CaptA, glad you got it figured out. You are worth the effort it takes to become healthy. Keep up the good work. Make lots of friends, the more you meet, the more you have to choose from. Get to know them, make them smile and laugh. See who is there for you and who you want to be there for them. Then choose carefully. Good luck.
Pounds lost: 23.0
Fitness Minutes: (154,382)
20,427 1/19/14 5:17 P
I think I figured out my problem; it was just me feeling insecure. I really liked this girl for a while and when she denied me, I felt that if I lost more weight she would start to like me. It was foolish thinking but that's what was in my head. As the number dropped and still no approval from her, I felt inadequate. I then thought "Well if I get to my healthy weight what else can I do? I won't be able to get any thinner and she still won't like me."
That was stupid thinking and I'm glad I was able to realize what I was doing to myself emotionally. I got some help from close friends who helped me see this and for once, I could look in the mirror and visually see myself as I really am, and not this big fat image like I was nearly 70 pounds ago.
I'm feeling better today about myself and life. So what it didn't work out, I will find someone else to share my happiness with. I'm so glad I got out of that situation and can feel happy about myself again. It was a very unhealthy way of thinking, but when she said no, it hurt me deep and made me feel so insecure.
I feel scared too when I wonder about reaching my goal weight and how my life will be different. Because, I think to myself, what if nothing has really changed? But then I remind myself that my ultimate goal is not a number on the scale, but the values for blood pressure, cholesterol, blood sugar, BMI, in other words, being healthy. Being healthy isn't going to get me more friends, or better friends. Being healthy won't make me wealthy, or make me suddenly over 5 feet tall and as beautiful as a high fashion model. But being healthy will give me a chance to live a longer life with more quality to my life. So my life WILL change for the better.
Sometimes I get scared about reaching my goal weight and then trying to maintain the healthy weight. What if I can't do it? What if the weight just starts creeping back on? Will I be able to start all over again? or will I just give up altogether? And then I remind myself that this is not a diet, this is a lifestyle change. And that once I move into maintenance mode it really won't be much different than trying to lose weight. I will still need to exercise and eat healthy. So really, what is to be afraid of there? And if we think of the maintenance weight as a five pound range, then we can keep out of trouble as soon as the scales start going up or down too much. So maybe you need to explore a bit more what it is the is feeling so scary. Analyze it, rationalize it and then maybe it really won't seem so bad as you first thought.
Pounds lost: 23.0
Fitness Minutes: (154,382)
20,427 1/18/14 12:50 P
Congratulation CAPTATHLETICA on your loss success and resolve to do the right thing. Are you fearing becoming more visible and more appropriately aka atheletic? We all have our emotional senses and our logical mind and it takes some time to get them into sync. Long ago when I was working on this balance, I would imagine a future situation where I knew my emotional reaction would not serve my wellness and resolved to follow the more mindful reaction I had already worked out. Eventually it was easy to trust my now balanced reaction. Stay strong and know you will have rewards in all areas of your life if you continue to see food as fuel and utilize it in mindful ways.
"Learn from nature: See how everything gets accomplished and how the miracle of life unfolds without dissatisfaction or unhappiness." Eckhart Tolle
565 Maintenance Weeks
Fitness Minutes: (4,449)
1/18/14 11:17 A
I'm eating healthy, exercising regularly, but feeling scared at times with my weight loss. I have not tried talking to friends or family because they wouldn't understand. I feel that they would see that I'm losing lots of weight so why should I feel scared? I should feel happy. I do feel happy but at the same time I feel vulnerable I guess. I used to over eat for comfort, usually all day long. It eased my stress and depression. Now that I've lost a load of weight and am continuing to lose weight I do not over eat for stress relief, I just eat for nutrition. I'm wondering if maybe that is why I feel scared subconsciously. Sometimes I think to myself that I should overeat for a while so I don't lose anymore weight but I don't and I continue eating healthy and exercising because I know that is what is best.
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