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It sounds like journaling is good for you - me, too !

I must learn to take better care of ME after taking care of
so MANY others for DECADES ....


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Hi Sweet Girl.
I'm so sad to hear how badly you are struggling.
I hope that you are enjoying your time away and have been able to find the peace you so desperately need.

We had a wonderful time away and feel rejeuvenated... but definitely not rested!

Work is tumultuous right now and I'm struggling with some major changes but trying to just keep my eyes forward and trust that things will work out.

I miss you my friend and I am praying that things will turn around - circumstances will take time to change - hopefully you're able to beat down this depression and find the joy in your life again.
love you.

"Forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to the things ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13,14

A goal only seems unreachable until you DECIDE you're going to do it!


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glad that the Sun Lakes is getting better for you. Nice that you got something in on vaca!

Just because I don't 'look' like a runner, doesn't mean that I am not one! Don't judge me...that is all:)


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Feeling a bit better about the Sun Lakes thing. I'm officially on vacation now and we leave on Sunday. I was actually off yesterday and did absolutely nothing, putting more pressure on my remaining days. Seems to be a pattern I'm used to. I'm getting out there today to start cleaning up the trailer and getting it ready to go. I also need to find a way to fit in some exercise today. It's been so hot but cooling down today. That should help.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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7/15/14 9:56 A

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Still struggling with the Sun Lakes thing and it's getting worse. I realized this morning that part of the problem may be that Judy used to go there a lot so I'm thinking of her and it's throwing me a bit. I could really try to put a positive spin on it and remember the good times. But my mind just doesn't seem to be able to go there right now. Depression is kind of like that I think. It takes great will for me to do anything. I keep thinking if I just push through, it will get better.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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7/14/14 10:49 A

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So the weekend was nice. It was great spending the time with Chris. But I'm afraid we may have a little problem with our visions of the future. Montana is absolutely beautiful and he really is in love with it. I love the rough country and the beauty of the place but I just don't see myself handling being snowbound for more than half the year in a place so far away from my family and friends and all that I've known all my life. This is all still a long way off and a lot can change in that time. But it really put a damper on the weekend as he began to see how hard it would be for me.

Add to that, when we got home, we found that we'd missed the call to set up his ride along for the job. They were supposed to call his cell phone but didn't. We would have gotten the call if they had. That was Thursday so he's going to call first thing this morning and hopefully can still get it set up. You just hate to not call back right away for something like that. So I didn't sleep much last night and am on pins and needles today waiting to hear if he's still okay. Fingers crossed!

So my mind set is not really good right now. I'm not sure I even want to go to Sun Lakes. I'm sure I'll be okay when I get there but the thought of all that packing is a bit daunting right now. Hopefully, I can wrap my mind around it. Right now, I just need to get through these next two days of work. One day at a time.

Edited by: MSBAARDO at: 7/14/2014 (10:52)
"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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7/10/14 9:39 A

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Aw Kelly. You weren't supposed to see that when you're on vacation. Sorry to be such a downer and thanks for taking time out to respond. I'm glad to hear you're having such a great time. I know what you're saying about just enjoying life. It's just that my health is so at risk right now. And I talked about my family because I find it interesting, and maybe a little sad, to hear the litany of complaints from people who appear to be in such great shape. It tells me appearances aren't everything but it is also a little discouraging.

I'm at work this morning but I'm leaving early and Chris and I are taking off for Montana. Just for a couple of days. Where he's taking me is supposed to be quite beautiful and we are planning to camp out at least one of the nights. I'm looking forward to the break and the time with my guy. In a little more than a week from now, the kids and I leave for Sun Lakes. I'm really looking forward to dropping off the grid for a bit and am hoping to recharge my batteries.

In the good news category, Chris has moved on to the next phase of his job application process and will be going on a ride along with someone who does the kind of job he's trying to get. That's a little inside information. Still waiting to hear from them when that will be. Praying for the best!

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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7/9/14 4:30 P

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Oh my darling friend...
You are STRONG.
you are INTELLIGENT.
You are CARING.
You are WISE.

I Have been hearing an awful lot about the terrible odds of losing and keeping weight of and you and. I both know that the diet industry is set up to make us fail!

I believe the bottom line (and I am trying to embrace it) is that we really need to take the focus off the losing of weight and putting it on living an active, healthy life doing the things we love. Make it a pleasure to live rather than a constant punishment. I hiked probably about 15k yesterday and saw the most magnificent waterfall... I felt so joyful and peaceful inside just being in nature and appreciating my body for what it was able to do for me. And then, for the first time in what seems like forever,I slept all night with no meds. This peace I feel is just amazing and it is stemming from appreciating my life and doing what I love,

I hope u are able to find some of the same my friend.
Love you.
Be happy.
K,

"Forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to the things ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13,14

A goal only seems unreachable until you DECIDE you're going to do it!


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7/9/14 9:31 A

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Something's eating at me. I took a look at my family, spent some time with them this weekend, listened to the things they had to say. Here's what I'm seeing and hearing.

Lois is a fitness nut and personal trainer. She has constant complaints about pain in her joints and spine. She gets steroid injections in her spine. She's had knee surgery and is limited in a lot of ways because of it. She complains about sciatica and pain in her feet. She's very fit and trim. But I don't believe she feels good.

Danny is also very fit and trim. He had a catastrophic knee injury in high school but has managed to keep in shape, running and playing basketball, skiing, snow and water, and all sorts of other things. I asked him, doesn't it hurt. His response is he just lives with the pain. He also suffers from sciatica and various back issues. And he said that in spite of being physically fit, he is likely pre-diabetic.

Mike has weight issues like me but is getting a handle on it. He too suffers from various aches and pains and is pre-diabetic. He's also had blood pressure issues but I think that's now under control. He likes working with weights and frequently pushes himself to the point of injury.

Suzanne has had a lot of issues over the years. She now says she is diabetic. She claimed pre-diabetes for a long time without a doctors confirmation so I'm not sure if she really is diabetic. I didn't want to ask. But she's struggled with trying to eat right for years and I think she has a handle on it, losing the weight very slowly. She always has aches and pains.

Judy was religious about diet and exercise. She did everything right. No gluten. No dairy. No smoking. No drinking. Regular exercise. Her diet bordered on fanatical. But pancreatic cancer took her anyway.

