I am finally so happy about my body. But, I am starting to want to sabotage my fabulous results due to comments that make me feel uncomfortable. My mother-in-law was so loud in-front of everyone when she was giving me a lecture about how I look like a "model" and how "skinny" I am, and how concerned she is about me losing "more weight". Everytime she sees me, she says "I hope you haven't lost anymore weight - you look beautiful - but I'm just worried - I thought you were the perfect weight before - you're so skinny! Don't lose anymore weight!"
My other mother-in-law called me a "b..." as a "joke" after I accidentally spilled the beans about my latest efforts to lose weight and my success...
So, I'm a believer in energy, and I am sensitive to the energy people send my way - I feel like their energy is pretty negative even though I know the "concerned" mom is likely truly concened, but also she is very fit and watches what she eats and work-out regularly, so I don't get why she doesn't see that I am healthy. I sent her my information and my BMI, which is healthy, and she still comments. I am aiming at maintaining by eating 1,750 cals a day if I do no workouts.
I am 5'8, at 132 pounds (going up now as a result of self-sabotage). I don't know why, but I feel like layers fat protect me from the negative energies of people. An unreasonable side of me thinks that there are dark motives behind my "concerned" mother in laws comments,Why can't I just let myself be attractive? I feel guilty for feeling attractive - how messed up it that? Its time to get down to exploring these messy feelings and I'm so grateful you guys can help. Thanks :)
Edited by: STACY31119 at: 10/16/2012 (17:47)
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