Yikes! Scared out of your mind is the only reasonable reaction that I can think of. I've only done one round - I'm in awe that you've won 5 rounds.
That's great that your doc is getting you in for the scan right away - as you know, the waiting and not knowing is the worst part, so it's great that you'll know sooner rather than later.
You already know that logic says that enlarged lymph nodes after an infection are absolutely normal and incredibly common. You already know that any intelligent doc is going to take a look at your history and take the extra step to double check anything that could be questionable, no matter how slight the risk. So - you already know that the odds are really, really good that this isn't going to turn out to be anything scary.
What you also already know is that once you get past the scary unknown and get to "knowing", then whatever it is will be something that you can deal with. Ride the emotions tonight and deal with them in whatever way you need to. Just remember that it's only for a short time and you'll come out the other side knowing what's actually happening, and strong and able to deal with it.
Strong thoughts to you, and best wishes for quick answers.
Afraid of a colonoscopy? Believe me - they are much less frightening than surgery and chemotherapy.
Colonoscopies allow polyps to be removed before they can become cancer, or let cancers be found before they are too widespread. If you are 50 or older, or have any symptoms, please don't let fear stop you from covering your butt.
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