This week, I tried Hummus for the first time ever. I had been reading and hearing alot about it so I decided to try it out. I bought the Tribe Everything Hummus, and its pretty good. An acquired taste maybe. So far I had some on toast, and spread a little on my baked potato. Tonight I might try some with some whole grain crackers.
In other news, I got my new shoes and tried them out at the walking track yesterday. They are Saucony brand, another new try for me. We dont have any stores nearby that sell that brand, so I ordered online. They are a neutral walking shoe and they feel pretty good. Maybe just a tad loose, but I did order a wide. I walked 40 minutes, which included two breaks. Being that it was my first time back to the track in nearly 2 months, I didnt think that was too bad. Hoping to go again this evening, later, much later. I might could have walked alot longer yesterday had I not gone so early. It is always many degrees cooler at home, then when I get to the track, I am reminded that there are zero shade trees and all asphalt. But overall, the last few days have been pretty good. I know I need to cut my calories by at least 200 a day. I am tracking, but I know I am always going over and if I am honest, there are usually one or two hundred calories I "forget" to track. But even then I am somewhere around 1600 a day. I wish I could get back down to 1300 and stay there for awhile. If I was walking and working out more. I can only keep trying and I am.
I spend so many hours of every day of my life overthinking, rethinking, thinking out loud, thinking quietly about weight loss. About every bite of food I eat, and what I will buy when I go to the grocery store and what foods are good for me and what arent. Is this healthy? I know I am currently in a poor state of health. I need to spend more time exercising and less time exercising self judgement!!! Waiting seems to take up a very big portion of my life as well. Waiting to get test results, waiting for it to stop raining, waiting to see the next doctor. Waiting to make positive changes. I cant keep living in the past, the glory days. I hear myself sometimes saying I LOST, Well, I did lose. But that was in the past and its time to start living in the here and now. Every minute that passes in the day is the past. What mistakes or bad judgement calls we make at 9 am, do not have to define our whole day and make it bad. Self forgiveness seems to be the hardest form for forgiveness there is. It is time to get with it, get out of the past and into the here and now.
Music!!! I listen to it when I walk, when I walk!!! I found this man....and he gets me thru the hard times, the lonely times, the bad times, the sad times and the good times. I listen to my music when I need a pick me up, when I want to remember, when I want to forget, when I wish I could forget but cant!!! Especially then. Music soothes the savage beast. I hope if there is a heaven or an afterlife and I get there, I hope its just like this.....jason isbell, you know just what i need when i need it!!!
Well Spark wont let me add the link. But its Jason Isbell, Flying over Water, just soothes me!!!
Needless to say! Not been doing so great, foot and finger issues, waiting on unconcerned and inconsiderate doctors offices to call with news. Waiting. Putting my life on hold, but no more. I have seen the light to the right path and I am pulling my tired aching broken and bruised body back up. I am not going to be afraid anymore.
So, I have been trying to stay on a low carb "diet" the last two weeks. I have been doing so so. I suppose theres carbs in yogurt??? I dont really take the time to look, I just cant give up my greek honey yogurt. But I have done ok so far. Last week, Wednesday I stepped on the scale and was down 5 pounds. I will weigh again in 2 days, and I hope to see another loss. I wont be overly surprised if I dont because the first big loss like that for me is usually water weight. I am trying to stay positive and will really just be satisfied not to gain. It has been a really long time since I really lost weight consistently and I just hope I am finding the right balance of carbs, calories and fat and protein. The biggest thing I am noticing in my tracking is that I am going way over my calcium, and way low on fiber and vitamin d and some days iron. It is weird that my vitamin d is so low and my calcium so high. But Im figuring it out.
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I've decided to have a fresh approach and think"its ok to have a bad day" ,don't lose faith, just get back on track and work at it the next day .The more you do it the more it becomes a habit.We're human , and humans can have a bad day , Just don't let a bad day destroy your dreams
Feeling the "getting old blues"!!! I guess it happens to us all. Oh sure I have had your typical aging symptoms, creaky knees, pain and stiffness when I sit too long, so I try not to sit to long. But this is the change, the change??? Wow, I just came up with a great idea for a blog lol.
Wow weeee I didnt realize how long it had been since I last posted here. Today I changed my goals a little. I am aiming for a 16 pound weight loss. I have given myself 2 months, but I am not going to hold a gun to my own head to reach that date. I am just going to try to lose as much as I can in those weeks and work hard. I realized 16 is the number I have gained back and in order to prevent it from going any higher, I have to start today. So, I am. Really hoping to be over this awful head cold crud itis, whatever it is, soon and be able to increase my workouts a lot more. Right now the simple act of doing laundry or vacuuming, wears me out, as I cannot get any air in my clogged up passages. But I am eating healthier, taking my vitamins, drinking my water and getting my sleep.
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Decided to post, its been awhile. Going into the new year with a hopefully, long lasting, positive attitude and outlook. Just hoping to get to walk as often as I can and find some new hobbies to busy my life. So that I dont have so much time to dwell on negatives and, not allow anyone to bring me anything in my life but happiness. I will not make time for their drama and I will not allow them to hurt me or make me feel less than. Only I can control who I allow in my life. And this year, it is going to be positive people, who encourage me to stick to my plan and not ask me to drink or eat things I know I dont need to eat. I need to realize what is important TO ME. Good health, getting my vitamin d back up, walking, working out, drinking my water and spending as much time outdoors, landscaping the new place, getting sun. and just enjoying life. Maybe even just sitting in quiet reflection, alone, on a warm sunny day, by the river or on a walking trail. 2013 was wrought with anger, pain, fear, the unknown, loss of friends, and accusations and clawing my way back up from the depths of fear and despair. It was also filled with physical pain, breaking my foot in January, to gaining back 16 pounds of the weight I had lost already. Not getting to walk any for 6 months and then very little after. But the foot is healed and I am ready to, not so much, GET BACK, but move ahead. To travel forward with the goal of reaching where I WAS, and exceeding those numbers. To just maybe, possibly, be happy. And to focus on my abdominals more, to workout my upper body more. Life is to be lived, and sometimes there will be set backs, I experienced more than my fair share in 2013. and I am so more than ready to be done with hurt and loss. I cant control the weather or Gods plan for me or loved ones. But I can and will control my reaction to life. No matter what, 2014 is going to be about gaining back control over ME. and working to be the best I can be and what else can I do? What else is there.
Last night I posted a message in the panic rooms for help dealing with a stress issue. Tonight, I am posting to say thanks to all of those who commented. I am posting tonight to let everyone know I am stronger than I thought, stronger than those who wish to bring me back down. I may never fully get over a traumatic event in my life, but, it is in the past and that is just where I plan to leave it. Anyone who would dare to bring it back into my life has their own black deep dark issues to deal with and I will not allow them to use my pain against me. I choose to find happiness. I choose to strive to rise above my own shortcomings. I choose good mental health, and I choose good physical health. So, just letting everyone know tonight, I am ok. I hope I can keep climbing out of the mire of despair and hurt that I was wollowing in, and leave those behind who choose to remain there.
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