For the last month I've been killing myself trying to lose a couple more pounds. Everyone has been telling me I'm already too skinny and I don't need to lose more weight, including my husband. But I'm as stubborn as an ox once I have a goal in my head and will sacrifice everything to achieve it, including my own well-being. I've been trying calorie ranges all over the place, lowering my carbs and carb cycling just to lose a couple extra pounds. Cutting my carbs just led to misery, lack of energy and binge eating homemade granola bars. :P
Last night, after another crazy binge I finally asked myself is a few pounds really worth this? I really had wanted to get to 105 lbs because that number felt safe to start gaining muscle mass on which I planned on starting this spring. Then If I gained 10-15 lbs by the fall I wouldn't feel down about the number on scale. It was a silly thing to fixate on, I'm realizing now. Especially since I've managed to gain muscle on a calorie deficit, there's no reason I shouldn't be able to continue to improve my body at maintenance for awhile without gaining weight. So that's it! I'm done! I've accomplished so much in the last 8 months and I need to sit back now and enjoy my new healthy lifestyle and all my accomplishments. I think it's about darn time I gave myself a pat on the back and say, you've done it, girl... Great job!
I've lost 55 lbs, I've learned to cook like a pro (when I couldn't cook noodles to save my life 8 months ago), I've brought my RHR down from 80 bpm-45 bpm, my blood pressure is in the range of pro athletes/kids, I have boundless energy, I no longer spend hours glued to my computer, I'm way more productive, I've changed my family over to healthy, homecooked eating, I've built some crazy muscle/strength, I now love activity/exercise, I love healthy food and trying tons of healthy recipes. I've virtually changed my whole life around thanks to Spark.
I woke up this morning for the first time, in a long time... in a great mood! I'm so excited to start setting new healthy and fun goals for myself, have an active spring/summer, learn how to maintain my new weight, reward myself with a new wardrobe and focus on my strength training.
I never thought I'd see this day! I also didn't expect it to be so impulsive but it feels like the best decision I can make for myself. Spring is the start of new beginnings. Spread the Spark!
Edited by: JENNILACEY at: 3/27/2013 (08:03)
Take your focus off the Marshmallow. www.leangains.com/2010/01/marshmallo
"Toning" is marketing muscles to women who are afraid if they pick up a barbell, they'll leave the gym looking like She-Hulk. If you don't want to get bulky, lift heavy!
I can bench Nicole Richie, eat more than she does in a day before noon, I have a good 20 lbs on her but could still wear her pants.
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