SparkPeople Recovering Alcoholics Team Messageboard Recovering Alcoholics have unique obstacles to face - We share experience, strength & hope by "practicing these principles in all our affairs". SparkPeople Recovering Alcoholics Team Messageboard March Chat and friendship Hi everyone, thought I'd start a new thread for the new month. <BR> <BR> Hope I am not treading on anyone's toes. <BR> <BR> Spring is coming for lots of us. For me it is Autumn. <BR> <BR> Wishing us all a peaceful and sober month. <BR> <BR> Wispy Sun, 1 Mar 2015 17:24:03 EST New to sobriety and Spark I have 109 days sober and I'm working towards a new healthy me! Sun, 1 Feb 2015 02:00:09 EST December Check In I'm new to team. I'm just jumping in. <BR> <BR> I don't attend meetings but have been sober since August 16, 2001. Need to start going to meetings once a week and need to do my step 12 work. <BR> <BR> One Day at a Time!! <BR> <BR> <em>249</em> <em>381</em> Wed, 17 Dec 2014 16:42:10 EST Clean and sober Just dropping in to say I am 25 days clean and sober glad to be here, it's November 10, and I am very grateful for each and every day. <BR> <BR> Aylamay Tue, 11 Nov 2014 00:02:14 EST New here Hi, I am I am Aylamay, and I am not sure I am even doing this right. I have 25 days clean and sober today, November 10, 2014. I am very determined that my relapses are over with. I did a lot of relapsing recently, but it took a heavy toll on me and I am glad it is over with. I am agoraphobic, but I am determined that I am going to be getting to some meetings very soon, probably starting Saturday, when I go to get my 30 day coin. <BR> <BR> Mon, 10 Nov 2014 23:58:46 EST Check-in november After an off month (or two) I will try to revive the habit of coming here every day, I hope all is not lost but you team members will come back as well... <BR> <BR> Well I am sober - I got sober in june 2005 but had a little relapse in november, I don´t remember the exact date but I usually use my birthday as celebration date as it is at the end of the month so I am sure I am not "lying". <BR> <BR> It is nine years and I have experienced some AA-friends not making it and dying thorugh this ... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 01:50:17 EST Check-in september Time to get the act together - it is really silly but when spark took away the huddle function I sort of lost my ambition in visiting five teams every day - as I did, commented and huddled I could see on the board for my teams how many teams I had visited... when this function is removed I can´t see that anymore and have to keep it in my head... and that is enough to throw me off things. <BR> <BR> I am in dagner of losing my sobriety - after nine years that is also very silly. I got lucky be... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 00:54:40 EST Check-in June Wow Nell, that is amazing! Such a good idea to be "shopaholic" on food choice... I do love shopping but as I don´t have the money and am aware of environment problems. I don´t go there. Fleamarkets has been a soultion but nowadays I just don´t like "things" it is cluttering too much. But to be very picky about what food I buy is a good idea. Thank for that. <BR> <BR> June is here, I have deadline week coming up. Stressed. Mon, 2 Jun 2014 01:15:51 EST Check-in may Let´s see how this team will work with the new layout... Sat, 3 May 2014 01:04:07 EST Sober but desperate.... I have been sober since 10/31/07. I have bipolar and many medical conditions, which cause severe chronic pain, and I work with my doctors who know I am in recovery, and I take pain medication for my condition. <BR> <BR> Right now, I have not been to a f2f meeting in about five years due to social anxiety. I was going to a loners meeting online, but the group was getting rather flaky, so I disconnected from them last week. Right now I am regretting my decision, as I am having a hard time r... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 21:29:17 EST Check-in april Went to a meeting - good one, but I don´t feel connected that much which scares me. Because I know that if I don´t find AA meetings valuable my sobriety will be in great danger – I hope this is one effect of me trying to differentiate from my people-pleasing, I might be a little alien for a while until it has set... <BR> <BR> I am trying very hard to cease the day - what is stopping me right now is the anxiety of a business edition coming up and my rookie try as a standup satruday... too muc... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 02:38:14 EST Check-in march The first day of a month that can be considered as belonging to spring - hooray! Most of the snow has gone, the temperature is on the plus side and I do love that! <BR> <BR> There will probably be snow falling more times this season but when it does I will consider it as a very temporarily occasion, soon over... <BR> <BR> Oh yes, I am very happy that march is here! Sat, 1 Mar 2014 01:19:46 EST Check-in february As friday arrived - my anxiety lifted and everything was fine again. <BR> <BR> And as usual I think "NEXT time..." I will be better prepared and not having postponed stuff.... <BR> <BR> Gmather - hang in there, congratualtions on the thirty days, keep on pushing, it gets easier but we allknow how very hard it is to start. Check in with us, ask for help, go to meetings... there are tools there that can really help you! Sun, 2 Feb 2014 00:15:06 EST "Sparking" & staying sober thru illness? Hello Friends, <BR> Sorry it's been such a long time. <BR> I've been through the wringer over here! <BR> First a botched root canal which led to infection, then a serious allergic reaction to the antibiotic, then the whooping cough and another allergic reaction to /that/ antibiotic, then prednisone for the hives and a SEVERE sensitivity to the prednisone (among other reactions, I nearly had a heart attack!), then my back went out-- and is still out-- and in the midst of all of it, they sent ... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 13:59:33 EST Check-in januray Had planned for a meeting last night but stayed at home because the new years eves fireworks started banging around the house and I did not want to leave doggy alone with all that fear. <BR> <BR> Went to bed early, that was nice and I am looking forward to a wonderful day today. Going to help a friend to tow her car from the place where it stopped the day before christmas - but before that I will hopefully have time to giv the dog and me a long walk! There are so few hours of daylight so it ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 01:10:16 EST Check-in december I was given a lot of question over step one to answer - it is tricky because they make me think I am not an alcoholic I am to reflect how alcohol has influenced my health, my economy and my work and the truth is: not at all. I gave it up before it had gotten that far. <BR> <BR> But it will be another thing if I look at how food or should Isay compulsive overeating has influenced the same things - there is a lot to be said there. <BR> <BR> I will write my answers paralel - first concerning ... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 00:42:05 EST Check-in november What I love about my AA-group... I mostly atend a lunch group and there are many that are "sent" from the local rehab and I do love listening to newies and wathing them grow into sobriety. I also love meetinga my old friends there. <BR> <BR> My memory is short, the only thing I know is that I always hear something that makes me feel better about life. Sat, 2 Nov 2013 01:31:43 EST Check-in october I am looking forward to october, when I was thinking about it I realised that september is probably my absolute favorite month of the year, or maybe it is may... anyway, october is also high on the list, there is the possiblility of beight and cool days with all these fantastic colours in the nature and the almness in the air... but also storms and rains and a lot of dramatics and you are allowed to stay inside by the fireplace... <BR> <BR> Let´s have a great october everyone! Tue, 1 Oct 2013 02:17:55 EST Check-in september A wonderful first day of september and I am very grateful that I managed to stay on track with my food for august. Intensified going to AA meetings which I think has helped. <BR> <BR> I wish everybody a really good month ahead! One day at the time! Sun, 1 Sep 2013 07:28:15 EST Hello! Good morning everyone! My name is Barbara. Well, I became sober in April 2013 and it seemed like a logical next step to improve my health further by eating better too. Been Sparking since the end of July 2013 and have lost 11 pounds, so far. For me, sobriety and health go hand in hand, it's all about getting better One Day At A Time! I am grateful every day for AA and Sparkpeople! <em>220</em> Sun, 25 Aug 2013 08:08:50 EST Check-in august The first of august I went biking, strenght training and swimming, AND I stuck to my food plan. A good way t start a month <BR> Thu, 1 Aug 2013 23:14:32 EST Sheesh, I forgot to introduce myself! I've been posting in the "check in for July" but I don't believe I ever officially introduced myself, so please pardon my bad manners! <BR> <BR> Hi, I'm Lucy (staying anonymous, here <em>211</em> ), and I am an alcoholic. When I was young, I went through seasons where I clearly drank too much, but for the most part I could take it or leave it. Then Ricky and I started our family: two sweet babies born 18 mos., apart, both colicy, and I had no support. He'd go off to work and I had no ... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 20:46:38 EST Check-in july My thoughts are with you Denise! It is really smart to go to AA meetings when you are having a hard time! <BR> <BR> Me, I have to admit I haven´t been to a meeting for more than two weeks, I will try to go to the lunch meeting today. Otherwise it is all right, I have managed to stay away from overeating for...foru or five days and that is a blessing! Mon, 1 Jul 2013 01:03:57 EST Wow I am so proud of my self!!! I have been struggling with sobriety and it's only day seven. I decided to quit drinking because I was blacking out multiple times a week. Before I quit drinking I planned a get together with friends that involved alcohol. Well I still went through with it but to my surprise I didn't drink a drop!!! AND I EVEN ENJOYED MYSELF!!! I didn't even know that was possible. I was dreading these plans because I knew I wouldn't be able to enjoy my self and I was scared I might slip. I know it has only b... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 01:17:20 EST I need help I am 21 and I have been drinking since the age of 13. I never knew how to drink properly even at the very beginning. I would always reach black out mode. But back then I didn't drink often. Well since I have been of legal age (19 in BC Canada) I black out any where from 1 to 4 times a week from drinking. Recently I went to my boyfriends parents and I don't remember any of it. Needless to say I made a fool of my self once again. Alcohol is messing up my personal relationships, my health, and m... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 12:12:01 EST Check-in June June is arriving with a lot of sun, rain and mosquitos... My lawn looks like a hayfield but I will not bother to fix my lawn-mower until next week, I simpy have no time! Sun, 2 Jun 2013 01:03:04 EST Looking at online AA I've been perusing online AA, anyone here ever try it? My concern is the chat rooms and my inability to type quick enough to keep up. Fri, 17 May 2013 06:11:19 EST Day one Hi everyone, <BR> This is day one for me, again. <BR> <BR> I continue to start over. One dayat a time Mon, 13 May 2013 19:45:52 EST Check-in may A new month and new possibilities. Thanks everybody for your concern about my feet. No I have not been consulting any doctor, I am rather sure what the solution would be - lose weight and get insole... anjd for the later I have no respect for octor´s knowledge - the write a...referral? to an orthopedic shop that maks insoles that might work and might not... as long as I carry this overweight they will not look for other soultions.... and of course I should not assume that but I did visit doc... Wed, 1 May 2013 02:39:23 EST slogans help Just remembering slogans from my beginning days. What's your favorite? Sat, 20 Apr 2013 19:15:04 EST a new start today is my first day sobor / going to keep it that way. <BR> <BR> need to be in a better place ,always getting excuses to drink, well I know what I need to do~ <BR> Flo Sun, 14 Apr 2013 06:33:00 EST Check-in april I am in great need to get back on good routines, this is one of them - to set up the april check-in thread and hopefully stop by every day to keep myself in the right attitude! Mon, 1 Apr 2013 03:49:27 EST New and on the way to Improved Hi peoples, this is Barbara, from Northern Cali. I'm a very honest and outspoken alcoholic. I'm almost 24 and have been battling trying to get sober for almost seven years and have time and time again failed. But with hope, I always try again and hop back on the wagon. For more information about me and who I am please check out my spark page, and blogs. My journey with weightloss started in 2010 and I lost a total of 40 pounds for my wedding. From then on I have juggled the pounds and am try... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 12:23:09 EST Check in March I just saw that a new storm is brewing for next week for the mid Atlantic. I sure hope we don't get snow like we did 20 years ago in March. Remember the Storm of the Century? Fri, 1 Mar 2013 16:55:44 EST Check-in february This is awful - as I have reached top level for spark points I lost some of the motivation for doing my spark "chores" every day, like visiting teams and writing on message boards as a daily habit. I still think it is a good habit and I do really want to stay in connection with apsek people as I have found so man interesting, motivating and inspiring people here... so a little late but nevertheless, the february thread is on the go. <BR> <BR> Nell I don´t know what your mothers symptoms are ... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 08:29:08 EST Out of control It is a new year and I must face the fact that I am out of contrrol of my life and my eating. Last entry of weight was 187. Today I am 204. I am isolating and neglecting my house. Don't know where to turn except here. Wed, 2 Jan 2013 11:40:57 EST Check-in january A sober new years eve, the seventh in a row... this morning I thought that I will stop celebrating new year, that is I will stop staying up until twelve a clock, does not seem fun or good for anything really... