MLANDERS3, I truly understand what it's like to have a family that dwells in negativity. The best thing I learned that helped me is that NO ONE, I MEAN NO ONE, can MAKE me feel anything- The way I feel is a choice. It is a choice to feel bad about myself when someone else says something negative- the only thing the other person can do is make noise; it's up to me how I feel about it.
It's all about perspective. What may help you, is to celebrate the very small STEPS you take that you know are good for you- notice I didn't say achievements, but steps. Focus on the joy of the journey.
When I read your post, I see opportunities for you to feel good. Don't you, my dear? I read about a little girl who can be your own personal gym! She has so much energy, I'm sure... all you have to do is play with her- you'll sweat, you'll become winded, you'll tire, you'll be sore... isn't that all WONDERFUL?!!!! That means you worked your muscles and your body. You exercised and bonded with your little girl at the same time.
You are going to school- be proud of that. You can walk around the building at lunch or on break. If you eat out at lunch, you can explore how to buy healthy meals from places that are usually considered unhealthy.
Most of all, form a private, sacred relationship with yourself that recognizes your self worth, because I know it's there. This is a process. It won't happen overnight, not even in a month or two. But every day is a chance to love yourself. And as your daughter grows, she will learn how to love and respect herself from your example.
I hope you find inspiration on this site- EVERYONE is here for you- come HERE if you need motivation and support. We are all your sparkfriends.
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