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Lots has happened since my last post.... - i started a new job that keeps me going - Darren and i almost split - I severly hurt my shoulder so movement is limited I wonder where everyone went... I looked at my groups expectinng to see lots of chats and stuff and no one has been posting for almost 2 months... I am joining either TOPS or WEIGHT WATCHERS... but i need my sparks.....
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
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Well for the last week it has been a bust for the most part, not working out or watching what i was eatin.. very emotional to which doesnt help.. but i am not giving up.. tomorrow is a new day and i will wake up with my feet ready to move...
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5 |
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Well my day was productive for the most part. We got a bit of a storm last night so i thought I would go and do some shoveling while Darren was at work. Wow what a work out!! I didnt even get half done and my body had - had enough... but tomorrow is another day.  So I think I am not suppose to do any type of travel. Last night we had the issue with the poor Coyote, well tonight when we were driving to Regina to get my son to bring him home from his dads there was a Deer. It was horrific!!!!!! We seen it standing in our lane and it wouldn't move.. Just kept looking at us.. So we drove around it while honking and still wouldn't move.. As we passed u could see it was already injured.. Guts were already hanging out of its ass.. But it wouldn't move and just kept watching us.. So we turned around to try to get it off the road and there were cars coming... So we honked and flashed over and over... This lady ended up hitting it.. She couldn't slow down fast enough... She ripped it right in half.. Her whole front passenger side is gone... Darren helped her pull deer and broken pieces from her car..... So I was having panick attacks on the way home. Everytime I seen something either on the side of the road - garbage, animal, snow.. my heart would race and i would get all tense.... argh Well I guess time to do some tracking and get ready for bed... tomorrow is another wonderful day 
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5 |
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Well today was good.... took the dogs to the dog park and walked 5 laps, spent the day with my hubby and now preparing for tomorrow. On the sad note on the way home an on coming car hit the hind legs of a coyote and just kept driving. We stopped and sat with it on the side of the road until the RCMP could come to shoot it. It was so sad...even though it is a wild animal that would eat one of my dogs, watching it suffer was heart breaking. It really made me think about life in general, and what it means to be healthy and happy. Im sitting here now watching Biggest Loser. Looks like it is gunna be a good one this season. My heart went out to a young man on there... TC was his name, and how his weight almost cost his son his life in a car accident. I cant imagine how hard that would be. More motivation is all i can say!!!!
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5 |
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Yes Alindal I totaly agree with the small goals... I havnt really said (I dont think) how much I want to lose this month.. For me I think anything is a good thing... And I will be happy with that... But yes trying to change my habits, reintroduce exercising, and everyday normal life... good gosh lol... But I am not giving in,,, WE can do this... Today I was planning on doing one of my workouts but with the hubby home i cant see that happening (i dont work out infront of him lol) but we are going to take the dogs to the dog park and for a walk later so at least i will still be moving... And then tomorrow is back at'er for everything... Well hope you have a good day... Chin up and Feet Movin lol...
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5 |
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today was a bit of a gong show... car broke down, didnt get to work out, didnt eat right... argh and I just feel so so so blue... I have 15 things going through my head and i dont know why... guess i will call it a night and try to have a better day tomorrow...
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5 |
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Well today was great :P i am so proud of myself.... I ate half decent, drank lots of water and did a good work out... never did end up taking the dogs for a walk but if tomorrow is nice out i will take them for sure.... well time for bed ... hope tomorrow is as good as today.... 
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5 |
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Thanks Smanismell... it isnt to often that you find someone that can understand your struggles... I am really hoping this year is a fix "me" year... I know anything is possible if we set our minds to it... just for us we have to set about 5 minds to it... lol... Happy New Year.. Gloria
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5 |
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Well weight has been taken, measurements done, now just to prepare the cupboards and fridge. I have tried this journey before, but I felt like I was alone. Now I have my loving husband standing beside me cheering me on, and the outlook I have for myself is different. For some reason him holding me telling me he doesnt care what size I am, or where the dial stops on the scale, he married my heart and soul not my curves (but he loves my boobie curves -- typical male) lol...... but it helps.... I have been on an emotional roller coaster this last year... being rediagnosed with Bipolar and now with BPD as well, has been helpful but devasting at the same time. But i have learnt alot this year... first and most importantly -- the only person that can truely make me happy is ME!! The one thing that gets me and i truely dont understand is most of my life including even sometimes now I dont feel LARGE, sometimes with I look in the mirror I dont see my self as an overweight person... but then there are other times... when Im doing my hair, getting dressed, in the shower... even just doing nothing.... I feel like ORCA.... I dont understand how i can switch back and forth... since Sept 2012 I have gained between 12 - 20 lbs and sometimes I can feel it and sometimes i dont... I dont know... Im so confused.. So I have decided since I DO KNOW it is an issue either way.. i have to fix it... so here I go... - more water - less calories/healthier food - exercise - healthy thinking - logging.....
Gloria - Goodeve, SK, Canada
I'm tired of standing on the sidelines while everyone else is living! It's my turn.
| current weight: 272.5 |
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