Tim is also very fit and trim, having been a runner all his life until recent years when it started taking it's toll. He has a heart issue and complains of numbness in his extremities. He always looks so tight although he doesn't seem to have any big complaints of pain. I do know he had knee or foot surgery last year but seems to be recovering from that. Not sure what brought it on, if it was and injury or wear and tear.

So here's my thing. I'm very overweight but otherwise feel okay. I have aches and pains, particularly in my back but no big issues. Don't get me wrong. I'm certainly not better off than any of them. But sometimes I just wonder if it's worth it. It seems like stuff's going to get me whether I try hard or not.

I think this is part of my problem and I can't seem to get my head around it. I think that I feel defeated before I can even get started. No matter what I do. Losing Judy really took the wind out of my sails and I simply do not know what to do about it.

I'm going to have to figure this out and I know I can't do it alone. WW was a waste of time and I've already quit. They do nothing to address the sorts of issue I'm facing. OA along with some counseling is probably the answer but I'm clearly not ready to face it. Otherwise, I would have gone already.

I get plenty of advice from people who I'm sure just think I'm weak. I feel like I'm weak. And I don't like it.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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7/8/14 9:58 A

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I'm feeling a bit better today and it was a beautiful morning for my walk. My crow friends were around and I think they're starting to recognize me.

Chris felt that his interview went well. The job could be pretty hard at first as he would have to pay some dues. The next step, if they take him after this one is a ride along. I guess a lot of people wash out at that stage as they see what will be expected of them. If he were to get the job, he would start out salaried, although reasonably so and he would work some long, odd hours. He could do that for up to a year, depending on when routes become available. For some it's just a few months. We could hope for that anyway. He'll do what's necessary. At least, unlike with the store, he would see an end to it. Anyway, he'll be applying in a few other places as well but so far, this one looks the most promising.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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7/7/14 11:45 A

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I look forward to your return Kelly and know you'll have a great time. I think it's really good for us to be unplugged from time to time and I'm looking forward to my own time away in a few weeks.

Chris has his first interview today and we'll know more about what to expect in the next few weeks. It's about a 3 week hiring process. He'd like to take me to the place where he was fishing last week. He's thinking ahead to our retirement and would like me to see it. So we'll find out today if a Friday off will be a problem and then I can see if I can swing it. I'm sure I can as I'm not terribly busy this week. It would mean at least one night of camping for us too. In a tent! Haven't done that in truly primitive conditions in a very long time.

We talked quite a bit last night. A lot about how I'm feeling. I'm so clearly depressed and as good as he is, he's not a mind reader. But he has known that I'm struggling about my sister and it was good to lay it all out. We talked a bit about what to do about it. I feel a little better knowing for sure that he's got my back. I guess I always did know that but it's good to hear it out loud. He really wants us to go to Sun Lakes, regardless of the expense. He knows I need it and he assures me that he will find a job. If he can swing it between hiring activities, he may even come over for a few days. I'm really starting to look forward to it. The weather is starting to get more consistently better. It'll be a nice time.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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7/6/14 9:57 P

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Sounds like an amazing day, Mary! Your mom continues to amaze me!

We are away and this will most likely be my last post until we head home as we will be camping for the rest of the trip. Yesterday we drove about 10 hrs to get to Quebec City and went on a very cool tour... "Les Promenades Fantomes" - a ghost tour... Very fun! Today we toured the old town on our own. Absolutely endless beautiful architecture and history. Unfortunately it rained all day! However, we made the best of it and hiked the city for about 6hours! LOTS of up and down hills!

Tomorrow we will set out early for the Bey of Fundy and PRAY that our campgrounds are still intact! We understand that the hurricane hit Halifax, but. We haven't heard much else.

SO, I hope you have a great couple weeks my friend. Being 'unplugged' is going to be a challenge for me! Be good to yourself and know I will be thinking of you!
Big hugs!
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"Forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to the things ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13,14

A goal only seems unreachable until you DECIDE you're going to do it!


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Great day yesterday. Watched my 85 year old mother take a ride on a jet ski for the first time in her life. I think you should always have firsts on big birthdays. She looked great!

I also rode on a tube with my daughter. We laughed and screamed all the way around the lake. It was a blast!

Awesome day! Without really trying, I did okay on the party food. But that wasn't the point of it all. It was just about fun.

Off to church!

Edited by: MSBAARDO at: 7/6/2014 (11:54)
"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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7/5/14 10:39 A

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You must be gone now Kelly! Hope you have a really great time! And I really hope you miss the nasty weather.

Off to the lake today for my Mom's birthday. Kind of sad that a few have dropped out. My brother's son is having a reaction to some medicine and doesn't think he can come. And my sister's new granddaughter was born yesterday! Very cool but they are staying in Portland to spend time with the family. All understandable and we should still have a pretty good group. Don't think I'm going to be worrying about food today but I am eating a good breakfast so I'll at least have a good start to the day.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Wow! I hope that will work out! Glad he got away though... sounds like he needed that.

I'm sorry you're having a hungry day - seems to be my every day right now... ugh.
Do your best girlfriend... do your best.

Last work day for me - better get crackin'!

"Forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to the things ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13,14

A goal only seems unreachable until you DECIDE you're going to do it!


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OMG, I'm hungry!!

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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OK, enough already! I simply have to exhibit a modicum of self control! Just for today. One day! I can do that can't I?!

On a better note, Chris already got a call from the company he applied for. Unfortunately, he's gone fishing and he's not answering any of my messages, which means he's out of cell range and likely will be for the next few days. I'm just going to have to call the woman back and hope that she'll talk to me. I can make him an appointment for next week if she'll let me. It's going to seem a little weird but I'm hoping she'll do it. Neither of us thought that anyone would call him back so quickly. Hopefully, it works out.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Yeah, I know we'll get out hiking Kelly. Chris may even go. Wouldn't that be nice?

