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11/24/14 8:20 A

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Sherry and Helena will be here on December 11! emoticon

I guess I will be cooking a Thanksgiving dinner after all. It may just be me, Tim, Mom and Barb for dinner, but...I wasn't going to ask Barb but Mom asked if I had.
So much to do and so little time.

God grant me the serenity to change the things I can, to accept the things I cannot change, and the wisdom to know the difference.


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11/23/14 4:03 P

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I am grateful for my religion and the people I go to church with. I have to spend more time journaling like I did in my EYSJ class and praying more.

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11/22/14 7:33 P

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I spent the day at a Diocesan council meeting in Brighton. The weather sucked and I had trouble finding the place. But others had that problem too. We had a difficult problem parish that we had to deal with so it was a long meeting.

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11/21/14 9:15 A

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Sherry thinks that Sarah and I are being hard on Daryl. We just want what is best for her and Helena. I hope that the two of them can talk and make plans for Christmas. I'm flexible.

A reason that I am up here and not in Alabama is Mom. I don't know how much longer she has. Then I will have to talk to Tim.

I thought I transferred money in Mom's accounts and inadvertently found out that it didn't go through. So I have to take care of it today.

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11/20/14 10:06 A

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Things are so crazy right now. I am trying to figure out how to handle Christmas. Life is getting in the way.

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11/19/14 10:17 A

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I'm debating whether or not to get out before it starts snowing. I probably should go to the bank and get some peanut butter and jelly for mom but I'd have to do it quickly and I'm not dressed yet.

I have such grand ideas on what I want to get done before Christmas. I just don't know how much time I have.

I have to get my finances in order. I have a feeling things will get tight quickly. Tim finally decided to have the hernia operation so there will be even less money there. And he's been kinda iffy lately anyway. I won't be babysitting as much through the end of the year. So there's less there.

I wish my girls would have planned Christmas a little earlier. I thought they had started planning but found out yesterday that Sherry didn't get plane tickets. It would be $3200 for them and 15 hours. So Sherry suggested here. Sarah didn't seem happy about that. I need to see what I can come up with as far as a place for us all to be.

So much to do...so little time.

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11/18/14 8:18 A

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I starting cutting in half my Zoloft. My mood is good, but my sleep is bad. ???

I am looking forward to Christmas, only because I believe my girls and I will be together. I will continue doing what I can for Mom but I won't kill myself to get her work done. I am so far behind on what I want to do that I know I can't keep doing that.

I never did get the chance to talk with Dave Carlson. I'd like to get his take on my sister.

We're supposed to get the 1st snow tonight and tomorrow. I really hate snow the older I get. Never did like it. I think more and more about going to Alabama. The things I think about are my mom, of course, and getting some schooling in to become a chaplain.

If I could get Sherry and Helena to be by me, that would be so great. I could be with Helena while Sherry does what she needs to do to feel better about herself. To me, it's a win-win situation.

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11/17/14 12:52 A

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I ran out of steam yesterday and didn't get the steps in. Now it's 1 am and I can't sleep. I did go through the computer a bit. I hope I don't sleep in and then not get things done again,

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11/16/14 2:02 P

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I am getting a little more organized and starting to look forward to Christmas. So I guess that's a good sign. I've got a pain in my chest right now that concerns me. So I figured I'd eat before doing anything else.

I took time after church to sit and talk with a few people. It made me feel good. I don't spend enough time doing that. I'd like to get back in touch with old friends, but it's been so long that I'm not sure things would be the same. I need to find something to do where I might make more friends.


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11/15/14 8:46 A

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I ended up staying at Mom's and Harry's a lot longer than I anticipated. So the things that I planned to do didn't get done. Back to organizing my time and energy - how do I get with the program? I started to keep track of what I do when the other day and didn't get too far. I think I will start doing that again to see where my time is going.

I want to be organized for the holidays by Thanksgiving. That gives me a deadline of less than 2 weeks. Maybe that will help me.

I talked to the therapist about Barb yesterday. No, I can't change her. But I am resentful that she still controls how much time I am with Mom.

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11/14/14 9:59 A

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I was up and moving early but it's 10 and I'm not dressed. Got an appointment in an hour so I need to move. I need to go through the closets and stuff when I get back.

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11/13/14 3:03 P

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I was up and moving (slowly) at 5:45. I babysat for awhile, then stopped at Value World, Kroger, and Hallmark. It took awhile to put things away. In fact, I'm still doing laundry.

