I would hazard a guess and say that 99.9% of us have slipped and fallen off track. Myself included. Part of it was making the mistake of looking for my inspiration and motivation from outside sources and NOT from me. When I realized that, I also realized that first off, I couldn't control therefore I couldn't depend on external factors to get me where I wanted to be. Secondly, I wasn't fully committing to myself if what I did was dependent on what my friend did.. And last but not least, that garbage thinking had to change. Did I have to fall off the wagon just because my friend did and I didn't want to be all lonely and alone in my efforts? Uhm.... should have been an easy no brainer kind of answer but I had the wrong one. Falling off the wagon gave me a chance to re-evaluate my motivation and I found it lacking in all the right ways.
When I recommitted to losing several weeks ago, I made the choice to not give up on myself at the same time. It wasn't about doing this for others or having others show me the way. I had to do this for myself and so I had to be my own tour guide on my journey. When I made that decision, I discovered so much stress and worry was lifted off. No longer did I have to wonder if my friend was doing what we told each other we would do. Being selfish that way was liberating. I gave myself permission to succeed on my own. And I redirected the energy that had been tied up in external worries towards positive changes for me.
I'm not saying I don't have support and encouragement from my loved ones. I do. But I know I am the one who has to do this for me and so, that is what I do. When I decided to go it alone on this journey (without a face to face diet buddy to compare recipes, food plans or work outs with or someone to hold my hand through the whole getting healthy process) I empowered myself. Was it scary or intimidating? Not really, It was just different. I'd still be doing things I knew I had to do. Deciding I had what it took inside me freed me from being dependent on someone else's sense of discipline.
Best part is, I get to take all the credit for my own hard work. There's no one saying, "If I didn't do this you wouldn't have done it". All the sweet credit for success is mine Mine MINE! I'm selfish enough to love that!
Edited by: CANDIK48 at: 8/7/2013 (12:43)
We get back our mete as we measure....
Losers win by never quitting!!
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