I took an unplanned afternoon off yesterday. Chris finished up what he needed to do by noon but there were some things I needed to do for him since I'm kind of the money person. But first we went out to lunch together. Haven't been able to do that in a long time! Then he had some job openings that he's really interested in so I helped him work on the applications while I worked on the books. Still a team! Send good thoughts our way on these jobs. If he can get one of them, then we will be in much better shape financially. They are promising if he can get to the interview stage. Online applications are a great thing but they lose that personal touch you get when you go to a place and ask about openings. That's just the way it is now.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Thanks Mary! emoticon

Wow! I read your bit about the store and did a big exhale. I can only imagine the relief you must be feeling... as well as the "what comes next?" anxiousness. But I'm sure it will be a good thing!

Meghan felt the same as Colleen, having worked for Tim Hortons for 3 1/2 years. She was able to get a full time job elsewhere this summer and, although the smart thing may have been to hold on to her pt job JUST in case for the fall... she was really ready to get out. As an adult, she's entitled to make that choice, I guess. Really hope she can find a solid pt job for the fall - she is moving out at the end of August, so she'll need to be working to be able to pay the bills!

As far as Jake... I agree that kids seem to be hard-wired with a lot of their personality - but whether by genes or parenting, you can still take some credit! Hope you can get out for that hike soon!

4 days and counting.... woot!

"Forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to the things ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13,14

A goal only seems unreachable until you DECIDE you're going to do it!


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Thanks Kelly and happy Canada Day to you!

Jake really is a great kid. Just such a good attitude about life in general. I'd like to take credit but so much of that is just personality. Colleen is struggling a bit right now and part of it is she's just burned out at McDonald's. Who can blame her? But she just hasn't been willing to do anything about it, saying she feels trapped. McD's has been good to her, working with her school schedule and everything. So she worries that no one else will be that way for her. I told her, she won't know unless she looks around. So yesterday she did just that. She stopped in at a bunch of places. Most told her to apply online but at least she got out there. All of us can use a lesson I think in just doing stuff like that to pull us out of a funk.

So the Easy Shoppe officially belongs to someone else! Talk about doing something different. It's a bit scary and feels really different but I'm so glad to turn the page on that chapter of our lives. There's still stuff to do but the worry is gone. Now we just have to worry about a job for Chris. But first, he's going fishing. Just for a few days in Montana but I'm so glad he'll be getting away. Time to decompress and get ready for the next stage of his life.

Yesterday was really cool with a lot of people stopping by to wish him well. People really liked him there, many of them stopping by daily just to chat. I know he'll be missed in the neighborhood.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Yay for Jake!
Wonderful when you see the investment you made in your children producing good things, isn't it!
Happy birthday to your mom... and happy hiking. You and I will be hiking on opposite coasts! what a thought!

"Forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to the things ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13,14

A goal only seems unreachable until you DECIDE you're going to do it!


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You're vacation sounds really great Kelly! I hope you'll write all about it.

I'll figure this thing out. Jake said we need to start hiking again. He knows that I'm depressed and he remembers how much it helped him when he was depressed. We can't go this weekend because of my Mom's birthday. But we agreed that we will get out and do it the following weekend. Something to look forward to. It'll have to be an easy one but I'm sure we can find one.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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I think so too, Mary...you have had a lot to deal with and I'm sure there's much that affects you both consciously and subconsciously. Finding the right 'fit' (no pun intended) is important, though.

One more week until we set of for the East Coast... really looking forward to slowing down, appreciating the beauty of the surroundings and really connecting with my family. It's been a very busy year!

"Forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to the things ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13,14

A goal only seems unreachable until you DECIDE you're going to do it!


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Yeah, I have a couple of options Kelly. OA is one of them and I've looked into it but the meetings were at weird times and there's not a lot of options around here which really surprised me. I also had asked my doctor for a referral for counseling and she gave me one. I talked to someone on the phone but then just could not pull the trigger and actually go. I'm still not sure why that is and I need to check with her to see if the referral is still good. I really should go. There's also a grief group at my church that I'm considering joining. It's a long road and I think it goes way beyond what I put in my mouth. So I guess it's time to figure that out.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Maybe instead of WW you should look into something like Overeaters Anon or Celebrate Recovery - they approach the whole thing from more of a food addiction perspective - which I KNOW is my problem... and sounds like maybe yours too.

Anyway, try to be kind to yourself.
Love you. Things will get better!

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Thank Kelly. I like to believe I can but I'm not so sure. I have my doubts about WW. I like the tools but the meetings are all about education. Believe me, I know what I need to do to lose the weight. I know how I should eat. I know what traps I should avoid. My problem is the overwhelming compulsion that I have to eat and eat. And the harder I try, the worse it seems to get. So far, I'm not seeing where they're going to help me with that. It goes way deeper than just the knowledge.

Anyway, not off to a great start today. This has just kind of been a lousy week. I know I'm stressed about the store and Chris not having a job. I know he's trying and I know he'll find something. Meantime, it's a big concern.

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Hey Sweet Girl.
I'm sorry you're having a tough time...
You can do whatever you set your mind to, my friend. I know it.
Just DO it.
I believe in you!


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I think I need to start imagining me in smaller clothes. Maybe that will help. Another bad day yesterday. Choir party tonight so I'm at least going to try to be on my best behavior the rest o the day until then.

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How can I keep from singing?


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Well it wasn't enough yesterday. What a crap day! But it's behind me now and there's nothing I can do about it. Today, I will do better.

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Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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You can do it girlfriend.
Sometimes...when I'm in the right frame of mind... and I think I'm hungry, I imagine the scale going down... and SOMETIMES that's enough to get me through the day.

Stay strong... just for today.

I'm on countdown to vacay... 12 sleeps and I'm getting excited!

Thinking of you!

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Monday, Monday. I'm tired today, in spite of sleeping pretty well last night. I'm also hungry today so I'm fighting that. This is likely the only really nice day this week and I guess I'd rather be anywhere else but at work.

Went to a movie with Colleen yesterday and while I had popcorn, I did avoid the candy. It's going to take a Herculean effort today to do the same. I just keep telling myself that the candy will only make me feel worse. Hope I believe it and stay away.

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Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Somewhat productive this weekend. Didn't do exactly what I planned but I helped Chris with his resume. He got some information on another job opening. So fingers crossed. There's a guy who can recommend him if he gets an interview but the trick is getting to that point. Prayers for that to go through. It would be a really good job for him.

I still may get some plantings done but the weeds are starting to look overwhelming. I really need to get out there and at least make a start.

