun facts about me. <BR> <BR> Skinny in my mind and currently liking my chest size... <BR> I was a 6 foot tall 100 lbs. in high school... <BR> Used to model. <BR> Used to be vot... Fri, 22 May 2015 11:56:30 EST Support Wanted Greetings to everyone! After years of being fit, fine, and fabulous , I am now fat, fine, and not feeling too fabulous. Tired of being under happy and over sad. I am 5' 9" and weigh 248 lbs. My goal is to get to 175lbs. But I know I am going to need all the support I can get! Ready, set, I go!! Fri, 22 May 2015 11:30:12 EST Support Wanted Greetings to everyone! After years of being fit, fine, and fabulous , I am now fat, fine, and not feeling too fabulous. Tired of being under happy and over sad. I am 5' 9" and weigh 248 lbs. My goal is to get to 175lbs. But I know I am going to need all the support I can get! Fri, 22 May 2015 11:28:38 EST just starting Hi I need to loss 50 pounds to look better and feel better what have you found works for you on this site. Fri, 22 May 2015 10:06:48 EST new meds I was having trouble with my meds, so the dr is weaning me off of it. I was supposed to start the new ones tidy, but when I went to get my prescription they didn't have it. By that time the drs office was closed. All I want to do is sleep. Is that ok for a few days? Or do I sill have to push myself to workout and stuff? I feel exhausted Tue, 19 May 2015 19:29:23 EST Musicmoi I am a 60 year mail with 33 lbs to lose, any help you can give me to do this is gratefully welcome! Tue, 19 May 2015 12:58:46 EST Brintellix Hi All, <BR> I am starting this medication the Tuesday after Memorial Day (awaiting its arrival from my mail order Pharmacy). Does anyone have any expereince or thoughts on it? I know it is a fairly new meds so I am curious to hear actual user expereince and not the marketing material from the pharma company. <BR> <BR> Thanks in advance, <BR> Michelle Tue, 19 May 2015 11:57:26 EST Restarting after a year My name is Frankie and I'm re-starting this journey. Mon, 18 May 2015 14:56:37 EST New Member Hi everyone, <BR> <BR> My name is Michelle... am 44, live in Atlanta, am divorced, with two pugs. I was on Spark years ago and then dropped off... and a lot has happened in the last 2.5 years. <BR> <BR> Ive been divorced, lost my Mom, refinanced my house, got a new job and now my Dad is sick. It's been a tough couple of years. Ive put on a lot of weight due to the depression I have encountered. <BR> <BR> Now, I am taking back control. I recently started (re) seeing a counselor, am starting... Mon, 18 May 2015 12:48:40 EST Reintroducing myself . . . My name is Tina, and I came back to Spark People because I need to lose weight. <BR> <BR> I'm also one of those dealing with depression. <BR> <BR> There is so much going on, so much on my plate, and I don't know what to take off of it. I went back to counseling about a month or so ago. <BR> <BR> Here's what's going on: <BR> <BR> 1. Our church is making some major changes and not everyone is happy about them. <BR> 2. I have a child with autism. He's 16. He's a good kid, most of... Sun, 17 May 2015 22:16:50 EST Applications for Depression and More There are several free apps by Excel at Life: <BR> Depression, Happy Habits, Stop Panic and Anxiety, Self-Esteem, Stress Test, and Qi Gong Meditation. It depends on how I feel as to which one I will use. The Stop Panic and Anxiety has an audio that you can listen to if you're having a panic attack, or you can listen to it when you don't. <BR> Basically, there are articles, relaxation and mindfulness audios, and a diary to be able to track how you feel. <BR> I love the Happy Habits app 'caus... Sun, 17 May 2015 21:16:26 EST Bi-polars wanted! hi, <BR> <BR> i just wondered how many of the depression forum were actually of the specialty "Bi-polar" like me. Sun, 17 May 2015 02:38:37 EST coming back to spark people hello, <BR> <BR> my name is Kat. <BR> it's been a couple of years since i last used this. i will probably be more faithful now that i have internet at home. <BR> <BR> i lost a lot of weight last summer- 70lbs through diet and exercise but did it with little support. now the weight is slowly coming back and i feel i need to reach out. <BR> <BR> i have bipolar depression and am really going through quite a lot of junk with it. along with that junk comes JUNK FOOD. ewww... <BR> <BR> anyways,... Sun, 17 May 2015 02:36:02 EST Frustrated and