I did find some gorgeous presents for the girls at Hallmark. I need to pull stuff out and see where I'm at. So...time to get busy.

Edited by: PATTYKLAVER at: 11/13/2014 (15:04)
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11/12/14 11:28 A

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I think I've turned a corner. I was ambitious when I woke up - got the bed stripped and the 2nd load of laundry in the dryer. I cleaned the cupboards in the kitchen and laundry room a bit. Now I have to get to the credit union before it closes for lunch.

When I get back, I want to organize more. Wrap presents, put some games in the laundry room, see what I can do.

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11/11/14 9:24 A

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By 5, I could feel my left sinus cavity hurting. I started coughing again about 6 gthis morning. It's 9:30 and I think I'm okay now, but...

I have a feeling it's going to be a long winter.

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11/10/14 9:42 A

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Again, I feel better right now. But it's not even 10 yet. I have a couple doctor appointments that I have to go to and I need to get to Mom's to do her pills. I hope I continue to feel okay.

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11/9/14 10:53 A

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When I woke up this morning, I was thinking I felt better. But as I sit here, I can feel the throat draining. I just want to feel better and to get some energy back. Granted, I did get some paperwork done, but...there's more I want to do.

I haven't got my flu shot yet. It's only November and I've been sick with allergies/cold/whatever twice now. It's going to be a long winter.

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11/8/14 10:43 A

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The coughing is better. The throat still hurts. I hate being sick. No energy anywhere.

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11/7/14 10:06 A

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I started coughing more the night before last. By 5 pm, it was a deep cough. I got ahold of my doctor and he's booked today. So, I'm off to the clinic. I just don't know if I want to continue babysitting. It's not worth it if I was only around them for 2 weeks and started getting sick.

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11/6/14 9:22 A

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I'm still trying to stay positive, to get into a schedule, to catch up on things I want to do, to do for me. I have a hard time with this all the time. I know I need to set limits on how long I am on the computer, in a store, at Mom's. Why is this hard for me? I will work on stuff today and see how far I get.

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11/5/14 5:46 P

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I have found that church friends are a great network of support in times of stress. Do you think you would be able to ask those friends to help out with some of the responsibilities that you have with your Mom.? Sometimes they can pick up prescriptions, help out with shopping, etc., because it's something they're doing for themselves and can help you out in that way. Maybe they could kidnap you for a lunch away from home, or as walking buddies. Take care of you, too.



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11/5/14 4:45 A

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I guess the basic monthly/yearly expenses I sent Barb won't quite be good enough for her. I don't know where I will find the time to get her what she wants. I still don't see why I have to do it. She's been bullying me ever since I got back from Alabama and that's 4 years now.

It would be different if she was genuinely concerned and helping out. But she's just worried about her "inheritance". She honestly thought that the 1993 Olds was part of her inheritance. I'm just so tired of her yelling and screaming and getting Mom upset over things that she has no business in. I'm paying Mom's bills, cleaning the house, taking her everywhere but the casino, doing laundry and shopping, taking out the garbage, taking care of the cat, getting prescriptions, etc.

I'm so far behind on the stuff that I am supposed to be doing. I can't remember when I was able to do something for fun. I want to be able to get the place clean, spend time with Tim, talk to my girls, talk to friends, actually attend church every week and spend time with church members. Will I ever be able to do that?

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11/4/14 9:01 A

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I got a bit of a cold from the girls. I've only babysat 3 weeks and caught something. I hope it's not like that all winter.

I got a letter that stated that I need to turn in a "job search" something for SSI. I guess the government is doing a lot of reviewing, which probably needed to be done a long time ago. All the more reason for me to get my ducks in a row, get the bills paid off, and get Mom's money into a different account. I know the government's right hand doesn't know what the left hand is doing, but I never know when the light bulb will go on for someone.

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11/3/14 9:01 A

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I just got done Skyping with Sherry and Helena. I got Helena all wound up for her mom. She's getting so big and doing so much. I want to see her so badly and hold her and play with her. They both need to be here.

We talked about Christmas. Sarah wants us to come down to Alabama. I am definitely leaning that way. The family dynamics here isn't the same anymore. It won't get better - it just seems to be getting worse.

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11/2/14 5:19 P

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I felt very introspective in church today. I was hoping for a chance to talk to Dave but that didn't happen. I still feel that Barb is just up to no good; I won't put anything past her. I suspect she had something to do with my missing package. People tend to fluff her off - her problem is deeper than they realize.