And get this. After fixing my computer, I left it sitting on the floor where I stepped on it. And I lost my balance so stepped even harder. Now my screen is messed up. Just can't seem to keep my devices healthy.

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No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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First day of summer and it's a glorious day! I'm doing a little self-pampering this morning by doing my nails. This afternoon I plan to do some work in the yard. Maybe did that backwards but oh well!

Spent last evening working on my computer. Seems I'd gotten some sort of virus. And I really don't like Windows 8. I had upgraded to 8.1 and it seems like that's when the problems started. So I backed everything up, then reset it to factory specs. Then I had to reload all my software. Whole thing took about four hours. But it's working so much better again. It was getting really frustrating.

Hoping for a productive weekend and it's off to a good start. Tomorrow, I'm going to a movie with my daughter. That should be fun!

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While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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I'm okay Kelly. Just a little tired. I tried some meds last night but after visiting my Mom and then early Friday. I slept better, but not as long. I don't want to rely on those but just trying to break up the cycle of taking a long time to fall asleep and waking a bunch of times in the night. I otherwise had a really good day yesterday, walking home through the park and the visit. I already had food ready so I didn't have to cook. So far, I'm sticking to this pretty well.

Today, I'm going to try to get in a workout. Be interesting to see if there's any schedule change once we are done with the store.

Speaking of that, Chris had a contact for a job but that fell through yesterday. I've squirreled away a little savings but we don't have enough to cover a long unemployment period. We could really use our tax return. It's been delayed because of the whole identity theft thing. Hopefully, that will get here soon. The guy buying the store did ask if he could provide some consulting until he gets everything going. But he didn't say how much he would pay and we're not talking a lot of hours or a long period of time. But every little bit helps, right? So anyway, we could use some prayers that he finds something quick.

Happy Friday!! It's been kind of a long week so it'll be good to have the weekend to recharge a bit.

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While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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You're not sounding like your perky self, my friend.
Sending you big hugs, happy smiles, positive thoughts and prayers for joy in your life.
Love you!

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Yeah, I've started a standard list for our camping trips. I have one for hiking too. They do help a lot!

I have been soooo tired this week. Really not sleeping well and find myself falling back on Aleve every night. Too many aches. I have to believe this will get better as I lose the weight. And in many ways, I already do feel better. But I just can't get comfortable at night right now. Really a struggle.

Hoping to go see my Mom tonight. It's been a long week and I'm tired but maybe I can get a nap on the bus.

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Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Mine is also an amazing lady - and we have teased her for YEARS about her compulsive list-making....
I see the value in those lists more and more all the time! LOL

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We all become our Mother eventually Kelly. And for the most part, I can be pretty proud when I see it. I bet you are too!

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How can I keep from singing?


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I'm really proud of you, Mary... and hoping that you find the stability you're looking for at W.W.
Sounds like you're off to a good start!

Pandora sounds cool - I'll have to check it out!

Starting to count down to our East Coast vacay... and getting a little stress with the lack of 'a plan'! SO much happening between now and then! It will all come together- I just want to make sure we see and do the things we want to and not just sort of 'poke around' and end up missing things! (oh gosh... I am becoming my mother!)

Have a great day my friend!
big hugs,
Kel

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Pandora is music web site. I used to listen to the radio online but the commercials were so obnoxious. The free version of Pandora does play commercials, but usually only one about every five songs and they're brief. You can create your own channel and name some artists you like. Then it starts playing those and others along those lines. You can tell it when you don't like something and it promises not to play stuff like that anymore but it's not always great about that. It's usually pretty good. That was kind of a weird day and I really didn't want a bunch of mellow music.

Anyway, the meeting at WW was pretty good. A bunch of nice ladies. The topic was BLTs or Bites, Licks and Tastes. It's amazing how hearing just a few minutes of that made me pay so much more attention to what I'm doing and last night, while preparing two meals, I can honestly say there was not one BLT.

The weigh in was a little disappointing. I mean, it was exactly what I expected it to be. But I wanted it to magically be better anyway. But in the interest of accountability, I posted it here on SP as well. It's not my usual time of day so food affects it, and I have clothes on. But from week to week, that will be more typical and will better reflect actual losses and gains. So I'm not worried really. Right now, I'm doing things right so I'm hoping it will all work out.

I had a really nice workout last night on the treadmill. Haven't walked a ton the last couple of days because of driving to work and getting Colleen's car in the shop. So I figured I was due for a treadmill session. The weather's been kind of bad too and is now getting a little better. So back to walking to the bus today. My knee is a bit sore so I'm icing it and will take it a little easier today.

Anyway, must get to work. Another busy day and likely a Costco run tonight. Hoping to get in a visit with my Mom too. We'll see how it goes.

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How can I keep from singing?


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Music is so powerful, isn't it?
I don't know what Pandora is... but I'm glad you've got it figured out!

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And kind of a funny story. I listen to Pandora at work. Yesterday, it just seemed to be in a mellow mood and was playing all slow songs. None were songs I necessarily dislike so I didn't want to give them the thumbs down. But it seemed the more I left it alone, the more mellow it got. And it really affected my mood. Kind of crazy but I was just down all day. I finally started skipping over a bunch of them and re-added some of my favorite artists that I knew were more upbeat. Today it seems to be playing better stuff again. Who would have thought Pandora could be moody?

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While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Oh I hate shopping Kelly! The only time I really buy anything decent is either when Chris is with me or I'm desperate. Chris usually encourages me to pick up a few nice things and he has really good taste. Kind of a bonus for a hubby!

So today is the big weigh in and yesterday I fell down flat! I was so tired from the weekend and I think I was a little thrown off from the wine. When I got home, I was really hungry and so I ate a few things I shouldn't have. I got in plenty of walking and as far as WW is concerned, I didn't go over for the week. But I really wanted to do well before my first weigh in. But it can't be undone so I'll just have to live with it.

The other thing is that my start weight is my own. So it was taken first thing in the morning with no clothes on. This one will be mid-day and I'll be fully clothed. So this will really be my baseline as the others will be in the same circumstances.

Anyway, lots to do today so I'd better get to it. Let's make this a great week!

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Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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I agree! I'm not a big shopper, but sometimes a few new things to wear can really impact how I feel.. and be a positive step!
Hope it goes well for you, Mar!

