" So even though my best friend says she doesn't see it, even though my mom commented on how big I still am"
OH MY GOSH I actually got a little bit mad reading this!
Sorry, your starting weight and mine is almost identical, and our current weight is also somewhat close (I'm about 10# heavier than you right now)... I'm sure our appearance has changed similarly, and I have to say, there is NO WAY that your loss can't be seen! And how DARE anyone, including good old mom, critique you that way!
Oh, mothers! Mine, well, she seems to notice the slightest *gain* - she's careful not to comment too much, but oh, I know she notices it packing on! Which led me to believe she is very aware and attuned to my size and changes in it. So imagine my surprise when, after not seeing her for 3 months and having dropped about 25#, she... didn't comment. I thought she was perhaps being polite (as she typically is) and had noticed but was just not going to draw attention to it. So finally I made a little remark, like, "welllllll can you tell I have lost a little!" - I was kind of hoping (and, tbh, expecting), this ice-breaker to be followed with "oh, YES, it's SO OBVIOUS! you have changed a lot in 3 months!" but... that did not happen. It was more like "oh, so, you are trying to lose weight now? good for you!" - the way she said it, indicated to me that she actually had not noticed the difference.
Sigh!!!!!!!!!! That was actually a little bit of a blow to my fragile ego! I wanted gushing!!!!!
Anyways - if you like, go take a look at my "start" and "current" pictures (on my sparkpage and also in a recent blog), I bet that as a 3rd-party looking in on *me* - you will see the difference in *me* - just as I'm sure that any of us would look at pictures of *you*, and see the difference in *you.*
Now for the OP, sorry I got sidelined there a lil bit, but, I hope you take from this, that yes it DOES take a while to notice changes in yourself and for others to notice the changes you make, and yes, you are not alone, we ALL experience these moments of frustration and futility... getting past them without throwing it all away, is the biggest challenge. Keep telling yourself, this time, you will try something new and JUST KEEP GOING where in the past you would have used it as an excuse to stop. Just keep going!!!!!!!
Goal 1 - break 200 (46 pounds lost)**DONE**
Goal 2 - leave obesity behind (BMI 29.9, at 185#) **DONE**
Goal 3 - BMI = Normal (154# or less)
| current weight: 169.0