Ok, so you binged. Now, you just have to put it behind you- and believe me, I know how hard that is. It's not logical or rational, but after eating well for a while and then taking a binge or a cheat day, you physically FEEL fatter; you can feel it on your body and you can see it in the mirror. When it reality, we all know that's ridiculous.
Me, I've been struggling with the balance of "who I am"-- which is a person who is overweight because of poor eating habits; and who I want to be-- which is a healthy person with a healthy relationship with food who doesn't have any problems eating healthy because that's just the lifestyle I have. It's tough because I think we all expect it to just happen overnight because that's what we want so that's how we'll be, and then when we slip we beat ourselves up like this. Me, I had an entire cheat day yesterday, starting with French toast for breakfast at cracker barrel, and ending with freakin' carnitas and nachos for dinner. So yea, I felt like a big screw up this morning, a big fat screw up. But I am trying to keep in mind that this is all a process. That I'm not on the Biggest Loser, I'm not at risk of being voted off for my screw up yesterday. I just have to deal with the fact that I screwed up and try to figure out why so that I either don't screw up next Sunday, or at least screw up less! Because I love food.. I love going out to eat and trying new foods or just eating the same old tried and true, and some of my favorite foods are like the opposite of healthy. Because of that I used to actually think that I'm just destined to be a fatty- but why?1 Because I like certain foods? No, I don't have to eat those foods all the time, I can have them in moderation every now and then.
Maybe your issues are similar to mine in that we both need to find a balance. Maybe if you allowed yourself a handful of chocolate chips a couple nights a week, you wouldn't immediately go for them when you're in need of comfort. And me, maybe if I gave myself a teeny tiny little "cheat" a few days a week I wouldn't feel the need to have an all out binge day on the weekend.
Anyways, I hope you stop beating yourself up. You've admitted you messed up, now admit that you may mess up again, but mostly just get back up and back on it. You had a little lapse- you didn't totally fail, you're still in this.
Sweatin' for the dress!
| current weight: 174.0