I am sorry that you experienced this with your friend. I would be inclined to think that altho' she may have said it was because of your weight, she probably felt more able to say that rather than another probable cause. In my work as a Caregiver, I came across many people who would not keep in contact with someone because they didn't know how to deal with that person's illness - what to say .... what to do. It can confuse them, and hurt them as well, and as you well know, we all deal with things in different ways - some healthy and some unhealthy.
If you drop a healthy lifestyle, you will only set yourself up for more angst, including anger at yourself for slipping back. This is one aspect of your life that you actually CAN control, and the more you do it, the easier it becomes. Heard of the expression "Practice makes perfect" ???....... OR "If at first you don't succeed, try, try, and try again" ????
I can assure you that it DOES get easier - you just have to practice :-)
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