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11/1/14 9:35 A

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I feel like I've just been getting bigger and bigger this year. I don't know why. I talked to the doctor about 6 months ago and he's not concerned. But I am. I may try to get Sandy's doctor's name. She likes the doctor and maybe I can talk to this person better.

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I babysat from 7:20-4 today. Harper was clingy. Addy was helpful but teary. They sensed that Mom wasn't well and it worried them.

I don't know when I will babysit again. I know Jennifer will be off 6 weeks. I babysat Tues and Thurs long enough for her to nap. I don't know what their plan of attack is after today.

There's so much I need to do here. I also need money desperately. I want to spend time with Mom, Sherry and Sarah. Lots of things to think about and try to figure out which way to go. I got a bit of paperwork done Wednesday and it felt good to do that. Take it a step at a time and see where I'm led.

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10/30/14 10:39 A

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I found out from Sharon yesterday that someone is expecting me to send her Mom's budget and a copy of all the bills paid or she will go to a lawyer. I got the impression from Sharon that she thought I should do it. My thought is why? Why should someone demand that I do something for her when she does nothing for anyone else? But I know she is vindictive. I suspect she's been the one taking things of mine and trying to use credit cards but can't prove it. I will just keep more records. Thank goodness I got into that habit a long time ago.


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10/29/14 6:09 A

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Still - no matter what I do or say, someone is mad at me. Tim told me not to buy any more ground turkey; he didn't want to eat it. I said that I do eat it and he just kinda looked at me funny. Mom was mad at me because Sharon asked how many times Mom went to the casino this month and I told her. She thought I was telling her not to go any more.

I just don't want to say anything to anyone any more. I make someone mad at me no matter what I do, don't do, say or don't say. I want to give up and go away and crawl in a hole.

I think more and more about wanting to go back to Alabama. I haven't checked into whether or not my disability would transfer or not. I guess I need to check on that.

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10/28/14 8:20 A

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I worked on bills all morning yesterday morning. Harry kept calling as I tried to call others and get online. I was definitely stressed by noon. Plugged the phone in and couldn't find it.

I finally got to Mom's about 4 and spent more time there than anticipated. Story of my life. I have this wish to be more organized and do more and I don't think that will ever happen.

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10/27/14 8:09 A

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The week before last, my tracker gave me a great report. I could tell that my esteem got shot because last week was not an active week. The numbers were way down. My wind was knocked out of me. Time to start breathing deeply again.

I originally thought I'd go to Mom's and clean a bit today. Then I couldn't help but think that there's so much to do here. I will go and spend a little time, but I need to start putting myself higher up on the list.

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Back and leg pain disappeared when I returned to work. I have a very active job and I walk and take the steps at each opportunity. But previously, it was keeping me up at night. I pushed ahead with my fitness goals and eventually worked out the kinks. emoticon



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My back and leg hurt all night from sitting on the folding chair all day yesterday. It still hurts.

I am supposed to go help Mom with her hair and the kitchen. Gotta do it; just don't know how sore I will be.

It dawned on me in church that when I walked more, I said more prayers. I really want to get back in the habit.

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Today was the Diocesan Convention in Lansing. A LONG day and tiring. It's 8 and I'm just now on the computer.

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Sign's still on the back. Harry's in the hospital with an intestinal infection. Must go clean Mom's house.

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I got to Leon's about 12:05. He was a nervous wreck and asked that I come earlier. I honestly had trouble with traffic. Jennifer said something when she got home. She also told me that she will have to have a hysterectomy soon. The doctor will be back in the office in 2 weeks. She also mentioned that Cindy would be back for the holidays soon. I had worried if I would be able to do this 4 days a week. But, with my esteem being what it is lately, I wonder if they don't think that I'm doing a good job.

When I got home, my Avon wasn't here. UPS sent an email saying it delivered it. I put in a claim with that company and have to call Avon this morning.

There's another charge on the credit card that had the charges that I didn't make. Fun, fun, fun lately. I have this sign on my back or something....

I really wanted to talk to Tim last night. But he came home to tell me he was going to have a "bad" night. Something else to wonder about...

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Still feeling like I was beat up. But at least I can say that I have gotten through a bit of paperwork. I just want all the drama to go away.

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I'm still not on an even keel emotionally. Yes, the brain says I don't care about Barb. But, Barb says she is going to make my life miserable. In trying to do so, she makes Mom's life miserable. I haven't figured out how to handle it.