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 02:05:38 EST Check-in december Forgot that I had to make a new post for december, just copying the november post...: <BR> Dress rehearsal went well - except that myself did not have any dress yet...had to drive down and pick-up daughter as she had nausea and I decided it was too hard on her to go on the bus...took three hours away but I think I will manage. <BR> <BR> And it is december and supposed to be advent in Sweden, have not thought about that yet as I have the show this afternoon and everything is put on hold until... Sat, 1 Dec 2012 00:53:44 EST Check in November Am I intruding by starting a November check-in? <BR> <BR> I went to the cosmetic surgeon this morning to schedule surgery, a facelift. And of course, because I neither drink nor smoke, I am a good candidate. Going to be a busy month getting ready for this. LOTS to do before I am out for surgery. I hope the kids get me their gift lists soon. Thu, 1 Nov 2012 13:42:02 EST Hi Just wanted to introduce myself....I am new to sparkpeople and had my last drink on 2-11-84. I have struggled with weight all my life. When I got sober I still smoked and that helped keep the weight gain somewhat under control but since I quit smoking 6 years ago the weight has really piled on. I am looking to lose about 130 pounds one day at a time. I was so excited to see this group and look forward to meeting some of you. <BR> Sat, 6 Oct 2012 12:12:48 EST Hi Just wanted to introduce myself....I am new to sparkpeople and had my last drink on 2-11-84. I have struggled with weight all my life. When I got sober I still smoked and that helped keep the weight gain somewhat under control but since I quit smoking 6 years ago the weight has really piled on. I am looking to lose about 130 pounds one day at a time. I was so excited to see this group and look forward to meeting some of you. Sat, 6 Oct 2012 12:10:22 EST Check-in october Last show yesterday, I feel really happy about that. Had a SMS-quarrel with ex that was ridiculous, hav a stressful week in front of me praying for strenght. Sun, 30 Sep 2012 23:01:37 EST High Holidays Tonight is the start of the Jewish New Year. My best wishes to others that share my faith. <em>220</em> Sun, 16 Sep 2012 14:48:04 EST Tell how you fee with an emoticon <em>211</em> Mon, 10 Sep 2012 13:07:41 EST Check-in september It is the first day of september, where I live it is absolutely beautiful, sunny and warm. I think this is going to be the best september ever! Sat, 1 Sep 2012 01:01:02 EST Check in August I guess we need to start a new month. Where oh where does the time go??? <BR> <BR> Today is another day in which to succeed!! Wed, 1 Aug 2012 09:37:10 EST Check-in july Not a good start of the month, very letargic, no energy. Finally got out on a bike tour eith doggy, will go to bed tonight and focus on getting going tomorrow! Sun, 1 Jul 2012 13:42:16 EST Not new but old Just wanted to introduce myself again. I use to come to here and sparkpeople some yrs ago. I actually gave up drink for a year, however i became ill and yup stupid i started again. I am looking into restarting from afresh again. Got more to say, but wont go into it just now as i am trying to recover. Thu, 21 Jun 2012 17:47:37 EST Daily reflections june ******************************************<BR>* <BR> A CHANGED OUTLOOK <BR> June 1, 2011 <BR> <BR> Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 84 <BR> <BR> When I was drinking, my attitude was totally selfish, totally self-centered; my pleasure and my comfort came first. Now that I am sober, self-seeking has started to slip away. My whole attitude toward life and other people is changing. For me, the first “A” in our name stands for attitude. My attitu... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 00:53:40 EST Glad to be here! Hi there! I am so glad I found this team! I have been sober since July 7,2007. I am definitely a newcomer with this whole eating healthy and in moderation thing though!!! It really helps using the steps with this new journey! I will definitely keep coming back! Tue, 22 May 2012 20:32:04 EST Daily reflections may Hmm - I might have to give this up - I have considered my quotes from Daily reflections just as when I read the same text in any AA group (as we mostly do at all meetings I attend. I read in this book every morning at my kitchen table and I would have written it from my book had it not been in swedish... instead I go to a page - daily - and copy it from there. As I am on the other side of the world the daily reflection for today is rarely up when I do my service so I copy from... Tue, 1 May 2012 00:45:11 EST Need to blow some steam! I'm so frustrated lately. Why can't pp just respect the fact that I'm not drinking anymore and leave it at that? No, instead they say things like, "Oh you don't have a drinking problem. You don't drink any more then I do!". I want to say back, "Well, I'm not judging you for that so why are you judging me?" Its my decision and I'm sticking to it no matter what but I'm getting so sick of hearing these types of remarks that I could just SCREAM <em>28</em> ! <BR> Thanks for letting me vent. I'm b... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 13:29:04 EST UGH! I blew it, but I still have HOPE. My yesterday SUCKED! I didn't do my work-out DVD, I binged-snacked (Trader Joe's Oriental Rice Crackers-- I don't even really like them that much!) AND last night I drank two glasses of my husband's wine. I'm hopeless! What was the trigger? Again: STRESS. Our youngest child's (he's special needs-- reactive attachment disorder) morning of tantrums just WORE me DOWN. And I didn't do all the things that I KNOW help me. Now, Sunday was stressful, too, but I "worked my program" and, of cou... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 11:25:50 EST Daily reflections april I´d love to hear any comments you have! <BR> <BR> ****************************************<BR>*************************************** <BR> LOOKING WITHIN <BR> April 1, 2012 <BR> <BR> ...Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 42 <BR> <BR> Step Four is the vigorous and painstaking effort to discover what the liabilities in each of us have been, and are. I want to find exactly how, when, and where my natural desires have warped me. I... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 00:49:59 EST Triggers I have been sober for 9 months starting in July 2011. The weather is now getting warmer and I go outside in the sun and think about how nice it would be to have a cold drink in my hand and the beginings of a buzz. Then I start to think about how much fun I used to have when I was drinking, always going out to the bar with my friends. Now I have given up my friends along with my drink inorder to pursue my goals. Maybe it's not the alcohol I miss maybe I'm just lonely. How do you find new ... Sat, 31 Mar 2012 22:18:40 EST Had to share an AH HAH moment I have been posting on FB for some time now. Recently I started to share my sobriety and celebration dates, etc. About a couple of weeks ago I had a request to be a friend with and old friend from way back that I haven't seen in a very long time. She responded to my post that I made about celebrating one month of no alcohol, by saying she really needed to talk with me. So I got her number and called her on my lunch break today. She told me she loved all my positive posts and upbeat remarks th... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 21:24:17 EST Heard a Song Today As I worked out this morning, I heard a song on my MP3 player that reminded me of all of you. <BR> <BR> "Lean On Me" <BR> <BR> Sometimes in our lives we all have pain <BR> We all have sorrow <BR> But if we are wise <BR> We know that there's always tomorrow <BR> <BR> Lean on me, when you're not strong <BR> And I'll be your friend <BR> I'll help you carry on <BR> For it won't be long <BR> 'Til I'm gonna need <BR> Somebody to lean on <BR> <BR> Please swallow your pride <BR> If I have things ... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 15:00:43 EST no alcohol in the this unreasonable? so as my newb post says, 10 months sober. my husband quit drinking too to better himself and to help me. Our marriage would have ended on the road we were travelling down. <BR> <BR> so, i bought a new house, even though we're married, i pretty much paid for it. now, even putting that aside, it is OUR house and it doesn't matter who paid for it. <BR> <BR> my husband has a little man cave/game room/theatre room, two of his friends are having birthdays this week and he wants to invite them ... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 14:56:06 EST I'm Back! Hey All; Slight change to the name as the old one didn't seem to work. It's been a few years since I was last here and as my weight has been up and down, so has my emotional sobriety. Have not had to drink over anything and have worked the steps to keep it all together. Today is a good day so far! I look forward to being with you all again. <BR> <BR> Jaye Mon, 12 Mar 2012 11:09:33 EST Need help finding the right AA mtg grp I have been online checking out all the AA mtgs in my area and I am overwhelmed! HELP! I need some guidance and direction. What is the difference between an open and a closed meeting and which would you suggest? I've also came across one that is titled "Three Legacies New Beginnings For Women Group" and thought this sounded interesting. I feel like I'm going in circles...please help! Sun, 11 Mar 2012 18:06:27 EST Daily reflections feb-march It will be a challenge for me to try to write in this thread from the "daily reflections" of AA every day. Feel free to share your thughts! <BR> <BR> ****************************************<BR>***** <BR> <BR> NO ORDINARY SUCCESS STORY <BR> February 26, 2012 <BR> <BR> A.A. is no success story in the ordinary sense of the word. It is a story of suffering transmuted, under grace, into spiritual progress. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 35 <BR> <BR> Upon entering A.A. I listened to others talk about the... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 03:04:45 EST Poll ?:What restaurant would you say"NoWay"on VD? A "report" on channel 5 News just informed viewers that Valentine's Day dinner reservations are available for both White Castles and/or The Waffle House. <BR> <BR> Back in the day I'd follow a guy home if he LET ME BUY HIM A DRINK!!! (I was very very sick). I would like to think that today, I would not be so disrespectful to myself or anyone else. <BR> <BR> So when I saw the report I wondered "How would I feel about a Valentines date to White Castles?........I would not go. Even if the ge... Sat, 11 Feb 2012 19:04:00 EST Favorite activities (besides drinking) at the bar? I am a social drinker. I never drank at home unless I was with people so would mostly drink with friends at bars and parties (every night,). The things that are some of my favorite things to do are play darts and shoot pool. I moved about 10 months ago to a different state and I am finding less sober places to do these things near a major city than I did in my small to mid sized city up north. The only places that I have found are bars. There is a guy I like and he likes to do these things to... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 05:38:09 EST This is harder than I thought it would be. The last few days I had one kid with the flu and a crabby teething baby ..just whatever leading me to frustration. In the past, at the first sign of anxiety I had a drink to "feel better". So these last couple of days have been a tad harder because drinking has been constantly on my mind..even dreaming about it. On top of that, I haven't fully accepted that I am this broken.. I don't feel like I'm in a reality, but I'm recognizing that I do need help and I'm making my husband take me to a ... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 15:37:57 EST 2 1/2 months abstinent and sober (the two are intertwined for me). Just looking for a little support. The 12 step meeting are invaluable. The cravings aren't bad, it's all the emotional crap that has me down. I didn't know I was this damaged. Guess I have a lot of work to do. <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> Sat, 7 Jan 2012 16:22:47 EST in a bad space with food addiction Hi everyone. As of late with the holidays here i am finding myself in a space that feels very familiar as an out of control addiction. Gone are the days when i would obsess about having a drink, work in my garden, obsess about drinking go to the sink and look under for the bottle, put it away go to garden, want drink go to cabinet and on and on and on on!!! <BR> For the last 2 weeks here are the days when i want the candy, cake,chips, go clean bathroom, want the candy, chips, cake, go clean b... Fri, 23 Dec 2011 19:17:28 EST Hello from Northern Canada!! I have been an on again off again SP user for many years....unfortunately off again for the last few! <BR> I am fairly well seated in my sobriety (1 year 2months) after a stay in a wonderful womens treatment center. I learned so much about myself and now I want to honor that gift by being the very best me I can be. I need to love myself for the first time in my life. I aproach sobriety as a "cleansing" out the bad clutterring gunk that I numbed away with booze. the hur... Mon, 14 Nov 2011 11:06:05 EST Got Drunk, fell down, broke leg, time to quit! Hi my name is Caren, as my topic suggested this is what happened. I had to have major surgery on my leg and this has been a big eye opener for me. I need a group I can confide in to stop the drinking, which has been a part of my life for over 20 years. It is time to stop before I have an accident I will NOT recover from. <BR> I am bed ridden for the next 6 weeks because of the surgery so I have plenty of time to chat. Good news is I havn't had a drink for two weeks since the accident. The tru... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 09:37:00 EST Hi My name is JoAnn and I am a Alcoholic I have 26 years in AA Sept 28 god willing I quit smoking 10 years ago but just can't get in the solution with food I ask my self do I real need this vice I get on my knees and ask god to help me and when I stand up I am looking at weights a tread mill a wii fitness and dvds on fitness so he does answer my prayers I just keep on forgetting to bring the shovel, I guess I am just real lazy is that called sloth we think so. <BR> So today is a new day I am going to pick myself up and brush my self... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 12:55:10 EST Time for rotation Hi friends, <BR> <BR> In the spirit of rotation, it is time to pass on the leadership of this group. I did it for a year or two then Stephanie jumped into the job the last year or two. It really is something I think we should pass along. <BR> <BR> Because this group was formed honoring the program and traditions of AA, I think the new facilitator should be active in AA and at least one year sober. There are lots of regulars here that fit this description. Who can take the job? It really on... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 05:58:35 EST Hah! I found the alcoholics! I knew you were in here somewhere. I'm connie, I'm a recovering alcoholic for 12 years. I feel like it's time to start unravelling some more layers of the onion. The food thing is a tricky addiction, and I'm so ready to start feeling good and enjoying my life. <BR> <BR> And I don't want to pass on my relationship with food to my son. So. Thanks for being here! Sat, 30 Jul 2011 21:33:34 EST Celebrating my accomplishments It has been about 10 days since my last alcoholic drink. I am feeling better about it each day. <BR> <BR> At first, I wasn't sure if I could do it. It has been a long time since I have gone more than a few days without my booze. I seemed to depend on it for all my ailments. I would drink when I'm happy, I would drink when I sad and I would find any excuse to drink. But, now I don't. <BR> <BR> I don't need booze as much as I though I did. I can get by just fine without it. I just have to ke... Tue, 19 Jul 2011 15:18:39 EST Living in danger... I have not been to any meetings this week, in my opinion that is making the wrong choices. I realise that I have this major quality of having a hard time to put my wellbeing first. It is much easier to be "Nice" and be there for others.... this I really need to work on because it is a major reson for overeating. Fri, 15 Jul 2011 02:18:34 EST Food Fog Hi Group, It has been a week since I last posted. I had company from out of town come to visit for a week. I did not do the things I needed to do to take care of myself so I relapsed in the food. I used food the same way I used booze. The friends from out of town were drinkers and so is my husband so they drank. I ate because I guess I wanted to feel comfortable. I should have made an outreach call, go to a meeting or just post what was going on. <BR> <BR> I'm glad I did not pick up t... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 21:04:54 EST In Loving Memory - Happy Father's Day! Today is Father's Day. Though, I no longer have my dad and late husband to celebrate Father's Day, I cherish the memories I have had with them. The greatest gift my husband passed down to my teen-aged sons are the words, "The best thing a dad can do for his sons is to show how much he loves and respects their mother." Every Father's Day, I remind them of his words, hoping it will be passed down to their future wives and generations to come. Just Friday, my older son was complimented for actin... Sun, 19 Jun 2011 09:38:29 EST If I Were Still Drinking I Never Would Have... Share an experience, job, love, sport, friend, etc that would never had happened if you were still drinking. <BR> <BR> I would not be up at dawn to exercise, and I would miss the sounds and smells of the early morning. I would be in bed dreading the day to come instead of welcoming it with open arms. Tue, 14 Jun 2011 05:54:07 EST Acting Out I'm doing a lot of thinking about this week. I visited my hometown and it was really hard being around my family. There is so much drama there and I found myself getting caught up in it. I did not track my food this week and ate like I used to drink. I swear I really switched addictions. I'm here today detoxing from sugar and feel awful. I ask myself why can't I accept life on life's terms. I used booze the same way I use food when I binge. I'm back on track today and pray to be willi... Sat, 11 Jun 2011 22:43:17 EST Challenge I got some challenges coming up next week. I will be going back to my hometown to visit and go to my granddaughter's graduation. Its kind of hard going back because I have a son who I do not have a relationship with because of is resentments toward me. It is his daughter that is graduating from high school. He does not have a relationship with her either. This makes me very sad. I pray for him all the time and I'm stepping out of my Higher Power's way. <BR> It is also to state where my ... Thu, 26 May 2011 13:45:53 EST Prayers for Joplin, Missouri <em>458</em> <em>220</em> <em>458</em> <em>247</em> <em>458</em> <em>220</em> <em>458</em> <em>247</em> <em>458</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Over 30 years ago, I lived through a tornado. To this day, I fear any tornado. I still remember the feeling of pressure that paralized me from moving and the horrendous sounds of my ears popping. The rest I don't remember or possibly I blocked out. As some of you may know, I live in St. Louis, Missouri. Last night, Jopin, MO was hit by the worst torna... Mon, 23 May 2011 11:13:26 EST New to Group I am a recovering alcoholic and since I quit drinking I gained a lot of weight. I just put down one problem and added another problem. I use food the same way I used booze because one is never enough. Sugar has been a big issue since I got sober. All the food I like has some of the same ingredients as booze. The sugar and grains. <BR> <BR> Today I'm sitting here fighting my demons and wanting to eat. Food has the same effect has booze because I don't have to feel my feelings. I can ... Sat, 21 May 2011 00:17:27 EST The Serenity Prayer for Weight Loss <em>247</em> <em>306</em> <em>220</em> <em>247</em> <em>306</em> <em>220</em> <em>247</em> <em>306</em> <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> The Serenity Prayer is one of my favorites. I use the revised version of The Serenity Prayer for Weight Loss ( in my daily lifestyle to maintain a healthier way of living. Sending * Hope * Unity * Gratitude * Serenity = HUGS to all! Have a Sparktacular weekend! <BR> <BR> <BR> The Serenity Prayer for Weight Loss... Sat, 14 May 2011 09:49:03 EST Asking "God" for help with food daily... A few weeks ago I called my previous AA sponsor who lives 1200 miles away. We have both been sober, thanks to AA, for over 20yrs. But we weren't talking about alcohol that day, we were talking about food! Jim said he hadn't been doing that good with his food program. He also said that each morning he asks God to help him with his alcohol problem, but that he hadn't been doing that lately about his food/eating problem. Then we hung up. <BR> <BR> A few days later Jim called back. He sounded d... Mon, 9 May 2011 09:58:08 EST Buddhist approach to the 12 steps? Does anyone out there have any experience with approaching AA from a Buddhist perspective? Thu, 5 May 2011 21:32:40 EST Mayday! April has not been the best of months, I need to have more success in may so I am asking for supports and sharing from you all! <BR> <BR> I need to get on my bike today, I need to do at least an hour of paperwork and I need to make helathy food choices! Sun, 1 May 2011 01:44:47 EST Topic of the week How about God's (or higher power) will vs. My will. I'm pretty good at turning it over every day, I just fail to remember that I turned it over and leave it there. Went to some great meetings in NYC while there. Young man said something like..."when it's my will it starts easier but gets harder (I end up hitting walls); when it's God's will, it may start out harder but usually becomes easier.". So true. <BR> <BR> Mary L <BR> Wed, 27 Apr 2011 06:52:35 EST Inspirational Song: Unintended (by Muse) First things first, I'll be the first to admit that Muse is not exactly everyone's cup of tea, and while I like a good deal of their songs they also have a bunch that drive me up the wall. Today I was listening to music on my laptop on a random mix and this song came up. The sound and lyrics are rather haunting, and once I looked up and confirmed the lyrics I felt as though it could have been an ode to my wife and sobriety. I have been married for 10 and a half years and have 3 beautiful c... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 19:00:38 EST Just had to share The other day when it was St. Patrick's Day our grandson came up to me with something in his hand and he asked if he could take it to school. When he showed it to me it was my 10 yr medallion. He wanted to take it to share with his Kindergarten class cuz he thought it was a piece of gold. Now that I think about it - it is actually more precious than gold. Needless to say, I told him no. <em>246</em> Tue, 22 Mar 2011 13:19:09 EST Anyone use whey protein? Trying to increase my breakfast protein without adding 300 calories (or too many beans). Anyone use whey protein? Recipes? Mon, 21 Mar 2011 07:08:59 EST The AA Paradoxes <em>235</em> <em>306</em> <em>235</em> <em>306</em> <em>235</em> <em>306</em> <em>235</em> <em>306</em> <em>235</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> A few days ago, a friend in recovery sent an email to me. I wanted to share it among my SP friends in this group. I hope you enjoy the following as much as I do. <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>321</em> From weakness (adversity) comes strength. <BR> <em>321</em> We forgive to be forgiven. <BR> <em>321</em> We give it away to keep it. <BR> <em>321</em> ... Sun, 27 Feb 2011 14:14:09 EST A 'new' 4th step? for me tonight I am currently using this book - a course in weight loss. Its giving me a spiritual outlook to dealing with the weight issue. Im having an interesting time with it. I instantly balk at the suggestions offered in each chapter and the exercises proposed. But being an RA then i 'just do it' anyway remembering the any length idea and the HOW etc. Each lesson has actually been great when i get over myself-ha. Tonight's chapter is asking me to write my story -like our 4th step. The inner brat is ha... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 19:40:50 EST GOALS, PLANS AND ASPIRATIONS FOR THE NEXT YEAR Before we got too far into 2011, I thought we could share our plans, some goals and even secret aspirations (like running a marathon, for instance) for the next year. <BR> <BR> I plan to keep doing what I am doing as far as healthy living is concerned. I have addressed my binge eating behaviour, and it is not gone, but so much better. I hope to stop the 10 pound yo-yo once and for all. <BR> <BR> Hubby and I plan to do a few back-country camping trips this year. <BR> <BR> And, as much as ... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 06:20:59 EST made a mistake Sorry Mon, 10 Jan 2011 05:45:44 EST Thanks and god bless your effort! i found this team accidentally and am not an alcoholic but my father is. he will never recover and our lives and relationships are permanently altered because of his choices. <BR> <BR> The fact that you are all here, together and working toward your goals both in weight loss and sobriety are amazing. I am so happy for you and your families and they should be thankful that you care enough to take on this extremely difficult task. <BR> <BR> I know it is hard and just wanted to hopefully o... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 12:10:13 EST Prayers and Support Needed! <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <em>458</em> <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Prayers and Support Needed .... Please read my Blog. I can't bear another loss. I can't do this alone. I am turning to my Spark "family" to give me the inner strength and courage of acceptance to whatever God's Will is. <BR> <... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 12:39:16 EST half measures availed us nothing... getting and staying sober has required 'going to any lengths.' now it feels time to apply the principles of the program to getting and staying healthy. for me it has to mean making time, not excuses; getting out of my comfort zone and off my butt! what works for y'all and keeps you coming back? Sun, 5 Dec 2010 19:52:51 EST 23 days candy free! People have been asking how I've made it 23 days now without any candy. <BR> <BR> Read on! <BR> <link><BR>on_articles.asp?id=134 </link> <BR> <BR> My results came before this article, but the article speaks to how I'm doing it! Honestly I couldn't have gotten this far without applying the 12-steps to my eating. Here's to many more "24 hours" of sober eating! woop woop! <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> <BR> Blessings, <BR> Tara Thu, 2 Dec 2010 11:16:13 EST Hi all Sobriety date is May 27, 1991. Since then I've been separated for two years, lost my house to foreclosure, gone through bankruptcy, got poisoned by a medication I was on that almost killed me (damaged nervous system and pancreas), dealt with clinical depression, porked out to a stout 244 lbs, and live my life one day at a time. Had it not been for my recovery in AA and a relationship with my HP, I surely would not have lived through all the garbage. But here we are and it's time to get wel... Fri, 19 Nov 2010 08:15:49 EST New to this...Day 1 My name is Pam, and I am a functioning alcoholic. Today is my first day of sobriety, and I am nervous about possible withdrawals, but look forward to becoming sober. My family has gone through some difficult times as of late. Husband lost job, lost car...but not having a pity party. Lots of people are worse off. And having the pity party only gives me an excuse (in my mind) to drink. I have tried to find other live chat rooms for AA and such, but no luck. With lack of transportation, I ... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 14:33:48 EST Grateful Alcoholic & Addict I am not only members of AA, Al-Anon and NA, but enjoy the service work I perform on a daily basis. I relapsed after having 13 years of sobriety. I know that we start again where we left off from our disease of Alchoholism and / or Addiction. On January 6, 2001, I will be celebrating ten years sober / drug-free. <BR> <BR> Throughout my years in recovery, I have seen what the active disease CAN and WILL do to another human being. I have lost and attended many memorials for close friends throu... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 11:49:12 EST Anybody know about Antabuse? My daughter has been put on Antabuse, first pills and now injections, and it's a struggle for us at the moment. She was told to avoid everything w/ alcohol in it, and that includes vinegar. We've been looking at labels on everything, and vinegar seems to be in just about everything--dressings, mayonaisse, mustard, etc. <BR> <BR> It seems like every day she gets something (was even told to avoid creamers in her coffee) that sets her off. <BR> <BR> Anybody who has experience and can help? I'm... Sun, 7 Nov 2010 23:55:04 EST Glad I Found this Team Hey friends. I've been sober for 3 years but I still struggle daily with addiction -- food. Thank God I'm sober and that's the main thing. But I've gained 65 pounds in sobriety and my quality of life is starting to suffer. I have a herniated disc and I'm not able to be as active with my kids as I want. Exercise is also a challenge because of my back problems. <BR> <BR> My short term goal is to lose 20 lbs. by January 20th so I can qualify for an MUA procedure to help my back. I have to get ... Sun, 7 Nov 2010 17:27:27 EST CONGA LINE THE WORDS I must admit I pooched this game and the instructions for it from another team of mine, but it's kind of fun. <BR> <BR> Post a word. You use the "last two letters" of the word I posted in order to start your word. <BR> <BR> For example, here's a sample of five posts <BR> 1st word - peopLE <BR> Next post - LEguME <BR> Next post -MEssaGE <BR> Next post - GEL <BR> Next post - ELetric <BR> <BR> First word is <BR> <BR> gratituDE <BR> <BR> (The next person who posts....start with "DE".) ... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 06:38:03 EST Halloween Fun! Who's ready for some Halloween fun? Anyone like jokes? <BR> <BR> <em>333</em> What do you get when you cross a werewolf and a vampire? A fur coat that fangs around your neck. <BR> <BR> <em>424</em> How do witches keep their hair in place while flying? With scare spray. <BR> <BR> <em>275</em> Why don't skeletons ever go out on the town? Because they don't have any BODY to go out with. <BR> <BR> <em>423</em> What does a ghost get when he falls and scrapes his knee? A boo boo! <BR> ... Mon, 11 Oct 2010 10:01:15 EST I Need Support! Please read my blog, 10/9/10 - I NEED SUPPORT! Any suggestions, advice, etc is most appreciated. Sending lots of recovery, support, encouragment and hugs to my wonderful team. <BR> <BR> ~ Monika ~ <em>247</em> <em>223</em> <em>220</em> Sat, 9 Oct 2010 09:22:04 EST new member starting over again! I am new to spark and hope this helps me stop the insanity! I don't know if I can lose the weight one more time. I have lost my motivation .I am pretty much house bound as a caregiver and it is just an emotional roller coaster . that is bad state for a emotional eater and a member of AA. A special thak you to Java for trying to help me navigate on spark! Wed, 6 Oct 2010 23:30:19 EST Sobriety Cheer! <em>215</em> <em>321</em> <em>321</em> <em>215</em> <em>321</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> Give me an S <BR> Give me an O <BR> Give me a B <BR> Give me an R <BR> Give me an I <BR> Give me an E <BR> Give me a T <BR> Give me a Y <BR> <BR> What do WE got? <BR> S O B R I E T Y !!!!! <BR> <BR> How did We do it? <BR> F E L L O W S H I P !!!!! <BR> <BR> Giving my wonderful teammates a CHEER for adding another One-Day-At-A-Time recovery goal to their day! <BR> <BR> <em>215</em> <em>321<... Thu, 23 Sep 2010 10:45:43 EST Just Curious-AA or Your Way? I know many people get sober on their own without AA. I know some. Personally, I needed help to get sober and discovered there was so much more. Just curious on how you got sober and how your life has changed. Stephanie Wed, 22 Sep 2010 14:37:03 EST journaling I bought a Biggest Looser food journal today and I am going to start to journal my eating on a daily basis. I plan to keep it with me every where I go and what goes in my mouth goes down in black and white. I hope this will help me be more aware of what I am doing to my body. My partner is doing this with me and she is doing better than I am but my progress seems to be slower than hers. I know you are'nt to measure your success by what others success is but I seem to fall in that trap so... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 23:54:32 EST Hi, I'm Monika! My name is Monika and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic and addict. My recovery date is January 6, 2001. Please visit my SparkPage anytime .... WELCOME, YOU ARE AMONG FRIENDS ....... <BR> <BR> "It's not what I know in recovery that keeps me sober. It's what I Do that keeps me sober." <BR> <BR> "Sobriety is its own reward." <BR> <BR> "It works if you work it, so work it cause you're worth it." <BR> <BR> No wonder I love being sober & clean!! Have a wonderful one-day-at-a-time in recovery... Fri, 17 Sep 2010 10:16:15 EST Hello, I am new Hi my name is Linda I joined AA in Oct 6, 1990 and have been sober since then. I have had a weight problem all my life and now since I have been diagnosed with some disabling diseases it has gotten worse. I have tried to use the principles of AA in all my life but why in this fight I am having trouble I dont know. I picked this team because I know it will be in my best interest. I need all the feed back I can get from all of you with little to great success. Thank you in advance. <em>249<... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 12:52:33 EST Finally, newly sober! Finally I have a month behind me, am joining anyway. It took a move out of state to seal the deal! How bizarre is that? <BR> <BR> Am back to participate in the forums. Sun, 12 Sep 2010 16:00:38 EST A New Meeting I went to a new meeting I guess is not really an AA meeting, but it's a meeting at a drug/alcohol rehab. It was really different! It is a meeting for all inpatients and for anyone who is an alumni and their friends. It was a small meeting, about 20 women and it was lead by a counselor. Each person introduced themselves and shared how they were "feeling". Then the counselor came back to the ones who were feeling down, depressed, stressed etc.. Then she asked if the person would like feedba... Fri, 3 Sep 2010 21:37:53 EST One more time He saved my butt!!! I just wanted to share my story of how I found "Sparks" because I feel it was a gift send to me from God to save my butt yet one more time. <BR> <BR> I had just lost my job back in May and took a look at my life! I was tired and overweight and just felt like crap! I was at a meeting and met someone who told me just how it is.....she said "you need to get fit or your going to die." She wasn't being mean, she was being honest. I told her I had tried all the diets etc... and I would lose so... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 23:31:25 EST birthdays The beginning of my wonderful & challenging life in AA is 09/22/90. Belly button b-day is shortest day of the year & first day of winter.. 12/21(1955) Fri, 27 Aug 2010 17:28:10 EST Hi everybody.. Hi..I'm Carol. I'm celebrating 20 years sobriety & 1 week of Spark people. So glad to find this team!! Thu, 26 Aug 2010 20:12:36 EST Hello My name is Amanda. I live in southern Ohio and I'm a recovering alcoholic who will have a year sober on Wednesday! Mon, 9 Aug 2010 11:50:31 EST Calorie Control with Mini Meals Does anyone do 5-6 mini meals each day to control calorie intake and keep hunger at bay? I'm wondering if you miss a big meal or two - or how you factor that in every once in awhile? <BR> <BR> I'm still stuggling with ice cream and diet cokes. I gave up the diet cokes for almost 4 months and with it....I definitely ate less sugar/ice cream too. This summer, I drifted back into diet cokes and jumped headfirst into the ice cream tub. I'm working on that now and am wondering if I should try th... Tue, 3 Aug 2010 19:10:43 EST Wow, here I am. I finaly found some people to talk to on the net. I can't go to meetings. I tried and can't stand it. No one I've met has the control of it that I do, and that's why I realized that I don't have control. <BR> <BR> Wow, I can't believe I'm telling everyone this. I can't stand liquor, and I can drink a glass of wine and be fine. One beer = 12-20 every time. I'm very picky about the time of day to start. I show up to work on time and complete my tasks well. I'm not an aggresive drunk (although... Wed, 28 Jul 2010 14:15:41 EST Need a fair bit of help in this early stage OK, this is long, I tried to make it short but I think I need to vent some but also I need to give you some background so you understand what I'm dealing with and can better help me. <BR> <BR> I appreciate your patience in advance. <BR> <BR> Long story short my mother is making me crazy, which lead to the drinking a lot thing. <BR> <BR> Where by myself I'd watch how much I was drinking and the time in which I consumed it, drinking water too, and not drinking more than I intended, I'm so st... Sat, 24 Jul 2010 18:14:13 EST Stopped drinking & now craving sweets - what gives I stopped drinking 2 weeks ago and am now craving everything sweet. I've never had a sweet tooth before so I'm assuming it's because I've given up the alcohol. Does anyone know of anything to help with the sugar cravings? Thu, 22 Jul 2010 13:45:02 EST Going to first AA meeting Saturday - Help I am going to my first AA meeting on Saturday and would like an idea of what to expect. The meeting is listed as Women Only (Closed). Am I expected to share my story? Any replies would be appreciated. Thu, 22 Jul 2010 09:42:22 EST Could use some support / ideas OK, so my Mom caught me drunk to the point of being passed out (I didn't plan it, I'd been painting a house and hadn't eaten appropriate enough calories). <BR> <BR> She understandably freaked and has understandably put some rules in place. I'm OK with that, and I'm fine giving up the alcohol and going to meetings and all that. <BR> <BR> My problem is she's got such crazy-making behavior it's making me crazy (hence the increase in drinking to begin with ... I'm in chronic pain so I can't ju... Wed, 21 Jul 2010 18:06:47 EST Post Your Daily "Did It" Here. OK. For those who suggested it, there is a new team goal for tracking your nutrition every day. Also, when you do track and stick to your plan, to your satisfaction, post DID IT here. Like the daily NOPE for quitting smokers, and the daily affirmation for the OA team. Thanks for your input, guys. Makes my job easy when I know what you want. Tue, 20 Jul 2010 07:10:07 EST HAPPY TO FIND THIS TEAM... Hello, I am Allie & have been in recovery since September of 1998. I can't believe it has been that long. I am very grateful to be sober and alive today. However, I replaced my alcohol with sugar and have gained so much weight and struggled on an ongoing basis to stop eating in a destructive way. I have failed over and over. I can't seem to let go. I am so afraid if I do, I may go back to drinking because what else will I have to cope. I was so happy to have come across this site through ... Tue, 6 Jul 2010 19:05:37 EST Today was my 1st day of sobriety Yep, today was my 1st day clean and sober 24 years ago - 7/3/86!! <BR> <BR> day at a time and better every day! <BR> <BR> God bless America <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>195</em> Sat, 3 Jul 2010 19:07:15 EST Hello! Happy to find you guys! Great to be here. Looking forward to some new buddies. Wed, 16 Jun 2010 14:33:30 EST AA Is 75 Today! I just wanted to celebrate the fact that the program of Alcoholics Anonymous is 75 years old today. <em>244</em> Thu, 10 Jun 2010 06:15:22 EST Sharing Nutrition & Fitness Trackers I had a sort of aha moment a little while ago. I was logging in my food, like they tells us to do, and my fitness and I thought- 'I wonder who else is doing this???' so I started searching for others that are doing this. I found a couple but it seemed sparatic - LIKE MINE, lol, and that's when it occurred to me that if we actually knew other people are really looking at our trackers then maybe we would have the desire to be more involved with them. <BR> <BR> I dont know about anyone else, bu... Tue, 1 Jun 2010 17:26:57 EST this is me HELP I am pretty new to this and I am not a Recovering alcoholic, but I figure if anyone could understand me it would be this group. I was never much of a drinker (so I thought) until about 3 years ago. I had a bf in the military and I started drinking a bottle 750mL every Friday and Saturday, than it increased into a DUI. Now I know that was dumb and I have done it a few times since, but I have stopped 4 months ago driving when not fit to and recently I decided to try to lose wait vs. a Tummy tuc... Sun, 16 May 2010 14:48:42 EST What's your morning prayer routine One of today's meditations is going to be a keeper in my morning routine. What's yours? Mine is the morning prayers from the 11th step <BR> - Got direct my thinking today, keep it free from self pity....etc. I add in a very abbreviated St. Francis Prayer. <BR> - I ask for sobriety today and moreover I ask for help not wanting a drink today <BR> - I do the 3rd and 7th step prayers. <BR> - I read meditations from a few of my favorite books <BR> - I try to do a little yoga fo... Thu, 13 May 2010 06:26:59 EST Hi Everybody! My name is Keri and I live in Tennessee. I hope to lose some weight on this program and hope you guys can help me! I'm on Day 2 and things are going well. Can't wait to talk to everybody! <BR> Tue, 11 May 2010 12:49:47 EST Hi Everybody! My name is Keri and I live in Tennessee. I hope to lose some weight on this program and hope you guys can help me! I'm on Day 2 and things are going well. Can't wait to talk to everybody! <BR> Tue, 11 May 2010 12:49:29 EST The necessity of having a sponsor I am very new to AA, I have resisted this avenue to sobriety for a very long time. One reason is because I couldn't admit I was an alcoholic, I only wanted to be a "problem drinker" not the "A" word. I've been in substance abuse counseling for 8 months, I've been an alcoholic for appx 14 years and just last month I was finally able to say that I was an alcoholic. Another reason I've resisted is the requirement to have a sponsor. I've heard that they make you go to 90 meeetings in 90 days and ... Fri, 7 May 2010 13:29:50 EST May or June sobriety date? We'll help Celebrate! If you have a sobriety date in May or June, post it. Dont' be shy, be proud. We'll all help you celebrate the anniversary of the start of a new life. Thu, 6 May 2010 16:17:55 EST off the wall question... i need to ask you guys a question, and it is weird <BR> <BR> would anyone on this board regularly drink "fake" alcoholic beverages ? ( O'Doul's , sparkling juice champagne like stuff, etc) <BR> <BR> when i get some feed back, i will tell you why i ask.. <BR> <BR> my name is Donna, and I am bulimic and sugar addict <BR> <BR> thanks ! <BR> Donna O Thu, 25 Mar 2010 16:07:30 EST Recovery Ah Ha! Moments Last night at my medallion celebration, I shook the hand of someone I didn't recognize. We're supposed to reach out the hand of AA. That woman went up and got her desire chip during the meeting. After the meeting, I talked to her and she thanked me for shaking her hand, even though I didn't know her. It really struck me how important it was, 5 years ago to that night, the strangers had their hands out to me. If they had ignored me, I probably wouldn't have gone back. My HP at work again. Fri, 26 Feb 2010 15:36:41 EST Feeling Hopeless I've found that when I count calories it is more difficult for me to lose weight (psychologically) than just to eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full, making healthy choices most of the time. I used to have a binge eating problem and I am a recovering alcoholic (3 months sober). I make myself physically ill, obsessing about how and when to exercise and feeling guilty about it and when and how much I eat. I successfully lost weight while eating only when hungry and being physically acti... Wed, 17 Feb 2010 08:03:03 EST Turned 18 yesterday Last drink was on Feb 15/92. So now I've reached the age of majority. Again. <BR> <BR> Sean M. Tue, 16 Feb 2010 09:43:48 EST Hello all ... new member here Hello everyone. My name is Pam...This is all new to me, but here goes. I have decided to make a change in my life. I don't seem to have the "will power"(if there is such a thing) to do it on my own. This web site seems to have so many great success stories...not just for losing weight, but for accomplishing other goals. Weight is not the only issue I struggle with, and this site has so many forums/teams to help me along the way to achieving my goals. Well, that is it I though... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 11:58:52 EST Please Give to Haiti Today Hi all, I'm posting a couple of links. My church ministry is supporting a parish in Haiti in which we have built a few schools. We are directly connected and speak regularly with the people there. In our town, buildings are down but no deaths. Our parish priest was in P o P when the quake hit; he seems in shock. He was not hurt. The school bus we supplied them is serving as a shelter. We usually merge with other mid-atlantic groups when sending supplies because it is so difficult (in the best... Thu, 14 Jan 2010 07:28:17 EST Tell us about your home group How about a new topic today? My home group is just like yours....the best little home group in america. It's called 33 West Recovery. When I first got sober. It was brand new (only a few months older than I in sobriety) and small; out of the 8 people there (lots of long term sobriety) - 6 had only picked up one white chip. I wanted that. I didn't want to come in and out - I'm still not sure I could get sober more than once. For me, it's easier to stay sober. Today, it has about 30 regulars. I... Sat, 9 Jan 2010 06:48:51 EST Any Resolutions for 2010? I resolve to eat junk food only once a month, and keep driving ahead on my quest to be really, truly physically fit. Thu, 31 Dec 2009 18:17:56 EST Not sure if I should be here or not........... I go to work (before and after childcare during the day, and now a new midnight shift job at Kohls) and still drink daily. <BR> Got a new midnight shift job on top of regular job hoping it would help,,,,,,,,,NOT!! Still drinking..... for no reason,,,,,,not depressed,,,, no more than usual, have a great family , a hubby who is awesome and doesnt drink at all, so why? WHY DO I CONTINUE TO CRAVE THE ALCOHOL......Its a battle I feel at times I am destined to lose. It all started when I was atta... Sun, 20 Dec 2009 16:58:29 EST 4th Step Inventory on Your Relationship with Food? Hey, everybody. Just thought I'd post here to see if anybody's done an inventory (4th step) on their relationship to food. You see, food was actually my very first "drug of choice"--my way of coping when I was growing up. <BR> <BR> Any thoughts? <BR> <BR> ~~Lori 8-) Sun, 20 Dec 2009 12:12:20 EST Greetings from Malaysia! Hey y'all! I'm Jakob from Kuala Lumpur. On SP to lose 25 pounds (about 20 to go!). My sobriety date is July 26 2007, and I only attend 1-2 meetings per week here in KL (we only have 5 english speaking meetings per week), so its great to come on here and read some of your posts! Have a wonderful sober day today. Sun, 20 Dec 2009 11:38:18 EST Greetings from Malaysia! Hey y'all! I'm Jakob from Kuala Lumpur. On SP to lose 25 pounds (about 20 to go!). My sobriety date is July 26 2007, and I only attend 1-2 meetings per week here in KL (we only have 5 english speaking meetings per week), so its great to come on here and read some of your posts! Have a wonderful sober day today. Sun, 20 Dec 2009 11:37:46 EST My home group meeting is closed today! My home group cancelled the meeting today because we are having a snowstorm and its going to last until tomorrow morning. we are getting between 6-12 inches of snow (nj) ugh!!! i hate missing my home group meeting feels like im missing out. But Im happy to say that least i can call my network which helps me alot especially at this time when im snowed in. God is good! <em>444</em> Sat, 19 Dec 2009 20:41:56 EST New Member Hello...I am on day 17 of my sobriety journey. I drank for over 13 years and tried quitting on my own with no success. I finally sought help with a substance abuse counselor which has been great with dealing with all the junk in my life...and I attend Celebrate Recovery meetings which is a christian based recovery group. I still have alcohol cravings and it's been hard, I had a melt down this past Monday because of something my youngest daughter did and I bought some alcohol, but I didn't dri... Thu, 17 Dec 2009 10:49:02 EST Ugh. The nausea. When does it end? Detox... I am on day 20 of sobriety. I am still incredibly nauseous at times (this morning, all morning). How much longer will this last? I'm going a bit nuts. I mean, I've been detoxing for 20 days! I know I have a bit of a cold, but that has never caused nausea before! <BR> <BR> What can I do to make this end sooner? Anything? Mon, 7 Dec 2009 12:40:17 EST Tape w/ weight Could someone pleae explain how to have the tape measure with the current weight shown on my postings? <BR> <BR> Thanks <BR> <BR> Lor Sun, 6 Dec 2009 22:38:03 EST New to team - Loraine Hi Everyone <BR> <BR> Belly button B-day: 11/2/61 <BR> AA B-day: 10/31/95 <BR> <BR> Live in SW suburb of Philadelphia <BR> <BR> I was so excited to find a Recovering Alcoholic forum. I'm new to SparkPeople and still trying to figure things out on the site. <BR> <BR> In difficult period of life and can't seem to get to that point where I can give energy to a healthy start. Just glad to find the group. <BR> <BR> Thanks <BR> <BR> Lor Sat, 5 Dec 2009 20:55:12 EST I celebrated 5 years on the 17th of November! I haven't been here in a while, work and family is keeping me busy (and yes, meetings). I got 2 tokens, one from a gentleman on my actual anniversary. I went back to where I'd gone to my first meeting, and where I said, "Hi, I'm Casey and I'm an alcoholic" aloud for the first time, five years ago (and then promptly cried too). I hadn't been to that meeting for a while, and the guy passing out tokens was at that first meeting too, so has known me all through my sobriety. It was cool he was the... Tue, 24 Nov 2009 13:38:24 EST I'm new here It has been about two months since I stopped drinking. I was in rehab two years ago. In the last two years I thought I could drink just like "normal" people. Not now I just don't drink at all. I make an AA meeting every morning at 7 am and several others during the week that interest me; ladies mtg, speaker mtg, step mtg etc. I have put on at least 20 lbs in the last 4 years and need to get it off. I'm sure I'm up to the challenge of not drinking as well as dropping the 20lbs an... Tue, 24 Nov 2009 13:27:32 EST Sober but compulsive Hi - this week I will celebrate four years sober - I came to AA june 2005, got sober and in nobemver had a relapse for one night, Got sober again and have been since. <BR> <BR> Food is my primary drug - I went to OA back in 1997 but as there were no live meetingsw to attend I really never got the program. But as I discovered the power of meetings in AA I wnt back to OA to try again. During my absence a lot had happened - there are now phone meetings four times a week although still no IRL me... Mon, 23 Nov 2009 01:44:15 EST New here Hello all. I am new to this team and am wondering if there are any non AA groups or support or something. <BR> I can go for a week or so then the cravings just get the best of me and I know it is undermining my diet goals. <BR> How we we get support here/?? Fri, 13 Nov 2009 21:42:56 EST Good Morning, My name is Janet I am VERY glad to be here, maybe I can meet some friends that really understand me. I have tried AA, found it to be a bunch of women needing free therapy, some real fruit loops, I didn't feel as if I belonged. But! I jumped in! Got a "sponsor" who was on me like stink on poop, so that scared me off as well. "You need to write this down and call me 4 times a week and blah blah blah!!" Nope. <BR> <BR> My husband, nor anyone in my family drink, I am an active mother of 2 sons ( 9 and 11)who bel... Tue, 29 Sep 2009 10:37:33 EST Inspiring message I've shut the door on yesterday and its sorrows and mistakes. <BR> I'v locked within its gloomy walls past failures and heartaches; <BR> And now I'v thrown the key away to seek another room; <BR> I'll furnish it with hope and smiles and every springtime bloom. <BR> No thought shall enter this abode that has a hint of pain <BR> And every malice and distrust shal;l never therein reign. <BR> I've shut the door on yesterday and thrown the key away. <BR> Tommorrow holds no doubt for me since I ha... Sun, 13 Sep 2009 15:44:06 EST HELP! Alcohol in the house! I'm going to avoid the long story, but I had to move in with my parents. For a few years now they have kept alcohol out of the house altogether. <BR> <BR> But recently they decided that they wanted to start making pitchers of margaritas. That isn't that big of a deal, I dislike margaritas & tequila. However my dad has also decided he wants to have a bottle of whiskey, too. I asked them to please move this stuff to a place out of site & unknown to me, but they haven't bothered. I told them I ... Mon, 7 Sep 2009 14:38:42 EST QUESTION FOR WEEKEND DISCUSSION ... or longer The topic at our meeting today turned into a lovely discussion: "Why do you keep coming to A.A.?" <BR> <BR> Have at it, gang! Sat, 29 Aug 2009 14:30:18 EST giving up diet coke anyone want to join me? I'm convinced that my diet coke addiction is at least partly responsible for the later day sugar bingeing. I have one left.....I'll drink it tomorrow then I'm done. Anyone want to join me in my temporary misery and/or give me a pep talk when I want to rationalize having one? let me know....I'll quit tomorrow - HA! <BR> <BR> Mary Thu, 27 Aug 2009 17:15:30 EST TODAY'S WORD: SOBRIETY I get a "word a day" in my email. This was today's. <BR> So --- after reading this --- what's your definition of SOBRIETY? <BR> ************************************ <BR> • sobriety • <BR> <BR> Part of Speech: Noun, mass (no plural) <BR> <BR> Meaning: 1. The state of being sober, not under the influence of alcohol or drugs. 2. Seriousness absent all excess, exaggeration, or frivolity. <BR> <BR> Notes: Today's Good Word and the adjective it was derived from, sober, are clearly importan... Thu, 27 Aug 2009 09:41:15 EST Daily Reflection I thought I would post the AA Daily Reflection for those who would like to read it, or read it again. <BR> <BR> Daily Reflections <BR> <BR> GIVING IT AWAY <BR> <BR> Though they knew they must help other alcoholics if they would remain sober, that motive became seconary. It was transcended by the happiness they found in giving themselves to others. <BR> Alcoholics Anonymous, p.159 <BR> <BR> Those words, for me, refer to a transference of power, through which God, as I understand Him, enter... Wed, 26 Aug 2009 10:00:33 EST frustrated to start again.... I can't seem to keep it consistant. Weight and smoking seem to be holding on. I "start over" every day it seems and its not working. I've been sober for almost 5 years and i had great success with smoking and getting fit at first, but now I'm struggling... i keep going back and my lifestyle is not changing. <BR> <BR> Maybe i need to work the program more.... i'm just annoyed at continuing to fail. <BR> <BR> So much of my life is amazing right now and yet, this brings me down. Sounds like a... Mon, 24 Aug 2009 22:01:37 EST Early recovery eating! Well, after celebrating 5 years in November, I relapsed. It has been hard, but I quickly got back in the program. I will have 60 days again next week. Because of all the emotions and feelings, I have again turned to eating. I know eating is better than drinking or using, but for me, this starts a cycle of things. Eating means gaining weight, which means depression, and so on and so forth. I would appreciate any suggestions anyone has. I know my priority is to stay sober, but would just... Sun, 23 Aug 2009 22:39:22 EST Grateful to be here! Hi! I joined sparkpeople a while ago, and I didn't know that there was an AA team! I even joined the OA team, but it seems to be pretty inactive. I got sober in march of this year, and I go to meetings everyday, and I guess I feel petty bringing up the food issue there, but it's really bothering me! I find myself replacing alcohol with food and it's the same insanity - I find myself bingeing without even being hungry, or not even caring what I'm bingeing on as long as I'm eating! I will be so... Thu, 20 Aug 2009 22:56:10 EST New Here Today Hello Everyone...You know, I joined another forum the other day...another one which is very pertinent to my life right now...and even just posting, then receiving the wonderful upbeat replies just makes so much difference! <BR> <BR> I have been sober...this time...for just over a month. I am one who keeps falling. However, I am a big walker, swimmer and into good, healthy food...and I am always so positive and content when I'm doing these things. <BR> <BR> And writing...I love to write and ... Tue, 18 Aug 2009 14:29:40 EST Soberfest Tomorrow is Soberfest! Join is at Verdugo Park, Glendale, California USA at 9am Sunday, August 16, 2009. Lots of sober people, annual softball game between Shakers Fellowship and the Windsor Club, great food, crafts and games for the kids, and I'm bringing water balloons (another annual tradition). <BR> <em>236</em> <em>191</em> <em>300</em> <em>67</em> <em>30</em> Sat, 15 Aug 2009 09:59:29 EST YPAA! The Pennsylvania State Conference for Young People in A.A. (PENNSCYPAA) will be held this weekend July 31-August 2nd in Pittsburgh!! Actually it is in Moon Township at the Holiday Inn...COme one, come all if you are in town!! Wed, 29 Jul 2009 15:45:06 EST Apple Cider Vinegar OK so maybe this is a stupid question but it came after a very old school and very opinionated member of my local chapter nearly fell over in shock that I take Apple Cider Vinegar in liquid form occasionally to calm an upset stomach at the recommendation of my naturalist. I checked prior to buying it to be sure that it is pure and contains no alcohol in the ingredients. Just pure ACV. I am aware that it takes alcohol form during the fermenting process but then is turned into vinegar. So what'... Wed, 29 Jul 2009 09:40:13 EST THE THIRD STEP A friend asked me today about my own experience with the third step. I thought a thread on this topic might be useful. So please share your experience strength and hope or any questions you might on this topic. <BR> <BR> My own journey with Step 3 started something like this. <BR> <BR> I believe that my Higher Power wants only the best for me. <BR> <BR> So first I believed He wanted me to stay sober and therefore do whatever is necessary to stay that way, whether I felt like doing it or ... Thu, 16 Jul 2009 02:07:43 EST Changed my username I'm no longer CASEMOM, now I'm KISSODAAT. I like it better, and since it is all about me, lol... <em>211</em> Thu, 9 Jul 2009 09:49:22 EST Just joined this team I'm Casey, 49, sober since 11/04. I lost over 30 lbs. on Weight Watchers several years ago, and am now trying to lose 5-10 more, lower my cholesterol and stay healthy. I like SparkPeople so far (been here since April), although I haven't really joined in much. I'm thrilled to find other Friends of Bill W. here! Thu, 2 Jul 2009 20:55:23 EST New Member Hi everyone!! <BR> I am new to this team and posted earlier. <BR> A little about myself: <BR> I am 49 years old, female, 3 kids 5 grandkids <BR> I am married 22 years and my husband is in NA and SA <BR> I live in daytona beach florida <BR> I work at a JC Penney at the mall in daytona <BR> I am seven years sober. My sobriety date is May 02 2002 <BR> My bellybutton day is Feb 26 1960 <BR> My home group is Steps for Life, a 12x12 meeting for women in port orange florida, just south of daytona <B... Sun, 28 Jun 2009 17:51:20 EST new member Just wanted to introduce myself. <BR> I am so glad that there is a sparkteam for me!! <BR> I am 7 years sober and live just south of daytona beach florida. My home group is Steps for Life, an open women's step group in Port Orange Florida. <BR> Thank you for being here!!!! Sun, 28 Jun 2009 11:26:17 EST Happy New Year!! This is my New Year's Eve. Tomorrow is my sobriety birthday -- 6/28/2005 is the date. I like looking at it this way. I review the past year and think about how I can make the next year even better. I have so many options I didn't have four years ago. I've got a program. I have love in my life. I have hope! Plus I have this Team! Thanks for letting me share. <BR> <BR> Oh, yeah. My name is Aurlie and I'm an alcoholic. Sat, 27 Jun 2009 21:57:47 EST QUOTE OF THE DAY <BR> This quotation was posted on another team I belong to, and I hope that some of you may find as much comfort in it as I do. <BR> <BR> ************************** <BR> <BR> You are accepted!...accepted by that which is greater than you and the name of which you do not know. Do not ask the name now, perhaps you will know it later. Do not try to do anything, perhaps later you will do much. Do not seek for anything, do not perform anything, do not intend anything. Simply accept the fact tha... Sun, 21 Jun 2009 10:54:35 EST Coffee with a returnee to the program I really hope this post makes sense. <BR> <BR> Today, I had coffee with a returnee to the program. We went to college together, but didn't hang out at all. I ran in one circle and he ran in another. However, a few months back I ran into him at a meeting. At first, I didn't recognize who he was, but he remembered me. <BR> <BR> We didn't see each other again until a few days ago where we decided to have coffee today. He was afraid to talk so I shared my story and he opened up more. I felt l... Tue, 9 Jun 2009 00:17:13 EST COMPLETE THE PHRASE ... I thought I'd see if anyone would like to join me in another way to learn. It works like this: <BR> Start a phrase or sentence or slogan from any AA literature and the next person finishes it. They then will start one of their own and so on ... This may lead some of us to parts of the Big Book, 12X12, or other such books that we haven't seen or have forgotten about. <BR> If no one can complete your phrase after a day or two, feel free to drop in hints. I'll start. <BR> <BR> "Well, tha... Sun, 7 Jun 2009 12:36:43 EST 3 Beautiful Words.... ......... ~I AM Sober~ Tue, 2 Jun 2009 21:48:07 EST Logging In Points TODAY <em>38</em> <BR> ````````````````````````````````````````<BR>```````````1` Tue, 2 Jun 2009 11:47:19 EST Emotional Sobriety Perhaps for those that aren't beginners but still humbly seek :). We'll see what everyone thinks. Maybe I should go to work :). Tue, 2 Jun 2009 07:00:00 EST Beginner Topics Just thought I'd try something new this morning. Let's see what the response is. The only way to reorganize our topics is to add new ones so I thought it might be a nice idea to have some suggestions for newcomers. Maybe a first step? Maybe living sober ideas? Maybe something that stays put? Maybe not? What do you think? Tue, 2 Jun 2009 06:58:49 EST Daily Giggle A NEW ONE FOR TODAY: <BR> <BR> The policeman had the bar under surveillance a few minutes before closing time, so he could see who comes out drunk. <BR> <BR> The first one out the door at 2:00 o'clock weaved down the sidewalk, then fell on the curb. Sluggishly got up, then tried his keys in five cars before finding his own car. <BR> <BR> Once inside his car, he fumbled with his keys for 2 or 3 minutes. <BR> <BR> Meanwhile, all the club patrons had gotten into their cars and driven awa... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 06:52:01 EST Log in SparkPoints I moved the points down to Outside Issues. Cyndy can you get it started again in it's new locale? <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Tue, 2 Jun 2009 06:48:21 EST Topic of the Week Week 5/31 - 6/7: Serenity <BR> <BR> Let's change it up. Since we all chime in on different days and schedules...let's keep a topic going for a week. Serenity started a few days ago so let's keep it going. Have a wonderful serene week everyone . <BR> Mary L <BR> <BR> I moved this topic up to the discussion forum and moved the points thread to the outside issues forum. A geographical <em>211</em> Tue, 2 Jun 2009 06:42:55 EST TOPIC OF THE WEEK Week 5/31 - 6/7: Serenity <BR> <BR> Let's change it up. Since we all chime in on different days and schedules...let's keep a topic going for a week. Serenity started a few days ago so let's keep it going. Have a wonderful serene week everyone <em>135</em> . <BR> Mary L <BR> <BR> Tue, 2 Jun 2009 06:26:46 EST Total points? 5130 Wed, 27 May 2009 22:58:46 EST Topic of the Day How has a sense of humor in AA helped your sobriety? <BR> <BR> Learning to laugh at myself has been a huge piece of my accepting myself. How about you? <BR> <BR> Mary L Wed, 27 May 2009 06:45:21 EST Motivation I just wanted to say that after reading many, many,....many stories, I am so motivated. I want to be able to motivate people too. I want to motivate them to loss weight and I want to motivate sobriety. Well, how do I do this? First of all I have to get over this side of the fence to the other side where people are fit and healthy, inside and out. So here's my pledge, I will become a motivator by the end of the year. Who's with me? <em>84</em> Wed, 20 May 2009 18:59:33 EST Logging In Points Today <em>405</em> <BR> ........... <em>405</em> <BR> ...................... <em>405</em> <BR> ................................. <em>405</em> ~~~"4". Sun, 17 May 2009 00:19:19 EST DAILY GIGGLE AMAZINGLY SIMPLE HOME REMEDIES <BR> <BR> 1. Avoid cutting yourself when slicing vegetables by getting someone else to hold them while you chop. <BR> <BR> 2. Avoid arguments with the Mrs. about lifting the toilet seat by using the sink. <BR> <BR> 3. For high blood pressure sufferers: simply cut yourself and bleed for a few minutes, thus reducing the pressure in your veins. Remember to use a timer. <BR> <BR> 4. A mouse trap, placed on top of your alarm clock... Wed, 13 May 2009 23:56:43 EST Just broke up Hi I thought I'd try this again. I just recently broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years. He lied to me about a girl he was emailing, told me I was crazy and then I busted him in a lie about emailing her again! I havve been sober for 11 months tomarrow Yeah! I am looking to better my self image by losing about 15 pounds and staying sober while dealing with the loss of my boyfriend. right now I hate men and have no faith in them. I have 2 sons and feel I have let them down again because they too... Sun, 10 May 2009 23:35:18 EST CHEER UP This link has a great message for anyone feeling a little down and/or unloved. It takes a while to load, be patient and enjoy ... then pass it on to someone you love. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I LOVE ALL OF YOU <BR> AND THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT! Sat, 9 May 2009 09:51:14 EST Founder's Day Weekend There is an unwritten meeting at Founder's Day Weekend every year - on line groups meet at the fountain in the middle of the University Campus at noon on Saturday. It is my anniversary so I am asking all my on line groups if you are going to be in Akron that is where you can find me. <BR> <BR> If you are planning on going to Founder's Day and want to meet up send me sparkmail and I will give you my cell number. Wed, 29 Apr 2009 17:00:54 EST Scared to stop I drink all the time, especially since I lost my job. I'm scared to stop. Scared to go to a meeting. Scared and it hurts. Mon, 6 Apr 2009 14:24:16 EST Best AA meeting discussions for the month Hello, I need to go to a meeting. I am running short this month. I am fixing to leave for a speaker meeting in a few minutes. <BR> What has been some of your best discussion meetings for this month? Tue, 31 Mar 2009 14:11:10 EST Addicted to the Scales I am addicted to stepping on the scales, and I wonder what people think about frequent weighings: helpful or harmful? For me, I don't just get on the scale every morning, but 3-4 times a day and when I go to bed. I seem to have a hard time not knowing. Control? Suggestions how to break this? It is sort of motivating, but feels too obsessive somehow. Help! <BR> <BR> Dawn <em>303</em> <em>304</em> Tue, 31 Mar 2009 12:03:29 EST Cold Meds This might be odd sounding but I'm curious if anyone has had a similar experience. Last week I had a terrible terrible cold and flu and was in bed for 4 days straight. I had my BF grab me some drug store cold meds. Well in the last three days without them (feeling substantially better now)I feel hung over. Or very similar. It's been so long I barely remember but I do remember the jittering, headache, thirsty, tired "out of it" feeling. And I have that! <BR> <BR> It's horrible!!! Has anyone ... Mon, 30 Mar 2009 11:17:59 EST International Convention 2010 INTERNATIONAL CONVENTION OF ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS <BR> The 2010 International Convention of Alcoholics Anonymous will be held July 1-4 in San Antonio, Texas with the theme “A Vision for You.” A.A. members and guests from around the world will celebrate A.A.’s 75th year at this event with big meetings held Friday night, Saturday night and Sunday morning in the Alamodome. Other meetings, scheduled or informal, will take place throughout the weekend in the San Antonio Convention Center and... Wed, 25 Mar 2009 06:00:27 EST Question about AA meetings Can someone help me figure out what sort of AA meeting I should attend? I have been sober since 2006, but am currently trying to get disability. My attorney told me I have to go to AA meetings or the judge will likely refuse my disability request. <BR> <BR> I've done so well without meetings, I'm a bit of a loner & not much for group things. The "open" & "closed" concept confuses me, plus I don't want to attend a meeting where there might be smoking. But it seems like a meeting held in a chu... Mon, 23 Mar 2009 01:16:31 EST Funny Things Happy St. Patrick's Day to all: <BR> <BR> Subject: FW: Don't Mess With The Irish <BR> <BR> An Irish priest was transferred to Texas. Father O'Malley rose from his&#8232;&#8232;bed one morning. It was a fine spring day in his new Texas mission&#8232;&#8232;parish. He walked to the window of his bedroom to get a deep breath of&#8232;&#8232;the beautiful day outside. He then noticed there was a jackass lying&#8232;&#8232;dead in the middle of his front lawn. He promptly called the police&... Tue, 17 Mar 2009 07:34:11 EST Retreat I go to an AA retreat a couple times each year. Going to Blackstone next month (in Va) - apparently it is the oldest AA retreat in the country (at least the organizers of Blackstone claim that fame). It will be over the 100th one they've held (they do this every Spring and Fall). Attendees tend to come largely from PA, VA, NC, TX, and Fla. There are a ton of people there with over 30 years sobriety and always a handful over 50! They always invite a few newcomers too thank God! Mary L. <BR> ... Mon, 16 Mar 2009 17:57:30 EST Worried about social event & drinking! I just admitted that I have a problem with alcohol and I want to stop drinking. The problem is, I have been drinking since I was 18! My friends all think and know I drink. I am just so used to doing it. I am going to a wedding and reception on March 14th and I just have this feeling that I will have an overwhelming desire to drink while I am there. How do you handle this? I am socially anxious and shy and I think drinking helps me with this. I just am very worried about it. <BR> Any ad... Tue, 10 Mar 2009 01:23:46 EST Poem for everyone I wrote a poem for someone in my group to help them not think about their past as much. Hope you enjoy it!: <BR> <BR> The Moth <BR> <BR> <BR> I slept during the day and flew around at night <BR> Hidden in the shadows during my flight <BR> <BR> Then one night I noticed a light glowing <BR> It called to me softly and I felt myself going <BR> <BR> In front of the light is where I felt safe <BR> It’s warmth going all over my face <BR> <BR> I started to need it more and more <BR> To fill a ... Wed, 4 Mar 2009 21:22:37 EST Just now contemplating quitting As I've gotten more serious about my fitness journey, my eating, my daughter's health problems and my desire to live a healthier longer life than my newly deceased mom, I have to admit the alcohol is a big problem. It is also holding back my weight loss, which is a shame because I do put my work in with both eating and working out. I do low carb and know that alcohol is burned before fat, I do drink hard liquor, gave up beer long ago. But the reality is, I can't go a day without, and that'... Mon, 2 Mar 2009 00:19:46 EST relaped again hi. i relapsed again. can't seem to stay sober. could really use some support. thanks. Wed, 25 Feb 2009 14:01:01 EST Dont Know How To Stop i am drinking everyday-not a lot-just some gulps of scotch and some wine-i generally do not get drunk-i just like the taste of alcohol...well yesterday i went out and bought a pint of vodak and drank it with scotch and then i took seven klonopin pills....needless to say i felt terrible, couldnt remember anything about last nite and woke up with such a headache....i just cant stop no matter how hard i try...i have been to AA meetings but then i come home and drink...i dont know what to do at t... Sat, 21 Feb 2009 17:23:04 EST Weight Loss/Mgt in Recovery Morning all, <BR> <BR> Since the conventions thread has had very few visitations, I decided to move the forum to a topic and change the forum to "outside issues". Unique perhaps to our group (although we are terminally unique ), is that the priority is clearly sobriety, not weight loss. First things first keeps us alive in my humble opinion. That said, many of us may certainly welcome a place to freely talk about weight loss/management from the perspective of one who puts sobriety first. ... Tue, 10 Feb 2009 10:28:42 EST Conventions Morning all, <BR> <BR> Since the conventions thread has had very few visitations, I decided to move the forum to a topic and change the forum to "outside issues". Unique perhaps to our group (although we are terminally unique <em>41</em> ), is that the priority is clearly sobriety, not weight loss. First things first keeps us alive in my humble opinion. That said, many of us may certainly welcome a place to freely talk about weight loss/management from the perspective of one who puts sobrie... Tue, 10 Feb 2009 10:27:54 EST Hello Hello, my name is Denise B and I have been in recovery for a little over eight years. Since becoming clean and sober I have put on about 20 pounds. I eat sugar/choc/etc a lot since I a came into recovery. I went to O/A for a few years, but I couldn't seem to work that program as I can with the alcohol or drug program. It is very frustrating. I fought to get and stay clean and sober. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but when it comes to eat healthier, I don't want to "g... Thu, 5 Feb 2009 16:59:46 EST Daily Goals Today's Goals <BR> <BR> Stay sober <BR> be positive <BR> read my recovery books <BR> see the blessings I've been given <BR> talk to another in recovery <BR> Stay on my food plan <BR> write in my food journal <BR> drink my water <BR> use the stairs <BR> move for 10 minutes <BR> send an email <BR> smile <BR> <BR> next............ Tue, 3 Feb 2009 06:53:28 EST ADS WE WISH WE COULD SEE Carnation milk - 65 YEARS AGO .. <BR> <BR> A little old lady from Wisconsin had worked in and around her family dairy farms since she was old enough to walk, with hours of hard work and little compensation. When canned Carnation Milk became available in grocery stores in approximately the 1940s, she read an advertisement offering $5,000 for the best slogan. <BR> <BR> The producers wanted a rhyme beginning with 'Carnation Milk is best of all.' <BR> <BR> She thought to herself, I know all ab... Sun, 1 Feb 2009 14:40:56 EST The Promises-Have They Come True For You? I heard the Promises introduced at last night's meeting as AA's written guarantee. The key words for me are "if you work for them". I know that for me, if I stop working at the program, not so many of the promises come true in my day. If I am having a good day in my AA work, most of them seem to be working in my life. <BR> <BR> If you want to read them, they are on page 83-84 of the 4th edition of The Big Book. Wed, 21 Jan 2009 07:19:13 EST Do I belong?