Thank you all for your feedback! Yeah it's kinda been surreal to be honest. I've always found that the minute I stop fretting about it - I lose the weight. But not fretting about your weight when you've got bulges left, right and centre is a very hard thing to do.
I think I need to be really honest here as I've realized something very important a few days ago... My portion sizes have really shrunk. I mean really - without me noticing it too much. Because when you're satisfied with how much you've eaten you can't feel deprived!
But if you're gradually reducing the amount of food, and not realizing it and then when you do attempt to eat the portion size you used to eat before it hits you!
A day or so ago my husband and I made some really tasty lamb with rice. I was busy feeding my son so my husband offered to plate it up for me. I told him to put less for me and he did.
But I couldn't manage to finish it and I was feeling stuffed before I had even finished it. I was shocked because before - especially on special occasions just like that day, I would set aside my tracking/dieting/whatever and just dig in, literally. The amount he gave me was tiny, plus before I would have finished around 3 times as much without feeling anything.
The consistency with which I was eating smaller portions made it impossible for me to overeat even though the meal itself was heavy, full of carbs and greasy.
Also...recently I've felt the chocoholic in me rising again...but somehow I'm still losing weight. Isn't that strange? Then again, a 200g pack of cadburys didn't bother me at all back then, whereas now I eat it so consciously that I get sick after eating a couple of squares. Same with chocolate digestives - you get that sickening feeling like you've had too much - before I was able to eat the whole packet of biscuits without realizing - now I can only manage 3 otherwise I will be sick. Mind you, a whole packet is worth around 3000 calories in itself, whereas 3 biscuits will set you back 250? So yes, it all does add up.
I've practiced this way of eating because of the Paul McKenna Plan - which I've followed since it started in the UK in 2006 - but I've been self-sabotaging it because you get tuned to eating so less that you think you're depriving yourself, especially as you're not supposed to eat ANYTHING unless you're actually physically hungry. So it got a little intense for me and I fell off - but the basic principles of eating the way you should was what stayed with me.
I joined spark because I wanted to know how much I was eating on the PMCK plan....turns out I was eating around 800-1000 calories a day and also exercising like mad. And not losing anything. The minute I had an "off" week I was gaining it rapidly, not putting any off.
I kept exercising but started tracking calories - it was a relief to be able to eat everything whether hungry or not and to know what was what. Like I said, I was exercising so hard with just the bare 1200-1500 calories a day, that it probably still left me in the starvation mode - as I was before.
Then, I ditched the exercise and concentrated only on the calorie tracking - and voila - having joined on the 4th of September - and 4 easy months later I've lost 5kg now.
I'm not totally sedenary - I have all my household chores, school run, shopping etc to keep me active.
I'm a serial yo-yo dieter and since joining spark I've decided I'm going to put an end to it once and for all.
Once I reach 64kg - which is my personal target - although according to my height I should be around 55kg - but I personally thing I look best at 64kg rather than 55kg because I lose too much of my curves and I like myself with curves.
I will probably stick to the recommended daily calorie limit to maintain my weight. I will try to set a benchmark of 6 months - to maintain my weight with a leeway of around 1kg either side. This is so the "I'm slim now I can eat anything I want" mentality is stopped (it creeps up on me and ruins everything - and I realize it when it's too late. *kicks self*)
Wish me luck!
| current weight: 142.0