This isn't a tale of woe....just the opposite! I want to send a message to those who think the world is going to end when (not 'if'...it's gonna happen!) they occasionally fall off the wagon.
So, after more than five months of diligent tracking and getting through a few white-knuckled, "panic button" moments that were successfully averted by a wonderful support system that is SP, I was feeling a little burned out yesterday. I was also spending the day at my dad's house. Well, his diet is crap, so his house is filled with a lot of fatty and processed crap, and the dismal meal possibilities irritated me at first. I was also frustrated with myself for not planning ahead, and I should have jumped on the message boards to send out an SOS, but I didn't. After months of clean eating, I just gave in to the situation and ate what was there.....with wanton, wreckless abandon! A couple of handfuls of potato chips (tasted extraordinarily, disgustingly salty), about 15 chips ahoy cookies (tasted very "artificial"), a cup of deli chicken salad and potato salad (both ooey gooey), several squares of leftover thin crust, Dominos pizza (cardboard with cheese), and God only know what else....I lost track. If it was there, I ate it. Without exception, everything tasted very different than my taste buds had remembered such a short time ago, and all of it paled compared to the whole, fresh food I have consumed almost exclusively in this new year. I also went to bed with a feeling I had forgotten. I was stuffed...and it felt weird.
Anyhoo, I woke up this morning with swollen fingers and toes, a bloated belly, and a general feeling of 'ick'....just like the old days!!! At first, I wanted to kick myself. What the hell did I do yesterday??? lol I thought about it for a minute and was surprised that instead of beating myself up, I was filled with a sense of gratitude and a deep appreciation for all of the changes I have made in 2014, and how those changes have changed me! I looked forward to peeling a fresh banana and grabbing a Greek yogurt out of the fridge this morning, then jumping on SP to log in, track my meal, and read something positive! So, it's a new day and I'm back on track, back to tracking, back to clean eating, and back in the saddle....and it feels really, really GOOD!!!
| current weight: 174.0