- relapse and cross addiction I deleted my original post because I am kinda paranoid about things being out on the internet. :) Sun, 18 Jan 2009 19:38:46 EST GREAT MEEETING THIS MORN The topic was gratitude --- and I was feeling VERY GRATEFUL this morning. (ain't it nice to wake up positive instead of negative?!?!) <BR> <BR> One of the last people who shared had this to say "I feel so good and so grateful, I can hardly believe it's me". <BR> <BR> That pretty much sums it up. You don't get HERE from where I was...but HERE I am anyway. I hardly believe it, but it's true. <BR> <BR> Enjoy the journey today. Sat, 17 Jan 2009 13:51:08 EST New Day - New Start Today I start again with my eating program. I started fresh last Sunday and did great until I traveled to my in-laws this weekend...I forgot or ignored everything I was supposed to be doing and indulged in my favorite binge food - potato chips - all weekend! I try to remember to use my AA program to help with my eating but the food seems to win more days than not. I have read the OA literature and try to get all I can from it. <BR> <BR> Do any of you have special tips you use when dealing... Sun, 4 Jan 2009 13:16:11 EST Resolutions Morning all, <BR> <BR> I have a few. I bet some of yours are the same. Sobriety is the only one that really matters. Happy New Year everyone. Mary L. <BR> <BR> 1. Try NOT to be in charge <BR> 2. Take my spiritual growth 1 day at a time <BR> 3. Try to be present with others - not wallow in my own muck <BR> 4. Journal my calorie intake <BR> 5. Drink fewer diet sodas <BR> 6. Exercise in some form 30 minutes every day <BR> 7. Meditate 3- 10 minutes everyday Thu, 1 Jan 2009 06:56:54 EST Hello from Texas Hello everyone. My name is Chris and I am a grateful recovering alcoholic from Amarillo, TX, my DOS is 9/24/2004. This is my 2nd time on SparksPeople and remember I really loved being here but got very distracted when I didn't meet my goals. Now I know that my alcoholism left me with some health issues I have somewhat dealt with and know my limitations so maybe i won't be as likely to fail this time! <BR> <BR> I look forward to being part of your team and getting to know some of you! Tue, 30 Dec 2008 17:20:35 EST convention 2009 <BR> <BR> <BR> 33rd Rhode Island Convention <BR> Beyond Our Dreams <BR> <BR> March 20-22, 2009 <BR> <BR> Sat, 27 Dec 2008 20:57:19 EST 16th Anniversary Dec 27th marks 16 years without a drink. I've posted a portion of my annual inventory as a blog. It's a bit long...but...hey it's only once a year! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=1624964 </link> Fri, 26 Dec 2008 17:35:43 EST A letter I keep to remind me I didn't write this but I found it on the internet and it gave me chills. I don't want to forget how powerful this disease is. I wanted to share: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Hello, Old Friend: <BR> <BR> I've come to visit you again. I live to see you suffer mentally, physically, spiritually, and socially. I want to make you restless so you can never relax. I want you to be jumpy and nervous and anxious. I want to make you agitated and irritable so that you can't think clearly or positively. I wan... Tue, 23 Dec 2008 14:09:01 EST GIGGLE FOR THE DAY <BR> "I just can't find the cause for your illness," said the internist at the clinic. "Frankly, I think it's due to drinking." <BR> <BR> "That's OK, Doc. I understand," said the student. "I'll come back when you're sober." <BR> <BR> <BR> Sat, 20 Dec 2008 17:38:37 EST YOUR MOOD TODAY.....USING EMOTICONS <em>233</em> ..... <em>102</em> ..... <em>118</em> <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> <em>113</em> <BR> <em>246</em> ........................................! Thu, 18 Dec 2008 01:01:58 EST Topic Time Morning friends: <BR> <BR> I thought getting through the holiday would be a great topic this week. I vividly remember planning to have the whole family for thanksgiving 2 weeks sober (wine and all). I brought up the topic at a women's meeting. Although usually folks limit their talk to experience, strength, and hope....they all strongly suggested I NOT DO THAT. I took their advice. I called the attendees, told them I was a newly sober alcoholic and that we would have a sober thanksgiving at ... Sun, 23 Nov 2008 09:17:22 EST When you were like me Do you remember only having a few days sobriety under your heart and how you felt? Was any of it like this? <BR> My feelings: <BR> *slight headaches <BR> *my heart is being squeezed and aches <BR> *tears are always on the verge of coming out into a river <BR> *fear has gripped my soul <BR> *my brain is spinning with a million questions <BR> *hard time sleeping <BR> *feel desperate to constantly be reading BB, online, or at a meeting <BR> *resentful at feeling like I'm expected to fail :( <BR>... Tue, 18 Nov 2008 09:59:52 EST Do You Cook with Alcohol? The thread of accidentally taking a drink made me think of something that is often discussed among my AA friends. Do you cook with wine, etc? As far as hubby and I go, we do. As long as it is well cooked. We have both been sober for a while and have no triggers around alcohol. I love gourmet cooking and so many recipes call for wine. I don't keep it in the house, but can usually hit up a non-AA friend for a cup or two. A great substitute for wine, beer, etc in recipes is substituting v... Fri, 14 Nov 2008 15:34:47 EST HELP PLEASE! Has this ever happened to you? I've been recovering for 18months and last night after dodgeball me and my team went for the usual wings and, for my teammates, beers. I ordered my usual Cranberry Juice and Soda Water, the waitress even repeated it back. When it came to the table I took one sip and realized it had vodka in it. I remained calm and didn't want to make a big scene. At first I wasn't even sure about it but I didn't want to take the chance so I just told my BF (who is a social drinker) and gave it to him and aske... Thu, 13 Nov 2008 16:50:32 EST THOUGHT FOR THE DAY THIS IS WHAT I WOKE UP TO TODAY ON MY COMPUTER <BR> <BR> Alcoholism is deadly, ugly, and tough. It is also cunning, baffling and powerful. <BR> It wants me to consider perfection attainable. <BR> It wants me to regard only myself, others being merely what reflects my recovery back to me. <BR> It wants me to try to fix myself with the right therapist or the right religion. <BR> It wants me to believe that self-indulgence is fine, <BR> as long as I call it self-forgiveness. . . <BR> It wants ... Wed, 5 Nov 2008 13:08:03 EST What did you gain from a meeting today? I go to many meetings and always gain something that applies to living life sober and/or just life on life's terms. Although, there are times I just don't get it right away. In early sobriety I called these meetings duds - but over time I learned that these are the meetings that teach me the most - Humility. <BR> <BR> I left a meeting last night wondering "what was that all about?", I woke up this morning feeling grateful that I am sober and have a life to live. Sat, 1 Nov 2008 12:22:05 EST Just found you all Hi all; <BR> I've been with SP for a few weeks and a friend just told me about this team. I am very grateful to have another group of folks who understand my challenges with living life on life's terms and the importance of positive change - in all our affairs. Wed, 29 Oct 2008 18:14:07 EST NEW MEMBERS HOWDY EVERYBODY - <BR> Today is another day in paradise, I woke up on the right side of the lawn! <BR> <BR> Welcome to all the new members. Sometimes the link to the introduction page doesn't work, or maybe it's my foggy brain that doesn't work. Either way, I want to make sure that y'all feel welcome and safe here. We share experience, strength, and hope with any and all who need it. <BR> Have a wonderful day, unless you've made other plans. Mon, 27 Oct 2008 09:54:14 EST Looking for help I could not figure out what else to do so I joined this group. I am not recovering, but realize that my behavior needs recovery. I drink as often as possible. I hate life and myself. <BR> <BR> Not enough to hurt myself just enough to keep drinking. <BR> <BR> My husband thinks I can quit by just saying no..... <BR> <BR> My friends (few as they are) think there is nothing wrong... <BR> <BR> I have been a member of spark people for a number of years and have no true friends. <BR> <BR... Tue, 14 Oct 2008 22:44:06 EST can anyone relate ? suggestions ? needing a lil help with depression of a sort... ? <BR> Message: Its like I have a clock .. Inside me with a faulty wind up mechanism.. <BR> And everyday you have tap it or bang on it.. And it will start ticking again .. And some days you wind and wind it... And nothing happens.. And you tap and tap on it hoping you will hear the <BR> Tick tick of the clock.. Meaning the day will now proceed... And tick on .. But on days like today .. I have yet to get the clock to tick at all.. <BR> I won... Mon, 6 Oct 2008 12:11:32 EST New to SP and AA Hello Everyone <BR> My name is Darla R. I am 5mo sober and am on step 9. I went into AA on my own and go to 4 or so meetings per wk. I am so grateful for AA and the changes in my life. Then I went to the doctor and she said I am obese. I really believe I am working on enough right now with my sobriety but I eat healthy food just not enough times per day so I am here to work on healthy right now. I have flushed out 10lbs by drinking so much water but I am not willing to mess with my sobriety t... Thu, 2 Oct 2008 21:51:25 EST Hello hi i know i havent been around in a while...but i finally got a sponsor!!! Thu, 25 Sep 2008 19:40:35 EST It's my Re-Birthday! Today was the 20th anniversary of my sobriety. I'd forgotten until my friend who shares the day stopped by and showed me his new medallion. I've gotten here by the grace of God. Tue, 19 Aug 2008 00:17:24 EST Very new here Hi everyone, I'm new to SP, but am so glad I found this community. I had gastric bypass two and half years ago and since then have traded one addiction for another. Been in the program off and on for almost a year and have gained 20 pounds and am definitely using food as a crutch. Trying to get past my 30 day mark and then really focus on getting health overall. Taking it one day at a time. Sooooo happy to be here! <em>213</em> Wed, 13 Aug 2008 10:15:21 EST The Mysteries of Sponsorship I've been a sponsee (maybe not a good one, but at least a sober one) and now someone has asked me to be her sponsor. I'd love to hear everyone's thoughts on the issue of sponsorship. The concept seems simple (however, sketchy) in the Big Book. I've been told that the sponsor/sponsee relationship is very different in different parts of the country. <BR> <BR> My first sponsor fired me on Christmas Eve when I was almost 6-months sober because I was "too pessimistic." I still wonder if she thoug... Tue, 12 Aug 2008 16:50:53 EST First Day in this group Hi. My name is Steph. I've been w/ SParkpeople for 2 years. I just found this group and thought I'd try it out. <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Mon, 4 Aug 2008 16:38:46 EST Travelin' Hey there, <BR> <BR> I'm headed to Ventura CA and Portland OR next month and was gonna hit some meetings... <BR> <BR> Anyone in the area? <BR> <BR> Sat, 19 Jul 2008 10:53:08 EST Newbie here Hello all, <BR> I am a newbie to sparks and am glad I found this team! I have 3 children and will be 34yo this year. I take it day by day and lean on my Father in Heaven, but would love the support I feel this group will be able to give me. Fri, 4 Jul 2008 10:33:40 EST My District's Webpage I'm sending y'all the link to my District's webpage (Area 1, District 8). I'd like to see websites from your areas/districts if they have one. Let me know what you think. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Kathleen A. Tue, 1 Jul 2008 16:23:27 EST Alcohol is a food group - isn't it? OK, so if you want to see the beginning of this conversation, go over to "Hi, under the Introduce Yourself to the Team" <BR> <BR> Fri, 27 Jun 2008 12:13:53 EST Glad I'm here - Kathleen A., Montgomery AL Hi y'all, my name's Kathleen, and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic. I'm a member of the best home group in the world, the Chisholm Group of Alcoholics Anonymous, Montgomery AL. My SD is 8/15/95 only by the grace of God, the program of AA, and people like yourselves who told me to keep coming back, it gets better--and it has. Since I quit drinking, I discovered food (especially sweets) and have gained way too much weight (100 lbs.). So I'm trying to do this diet deal like I have to do t... Thu, 26 Jun 2008 15:45:08 EST Hi Hi, <BR> <BR> I am glad there is this group on the spark team page. I have just recently started tracking my calories and realize that drinking two or more beers a day does not help contribute to my weight loss, but has, over the past five years definitely contributed to the weight gain. I have a really hard time giving it up though and it has gotten me into some trouble with my kids, so it would probably just be better to just quit. I understand WANNABEE's plight in an earlier email. Go... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 21:14:05 EST day one i made it thru my first day wihout any alcohol!!! <em>9</em> working on my 2nd. going to meetings..... Thu, 12 Jun 2008 11:59:45 EST cravings i am trying to get thru my first day without alcohol...boy is it tough...i have so many awful cravings-i am eating candy, i went out shopping, doing housework, anything to stay busy...but i never realized it would be this hard... <em>39</em> Wed, 11 Jun 2008 15:17:04 EST Serotonin and resentment Check this article out! <link><BR>news_detail.asp?health_day=616234 </link> . Here's a pertinent quote: "In other words, lower serotonin levels also meant a higher level of resentment..." Thu, 5 Jun 2008 15:58:24 EST Paul from Texas I am an alcoholic and addict. <BR> <BR> My sobriety date is June25,2006 and I owe it all to my Higher power and the wonderful friends I have made in the fellowship. <BR> <BR> As I approach my 2nd year of sobriety, I have started going to the doctor and trying to get a handle on my health. I am a smoker, about 25 lbs overweight, and my cholesterol and trigycerides are off the charts. <BR> <BR> It is good to find some fellow AA's to go on this journey with. <BR> <BR> Paul Tue, 3 Jun 2008 11:33:21 EST Wii Fit Just got a wii fit. What fun! May actually be a fairly useful tool for keeping our house on track too. We'll see but it is lots of fun and tracks BMI and improvement as frequently as you use it. So far...3/3 days :). <BR> <BR> Mary L Sun, 1 Jun 2008 17:58:16 EST listen my name is karen and i am an alcoholic and addict. i have an appointment with a local clinic on monday where they are going to treat me for substance abuse among other things. i am going to listen to their advice even if it means detox, rehab or AA or ALL three. my drinking has gotten out of hand and i know i need help.... <em>230</em> Sat, 31 May 2008 15:45:34 EST Hi Hi All, I'm new to the group but not AA. What a difference sobriety makes. Several years ago I was in a dark, dark place, on the verge of losing my family, overweight, drinking every day. Today, I picked up my 4 year chip, ran 23 miles (training for a marathon in a few weeks) lost 35 pounds and have the love and support of my husband and boys. <BR> <BR> The promises are coming true each and every day! Sat, 10 May 2008 19:51:43 EST Favorite slogan? Morning Friends, <BR> <BR> It's a beautiful day here in Va. I expect it is beautiful in many of your places too. When I first came in, I thought the slogans cliche....stupid. I also thought the big book was archaic. As I became willing to let go of my overinflated ego et al - my opinions changed. Today...whenever something comes up, I often think "first things first" remembering that I am an alcoholic and I have to put sobriety first. Often is a helpful redirect away from my whims and a turn... Sun, 4 May 2008 07:28:52 EST Today's Gift from Hazelden Today's thought from Hazelden is: <BR> <BR> Where the willingness is great, the difficulties cannot be great. <BR> --Niccolo Machiavelli <BR> <BR> Acceptance may be one of the most difficult things to learn, for it