I think that if you forget about the P90x, and eat according to the recommendations from SP with regard to a healthy lifestyle you will do much better in the long term. That particular diet, altho' SOME aspects aren't too bad, it starts with a very low carb and high protein intake to shred fat quickly. Exercise is what shreds fat. Certainly, for an average woman of average weight, a 1200 calorie is recommended as the bare minimum. When a person is overweight and/or active, they NEED to eat more. 800 calories is definitely WAAAAYYY too low UNLESS you are being closely monitored by a Registered Dietitian and/or a Dr who specializes in Dietetics.
How long have you been on this diet? This isn't about a quick-fix - diets don't work, partly because they often rely on quick-fixes, not addressing the long-term problems/issues.
To me it sounds like you have emotional issues which really need addressing. Your weight isn't that huge amount of overweight. I would be inclined to talk with your Dr and ask for a referral to a Therapist who deals with body image issues.
You mention that you are gaining muscle but not losing fat. How do you know that you aren't losing fat? Have you been properly checked? I suggest that you go to a Gym and ask for 9 point skin-fold caliper test, and ensure that the person doing it is qualified to do it.
Often when people start exercise they do gain some weight. Part of this is because they are gaining muscle, and that in turn means that you are carrying extra fluid to maintain it. I would strongly suggest that you DON'T fall into the trap of buying baggy clothes - they more often than not accentuate bulk. If you go to a WOMEN'S clothes store, try a variety of styles of clothes. It is amazing how with proper undergarments and styles, AND colouring for you, it can give the impression of a ton of weight having been lost! Women are notorious for wearing ill-fitting bra. Get properly fitted in that department too, by someone who is qualified, not just someone who chucks a load of bra for you to try and then try to sell you 'whatever'
Please, do NOT be tempted to starve yourself - you will do your mind AND body a lot of harm in the long-term!
Please take care,
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