I have lost 77 pounds and 7 dress sizes and while I can see the difference when I look in the mirror, I don't always "see" it. I'm sure that makes no sense. I hear pretty frequently that I look amazing, but when I look in the mirror, I still pretty often see the bigger girl I used to be.
Last weekend I went to buy new jeans, a size 8- I have NEVER been a size 8, so what should have been a moment filled with excitement and pride, turned out to be a moment filled with anxiety and embarrassment, like I didn't belong there. I kept thinking, these people are probably looking at me thinking "why are you in here, we don't carry your size." Mind you I wore this same style/ brand of jeans when I was several sizes bigger than I am now, and never once when I was bigger did I feel out of place in this store, but I was embarrassed to be there this time.
I know this is ridiculous and that I should be celebrating my hard work and totally rocking my new body, but I can't. I always still feel like a bigger girl. Does anyone else have this problem, and does it ever stop?
If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you!
Never trade what you want the MOST for what you want at the MOMENT!
I'm not trying to look perfect... I just want to feel better, look great, know I'm healthy and be able to ROCK any outfit I choose.
| current weight: 168.0