means we must give up the desire to control our life and its outcome. Once we have truly received this great gift we will learn that acceptance need not take away our strength - on the contrary, we will have an inner strength we never thought possible. <BR> <BR> When we decided ... Fri, 2 May 2008 08:52:01 EST AA Daily Thought AA Thought for the Day <BR> (courtesy <BR> <BR> May 2, 2008 <BR> Utopia <BR> <BR> There is, however, a vast amount of fun about it all. <BR> I suppose some would be shocked at our seeming worldliness and levity. <BR> But just underneath there is deadly earnestness. <BR> Faith has to work twenty-four hours a day in and through us, or we perish. <BR> Most of us feel we need look no further for Utopia. <BR> We have it with us right here and now. <BR> Each day my friend's simple t... Fri, 2 May 2008 08:50:54 EST hehe cake time again woot! <BR> <BR> i can say its now day 60 being sober. <BR> <BR> who cares to join me with a slice of cake? <BR> <BR> take care everyone. Tue, 29 Apr 2008 07:02:30 EST Happy Birthday! I'm assuming we have a 60 day bday for barebones here in the a.m., HAPPY DAY and many more....di Mon, 28 Apr 2008 20:14:50 EST Do you have a support network? Someone asked me yesterday if I still needed a support network after being sober this long. Of course I do, I'm only sober one day (or less) at a time! <BR> <BR> My support network is my best friend, my grown daughter, and people just like you folks who I see at meetings every time I feel a little shaky. When anyone reaches out, the hand of AA is there! <BR> <BR> Who's your support? Wed, 23 Apr 2008 23:02:00 EST happiness i went one dya without drinking and am taking it one day at a time. i am going to concentrate on getting my body healthy. <em>249</em> Mon, 21 Apr 2008 09:41:53 EST good feeling good today. pinky Sun, 13 Apr 2008 10:11:31 EST realization i realized i may have overdramatized today when i said i was giving up drinking. and no i haven't had a drink today. i am taking it minute by minute and have made some phone calls and gone to a meeting. pinky Sat, 12 Apr 2008 16:34:39 EST one breath at a time today i am not going to drink i am going to take it minute by minute, one breath at a time and i know god is with me today. i know it will be a struggle but i have phone numbers and meetings. i know i can do this. karen Sat, 12 Apr 2008 08:39:08 EST Happiness in the 1st year Hi Everyone! I got this in the mail today and thought I should share it. See if you can relate. I know I can. Pam <BR> My Search for Happiness in the First Year of Sobriety <BR> <BR> <BR> DAY 1: HOUR BY HOUR <BR> <BR> Happiness in sobriety? Could this really be possible? Yes, I know I need to quit drinking if I want to continue to live. Survival during sobriety maybe, but happiness seems almost out of the question. <BR> <BR> I do feel a little ... Sat, 12 Apr 2008 07:17:12 EST screwed up well yes i was very bad. i wanted a drink and thought about the phone numbers i got last nite. i wanted to call but i wanted that scotch even more and the scotch won out. i drank and drank. i feel so guilty. i just wanted to taste the alcohol. just taste it. but you know how that goes. i realized today how addicted i am to the stuff-real bad. i tried to read, to clean, i paced back and forth, thought about calling somemone and then i drank. well i know i have got to get myself to a me... Fri, 11 Apr 2008 14:41:55 EST admitting as you know i went ot an AA meeting last nite-my first. admitting i was an alcoholic and addict was a relief-somehow it took a weight off my shoulders. it felt good. karen Fri, 11 Apr 2008 09:09:08 EST AA meeting well i went to my first AA mmeting. yes i was scared but the people were so nice. i even admitted that i drank today. i got a list of women's names to call if i feel like picking up a drink. that is good. i think i will go to a meeting tomorrow night. i need to get and stay sober. karen Thu, 10 Apr 2008 21:26:34 EST new member my name is karen and i am an alcoholic. i am not sure i am in the right place. i still currently drink but possess the desire to stop. i want to turn it over to god and have his help. i would like to go to an AA meeting but am a little scared. i really want to stop drinking. <BR> <BR> i don't drink to get drunk. i just like the taste of the alcohol and the way it feels going down my throat. does that make me an alcholic and is AA the place for me? that is why i get scared to go to a m... Thu, 10 Apr 2008 13:19:36 EST Wannabee Hi, my name's Linda and I wannabee a recovering alcoholic. Every morning I say no, no, no. I'm fine all day at work, then at 5:00 my mind turns to vodka. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I know I can leave this rotten habit behind, just need to learn new healthy habits to replace this really bad one and grow some new brain cells. Thanks for reading my post. <em>33</em> Tue, 8 Apr 2008 14:57:11 EST Any good conventions lately? I've created this forum for members to share their AA convention experiences. It can be pretty scary going to a convention for the first time -- new people, places & things BUT it can also be a wonderful experience! Mon, 31 Mar 2008 14:00:46 EST my daily reflection for today on my 30 day sober "...sometimes the good is the enermy of the best." <BR> <BR> I think these words apply to every area of three legacies:recovery, unit and service! i want them etched in my mind and life as i "trudge the road of happy destiny". these words, often spoken by co founder bill w were appropriatly said to him as the result of groups conscience. it brought home to bill w the essence of our second tradition:"our leaders are but trusted servants; they do no govern." <BR> Just as bill w. was original... Sun, 30 Mar 2008 05:36:12 EST :) cake time! well i thought i would post here in this part of forum. <BR> <BR> ITS 30 DAYS SOBER FOR ME TODAY! YEEHAA! <BR> <BR> im going to buy a cake or box of sweeties for my AA meeting tonight, as i said before even though they dont celibrate monthly sober dates. what the heck i do! <BR> <BR> so bring on the next 30 days, im a ready for kicking alcohols butt again. <BR> <BR> hope everyone is good today and take care all. xx Sun, 30 Mar 2008 05:25:08 EST 5 years old Hi, I'm new, I was at my own b-day get together when one of my sobriety sisters told me about this team. Just wanted to introduce myself. Just turned 5 years old this month; very grateful to be alive and experiencing life! <em>177</em> Here is a birthday cake for me and you all to share today. Sat, 29 Mar 2008 20:28:49 EST KEEP COMING BACK-A LITTLE BOOK. HI, AND I HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GREAT DAY! THIS MORNING, MY DH AND I WERE OUT DOING SOME ERRANDS. WE WENT OVER TO BARNES & NOBLES BOOK STORE, TO BROWSE AROUND. I FOUND THIS LITTLE BOOK CALLED-KEEP COMING BACK! IT IS CARTOONS AND SAYINGS COMPILED BY-MEIJI STEWART. HUMOR AND WISDOM FOR LIVING AND LOVING RECOVERY. A VERY COOL BOOK! I GUESS IT'S ABOUT TIME FOR ME ATTEMPT TO READ THE"BIG BOOK". I SAW IT HERE ON THE INTERNET. LOOKING AT ALL THOSE WORDS GAVE ME A LITTLE HEADACHE. I'LL TRY TONITE... Thu, 27 Mar 2008 19:27:48 EST working on steps 2 and 3 from AA if u dont know them its <BR> <BR> came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. <BR> <BR> made a decision to turn out will and our lives over to the care of god as we understodd him. <BR> <BR> im writing this because im working on finding spiritual and faith and higher being. one problem i have is that i dont beleive in god and i wouldnt call my higher power god. <BR> <BR> so this is my thinking of being able to do this step, i need to write this out to m... Tue, 25 Mar 2008 10:16:45 EST hey I just found this team :) <BR> <BR> Im a alcoholic have been for long time.I made a decission 2nd of jan this year that i would either cut down or stop.I started of trying to cut down, which didnt really work or help. So i decided 9 weeks ago to join AA. When i got there i was welcomed and it was great. I struggled to be sober and only managed to cut down my drink through the week. On 1st of march i gave up trying to control drink and finaly put the drink down. I have been sober for 18 days... Wed, 19 Mar 2008 03:37:05 EST still dry hi i am glad tgo find this team almost 3 yer (june) for me am so glad i rejoined the living after feeling dead 62 and hanging in there. Mon, 17 Mar 2008 12:06:23 EST NO MORE GREEN BEER! HI EVERYONE! WELL HERE COMES ST.PATRICKS DAY,AGAIN. I REMEMBER ON THAT HOLIDAY OF SHAMROCKS, MY HUSBAND AND I WOULD GO TO Mc-MURPHY'S, AND HAVE SOME GREEN(BUDWEISER)BEER, ALSO SOME SNACKS. THAT GREEN FOOD COLORING OF THE BEER ALWAYS LOOKED WEIRD TO ME, IN THAT BIG BOOMBAH MUG! ANYWAY, IT WAS FUN THEN. MAYBE I'LL BAKE SOME GREEN SHAMROCK COOKIES. CHATLATER CYNDY. <em>137</em> <em>213</em> Fri, 14 Mar 2008 23:27:20 EST TAX DAY-2008! HI EVERYONE, I HOPE YOU'RE ALL FEELING WELL! MY HUSBAND AND I, HAD OUR INCOME TAXES DONE TODAY! LAST YEAR HE HAD TO DO IT, I WAS A MESS THIS TIME LAST YEAR. MY MIND WAS MISSING IN ACTION. I WORKED ON GETTING THE TAXES READY, MOSTLY ON MY OWN, THIS YEAR. WE WERE IN AND OUT OF MY TAX LADY'S OFFICE, IN LESS THAN 1/2 AN HOUR! I'M GLAD I'M SOBER AND BRAIN- HEALTHY NOW. I HOPE EVERYONE DOES WELL WITH TAX TIME THIS YEAR! CHATLATER CYNDY. <em>213</em> <em>12</em> <em>67</em> Sat, 8 Mar 2008 00:01:44 EST Help - Menopause Coming Hi all, <BR> <BR> I need some wisdom from the crowd. Two days ago I had my first hot flash. Yesterday I had about 10. The heat and tingling isn't so bad - I could kind of like it if I go with the flow. It is accompanied however with this anxiety/almost panic. Anxiety and panic was a big part of my late stage drinking and early sobriety. It messed with my serenity in a massive fashion yesterday and I couldn't get a handle (despite almost constant re-surrender) on ther resentments in my brain.... Wed, 5 Mar 2008 07:18:14 EST falling off the food wagon Ugh, I've been so stressed lately that I've totally been using food to avoid everything else. I can't stop eating donuts! I know I have things to get done on a deadline but for whatever reason I can't make myself do anything until I get that donut. Its making me nuts! Advice please. Fri, 15 Feb 2008 18:28:52 EST Filling the hole What do you do to fill the hole? I used drinking, drugging, food. Now that I'm sober I am working on the steps, meditate, go to meetings, have a sponsor. I still feel that "hole". Is it just to soon?(3 months) Sun, 10 Feb 2008 10:13:30 EST weight gain after getting sober I have only been sober for 3 months....but I've gained 30lbs. OMG! If this keeps up I'm in big trouble. Any suggestions? Sun, 3 Feb 2008 08:45:25 EST AA Convention The local AA Convention is next weekend. Are you people interested in Conventions? What do you get out of them? My Sponsor and other women I know in the Program here are very enthusiastic about it, but I just would rather ignore it. <BR> <BR> I attended the Convention two years ago, within my first 8months of sobriety. I found the whole thing too much to take: crowds of strangers; crowded meeting rooms; loud, emotional reunions of long-lost friends; long lines for the restrooms; overprice... Fri, 25 Jan 2008 12:20:52 EST hi folks Another grateful recovering alcoholic here. Coming up on 7 years of sobriety, and I think only in the last year or two did I recognize the connection between my addiction and my weight. <BR> <BR> Glad to be here. :) Thu, 24 Jan 2008 20:19:50 EST I'm celebrating my sobriety this month... Please let us know when/how you plan to celebrate your days/months/years of sobriety (one day at a time) <BR> <BR> Mary Wed, 23 Jan 2008 12:17:03 EST Sobriety Dates AND Belly-Button birthdays Thanks Rhoda for starting this topic - I'm just moving it over here... <BR> <BR> BB: 4/7/58 <BR> Sobriety: 1/17/99 <BR> <BR> Mary Wed, 23 Jan 2008 12:14:55 EST AA Birthday Happy Birthday to me! Today I am celebrating 9 years of sobriety - One Day At A Time! My official celebration will be at my home group next Friday (but no cake for me...) <BR> <BR> <em>179</em> <em>244</em> <em>177</em> <BR> <BR> Mary Thu, 17 Jan 2008 16:53:13 EST Hi I've been on sparkpeople for a while, and have recently joined aa. I really want to take better care of myself in every way, diet, exercise, mental health, and support. I guess I'm just trying to get through today, and it seemed like a good idea to find some support for the other areas in my life I want to improve. Sun, 13 Jan 2008 14:53:19 EST My Christmas Hello everyone, i had a wonderful Christmas. Everyone together and happy, i got to see my granddaughter, she is 3 months old and the love of my life. How wonderful life is sober. I feel great i have lost a total of 25 pounds since her birth. How is everyone eles doing? Wed, 26 Dec 2007 12:00:17 EST Hi Hey there, <BR> <BR> I'm Angie an alcoholic, like all things I've allowed my weight to allow life to become unmanageable, and now I've finally accepted the fact that I have to do something about it. I'm applying a day at a time to this's working..though I want to keep trying to do it my way. OK...goodnight, I have to wake up at 5am for rowing tomorrow....thanks for letting me share. Wed, 5 Dec 2007 00:05:53 EST Hi, I'm Sue Hi, everyone! I'm Sue, and I'm a gratefully recovering alcoholic. My sister and I celebrated 21 years of sobriety in August. Now, after many failed attempts, I'm trying to establish a healthy way of eating. <BR> <BR> Looking forward to getting to know all of you! <BR> <BR> Sue <BR> Portland, Maine, US Mon, 3 Dec 2007 22:31:13 EST My new job Hello everyone, I didnt make a meeting tonight but thats ok, im so tired, i love my new job at the printing shop but it sure messes with my hands. This job sure has helped me, i was going insane just caring for my 96 year old mother n law and watching my husband drink himself to death. Its to hard to get along when you are around each other to much, we have been married for 14 years and i have been sober for 7. I needed something eles in my life ya know when you feel like your stuck in sobrie... Wed, 28 Nov 2007 22:47:57 EST Hi I just joined and I am introducing myself Hi all My name is Heather and I am an alcoholic plus I am very much over weight.Mother to 5 children and a grandmother to 3 grand sons.Nice to be here .Have a great day God Bless.Momma Bear(Heather Sat, 17 Nov 2007 17:44:26 EST Today was a good day I had a good day, i chair saturday afternoon meetings and we have been having a pretty good turn out lately.Im sponsering another girl and i love that spark that a newcomer has who realy wants it. Its so important to work with others and give away what was given to us.So lets take Gods hand and always be there for others, remember someone was always there for us or we wouldnt be here, God bless you, take care, Deanna <em>214</em> Sat, 10 Nov 2007 22:25:33 EST Hi Everyone-Diana, Alcoholic Hi Everyone, <BR> I was excited when I saw a support team here that was also friends and family of Bill W.! I was introduced to the program of AA back in 2001. After staying in the middle for 3 years, I decided I was well enough to try that relationship thing. I became so wrapped up in him (I also struggle with co-dependency) that I began to miss meetings, stopped calling my sponsor as often, I lost my contact with my Higher Power. He became my focus and you guessed it, I had no mental def... Fri, 9 Nov 2007 12:27:39 EST sobriety dates AND belly button birthdays How about it guys? Wed, 31 Oct 2007 13:04:57 EST