Needing a Change! Hey everyone! <BR> <BR> I've been here before (never a poster of the community, but a lurker, and a SP track user). I've lost my account information so I started new again. I've always wanted to weigh less, from as far back as I can remember (likely due to bullying from everyone including some family). <BR> <BR> I've 'lifestyle change'd before, and did really well. I always manage to lose about 50 or so (the last time a few years ago, I lost 80 from cutting out carbs and hitting exercise... Sat, 16 May 2015 03:11:10 EST splurge I splurged a little today. Ive had a sweet tooth all week so finally I went and got a frappe and cake pop. I feel really bad about it now Fri, 15 May 2015 17:30:42 EST how do you guys deal with negative thinking? I have really battled some ugly thoughts today. I can usually, with some work, ignore those negative thoughts, but today, they kinda made sense - you know what I mean? <BR> <BR> Im afraid my best friend doesnt see me as her best friend, <BR> Im afraid Im not a good enough Christian, <BR> <BR> Those are the two thoughts that I just can't handle today. Does that ever happen to you guys? Thu, 14 May 2015 21:33:01 EST NUMB I always feel numb. Like I feel nothing. Even when bad things happen and I want to get upset I feel nothing, but in a way it still hurts. Does that make sense? Like I want to cry and stuff but I cant. Its frustrating. When good things happen I don't feel happy either. I want to feel happy but I just don't feel anything. Is it the antidepressants? Is there something I can do without my doctor to make it better? Thu, 14 May 2015 18:48:11 EST Cardio? Is scheduling cardio really necessary? I'm following a pilates calendar and it includes some cardio, but not alot. And I'm taking steps to become more active by walking my dog and stuff. Normally I can stay under my calorie goal without it. I hate following long cardio videos. Wed, 13 May 2015 17:56:56 EST Today's "Project" Well, I discovered the other day that my Samsung Galaxy Tablet has died. :-( It happened last year too, but I was able to revive it by buying a new battery. Well, that battery has bit the dust, I guess. Didn't even last a whole year! :-( Dang. Not gonna bother with getting another battery. It was a b*tch to get the cover off the last time, even with the proper tools for it. :-( <BR> <BR> So, today's project for me will be to get my tunes onto my cellphone. I had a good bunch on m... Wed, 13 May 2015 16:41:04 EST Essential oils I'm planning on purchasing some essential oils as soon as I get the money. Anyone else use them? If so what works best for you, specifically for depression, migraines, sinuses, PMS, and insomnia? Those are the things I end up taking medication for the most and would like to try some alternatives. Any other tips would be great too! Tue, 12 May 2015 20:59:40 EST Hello Hi Everyone, <BR> My name is Amanda and I have been struggling with depression for years now. I want to feel good about myself once and for all. I am married and have three beautiful children. My son is 13 and my twin girls are 8. Tue, 12 May 2015 14:31:59 EST Feeling down My moods have been and usually are pretty up and down but I seem to be having health issues in the form of some reoccuring skin infection. I'm waiting for the test results and I'm hoping for answers but I'm really frustrated and it's making me more depressed because I feel like somehow it's my fault this keeps happening or that I'm not doing enough or I'm doing something wrong. Not really sure how to handle it right now Tue, 12 May 2015 09:59:46 EST Hi yall! Im Joey! I wish Joey was short for Josephine, but it isn't. It isnt short for anything, and that was rough when I was little. Nowadays, I am 33 and have 3 daughters and I love my name, haha! I am looking forward to this journeey - I am always looking for motivational pictures and friends. Oh, and polka-dots are divine! