I'm sorry you're having difficulties. Getting healthy is hard, and it's especially hard when people are tearing you down for trying. Unfortunately, there are always going to be people saying or doing things to upset us. It kind of sounds like you're using the fact that other people make fun of you or bother you as an excuse to stay where you are. It's not about other people. You're getting healthy for YOU. No one else will ever care if you, or me, or anyone else on this site loses weight or not. How many times have you heard "You're fine just the way you are. You don't need to change a thing" from family or close friends who genuinely care about you? To heck with those who are bothering you.
Yesterday I went for a jog out in public for the first time in a very long time (I had access to the school gym, but since I'm on summer vacation, I can't use it) and I had people honking at me, yelling things at me, and this one guy drove past me I kid you not, THREE times! This of course wasn't the first time something like this had happened. What I usually do is get a good pair of headphones and some motivational music. Getting in "the zone" helps me tune out all of the other outside distractions and negativity that I might encounter. I also sometimes wear sunglasses just so I don't seem rude for not making eye contact.
You're definitely not pathetic. I hope you find something that works for you.
Don't ever let anyone else tell you who you can be
| current weight: 283.0