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I am working through Mom's papers that were in the box. I found some birth and death records that I didn't know were in there. I'm working on writing it all down so the family can have it.

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Barb still hasn't settled down. The sad part about it is that it only hurts mom and her. And she will never realize it. How do you fight with stupidity? I won't. She's on her own.

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10/18/14 12:31 P

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I went to the funeral home yesterday morning to get prices for mom. After, I went to talk to her about it. Barb showed up about a half hour later. I opened the door for her and went downstairs to put fabric softener in the washer. Coming back up, she started asking where the key was. What do you mean Sharon has it? How long? She's in Florida. I think I'll change the locks and not give anyone a key. Don't hit me. Don't talk back to me. What about the bank account? What about the power of attorney? What about the will? I don't think things will be fair.

She wouldn't listen to mom who told her that she didn't give Barb a key for a reason. She mocked me and did all the gestures I did. I finally grabbed mom's key and said I was going to make a copy and be right back. She didn't want to wait on me. Her time was important. She'd take the key and shove it somewhere. Then she left.

I told Harry what happened. When Sharon called me back, I told her what happened. She said that she tried to give Barb the key last Wednesday and Barb refused to take it.

Meanwhile, Mom promised Sam that they'd be there to clean. Barb had put it off for two weeks. So I went and made $50.00. I know that will not sit well.

Mom was still in bed this morning when I went over there to give her money. She was supposed to go with Barb to the casino. Barb called and said she wasn't going because she didn't sleep last night. Mom said she hadn't slept well either. She told me she was proud of me for sticking up for myself. But she still doesn't want us to fight. I told her that I will not fight with Barb any more. Period.

Barb thinks I am in charge of everything. She thinks I won't be fair. Mom made her will out and it's not any different than the one she and Dad made. I brought home some of the paperwork that was in the file. I will look at it and see what needs to be done. If Barb is the beneficiary of a life insurance policy, I will see to it that if that can't be changed, at least there will be another beneficiary on it. Otherwise, Barb would cash the check and keep all the money. She'd say it's fair - the check was made out to her. Forget that Mom's intention is to be cremated and her bills paid.

Mom did give us some things that she wanted us to have. The kids all got rings. I got my Grandma Mishko's wedding ring. She gave some jewelry to some of the grandkids. Other things, she wants to go to certain people. I have to find out exactly what goes to who, have it written down, signed, made legal, etc. right now before anything happens. I will not fight with Barb. She thinks she wins, but all she does is stir the pot. It's not a someone wins and someone loses situation. It's not hard to figure out.

There is no way that I will tell anyone what I do have. Mom gave me Dad's dogtags, his wedding ring. I won't give them up to anyone but Harry. The kid's table and chairs were given to the girls years ago. I don't think Barb knows that mom even had it. That table my grandpa made was claimed by me 8 years ago.

God grant me the serenity to change the things I can, to accept the things I cannot change, and the wisdom to know the difference.


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10/17/14 5:12 A

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Tim's been hardly working. He came home early yesterday and did his usual "I'll be bad". He mentioned that he's not working Saturday and that he may not go in today. He then said he wanted to do something with me Saturday. Of course, I had already agreed to babysit for a couple hours at 1. He asked why and it's simple: I need the money.

I had a strange dream and woke up at 4 am. There were 2 guys that were vying for my attention. Both gave me rings that were their mothers'. Then they found out that there was another guy and told me they didn't want anything to do with me. I started gathering their stuff together. I realized that why should I do it. That's when I woke up.

Am I being co-dependent again and letting Tim get away with not having any responsibility? Granted, he's done more for me than anyone. But...he gets away with a lot. I am definitely the financial responsible one and I don't have a lot of money coming in.

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10/16/14 9:10 A

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Second day of working and I ran a little late. Jennifer mentioned that Leon got flustered. I must work on being more prompt. Haven't gotten into a schedule yet. Working on it.........

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10/15/14 9:17 A

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My back hurt all afternoon yesterday. Thank goodness, when Harper went down, Addy slowed down and watched TV. My shoulders and hands kept waking me up all night. It's 9:15 and my back is throbbing already. I may get used to the activity, I may not. I guess it's only fair to try it for the week. If I think I will still have problems, I will call Sandy and see if she would like to take it.

I want to call Kayla first and see if I could pay her to help clean Mom's house on Fridays. If she doesn't want to do it, I will call Taylor. I know which one would do a better job, but...


