Hi EVILCLAMS - I can understand your pain. Given that you have resorted to making yourself throw up, and also noticing your username, I strongly suspect that there is some mental health issues going on. I strongly suggest if you aren't already under the care of a Dr and Therapist for this, that you make an appointment with your Dr, explain what is going on and ask for a referral to a Therapist who specializes in Eating Disorders. There is often hidden baggage behind this and they are best to help you identify and deal with the problems - they are able to give you the tools to prevent/reduce it happening.
As far as calories - eating 2,000 calories isn't really excessive occasionally. 3,500 calories equate to ONE POUND. Just going over occasionally certainly doesn't make that much difference. I have gone over a number of times but guess what??? I have still succeeded in reaching my goal after having been overweight for about 30 years - while eating a healthy diet and in a normally healthy calorie range. This is a healthy lifestyle - not a diet. It is about balance - sometimes we do really well and sometimes not quite so good, but generally it balances out so long as we apply the MOST of the time we eat well and within our calorie range.
When you fall again (and we all do at times) don't go beating yourself up. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start again. THAT is how we succeed. Deprivation and starvation doesn't get us anywhere except falling off the wagon and/or sick!!
Take care - you are worth it!
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