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Oh I'll be here Kelly. You definitely help keep me grounded as well. I need that daily support and I get it here.

My first WW meeting and weigh in are tomorrow. So far, I had a pretty good weekend. WW has some pretty cool tools. Chris and I were running around yesterday morning and ate out. I was able to log my food on my phone app. I know SP has one too but this one seems a little easier to use. I still ate extra as I made Chris a nice dinner last night. And wine of course. WW builds in extra points you can use over the course of your week so it went towards that. And I even lost a little bit over the weekend which is always my big struggle.

I also bought a few new clothes. There was a big going out of business sale at Coldwater Creek. Nice stuff for very little. I got everything just a little snug. They're all wearable now but should fit me for a while as the weight comes off. And it WILL come off! Always nice to have a few new things to wear.

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While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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I think that kind of accountability can be really helpful, Mary. I hope you find it works and that you enjoy the journey! Dont' you DARE abandon me here! lol
I'm not sparking as well as I should either - but this friendship you and I share keeps me grounded on many days - and staying hooked in to Sparks at least keeps me mindful.

Glad you had some nice time with your mom! She sounds like such a special lady!

Off to a busy but fun weekend and trying to stay positive and grateful in the midst of some challenging times...
Thanks for always being on the other end of my keyboard girlfriend!

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Had a nice visit with my Mom last night. With no choir now for the summer, I don't stop by to see her as much. So I went over and watched a bit of the Mariner's game with her. She's always good for my soul.

I made a decision yesterday after talking to my doctor. I've joined Weight Watchers. She thinks I will benefit from the weekly meetings and weigh ins. I'm going to give it a try and see how it goes. I won't abandon the Spark as I see it as what I'll do for the long run. But just to try something different. We'll see how it goes!

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While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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He does that Kelly.

I had another really good day yesterday, logging over 8 miles again. It was a very busy evening and I was on the go right up until bed time. That, unfortunately, was probably not a good thing. I did everything I was supposed to do to get ready for bed. Had a cup of chamomile tea too. But when I got there, I could not fall asleep. I was still a little wound up and I struggled with getting comfortable. I've had a mild pain in my leg. I think it might be sciatica. It's not really bad for the most part but you know how it is when you go to bed. That's when you feel everything. Between that and my shoulder, I just couldn't get comfortable. I finally took some Aleve and that seemed to help a bit.

Nothing to do about it I guess but just keep pushing on. When that happens, I try to remind myself that it will get better when I'm lighter. I'm also working more on trying not to make this all negative. Instead of "I'm tired of hurting", it's "this will get better if I work at it." When I'm craving something, instead of just saying no, I ask myself if I'm really hungry. Usually the answer is no. Then I remind myself that I have something I get to eat in 30 minutes or an hour from now, whatever it is. Seems to be helping so far. Still just taking it one day at a time and giving it my best shot.

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No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Kinda sounds like the Lord had a hand in that one, my friend! Thanks for sharing!

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Too funny Kelly! I thought maybe you had an SP alter ego!

I guess I am on a streak of sorts. Two days in a row anyway. Today is day three. The other thing I'm trying to add back is stretching. I've been so neglectful of that and I've had so many aches and pains that I know can be helped by it. So really putting an emphasis on that this week. And oh am I ever tight! I've always been a pretty flexible person so I'm hoping I get back to that fairly quickly.

Another day and I'm determined to make it another good one. Clear morning that's supposed to be a nice day but it was a little chillier than I expected walking to the bus. Tomorrow it's supposed to rain. I hope it won't be too bad.

Kind of a cool thing. Yesterday, my sister contacted us about planning my Mom's 85th birthday. It looked like we all could get together July 5 and my brother offered to use his lake front property for a barbecue. He has a ski boat and a jet ski and lots of other water toys, so it should be a fun day. I called my Mom to make sure that would work for her (details) and she said that Judy's husband Randy was going to be here that weekend, staying with her. I called him to double check on the timing and we had a really nice conversation. So many times, the spouse can kind of get lost in all this. But he told me how he really wanted to stay part of this family and I told him, tough! He has no choice! The man is my brother and I've known him as long as I can remember. I'm so happy that he feels the same way. And, he is really excited that we just happen to be planning a get together that weekend and he's looking forward to coming. One of his sons is coming as well. Don't you just love how that all worked out?

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How can I keep from singing?


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Good morning, Girlfriend.
That was me yesterday - I am checking out a meal plan for someone at work and had logged on to that account! Once I realize that I responded under that name, I couldn't figure out how to delete it! LOL

Anyway, I'm back to my own account... plugging away.
How did yesterday go? Are you on a streak?

Counting down to vacation now and really looking forward to it. Had to give up any hope of doing the race at the end of this month - just trying to get my heel healed up enough that I will be able to enjoy our active vacation!

Hope this finds you happy and well, my friend.
Sending warm thoughts your way.
kel

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I know you can do it! Go for it my friend!
(Mar... it's kelly - I'm working on another acct! Woops!)

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Finally had a pretty good all around day yesterday. And I feel pretty good. I ate well. Didn't get a ton of steps but did okay. I drove to work so that took away a lot of steps. No particular reason for driving. I just didn't feel like walking. So it was a slow start but got better pretty quick. Today I walked to the bus so back to routine and I should have a lot of steps. Really going to try to stick to my food plans again today. Wouldn't it be great to make it two days in a row?

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Thanks Kelly. It was a really nice evening and then a restful weekend. Maybe a little too restful. I really didn't do much of anything. Well except be very disappointed by the outcome of the Belmont Stakes. Another year and no triple crown.

Anyway, off to another week. Really going to try to make it a good one!

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That sounds lovely, Mary - I'm so glad you're doing that.
We have the same experience with friends... and always the same comment - life is just too busy. I find that often the get togethers we enjoy the most are the ones that happen spontaneously - we run into friends while we're out on a walk and end up sharing dinner or something like that. Or just last minute "hey! what are you up to this weekend" sort of things.

Even though it's enjoyable to see people, I sometimes find that trying to pre-plan get togethers feels like one more thing on the to do list, instead of something to look forward to! I guess it's all in our perspective.

ANYWAY... (holy overanalyze, Kelly)... have a lovely visit and enjoy your time, my friend!
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Thanks Kelly. I have my doubts but I'm going to give it a shot.

