I am the same way. I am a yo yo dieter. The longest diet I followed (vegan) I had to quit b/c of protein deficiency. I was on that for 6 months and lost a total of 10 lbs. That's it. I am now 160ish...Haven't weighed in awhile.
My husband, son and I live with my in laws. They are the most horrible junk food eaters. My mil's idea of a healthy snack is potato chips. My weakness is potato chips, guess who has 3 bags (2 unopened) in her cabinet right now? Me, that's who. A couple days ago I hit rock bottom. I am an emotional eater, though undiagnosed by professionals I am fairly certain I have a food addiction. I am the "poster child" for it. I binged pretty bad the other day and as I sat there hiding from everyone binging on food nearly crying bc i hate myself and feeling the way that I felt I hit rock bottom. You know that phantom rock bottom that "they" talk about?
Well, its real. And I crashed right into it 2 nights ago as I stood hiding at the kitchen counter eating cake icing out of the canister with the spoon, pickles, nab crackers, potato chips, anything. Everything.
So yesterday a.m. i sat there in disgust saying never. Freaking. Again am I going to feel that way about myself. Never. I got on this website and found some quotes and motivational things and decided What the hell do I have to lose? Do I want to wish that I had lost the weight and got skinny? Healthy? Happy? Comfortable in my own skin?
Do I DO something about it? I chose to do something about it. I laced my sneakers up, grabbed my keys, drove to the nearest nice walking trail and started walking. You know what? I did it again today and will do it the next day and the next day. Rain or shine. I am walking. Eventually I will jog, and then next run. But my goal right now is to stop hating myself, stop binging, and the only way I know how to do that is to DO something about it.
My rock bottom was my wake up call. The humiliation and self disgust is not what I want for the rest of my life. Tomorrow never comes, so I decided that I better buck up and get a move on. My Motto is: If I wanna lose my ass, I better MOVE my ass!
I hope this helps and if you ever wanna chat send me a private message/email
If I'm gonna LOSE my A$$ I better MOVE my A$$!
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