Thanks, everyone. I definitely understand the need to feel comfortable at work in order to continue successfully in my career, even though getting dressed every morning seems like a nightmare! This is especially true on the days I have to go to court--- I didn't invest in many larger sized suits, so I'm extremely uncomfortable with the one suit I wear. I must look unprofessional with such tight clothing. Just starting out, I don't have the money to buy all new suits, especially with serious intentions to lose the weight asap.
I'll put more effort into not being as embarrassed on weekends when I socialize. I'll try to "fake it until I make it." I know my friends like me no matter what I weigh and my husband loves me no matter what, so it really is just a matter of getting out of my own head.
Love, emulating the traits of those whom I admire is a fantastic idea! It's that little self-doubting voice in my head that keeps drowning out the voice of co-workers, friends, and family--- it needs to go away. The weight gain is turning me into a bad listener! You're totally right! I have to focus less on myself (how selfish) and emotionally invest in others.
Also, I am getting on what I need to do. I wanted to ease into exercise because I didn't want to overwhelm myself, but I can't wait forever! I ordered TapOutXT! I love boxing (I was on my school's boxing team for a while) and I need to enjoy working out. It'll kick my butt, but at least I'll have (quasi) fun doing it!
I'm trying to harness this negativity into something positive- the determination to get well!!! For being such a type-A, self-made, pull myself up from my bootstraps kinda gal, I owe it to myself to propel into action and succeed despite the enormous weight gain!!!
"The unexamined life is not worth living." -Socrates
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