Early Friday and I'm here and getting started. Tonight I have a girlfriend coming over and I'm going to make us a nice salad and we'll sit out on the deck. It'll be good to see her. We try to get together a couple times a year at least and always wonder why we don't do better. We only live a couple miles apart. But life gets so busy some times. Anyway, we've been friends since high school. You really have to nurture those kinds of friendships the best you can.

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Hmmm... how about standing on your head for a day and send that gas the other way?! LOL
Just teasing - and I'm sorry you're still having trouble with it.

I'm so glad that you are not in the same head space as I am with self-acceptance. I feel convicted often, because I suppose for me (if I'm honest with myself) it comes down to vanity - and that is sinful.

It's great that you are aware of the health effects and keeping that as your motivation for change - you'll get there. It's been an incredibly challenging time for you and I hope you'll give yourself a little grace as you "reboot" and get going in the right direction - and I have no doubt that you will!

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Seems to be getting a little better Kelly. I had an ultrasound yesterday and they said there was a lot of built up gas. That's from the colonoscopy. Just not sure how I'm supposed to get rid of it, Anyway, everything else looked okay so there doesn't seem to be some underlying cause. That's just the way it is for some people.

I haven't been walking as much this week. Just trying to feel better. But I am eating a little better so that's something.

I don't know about what you're saying Kelly. I don't dislike myself this way. And I have a lot of things about myself that I truly like. But I still can't and won't accept myself at this weight. It's a death sentence and I'm already having health issues as a result. It's not about disliking myself at all. It's about knowing that I can do so much better. I don't want to spend the rest of my life limited because of it.

Easy to say but still struggling with putting it into practice. But the conversation is going on in my head and I'm working on it.

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I'm going to give us both the same message - let's just concentrate on getting healthy... and on self-acceptance. I'm so tired of disliking myself all the time - it's time to change that.

I'm glad you're ok - but sorry you're still having trouble with that pain, girlfriend.
Hope it ends soon.
Hugs to you,
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I did have a good weekend Kelly. Very quiet. And I've meant to get back her but just didn't. I did have another incident. The shoulder pain returned early Monday morning. Because it was days after the procedure, they thought I should come in so Colleen hauled me to Urgent Care at 4:30 in the morning. They were very thorough and didn't find any problems so they just decided it's still the gas and that I'm just having trouble getting rid of it. That's a relief but I hope it doesn't last much longer.

Through all of this, I've done a little better for food but the exercise is down a bit. I'll get back to that. Summer's almost here. While there's no way I'll have a bikini ready body, I'd sure like to drop a few pounds so I can hike and swim and stuff when we go camping.

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I'm glad you had the opportunity to give them your fedback, Mary - that can be empowering in itself! I understand what you mean about the fear factor!

I sure hope you have a good weekend and get some R&R my friend - you deserve it!

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Aw thanks Kelly. I know you'd be here for me if you could. Same as I would for you. And I do feel you many times when I know you'd help. That in itself is a big help.

Yesterday, I was feeling a lot better. The nurse called in the afternoon to check on me and I took the opportunity to tell her how upset I was about what happened. She said the sedation works for more than 95% of the people but there are a few for which it doesn't. Weird thing is, it's basically the same thing they do for an endoscopy and when I had that, everything went just fine. But I think as much as anything, I was upset about being treated so dismissively about it and told her so. She is going to speak to the manager to try to get them to remind the doctors and technicians that there are some people that this happens to and they need to pay better attention to that. I'm honestly not sure what, if anything, they can do about it in the middle of the procedure, but a little concern and understanding would have gone a long way.

And she noted it in my records. What I really don't want is to be afraid of the next one and put it off. She said there are things they can do if they are aware ahead of time that it might not work for me. So that makes me feel a bit better about it too.

Anyway, the car is fixed. That was fast. And I'm back at work today for my early Friday. Once again, be nice to have this week behind me. I really want to have a week where at the end of it, I don't say that. I guess maybe I had a couple weeks like that just after the funeral. Funny how those are less memorable huh? So a few more weeks like that and a few less like this one. Who knows? Maybe I can get myself back on track!

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Oh. My. Goodness.
Mary... "if I had a million dollars"... (or even a fraction of that)... I would be on my way to you right now. You need some caring for my dear friend! What a nasty experience! I'm so sorry.
Wish I could wrap you up in a great big hug and then bring you a comforting cup of something warm.
Gosh.
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Okay, spoiler alert. I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself today. I'll start with saying that the drink was definitely not the worst part for me!

I actually woke up in the middle of the procedure. Wow, that was pleasant! I know I was out at first because I don't remember them starting. But I was fully awake, soon into it. I tried to tell them. They said things like, "Oh, you really won't remember it later." I do. "If you just relax, it won't hurt." It did. "It will be over soon." Seemed like forever. Later, I asked them why that happened. They said, "It's different for everyone." Some comfort that was. I did get to see my colon on the screen. Small prize but it was kind of interesting. A couple of polyps were removed but they didn't seem overly concerned about them. They will be tested and I'll get the results in a few days.

Then, when I got home, I just took it easy. Watched a couple of movies. Took a nap. Two naps! Then when I was making dinner, my shoulder started to hurt. I was thinking that I had been neglecting my PT and really should start up again. It kept getting worse and when it was time to go to bed, it was a struggle to get comfortable but I finally managed to fall asleep.

I was awakened by the dog who was upset because Chris had come home and was doing something downstairs. When I went to check on him, I learned that someone had smashed the window of our car sometime during the day . He was cleaning it up and covering the hole.

When I tried to go back to bed, I found that my shoulder was unbearable, bringing me to tears. About this time, I remembered reading something about calling if I had shoulder pain. So I called. It was my left shoulder and arm so all kinds of questions about irregular heartbeat, shortness of breath. All negative. No fever. Turns out, they pump you so full of gas, sometimes it gets trapped under the diaphragm. But the pain tends to refer to the shoulder. Very weird. Anyway, they recommended ice, ibuprofen, and sleeping sitting up. Seems to have worked because I'm much better this morning. But I didn't get much sleep last night.

So I'm home today. I have lots of work to do but felt I should take the commute out of it so I can rest. Also, it gives me the chance to call insurance and see if I can't get someone out to fix the car window. Just more drama and I'm getting a little tired of it. Just when I think things will settle down, something else comes up.

