Well weight has been taken, measurements done, now just to prepare the cupboards and fridge. I have tried this journey before, but I felt like I was alone. Now I have my loving husband standing beside me cheering me on, and the outlook I have for myself is different. For some reason him holding me telling me he doesnt care what size I am, or where the dial stops on the scale, he married my heart and soul not my curves (but he loves my boobie curves -- typical male) lol...... but it helps....
I have been on an emotional roller coaster this last year... being rediagnosed with Bipolar and now with BPD as well, has been helpful but devasting at the same time. But i have learnt alot this year... first and most importantly -- the only person that can truely make me happy is ME!!
The one thing that gets me and i truely dont understand is most of my life including even sometimes now I dont feel LARGE, sometimes with I look in the mirror I dont see my self as an overweight person... but then there are other times... when Im doing my hair, getting dressed, in the shower... even just doing nothing.... I feel like ORCA.... I dont understand how i can switch back and forth... since Sept 2012 I have gained between 12 - 20 lbs and sometimes I can feel it and sometimes i dont... I dont know... Im so confused..
So I have decided since I DO KNOW it is an issue either way.. i have to fix it... so here I go...
- more water
- less calories/healthier food
- healthy thinking
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5