...first of all, thanks to all of you!!..
I know that I am a really bipolar person, and therefore over reactions like this happen to me pretty often. I have to say that I already got way better in accepting my "bad days", but sometimes I still completely freak out about little things.
@ARCHIMEDESII: Your post really makes me wondering IF I have a serious problem... I know that I'm in a "dangerous" position, because of my ED-past. However, I feel like my actual problem is not the way I eat, but the way I often get a bit depressed, and the eating connected with my depressed-phases. I'm definitely thinking about getting professional help... Thank you so much for questioning the way I act...
@LILLIPUTIANNA: I feel like you exactly understand my problem. As a young adult/college student my body means a lot to me.I also think that A LOT, maybe even almost EVERY "teenager/young adult" doesn't think being healthy is "skinny enough"... YES, I want to be healthy, and that's one of the reason I use SP and don't just stop eating. But I also want to feel comfortable with how I look, and that's where my struggles begin.
Another reason why I'm so critical about my weight right now is, because I'm going to go back home in 3 1/2 months. ALL of my friends, family and relatives expect that I gained weight, and even make jokes about it (before I left my friends were like: "haha we will pick you up at the airport and ROLL you out of the plane) Of course, my friends are just joking, but somehow I just don't want to be any "bigger" than I was before I left... Even if I didn't gain too much weight (because I already lost almost 10 again), I just want to prove them wrong....
an exchange year isn't a year of your life - it's a life in a year
| Pounds lost: 16.0