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your day, friends! Mon, 11 May 2015 19:08:45 EST Too short, too fat :-) I live in eastern NC and love to eat!! That's my problem! Wanting to feel and look better. Got a new job a few months go in which I sit ALL DAY LONG 3 days per week! That's another problem. It's time to DO SOMETHING!!! Mon, 11 May 2015 14:11:20 EST Hi, my name is Danny Hi! My name is Danny and today I'm starting my weight loss journey... it's a long road, I mean to loose 77 lbs to be on a more healthy weight than today. I also want to quit smoking and start a more active life. Thanks :) Mon, 11 May 2015 13:19:02 EST moving soon... My husband and I are planning to put our house on the market at the beginning of June.I am finding that my mood is all over the map, thus my efforts to eat well and exercise are being compromised at best. I am back here after being away for a week or so. Does anyone have any advice on how to stick with it even when your life is a little out of control? Mon, 11 May 2015 09:39:04 EST dealing with evetything Hi, i never posted before but i need help. I have bipolar and i battle with depression at times. I got very bad yesterday. I was very low and my mind was going back and forth with decision that i have made in the past few months. I was feeling guilty about making the wrong Decisions and i couldn't find a way out of it. It was like someone else told me all the wrong things i have done. i had trouble finding my way out. what are some techniques that could work or work for you in the past. plea... Sun, 10 May 2015 19:09:22 EST Happy Mother's Day I just wanted to wish you all a Happy Mother's Day. We are all mother's if we have kids or pets, or kids who call us mom. So Happy Mother's Day to you all. <em>247</em> Sun, 10 May 2015 00:30:19 EST New to this group. Hi everyone. I started on SP about a month ago when I got the diagnosis of diabetes. I lost my dad and grandmother to diabetic complications, so it was a real wake-up call for me. For the first time in my 52 years of binge eating/overeating, I have been tracking calories and purposefully losing weight. I've lost 15 lbs. since March 26th. <BR> You would think I would be feeling proud and happy about this, but I feel like my depression has gone from bad to worse. I think I am missing that co... Sat, 9 May 2015 00:06:40 EST Who's having an AWESOME DAY? Don't know about y'all but I'm having a pretty dang decent day. Sun is shining. Temperatures in the upper 80's but feels like mid-90's. :-) Love it!! Heck of a lot better than what I was experiencing back in February! Record 'high' average temp was a mere 9 degrees!! :-( YUCK <BR> <BR> Give me Sunshine and warm temps any day and I'm a happy camper. ;-) <BR> <BR> Was out on errands today. Pick up medicines from one store on one side of town, grab a bus to the other side of town to ... Fri, 8 May 2015 18:28:35 EST I'm new and don't know how to use this site. I have tried and tried to lose weight, but just can't quit eating junk foods. My husband is a hospice patient and I am his caregiver. I turn to food for everything!!!!! I have diabetes and I am killing myself. I believe in new beginnings and there has to be one for me. H E L P please. Fri, 8 May 2015 16:00:35 EST Message from Coach Jen...New Spark Points Hello <BR> <BR> Today we added the ability to receive SparkPoints for liking friend feed items, team wall posts, and blogs. This is a new SparkPoints task listed under the community section of Daily SparkPoint Challenges. You can receive 1 point per like, up to 5 per day. <BR> <BR> We also added SparkPoints for commenting on someone’s team wall post. These points feed into the existing Post to SparkTeam and Message Boards challenge also under Community in Daily SparkPoint Challenges. <... Thu, 7 May 2015 20:36:25 EST dealing with depression dealing with depression is so hard. <BR> <BR> it is a constant challenge working on how to get through feelings of loneliness, sadness, disappointment and the frustrations with life. <BR> <BR> loneliness has to be the worse feeling in the world. <BR> <BR> I try to maintain resilience. <BR> <BR> my weight is always a reflection of how my mental health is.... <BR> <BR> how do people deal with their struggle? Thu, 7 May 2015 17:04:47 EST Seratonin and diet This is a long but informative and funny video dealing with the 15 leading causes of death in the US. Watch it all if possible. If not, skip to minute 36:03 and watch for two minutes. It is eye opening. Thu, 7 May 2015 14:11:13 EST Hi it is some time since I was here as I have no motivation for the last 4-5 months and I have been feeling very low, I had 4 session of counseling but it should have been 6, they believe that I have all the tools to cope with my situation(carer for my husband who has BPD and bipolar) but I think the best thing is to talk which is not so easy as we have no family