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10/14/14 8:09 A

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i haven't had the chance to check into health coaches. I read a blog this morning about a site that helps with diet - anti-inflamatory, carb, protein specific, etc. Now to just make the time to check it out!

I start babysitting today. It's 3 days for a few weeks, then will go to 4. The girls seem to be full of life - not quite like the boys who were rambunctious but could zone out to the TV. I will take things one day at a time and see how I do. I really want to take the money and pay down my bills.

I'd love to say that I could count on someone to be able to pitch in like we agreed on. But work is slow and ambition isn't always there. It just dawned on me that I have put myself in another position where I'm putting in more than the other person. At least this person is a good person and doesn't abuse the situation (much).

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10/13/14 9:19 A

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I read an article this morning about Health Coaches and it struck a chord with me. I did some preliminary checking with BCBS of AL and haven't gotten very far. It's time I try something different: eat better, exercise more diligently again, find more to do. The rut's getting deeper.

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10/12/14 2:56 A

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I'm stressed and overtired. I need help and someone to talk to.

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10/11/14 9:28 A

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Sherry posted a video this morning that she took when Sarah was there. It made my morning. I am hoping to continue working on my outlook, to control what I think and say, to mind my p's and q's. The dream I had the night before last was strange. I was in a huge gymnasium and in a contest with a lot of other females.I won whatever contest this was and the people running it had me help pass out prizes. It got down to just me and they ran out of prizes. I got thinking about what that was supposed to mean. What I came up with is that although I may "win" at some things, I don't necessarily "win". So, that tells me to think again about how I feel and how I respond to others.

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10/10/14 9:47 A

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Tim got up this morning yelling at me because Sadie HAD to go potty and I let her out. Then I got a response from the condo management company about how people should give their names and addresses when asking that something be done. I always blind copy Sherry so she knows what's requested. If Dieter was able to send me an email, then he did have contact information. After Barb starting the week out how she did, I just want to go away.

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10/9/14 7:25 A

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I got a little ambitious with the closets. I actually got rid of a couple things and listed a couple things on Craigslist. If I don't get a response in a couple weeks, I will take them to Salvation Army. I always figure that it's worth a shot to try to sell them first.

I got an email from Sharon. She had seen the notes on Mom's refrigerator and called Barb last night. Barb wants to go to Shelley Boedeker - the lawyer who did Mom's will - to see if anything can be done about me having Power of Attorney. I think Barb thinks I'm the executor, too, when in reality, Harry is listed first.

I finally forwarded Sharon's email to the girls. I wasn't going to, but I guess they should know, especially if Barb thinks she's going to try some kind of legal maneuver. I can't follow her thought process. How does she figure going after me is going to do anything? Mom made decisions when she was fully competent. No judge would touch it.

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10/8/14 10:22 A

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The wind is still out of my sails...trying to get over it, but what Barb does hurts.

I did go and get Mom new stuff for the house yesterday. By the time Sharon got there, she had forgotten I was there. I have to take one day at a time. Enjoy her while I can. I pray that things are easy for her and that she doesn't suffer like she did last winter.

I woke up late this morning - 8:30. Between 5-7:30, I think I woke up every 10-15 minutes. There was an eclipse this morning between 6:30 -7:30 that I wanted to see and I think that was in the back of my mind. I didn't see much. When I fell back asleep, my weird dream continued.

Sarah, Sherry, Helena and I skyped this morning. Helena sees so grown for some reason. It's only been a month since I've seen her. She is so aware of everything that goes on.

Sherry's been having a rough time and she hasn't mentioned anything to me, other than she had a bad day yesterday. She mentioned a cranky baby, but I know that's not it. Sharon mentioned to tell her that Gary hadn't forgotten her; that he would call. ???

I am hoping to get ambitious today. I start babysitting next week. Sherry wants me to check on getting Helena baptized the Sunday after Christmas. Time to get the house organized.

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10/7/14 9:00 A

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When I got to Mom's yesterday with the keys, there was a note on the refrigerator. "Patty, you are a joke." As much as I have tried to distance myself, it hurt.

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10/6/14 9:28 A

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I was definitely lazy yesterday. I didn't go to Mom's, I took a nap, I didn't get all my steps in. It was hard to get up this morning. It's already 9:30 and I haven't done much. I don't know if I am trying to fight Shannon's cold or what the deal is. Whatever it is, I don't want it.

I need to get things done and organized. I need to go to Mom's and fight the ants. I need to do a lot of things....

Help.

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