Anyway, enough of the pity party. Glad you're feeling a little better Kelly. Hope you have a good day.

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LOL... well, the timing is funny - my mom had a colonoscopy yesterday, so we've been having the same conversations. I understand the drink is pretty nasty! Mom said that the nurse assured her it was "the worst part of the whole deal". I hope things go well for you today.

I'm back at work... feeling about 70% of normal, I think. My back was hurting from lying down too much, so I decided to come in and give it a try. We'll see how the day goes.

Take care today, my friend.
I'll be thinking of you!

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Sorry you're sick Kelly. Feel better soon. Funny that you're like me a bit. I often use sick days to get stuff done. We're supposed to be resting!

Well, yesterday was a bit harder than I thought it would be. The problem with clear liquids is, if you want them to contain calories, and they tell you they should, then you're talking about sugar. Jello, juice, gatorade, soda, sorbet. I did try broth but it has so few calories. I did the insulin spike so many times, I was falling asleep at my desk. When lunchtime came around and my co-worker brought out his smelly lunch, I'd had enough and I went home. I got through the rest of the day taking a long nap.

So drinking some more now. My Mom picks me up in a few hours. Be glad when it's over.

Then I had to start on the stuff you drink before the procedure. Nothing more need be said about that. If you want a really funny description though, you have to read Dave Barry's column on his colonoscopy. As long as you like that type of humor. It has me in tears every time I read it.



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Hang in there on the clear fluids... Sorry honey.

Sounds like you made some great progress! Way to go!
I'm home sick today. First priority ... Nap! However, if I get a burst of energy, I am going to clear out my closet. Put the winter stuff away finally... And, sadly, store my too small stuff - hopefully for another time!

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Not such a wasted day after all. I really tackled the void and have made significant progress. I'm down now to a couple boxes in the corner that have paperwork in them. I probably need to go through my desk again, although I just did that recently, and see what else I can get rid of. Much in the boxes will likely go to the shredder but I know there's a few things in there I need to find a place for. But my dresser is mostly clear. Feels really great!

So liquids only today. I bought some broth but it really isn't very good. Mostly it'll be juice and gatorade and for a treat, some sorbet. The nurse said that was clear liquid. I don't get that but I'll take it anyway. I should have made some jello but too late for that now. My gut is already really uncomfortable because of the way I ate this weekend. I'll just be glad when it's over.

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Not yet Kelly. Found on online that will create the print, frame and mat it for about $70. I'm tempted because it would just be done faster. But I may look into what it would cost to do it myself.

Kind of a nutso day today. I'm eating too much in anticipation of liquids only tomorrow. Shouldn't be doing that but that's where I am. Not a lot of exercise either. Still doing laundry and want to do some work on the void tonight. But really, kind of a wasted day for the most part.

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Have you got your frame yet my friend?
I have thought of your picture often in the last few days, and what a blessing it is.
Thinking of you...

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Annie just sent me the picture and now I have to stop looking at it or I won't make it through this day. I can fall apart tonight. I think I'll have it framed. Very special.

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What a blessing! I'm sure your emotions are still pretty raw - certainly appropriate and to be expected, Mary. I know you'll treasure that picture as a reminder of the moment... precious.

As far as the gluten... I know it's a process. I read in several places that sometimes our system just needs a 'rest' from it - not even a permanent elimination. I'm certainly not sold on the whole thing - but at worst, I'm missing my toast... and at best, I'm perhaps learning to eat more whole, real foods and less processed things. I just tend to grab for crackers, toast, pretzels etc when I'm snacky, so it's forcing me to think differently. That can only be a good thing, right?!

I hope you can embrace those feelings you are experiencing today and not fight them, Mary - all part of the healing process and all important.
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Just remember Kelly that taking out the gluten is only part of it. When you have it completely out, usually more than 3 weeks (sorry) then the true test is adding it back in and seeing what happens. If all the symptoms return, then you know it's the gluten. But try to keep in mind anything else you might also be eliminating when you take out the gluten. There could be side benefits you are unaware of. I'll have to watch the video later.

I've been having a "moment" today. They are certainly getting less frequent but sometimes, it's still hard. My nephew's wife made a memorial video of my sister. It's a series of pictures, put to music, going through Judy's whole life. She did a spectacular job and I've watched it probably a dozen times since we got it.

But there was one picture near the end that I had no idea someone had taken. It was me, hugging Judy from behind after our prayer circle, when we were saying our final goodbyes. What the picture can't say is that was when we had the exchange that I mentioned before, where I told her I knew I would see her again and she said she believed it too. It's an incredibly special picture to me so I've asked Annie to send me a copy. It is a treasure for sure. But it caught me by surprise when I saw it in the video and I get pretty emotional every time I see it. It'll get better with time but still just a bit raw for now.

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Me too, Mary... the reality is, I really enjoy eating - many of my best memories are around 'food experiences' ... and yummy food makes me happy. Not logical, I know... but truth. What I know as I look around is that, although the world is more 'diet conscious' than ever... we are also bigger than ever and unhealthier than ever - so something isn't working!

Loved this video this morning - something I definitely need to work on.
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/dailyspark-videos-detail.asp?video=82
Kind of sad how epidemic our discontent is.

On to day 4 of no gluten for me. It's not been too bad, really - the hard part is just thinking of different choices than I usually make. Sadly, I am noticing some differences... but it's too soon to really tell. Weekend could be challenging - we'll see!

Hope you have a great one, my friend. Meat and potatoes sounds pretty good to me! (although the colonoscopy thing is no fun... sorry about that!).
Take care girlfriend!

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Exactly Kelly! One way or the other. We just want this to be easy. But it just isn't. I once heard the expression, there are those who live to eat, and those who eat to live. I'm definitely the first one, trying hard to be the second one! But I don't think you can just switch who you are that way. So working on habits is the next best thing I guess.

I did have another good day yesterday. That's progress right? Today is a lighter day for walking but harder for food. I'm going to do my very best to make it one more day. This weekend, I have to start kind of a funny diet for a few days. I'm having a colonoscopy on Wednesday and three days before, I have to cut out all fiber. Yup! Meat and skinless potatoes. And a few other things. No salad. My kind of food!! So I start that Sunday. Monday's a holiday. And then Tuesday, clear liquids only. I think I can handle it for a few days.