and my mum who lives 30 way is 82 and does not know or understand my problems, my husband is not a coper of life so at the first sign ... Thu, 7 May 2015 13:42:48 EST hello hi everyone, <BR> <BR> My name is Melissa I joined a few weeks ago and thought I should introduce myself. I'm 37 years old. I have been recently diagnosed with BED (Binge Eating Disorder). I'm on a waiting list for a eating disorder program. I'm looking for support with this. Hopefully I will be able to beat this once and for all. <BR> <BR> Melissa Wed, 6 May 2015 18:26:06 EST Hello Hi all I'm Anna, and I am new here. I have battled depression mos of my young life. Feel free to message me and chat me up, looking to build spark friendships with others and hopefully encourage and be a blessing to one another. Tue, 5 May 2015 13:09:37 EST Off track I've been really busy lately, traveling a lot. I'm having a hard time staying on track. Today I went a thousand calories over and I'm sure if I would've logged on the other days it would've been worse. Also I'm a teen and live with my mom so I don't have much say in the groceries. She tries to buy healthy snacks but I have other siblings who are picky and money is tight. Help? Mon, 4 May 2015 20:05:20 EST THANK YOU!!!!! So I wanted to take a moment to thank all the people here on spark who have been responding and sending goodies like hugs and all . . . this was a REALLY DIFFICULT week. I wrote about it all week on my blog. And today I realized how very thankful I am that when I reached out, people responded and were and ARE so supportive! <BR> I had to call on all my strength, I had to call on my friends, I had to call on all of you to get me through this difficult time. In the past I would have sat dow... Mon, 4 May 2015 00:24:57 EST ziadawn2 I recently received custody of my two grandchildren. I have been taking care of family members and have decided that I now need to concentrate on making changes with me, including losing weight and becoming healthier, so that I will be able to be there for a long time for my grandchildren. I enjoy working out (I became lapsed because I hate going alone - I am trying to change that), and I enjoy cycling. Sun, 3 May 2015 08:39:55 EST New. Sort Of Hi. Ive been on sparkpeople before, and was a part of this team. I switched to myfitnesspal because that's what my sister uses. But I really missed this community. So I'm back. Sun, 3 May 2015 00:31:06 EST need support <em>198</em> Sat, 2 May 2015 10:13:08 EST Empty Nest I haven't felt this low in quite some time. My husband and I came to the conclusion that having a family just wasn't possible. After years fostering and trying to adopt, after years and home studies that come out shining, still no options, just respiting here, fostering there. The county offering to place long term kids with meth problems, sexual offenders, one who assaulted me. And they didn't even tell me he had issues like that. <BR> We don't have 25K to go with a private agency. <BR> ... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 03:30:23 EST Hello my name is Paula Hello. I am new to this and really need a friend to helpguide me. I have gotten to the point of fearing for my life after this past weekends events. We went to an all day concert outside in the full sun in Fort Myers Florida. I was with my two girls that have been to a concert before and 3 hours into it I pvassed out. I was taken by golfcart to a medic tent and then on to the hospital by ambulance. I had to leave my children behind to find for themselves. They are adults so they could no... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 22:31:09 EST Greetings from Mexico Hello everybody. My name is Jessica and I am 32 years old. <BR> I recently became a vegan because I don't like animals being killed for any reason. <BR> This new life style has been ok for me, the problem is that sometimes I don't cook that much and I end up eating vegan junk food :( This, along with me taking contraception pills and eating sweets and chips led me to gain 22 kilos, which I'm looking forward to losing and being thin and healthy again. <BR> Please wish me luck! :) Tue, 28 Apr 2015 09:31:07 EST Hello Hello everyone, I am new to this and hoping to stay motivated in reaching my weight loss goas. I hope I can help encourage others as well as be encouraged by all the wonderful people out there who are on the same path. Have a wonderful day and good luck during your journey. Mon, 27 Apr 2015 15:43:50 EST Motivate or not to motivate I've hit a huge depression spot. I had to have another surgery about a month and half ago, my incision opened up like normal and I can't lift more than 20lbs, but I haven't lifted more than 5lbs because I don't want to open my incision anymore. I had a double hernia repair and the incision is a little below my belly button down. It's constantly sore and I can't seem to do anything without making it hurt. I haven't taken my depression meds in two days because I missed them on Sat and don't tak... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 12:23:57 EST hey all hey all new to site and doing the fitbit anyone else out there have fitbit wanna be friends and challenge and motivate each other. Sun, 26 Apr 2015 22:01:53 EST Exercise and Depression Another video that proves the effectiveness of exercise for treating depression. <BR> <link><BR>-drugs-for-depression </link> Sun, 26 Apr 2015 10:10:58 EST Diet and depression A short video that can make a real difference for us. <BR> <link><BR>s-and-depression/?utm_source=rss&utm_m<BR>edium=rss&utm_campaign=antioxidants-an<BR>d-depression&utm_source=NutritionFacts<BR>.org&utm_campaign=267e512ea1-RSS_VIDEO<BR>_WEEKLY&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_40<BR>f9e497d1-267e512ea1-23770493 </link> Sun, 26 Apr 2015 10:08:44 EST New member Hi there. My name is Jennifer and I joined SparkPeople this past week and have been slowly poking around the site. I live in MN and my husband and I have a cat and dog. I am a knitter and crafty girl, a bookwork, and I love to take our old camper out to the state parks and hit the trails. My goal is to make healthier choices and to educate myself on what it takes to get to a healthy weight and to maintain that for life. Sun, 26 Apr 2015 08:36:09 EST Hi, my name is Sue Looking to feel better by getting consistent exercise and eating better. I turn 50 this year and I want to lose 30 pounds by then. Looking forward to seeing myself reach this goal. Sat, 25 Apr 2015 23:12:52 EST Lamictal for depression? (I'm Scared) I saw my psychiatrist this afternoon and she wants me to try Lamictal for depression & OCD. I think it's a seizure medication, but I've tried nearly everything else, so she suggested it. <BR> <BR> Well, actually, she said either Lithium or Lamictal, but I chose Lamictal because Lithium can cause weight gain (she said). <BR> <BR> Anyone tried this with had good results? I'm scared. Fri, 24 Apr 2015 16:08:48 EST A lot older and wiser since my last post Hello everyone <BR> <BR> It has been several years since I have posted here. I'm now 69 and 22 pounds lighter since my last post. I'd like to think I'm healthier now. I'm definitely more active but I'm nowhere near where I need to be. I'm now retired so time is no longer an excuse for not working out or eating right. Thu, 23 Apr 2015 14:32:29 EST Runner Mom Looking For Support Somehow after entering my 49th year, I have gained 7 pounds that won't go away. I run marathons and am finding the extra weight depressing and slowing. I need to get serious about my health and am hoping this community can help. I am also a great cheerleader for others and as an educator, I am always thrilled to see people reaching hard-earned goals. Thu, 23 Apr 2015 06:58:26 EST HI Newbie Welcome, welcome, welcome !! <em>213</em> Wed, 22 Apr 2015 09:15:45 EST Hello everyone. Hello everyone. My name is Mandy. I am 37 years old and the mom of 4 wonderful children ages 9, 14, 16, and 18. I am fully disabled (severe fibromyalgia, minimal disc bulge in my back and neck, debilitating migraines, aneurysms, and I just had skin cancer removed). In the last 13 years of being disabled I have gained around 70 - 75 pounds. I am tired of this excess weight and look forward to getting it off now that I am getting back on my feet. This is my 4th day on here and 3 of the 4 days h... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 14:07:56 EST Dealing with verbal abuse at the gym You know, it takes a lot of courage to walk through the door of the gym in the beginning. Whether we have too much weight on us, physical challenges, we're older than the average person in there, we don't feel attractive.. so many excuses we could use - but we do it... we walk through that door and begin to exercise. We're all there for the same reason, right? To become healthier, stronger, more physically fit? I've been going daily... DAILY and with my Multiple Sclerosis in remission (at... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 22:57:06 EST Hello From Florida I'm Roger, from Lakeland, Fl. I was in an auto accident 2.5 years ago the left me with a "mild traumatic brain injury,"(mTBI) and post concussive syndrome (PCS). This has led to depression, anxiety, insomnia, as well as some cognitive issues especally with executive function. My disability is invisible, like many of you here as even with my mTBI I am independent, I drive, cook, clean, pick up kids, mow my lawn, but I only have a 3-5 hour window each day where I can be active before fatigue ca... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 21:05:22 EST Help! I have no abs Hello Team, <BR> <BR> I need help with my chronic "hanging stomach" problem. I have had three surgeries in the past ten years which have cut across abdominal muscles in three different places! I have been trying to do some very small abdominal movements but they are not just hard, they feel impossible. <BR> <BR> For instance, if I sit at the edge of chair I can not lift both feet off the ground unless I lean back and engage another set of muscles. <BR> <BR> Has anyone else worked throug... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 10:46:28 EST Hope this works I am 60+ lbs over where I should be. I have lost weight over and over but just can't have the ability so far to keep it off. Sat, 18 Apr 2015 09:19:19 EST Newbie Hello, I'm new just trying to figure all this out. What pages are what, what I need to track. I apologize for not knowing exactly what to post. Kind of having a bad day. Learned that one more kid we tried to adopt was not in the cards for us. My husband and I have been trying to adopt for years. it's just not happening. <BR> So I am still going to try and lose this weight, I have diabetes and I am not going to end up on insulin as I have issues with needles. <BR> honestly, life in ge... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 23:23:12 EST Hi there! My name is Emily, I'm 19, almost 20 and live in Pennsylvania. I have been overweight as long as I can remember. Healthy eating was never really a thing in my parents house, because my dad enjoys his "Down home cooking" Lots of butter, bacon fat and salt. Cookies or something else sweet at the end of every meal. I was bullied a lot throughout middle school, and was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety in eighth grade. Since then it has been a constant struggle with remembering ... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 03:41:13 EST Seeing Some Light Happy Thursday, everyone! <BR> <BR> I really wanted to share this, but I don't really know how to start it. I'm Leanna (or Lady), I'm a mommy, a wife, and a college student. I used to be this bubbly, friendly, social butterfly, but when I moved to Ohio, that gradually disappeared. When I started my weight loss journey in January 2015, I weighed 250 (at 5'3"), had uncontrolled asthma, was pre-diabetic, and was extremely blue. I've always had waves of depression, but after becoming a mommy, it... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 20:16:36 EST 30 Day Challenge/Water Accountability Thread For those of you who are joining the 30 day Healthy Habits Reset Challenge/ 30 days of 8 glasses of water Challenge this is the thread which we will use for checking in and accountability. Thu, 16 Apr 2015 19:10:46 EST Newbie Hey there! Thanks so much for allowing me to join this group. I was diagnosed last year with Depression and Panic disorder. I am currently not medicated for either as I thought about 6 months ago I could do this on my own. I have this feeling that part of both of my mental health issues is because I am overweight, but the issues I am struggling with now is STRUCTURE...Motivation. The little voice in the back of my head that tells me that ...this is a HUGE joke and that I could never b... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 12:05:31 EST Hello Hi everyone. I have suffered from depression for many years but have a good doctor and it is mostly under control. Over time some of the medications have caused me to gain weight and now I just have bad habits. I'm hoping Spark will help along with the support of this community. Tue, 14 Apr 2015 12:31:19 EST