I think that you're not eating enough. You dont have a lot of weight (if any) to lose. Yes, you might have fat you want to get rid of, but don't get so caught up in the number. I know what you are feeling because I have been there. I had it in my mind for that I could eat no more than 1200 calories in order to lose weight. I thought that the higher my calorie deficit the better chance I had to lose weight. All that did for me was stress me out over every calorie eaten and calorie burned. I developed BED and severe food anxiety. I wanted to have the body of a fitness competitor, but I was terrified to eat, thinking that because I was short (5'2) I wasn't able to eat.
However, this summer I decided that if I really wanted to have the muscles and lower BF % that I truly wanted, I was going to have to SEVERELY change my ways. It took a while for me to feel comfortable with it, but I am now trying to eat 1,400-1,600 calories a day. I know that I train harder than a sedentary woman and that I need to accurately fuel my body. And guess what? I started out this summer (well, in july when I got back into being serious with working out and eating better) at 125-126 #. As of yesterday I weighed in at about 121#. Not a huge drop on the scale, however my pants are looser, I'm seeing more definition in my arms and back, and overall I feel SO MUCH HAPPIER. My workouts are stronger (I've upped my weights) and I am starting to actually run.
I know that it's tough to get past that mental block of eating more, but once you do, I think you'll notice that the urges to binge or crave things you "can't" eat slowly go away. Another thing that helped me was the website If it Fits Your Macros (www.iifym.com). There you can look at how many cals you should eat a day, along with the number of protein, carbs, and fat you should be getting based on your goals (fat loss, maintenance, or bulking). I recommend giving it a try.
I KNOW that you can do this. You know that you can do this. You just got to get out of your head about it. Eating right and working out takes a lot of sacrifice in college, but if you really want it, you'll find anyway to make it happen. Keep up the good work and you'll see progress soon!
| current weight: 121.0