Thank you for the help!
I'm mostly frustrated because whenever I lose weight, my body attacks a lot more muscle than they would for others, and I don't want to be in that cycle of bulking/cutting I see some of my peers in.
I don't want to bulk- like that isn't my goal. I'd say my goal is toning, but that assumes I have muscle to see under the fat, and well... right now I really don't. I want mostly to gain STRENGTH.... and I don't want to accept that I can't gain strength WHILE cutting the fat at the same time. Basically, I want there to be a way that I can lose the excess fat without losing any weight (which means, what I lose in fat I gain in muscle).
I'm not looking for anything quick, btw. One goal is to be able to do one pull up by the end of the year... so I've got 11 months to gain the arm strength to do that (I can get about a quarter of the way there and hang for a few seconds). I would be fine if I "lost" just a tenth of a lb of fat/gained a tenth of a lb of muscle in a week....
Does anybody know why eating at maintenance and then strength training doesn't just work? Like why you HAVE to gain weight?
To me, it's not about body fat % exactly, it's more about size... I know muscle weighs less than fat, but if I'm not losing the fat, too, it'll just be more added bulk, and even if it looks "lean" I don't WANT mega bulk. And yes, I am well aware that women don't bulk the same as men do due to different hormone concentrations, but my goal isn't mega-strength, it's just a healthy amount of muscle on a small frame...
Would it be best to get my fat mass to where I want it to be at my goal weight? For example, if I want to be 19% body fat at a weight of 53 kg, should I lose weight until my fat mass is 10 kg (independent of my full weight)? So if I could stay at say 22% body fat while I lose the weight, that'd be like 46 kg? Because that seems kind of scary-low, and there has to be a way to lose more fat than muscle, right? Perhaps I could just go down to 110 lbs and work up to 117 via muscle...
(The problem is that if I were to cut and get rid of the fat later, just due to how my body is, I would lose much more of the muscle gains than what is 'normal' so I would be in that cycle way too much-- and then if I were to eat to try to facilitate bigger gains, I'd gain more fat than I have now, so I could go from 17% to 19% body fat perhaps- I'm trying, and maybe this is just impossible- to decrease body fat % without getting bigger than my current inches-size, and then KEEP my muscle gain so I'm not going back and forth)
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| Body Fat %: 21.0