I'm so sorry you had an awful moment but the good news (yes, there is some) is you have a choice here: you can be paralyzed into inaction (or worse, comfort binging) OR use this as your "Ah-Ha Moment."
The panic you describe sounds JUST like the panic I felt when I had my ah-ha moment, and like so many of us have had.
Though horrible and uncomfortable (and yes, I was totally asking myself the same question as you - how the heck did I let myself get this way??!!), if I hadn't have had that moment, I wouldn't be where I am now. So for that, I'm eternally grateful.
Everyone has their own unique moment where something clicks & they're off & running. Maybe this one is yours!
When you say you haven't done horribly wrong at eating, that could run the whole gamut. At your starting weight, I would *think* the weight would come off at least 1-2 lbs a week if you're eating healthfully, even at the high end or slightly over your Spark calorie range. However, I've read on these boards countless times that it's not unusual to go several weeks and not see any progress via the scale's #'s; then it all seems to come together and the weight starts to come off. So I know it's hard, but please don't give up.
How's your fruit & veggie consumption going? We're all different, but for me, once I started eating 7-9 servings (concentrating on the veggies, then adding additional fruits if I wanted), the weight really started to fall off. I mean, it was night & day difference-wise than when I hardly ate those things & instead just focused on a total calorie #. It was such a huge difference that I now love them because I see what they can do.
The takeaway here is that losing weight is more about what you eat than how much you exercise. To that end, the day you did weigh yourself, was it after a particularly sodium laced meal? Maybe there was some water retention going on at the exact time you chose to weigh.
Hang in there; be patient and really look what you're eating. If you want to post what you're eating here, I bet some of the smart Sparkers would be willing to offer their (more qualified than mine) opinion.
Edited by: LOVEXAVIE at: 10/6/2013 (15:26)