I see you are just starting out. Being the "fat one" is a terrible label to give yourself. Don't do that. Get a rubber band. Every time you catch yourself thinking, "I'm fat" or "I'm________________ (fill in the blank with any self esteem busting negative comment) snap the rubber band. So many of us have been thinking automatically negative thoughts about ourselves, we don't even realize we are doing it.
If you have 25 pounds to lose according to the BMI--that's not too bad at all! I have 40 left, so you are ahead of me! According to research, it takes 21 days to break a habit and establish a new one. It takes determination, sure. but it sounds like you have friends and family who could be supporting you if you ask. See what they did. Why are you bored? Can you think of other things to do when you are bored, like take a walk? Or take up crochet or needlework? Chewing sugar-free gum can also help, because it gives your mouth something to do.
Can you get the sweets out of the house? The kids, if you have them, really don't need them either. I always found sugar-free popsicles to be a great treat. Fruit is wonderful, as well as veggies, cut up. Skip the dip, it adds fat.
Every day you do well, keep tabs. At the end of the week, reward yourself with some make-up, a book, or something else that isn't food. After about three weeks, you'll be rewarding yourself with new clothes, especially if you are exercising.
You have come to the right place. Get into some of the groups, participate in the discussions. make friends. Log your foods and your fitness activities, as it sound like you have the time. Make it into an adventure.
Let me know how you are doing Adonnica. I wish you only the best.
| current weight: 182.6