Happy Friday and the weekend is here!!

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I don't have an answer for that, my friend. Either Im off trck and thinking about what yummy thing I will get to have next... or I'm on track and trying to plan carefully to make good choices. One way or another, I'm always thinking about it. Maybe that's the big thing for those of us who have these food issues... who knows?

Glad you had a good day. And today is a new one... "just for today"... let's do our best!

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Yup. I'm always thinking about what I'm going to eat next. How do you figure out how not to be consumed by thoughts of food? All the time? It's really kind of nuts.

But I did have a good day yesterday. And no surprise, no daytime sleepiness! Go figure. Just have to keep that in mind when the vending machine calls!

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We'll see what happens. As I said, I don't buy into the hype that it's the be-all-and-end-all for everyone. However, with the symptoms I've been battling, I think it's worth a shot (secretly hoping it doesn't change anything really!) ;o)

The battlefield of the mind... it is certainly the most challenging, I believe. I agree about the mindset of denial and yes, it does feel negative. Even when things are going really well, I tend to have to battle the thought that I'm just tired of focusing on food ALL THE TIME. "just for today" - or "just for this meal" maybe a good place to return to?!

Hang in there my friend. We'll just keep walking this thing out together, right?
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5/21/14 9:56 A

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I hope it works for you Kelly. It's a tough plan to stick to. But people swear by it.

I'm having another good walking week. Just for today, I'm really going to try to stick to my food plans. It's just so discouraging when all I hear in my head is "No!" All the time. Seems there's got to be a better way than feeling like you're just denying yourself all the time. It's not very positive. I'll have to think on that a bit.

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5/20/14 12:37 P

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Nope... it's not easy at all.

I'm not convinced about the gluten thing either. However, I seem to be experiencing chronic issues the the big symptoms and things are getting worse, not better. I have held off on trying it for a LONG time, because I've watched people turn their lives upside down with this stuff.

I'm giving it 3 weeks - and then we'll see. Just want to feel better!

Sending big smiles and warm hugs, my friend.
Be well.

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I understand wanting to try something Kelly. I'm just not convinced gluten is the big evil it's made out to be. I know what my problem is. I need to eat less. But if you're having issues, it can be good to try and find these things out. Hope it goes well for you.

Had another big day of walking yesterday. Feels good to be doing that. But without the proper fuel to go with it, I find myself really low on energy and struggling to get stuff done. You'd think that would convince me to change but it just isn't that easy, is it?

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While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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5/19/14 6:43 P

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I am really struggling with the food too, Mary. Not good.
After a lot of soul-searching and a lot of prodding from my sister and mom, I am preparing to do a 3-week trial of gluten-free.
Biggest factors my digestion is a disaster. I've put on 20 pounds. My skin is a mess. And nothing I've been doing so far (as in all the things that worked before) is working. I feel yucky all the time and my self-esteem is in the trash AND I have now lost my self-control.

I've been really trying to avoid anything 'drastic' and don't WANT to do gluten free (I love my grains). And I've been also trying to avoid things like Shakeology/Isagenix etc - I just want to eat real food. However I have to do something different. So we'll give it the old college try for 3 weeks and see what happens

Hope things are ok with Colleen's car - those $$ surprises are never good!

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Sounds like you're having a great time Kelly. So glad you could get away together.

Had a kind of busy weekend. Colleen's car had some problems and I'm trying to help her get that taken care of. She needs to learn how to do all this stuff. The bill was a little shocking so we're figuring that out.

Got in a respectable amount of walking this weekend but not great. Enough that I won't lose anything on what I did all last week. it was a really big week for walking. Still I need to do more. And I have to get the food under control. Still at a loss as to what to do there.

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No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that rock I'm clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Wow, Mary! You are doing such a great job!
Just read a book I loved and would recommend... "the Walk" by Richard Paul Evans. Really enjoyed it and looking forward to book 2. The read is easy, although the message is challenging.

We are away for the long weekend. Spent the day at Blue Mountain Village yesterday and hiked up the "mountain" (ski hill). Staying at Horseshoe Valley and hiked the woods today... Going to take the girls zip lining this aft! Fun and relaxing. Rest for my soul...

Hope you are getting some of that too my friend! Enjoy the rest of the weekend!


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Really busy day yesterday but I still got in just over my 10000 steps so that was good. Not a bad way to end the week where I walked over 41 miles! Good week. Need to do better with food next week.

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How can I keep from singing?


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Missed my lunchtime walk yesterday so got a little over 6 miles for the day. Took my walk home through the park last night and even stopped to dip my toes in the creek. It was pretty humid yesterday as the weather was changing so it was really warm. Nice evening though and cooler today. Not too surprisingly, I like the break from the heat already. I love the sunshine but wish it would shine and stay cooler. We want everything don't we?

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Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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Thanks Kelly. And happy anniversary! 21 years is awesome!

Just under 8 miles yesterday. Guess I was taking it easy on myself. :)

I did a lot better with food yesterday but still some struggles there. Gotta get that worked out!

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Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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I'm so glad you are feeling more peaceful, my friend. Awesome mileage!!!

Wishing you a happy, healthy day today!

It's our 21st anniversary today and this weekend is a holiday weekend for us, so Doug and I are both taking tomorrow off for some 'us' time. It's not a trip to Mexico... but I guess we take what we can get at this point, right?! May be out of touch for a few days - but I'll be thinking of you!

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Thanks Kelly. Another 8+ miles yesterday, which included mowing the lawn. That's always good for working up a sweat!

I am feeling more peaceful. Every day. I have the sale of the store to focus on now and helping Chris find a new job. That will be stressful too but all should work out.

"Failing to plan is planning to fail."

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Since Christ is Lord of Heav�n and earth,
How can I keep from singing?


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I'm so glad you had a good mother's day my friend. Sounds like a really nice time.

GREAT walking yesterday! Wow!
I did not get my workout in yesterday and I too blew it at the end. Super tired today and feel like my motivation is waning...

I am thinking of you and hoping that peace is finding it's way into your heart. You've had so much to deal with lately - I admire your courage and your faith my friend.
sending hugs your way!

"Forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to the things ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13,14

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